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Thanks for the 7th Anniversary - Part 3: The school festival starts!

*Osaka manor*

Secretary: I brought today’s newspaper

Soshi: Leave it here

Soshi: Part of this page has been torn off. What’s the reason? What kind of article did it feature?

Secretary:...it was an article about young master Sogo. You told me to get any article concerning him out of Your sight…

Soshi:...what kind of news was it?

Secretary: It was about the role of the main character in a drama serie inspired by the awarded novel “Kizuna”

Soshi: Mpf. So now he’s done with music and wants to be an actor? He’s quite fickle

Secretary: Actually…The young Master will compose the theme song

Soshi:.........

Secretary: Would you like to see the ripped page?

Soshi: Did I ask for that?

Secretary: I apologize

Soshi: Put this magazine away. I have a breakfast meeting at the hotel

Secretary: As You wish

*Cut to a blue sky*

Tsumugi:...and so

Tsumugi: the day of the seventh school festival arrived!

*Cut to a classroom*

Matsunaga Taro: I’m happy to be working with you today

Tsumugi: Same!

Riku: We’re happy to be working with you!

Mitsuki: This school’s students are amazing! The archway they put at the gate was very authentic!

Nagi: Yes! And they decorated it with seven stars

Matsunaga Taro: We even rearranged that mascot costume, just to make the “Birth of the Nanahoshi star” atmosphere more exciting!

Sogo: The lion’s head was turned into a black circle, while the arabesque cloth was replaced by a silver cloak…right?

Tamaki: Ah, is it a microphone? The upper part is the head of the microphone and the body is where the grip is

Matsunaga Taro: Correct! And since it will be the mascot for the “Birth of the Nanahoshi star” event, it will be called Starbi!

Iori: There was a public contest to choose the mascot’s name

Mitsuki: Wearing that costume must be hot as hell. It seems pretty solid, a relative of yours could be inside and you wouldn’t even notice

Yamato: I don’t think anybody’s relative is supposed to wear it

Nagi: Oh…really?

Riku: What about your class project, Iori?

Iori: I’m joining it when it’s my turn. Pay attention to do the same, Yotsuba san

Tamaki: Roger

Sogo: So, what’s it going to be? Ah, maybe it’s on the pamphlet…

Tamaki: You can’t look

Sogo: But I want to see what you’re going to do at the school festival, Tamaki kun

Riku: Me too! I want to see what the two of you are planning!

Iori&Tamaki: Top secret

Riku&Sogo: What??

Matsunaga Taro: There’s still some time before the performance, so please, feel free to enjoy the festival

Nagi&Mitsuki&Riku&Yamato&Sogo: Thank you!

*Cut to a street*

Momo: Ah, it’s here! There are so many people!

Yuki: Seems like it. We’ve arrived, Shizuo san

Shizuo: Yes….

Passerby girl: Re.vale?!

Passerby girl 2: It’s Re:vale, isn’t it?!

Momo: Hello! Sorry, it’s our day off!

Ryo:......

Momo: Ryo….?

Yuki: What happened?

Momo: Ah, no….

Ryo:.....tsk

Momo: …He ran away…! Ugh…Yuki…! Go ahead, okay?

Yuki: What?!

Momo: I’ll catch up with you later! Take care of Chiba san!

Yuki:...Momo’s gone. I wonder what’s going on…

Shizuo: Aah…I don’t know, maybe I should just stop here…

Yuki: We came all the way here, what are you saying now? I even brought a penlight for you

Shizuo: A penlight?

Yuki: Let’s wave it together. Hurting Yamato kun’s feelings is something you do quite often, right?

Shizuo: Recently…

Yuki: Yes?

Shizuo: I thought things were going well, until a few days ago…

Yuki: He’s really grown up, hasn’t he? I bet you were very happy about Mikazuki Ookami

Shizuo: Yes, I was….

Yuki: And still, you had to say this and that and made him angry

Shizuo: It was never my intention. It’s just that they asked me to say something, and so I did…

Shizuo: And there were so many things I wanted to say to Yamato, as an actor, that I couldn’t stop. I think you went through something like that with Momo, too

Yuki: Ahah…yes, it happens to me sometimes. Now that I think about that, you told me something years ago

Yuki: “We are bastards who only care about their art, that’s why we often end up hurting people. So, if you can, do your best to be a good human being”

Shizuo: I said so, yes…I wonder how I could forget this lesson

Yuki: Please, reconcile with him. That boy has already endured a lot. Today, you must yield

Shizuo: I know…

Shizuo: That’s why a wind of cowardice is blowing

Yuki: Yamato kun has proved himself brave. Let’s go, I’ll treat you today

Shizuo: With what?

Yuki: Well, since it’s a school festival…Kakigori? Yakisoba, maybe?

Shizuo: Ahah…the springtime of life

Yuki: Fufu. It really is

Shizuo: So…is it me or has your partner just run away from you?

Yuki: Don’t say things like that! He wasn’t running away from me

Yuki: But I wonder where he went…Momo…

*Cut to a secondary street*

Momo:....anf…caught you!

Ryo: Ugh…!

Momo: Why are you running like that?! Also, why were you there?!

Ryo:.....

Ryo: Could you let go of my hand? At this point you are the one assaulting me, aren't you?

Momo: Grabbing one’s arm is assault to you?!

Ryo: Long time no see, Momo

Momo:...yeah. So, why were you running? The sight of me shocked you that much?

Ryo: And why were you following me? Yuki may get angry if he finds out you’re still involved with me

Momo: Because I saw you running! What are you doing? I hope the answer is “nothing”, though…

Ryo: …..I went to the temple

Momo: To the temple?

Ryo: I wanted to torch the document that proves Riku and Kujo Tenn are twins

Momo: You wanted to erase it from the face of the earth?

Ryo:....hmpf

Momo: I see…sorry, I thought you were plotting some sort of awfulness

Ryo: It’s fine

Momo: And so? Did you torch the document in the end?

Ryo: I dropped it

Momo: What?!? Dropped?!

Ryo: It can’t be helped. The place was so crowded, and everybody was walking in the same direction

Momo: The school festival is just two steps away! Where did you drop it? Oh no, we must find it quickly!

Ryo: Calm down

Momo: You’re the one who’s way too calm about this! Panicking is the bare minimum!

Ryo: I'm very panicked, then! Very, veeery panicked!

Momo: Are you kidding me, bastard?!

Ryo: Stop! Grabbing me like that…! You’re supposed to be an idol

Momo: Where did you lose that document?! It was inside something, I suppose! What was it?

Ryo: A blue carrying case

Momo: Ah…those fashionable, expensive ones that are trending among celebrities?

Ryo: Yes! Rather than dropping it, let’s say a foreigner took it by mistake

Momo: A foreigner took it by mistake?

Ryo: We bumped into each other and dropped our bags

Ryo: We picked them up without looking at each other, I noticed that the cases were almost identical

Momo: And that guy’s is..?

Ryo: I threw it away

Momo: You did what?!?

Ryo: Well, I didn’t literally throw it away. Let’s say I left it at the bonfire's acceptance. I have other things to do, you know

Momo: What was in there?

Ryo: A letter

Momo: It’ll be lost if they burn it! We must go take that letter back!

Momo: But the document must be found as well…alright! You’ll contact Utsugi san

Ryo: Why?

Momo: Because we’re completely lost without any help! And I can’t ask Yuki…

Ryo: Eeh, why can’t you ask Yuki? Did you realize you’ve betrayed him?

Momo: Yuki would definitely trust me if I said I thought you were up to something awful!

Momo: At the same time, you wanted to finally get rid of that document

Ryo:.....

Momo: Of course, I wonder why of all the ways to get rid of a document you chose burning it at a temple’s bonfire

Momo: But you were up to something good for once, and if it ends up making you look bad you won’t do anything like that ever again

Momo: I don’t want that

Ryo:...oh, really?

Momo: If you got it, let’s call Utsugi san and ask for help

Ryo….I don’t want to call Shiro

Momo: Why?

Ryo: He’ll make things bothersome

Momo: Then make an effort! As depraved as you are, you're still the president’s son, aren’t you?! You must have some power!

Ryo: However, I’m not the president anymore…

Momo: Call, now!

*Cut to the school*

Girl: Ah, look! It’s ŹOOĻ, isn’t it!

Girl 2: They must be here to see Isumi! Inumaru Touma looks so scary! He’s cool!

Girl 3: Midou Torao looks even better in real life!

Girl 1: Ooh, look at Natsume Minami san! He’s so so beautiful!

Touma *thinking*: Haru said that this school’s students are used to celebrities and wouldn’t make any fuss, but…

Torao *thinking*: As expected, we draw too much attention walking all together like this…

Minami *thinking*: Maybe it would be better to separate until we meet Isumi san…

Shiro: Hello! Nice to meet you, we’re ŹOOĻ!

