#i got my manager fired

[mutalune]

love going on the “hi yeah I haven’t even looked at my inbox/messages for months sorry sorry sorry it’s nothing personal my life’s just been in shambles and I’m starting to pick it back up even though I know I’m gonna drop all the pieces at least 3 more times before the year’s over” shame tour I’mma make t-shirts later for it

#starlight personal #gonna be actually answering the questions in my inbox #planning to post the notes for tmagr since I’m probs never gonna finish it #and I’m making 0 promises to have any kind of consistent online presence #b/c I’ve learned it’s best for my mental health to delete these apps when I’m approaching crisis mode #so I’ll just be like the fun uncle who shows up to holidays with a six pack of nonalcoholic beer; #chats about whatever #slides you a $20 #and disappears for the next 2 years #tbf 2023 was a horrible year okay it was so bad #some of it included; I almost got a grippy sock vacation twice #i tried a few new meds and they all sucked and i went through Literal Drug Withdrawal to the point i was sick for a month and lost 30lbs #i started ketamine treatment and experienced ego death twice!!!! horrifying!!!!! #i got my manager fired #i got my coworker fired #everyone else on the team quit and j was the last one left #my cat died and it was the worst thing that ever happened and it still hurts so bad #the person i thought would be a forever best friend was just. not there for me. and b/c i was struggling and not putting in 150% effort #the friendship just. died. and we live 5 min away from each other yet she’s out of my life forever #it’s for the best but that’s a different kinda grief man #ANYWAY I HAD A TERRIBLE YEAR #2024 is off to a somewhat better start but I’m keeping expectations low #first ketamine appt of the year was. brutal. and tough. and it’s been over a week and I still feel raw #everyone who knows about ketamine: it helps you process emotions and trauma and brings those things to the surface so u can work on them #me when it brings trauma to the surface and makes me feel my feelings: this is HORRIBLE what the FUCK my entire innards are exposed and raw #I forgot how easy it is to babble in the tags like this it doesn’t feel real since I doubt anyone will read all of this lmao #god I’d kill for some weed rn BUT HAHA YEAH ANKTJER SHITTY PART LF 2023 I GOTTA CUT BACK ON WEED #can’t even have one bad coping skill like come on

[weebsinstash]

Alright bestie I’m on that shit again

So yandere Superman, right? Like obviously your fucked. The only other yandere in existence that might just be able to keep you from him is Batman, but even then he’d probably sooner work together just to ensure your safety- but that’s a prompt for another day.

Back to yan Superman, imagine you’re his darling and he is “keeping you safe”. But one day, you get snatched up by some organization that wants to use you as leverage or some shit, but you are just sobbing in relief at maybe being free- only to have Superman show up and do some not so super things to everyone who “stole” you

There are just so many casually horrifying things about Superman that people don't realize until you start like digging into his lore. "Oh he's super strong and a super fast flyer" actually he can do basically anything at those super speeds to the point he can literally even PROCESS THOUGHTS at near light-speed which means he has Absolutely Terrifying reaction times and can make plans and schemes on a dime, which, you know, can be even better utilized by him being intelligent. He has natural invulnerability so if you throw a punch at him too hard you could literally shatter the bones in your hand and he can't even control that, like you could literally hurt yourself with him on accident! He can see across INSANE DISTANCES and his x-ray vision doesn't have like a set range so he could do anything from, peep inside buildings to spy on you, to looking under your clothing for any bruises or injuries or even self harm marks, to peeking behind your hero disguise to learn your true identity, to seeing if there's anything inside your stomach and seeing if you're eating properly. Like jesus christ he literally found out Lois was pregnant from waking up one morning and suddenly hearing the heartbeat of the FETUS, there's literally nothing from him pulling that stereotypical "I know you're nervous or lying or afraid because I can literally hear your heartbeat increase" scary bullshit

And let's talk about Lois for a sec because my god her death was literally what kicked off the Injustice timeline? And there are other forms of Superman media where she just straight up dies naturally of cancer! Sure we could take the easy way and say "in this au Lois never existed or was just Clark's friend and he loved YOU" (which is my preferred default tbh bc, no competition for Reader lol) but I mean if you're going for that angst, that real whump, a yandere Clark Kent that just lost his wife/unborn child to either the Injustice incident or cancer, now overcome with grief? And in those cancer timelines they usually already have a son, Jonathan, and sometimes Jordan, and here's Clark thinking, well, his boy needs a mother, and he's got these weird feelings for you, and lil Jonny clearly has affection for you, maybe bring a bit of a platonic yan himself who sees you as either a big sister or even a secondary mom, so... be his wife maybe?

