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bondsmagii · 4 years

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I mean to ask this genuinely, no hostility, but can you explain how you correlate scp to being in a cult? I dont disagree, I just cant articulate the reasoning as to why I dont disagree, and would like to see where youre coming from with this. Also, could you tag it with cults or cult discussion or something similar, please? Thanks! Have a good day.

OK [cracks knuckles] I will try and keep this as short as possible, but you have to understand I’ve been observing the wiki in the wild literally since its inception, so there is a lot of stuff to consider. anyway let’s buckle up.

[EDIT: after finishing, this is obnoxiously long. sorry. I encourage people to read it though, because yikes.]

I base this theory on a set of guidelines set out for spotting if an organisation might be a cult. generally cults are religiously based; obviously this does not apply here. as far as I’m aware, nobody sees the SCP wiki as a religion (yet). because of this a couple of the points regarding spotting a cult are irrelevant (they concern things like separation from the Church which obviously doesn’t apply) but nearly all of the others (even some religious ones) can apply if we provide context. so without further ado:

Signs You’re In A Cult and How the SCP Wiki Literally Fits Into All of Them

let’s start with the most obvious:

opposing critical thinking

something that has long pissed me off about the SCP wiki has been its complete inability to think critically. staff will literally ban people for criticising them, and the parameters of “criticism” have only grown wider and wider over the years. anything that is the “party line” is sacred; nothing can be improved upon because it’s already perfect, and Staff Knows Best. any policy changes are law, and any dissenting voices are silenced – even among younger staff members (length of service wise, not age wise). I have seen staff put on probation or demoted for arguing against pointless or pedantic policy changes; I have seen people of all levels banned for arguing with staff. if this doesn’t happen right away, arguing with staff over their decisions will absolutely get a target on your back, and they will find a way to ban or demote you as soon as they can.

any criticism on the wiki is frowned upon unless it comes from the Major Staff Members – these are people at the top of the hierarchy who can do no wrong, and as you can imagine, they’ve done some shit. staff has always had a problem with elitism, bullying, and even abusive behaviour (blah blah blah #NotAllStaff, but the ratio is quite concerning) and any criticism of their behaviour or even pointing this fact out is dangerous if you want to remain on the wiki. hell, I know many people who are aware of this who don’t speak up because they’re genuinely scared of retaliation. a lot of staff are really nasty people, and because of this attitude they are beyond criticism.

isolating members and penalising them for leaving

the penalising them for leaving part isn’t strictly accurate, because as far as I know, nobody has ever been bullied or threatened into staying on the wiki. however, I do remember a while back (2011/2012-ish) when the Foundation RP community began to show up on Tumblr, and the wiki began to get a fanbase that wasn’t contained on the site itself. staff were not happy about this and to this day they still constantly try and get a monopoly on all off-site locations. they have an official Offsite Outreach Team (yes, that’s its real name) who “reach out” to communities on other platforms (YouTube, Reddit, Tumblr, etc) and set up an Official Presence there, and then they encourage everyone to use the Official Presence rather than the fan-made ones (which are often more established and better/more consistently run). there have been several off-site spats between staff and the fandom, because they arrive demanding the authority and respect they have on the wiki and get Big Mad when they don’t get it. just recently one (now ex) staff member, djkaktus, went absolutely primal on Reddit and banned a whole bunch of the community for daring to say that they didn’t like the new LGBT logo for pride month (many of these people were LGBT themselves and felt as though it was pandering/putting targets on their backs); several more years ago (2014, I believe?) I myself had a run in with the Outreach Team and it was one fucking hell of a headache that ended in a malicious smear campaign against me, so like. yeah.

as for isolating members, they do this via elitism. the above is an example of it (making everyone feel a sense of obligation or loyalty to the Official Presence), but a huge part of it has always been the elitist attitude prevalent on the wiki. the SCP wiki has high standards for writing (allegedly… I’ve seen some garbage on there tbh, same as any other website) and it uses this to bully and demean its users. criticism of writing is overly harsh but highly encouraged; anyone complaining that it was too cruel (which it often is) is ridiculed for being too sensitive. (staff have been working on this for years, but really nothing has changed; people have just gotten more between-the-lines about it.) this encourages a kind of desperation among new users to “rise up the ranks” and earn respect so they can be the ones dishing out the criticism instead; they will do so and then immediately act in accordance to their status, bullying others how they were bullied and sticking to their own “rank”. brief interruption: staff and bootlickers if you’re reading this and thinking of reblogging to defend yourself, the code word is yeet. if I do not see the word yeet in your reply I will know you have not read this thoroughly and tell me why I should then bother reading anything you have to say.staff themselves is incredibly removed and closed off from the rest of the community; they have a bunch of private chat rooms they hang out in, and inter-dating is common. they don’t tend to interact much outside the flock, and are the definition of cliquey. joining this rank is supposed to be an achievement, but really it’s probably the most dangerous place to be. I have seen so many staff members have literal, clinical mental breakdowns over the strain and treatment they suffer.

