#i don't want to hear about fire.

[perceives]

massive tag dump

#tags. #sometimes mom and i think the same thoughts，have the same dreams. #pain as a shadow or companion: i wonder if that's possible. #i don't miss laura at all. #at least there are no wars after death. #i can't tell you how valuable a daydream is. #such a willingness to forgive‚ such a big heart. #i dream of flying sometimes. #it's just me now. #if this is a test‚ i will find a way to pass it. #unless it's printed‚ it didn't really happen to me. #page ripped out (as found). #i don't want to hear about fire. #my life is whatever the other person in the room wants it to be. #i wonder if life is still something i can make up. #i never meant to see the small hills and the fire. #verse info. #prompts. #write it in your diary (answers). #study. #visage. #boost. #and the angels wouldn't help you because they've all gone away. #i don't know when i can come back. maybe never. #how can i be together if i'm not together? #nowhere，fast. and you're not coming. #for now i am half-numb，half-raw.

[musicalchaos07]

Anyways, so incredibly unrelated to anything but I genuinely think if we had just one scene in s3 where Jonathan said something along the lines of "I can't afford to lose this job" before the fight it would've done so much in terms of the audience understanding him better.

#we do not talk about the class dynamics of the Byers family #i hate to say it but media literacy is dead #and being shown that Melvalds has no customers and him saying he didn't want to get fired isn't enough #they needed to tell the audience WHY before him and Nancy get into that fight #bc ppl love taking Nancy's side bc she was right about the rats #but that's not Jonathan's point! #and i get it i love that boy more than anything but he does tend to take it too far #but there isn't a right or wrong #anyways no one wants to hear about poverty #and the burdens Jonathan faces because of it #and not understanding that is why people don't understand Jonathan #i could fix it (st 3) #jonathan byers #stranger things

[princessizumi]

god i wish that bryke would just confirm who izumi's mom is so i don't have to keep seeing the same three arguments everytime i search for her name on every single platform

#izumi #zuko #atla #lok #fire lord zuko #i'm over it! #i dont really care who the mom is #i don't want to hear about it anymore #i blame bryke for not even making izumi a character in lok #so there's really not much else to talk about #so fuck ya'll

[yashley]

the way matt creates these emotionally** flat??? characters who have family attachments to the main pcs and yet there's just something.... off about the way they display intimacy that it equally angers me, makes my skin crawl, and makes me just want to write extensively on what a master storyteller matt is. the way he presents just in this campaign alone, parental figures that on paper can easily be defended and rallied behind somehow especially if their choices played out more negatively than they intended*, and yet actually experiencing people who you, individually, care so much about in your life and who, you would just naturally believe, would also care so much about you, but there's a blip on the monitor and a disconnect that at first is so infinitesimal. until it's not. until you get bruised deeper and they look at you the same. and it's like there's no true empathetic connection. from your "loved one". it's not malice, it's not heartless or calloused, it's just.... it's surface-level and it's crossed t's and dotted i's and you know that they do not mean it to hurt you. but they also don't really mean it when they tell you they love you. and it aches so incredibly well done that matt will have these figures look into the eyes of their own and say the words and have a softness in their face, and yet have no genuine fierceness to the love they claim for someone who has so much love for them. and it's not a criticism, it's just so well done because it's such a nuanced relationship in the world and it sucks but matt always delivers it so perfectly

#cr lb #matt saying well this npc wasn't GREAT like it's Not about tearing into a person it's about Seeing that people are just different #the way birdie hears all of these dangers coming for fearne and all she says is I'm sure it'll be fine anyway and there's no Fire? #if my little sister told me any of it I would be rallying torches and sharpening knives and yet #if you told my older sister about either of us she would nod she would respond and that would be it #and it's not criticism it's just. the reality that some people will burn for you and most won't and I feel it so much in matt's depictions #and the fact that it'd be so much easier to have every associated npc fill a normal slot it's just #when you expect your mom to be worried about you and she’s just not and you want her to be and she's just not #you want your sister to care about you and she just doesn't #and it's like these fractal disappointments that of course don't matter #reaching for the hand of someone who once cradled you in their arms and they're not even reaching back

[awkward-teabag]

I have to wonder how many people celebrating AI translation also complain about "broken English" and how obvious it is something was Google translated from another language without a fluent English speaker involved to properly clean up the translation/grammar.

