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stressed-bird · 2 years

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LMK Soulmate AU, (at the moment still shadowpeach centric)

Rewatching Overly Sarcastic Productions’ Journey To The West Part 1 because I will never be able to survive reading the actual non-summarized text to figure out what the heck I’m doing with this au and the monkies—since I am nothing if not thorough and determined

...to detail where their relationship began and how it implodes and gruesomely ends

(Nothing is set in stone, I am not above scrapping whole concepts until I get it right, assume everything as non-canon until it’s canon /lh)

What we’ve got is:

Basic world building, soulmates exist and many types of bonds exist—from pain-sharing to telepathy to even the mundane like soul-markings

(Little known knowledge of soulmates in-world being that these bonds can be suppressed or ignored into non-existence—if you wanted to live and exist without a soulmate, it’s your funeral my guy)

Meaning it’s very easy for some to find their other half, others meanwhile have the vaguely trail to follow and very few of those others have the determination to see it through to the end... or at least, that’s how it was during the times of rampant demons long before a certain monkey began to protect humans and ward the demons away from them

Shadowpeach’s specific bond is emotion-sharing

(because as much as I am a fan of angst and the painful possibility of Sun Wukong feeling how it feels to die and looking down to see the body of Macaque and that he killed him... have you seen how many fights this monkie gets into? I’m not mean enough to put Macaque through that)

No, they share something arguably more personal and hurtful. Feeling and knowing exactly what the other feels... up until they don’t—no, can’t, by way of others’ interferences with the demon monkies

Where shadowpeach first met face to face, it was on Mountain of Heart and Mind in the Cave of the Slanting Moon and Three Stars (yes im still watching the osp video as i write this)—the place where SWK first became immortal via his teacher-not-teacher and we do not address why Macaque is under the tutelage of this very illegal class from the immortal sage, it’s non-important (for you to know now anyways)

All that needs to be known is that the two monkey demons are now in close proximity and apparently the illegal immortality class lasts like 10 years so—needless to say after about 3,650 days the monkies are not dumb enough to not have realized at this point their emotion-sharing bond

Sun Wukong is more overtly thrilled and over the moon than Macaque about this but it’s not a problem, swk now can tell everything that he’s feeling is what Macaque is feeling and the other is nothing if not also glad at this development—there is no worry...

They fight demons, take riches, become heroes in their own rights, Mac gets kidnapped back to Flower Fruit Mountain and helps in militarizing the monkey population, normal stuff- happy monkey stuff even, all done side by side

Except there’s a lot of worries. Since as we know, Wukong is going to fight heaven eventually by way of his actions and Macaque is going to have a lot of feelings about that and the celestial war it’ll bring to FFM

Feelings that SWK does nip at the bud of as much as he can when he can, attempts to calm and reassure his fretful mate that everything will work out alright and that if anything else...

Macaque will never be alone and always have him as long as their bond remains

#sending this au into the shadow realm for reworking #you’re never seeing it again /hsrs #shadowpeachshipping #shadowpeach #lmk au #the question i will leave you with is: What does Macaque know that Wukong doesn’t?#he’s very much lived a life before he found his other half at Mountain of Heart and Mind and it very much shapes him #lmk soulmate au #stressed talks #still not main tagging this in anythign except the shipping category #dont ask me about the timeline—im doing broad paint strokes my guy #is this soulmates except they MAY have met at the wrong time? perhaps #Macaque tries so hard to match SWK’s pace while being the realistic of the two and feels sometimes he’s not enough #that perhaps the way he’s supposed to be swk’s othr half is by being his ball and chain—a burden to drag around... something he doesn’t want #talking in the tags

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chaoticbathwater · 8 months

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stressed out of my mind because a guy i know is transphobic and very misinformed on the topic and ive been trying my very best to explain things to him but its not been very effective so far and he keeps talking to trans kids and shit and in an effort to "help" them he straight up recommends conversion therapy and other things like that, and making those people extremely uncomfortable!! and because ive talked to him multiple times i feel like its my responsibility to get him to stop doing that somehow but ive literally no idea what to do!!!!! what the hell man!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#vent #sorry i just needed to talk because what the hell #he knows im trans so we have discussions about what it means to be trans regularly #he thinks hes helping me out of my transgenderism or some shit like that and i let him talk to me because im hoping in the process i'll get #him to realize being trans is not a bad thing and hopefully make him less transphobic #but its so tiring #and recently he showed me a convo he had w a 14 year old kid whos trans and being very pushy w them trying to help with “gender dysphoria”#and that shit broke me man i cant let him do stuff like that #i dont know what to do because i feel like no matter how many sources i give him or no matter what i say he'll keep being like this and!!!#that scares me! because maybe one day some kid will actually believe that being transgender is a mental illness and that they need #conversion therapy or something #its stressing me out and i feel like the only thing left to do is cut contact w him because i dont want to accidentally encourage him or #anythign but if i leave without doing anything im basically letting him go hurt other trans people and spread misinfo everywhere and itd be #my fault for not stopping him #you get what i mean #long post wow #rambles