Like my god if Reader somehow helped him through the grief of losing Lois and managed to avoid "fully activating" Superman's anime villain arc, like he's going full fascist in the Injustice 2 Bad Ending, then some shit DEFINITELY goes down when Reader gets taken away. It just reactivates all his trauma. No! He can't lose anyone else! Jonathan can't lose anyone else! You're not just someone he loves, you're his FRIEND!

You're just huddled in whatever cell you've been kept in with your black eyes and bruises and knuckles bloodied from trying to fight back when you hear Clark's voice and you look up with excitement that just falls immediately off your face because holy shit did he just unlock that thumbprint scanner with a severed arm, and suddenly you're realizing there are other shades of red on his costume and dripping from his fingers

I can only imagine like, ngl I considered a sequel to my fic Doubt where Reader escapes the manor and runs into Supernan as the only other person who can protect you, so here we would have the inverse: you're the only one who knows about Clark's increasing instability and, while you still have your own freedom and autonomy, try to speak to Bruce about it, and now you have Batman Vs Superman: Competing For Your Heart Edition. I can only imagine what sort of unhinged reactions there would be if you think you've got Batman alone and you're beginning to cry all "Bruce I'm really worried about Clark, he isn't acting like himself, there's something wrong with him" and. Clark is like literally using his x-ray vision to read lips through the walls if he can't use his super hearing to outright eavesdrop.

Of course as you suggested, I'm always a slut for ideas with"oh shit I ran to this guy to help me and he's ALSO crazy, now they're teaming up and I'm in some weird shared/poly situation with TWO nutjobs". Lmao you go to Bruce concerned about Kal and Bruce goes to confront him and Clark just drops "did you know Y/N has been hiding self harm cuts under their hero suit also wow they smoke HELLA weed and im worried about their lungs and all the stuff they do when they're alone that no one else knows about 🥺" and suddenly here's Bruce " thanks i hate this actually :)" and there's a scheme concted to spy on you or move you elsewhere.

I've even thought of "Reader oh nooOoooOo, that, giant monster or villain attack or whatever also coincidentally destroyed your shitty little apartment complex? You mean Clark 'accidently' got sent flying into your building or smacked some giant creature into it and now you don't have a place to live? And you're broke too? Oh no 🥺 Well, BATMAN has this nice big house with lots of room in for you to stay toooootally 'temporarily', we PROMISE uwu"

Batman is the one who can put a tracking chip injected into your skin or even disguised as a filling in one of your teeth, and Superman is the one who can zoom off to rescue you/retrieve you "faster than a speeding bullet". I think one of the only people who could bring them down together at that point would be like. Fucking DARKSEID and, Jesus no, you definitely don't want HIM treating you as a pet 😭 the evil Batman that was brainwashed by him in the Apokolips War movie was scary enough (and scary HOT, lmao, let him keep me as some sort of prize and the only luxury Darkseid will allow him as a reward for his obedience. Lord Batman goes from having a meeting talking about like enslaving people to returning to his quarters and railing tf outta you because he's still holding onto some slim vestiges of humanity where he cares about you but also using you as his personal anti stress fuck toy)

#yandere superman #yandere batman #yandere dc #i got a draft whee damian and jon like you and introduce you to their fathers #and suddenly stalking you becomes a family affair #the boys walk you home and jon lies about having to pee so damian can plant bugs while youre distracted #the boys going back to their fathers and telling them all of your personal business #'yeah dad when she was at work i used my xray vision and saw her creepy manager grope her in the walk in' #suddenly your small little privately owned cafe was just bought out by wayne enterprises and your boss is fired or goes missing #maybe Bruce gets you a job st Wayne tech bc hes been following you as batman and he doesnt like you working third ahift #lmao heres hoping i actually finish it wven though im not quite sure where to go w it yet #but like its literally over 8 pages at least so. obviously some sort of creative juices are flowing #yandere stuff #sinprompts #at this point i cant promise shit bc my emotions and motivation are waaaaaacky

