#*screams* I HATE NEEDING MONEY

[xskyll]

I just need to vent. Someone made a podfic of one of my fics a short while back. Yesterday, they told me they were monetizing their channel and asked permission to put ads on their podfic of my story. I'm very glad they asked permission, so I could say no, but all the same, I can't help but feel so angry. I would never go to someone and say, "Hey, do you mind if I make money reading aloud your story that you spent months and months slaving over, while you don't make a single cent? Do you mind if I throw ads on this thing you poured your soul into, turning your love letter to fandom into another cog in the capitalist money machine?" I just imagine someone listening to my description of Shouto fighting Bakugou and listening to him bare his soul about his toxic behaviors—I scene I tried to craft with such care—and just before Izuku kisses Shouto's black eye, an ad for a Kia plays.

Part of me is wondering if I'm overacting—I know some people would say, 'it's just fanfiction, calm down'—but a larger part of me is like, "The absolute gall! YOU making money using MY heart???"

#i'm just #ahajahdjshhwjsjd #i feel like an ass complaining in a public space #but it's also not like i'm a huge account or anything #i'm just so mad!!! #and i feel like i shouldn't be because they did ask permission and didn't fuss when i declined #when they asked permission to do the fic i felt really complimented #but now it feels like it was all just a scheme to make money down the line #did they even like my fic or did they just notice it was a little bit popular? #and i hate that i let myself stew over these kinds of things #this is literally a stranger making me mad with a sentence #that's dumb #i might delete this later #i just needed to scream into the void #get it off my chest and whatnot

[kozidraws]

Between my two jobs I'm working 17 days straight. I'm on day 9 and I'm already struggling haha.

#transport money is going QUICK omg #much regret that they're both retail jobs #because let me tell you #some customers have been so hostile #last night was the first time I came home and had a mini breakdown #I hate this time of year so much #and like one of my jobs is right in front of a kids playground so I am constantly hearing kids screaming #next year I need to get out of retail #so done

[underfell-crystal]

Fucked up how Mammon gets so much shit for indulging in his sin when NONE of his other brothers get as much crap as he does for indulging just as much. Not even Beel, who goes on property-destructive ramages when he doesn't get food, who ALSO requires a TON of money to fuel his sin, barely gets any consequences. ALL the other brothers are allowed to be sinful without NEARLY the same consequences as Mammon, who gets tortured and hung upside down.

It's also fucked up that his brothers continually trash talk him to his face AND behind his back, constantly insulting his intelligence and calling him names. Like, yall show at least some care to each other, but NOT Mammon????

And this has been going on for THOUSANDS of years!! How is Mammon not more fucked up from being the most hated member (once more now: FOR NO DAMN REASON) in his family.

Examples I compiled

#crystalks #obey me #obey me mammon #mammon does not deserve the shit he gets from his brothers #he's bullied and blamed to the point where i'm inclined to defend him even if he DID do something out of line! #literally five of his six other brothers are SOOOO mean to him for no fucking reason #shout out to beel for not trash talking my boy tho. you the only other one in this house that I would actually date. #not hating on beel when i say he goes on rampages bc he literally does. ie: the kitchen #and the diner when he couldnt get another parfait #IM JUST MAD THAT MAMMON GETS WO MUCH HATE FROM THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE EACH OTHER BUT APPARENTLY BECAUSE HIS SIN INVOLVES MONEY #HE GETS FLAK #anyway rant over i needed to scream my frustrations into the internet #mamon supremacy

[toytulini]

Okay i have yet to see a post about this that isnt filled with ppl being Annoying as Fuck on it, but,

theyve found wreckage of the submersible, it imploded (thank god, thats better than a drawn out suffocation over the course of several days, implosion means it was pretty much instantaneous) and the us navy have revealed they heard a weird sound on sunday from about where communication with the sub was lost, that was probably the sound of the implosion, [implied that they didnt say anything cos they didnt want to jump to conclusions without evidence of a wreckage, if there was a chance they were still alive.] no idea what the banging sounds were.