Minami&Touma&Torao:....?!

Shiro: Take care of us today!

Touma: U-Utsugi san! What’s going on? You have quite a positive attitude, today

Shiro: This school’s students are used to celebrities, aren’t they? So, I’ve been told to act normal

Shiro: We’re basically Isumi san’s parental guardians, today. It’s not good for us to be rude and not greet properly, right?

Touma: Well, yes…Haru’s grandma told us to take care of him as well

Student: Ah, ŹOOĻ …

Touma: Oh yeah! We’re ŹOOĻ!

Shiro: We’re ŹOOĻ!

Student: Kyaaaah, ŹOOĻ …!?

Touma: Exactly! In the flesh!

Shiro: We’re ŹOOĻ, yes! Thank you for taking care of Isumi Haruka!

Torao:...really? We must act that open?

Minami:..people are crowding around us

Touma: Ah! Mina, Tora, listen. Haru was pretty embarrassed about today, so even if he shows up wearing something weird don’t make fun of him

Torao: Something weird? I knew he was going to do some kind of cosplay, but what costume is he wearing?

Touma: I have no clue, but he’s definitely ashamed of it. We don’t want him to sulk, right? Poor Haru

Minami: Oh, I understand…shall we avoid ridiculing him no matter what he’s wearing, then?

Torao: We don’t want to make him angry at school, after all

Shiro: Whatever he’s wearing, I’m sure it suits Isumi san!

*Phone ringing*

Shiro: Ah…Ryo kun is calling me. Excuse me for a moment

Touma: Ryo san? Ah, I see…

Shiro: Utsugi Shiro here. Ah, yes, I’m at Nanahoshi school. What? At the temple? Oh no, I absolutely don’t want to go

Shiro:...I don’t want to. Go there yourself. Why? You’re talking about that temple, right? Up on the hill…Yes, yes. Well, I don’t want to climb up there

Shiro: What? You already did? Basically, you got up there and then you came down? And now you have to go back there?

Shiro: Ahah, what a fool’s errand. Look, the answer is no. See you

*Bip*

Shiro: Sorry, I made you wait

Touma *thinking*: Is he comfortable facing Ryo san like that? Torao *thinking*: How is this guy still alive?

Minami *thinking*: Why is Ryo san so interested in a temple? Does he want to visit it 100 times to make amends for the past?

Shiro: So, where shall we start the tour from? Let’s look at the school pamphlet…

*Phone ringing*

Shiro: He’s so persistent… I apologize. Can you guys go ahead?

Touma: Ah, yes. Message us once you’re done with the call

Shiro: I will

Touma: If we manage to find Haru, we’ll catch him for you!

Shiro: Please, do it

*Cut to the school stage*

Student: This is the “Birth of the Nanahoshi star” stage! Judges’ seats are over there!

Otoharu: Thank you

Sosuke: Shit… I don’t understand. Why the hell are me and Takanashi normal judges and you’re the President of the Jury?

Rintaro: Ahah, I was surprised as well. My small and weak agency against yours, how could I end up being the president?

Rintaro: Young people hold the future, don’t they? They must expect something good from my agency

Otoharu: Why did you choose the president of Okazaki company?

Student: Well…because Re:vale are in that company, and they are the overall champions of Black and White

Rintaro: Reason is being a winner, then. I’m sorry, but victories and achievements do talk

Sosuke: Mpf, look at the way he shows off….this man sucks

Rintaro: And still I like you, Yaotome san. Let’s get along, okay?

Sosuke: Don’t forget what you said

Rintaro: What? “I like you, Yaotome san”?

Rintaro: Oh, don’t worry! I won’t forget! I like you

Sosuke: I’m not referring to that! The line about getting along

Sosuke: We’re the judges of a project involving a newborn star

Sosuke: If we find somebody with the potential to become a star of the new age, there will be no march stealing

Rintaro: But of course! I’m not planning to do anything like that

*Seth passes by*

Sosuke&Rintaro:......!

Otoharu: Ah, what a stylish, beautiful guy! He must be from Northern Europe. Very charismatic

Otoharu: It reminds me of somebody, though…

Sosuke: We must talk to him right now! Before Okazaki agency beats us

Rintaro: Rinto! Where’s Rinto?! Go, go!! C’mon c'mon c’mon, give him our business card!

Sosuke: Okazaki! You said “no march stealing”, didn’t you?!

Rintaro: Yes, yes. I like you, Yaotome san

*Cut to a school hallway*

*Electronic noises*

Thorvard: <Diagonally behind us, on the right. There’s a young man with glasses, wearing a suit, coming toward us>

Thorvard: <Please, double check>

*Bzzz*

Seth: <This is a Japanese summer festival…>

Thorvard: <Our men have tracked Nagi sama. He seems to be in this area. Apparently, he’s going to perform>

Seth: <So we’ll get to watch him sing. What’s that, Thorvard?>

Thorvard: <Your Highness Seth! Don’t walk away from me, please>

Seth: <What’s written here?>

Thorvard: <“Your first scarecrow-making experience”>

Seth: <Amazing….and what’s written there?>

Thorvard: <“Heart beating ☆ Amateur hypnotism show”>

Seth:< ...I’m sure Sakura Haruki would have loved to go back to Japan and experience a festival like this once more>

Thovard: <This festival is more suitable for students, but…yes, maybe >

Seth: <The reason why Sakura Haruki could never come back home is me. It’s because I locked him up...>

Thorvard: <This is also true, but he had the desire to pass away in North Meir…>

Seth: <Yes, but…the letter he addressed to Nagi must still be filled with hateful words against me, right?>

Thorvard: < Yes….>

Seth: <I knew it. Let’s go back home>

Thorvard: <Do you mean, let’s go back home to North Meir?>

Seth: <Exactly. Let’s hurry>

Thorvard: <Please, wait!>

Seth: <Nagi will find us if we stay here…!>

*Seth and Thorvard run away*

Nagi: Yeey! Let’s go see it!

Yamato: A mimicry competition? Mitsu, do you have some kind of trademark gag ready?

Mitsuki: Roppu chan, from Usamimi friends. Iori’s gonna love it

Yamato: Ahaha! What the heck is that?

*Nagi, Yamato and Mitsuki walk away*

Seth: <...is he gone?>

Thorvard: < He is… >

Seth: <Aah…that was scary…>

Thorvard: <I thought we had come so far to meet him…>

Seth: <Yes, but… <

Tenn *in english* : Are you okay?

Seth:.....

Tenn *in english* : You’re sitting down. Are you not feeling well?

Seth: <I’ve seen his face before…ah, the minister Kenneth…his phone’s wallpaper…>

Thorvard: <Aaah! Your Highness is right…!>

Ryunosuke: Is everything alright, Tenn?

Tenn: They don’t seem to understand english…

Gaku: A heat stroke, probably! Here, I bought some water!

Seth:....!

Gaku: W-what?

Seth: Shinpachiro!

Thorvard: Mikazuki Ookami!

Gaku: Ah, do you know me? I’m happy, thank you. Ah, I should say it in English. Thanks

Seth: Kuro…?

Tenn: Yes. I’m Kuro’s actor, my name is Kujo Tenn

Seth: Ok…Jobei! Jobei!

Ryunosuke: Ah, yes…I’m Kibaya Junpei’s actor. Tsunashi Ryunosuke

Seth: Kiba wo….mukuyouni…

Gaku: You’re well informed! In english… We sang crescent rise

Seth: OH MY GOD…!

Student: Over there…is it Trigger?!

Student 2: You’re right! And they’re together with some handsome people! I want to speak with them…!

Student: We can’t! Teachers told us we can't do that, didn’t they?! Ah, but they’re so handsome…

Ryunosuke: Ah, hello…!

Student: Ah, he did greet us…!

Student 2: That’s so kind of him!

Gaku: Tenn. Are these guys alright?

Gaku: I have water if they’re not feeling well

Seth:....?

Thorvard: Ah, sorry, I can translate. I do speak japanese

Tenn: Are you doing okay? Please, have some water

Thorvard: Thank you

Thorvard: <Your Highness Seth, they thought we weren’t feeling well and brought us some water>

Seth: <I see. I’ll send them an appreciation letter from the palace. As expected from the people acting in Mikazuki Ookami>

Thorvard: <Yes, You’re right>

Seth: <Such an amazing encounter makes me want to support young people with talent, like I used to do>

Seth: <If this place was North Meir, I would have invited them to the palace>

Thorvard: <Ahah, right. Lord Kenneth would definitely be amazed!>

Gaku: You seem to know us pretty well, and it doesn’t look like you’re travelers. Do you live in Japan?

Thorvard: Ah…we’re travelers, actually. We’re feeling alright, we just had a little shock

Tenn: What happened?