Because I bet it's a lot.

I know why execs are all for it—AI is the new buzzword and it lets them cut jobs thus "save" money and not have to worry about pesky labour laws when one employs humans—but everyone else?

There was some outcry when Crunchyroll fired many of their translators in favour of AI translation (with some people to "clean up the AI's work") but I can't help but think that was in part because it was Japanese-to-English and personally affected them. Same when Duolingo fired many of their translators in favour of LLM translation. Meanwhile companies are firing staff when it's English to another language and there's this idea that that's fine or not as big a deal because English is "easy" to translate and/or because people don't think of how it will impact people in non-English countries.

Also it doesn't affect native English speakers so it doesn't get much headway in the news cycle or online anyway because so much of the dominant media is from English-speaking countries and English-speakers dominate social media.

But different languages have different grammar structures that LLMs don't do, and I grew up on "jokes" about people speaking in "broken English" and mocking people who use the wrong word when it was clearly a literal translation but the meaning was obvious long before LLMs were a thing, too. In fact, the specific way a character spoke broken English has been a way to denote their native tongue for decades, usually in a racist way.

Then Google translate came out and "Google-translated English" became an insult for people and criticism of companies because it was clearly wonky to native speakers. Even now, LLMs—which are heavily trained on English compared to other languages—don't have a natural output so native English speakers can clock LLM-generated text if it's longer than a sentence or two.

But, for whatever reason, it's not seen as a problem when it goes the other way because fuck non-English readers or people who want to read in their native tongue I guess.

#and it's not like no people were doing translations so wonky translations were better than nothing #it's actual translators being fired for a subpar replacement #and anyone who keeps their job suddenly being responsible for cleaning up llm output rather than what they trained in #(which can take just as much time or longer than doing the translation by hand from scratch) #(if you want it done right anyway) #hell to this day i hear people complain about written translations of indigenous words and how they 'aren't english enough' #even though they're using the ipa and use a system white english people came up with in the first place #and you can easily look up the proper pronunciation and hear it spoken #but there's such a double-standard where it's expected that other languages cater to english/english speakers #but that grace and accommodation doesn't go the other way #and it's the failing of non-english speakers when an english translation is broken #you see it whenever monolingual english speakers travel to other countries and utterly refuse to learn the language #but if someone doesn't speak in unaccented (to them) english fluently in their home country the person 'isn't trying hard enough' #this is just the new version of that where non-english speakers are supposed to do more work and put up with subpar translations #even as a native english speaker/writer i get a (much) lesser version of this because i write with canadian spelling #and some people get pissed if their internet experience is disrupted by 'ou' instead of 'o' or '-re' instead of '-er' #because dialects and regional phrasing/spelling is a thing #human translators can (or should) be able to account for it but llms are not smart enough to do so #and that's not even getting into slang and how llms don't account for it #or how llms can put slurs into translations because it doesn't do nuance or context and doesn't know the language #if you ever complained about buying something from another country that came with machine-translated instructions #you should be pissed at companies cutting english-to-[language] staff in favour of glorified google translate #because the companies are effectively saying they're fine with non-native speakers getting a wonky/broken version

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st

[galladrabbles]

Hello everyone. I have been loving the musical prompts. The lore behind this weeks prompt is that June Carter wrote this song touring with Johnny Cash . It was her falling in love with this married wild man . Their then life together was up and down and at times in chaos but their love true.. Our retro prompt is the song lyrics: Ring of Fire

Thank you, Rachel, for this 🔥 prompt! Pretty sure the earworm will stay with many of us this week!

You heard it here first dear Galladrabbles Crew - time to Google or watch videos on yt or to rewatching Walk the Line!

Your prompt this week is:

Ring of Fire

Enjoy! Happy Drabbling Everyone!