I do hope rescue efforts are extended to the migrants off the coast of greece, and am angry and horrified at their mistreatment, and that the media clearly cares less for their fates than that of the billionaires on the sub.

also, while i have you here,

The difference between a submersible and a submarine is not that one is safer. The titan was a submersible that was unsafe, but that is not because it was a submersible.

A submarine (or sub) is a watercraft capable of independent operation underwater.

A submersible is a watercraft designed to operate underwater, usually supported by a nearby surface vessel, platform, shore team or sometimes a larger submarine.

submarines generally dont go as deep as our deepest submersibles, but some can be down there for months at a time bc it is like. a self sufficient Ship. not all submersibles can go crazy deep, but to my knowledge, the only crewed vessels that can go that deep, are submersibles. (Alvin, deepsea challenger, limiting factor, trieste, fendouzhe or "striver").

#toy txt post #titan submersible #if ppl start being annoying on this post. ill turn off reblogs and block all of you. make your own post. #reblog the other ones where people are already being annoying #yes i hate billionaires. but im glad it was a quick death. it was a horrific situation. hope those migrants are given support and help. #i hope oceangate is fined to hell and back and bankrupted and never gets to put anyone in any sort of vehicle ever again #especially not in the ocean. im a little glad that ceo is dead in his own stupid sub im just frustrated he was able to take other ppl with #him. the fact that he was able to operate that unregulated non safety standard meeting ass vehicle and charge people money to ride in it is #fucking insane and unconcioable however you spell that #and now i need to go shower real quick and try to get like. a little over 3hrs of sleep. which will suck but i did accidentally nap for #like? 2 hrs already so it doesnt suck as bad as it could. goodnight please dont be stupid on this post please please please #if you have a hot take on the situation im begging you to hot take it Some Where Else! thank you! good bye #im not gonna bother linking shit feel free to fact check just fuckin. google titan submersible. James Cameron is tossing his 2 cents in now #saw 2 separate articles on that already. thats fine i guess he has been down there in safer vehicles so i guess he can shit talk how unsafe #it is. anyway. saw someone in the comments of a post say it was a submersible bc it was too unsafe to be a submarine and i wanted to start #screaming. thats not what those fucking words mean! at all! god! #irl death #idk what else to tag #behave. bye

[sunnibits]

I hate this shift I hate this shift I hate this shift I wish I could be that cool skeleton guy and just leave

#unfortunately I need money #but this shift is driving me crazy I hate my afternoon shifts so much #I need a new job soooo bad #alas. crippling anxiety. #sorry but the kids are so fucking annoying on my night shifts #give me a million babies over screaming 5 year olds any day #the lack of volume control is wreaking sensory havoc on me

[awheckery]

life advice if you're ever helping someone move:

if you don't know what something is, and/or don't know how much something costs, don't assume the person you're theoretically trying to help either doesn't need the thing or will be easily able to replace it later after you throw it away

this message brought to you by the realization that my (cisgender) father somehow managed to throw away all of my menstrual products (that I had to order online after stores stopped carrying the kind I use), a $150 Livia unit for dealing with my crippling period cramps (while somehow keeping the charging cord?), as well everything on my vanity that was clearly in regular use

but somehow, the mostly empty box of breathe right strips, expired camphor rub and half-used roll of toilet paper were completely necessary to pack up

#screaming #this is why I have trust issues #this is why I hate having to ask my parents for help ever #because they love to help #as long as the help is only on their terms and timetable in accordance with their beliefs and preferences #why do I even bother talking #I can say 'please don't do this without me there's specific stuff only I will recognize' #and they'll hear 'do this by yourself without any input whatsoever because you know best what I need in all circumstances ever' #I told him I already threw everything away from the fridge that needed to go and what was left needed to come to the house #so he threw *everything* away because he didn't feel like transporting it #I pointed out that was $80 worth of groceries and he shrugged and told me it's just money #IT'S JUST MONEY I DON'T FUCKING HAVE #the detestable delocation of '23

[semi-sketchy]

I got a really nice sketch for this, then CSP crashed before I could save. I tried to recreate it, but it wasn't as good. Then I had a bad day at work so I got home and shaded this WITH SPITE