Seth: <What are you saying?>

Thorvard: <I told him the reason why we were sitting down was due to a shock>

Seth: <Tell them that my little brother probably hates me. Nagi likes historical dramas, right? I’ll send him a picture of them>

Thorvard: <I’ll try to negotiate>

Thorvard: Actually, his little brother probably hates him. In order to let him reconcile with his brother, may I take a picture of you?

Thorvard: Because he likes historical dramas and Mikazuki Ookami

Gaku: Yeah, we don’t mind. Right?

Tenn: It’s fine with me

Ryunosuke: He had a fight with his little brother…? There was a time when my little brother wouldn’t talk to me,so I understand the painful feeling

Ryunosuke: If you do your best and act honestly, he will surely understand. You can do it!

Thorvard: <He said he also had a fight with his little brother. If you act honestly, you can reconcile. Then he said “you can do it”>

Seth: <What good-natured young men. When the time comes, I shall invite them to dinner with Nagi>

Thorvard: <Really?>

Seth: <Of course. They’re promising Japanese actors. Ask them to dinner>

Thorvard: <He said that he wants to invite you to dinner, once his relationship with his brother gets better>

Ryunosuke: Ahah, I’m happy. But, really, you don’t have to bother

Gaku: No, thank you, but I appreciate the kindness. I hope you can fix things with your brother

Seth: < What did they say?>

Thorvard: < They’re grateful>

Seth: <What a wonderful story. Keep track of their contact details>

Thorvard: <At Your command>

Tenn:....I have the impression I’ve seen this person before…

End of part 3

#Idolish7 #idolish7translation #trigger #revale #zool

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msommers · 7 months

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sorry for your tummy hurty hours 😔 also betrayal, desire, midnight, and wound for riya and maeve!

i have in fact suffered tummy hurty hours for a second time since this ask so i'm cashing in 2x, thank you xoxo // oc asks: not-so-nice edition

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

RIYA — a no on both accounts. maybe you could find some social drama from cumberland socialite days but that shit is so far beyond anything Serious compared to the goings on of the campaign that it hardly counts. actually, i lied. her brother sebastian constantly betrayed her trust by snitching anytime she did something he thought their mother would disapprove of, so he can choke.

MAEVE — by someone she trusts, no. she learned her own lessons and had plenty of witchers to let her know how dangerous it can be to hand trust away easily, so that takes a while to build up. has probably been betrayed in general though, there are plenty of selfish people who would look at her generosity and willingness to work against “authority” and take advantage of it.

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

RIYA — if we go with answering what she wants presently, i think with all the goofing and flirting and whining, it really boils down to her craving comfort. and that's probably easy to tell with or without an insight check because she's not trying to hide it, and it's clear to everybody who spends 10 minutes around her that she's having a dreadful time adjusting to life without her usual rich girl privileges. she wants to go back to lounging around and being fed little chocolates or w/e, this sucks.

MAEVE — it's so cheesy that the first two things that popped to mind for her were to be loved and to make a difference. both are true, it just depends on the day which desire is at the top of her list. she's always happy to discuss the hopes that her works will potentially change people's prejudices, and that's something she puts effort into every day. the wanting to be loved is like. 30% of the time it can be obvious because she'll start alluding to it or even openly talking about it, then the other 70% it depends on if the person she's talking to is capable of reading her beyond the smiles and chatter.

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

RIYA — THE NEVERENDING NIGHTMARES, MY GUY. she’s lucky that the party’s grey warden duties usually wear them out enough through the day that the anxieties and nagging guilt can’t keep her from passing out, but the nightmares have been waking her early in the last few months. riya’s got her morning rituals: brushing out her hair and styling it according to vibes, going over her spellbook, debating with herself if it’s worth using some of her precious perfumes or oils, thinking about her family and nearly crumbling because of how terribly she misses them, reciting important quest information in her head to keep from forgetting it. you know, the usual.

MAEVE — her partners ey-ohhhhhhh. anyway all of the above, though it grows more infrequent as the years go by and she becomes accustomed to feeling safe. anxiety is probably the worst?? because it can sneak up on her without warning, especially if she knows somebody she cares about is off doing something dangerous. her go-tos on a sleepless morning are journaling or taking a bath, sometimes both if she's feeling frisky.

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

RIYA — answered here.

MAEVE — she can take more hits than your average noble before going down but she’s still only a bard at the end of the day and absolutely in tears after just the first. she’s shaking, shouting her panic and trying to find cover but hey she’s not entirely useless, she might be able to shoot her bow from back there. can definitely provide colorful and fun commentary at the least. please give her medical attention and please make it intimate to encourage affection and vulnerability, thank you. most of her wounds are mental and leftover from the carden era tbh. worst wound has to default to the one that straight-up killed her for a hot minute, i imagine. fuck if i remember what it was but it sure does take the cake for being fatal.

#ch: valeriya de clairmont #ch: maeve sommers #my brain was so busted today the desire q for riya had me staring @ a wall for like a minute straight. no thoughts #that's actually how i feel again now. head empty used all the brain power up in photoshop

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fumikomiyasaki · 1 year

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Short Story- A Magical encounter

On a late day she opened a book talking to another student she was tutoring.

“Oh you wanted to hear that story... I think I can share it... at least how much I wanna share.”

She turned a page with a smile and then began talking.

“As I arrived at this school freshly many students already heard about me just cause of the whole... Magicless students from another world who are allowed to stay here... I got some odd looks as I arrived her... but not everyone was that judgemental... teachers helped me build up my tutoring. Yet I still noticed many who didn’t take me serious or just thought just cause I am a magicless human girl that they could pick on me... eventually I made myself enough authority and then I did meet someone interesting.

At first glace he seemed just like a student my age but that was far from the truth... he was a pretty strong Magician outdoing most of the other students... and it was surprising at first he came to me for tutoring. I do believe it was cause Emrys saw me around and saw how lost I really was in this school untill I shortly got friends and all... but in general he stuck next to me while I taught some things out the history books and was a great listener...

Then you might have heard what happened... my curiousity got the better of me and I wanted magic as well... I wanted to help the other students in such subjects as well so in secret I found this cursed book that I slowly deciphered... I should have known by then it wasn’t a good idea yet I hid it from everyone else usually... at least untill the fated day it happened... I managed to crack what was written, Emrys stopped by for tutoring as usual and the book took over my body... trying in an overblot to use me as meat shield and fully breaking the seal to claim my body as theirs... I thought my only option was to sacrefice myself so the others won’t be hurt but hearing more students come in beside them, trying to help me... made it clear to not just give up... and eventually they all did manage to help me... yet on the price of weeks of my body being hurty, feeling weak and trying to heal...

Once I recovered I noticed the Magic abilities I got... plant magic, but also my Unique magic helped the feeling process yet it was a time where I was glad Emrys offered his help... teaching me, helping me sustain and control the new magic I got... and watching out I don’t collapse... eventually we grew closer and closer... to the point I shared more about where I came from, we started casually flirting...yet I still was unaware as usual he liked me as much I liked him...

I mean I had many crushes at that point and hardly knew if any of them liked me back, the past taught me that any person could turn their back on me so... I just had it hard to trust it... yet each day I felt more and more to gain the hope that he might just like me back...

One day where I was practising my Vine Magic, it was a tangled mess I needed to get out of and I did almost manage it alone, as Emrys came in and lend me his hand. The foot was the only thing that needed pulling out and as he pulled my body away from it... I slipped out yet we both tumbled over and I landed on top of him... face to face I could barely hide how red my face really was... my feelings were too obvious but feeling him draw closer and pull me into a kiss on a whim... it was like all of the pressure sunk away... it was like everything was clear now... I remember I was a bit stuttery after this happened yet I told him that I was crushing on him for a while, his response being that he pulled me into a hug and asked me on a date out... it was like my clumsyness got me into a lucky situation since I didn’t feel the worry anymore if he did like me back or not...”

She closed the book...

“I think this is enough how we got together, for now did you finish all your tasks?”

“Y-yes miss Ann, here.”

She nodded and waved the student off to leave, packing her stuff with a sigh... untill someone familar stopped by... Emrys looked at her with a smile.

“You praise me that much when I am gone?”

“What can I say... I just tell the truth... sorry to keep you waiting.”

He smirked and pulled her a bit closer by the hips.

“We have the rest of the night, I know how important your students are to you, still hope I am your favourite.”

She smiled at him a little red and adjusted her glasses, getting a little close as if to tease him.

“If I am yours as well?”

A chuckle escaped him. “I think we can agree on that then... “

He stole a kiss from her before they both walked out the library... Her arm around his for a while...