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sonknuxadow · 1 year

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hoping that the blazing other peoples posts thing is just gonna be this years april fools joke or something and not a real feature because can you imagine how awful that would be. well i mean it would still suck but if it was only here for a day and then went away forever i think i could live with it

#im not seeing anythign related to it on desktop or mobile but maybe this is one of those features that only works on ios #or theyre rolling out to a few people at a time and not the whole site. idk #i cannot put into words how bad of an idea this is. like is the op of the post even asked if they want it blazed ???#or does anyone who pays get to blaze it even without the op's consent ?#i mean i guess thats the whole point of having the switch to turn on or off on your posts but still.#even if its turned on they should still ask permission first because like what if you forgot #i feel like people are gonna start blazing posts made by people they dont like to set them up for harassment #like did you all forget about how before we had the reblog control feature #people would go out of their way to reblog posts that say dont rb just to be an asshole

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landofgay · 2 years

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anyone know a good free online counselling thing that can be used just one time and has a good focus on grief/family addiction thank u ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

#pretty specific i know 🥲 im also in canada just to make it even more specific #i dont want to deal with my emotions rn but also i do really really need to talk to a counsellor even just ocne #just lay out all the details of my situation and then ask for some coping strategies for the celebration of life later this month #so im not feeling mad and resentful towards 99% of my family for not doing more #(or feeling mad and resentful at myself cause i didnt do anythign either)#(but i was also a teenager for much of it and i made a lot more of an effort than most people in my family)#god. this is just so fucking harsh.#im also so so so worried about people in my family while being mad with them tok #like my mom and grandma and grandpa are feeling it extra hard but im also so frustrated with all of them #but i dont want them to feel guilty forever!!! at all!!!! but also they should???? its such a fucked up situation like so fucked #ill be honest yall i expected this but i expected my grandpa to die first and my uncle would have to deal with it #not the other way around. this is so much harsher for everyone.#god!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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dog-girl-zezora · 2 years

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its me vs my depression rn and i hate that this is a serious learning and unlearning experience

#personal #i have to actively fight my habits #my old coping mechanisms will not work #except the sleepign it all off that will work #i just accepted a new job offer and im hoping that will help me #i like hate how much of this is me tryign to push myself to being a normal functioning person #my hobbies are taking such a hit...#i dont want to do anythign even WITH the free time #imagine #having free time and not beign able to do anything you like because you dont feel like it but you could be #:(#cant live like this #but im doing much better. i would never have tried toget a job in the past #i had serious anxiety issues #so im doing good! im okay! i want to be PERFECT.#thats not realistic so im trying not to be too tough on myself

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mekakitsune · 1 month

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needdddd them more than anythign rn

it was quiet in the tent save for the barely audible slick noises coming from your cunt. sloan's fingers worked magic as they piston in and out of you in a harsh manner. you were so wet, all because of them.

"hm, you feel close baby? so fuckin' wet...so fuckin' hot." they couldnt help moaning at the sight and feeling of you, dripping down their hand and onto the sleeping mat below. the dull throbbing between their legs was almost becoming unbearable.

"yeah...please, fuck. dont stop, m' so fuckin close." you whimper, gripping their soft, chocolate brown hair.

their lips find place on your neck once again, tongue tracing over the bite marks they had left earlier. the stinging sensation fueled the fire in your stomach. release was so close, yet ripped from your grasp as they remove their fingers.

"why'd you stop?" you whimped again, pathetically trying to create friction by bucking your hips.

in the darkness of your shared tent, you could see their smirk, as they rubbed their hands on your thighs, squeezing.

"shh i know, i wanna taste you." they spoke softly, soothing your pleas. they move down so they are postioned between your thighs.

"want you t' come for me, kay?" they press a kiss to the inside of your thigh before diving in.

the pressure of their tongue on your sensitive pussy makes you moan, thighs shaking around them. their tongue circles your clit and you nearly see stars. suddenly, their fingers find their place back inside you, continuing that harsh pace from earlier.

without much warning for either of you, your orgasm hits you like a ton of bricks. from below you hear sloan, groaning at the taste of you as you cum on thier tongue. hands are removed from inside you and rub soothing circles on your hips and thighs, coaxing you down from the harsh release.

you whimper from the overstimulation as they place a final kiss to your clit before coming back up to face you.

the sight of them with your slick on their face, framing that stupid grin almost made you need to come again.

"how was that?" they smiled lovingly, placing kisses along your neck and face before landing a peck on your lips.

"good. really fuckin good." you kiss them back, allowing them to cover you with their frame.

lips melt together in a haze of desperation and comfort. how you loved to kiss them.

after a while, you push their chest slightly so your able to speak.

"now its your turn." you smile at them mischievously, hands squeezing their shoulders.