(there’s nowhere to neatly slot this in, so: I don’t know how many people have noticed this, but SCP fans, when you spot them on other platforms, are snooty. not casual fans, but those involved with the wiki? I can spot them from a mile away, because whenever the Foundation is mentioned, there they are, acting like they’re part of some cool club. some of these people are innocent (they’re just mimicking the behaviour of other members) but some of them really do seem to think that their site is somehow better than whatever site they’re on, and it’s really creepy to see.)

emphasising special doctrines outside of scripture

obviously this is religion-specific, but with context it can fit. if we take scripture to mean SCP lore, and special doctrines to mean differing headcanons, ideas, writing styles, etc… oh boy.

there’s something that’s often said on the wiki: there is no canon. buddy, there is. yes, you can write whatever you want technically, and you can disregard headcanons you don’t like and you can build on different things and theoretically people can just ignore your shit if they don’t like it, but that is not what happens. there is absolutely a canon, and deviating from it will get you downvoted into oblivion and even personally attacked. people will accuse you of the most ridiculous shit, like desecrating the wiki or betraying the universe or whatever. so where does the emphasising part of this come in?

why, it’s simple! if one of these special doctrines (headcanons or whatever) comes from staff or an Approved Member, it’s fine. go nuts. even if it’s something that anybody else would be absolutely slaughtered for, it’s fine if staff approves. there is no creative freedom on that wiki, and anyone attempting to carve a piece out for themselves will suffer for it. one of my close friends still gets hate for an SCP he wrote featuring heavy headcanons and building on existing lore about a well-known character, and some of this hate is because he didn’t set the fucking article out “how it should be”.

seeking inappropriate loyalty to their leaders

oh boy. staff are god on that website. they’ll deny it, but they know it’s true. many of them are arrogant and, in my opinion, some of them are pathologically narcissistic. they think they are hot shit, and they encourage people on the site to believe the same. a huge majority of users on the wiki are high school students, so 15-18 years old. the next huge group are college-aged, so 19-22 or so. several staff members are in their mid-20s up to 30s, maybe even coming 40s or early 40s now. when you’re in your mid-20s, it’s very easy to look cool to a 15-year-old. it’s very easy to look at a young userbase and convince them that you’re hot shit, and that’s what staff do. they act like it; most users respond to it, and if anyone dissents? see point one.

staff have always had double standards. from the very beginning of staff, they have gotten away with a lot more than the average user. staff have been allowed to bully, ridicule, harass, dismiss, shit upon, and target people with reckless abandon, usually only meeting punishment when other staff members feel too inconvenienced by them. a lot of the time when they’re punished, it’s a lot lighter than it would have been for an average user (a month ban rather than a permaban, for example). this is seen as almost a point of hilarity for a lot of people, who think it’s cool and just a right you get when you’re staff. you know best, you’ve seen some shit – who can blame you for slamdunking a 15-year-old’s first SCP?

the amount of respect and adoration these people demand is ridiculous, and anybody daring to criticise them ends up on a shitlist. staff show up in other areas (Tumblr or Reddit) and expect that same amount of respect, even among people outside of the wiki who might just be casual fans. they act a lot more important than they are, and demand that everyone treats them appropriately. I’ve seen staff members throw shitfits because they didn’t get enough upvotes for their articles, and many staff members’ quality of work declines when they make staff, simply because they know that they’ll get easy upvotes as soon as people realise it’s a staff member who wrote it. downvotes are enough to get you put on a shitlist.

publicly, their word is law. you are not allowed to debate with them in the forums if they put a “stop” on the topic; the same applies in the IRC chat. if staff says “stop”, you will be punished if you mention it again. you are allowed to discuss it with them privately, but I think that’s rather insidious, as staff have been known to twist facts and withhold information before. this gives them a public persona of always being right – and something else that cults do is silence dissenting voices so nobody who might agree can see other people saying the same things and feel encouraged/emboldened.