#also did you know they wanted to use the song for a haemorrhoid commercial and the cash family forbid it?! #sorry for the info dump but I always have to think about that when I hear the song #sorry!!! #please go the romantic route and don't forget to tag your infidelty content warning #if you go this way #no104 #ring of fire by johnny cash #gallavich #shameless #galladrabbles

[lovecolibri]

Anyway,

#911 lone star #repeat after me #owen is not the main character because this is an ensemble show #i mean as a general rule you really should stay out of people's inboxes to bitch at them about something you know they don't agree with #but also people are allowed to call out the show for trying to get clout for diversity and then making it the owen strand show #and not even the 'owen strand is sooo good at being fire captain' show which would at least get us firecrew scenes! #it's now the 'owen does anything BUT fire captain because that's basically like sitting on the bench' show #which is a shame because there are a billion police/fbi procedurals i could watch if i wanted to #but i don't i want the found family hopeful wholesome 911-verse #and when owen IS being captain or being dad to TK or one of the team or a friend for the other captains his scenes are so good!! #i love those scenes and they give us more content for the other ensemble characters #and THAT is a lot of the complaint about the screetime is that it's majorly going to one character doing outside stuff #so not only is it not centered on the other characters but they don't even hardly get to be involved! #ANWAY #don't mind me just tired of hearing people say no one can be mad because owen is the main character #if this was a show with 2 mains and a handful of supporting characters or the show was named after owen in some way i'd get it #but literally he isn't the main character and that is why people are upset

[obstinatecondolement]

Wish my parents would take the "not swearing at me and shouting about how they own the house I live in" challenge every time I push back mildly against them treating me like a literal child challenge.

#they're on the 'you can't lock your door' thing again #and once again using fire safety as a fig leaf for being mad about not being able to get into my room without me unlocking it #and I didn't even say no is the thing #I said that I didn't feel I had any other way of enforcing privacy as a boundary #and that I didn't think it was reasonable that I should be Disallowed from locking myself into a room on fire safety grounds #when they both do that all the time #so why is there one rule for them and one for me? #the answer you will be pleased to hear is #'do whatever you want then you selfish fucking bitch' #and 'I pay the rent!' #there is not rent #they own this house outright #and a second house which my sister lives in rent free #they don't give a shit about 'what if there is a fire?' #the problem is #'how dare you presume that you can lock part of my house away from me #and how dare you presume that you are a person with rights and not an extension of me I should be able to control at will?' #if fire safety is such a fucking risk then why can you lock yourself in a room to get away from 'the madness' but I'm not allowed? #also fwiw I never raised my voice or said anything harsher than 'I feel that I have no other way of having my privacy respected' #and 'I don't think that makes sense as a reason given that you lock yourself in rooms all the time and I don't see how that is different' #but anything other than unflinching obedience is verbal abuse time #like always #love that for me

[starlene]

Since I'm complaining about Finnish musical theatre today, here's two things that piss me off to no end:

1) The professional, publicly funded theatre that's using prerecorded tracks instead of a live orchestra in their musical.

I can kinda sorta deal with that if you're

an outdoor theatre where having a live band is logistically difficult or outright impossible

an amateur theatre

a touring French arena musical

but a professional Finnish indoor production... get outta here and take your canned music with you.

I'm continuing my one-person boycott until the end of the run and, more than anything, I wish that no other theatre follows this example in the future. If you can't afford a band you can't afford to stage a musical in a professional capacity at all, it's as simple as that.

2) Everything that's going on in the current Finnish production of Så som i himmelen.

I could write an essay about why removing the prologue turns it into a completely different show, one that I'm a lot less interested in than the original. Maybe I will, one day, unless I figure a way to evict this production from my head for good before that.