#drops this and runs #i need them soooooooooo bad #overwatch x reader #overwatch smut #venture x reader #venture smut #sloan cameron #sloan cameron smut #nsfw.mp3 🫧

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ganondoodle · 6 months

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seeing all the crazy stuff people build in totk kinda ... it feels like that is also a factor in why it turned out like this, like the insane things people did in botw and the (i keep saying devs when i actually mean the directors .. producers?) directors saw it and build totk just around letting people do it all 100 times more

to be clear, i think its impressive as hell what some people build (i just saw like .. a movie scene with a functioning mech gozilla and tanks made with totks building stuff ... what the fuck) and those things go pretty viral (understandibly so) but i also gotta question

as creative, free, and impressive as it is ... should that have been the focus in a zelda game? like .. is building mechas and tanks like that something that should be in a zelda game? can it be in there without inevitably sacrificing so much else? theres building games just for that? and if you want to make it zelda themed you can make it a spin off?

like i get it, people did crazy things in botw, they saw what people had fun with and dialed it up to a 1000 in totk, which in itself is not bad, even pretty good if you consider gamedevs and feeback and all that bc in general you should embrace what people had fun with in your game even if it wasnt the intent, given that nintendy listens to feedback (perhaps even a bit too much at times) and creative solutions was a central point to botw design philosophy but

i feel like totk kinda .. missed the balance?

if its really a reason why totk is build around enabling that in a purely player centered toy box kind of way without it actually mattering in the story .. or even themes ... was it worth it? not to sound like an oldschool boomer tm but in a franchise that iconic, lore and story focused, should you really abandon nigh all lore/story cohesion just to give the player a big box of toys in a world where i feel that doesnt ,, really belong? in a direct sequel in the same world with the same characters no less? that point is perhaps the biggest issue with it, bc again lots of games even if somwhat a sequel, had strange new tech or things in the world but in all of those cases it was some alternative universe, millenia after the other game, or on an entire different continent; while totk is supposedly just a few years after botw in the very same hyrule

(still doesnt explain the erasing of all shiekah things and replacing it with sonau- tho suddendly revealing the shiekah had actual rockets, wheels with suspension and grenade-launchers, might have been confusing too- you could have enabled the player creativity with shiekah too imo, and personally i would have found it way more fun ... lil guardian leg crawlies ..)

having thought about it feels rather logical why they did it in alot of ways, but also ... totk is build around it, while its also not build around it at all- its build around the PLAYER, not the world, not the story, not the theme, not the character, but YOU (especialyl those that dont realyl care about anythign story or lore stuff and just want to have fun with the gameplay loop, which isnt wrong, but i question whether thats the right kind if player to center in a zelda game .... also not saying all of those that build these crazy things are like that but- ... i hope you know what i mean)

(i know games are always build around the player, or should be, but .. do you get what i mean????? playing in a world that doesnt make sense anymore bc its all a box of toys yeeted into my face isnt fun to me, bc im here not only for gameplay fun but for the world .. theme .. characters, its something that has to be harmonical as a whole for me and totk just .. isnt)

i say it alot but i do really mean it, its very difficult to get my thoughts and feelings written out and to have them come across correctly

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #maybe i need to stop doing these rants #even about the little stuff #at this point it probably seems like im just finding another detail JUST to rant about it #its a struggle between being so .. SO frustrated with this game and trying to understand WHY it is like this #be assured tho my ranting days are pretty much over at this point #i have gone about pretty much all my points #tho i guess sometimes there will be more little things #...........or more interviews that get released....

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hearts401 · 10 months

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"do NOT ask me about ggy or patient 46 because i WILL begin ranting"

You see, I am incapable of ever listening to anyone, ever, so I must ask about GGY and patient 46

I have absolutely no knowledge of modern FNaF lore; I have not read any of the books (something I plan to fix whenever my bank account stops bleeding) so you're gonna have to do some heavy lifting here and tell me all about it

Ooh boy rubs my hands together

okay so im gonna start with ggy because i love Tony and Ellis. (i dont have the book in front of me tho so this isnt gonna be 100% every detail)

GGY is about a kid named Tony Becker who has an assignment in his 6th grade english class. He has to write a fictional mystery with side plots that tie into the main plot. He chooses to do this with his two friends. They use pen names whenever they do their english projects together (sobs and wails and cries into my hands) and Tony picked Tarbell, and his friends were Boots and Dr. Rabbit (or Rab for short).

Tony wants to start working on their project, but Boots and Rab want to go to the fazcade. Tony gives in when rab backs up boots (tony sees boots as immature and worries about outgrowing him and hanging out more with rab) tony wanders around the fazcade trying to find inspo, and then notices someone named GGY with top scores on some of the games. when he asks other people about it, they tell him the scores are seemingly impossible, but when he asks a staff member, he's told they haven't been hacked.

At some point he makes an online blog to ask about it and a girl he'd talked to in the fazcade asks him to meet her. she tells him that she thinks this is more than just high scores, and that he should stay out of it.