crossing Biblical boundaries of behaviour

again, we’ll need to contextualise this. if Biblical boundaries are things like sins and all the stuff the Bible says Do Not Do, then in this context these are the wiki rules. staff (and their friends) will constantly cross the rules, as previously mentioned, and they will get away with it.

the wiki rules say “don’t be a dick”. I have caught staff bullying people countless times, and no doubt there’s more I haven’t caught. even out in the open, staff are argumentative, dismissive, rude, intimidating, and oftentimes plain nasty. the wiki rules say “don’t coldpost articles; get feedback”. staff is just out there throwing their shit onto the wiki and expecting an avalanche of upvotes in five minutes Or Else. policies are made that set parameters and staff changes them whenever convenient – for example, the long-standing rule that things that occur off-site are not the responsibility of the Disciplinary Committee (yes, its name.). unless, of course, it’s someone they don’t like. a major staff member bullies somebody on Tumblr? “sorry, it was offsite, not our problem”. someone staff doesn’t like gets into a brief spat on Reddit? banned for harassment.

there are countless examples of this, from small things to major things like bullying, harassment, and even abuse (or enabling of abuse). staff will punish people for transgressions and then turn a blind eye to a fellow staff member committing a transgression that was ten times worse. they have even protected rapists and sexual predators in the past – another kind of behaviour common in cults, because that’s what happens when you combine narcissism and entitlement with total authority.

that’s the main bulk of it

but now the context has been established, here are a few more concerning things I’ve noticed (quickfire now):

cults shit on former members

and the wiki does the same. any staff member that’s grown fed up of the groupthink and the cliquey attitude and how nasty people are or who has been mistreated by staff themselves; any regular user who feels the same and vocally quits? shat upon. lauded as a bastion of whatever is wrong with the wiki. declared an Enemy and rallied against. it is so creepy.

cults use Us vs Them mentality, especially in language

broad declarations establishing a community and a community spirit in the face of adversity are common in cults. appeals to emotion and loyalty are used in a very manipulative way. catastrophising and fearmongering is common, too. I’m seeing this in how the recent drama with the legal issues is being handled. broad appeals to “defend the wiki”, hashtags being encouraged, emotional speeches from staff about how it’s a make or break situation…

…and this is being reflected in the absolutely insane comments people are responding with.

this is a fucking writing website. the above is not a normal reaction at all.

the attitudes of regular users quickly grow concerning

people very quickly get obsessed with the wiki and it defines their lives. they seem to feel as though they owe something to it or they need to serve some kind of a purpose; many people try and “get the word out” and become voluntary spokespeople. they go around practically preaching, and I do not see the users of any other website doing this.

cults want full control over how they’re seen by outsiders

and the scp wiki does the same. as mentioned previously, when the fandom grew and spiralled off the wiki to other sites, staff debated for weeks over what to do. brief interruption the second code is shrek is life.they were not comfortable with the idea of the wiki having an independent fandom, and for years now they have been in constant struggle with offsite communities, trying to gain the same amount of control they have over the wiki. it’s impossible to do so thoroughly, and it’s clearly an annoyance for them.

cult leaders will let “lesser” members do their dirty work for them

and guess what staff does? rather than wade in there and get their hands dirty with internet arguments, they’ll sit back and let regular users dogpile on dissenters and say all the things staff shouldn’t be seen to say in public. note how even if this would violate the bullying policies, they’ll just get a warning so long as staff agrees.

in conclusion

@ everyone on the scp wiki: yall know you’re in a cult, right?

#scp shenanigans #scp foundation #cult discussion #long post #like LONG post #anon #asks

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abby-studies-art · 7 years

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I was tagged by @starbrightstudies, thanks :)

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST:

1. Drink: Iced coffee 2. Phone call: MY BEST FRIEND Katrina shes so cute 3. Text message: To my grandmother about university! 4. Song you listened to: Human, by the Killers 5. Time you cried: Literally last night lol

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: Nope! 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yeah I’d say so 8. Been cheated on: Not to my knowledge 9. Lost someone special: Yeah 10. Been depressed: Technically I’m depressed right now but Idk Man I don't feel it so much lately. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Yeah!! a couple times actually hehe

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Pastel blue 13. Lavender 14. Grey lol