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shameboree · 2 years

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please rec more fics that will absolutely destroy me 🙏

okay disclaimer i am so picky that i quit most angst fic bc i have VERY PARTICULAR needs and also i x out if it is too Grimdark bc i prefer canon typical goofery where the kiddos still manage to land in the DESPAIR ZONE. you were the brightest of us is def my absolute top hurtful gutting miseryfic to injure urself w but here are some other angsty things even if theyre not on that level

postcards from io OBVIOUSLY

a fight that you were born to lose

i fucking LOVE THIS FIC!!! focuses on adrien and his deteriorating relationship w gabriel who is in a freefall toilet spiral AND THEN the aftermath of the hawkmoth reveal. this fic is so good and i treasure it

i shall never know that second death

this is suuuch a good grief fic. marinette sacrifices her memories so they can kick gabes ass and then from then on has to move forward w her life past the incomplete picture of the girl she used to be while everyone else also has to grieve n let go of the marinette who knew them. BITTERSWEET ENDING leaves u a little hurty still

when you werent mine to lose

chat noir gets dead and marinette is willing to take DRASTIC MEASURES to save her catboy eurydice while also being sad

technical difficulties

kicks over a fucking table YEARS LATER IM STILL OBSESSED W THIS FIC THAT WILL NEVER BE FINISHED!!! AAAAAAAH!!!!!!!! right off the bat ladybug is forced to detransform in front of nino and thus begins marinette and nino having a pretty good time relying on each other and being friends while adrien is having definitely NOT a good time completely alone and not entirely successfully repressing a bunch of anger and resentment over feeling cut out (i cant believe this fic predicted adriens canon char arc). theres marichat (OPTIMAL) and also chat outright menacing nino near the end of whats written. i love this fic.

forget me not

adrien and marinettes unhealthy depression meltdowns after the Final Battle cucks them out of a reveal and leaves them without their miraculouses. CRAIGLIST MISSED CONNECTIONS!! dumb idiots being sad and coping in just awful ways but it all ends up fine (they go to the BONE ZONE as a heads up)

the way i loved you

MARICHAT ANGST ft adrien being such a dumbass and just totally fucking things up bc he doesnt know how to use his two braincells, as is good and right

adrien and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day

oneshot w a feel good resolution so not super heavy on angst tbh. its a classic accidental public reveal fic that focuses on the alienating emotional fallout in the immediate aftermath

when the morning comes

post hawkmoth reveal fallout but from TOM DUPAINS POV!!! best dad picks up the pieces of the shit bad dad fucked all the way up and tries to help adrien puzzle them back together and i looooove the way he handles it

realizing that i love fic where adrien in particular is having a bad time. hm.

#miraculous ladybug #fic rec #i have so many fics saved....#and YET i still cant find that one w the line abt sick marinette having the blanket draped over her shoulders like a cape!!! bullshit

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tellywoodtrash · 4 years

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immj2 13.10.20 lb

askjdshkfjdhkfkjdhfkj vansh being told the number of things that went wrong in the 24ish hours he wasn't in this house of horrors and his face is like THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I DON'T LEAVE YOU FUCKING DUMBASSES ALONE

lol, like i said in the firsttttttttt lb, vansh is taking this news realllllllll chill. he's not mad at riddhima at allllllllll for keeping all this from him.

saasuji, chachi, and aryan adding some shuddh desi ghee in this aag. can't blame them. riddhima IS a colossal pain in the ass.

lmao one more bomb thrown on vansh, ki sejal bhi kidnap hui hai aur yahin kahin hai. yaaaaaar, i never thought i'd feel this bad for Ghar Ka Bada Beta after shivaay, but this man is truly having to deal with The Most.

accusation after accusation thrown left and right, and vansh is literally like

man, idk why kabir does any of this devious planning and effort. with allllllll this dumbfuckery, it's just a matter of time before the raisinghanias go extinct from SHEER STUPIDITY. he should just bide his time and let them wipe themselves out. should take like, 3 months, tops.

VANSH HAS A BOMB OF HIS OWNNNNNNNNN: “SEJAL MERE PAAS HAI.” WHUT??!!?!?!?

lmao the panic on allllllllllll these fools' faces hearing that vansh has sejal. dadi and siya are the only oblivious and unbothered ones here.

hahahahahaha vansh turns around and sees YET another fucker who's out to test him and is like MOTHERF....... AB TU KAUN HAI BEYYYYY

vansh playing march 24th waale modiji and is like NONE OF YOU FUCKERS LEAVING THE HOUSE FROM NOW ON. NO ONE. EVER.

dang this growly vansh aint the smiley simp from the last 2-3 eps. i'm intrigued.

he promises everyyyyyything's gonna come out in a bit. yissssssssssssssss *grabs my popcorn from the rasoda*

vanshhhhhhhh OUT!

my queschun is ki does mishra know he's fully being made to shady shit by kabir or not!?!?!??!?

mishra not picking phone. he dedddddddddddd, lol. #RIPMishra

KABIR WTF DON'T BE PULLING THE DUDE'S WIFE AROUND LIKE THIS. OH GOD THEY'RE FULLY GONNA GET MURDERED TODAY.

ainvayi ka nakli fikar and some chugli against vansh.

REJECTED. honestly, she's really asking to be murdered, lol. sis, you can't be playing both parties like this.

lol kabir is meeeeeeee, so sick and tired of heterosexual ppl in love.

blah blah blah find out what he knows.

lmao everyoneeeeeeeeee is panickkkkkk.

WHY DOES HE KEEP TAKING HIS BLOODY MASK OFFFFFFFF

AND DESTROYING PROPERTY AND MAKING NOISE TO DRAW MORE ATTENTION TO THE ROOM. KABIR, SATYAAANAAASH, I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE SMART ONE HERE.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP.

lolololololololololllllllll mummy ki haalat kharaab.

kabir using his half brain cell and not panicking out of control. good.

god bless this vapid praani. idhar sab ki hawa tight hai aur isko apni hairstyle ki padi hai. he's like an evil rudra from IB.

chachi is relatably stress-eating carbs. my most potent coping mechanism.

aryan is like, chillllllll this is mauke pe chauka type situation.

ASDLFKDSLKFJDLSKFJDLSJFLDSKJFL VANSH WHY ARE YOU LIKE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HE LAMINATED IT AND EVERYTHING HAHAHAHAHHAHA GODDDDDDD I LOVE HIS PETTY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

chalo inn madam ki baari ab, phat ke haath mein aane ki.

helllllllllllllllo, sir. immediate aankhon ko thandak now that he changed out of that red suit.

damn, my aankhein not the only thing thandiiiiiii in this room. temp just dropped to -20 with how chilly he's being to her.

SIS HAS WIPED HER SWEATY UPPER LIP SO MANY TIMES KI FREEFUND KI MOOCHON KI WAXING HO GAYI HAI FRICTION SE. BEHEN POWDER THAT SHIT AND STOP TOUCHING IT; YOU'RE GIVING THE WHOLE GAME AWAY. JESUS. ISKO SPY BANAAKE BHEJA HAI?!?!?! ISKO?????? 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

lol does he look like he gives a rat’s ass about sejal and your ramkathaa??????

DUDE STOP RAMBLING. JESUS. YOU'RE SOFA KING BAD AT THIS.

speaking of bad sofas, wth is up with the RIDICULOUSLY high backed chairs in this house, they look fucking insane.

vansh willing her to STFU with his eyes is honestly me.

“maine apni pasand badal li, riddhima.” yiiiiiiiiikes. he's not just talking about cologne, is he???

but also, you deserve much better than this twit, so good for you, my man. you deserve to be with someone who at least has six (6) brain cells.

dhat tere ki. he still seems into her. bloody heterosexuality. hum sabko le doobegi.

“itni nervous kyun ho tum aaj?”

NERVOUSNESS JAAYE BHAAD MEIN; I WOULD FUCKING NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH MY FACE WITH THEIR BLOODY HANDKERCHIEF EXCUSE ME SIR THIS SKIN TAKES A LOT OF MAINTENANCE I CANNOT HAVE YOU DABBING AT IT WITH YOUR FILTHY POCKET CLOTH AND RISKING BREAKOUTS I MUST INSIST YOU REASSURE AND COMFORT ME FROM 2 FEET AWAY THANK YOU

riddhima trying valiantly to bluff her way through this conversation but vansh is like me on online shopping sites after filling my cart full of stuff: NOT BUYING IT.

literally me any time someone touches my face. internally screaming and thinking about how i’ll have to go dab tea tree oil all over to preemptively stop a breakout.

uhhhhhhhhhhh, she didn't say anything about wanting to know what sejal said to you????? mind-reading is very rude and an invasion of privacy, vansh!!!!!

4 pm, kab bajenge bloody 4, out with it alreadyyyyyyyyy.

lol that tinnnnnnnnny smirk of his as he leaves.

no but forreal, imagine living with this dramaticass man who promises big shows at a given time, like honestly i would be so fucking annoyed. at least shivaay never planned his big living room all-family conferences and made ppl WAITTTTTTTTT for it.

mummy is like kabir plsssssssssssss gtfo.

riddhima is useless as ever and has no info. big surprise.