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[mikiruma]

hi. for ppl who jumped the twitter ship. im quitting my job suddenly and missing out on what was going to be a good week of pay so if anyone wants to toss like ten bucks for an icon or something so i can eat in the meantime i would GREATLY appreciate it

#talking #and in case ur wondering i got sent home yesterday for finding someone to cover a coworker's lunch break. and the manager threw a fit #yesterday was all kinds of fucked from a managerial point though. but until we were sent home i didnt think much #bc that place was an actual dumpster fire. lmao #anyway yayyyyy jobhunting. did not think this would be my out from a job that i liked and liked me. but oh well

[greyias]

All right! Time to start a brand new BG3 playthrough.

Step 1: Roll up a brand new character

There's so many other classes to play, so many other characters to smooch, so much I haven't seen--

FAILED STEP ONE

#grey's bg3 tag #bg3 posting #i didn't even last a fucking week #LOOK #look! #it's not my fault #i needed to re-experience the early days of act 1 #for... reasons... #and pulling up my old save files wasn't enough #(i tried it didn't sate the bug) #(the only consolation is that i managed to put off the epic ari twitch playthrough for like) #(a few more weeks) #(sorry i'm downbad you'll just have to deal with me and my hyperfixation) #oc: aravyn #she still utterly failed at helping us #just true to form failing all those rolls #but hey they got the fire blade this time around! #so she can smash bad guys with that until gale needs a gale snack #ari 2.0

[doedipus]

I didn't get around to posting about it last night but I

WON

A TOURNAMENT

specifically dust up!! 12, run by despair-tea/lars-canyon

also pictured: despair-tea in 2nd, warmcoals in 5th, and deriveandd-e-r-i-v-e at 7th.

#first ever win yay! #the others might have tumblr urls but I don't know em off the top of my head #I forget if fennel was planning on making a top 8 graphic for this one since we agreed to a low production value night #we were missing some of the usual killers and rivals this time so part of me wants to downplay the achievement #but I also finessed a pretty commanding win off of C2 in the bonus round and fennel was on fire all night #so I got no qualms about taking it #honorable mention to directivexero entering on a day 2 happy chaos on a whim and managing to do anything coherent with the character

[dirt-juice]

unfortunately still obsessed with this freak, and they still look amazing in bg3. it's honestly distracting during dialogues

#i can't stop staring at them......... the glowing eyes...... ahoo #my pet freak who i put through various horrors <3 #if anything they're TOO pretty. they need ot look like they havent slept in a month and got beaten half to death (daily occurence) #anwyay i managed to get them the fire sword from the cambion at the start so they do like one billion damage dice at level 3 #(but more seriously if i use curse of the marked it's 2d6+3d4) #rite of dawn is gonna be crazy strong in the shadowlands #picked zariel tiefling for thaumaturgy bc they're intimidating but their charisma is disastrous #i'm going to romance laezl with them and they can beat each other up <3 in a homoerotic way

[rat-presenting]

Cis people with deadnames are either some of the chillest, coolest people you know or the guy from your old job who did coke with the teenagers on staff to align their chakras and says with a straight face nobody is worthy of his inner thoughts so he never shares them.

#I could write. a book on the shit that guy pulled before management fired him #I’m paraphrasing but you get it. #no hate if that’s your thing but I draw the line at making your coworkers listen to your weird religion just because you’re the director #it got to a point that we would start him on something just to gawk and make fun of him later in the staff rooms #like. “Jesus was a Buddha and also a dream warrior and all the ancient Egyptian gods were real and came to me in my dreams” #“now thrust to align your coochie energies” #I will never try thai chi or whatever that was again #textpost

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

[valencock]

Uuuu I had an edible this morning and this is the product

#my art #mallout au #gotta use my one day off a week wisely and make some trash #im drinking these cannabis iced tea things and theyre bussin i love being a dispensary manager #oh yeah i got a promotion at work cuz we fired the old manager for being a god awful dick so now im the manager >:^)

[unloneliest]

the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.