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yeah! 16. Fallen out of love: Nope 17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah 18. Found out someone was talking about you: YES OH MYGOD MMMMKKKAAAYYYY 19. Met someone who changed you: Yeah! 20. Found out who your friends are: I Guess? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I don't have facebook lol

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: NONE HA 23. Do you have any pets: I have an obnoxious dog 24. Do you want to change your name: I used to but I don't care enough now 25. What did you do for your last birthday?: It was earlier this week actually! Some of my new friends and I went out to a club and I danced with the guy I’m seeing and then we got pizza at like 3am and it was awesome! 26. What time did you wake up: I woke up at 9 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching a movie with my boo 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Thanksgiving! I’m meeting that guys parent’s and I'm really excited! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: In person, last month, and on face time a few days ago! 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Less anxiety would be awesome 31. What are you listening to right now: the office and music 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah his nick name was big tom and I made a penis joke and it was hilarious best moment of my life 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: How gross my summer has been? No sun all fog so far.

34. Most visited websites: Netflix, Tumblr, and probably duolingo

35. Mole/s: A few, I have a lot of freckles too 36. Mark/s: I have a scar on the back of my leg from theatre as a kid and stretch marks 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a pop star lol 38. Hair colour: It's dirty blonde for real but I’ve been dying it auburn since I was like 14. I did it to be Ariel in The Little Mermaid and I just never stopped bc I hate my natural hair colour and Auburn suits me better 39. Long or short hair: I usually have pretty short, above the shoulder hair but I’m growing it out long now 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yeah and it worked lol 41. What do you like about yourself: I am super efficient when I have to get stuff done which is nice because I get to relax a lot. 42. Piercings: Only my ears 43. Blood type: I HAVE NO IDEA two years ago I got my blood tested which was traumatic and then they lost it so I never found out. 44. Nickname: Abbs/ Abe 45. Relationship status: Seeing a boy!! but he isn't my boyfriend lol 46. Zodiac: Virgo 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favourite TV Show: I will say probably Friends or Brooklyn Nine-Nine

49. Tattoos: I dunno I like the look of the ones with white ink so maybe one day, but I’d have to have a pretty good reason.

50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: Nope thank god 52. Hair dyed in different colour: Auburn 53. Sport: TECHNICALLY Improv is a sport and I do that sometimes (or I used to) 55. Vacation: Thanksgiving is coming up and that's a long weekend, but after that, I am going to visit my family in their new home in Manchester! 56. Pair of trainers: I only wear shitty runners from Ardene that cost me $15 for two!

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Microwave popcorn 58. Drinking: Iced Coffee. 59. I’m about to: Keep going through my drafts so clear them out because I’m woefully behind! 61. Waiting for: Nothing I am pretty content actually! 62. Want: To keep everything going smoothly 63. Get married: I would like to, one day 64. Career: Museum Curator

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: Kisses 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: same height as me if we are talking about dating 68. Older or younger: Older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Doesn't matter (NEW BAE HAS BOTH) 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Nope 77. Turned someone down: Yeah 78. Sex on the first date: Nope 79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes 80. Had your heart broken: Yeah 81. Been arrested: Nope 82. Cried when someone died: Nope 83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: Maybe 85. Miracles: Yes 86. Love at first sight: No 87. Santa Claus: No 88. Kiss on the first date: Hell yeah

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: Katrina 91. Eye colour: Green 92. Favourite movie: I really like that old movie Labyrinth, its a musical with entirely David Bowie singing a bunch of rad songs it's great!

I tag whoever feelings like doing this, its been so long i’m just posting this bc now bc I dont have any post Ideas!!

#queue are an artist #tagged #92 questions

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tallboye · 7 years

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92 Things About Me

i was tagged by @danieliph !! you’re so cute ty for tagging me :’)

questions are under the cut :)

THE LAST…

1. Drink: ramune soda!!! its so good omg 2. Phone call: my friend bc 4th of july plans 3. Text message: me and my friend talking about AP scores!! 4. Song you listened to: Hard Feelings/Loveless- Lorde 5. Time you cried: yesterday bc my friends were canceling on plans and i felt really miserable :( (i’m really dramatic tho ahahah)

6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Been cheated on: no 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: i haven’t had a real first kiss yet hhahah 9. Lost someone special: my ex boy :( 10. Been depressed: every day bro 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i haven’t drank yet ahaha

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black

13. grey

14. lavender

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15. Made new friends: yes!! i love them 16. Fallen out of love: well i kinda got over someone so i guess?? 17. Laughed until you cried: ofc!!! 18. Found out someone was talking about you: well yeah a lot of drama w my friend group happened this year 19. Met someone who changed you: no i like to do that myself hahah 20. Found out who your true friends are: im still skeptical about my friends so idk 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: i dont have facebook 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: no fb!!