AEDKLSJFLDSKJLFSKJFLKSDJL HE SNUCK UP ON HER

mummy always been knowing that riddhima is a fucking nikammi.

ok notttttttttt cooool my man. phone is private shit.

off kardiya shaaaani ne.

lol kiskoooooooo pappu bana rahi ho behen, this man knows everyyyyyyyyything.

was that HIS phone he just picked up and left? usmein recording kar raha tha toh??????

honestly can you even blame vansh for being such a shakki shakeel, his house is filllllllllled with fucking snakes.

THIS FOOL JUST BE WALKING AROUND USING ALL THE MAIN DOORS AND SHIT WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU MANNNNNNNNN

asjdkasjdkajshkdsj and the prize for most valiant effort at hide and seek goes to.................

peripheral vision naam ki bhi koi cheez hoti hai, bhai. use karle.

4 BAJ GAYE LEKIN PARTY ABHI BAAKI HAI, ABHI TOH PARTY SHURU HUI HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIII 🥳🥳🥳

hahahahahhahahaha what the fuck his ass actually has a fulllllllllblown sirens blowing at 4 pm. like not a small tinkly alarm too, this is like those sirens they have blaring at big factories and shit.

riddhima dressed in that promo waali sari where nothing good happens so............ good luck sis.

(but also this is the sari anika wore when they fucked in laal ishq so maybeeeeeeeeee good times are incoming???)

HE ACTUALLY TURNED AROUND AND TOOK HIS PLACE, FOR MAXIMUMMMMMMM EFFECT. THIS MAN AND HIS FLAIR FOR THE DRAMATIC. I LOVE IT.

“yeh sab kya ho raha hai vansh??”

“chaar baj gaye, dadi.”

yes. totally a satisfactory explanation for this shit. thanks vansh. but you COULD have mentioned in your notes ki 4 baje ko jo hona tha, was a scheduled fire drill.

ANY HIGH TENSION SITUATION MAKES ME WANNA PEE REAL BAD, AND GIRLS, MY BLADDER IS REAL HURTY RN.

also lord, this one’s base makeup is too yellow toned too. just look at the contrast between his face and his ear.

askdlajlkdjlasjdlasjlkj he sat right on THAT table.

“toh bataao mujhe: kya hua, kyun hua, aur kaise hua.”

.............. like.... who are you talking to? and what exactly are you referring to? you want me to like start from the big bang and the creation of the universe and evolution and all that jazz, ya like, from this morning when i woke up?

(it’s stupid shit like this i would ask that would get me fully murdered in a sitch like this. damn my smartassery, it’s gonna get me killed.)

lol aryan is up first. we love to see it. OUT WITH IT, YOU WEASELLY LITTLE SHIT.

noooooooooooooo, he didn't even let him properly stew and sweat over it. ouff vansh, kuch toh dramatic pause dete.

“afwaa phaili hai ki meri nazar baaz se tez hai..........”

why all the guys on colors these days gotta be baaz and cheel and god knows what else?!?!!?

OH DAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

OH HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL HE DID USE HIS PERIPHERAL VISION AFTER ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GOOOOOOD JOBBBBBBBBB VANSHHHHHHHHHHH

KABIR TU TOH GAYAAAAAAAAAA #RIPKABIR

akjsadkjhskjdhkjskask ngl i am fucking thrilled by this development

riddhima and mummy having simultaneous heart attacks though. lol idc, die bitches.

lmao kabir looking reallllllllllll ulta-chor-kotwaal-ko-daante for someone who got caught hiding inside a table.

DANG, I ACTUALLY CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT EP????????? SHIT. THIS STUPID SHOW HOOKED ME IN SOOOOOOOOO EASY. 😫😫😫

#ishq mein marjawan 2 #immj2 #immj2 lbs #episode liveblogs

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raguna-blade · 4 years

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So carrying on the shared symbol thing with persona games, here’s a fun one that probably needs more time in the oven but hey, can come back later with later revelations

So, here’s one that technically shows up in the first game but doesn’t really become a thing until (I am assuming, i still need to actually play the first few and finish most of them but whatever) Persona 3

Evokers! Also known as guns. Specifically hand guns, but I think that’s the least important detail when one of the big symbols of your game is shooting yourself in the head to summon mythic figures.

So Evokers. In game, and as per the wiki, they are supposed to function by more or less...making you face mortality and the fact that you’re going to die for real.

By simulating shooting yourself in the face. It’s a good thing that the Kirijo group already got their mad science comeuppance because man, that’s kinda...

But hey, the logic and rules at play here do seem to be consistent across the games. To Summon a persona requires, apparently, a huge amount of stress and or trauma to activate properly, and the Evokers are a fast way to do that that isn’t, comparatively anyway, super duper traumatic. It’s free artificial trauma for everyone that is comparatively less permanent.

Which...Well I don’t believe that for a second considering SEES is one big trauma center. I don’t think there is a single person in that group who is trauma free really. Nobody is free of it, even the dog.

I mean maybe the protag, but they come off as super depressed to me.

But for the moment let’s accept that as true. If i’m wrong i’m wrong, but I think i’m right and i want to get to the juicy stuff.

So given evokers function by applying trauma directly to the soul to summon yon persona, I think it’s obvious then what guns are SUPPOSED to represent right?

Trauma. But not just any kind of trauma no. Remember, Evokers are supposed to basically be going Hey Trauma But For A REASON. To Summon a Persona. A persona which is used to protect yourself from something (Shadows technically, but A persona is a mask used to face life’s struggles as the games are so fond of reminding us.)

So, Guns are Trauma Turned Towards Protecting Yourself from...something. My understanding of psych stuff is you know, layman, but basically it’s an active self defense mechanism. Or at least turning that pain on outside hurty things.

So if this holds true as a consistent and shared symbol going forward, we should expect that everyone who uses a gun is both

A: Traumatized in some manner.

2: Actively Defending themselves possibly by literally using that trauma against things.

Which i’m sure is totally a healthy thing to be doing. Has to be. Can’t not be right?

I can see no possible way in which using your trauma like a club against the world can possibly backfire on you.

SO!

Who uses guns in the series going forward.

In Persona 4, We have two for sure, maybe a third. That is Naoto, Adachi, and Maybe Dojima (I assume he HAS a gun, but I don’t think he’s ever shown using it. I’m going to assume for the moment this is true as fits the analysis, cause it fits well enough, but if he actually pulls it out ehh)

Persona 5 has uh...literally all of the phantom thieves. Technically not morganna, but if you think a slingshot isn’t basically a fire arm, well sure technically but also you can absolutely kill someone with a slingshot don’t get it twisted. But yeah, all of the phantom thieves and ESPECIALLY Akechi, since he uses a real one. Well, sans Futaba, but we’ll get there.

And do these individuals demonstrate being both traumatized AND using that as some kind of defense mechanism...?

yeh.

So start with P4. Now compare the other persona users in 3-5, the group in 4 is actually really well adjusted. Like yeah, you have some elements of stress and being an outcast and elements of weird harrowing stuff happening to them sure. I mean if nothing else they’re in the middle of a murder mystery with a serial killer in town, that’s stressful for anyone, let alone the weird supernatural shit on top of it, and then there’s the more mundane stressors.

But...Uh...Largely, they’re handling it pretty well actually. Protag was pretty alright moving to town and seems to get along with people well. Yosuke had the dislike of being in town but he had friends, he wasn’t really hated or anything. Chie is pretty alright, Yukiko is stressed but not exactly freaking out, Kanji has some shame going on however you want to frame that i’m told it reads different for japanese audiences though it’s not mutually exclusive, Teddie DID in fact have an existential crisis but that’s not really the same thing i think, Rise is hella stressed, and then there’s naoto who uh.

Kid’s got some problems. They’re also the only one who uses a gun So Hey First stop.

So depending on how you want to read it, Naoto is either dealing with some trans issues or just aggressive and unending misogyny given their profession. Personally while i can see the naoto is trans reading, the game doesn’t explicitly come out with that as the issue, while it DOES with the misogyny so I’m going with that. If you do think it’s more that than what i’m going with, you can easily sub it in I think since from what i’ve heard on the subject suggests it very much CAN be traumatizing dealing with that in society....And also because it’d still feed back into the misogyny thing so it comes back to that anyway.

Regardless. This is a thorny enough issue really, so i’ll strive to not fuck up but please forgive me if I do cause it’s not intentional.

What do we see with Naoto? They’re a genuinely skilled, talented and experienced detective, and at a really young age. Their skills are undeniable really, and they’ve got acclaim and real accomplishments under their belt.

They are also, apparently, belittled constantly because they’re read as female and that is apparently far far more important than their skill. Because of that they’re belittled, talked down to and dismissed purely because of that.