#also to be clear: I don't think it's great how French arena musicals use prerecorded tracks #actually I think the NDdP tracks for example kinda suck #but it is what it is so there's no use being mad about it #a professional Finnish theatre that's used a live band before switching to canned music on the other hand... yeah. #it just feels so... completely empty and hollow #like what's the point. why are you even doing this #if I want to hear recordings I'll just stay home and listen to some CDs #maybe they'll figure out a way to prerecord the actors next #and then we'll just sit in the theatre watching some projected videos of them playing on top of midi instrumentals #sigh. #oh well! at least there's a live band in the trash fire Himmelen #Finnish musical theatre

[leatherbookmark]

pretend to be shocked if you wish but i don’t even see mxy’s incestuous harassment of jgy as something like... Bad™, twisted or something that proves how Wrong In The Head he was. it’s just sad. chances are jgy was his first and last love, because -- how incredibly easy it would have been. i don’t think mxy was, hmm, mentally equipped to process “half-brother! off-limits!” -- he’s never seen this man before in his life, that’s a stranger! but what a stranger. he’s kind, respectful, capable and brilliant, hardworking despite the way he’s treated in jinlintai -- and mxy probably isn’t well-liked either, so even if jgy wasn’t also handsome, he would’ve gravitated towards this cool older dude who Understands. and hormones do the rest! and it didn’t even have to be immediate, or particularly sexual in nature, because i assume teens often don’t realize their crush is Obviously Showing. i’m just thinking about mxy who likes jgy so, so much and wants to be around him all the time, asks him about things, looks at him, catches a whiff of the incense on jgy’s robes as he walks past, blushes at the way jgy looks at a particular angle... just this sweet, innocent young love that’s so similar to the way jgy’s wife loved him before she was his wife So Fucking Doomed and mxy can’t even process it because he’s not even aware. :(

#of course i am myself so: forbidden passions sexy. desperate proper Harassment sexy. jgy taking a look at how his little brother #is looking at him with fire in his eyes and realizing how utterly fucked his life is? sexy #but: mxy just being head over heels in love with jgy :((((((( #but also re: the harassment #an interesting thing in jpn is that the text uses つきまとう which i'd translate as 'pester' and it's the same verb that jgs used #to bitch about how meng shi would totally pester him if he showed more interest in her and her child #that's one. and two: the person who brings that up to the reader's awareness is no one else but wwx. /he/ is the first source (for us) #of this 'rumor'. the fact that the jin disciples seem aware of it is something else but if mxy was complaining about the rumors #the text would phrase it differently. this is wwx interpreting the (difficult to read and understand but still) notes mxy left. notes that #we don't get to see. isn't this brilliant. we don't know what mxy wrote just what wwx understood from it #something something the loss of mxy's voice in the story starts with his sacrifice -- he mucked up the ritual and so wwx didn't even hear #his 'wish' he wanted wwx to fulfill -- but then it continues with the narration of wwx himself who Interprets his notes. eating my pen rn #anyway. yes #shrimp thoughts #liveshrimping #of sorts

[gregoftom]

good fucking food

#tomgreg #OH GOD OH FUCK #greg has agreed to do whatever tom has asked every time and this is the first time he's been like #no actually i'm gonna go to the bros myself despite the fact that tom told him not to #and tom's already taken the hit of nate being invited to the party which is still a sore spot #bc it was supposed to be his and sh*v's party just like it was supposed to be his and sh*vs wedding yet nate is there. again. #so he's like. ok greg let's strategise [i find strategy sexy] make me feel secure with you #and when greg does in fact not do that... oh man. tom's face he's noooot happy about it!!! #his voice goes all high pitched and he does an expression actually similar to sh*v lol #like FINE WHATEVER I DONT CARE DO WHAT YOU WANT [narrator voice: he did in fact care a lot] #but then he touches greg's back!!!!! aaargahrga! tom you are so transparent!!!! he's so very clearly attached to both sh*v and greg #like atp i don't care. he feels similarly to greg as he does to sh*v i've seen enough evidence this season to prove that to me #as in. feelings. romantically. when they hurt him he still loves them and is gentle with them until he can't take it any more. #i don't know when we'll see what happens with greg maybe next episode GOD #if the firing thing does happen which i don't want!!!! god!!!!! maybe THEN we'll see it #maybe an argument somewhat like his and sh*v's tho obviously not to the scale but like. WHO HAS HAD YOUR BACK THIS WHOLE TIME #WHO HAS EVER LOOKED AFTER YOU IN THIS FUCKING FAMILY #god. i need to seeee that. don't just leave it hangin jesse i'm begging you bestie #but like he is soooo bpd it is actually insane. i shake his hand #also ''team kenro'' probably wasn't grea tfor him to hear adksjds #WDYM TEAM KENRO DONT YOU MEAN TEAM NERSPOR >:(((