- 23. Do you have any pets: i have two cats and two lizards (bearded dragons!)!! love them to death!! but i also want a dog v bad ;-; 24. Do you want to change your name: not really, but people still manage to spell my name wrong so if i did would change it to end the confusion 25. What did you do for your last birthday: it was really sad :( i just sat at home 26. What time did you wake up: like 8am lol 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was on my way home from seeing fireworks 28. Name something you cannot wait for: I’m seeing fob in october!!! 29. When was the last time you saw your mother: about 7 years ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i wasn’t as indecisive as i am so that my future seemed more clear to me 31. What are you listening to right now: the numbers by radiohead 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes he’s one of my closest friends

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: applying to college and deciding where to go n keeping my grades up (thats like 3 things but lol) 34. Most visited website: tumblr and instagram

35. Elementary: p bad bc i got bullied a lot 36. High School: honestly the Worst its so stressful 37. College/university: I’m not ready and i dont know where I’m going 38. Hair color: strawberry blonde 39. Long or short hair: really long hahahha 40. Do you have a crush on someone: nope!! 41. What do you like about yourself: I’m not extremely loud n obnoxious 42. Piercings: just my ears 43. Blood type: i dont know :/ 44. Nickname: meg, and a lot of my irls call me medge n megs 45. Relationship status: single 46. Zodiac sign: virgo 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite tv show: the office!

49. Tattoos: love em!! might get one someday!! 50. Right or left hand: right handed

FIRST…

51. Surgery: I’ve never had one 52. Piercing: the basic ear one hahah 54. Sport: i played hockey for like half a year in 5th grade and i haven’t played a sport since 55. Vacation: it was to massachusetts before i moved here so i could see my family!! 56. Pair of trainers: idk lmao

- 57. Eating: nothing 58. Drinking: making a coffee!! 59. I’m about to: die bc I’m hungry af !! 60. Listening to: (my music changed hahah) i constantly thank god for esteban- p!atd 61. Waiting for: my friend to text back bc were hanging out today!! 62. Want: to get a job so i can make $$$$

63. Get married: i gotta find someone first then we’ll see :/ 64. Career: i really love music and i want to get into the industry but it is v difficult and I’m not sure

YOUR TYPE…

65. Hugs or kisses: kisses 66. Lips or eyes: lips 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i dont really care about either tbh 71. Sensitive or loud: i wouldn’t care about that either as long as i like who they are as a person 72. Hook up or relationship: either sounds fine to me bc I’ve been hurt too much by past relationships so who knows

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: idc as long as its not INSANE trouble

HAVE YOU EVER… 74. Kissed a stranger?: no!!!! 75. Drank hard liquor?: nope! 76. Lost glasses contact/lenses: no!! i have my glasses on 24/7 lol 77. Turned someone down: hell yea 78. Sex on first date: thats dumb no 79. Broken someone’s heart: maybe? idk 80. Had your heart broken: yes and it ruined my life 81. Been arrested: nope 82. Cried when someone died: of course 83. Fallen for a friend: kinda??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. Yourself: no 85. Miracles: maybe 86. Love at first sight: i dont know man its kinda shallow but maybe theres a connection?? i haven’t experienced it so idk 87. Santa Claus: nope hahah 88. Kiss on the first date: thats weird idk 89. Angels: no

OTHER… 90. Current best friend’s name: idk who my real friends are so i can’t say for sure :( 91. Eye color: hazel !! 92. Favorite movie: mulan!

if you read this then tysm!! I’m kinda boring lol

im gonna tag the @aestheticdnpnet if any1 wants to do it and all my mutuals!! i did a challenge the other day so i feel weird tagging the same people again bc i feel like I’m spamming you!! and you dont have to do this if you dont want do <3

#im too lazy to tag again and i dont wanna be annoying :/#about me #92 questions #92 questions tag

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valkysrie · 7 years

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92 Truths

Rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

Tagged by: @bellraven

Tagging: @priyas @peachstarrrdust @alohamoraz @nilihist @moonstruk @svdmachine @poedamearon @pwussycats @feminaes if u want! not tryna bug anyone