#my art #paw patrol oc #paw patrol #nami #ask me why i cleaned the baseboards like BITCH WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU LOOKED AT THEM #tell me I need better time management MY ASS #it wouldn't be a problem if your house was actually well cleaned IN THE LAST 5 YEARS #BECAUSE 5 MINUTES AFTER I WIPED DOWN A SURFACE IT GOT DUSTY AGAIN SO I HAD TO CLEAN THINGS *3 TIMES* #i wish i just got fired BUT NO THEY WANT ME BACK #*screams* I HATE NEEDING MONEY

[incorrecthpjo]

I know JKR is an asshole and Hogwarts Legacy sucks and shouldn't be played at all costs but there are more than 20k deaths in Turkiye, and i feel like people care more about cancelling Rowling and pretending to care about human rights than actually caring about people and making help

#i know this is an old hp blog but i didnt buy anything that would support jkr in like 4 years #i pirate movies if i want to watch them and i barely talk about harry potter in general #and i know how much of a transphobic jkr is AS A NONBINARY PERSON #also i was raised muslim and i can empathize with being hated because of the religion you believe in #(im not saying i fully understand what theyre going through but i try to) #but there are people dying #we need money #and a euro is almost 20 turkish liras #so a little help would do SO MUCH difference #im trying to reblog donation links but any single post about that shitty game is seen more than our screams for help #i hear my loved ones dying every day #people i met on the internet i cant even go to their funerals #i know some of them are trans some of them are queer #but no one hears our voices and no one helps #please at least be aware of the situation #please #tw: death #tw: earthquake #tw: transphobia #tw: antisemitism

[lobotomize-d]

"I need a new sketchbook" I say with the three unfinished ones dusting away 💔

#see the thing is i need a TINY sketchbook therefore my purchase with justifie— hey wait wAIT #rambling #i want a travel size sketchbook tho ... #but the side of me who hates spending money is screaming at me to utilize the big sketchbooks j have BUT A TRAVELSIZED ONE I COULD TAKE ANYW

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd #but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well #just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well #which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out #which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore #its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi #see the other thing is #if i talk about my mental health at all #people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint #or feel sorry for me which i also dont want #all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all #like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff #i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly #im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares #i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to #and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one #they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored #im losing my mind steadily #and thats not even onto the physical problems #but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying #‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket #if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your #fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces #sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues #but then i talk to other women and it is #it just doesnt make sense and i hate it #but i never rly got help on private insurance either so #tbd #depression cw

[belladonnafleur]

I hate people with dreams because I wish I could give up mine !!

#this isnt' meant to be a deep post im just screaming into the void #im back in the city and there is just this deep sense of dread and I wish I could call my friends and talk abt it but everyone who would #understand is too busy #I have one fren who I think mite but shes busy #I have one midterm this week and im still scared of my prof even tho ik she means well and I rightfully pissed her off last last week #I want to leave the committee I work for completely #I want to leave this school completely!! #aaaaaaaaaaa #I want to go grad school #I also just look online and I wish I went to a diff school than this one #bc my family does NOT have the money for this school if Id just waited and gone somewhere else I would not be in this much DEBT #ik i was in a tough situation a few yrs ago and HAD to just pick a school + get out #but still #I think just. if my life events hadn't been so shit and bad #if I hadn't been in such a Bad place during and after the pandemic id be at a diff school #one that didn't make me feel so BAD and one that didn't put me in so much debt #some of why im pissed off and anxious is lit my fault #I burned some bridges and hurt ppl and pissed them off!! #but yn when u make a mistake and everyone around u will def define u by it #bc me rn #I just need to leave and not come back #or if I do not come back for a long time #I wish I could pack my shit and do the rest of the sem online #the only thing I'd miss is choir bc I love it #all of my friends (most of) are in choirrrr #its the way choir is the only thing that makes me feel good I hATE everything else