Oh also freddy keeps watching tony and at some point begins following him.

Tony finds out that GGY has a hacked party pass (or it was like a fun pass or smth) that gives them access to much more than it should, working almost like a security card.

Tony then finds out one of the school counselors has gone missing, and he sneaks into the librarian's office to learn more about it. he finds out two other counselors have also gone missing, all of them having gone to the pizzaplex before disappearing.

tony writes his paper and gives it to Rab and Boots to look over, and when they come back the next day, they've changed it into a fantasy story. And GGY is labled as the wizard's favorite apprentice, rather than someone getting high scores on arcade games.

tony is upset with rab and boots and begins calling htem by their actual names.

Rab is Greg, Boots is Ellis.

tony is also in trouble for sneaking into the librarian's office and using her laptop, so he has detention shelving books.

Greg come and offers to take him to the pizzaplex when he's done, and it's kind of implied he killed him there.

again i have bad memory and i dont have the book in front of my so anyone can feel free to correct anythign i got wrong or missed

now onto patient 46 who's from the therapy tapes in sb.

this'll be undeniably easier because i can just listen to the tapes. patient 46 is also not confirmed to be gregory, its just a theory, so im just gonna call them 46.

its important to note that 46 does not speak.

everything here is things implied to have been nonverbally communicated to the therapist.

Tape 2:

It starts with the therapist talking about how the day is nice, but 46 doesnt like the light, so the therapist draws the blinds. she then comments on how 46 is not talking to her today, and says that she gets reviews from patients, and when 46 doesn't let her help them, she gets bad reviews. she tells 46 she could get in trouble and get put in timeout, which 46 finds funny.

Tape 4:

New therapist is here, she asks if 46 is going to talk to her, and they dont reply. she asks whats wrong, and they gesture to the flowers. the therapist comments on them being particularly fragrant and moves them. The therapist then comments on 46 staring at something, and says they're "amazingly alert." she says shed like to have 46 tell her about themself, but 46 does not. the therapist instead chooses to look through their notes. she also comments on the chair not fitting 46, but its not specified if its too big or too small. she then asks if 46 is bothered by a new therapist, but 46 doesnt seem surprised or confused at all. the therapist says shes surprised by whats in 46's notes. she says they have a "rebellious side" and a knack for computers, and explains the word phenom to them. the tape ends with her asking if 46 considers themself a hacker

tape 6:

new therapise again! she tells 46 shes already read their files and knows what theyve worked on. 46 asks for a candy, and she gives one to them, taking one for herself as well. she says she wants to start with 46's parents, and claims it was tragic but she doesnt think 46 has processed it emotionally. she says they wrote it like they had read it off of a book. (her exact words are they wrote an objective rather than a subjective narrative, but 46 didnt know what that meant.) she says 46 spends a lot of time alone and is good at self-dialogue, which she explains is "asking urself questions and getting answers" she tells them to try asking themself how they feel about what happened to them. she tells them to let themself be upset about it so they can let it go.

tape 8:

same therapist as 6! she asks 46 if theyve thought about what they talked about. 46 had told them their past had made them sad and scared. the therapist asks if they had written down exactly what made them feel that way. she then says she works with many people who respond to tragedy differently. she asks 46 if their fantasies would be different had this tragedy not happened to them.

Tape 13:

new therapist again! she says when shes getting to know a client, she likes to find out abt their hobbies. when she doesnt get a reply, she asks if they like sports. 46 tells her they like to watch sports, but not play them. and that they like to stay inside. the therapist then reluctantly tells 46 that their previous therapists have gone missing. except one who was found dead, and they said her body looked to be mangled by machinery. the therapist also comments that 46 doesn't look concerned about it. she jokes about watching her back, which 46 finds funny.

Tape 14:

same therapist as 13. she asks if 46 knows about the pizzaplex, and says the technicians who work there know them. theyve seen what they think is 46 on the security cameras. they say 46 was accused of hacking their systems. the therapist says that the hacks are causing tons of problems, but that there's no solid proof it was 46, and 46 finds it funny that the techs are having issues. she says she finds it weird that 46 would spend time in such a busy, crowded place despite their loner attitude. she asks if its the electronics that 46 likes. she also says theyve designed programs that talk to them and repeat phrases. she says it asks them questions and prompts for responses, like their own little therapist. she said at first she had thought they were talking to themself, but it seems more like they were talking to someone else. she asks who it was.

Tape 15:

same therapist as 13+14. she starts with asking if 46 wants to do an ink blot test. she shows them an image, and 46 asks to hold it. 46 says it reminds them of a mask. the therapist asks if 46 likes the idea of being disguised, and how they make you invisible. she says being invisible lets you get away with anything, and asks 46 if they like that idea. she then moves on to something else, telling 46 that it seems theyve been talking to someone else. she says the techs think that its someone trying to lure 46 away, or manipulate them. the therapist moves to where she can see 46's eyes, and says she got something different from the communications. she accuses 46 of manipulating someone, rather than being manipulated. she says they were recorded on the security cameras with someone else. she says that it looks like the person theyre with has rabbit ears, which 46 finds amusing.