And Naoto is fucking tired of it. So much so that they do everything in their power to present as male and believe they should straight up just...cut out whatever lady aspects are there and just go full dude.

Which here you get two really radically(?) different readings depending on if you fall on the Naoto is Trans and so fucking tired of the misogyny vs Naoto Is fucking Tired of the misogyny and so damn desperate.

In case A, Naoto genuinely believes they’re a dude, and genuinely believes duding it up will solve their problem....But they’re rejecting that part of themselves actively, and refusing to acknowledge it at all. That’s a problem for him, if only because actively rejecting a part of yourself is by no means a healthy thing, especially when it keeps getting brought up constantly in your line of work (I can only imagine how much this would suck to be dismissed because people think you’re a girl when you’re a guy but also you’re denying that you’re a guy and recognize that even if you were outwardly a guy they would STILL dismiss you as a girl even though you’re not. Just typing that out is...yech.)

In Case B, you have a still tired of the dismissal, but also they think they radically need to change their body and gender just to get anywhere in the world which is egregiously fucked up because you know. She’s good at her job! Why should she HAVE to be a dude to get anything done? It’s fucked up.

But they’re a gunman! So...i mean i guess it’s obvious what the trauma at play here is, it’s gender related regardless of how you slice it and how is it used...? Naoto disguises (or “disguises”) themselves as a guy, actively using the thing that they’re being traumatized by to fight back against the world in some way.

I mean as thorny as the issue is in the reading it, the outcome is at least simple enough under the shared symbols thing.

Ok, but what about Adachi...? Welllllllllllllllllll

Adachi is definitely traumatized I think but it's not in the kind of way that's sharp and specific. I'm cribbing a bit off of [https://youtu.be/8qG8Mqe_1v8] with their description of how Adachi reacts to the Scoobies calling him out.

To summarize and or paraphrase, it's not that there's a specific thing that broke Adachi down. It's that he's trapped in a job he hates, or at least without the possibility of improvement. He's shoved in a backwater town when he's a city boy. He feels ignored, he doesn't like the people around him very much, he's got basically no money, he has no significant other, he has to just keep going and existing day in and day out and it's...

God it's so fucking soul killing.

It's not like his childhood was better apparently, in that it basically was a prelude to adult hood but also unlike then, he didn't have the supposed promise of do well in school and get cool shit that was summarily broken.

So what's a guy who's made to feel worthless, made to feel like a nobody, made to feel utterly disenfranchised, and has actual evidence to support some of this (keep in mind the reason he got reassigned did involve him screwing up somehow, though I don't think it's explained what or how) going to react when given the ability to act out with no consequences, or seemingly?

Well, I imagine that you would see them do some fucked up shit really. We've seen people in real life do things just as bad if not worse, and the exact way he wields his trauma is well...sadly understandable to anyone.

Though another interesting shared thing, which I neglected earlier and MAY share into the Gun Imagery is a sense of isolation. Which...Actually. Actually may track. Evokers are used by well...ritualistically killing yourself, which is for all the harm it throws out to everyone connected to you, is also a very solitary act. And in both cases here, the characters are in a very real way killing their true selves in order to deal with the world (In adachis case by presenting a fake version of himself and in Naoto's case by actively rejecting a part of themselves however you want to spin that one)

This does raise a question of the SEES gang having elements of isolation which off hand I want to say yes that's the case across the board, and only by coming together do they win but I also legitimately cannot recall how it plays out beyond the minimal We're The Only Ones Capable of Dealing With This thing which isn't quite the same thing. The ritualized killing yourself still stands so that's still in play really, and i'll keep an eye on it going forward.

I should probably ALSO keep an eye on the uh...Suicide aspects. Even looking back at Naoto and Adachi they have elements of it, although more figurative than literal. Both very much have a life is over thing related to their careers and where they end up when first introduced, so it's not an unreasonable call though the strict actual read of suicide suicide is...Hmmm...

Well I suppose Adachi's chunk of the world is accessed through the noose room if I recall, so that might not be quite as empty a connection, while Naoto's secret lab thing may not be quite as on the nose it does focus on a destruction of self in some way given the way a lot of those secret labs go about doing things in those shows.

That is, there's generally one of two outcomes. Either the Evil Org creates a mindless/corrupted pawn to use whatever their powers/abilities are for the organization (see every monster of the week) OR they create a hero/renegade warrior that uses those very same powers they were imbued with against them....Which suddenly makes me wonder if the the ambiguity of if Naoto's transness vs woman in male spaces thing is intentional in regards to how to read that section. If so that's actually clever as hell because then either way you want to read it the literal what's going on with their shadow (body modification either to become their true self and the rejection of that or to be able to actually be respected for their work and the implied destruction of self that's going on there) it reads as this is bad so...Kudos.

Anyway, off topic, maybe another day.

All this said, this leads to Dojima who SHOULD have a gun and probably does, but...never uses it that I can recall, not once. Doesn't even show up with a gun if memory serves.

It's not that he's not traumatized. He most definitely does have some shit kicking around what with the dead wife, disconnect from his daughter and all that, but he never really...weaponizes it does he? He never turns it on others, never uses it to isolate, none of that. Which is interesting because as a Cop I think we can safely say he SHOULD have a gun of some flavor right? That does seem to be the vibe, and yet he doesn't freak out. The reason why is heartfully straightforward though.

Nanako. He can't exactly revel in his hurt and lash out at folks with it. Like yes, he's not winning parent of the year at the start of the game by a long shot, but frankly emotionally distant and neglectful after your wife died but still trying (failing but trying, critically, the trying) is not the worst spot to be in, no way. And he takes to reorienting things quite well once he get's the additional stability in his life Yu and (at least in part) Adachi.

Which, really, is what also ended up saving the SEES members. Not Yu, but the fact that they managed to form genuine connections with each other that let them get past the hurt and not be taken up and swallowed by it. It's why Adachi ended up going the way he did because he really DIDN'T forge those connections, and because of the whole everything he couldn't really get out of that loop and fix himself up.

I mean Izanami's game basically threw two whole ass people into the deep end of their problems but this ain't about her right now.

So ok, that's the group from 4 and right now this is feeling pretty consistent.

So let's get to the group that has literally every party member carrying with The Phantom Thieves.

So...again, to bring it back, Guns symbolically here are weaponized trauma right? They're using that to strike back against what's threatening you, often by using it against them.

Now, there are variances with the phantom thieves for sure, and the most relevant and DIRECT one is that all of them, every last one, is an outcast of some flavor from the social norms, and this has screwed with them something fierce. Now it's not as apparent or visible in all cases, but I'll get into specifics as we go down the list, but I want to say this at the top because it fundamentally comes down to Because Of this outcast status, this particular form of trauma, they became the Phantom Thieves, and in doing so struck back against the society that hurt them, with the intent to inspire those like them.

Well not Akechi, but his specific issues at least nominally align I guess.

Anyway. I won't go into as much detail here, but I feel it's worth pointing out that their Phantom Thieves Personas are probably the cleanest way to point out how they go about weaponizing their various more personalized traumas to protect themselves and fight back.

Joker: Accused of a crime he didn't commit, sent to a city away from his family and friends, said to be a violent felon...Like it's not exactly brought up in the game in part because he's a silent protag but Joker absolutely had his life ruined. Like full stop, his world fell apart over night, not because he did something wrong but because he tried to do the right thing. And then Kamoshida happened which basically took boyo from being merely fucked over to losing what little he had left (where what he had left was a friend of a friend of his folks taking him in and shoving him in a drafty attic)

And then from said trauma he created the well...Joker Persona. Someone who emphatically is a criminal, the kind of guy who is actually pretty ominous when you consider the knife,gun and dark outfit combo making him look like some kind of assassin. That he helps people is probably a small miracle really.

But by the same token, it's blatantly clear the persona that he pretends at school is not his true self either. He has to hide himself, make himself look small and innocent and as unthreatening as humanly possible. He's not, by any means but...

Morgana: Imagine you wake up one day and you remember maybe your name, a few random bits of information, and nothing else except that you were (probably) a human and now decidedly are not. That's...Rough man. It's just rough to deal with and it's awful, and then you just keep getting hit with that fact over and over and over again. Mona's pretty straightforward, but it tracks that they would make themselves out to be the cool collected sort that they do (even though they botch it nigh constantly). If you can't remember anything about yourself, make yourself out to be the coolest smartest most talented type right?