#A BAD PERSON TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE WOULD'VE GOTTEN YOU FIRED AND EVICTED IN WINTER IN ALASKA YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHICH I DID NOT DO #he was renting a room from my dad. for cheaper than he wouldve been able to find anywhere else. his brother was too #his brother didn't pay rent for over 6 months and my dad just forgave him the debt because my dad knew how much of a difference it wouldve #made when he was that age. and i had told him ex friend was family to me & my dad applied that to the brother too. bc he is a good person. #and one of the strongest parts of my support system. and i didn't say a word to him about what was happening until i knew he already had a #plan for when he would be ending ex friend's lease. so there would be no subconscious impact on ex friend's housing either #mgmt at work straight up asked me if i thought ex friend should be fired immediately multiple times and i'm in retrospect livid they put me #in that position but told them to go by the strike system in the employee handbook and to follow policy that ex friend knew perfectly. that #it couldn't be on me as acting assistant manager to choose #and after 10 months of workplace harassment i got a different job to save my life. ex friend didn't get fired. #he did saw trap shit to my brain!!!!!! jesus christ #he moved cross country to live with his long time gf he called his wife despite never having met irl. to a way more conservative state. #despite being gay. and she left him this summer lol #hadn't checked his twitter in over a year when it got pulled up frm an old link and i saw that. and when he was already at a low point too #me voice. oh no who could've seen this coming. from how you behave in every relationship in your life #may delete this in the morning. but i have to talk about it sometimes #i'm never reaching out for closure both bc he wouldn't give me any and because i know it would trigger him and i don't intentionally trigge #people. unlike him :) #vampire pit #like. i have to talk about it sometimes. i have to talk about it. #jam posts

[semi-sketchy]

I got a really nice sketch for this, then CSP crashed before I could save. I tried to recreate it, but it wasn't as good. Then I had a bad day at work so I got home and shaded this WITH SPITE

#my art #paw patrol oc #paw patrol #nami #ask me why i cleaned the baseboards like BITCH WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU LOOKED AT THEM #tell me I need better time management MY ASS #it wouldn't be a problem if your house was actually well cleaned IN THE LAST 5 YEARS #BECAUSE 5 MINUTES AFTER I WIPED DOWN A SURFACE IT GOT DUSTY AGAIN SO I HAD TO CLEAN THINGS *3 TIMES* #i wish i just got fired BUT NO THEY WANT ME BACK #*screams* I HATE NEEDING MONEY

[oceandiagonale]

sdgfjdkhs I wish I could find the specific lines that reference this because I really thought there was something about the rain??????? also if the paths are that overgrown how long ago could it have been..... was guzma one of the first members of team skull or did he take over from the previous bunch..... why do we know so little 😭😭😭😭😭😭

#oceandi speaks #so sorry it's real team skull hours tonight #I don't even remember why I #RIGHT I WAS GOING TO MAKE IT IN ANIMAL CROSSING............ augh they manage to pull me in every time those sneaky bastards #they have an iron grip on my brain #I think about one team skull thing and immediately I'm living back in 2017 #anyways team skull literally did the thing with the firing shots to keep the rent down. no one wanted to live there anymore so they all got #a place to stay. iconic really #by the time gene comes along and beats lusamine they've been there for at LEAST 5 years probably more so team skull owns po town now #squatters' rights right? it's theirs they can get the power back on and make it livable and no one can come in and take it #but man they keep the paint everywhere 100% the wimpods and bunnies are so cute #and the colors look really nice

[arcaneyouth]

i know i put angels and demons into a lot of my work but i will be real with you this has absolutely nothing to do with the religious trauma. angels were never a religious thing to me they were just guys with wings. people try to point at my angels and demons like "look see you are putting religious trauma in there" and i'm flattered you think so but i don't think you know a thing about me and my trauma. i put demons into my stories because the word "monsters" is usually used for a separate thing and i need a word that tells you right away this is some kind of creature that is by nature a bastard whether they want to be or not. cause monster is not a strong enough word for me. so they're demons