[offshore-brinicle]

Waiting patiently for more S Corp lore and Dongbaek & Yi Sang childhood lore so I can actually finish fics. I need help.

#lcb Dongbaek #I have so many wips about them #ironically this one started over Yi Sang's Ardor Blossom log #but then boom Dongbaek POV #she's the fire girl #and I'm ravenous for more stuff from her POV like you don't know we didn't even get to hear her actual side of the story in the dungeon #beyond like. snippets and commentary from Yi Sang and 4-47 & 4-48 #I want her back I want more of her #but at the same time writting Yi Sang comes more naturally to me because I kin him to an extremely uncomfortable degree #gjjbbbhg #Azuri's creations #it's a WIP among many I have saved but. Dongbaek love eughhghbhhfhdhb #limbus company #project moon #I wasn't sure if to put the general tags since it's just a WIP but it stays in the blog I guess

[daz4i]

bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

#i truly and sincerely hope they all die in a fire i am not even slightly joking #they promote violence and encourage an even deeper split between the people. bc it helps them #and it's disgusting. they don't care who they hurt as long as they get more power #actually they DO care who they hurt. they WANT to hurt people!! that's how they get more right wing voters!!!!! #they openly and proudly announce they want palestinians dead and out of their homes and it's sickening #(the fact this is WHY people vote them is even more sickening. they fact they were allowed to get this far is awful) #in addition to that they ofc want the lgbt community dead and they actively hurt women's rights bc how can they not :^) #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #sorry for talking politics. i try to avoid it but everyone on social media is talking about it. i'm so tired i hope we all explode fr #actually i'm not done i really need to vent lol #it really feels like there's no hope. the fact it keeps happening. and it gets worse every election cycle #and it's all bc fucking netanyahu is trying to avoid going to jail :^) i hope he dies today right now actually #for years everyone on the left jokes abt moving to another country but now it's becoming literally real #many people already HAVE left the country!!!!! like how fucked up is that!!!!!! that's how bad things are here!!!!!! #there's been rallies and protests for months now. i think nearly half a year at this point bc i remember it started in the winter #but obviously it doesn't do jack shit. bc why would it. if none of the right wing politicians literally get murdered - #- there is no real threat to them and so they have no actual reason to care. i sincerely think someone should take one for the team - #- and kill one of them lol i truly think this is the only solution at this point. #not to mention many of them are literally just. gross people. you hear them talk and can tell they have no experience in politics #they're all violent and constantly yell and this is how they appeal to the other violent people here #which is also why i think violence is the only way they'll understand. but alas if the left becomes violent we will be hated even more #ignoring the fact they have been violent this whole time yeah? they literally try to RUN OVER PROTESTERS #do you see why i have no hope here. do you see why i hate this so much. how can one be optimistic about this. everything sucks

[dazzlerazz]

I'm kinda nervous to start a new engage playthrough because I'm going to want to get Madeline as soon as possible but starting the dlc so early puts me at a far far disadvantage, and I don't want to go a whole playthrough without her or the other winds, because I genuinely like them

#razz plays engage #engage seriously needed a ng+ #I hear a lot of 'I like no ng+ because it feels like old fire emblem' #but I feel like fire emblem has evolved past that point even if I never saw it myself #I don't hate the people who want old fire emblem at all that's how I think I'll feel about tes 6 vs tes 5 #just makes me angry and sad I have to do MORE work #and there's no reward for clearing the game at least once already #even HOPES had ng+ and it was amazing