Tape 16:

Same therapist as 13+14+15. she says shes gotten another message from the pizzaplex that says that theres a glitch in the system that makes the animatronics more eerie than entertaining. she says the glitch spread system-wide and infected all the machines. she also says it was traced back to 46. she says the glitch broadcasted a dangerous message. she also says that when the techs were trying to fix it, the source shifted. she says that the glitch changed from a glitch and became a set of sub-routines that were made to do exactly what the glitch was doing. (which basically means it stopped just being a glitch and became part of the system?? i think?? idk shit abt computers bruh) when 46 does not reply, she presses, saying she is on their side and wont tell anyone what is told to her during the session and that the techs have no proof it was 46, so theyre not in trouble. when 46 doesnt reply still, she brings up their past. 46 refuses to look at her, but she continues. she says it doesnt matter if they look at the floor, because nothing they told her about their parents was true. she says they had great parents, and a great childhood. she asks 46 why they lied, and tells them to look at her. she then says she understands why 46 would be upset about the confrontation, and says they can come back to this another day. the last line she says is "you're shaking your head like that's not going to happen."

UHM YEAH IM NORMAL ABOUT THEM LOL.

i have a lot of thoughts on both of these parts and i personally believe 46 is Gregory. but if i dumped all my thoughts we'd be here all day so have this long ass explanation instead

#fnaf #ggy #patient 46 #dr. rabbit #fnaf security breach #tony becker #TZU rambles #a lot #TZU asks

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brilliantfantasticgeronimo · 5 days

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(vibrates) it's slug time

loving the slang... "tightness all day long" "today is toasty". also love that "babes" survives way into the future. 15 this is ur legacy. "that woman was her sister" incest implication??? 2 minutes in

TURN LEFT /triggered

the design in this is impeccable.

this is so sims coded.... from the creators of "doctor who is a tv show" theory we bring u-> "doctor who is a videogame"

if u were disappointed with the focus on magic this ep this ep is rlly giving classic scifi parody lol

CRAZY DAYS

there's a lot of wordsmith-ing in this ep….eyes emoji

i love ruby sm now she's so resourful in every ep

this episode is like "this is how an anniversary multi-doctor multi-companion multi-master webcam special could still win"

ok but seriously. ppl are gonna be like "phones bad is dumb of course people look where they are!!!" bro. they dont. and yeah it can have deadly consequences. there's a reason "dont text and drive" campaigns happen.

ruby has done SO many callcenter type jobs forreal.

SLUG TIME SLUG TIME SLUG TIME.

DR PEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

this episode is amazing

"is that thing something to do with you?" bitch (i got a bit spoiled that she's a racist (damn "looking at tumblr for 2 secs to vibe check" habit) so im looking at this with more hindsight than u are supposed to sdlkfjd)

bluie light celeste and gold motif in ruby and the doc's backdrops? also fifteen in orange <3333333 my beloved

the interior design is ON POINT this ep "you dont know how to walk without the arrows?" "condescending much?" bitch

this episode is so fun lol

"fifteen nd ruby react channel" realness (WHICH…..HEY…….DO U KNOW WHAT PPL REACT TO………………………. T V SH O W S (clown make up fully on))

ruby has done so much service calling jobs forreal lol the sheer patience

the doctor really wanting to lose their minds here but having to hold it together is peak doctor sdkjfsd (also very realistic of the struggles i expected a black doctor to work thru)

there's a bit of a theme of instinct vs programming going on here.

"surrounded by this woodland forest thing. it's like, really natural"

hashtag obsessed with it the catharsis im feelin tbh. 2 ppl being like "yo mass killing is rlly wrong" while the cacophony of the internet ~fun goes on and on. where's the [fiction]

ITS LIKE LOVE ISLAND THE PLANET. BRO. bro im so WIRED IN /clown make up intensifies

penny pepper bean still strong holding the 12 ppl still in the tory party together in the year something something

"ruby and the doctor struggle to lie in the moment" is my favorite recurring trope

the doctor using the sonic as a remote right there……………….. im running out of clown make up ya'll

"you did NOT just "@everyone" realism

no one ever listens to the goths….

until its too late…

its interesting that there's no cameras in their feeds, tho. right? like. that's the layer i think it's profoundly different to irl in this satire / social crit. ppl are *locked out* of the real world bc they're looking at their screens, but they do that bc the screens are a constant waterfall of billions of camera footage either of individuals or coporations or institutions. always producing "content". so like is not that ppl dont "see" anythign irl but they see it all thru a filter or thru editing,,,, but its fine i get what the satire is going for slkdfj but yeah. i think thats why it may feel a bit "not quite capturing" of the current ~digital ethos

fifteen so close to losing it- fifteen if u want to go for a bit of a timelord victorious i wont judge. u can have it. as a treat.

doctor who is a videogame energy bbc merch idea -> zombies run type podcast but it's the doctor and ruby telling u where to go for a job so u dont die. (russel get on this)

YOU STILL HAVE BATTERY PROBLEMS

"this is your fault!" iconic. classic who

so many ppl have presumably died so far. god bless. we needed an ep like this. proper high body count who feels good. feels organic.

rip the au where these were the beatles. thats 1 theory im really gonna mourn for the rest of the series lol

plaza 55…… orphan 55 reference???

great abrogation sounds important.