[1] drink: a mango smoothie  [2] phone call: i think my mom  [3] text message: a thank you text to my eyebrow lady  [4] song you listened to: all about u by tupac  [5] time you cried: pretty sure it was when i bawled while watching lion a few weeks ago

HAVE YOU EVER…  [6] dated someone twice: no  [7] been cheated on: no  [8] kissed someone and regretted it: no  [9] lost someone special: yeah  [10] been depressed: not sure  [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:  [12] i  [13] cant  [14] decide

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…  [15] made new friends: sorta-ish  [16] fallen out of love: nope  [17] laughed until you cried: literally every time i laugh shjshs  [18] found out someone was talking about you: no i dont think so  [19] met someone who changed you: not really  [20] found out who your true friends are: yeah actually  [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no

GENERAL…

 [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont have a facebook  [23] do you have any pets: not anymore :(  [24] do you want to change your name: nope, never ever  [25] what did you do for your last birthday: nothing, but we ate a lot together after my birthday  [26] what time did you wake up: around 7:30am  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: i was asleep  [28] name something you cannot wait for: summer !!!!!!!!!!  [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: a little bit ago, she just left  [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: wish i wasn’t so comfortable not making friends  [31] what are you listening to right now: hard times by paramore  [32] have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah this old white guy that was in charge of alter servers at church (when i was an alter server) he was a total hippie  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: it’s been SO windy, like the really obnoxious kind that starts knocking my hair bun all over the place  [34] most visited website: probably tumblr and my school moodle website  [35] elementary: best phase of my life ?????  [36] high school: it was ok i guess, i miss it a little sometimes

[37] college: its also been ok, but really isolating so far

[38] hair colour: dark brown

 [39] long or short hair: kinda in the middle  [40] do you have a crush on someone: not really  [41] what do you like about yourself: i think im really trustworthy and straight forward and mellow and open minded  [42] piercings: just my ears  [43] blood type: ??idk  [44] nickname: xoch, xoch the roach, xochitlian, sacha, siracha, tatis, tatiana, gorda, george washington, etc.  [45] relationship status: single  [46] zodiac sign: taurus  [47] pronouns: she/her  [48] fav tv show: i can never answer this gtg  [49] tattoos: no im too indecisive  [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST…  [51] surgery: i feel like wisdom teeth should count but no  [52] piercing: ears  [53] best friend: i’d say my cousin cynthia but she moved back to mexico when we were like 4, so then my real first one was this girl isabel from catholic school until she left in the 6th grade  [54] sport: i was never in sports but i liked soccer and basketball a lot  [55] vacation: mexico probably  [56] pair of trainers: idk

RIGHT NOW…

 [57] eating: nothing  [58] drinking: nothing  [59] I’m about to: watch dear white people on netflix (this was diya’s answer but its literally what im about to do with my sister lmao)  [60] listening to: keep on by kehlani  [61] waiting for: this semester to end so i can get my will to live back

 [62] want to: be not ugly

 [63] get married: maybe…..  [64] career: criminology related stuff maybe

WHICH IS BETTER…

 [65] hugs or kisses: !!!hugs  [66] lips or eyes: lips  [67] shorter or taller: taller  [68] older or younger: older  [69] romantic or spontaneous: romantic  [70] nice arms or nice stomach: im indifferent  [71] sensitive or loud: sensitive  [72] hook up or relationship: relationship  [73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER…  [74] kissed a stranger: no  [75] drank hard liquor: no  [76] lost glasses/contact lenses: literally 24/7  [77] turned someone down: yeah

[78] sex on first date: not rn cause im inexperienced but i wouldnt be opposed to it in the future  [79] broken someone’s heart: i think indirectly yeah  [80] had your own heart broken: i guess so  [81] been arrested: no  [82] cried when someone died: yes  [83] fallen for a friend: yeah but i didnt know about it until years later

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…  [84] yourself: no  [85] miracles: mm.. sometimes  [86] love at first sight: not at all  [87] santa claus: no  [88] kiss on the first date: yes  [89] angels: idk

OTHER…  [90] current best friend’s name: dont have one  [91] eye colour: dark brown  [92] favourite movie: i cant pick just one but my general ones are like the parent trap, princess diaries,13 going on 30, and uptown girls.. (also watch saban’s power rangers (2017) dir. by dean israelite)

#k im gonna go watch dear white people now!#tag challenge #personal

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