Ryuji: He literally had an authority figure not only mock his family situation, he straight up broke his leg, killed his dream of running track, ostracized him from his friends and peers, put more pressure on his mom. He was reduced to a thug and his response to that was, apparently, let me be a (diet) delinquent then. It's not like he did anything bad really but he certainly stopped giving any kind of a shit to the world. His attitude got turned up for sure. This got more emphasized with the Actual Skull persona as a phantom thief, where he's far more intimidating, outright hostile and violent (A bat and a shotgun? yee)

Ann: I mean there's the obvious sexual assault, her friend attempting suicide, etc, but i've seen it pointed out that a good chunk of Ann's problems are also based in the fact that she's white in japan, so basically she straight up has to deal with racism too. It's why she's considered the sexy one for example (girls like her are easy you understand) so it's...well. How the game handles (or doesn't) that aside, the persona she ends up developing first off a very blithe sort of vibe to how the world views her (seen in her confidant arc) before ultimately gravitating to having more active control over her image and consciously choosing how the world will view her instead of them making the choice themselves.

Yusuke: Abusive parents (which is damn near a theme with the phantom thieves. Families being broken or Abusive which is hm) who actively stole his work, and he knew about it. It very clearly messes with his art and his relationship to this thing that he loves, and even after knowing how his adoptive dad was abusing him and other students and making a mockery of art...To which he actively throws himself into Art EVEN HARDER than before, as a dedicated fuck you on the subject. Actually straightforward, which is perhaps weird for Yusuke, but hey they can't all require deeper reading.

Makoto: Makoto's deal is a bit more complicated but boils down to She's tired of having all these expectations pushed onto her and dictating the exact kind of person she should be. Always the good girl, always kind and elegant, soft spoken, I mean she knows aikido and is supposed to be good with it. Which is why she turns that around is basically Lord Humongous, albeit less jacked dude in bondage gear and more Badass Violence Biker. Just let it all out and take no shit from anyone ever. Again straightforward enough.

Futaba: Now...Here's a weird one to say because it's...She doesn't have a gun. I mean we could probably make a fair enough statement, if an absolutely buckwild one, that she does not at this point have a trauma. Or at least, not one that is weaponized. Because well...Her issues were very self focused. She thought her mom killed herself because of her, and that almost made her (futaba) kill herself. That's not a great place to be, but it's not like she ever takes her dead mom issues out on the world. She doesn't even really take her extreme social issues out on the world. If anything she pretty much...Has them and kind of deals with them quietly.

I suppose you could say that her weapon of choice is the computer. It's no gun, obviously, but unlike everyone else up til this point she also doesn't really...hide herself. There's no fake persona (in the not summoned beings of myth and story) that she presents to the world. She's decisively genuine about everything, and pretty much the only difference between her and her Oracle persona is neat goggles yeah? Which makes her an interesting pair with Maruki who we'll get to later as another gun not haver.

Haru: Kind of a complicated one, though also kinda straightforward. She's ostracized from her father and finds the abuse that he's laying down on the people who work for them abhorent, which is bad enough, that kind of realization that your life is built on the suffering of others. There's also the uh...It's not strictly this because arranged marriages are very much business affairs more than romance, but the way it's portrayed definitely reads as her dad selling her which is you know. Not...ideal, though her specific reservations there seemed less the arranged marriage (it's business she get's it) but more the dude was an creep and also again the abuse. The family motto being betray anyone to get ahead (paraphrased to hell and back) also suggests some not so great things really, though her bond with her dad did seem to be genuinely strong, which is why her reaction is tada heroine of justice.

Which, I just realized this and I gotta point it out, actually lines up MARVELOUSLY with Morgana and Zorro. Wealthy Individual who see's the crimes and evil deeds of the world and decides to mask up and fight the crime they cannot contest with their unmasked face, warring against the system that enriched them at presumable cost to themselves because it's the right thing to do? Beautiful. Probably should look into that more. But yeah.

Sumire: I mean...I mean she basically straight up says I think I was second best to my sister in everyway and then I got her killed and her reaction to that was Let Me Be My Sister and well...yeah that's exactly how she dealt with her trauma, albeit with a little bit of magic help. And Perhaps most notably, this is almost the most explicit demonstration of Evoker Gun Antics because She Creates a Persona (“Kasumi”) To Protect Herself (alldattrauma.exe) by using that trauma (dead sister) against the world (Literally everyone else) it's...Actually a really clean example I think?

Akechi: Last but not least of the gun havers, Akechi who uh...Outcast because of family reasons (single mom, Dad's a creep) in a way that just...We don't actually ever get the details I don't think, but the way he reacts to it I think makes it clear that his whole life was basically a string of kick this kid while he's down, keep him outside the system, and of course the persona he ends up creating, both of them, end up being one the charming charismatic prince who seeks justice and a bloodthirsty lunatic, neither of which accurately reflect his true self I don't think. Aspects of it sure, but not completely. If pressed, I would say that the Akechi we see in the Third Semester is probably the closest even though he's probably a dream Akechi, being someone who does have a distinct judgement for what is right and wrong but also, critically, can and will shoot you in the face cackling as his plans come together. Rather like Joker actually, which is appropriate given their mirrored trickster roles, and the general shape of their outcomes (both get their smuggery on when things go to plan)

Anyway, the way he reacts to being forced to live an outcast is as mentioned, let me get back into that system, let me be part of it and all that.

And last but not least

Maruki: Now...He doesn't have a gun. It doesn't quite match up with the symbol thing which I think at this point is established enough that it's probably some kind of thing, but what I find interesting is that...he fits MOST of the criteria right? Definitely has a trauma that shaped how he reacted to the world and yet, it's not weaponized right? It doesn't well...evoke a different persona from him. It's not weaponized to protect him and that seems odd right? He ends up with a Palace right?

Sure. But I want to go back to what i'm proposing the Evokers Represent.

Trauma, A Destruction of the Self (Suicide literal or figurative), Isolation, and weaponizing your trauma to protect against the world...And he only actually tracks to the Trauma part of that. He IS hurt for sure, no question. He is fighting back against the world in his own way for sure, what with Azathoth and his mind whammy, and I would say that the nature of it is directing how he's doing things (no more pain for anyone yeah sure)

But where it falls apart, and actually DOES line up with the guns as metaphor for those things mentioned, is that he doesn't really Isolate. He doesn't present a fake self to protect himself. He doesn't destroy an aspect of himself to protect himself. No, he's extremely upfront that “No this is bullshit, it should change, fuck this noise, I'll do what I can with what I can and oh hey godlike power now I can help everyone”

Which cool, except that apparently in the Stay in Maruki's world ending he kinda fades into the background, which suggests the self destruction but no, not even then really. Like I know I made a bit of meta about him obscuring himself and kinda fading away as a person, but I don't think it's strictly meant to be get rid of yourself so much focus on the message and not the messenger. You can throw your mask away. No more pretending. You don't have to hurt anymore. As the song goes.

And it's worth pointing out that, in comparison to literally everyone else on this list, Maruki is unambiguously a healthier person mentally by a long shot. Shady antics with Sumire aside, He genuinely wants to help people, he want's them to be better the right way ideally but if he had the means to do it of course he'd just hot delete those deeply traumatic and life shattering pains that they couldn't overcome. Then he does get that ability. And Then he does do that.

Anyway, the ramblings on long enough, and I kinda feel i'm drifting, but yeah. Think this is another symbol that tracks (I probably wanna check out Persona Q and Q2, but what I know on those does have it break down a bit but they're also not mainline games so I'm not sure how to square that so....)

#Persona 3 #Persona 4 #Persona 5 #Spoilers #Evokers #Shared Symbols

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2,6,8,12,21,23,27,28,29,30

2) What fandoms do you write for and do you have a particular favourite if you write for more than one?

currently I write for: killjoys, arrow and the flash and I dabble occasionally in legends of tomorrow. I used to write for: supernatural (god help me but it was only one story phew), still star crossed (cancelled after like half a season sadly) and harry potter (on another site, mugglenet fan fiction).

6) If you had to delete one of your stories and never speak of it again, which would it be and why?

lmaooooo what about every single ol!c!ty fic ever? mostly because they were my first attempts at writing after like two or three years of a completely dry quill so I feel like my rustiness really showed. esp with the smut :P

8) Where do you take your inspiration from?

often it’s the little things - a line on a tv show, a bit of poetry, the chorus of a song, a gifset or fanvid that is particularly hurty. it’s like - when I feel that emotional punch I’m like YES I gotta try and replicate that feeling in something else.

but also - it’s kinda weird, but longish journeys on public transport, esp when there is little to no internet access, is really helpful for my muse. it kinda forces me to step away from distractions and focus on writing and I honestly didn’t realise how much I needed that until I moved back home and worked pretty close to home so I didn’t travel as much. now I’m commuting a fair distance every day, I’ve been much more productive.

12) Who is your favourite character to write for? Why?

dinah laurel lance, ofc. but with iris west allen and nyssa al ghul being joint close seconds nowadays :)

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

so I love love love @freaoscanlin‘s fics. I’m not caught up on my faves’ ao3 pages yet but I have a ton of things bookmarked for when I get a moment and guhhh I’m looking forward to reading frea’s because there’s always this sense of empowerment in the women she writes - laurel, felicity, nyssa, sara, helena. not to mention her dialogue is spot on, so sharp and on the nose that honestly she does a way better job than the error writers ever could.