"i will get out out of here. i promise" obligatory doctor mirroring moment.

oh shit.

"thi iss SO manual"

"hands off" I LOVE THEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The doctor x companion x some bland guy love triangle DREAM omg

"he says they're saving us to eat for last (snob voice)maybe we're the most tasty" scream. this ep is so fun.

pentecost's style was so on point.

wasnt her battery running out? (i may have missed something sldkjf)

bro stop hitting the fucking gas pipes oh my goddddd

holy shit. RICKY NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

that was brutal.

racists are gonna hate this episode so much lol

fifteen getting to experience all the microaggressions/outright aggressions thirteen didnt. yay progress(???) "thats voodoo" holy shi t

"maintain the standards of finetime" rtd was pissed when writting this lol

fifteen is not doing all rightkids.

ncuti's "who's my doctor? he's a black man" prophecy comes FULL CIRCLE

fifteen looking at US tho…………… this is a tv show man. this is a tv show. this is - *im struggle against my straight-jacked as im graddged back to the cushion-walled cell*

the plot twist of this ep………… phones good actually. thank u phones. u are doing a service.

CONCLUSIONS!

so there's a lot of ways to chop this one…

"racism and capitalism still exists in the future" is a trope that it's kind of limiting / always grates me in some ways (it feeds into the anti-racism of ppl whose politics doesnt trascend idealist philosophy -> that is, it is an anti-racism that can't conceive of an end to racism bc it doesn't actually have a political project that address the material causes of racism and just tries to fix the "natural prejudices" away with "education". in other words, it cant portray a word without racism bc it cant *conveive* of one.) . however i think im more open to it this time / this series since s11 onwards the focus has been so much on telling stories about the present with scifi make up on. and i think this one manages to do that rlly well. ___

another vertice to look this one on is whether... is it really "doing anything" to have racism portrayed on screen (and other bigotry) in a scifi story? if u already experience racism or understand it happens, who is served by this? it's hurtful to watch and it's like missing the chance to "show a different world" is possible thru scifi. and the counterargument to that is on a """""color blind"""""" 2020s world it is rlly cathartic and re-affirming to have stories that *show* the realities of the world, and that dont shy away from showing those realities in fear of them coming off as "over the top" (bc they arent. some ppl will still walk away from this ep thinking "haha fun satires" but like. this is literally how White Rich People Talk. in real life.......) and again in this one time i think it works really well bc doctor who has… probably never done this? lol there's moments with martha and ryan for example, but never going this hard on it. but im open to discussion tbh. i think the angle of "is this a story about racism for white people to learn or is it a cathartic for *black / brown people to experience catharsis in" is gonna be one for fruitful discussion in the future. ___

besides the socio-political points,,,, bro this episode was a thrill ngl sdlkjf like so many simple, excellent moments like the girl walking into the light post. the made up slang and the real slang!!!!. the excellent interior design. "ruby and fifteen react to doctor who". just lots of fun little details. the execution was really inspired.

character point -> tbh fifteen at the end feels like a bit of Growth from like, ten at his worst moments -> "he's not the person you would have chosen to survive, but if you could decide who lives or dies, doctor, that would make you a monster"

also kinda wonder how this episde will hit for newbies / Not Us. i think a lot of its gut punch comes from dw never doing this before and so the strenght of subverting those expectations. is this an story that stands on its own w/o all the 60 years of context? we'll have to show it to our normie friends and see lol

#dw spoilers #dot and bubble #1500 words holy hsit #im chapping here babes

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nutzworth · 5 months

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DAY 4: JANUARY 17, 2024 (i um. was a little busy. oops.)