#queued post #in the deathspeaker demons are entities that were once grim reapers but got fired from their jobs for sucking absolute ass #they were especially common 2000 years ago when death took over the underworld from lonan #but nowadays they are very uncommon #demons in the deathspeaker have an insatiable need for souls as sustenance. but souls are difficult to get #their punishment for being fucking awful is going hungry until they are too small to exist anymore #in iamos true demons don't really exist anymore. engel is the last one #but anybody can Become a demon through certain means #demons are animalistic secondary forms that humans and monsters can both receive. regardless of how monstrous the original form was #the demon form always manages a way to be More Monstrous #but in the end they are simply creatures. they are just like any animal. but this one used to be a person #some people with demon heritage from when true demons were still around were born with demon forms that they get to switch between at will #they get the perks of having a monstrous form but still get to be. yknow. conscious #there are very few of these demons around still. none of them have a human base form unfortunately #in whispers of pandora angels and demons work in the department of miracles and sometimes have to answer to the various gods in this univer #but outside that and the aesthetics they're kinda just. some guys #they're literally just office workers #i don't fuckin put religion into my angels and demons. they are creatures or office workers to me <3 #stop telling me my religious trauma is in my stories cause of these guys you don't know anything LIASUDHLAIUDSH

[suddenlymicah]

has anyone considered henry possessing glamrock freddy or am i being a little silly right now

#although for one of you the darkest pit of hell has opened to swallow you whole #so don't keep the devil waiting old friend #henry being glamrock freddy makes sense to me #“my friends are down here” william? william afton? old friend? #and if we consider the henry suicide robot thing canon #maybe just maybe #henry “survived” pizzaria simulator #reinstated fazbears as a corporate entity #hired the indie developer #idk where he would stand on the glitchtrap thing but he was shown to be a little silly in he books? maybe he thought afton was fully gone #and was trying to destroy the last parts of him that remained #he realized vanessa was being recruited by afton and set up the pizzaplex #he built the glamrocks? by contextual evidence it makes sense for michael to have built the glamrocks #given the glamrocks similarities to the funtimes including freddys stomach hatch (remember funtime freddy's stomach hatch?) #so if we're saying that michael built the glamrocks then michael wouldve had to have survived pizzaria simulator #which means somewhere along the line they fucked up #and considering that theres roughly 40 years between the bite of 83 and pizzaria simulator #that would mean that henry is like 70 when he burns down freddy fazbears pizza place? #i doubt any rickety ass 70 year old is going #like btw that was a badass line #but henry would be too old for that shit💀 #so if we just take henrys suicide animatronic (named baby but probably meaning a baby version of charlie(the og book trilogy)) #so what if he got remnant in him when he killed himself and therefore was stuck alive #so he and michael could have plausibly survived pizzasim because of the remnant they were trying to burn away #bc if remnant survived the fnaf3 fire why wouldnt it survive the pizzasim fire? #so saying that henry killed himself around 2000 leaves him at ~50 forever #he couldve also killed himself around 1996 after opening fnaf 2 closing fnaf 2 and reopening/reclosing fnaf 1 #leaving him ~45 forever #doesnt matter the year it just matters that hes already dead before pizzaria simulator and after fnaf1 and fnaf2 events #not to mention with william dead around 1993 henry wouldve been the one managing circus baby's entertainment and rentals

[rebornrosess]

glass animals lyrics are only meant to be understood by stoned people or gay people. if you’re both then you get to start hearing shapes and seeing the hat man.

#black mambo sounds like a rectangle. if you even care. #sorry i just got a google photos memory of the time last year i was high out of my mind at 5am and wrote a detailed analysis of cocoa hoove #in my notes app and the next morning i was just like. What the fuck did i mean by that. #but then a week later realized hey maybe i was on to something here ????? #i somehow managed to thread all of zaba together and was like oh guys intruxx is the world of noise mentioned in pools #so side a is before entering the jungle (considering the truth) and side b is entering the jungle (confronting the truth) #and then bla bla plato’s allegory of the cave and all that #but then i wrote that jdnt mirrors walla walla????? with the “take my hand” line so it’s all a cycle #i also somehow connected the crackling synth at the end of cocoa hooves to icarus’ wings setting on fire. #and then said “i think this is about mental illness” and DIDN’T ELABORATE so who knows #glass animals #maya.txt