@smilinstar also is someone I want to give a shoutout to. again I’m not caught up on everything and I know she’s been writing spideychelle fic lately but like. there’s such a wonderful strong sense of setting to her fics and it makes for wonderful reading that would be page-turning if I was reading her fic as a book. (page scroller doesn’t have the same ring to it lmao but that’s what it is :D) and just. there is so much heart in everything sumona writes that it honestly makes my heart ache, and considering I was nowhere near as invested in time canary before I started reading her fic and now I adore it and have even had a go myself, that is definitely saying something.

23) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence?

music, usually. sometimes my music auto stops and I don’t realise because I’m just that engrossed in writing. but mostly I do need some kind of noise.

27) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow?

I write almost entirely oneshots and my longer fics are either unfinished or still short by long fic standard. so I am definitely more a go with the flow kinda girl. having said that, I am currently planning and writing an original novel and I’ve been using a three-act structure to try and make sense of all the ideas I have. and although I haven’t updated them in a while, I do mostly have my fics on ao3 grouped according to pairing/characters and then put in chronological order from the show’s canon. so in that sense I don’t have an outline but I keep up with what goes on on different timelines within my own fanon.

28) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fanfiction?

um if I could I would go back in time and tell past me to look up the words she didn’t understand so she could avoid badfic and in particular badsmut and smut involving questionable kinks that would scar her for life.

29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?

rarely do I like how a fic turned out. but vows was one of them - a lauryssa fic where laurel and nyssa make promises to each other over four different universes. and idk. maybe it was the length - I rarely go over 3k in all honesty so this being 6k may have scared people off or something. I got some comments but kudos wise this is one of my lowest which makes me sad.

30) In contrast to 29 is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?

if I look at the top of my ao3 stats page again all I see is ol!c!ty smut and it’s just all so bad that I wonder why I haven’t taken those fics down. I know why - because I like feeling validated knowing my most read fic has 9k views and well over 200 kudos, even if it’s for badly written sex and like. really rusty writing lmao.

thank you ally you’re my hero

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548: Down With Me

By @sadkido: Aw man I'm so happy you're close to 4,000 followers. Honestly you deserve that and so much more 😊 I absolutely love your writing very much and I hope to read many more. I'd like to choose 548 and would it be okay if I requested a corny dad joke like "when did the man go to the dentist?" "Tooth-hurty" 😂😂

Word Count: 1018

A/N: X Ambassadors… What can I say about them except that they’re absolutely wonderful? I really tried to capture the kinda bittersweet, hopeful, sad yet bouncy vibe that I always feel when I hear this song, but this song is just so hard to write!!

Version en Español: 548: Down With Me

Song 548: Down With Me by X Ambassadors

Man, I really need to hustle some pool soon, Dean thought when he opened his wallet to find only a twenty pillowed in the old, worn leather. Then he shrugged. He’d already paid for the hotel room for the next three days and he had a stash of cash hidden away in the Impala. He could wait until tomorrow. Tonight he just needed to unwind from the last hunt.

He was about to catch the bartender’s attention and get his drink when he heard the absolute best sound he’d ever heard. Laughter like a stream in the woods, bubbling over rocks reached his ears and he immediately sought out the woman who could make his heart skip a beat just from her laughter.

And that’s when he saw her. In this dim, hole in the wall bar in the middle of nowhere Nebraska, there was a woman who absolutely radiated all of the pureness and innocence that was left in the world.

*****

“You are so dumb sometimes, Dean.” She shook her head at him fondly. “I know you and I wanna be with you still. Ain’t nothing gonna change that.”

“I literally just showed up on your doorstep covered in blood and you aren’t running away?”

She just smirked and shook her head. “Not at all. In fact…”

Dean had to laugh out loud when she got down on one knee and looked up at him with hopeful eyes.

“Dean Winchester? Will you make me the happiest woman in the world and marry me? I don’t want you showing up on anyone else’s doorstep covered in blood except for mine for the rest of my life.”

It took him a moment to realize that she wasn’t standing up and shaking it off. He sobered up and felt his heart stop when he locked his eyes with her beautiful Y/E/C ones. “You’re not joking, are you?”

“Not at all. Marry me, Dean.”

*****

Dean shook his head at the weird image that popped up in his mind when he looked at her. He knew that his brain could come up with some crazy thoughts, but a woman like her wanting to marry a guy like him? No way that would ever happen.

He tried to push that scene from his mind and turned back to the bar to finally order his drink.

Even if she did pay any attention to a guy like him, Dean knew that he would have to leave her alone tonight. She was way too good for him. That bright smile and contagious laughter would be ruined if he ever introduced her to his world.

Still though, Dean couldn’t stop his eyes from wandering over to her every few minutes.

*****

“Daddy!”

Dean dropped his duffle bag just in time to catch his four year old son who came hurtling towards him like a torpedo. “Brenden! How’s my boy doing?”

“The dinosaurs made the cars get into a GIANT crash and everybody died! It was so cool!”

With his son wrapped around him like a spider monkey, Dean headed through the house in search of his wife. “Really? Did the dinosaurs die too?”

Brenden scoffed. “No! Dinosaurs never die!”

Dean finally found Y/N in the office, working on the computer. She glanced over and a wide smile broke on her face. “Dean! You’re home!”

Y/N saved her work on the computer before swiveling around in the chair and struggling to stand up. Her swollen, pregnant belly made those simple tasks difficult, and Dean quickly was at her side, helping her as best as he could. “Careful there, sweetheart.”

She shot him a dirty look. “I’m not fragile, Dean.”

“I know, Y/N.” He leaned down and kissed her, breathing in the comforting vanilla scent that always hovered around her.

“Yuck!” Brendon exclaimed, wiggling down from his father’s arms. “Daddy! I learned a new joke!”

“Another one?”

“Yeah! When did the man go to the dentist?”

Brenden giggled, already losing it over the punchline. Dean pretended he didn’t know the answer and smiled down at his son. “I dunno, dude. When did the man go to the dentist?”

“Tooth-hurty!! Get it, daddy? It’s like two-thirty but tooth-hurty!” Brenden was roaring with laughter and Dean’s heart swelled with pride and love for his family.

*****

Yet another weird image. A family? Please. No one would last in Dean’s life that long.

Just then, an eerily familiar smell of vanilla wafted over and the woman in his visions was at his side, flagging down the bartender. She ordered a scotch and settled into the barstool not even a foot away.

He should leave her alone. That apple pie life with someone to go home to wasn’t anything he could ever have. There was no way he could ever let anyone see everything in his life. He kept things behind locked doors for a reason. There was no way a girl like her would ever be down with marrying a guy who showed up covered in blood more often than not.

But then it was as if there was some cosmic entity that gave Dean a push and he found himself turning to face her. She flashed him a polite smile when she noticed his attention. “Hi. I’m Y/N.”

Hearing her name was like a shock to his system. Y/N was the name of the chick in his fantasies.

“Dean.” It was a miracle he even managed to get that word out. He felt like a fish out of water, which was insane. Flirting with girls at bars was second nature to Dean.

But there was just something about her…

“I like that. Dean.” Hearing his name roll out of her mouth made his own mouth go dry. “Why don’t you let me buy you a drink, Dean. Maybe I can wrangle the story of that scar out of you.”

Dean’s hand went up to rub at the barely perceptible scar that was all that was left from a ghost hunt gone wrong. “You might be able to wrangle more than that out of me, sweetheart.”

“Fine by me.”

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Throw it right back just to put me right down / It'll put me right back where I'll never be found / Better drink it all down / Better drink it all down / Keep me in sight when you turn out the lights / When you open your eyes I'll be laying on the ground / Never making a sound / Baby you can still get down

Get down with me / You down with me / Flopping on the floor like a fish out a water / Get down with me / Get down with me / Blowing all my money before I even get it / Are you down with me / See behind the doors I'm locking / Drinks keep dropping you still / Get down with me / Down with me / Get down with me

Ice cream cone with a cherry on top / With her cherry un-popped so I guess I gotta leave her alone / Yeah, I'm gonna leave her alone / Meet me outside with the doors wide open / The door's wide open, but this one / I'll leave her alone too / Who am I going home too?

Get down with / Get down with me / Flopping on the floor like a fish out of water / Get down with me / Get down with me / Blowing all my money before I even get it / Are you down with me / See behind the doors I'm locking / Drinks keep dropping / Still get down with me / Get down with me / Get down with me

Breaking down the doors I'm locking / Drinks keep dropping / Pills keep popping / Cups keep knocking / Oh, Oh / And on and on / On and on / On and on

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