STATS: read for ~2 hrs pages read: 860-1052. 192 pgs. reached pg 1000! wooo!!! slur count: 6 + 2 = 8 (rose narration, john. both r slur) silly count: 10 + 1 = 11 (john about roses building) piss count: 1/3

THOUGHTS: today started with jade's freshjamz!!!!!!!!! I LOVE!!! i mean dave kind of sucks at making music but jade doesnt! i love how homestuck shows the works of the characters. jades music daves blogs caliborns deviantart whatever. it makes them feel so REAL.

figured out the time differences! if we're staying at johns timezone, dave is 2 hrs ahead and rose is 3 hrs ahead. and jade is 4 hrs ahead!!!! when we were dave pov a convo with jade was at 6:30pm but at jade pov it was 12:30pm so you know.

the exiles are FINALLY MEETING UP!!!! PM!!!!!!!!! i looove pm shes what makes me want to be a mailman. what the hell are the snake worm things in pm's like structure? whats it called? with the terminal. theyre awful silly but theyre kind of freaky and i dont know what they are.

john faq i always read the faqs theyre so fun. john try not to mention your friends by irl name on public forum challenge (even if he assumes everyone else is dead lol). i do NOT understand alchemizing mostly cus i dont get binary. but whatever. maybe i will someday

KARKAT VANTAS! i think the first mentions of the trolls are here! yaaay!

dave strife theyre still strifing i didnt get to the end yet. s beatdown or whatever. always interesting to me that dave never gets sliced or anythign even though theyre fighting with ultra sharp swords. how much restraint is bro (strider) showing? the fights ARE intended to be strengthening dave. but they dont. cus hes a kid and hes passive. im a sucker for bro strider i know he sucks but ugh i love dirk too much

mom lalondes lab drives me coocoo crazy. pov youre rose you go under your dead cats big ass mausoleum and find a laboratory your mother uses. theres 1 battery unlocked just for you. theres a giant ass monitor showing sburb sessions and meteors. did your mother know? did your mother know what was going to happen? youre thirteen years old. do you know? theres bright pink kiddy furniture. did your mother use it? when did she get it? it looks pristine. did she sleep in this when she was little? did she sleep in it as an adult? why would she buy herself such a thing at an adult age? youre rose lalonde. youre thirteen and full of hatred. you dont understand anything. you wear your mothers scarf and you pick up a stray mutant cat and name it after a drink your alcoholic mother loves. youre thirteen and full of hatred and you dont understand anything and you want to, so badly. so so badly.

jade is awesome her scampering through the house rocks. i wonder if she actually believes pa harley is talking to her, or if he actually is, or if shes just pretending. it has to be because of trauma, right? is she genuine? she has to be genuine. right? fosmf if you know anything about this let me know

jack noir... midnight crew.... oh how i cant wait for the intermission.

johns various mental breakdowns (over the discovery of his dads room; over betty crocker gushers; over the drawings over his posters) are insane. he lashes out so weirdly. dave said like john never gets mad or frustrated over real big stuff and he instead funnels it into tiny meaningless problems. i wonder what that means. im not into john enough to read into it or know

jade (and dirk by extension) waking up on prospit (or derse) early makes me thiiiink. i wonder if theyd get freaked by regular normal dreams. they god tier and sleep and wake up in a cold sweat Hello? Where am i. Hello? I just slept and nothing was there. Where am i

thinking about rose + jade a lot these first few acts. i looove rose and i looove jade. i focused on jade a lot the first time i read so im trying to focus on rose more because shes AWESOME! and i want to get to know her better. she deserves it. but anyway thats enough for today sorry for taking like a 12 day break lol

#me #nutzworth hs reread #its midnight.... was racing to do this before bed lol. they call me the sleeper

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studioboner · 6 months

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if any of my beloved mutuals have anythign they want me to tag so that it doenst show on their dash, feel free to reach out

btw i'd like ppl to tag sonadow for so i dont see it thanbk you!

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Legit so excited to hear your thought about the coaches and don't even get me started on NEKOMA, like so much potential with them have cat like eyes and agility and kdjcdnksjs

Am i the only one who thinks that kenma would know about a borrower in their gym, watching them all play, the entire time and just doesn't say anythign because he knows how it feels to be shorter than others, underestimated and feel looked down upon? Not only that but he is an introvert, he wouldn't want them to be put through what he deals with from Lev Haiba.

omg i have soooo many nekoma thoughts dude it's not even funny... kenma would literally be the best giant bc he doesn't ask a million questions, make height jokes or even act like anything is different lmao it's just another person, whatever, but he would have a soft spot for a tiny for the exact reasons u said. he'd find himself worrying about them bc they're so vulnerable and they dislike talking to humans as much as he does. if the whole team knew about the tiny they would NEVER leave them alone and kenma would have to step in to protect them at all times. the conversation would be like: tiny: you knew i was here??? kenma: nods tiny: how long? kenma: six months tiny: SIX MONTHS? AND YOU DIDNT SAY ANYTHING? kenma: /shrugs/ i didnt want to bother you

ok now let me do the coaches/managers bc i literally love them all and they'd all handle the situation in VASTLY different ways...

ukai would be really confused and he'd try to act like he doesn't care that the entire team has now adopted a tiny little human being. like they'd all be clamoring over a tiny and he'd be like what the hell is going on here?! and once he sees them he kind of freezes, looks at them really surprised but eventually goes "well as long as they're not distracting you from practicing what do i care" but he secretly like obsessively thinks about the tiny and is always trying to see what they're doing but really just has no idea where to even begin when it comes to talking to them. the tiny keeps thinking ukai hates them and is very scared of him and he legit needs to be told that the poor thing is terrified of him he's so oblivious. he feels bad and slowly starts to make amends and he would be rlly sweet with them honestly, letting them explore the store and giving them free food all the time. loves answering their volleyball questions

takeda would 1000% immediately go 🥺🥺🥺 at a tiny and just start fawning over them. like real tears in his eyes he'd think they're the cutest thing on the planet. he would obsessively ask about the things they need at all times: did you eat today? did you have enough water? have you tried this food instead? are you sure hinata's shoulder is the safest place to sit? oh please dont climb up that like that you'll hurt yourself like he is just so protective it hurts. is constantly thinking of ways to make their life easier and spoils them endlessly. always asks if they can pick them up before he even lays his hand out, and he's always offering to take them from place to place and the tiny is like it's okay i can walk and tekeda is like b-b-but that's dangerous!!! he's just the biggest sweetie. would stare at the tiny for way too long while theyre in his hand

shimizu would be so chill about it. she'd be acting like she's met a thousand tinies before. the tiny would NOT know how to read her at ALL and they wouldn't think she hates them, they'd just be like ... so what's her deal. and ofc shimizu finds them so freaking cute upon first seeing them and is so curious about them. she just doesn't really know the best way to ask them questions without feeling annoying but would always get them food, water, literally whatever they need, she just shows up with it and it's very sweet. she's like a beacon of comfort for a tiny, just reliable and would die protecting them no questions asked. accepts them as a member of the team instantly

yachi would be the same as takeda but like 100x louder because ! it's a little tiny person like !!!!!!! she would literally squeal upon meeting them and reach to pick them up before seeing they do NOT like that and she asks if she could hold them, like she would ask if she could hold a cute cat lmao she would be so obsessed with them, asking sooo many questions and being oblivious to the fact that she's huge compared to them (not a dynamic she's used to) but she's very apologetic and sincere that there's no way a tiny could ever really be scared of her aside from the sheer size difference. she would always ask so where are they? before every practice, she wants them to like her soooo bad and would become instant besties with them and would love explaining human stuff as much as she loved asking about borrower stuff

#omg this is sooooo long #i could go on and on and on #it's crazy how many good characters are in this show dude i have strong thoughts on how MANY of them would be with a tiny #like i didnt even touch on kuroo or lev #or anyone from seijoh yet LOL #the yapping might never stop #asks

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child-ofdust · 1 month

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assigning fidget toys to my f/os because umm :3 i just got two new 1s in the mail abd its on my brain

OK!!! Starting w/ sam first

in general i don't think he fidgets a lot. he jst...doesn't really need to, any stimming is done through his wings & that's usually good enough but if he were to pick up anything from my collection it would be fingears !!! i think his favorite way of fidgeting with them would be spinning in his non-dominant while working on a new script or something similar:-)

bella time

SLUGS. this isnt even a question i know she would love those slugs, i don't think she's a noise person like me i think she'd just like the act/feeling of throwing something around like a rag doll w/o getting in trouble for it. kind of similar to sam, i don't think she rlly has the need or want to fidget, she gets bored rather quickly and that carries over to fidget toys

caesar

maybe i'm projecting. idc. but he loves tangles & knucklebones. anything he can roll/move around his hand, especially the top knuckle area (ME TOO!!!). i also think he'd be partial to pop-its but specifically the squishy bubble-like ones (this doesn't make sense & idk how else to explain it help but it's silly and reminds me of bubbles)

ok i know joseph isn't like 'officially' an f/o but i can't selfship w caesar if his boyfriend jose isn't here so..

another rlly easy one, begleris. i don't know ehat else to say help i wanted to make this post specifically because of this part lol. not rlly a fidget toy but i think he'd just enjoy spinning pens n stuff in general. OH AND FIDGET SPINNERS!!!

hol horse

i accidentally exited out while writing jfhdu so oopsie. rewrite Tl;dr - hol would definitely just use his emperor to fidget. if this was a non-stand au he'd love those silly little clickers in the shape of revolvers hffu i know it...

dio

dio dio dio... gah. He could use anythign and also nothing help i dont think he's a fidgeter, that seems 'beyond' him in a sense. but i know i could get him on the fidget toy train i know it. like, bike chain fidgets

am i projecting again? maybe!!! but bike chains r so ... flippy... easy to hide, pretty quiet too so basically unnoticeable/mindless. i think he'd default to flipping 'em w/o even noticing while doing one of his villain monologues.

also just. since im talking abt bike chains rn, i think rohan would also use them! but also just small clickers & anything he can use in his non-dominant hand in general while he works on his manga:3

#💌#<- too many individual tags so we're just going w this #long post #this isnt all of them help but i im having a jojo moment ok guys #weepss #just realized i forgot kira but like...we all know he'd use anything ring related (e.g. fingears n stuff.)#maybe even tangles tbh

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