[sanchoyo]

trying so hard to embroider and have it be a Relaxing Fun hobby but getting really pissed bc I keep stabbing my fingers bc the needle is RLY hard to pull thru the fabric im using. idk if its an issue of the needle size or needing a thimble or what but my god i am actually having such a bad time. like it sucks bc I wanna have a Good Time and Love Embroidery but ngl at this rate i might just end up ripping off the fabric i already sewed and painting on the pattern instead of embroidering it bc im getting SO frustrated. i though this would be like sewing like oooh nice lil thing to keep my hands busy while i watch stuff!! but no. the Anger

#like im actually going to scream out loud if i stab my fingers one more time LOL my fingies hurt . bad (': #ive seen plastic finger grips/thimbles online but its like..hm do i spend the money...i already need to get my dog trimmed and go get him #more wet food this week so maybe i shouldnt be spending on. stuff i dont REALLY need #it would make life easier like my thumb is actively bleeding lol. but hrghgh... #very close to the point of saying fuck it im like so severely in debt anyway who gives a shit anymore and just buying stuff regardless #but that would be rly irresponsible. but also i have stabbed myself 123123 times this morning. JADJHFKADSF #and it kinda looks like shit. i keep reminding myself its my FIRST project but STILL i hate it i hate that it looks BAD #I NEED TO BE GOOD NOW IMMEDIATELY!!!!! #sanchoyorambles

[nayeoniesleftarm]

what to do if someone wont pay you tf back???? please help???

#send help #he needs to pay me back #im so done #bitch better have my money #istg #istg im gonna scream #i hate him

[slimslamflimflam]

alright last straw. if ANY ONE OF YOU need GENUINE HELP, do not use my inbox for it. you will be blocked immediately and the ask will be deleted. your safest bet is tagging me in an actual post or just dming me.

#i don’t think i need to reiterate how disgusting it is for bots to 1) be posing as real people with real life threatening issues #and 2) going far enough that i’ve seen some REAL PEOPLE get roped into it (not their fault btw!!) and reblog their stuff #but recently some have been posing as victims of current real world events. that is sickening. the plight of real people is not something #you can use as a little sob story to get people to throw money at what is an unassuming cry for help to them but an easy way to rake in #cash for whoever’s behind it. #morals don’t mean a thing if you can get rich off it right? mimic the dead! mimic the dying! who the hell cares! certainly those you fool!! #sorry i just really hate these bots. specifically these. #I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM !!

[girlwiththegreenhat]

tell me you've never had to use skype without telling me you've never had to use skype: you complain about discord

#liz blogs #what am i doing that i am actually completely 100% ok with the way discord runs right now and what they have behind paywalls #what am i doing that other people seem to not be doing that they get frustrated #i hate corporations more than the next guy but they do. still have to make money. to Function #its just bad when the app barely functions Without giving it money #its the difference between having a basic car and having four wheels 1 seat and a steering wheel. only the latter is bad #but the vanilla discord experience is... just fine?? you're not losing out on any Necessary features without it #it's Nice having custom colors and profile themes and funny icons but you don't Need them #the objectively best feature of nitro is the emojis and i am fine shelling out $30 A Year to use them where and however i want #in the basic nitro tier because i cannot fathom how much money it must cost #to run discord and host the insane amount of data it does. can you even Comprehend the sheer Size of what it stores #it is in fact the Only subscription to Anything i currently have #i think the 'fuck corporations fuck capitalism' attitude is Excellent but i think when most people Cannot think critically at all #everything is just black/white to them and they see Any service trying to make money as Bad and start screaming about it #tumblr and discord are on my very short list of services that i am actually very happy with and fine letting them make money #i feel strange watching the internet turn on discord the last couple years. it's still the same app. nothing has changed #literally trying to encorporate n//fts and AI is the only real Shit Move i can think they've ever made and to be fair #like every fucking company is jumping on that right now out of ignorance and not malice #nitro is not the problem though 🥴 are y'all ok #yes i saw people pissing and shitting their pants about discord giving nitro users more themes and thought they were insane #dark mode/light mode is just fine for basic functionality. you dont Need colors. shut up and go burn down an amazon warehouse instead

[mosstrades]

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#I hate spending money I hate spending money I hate spending money I hate spending money I hate spending money #buying stuff for university with the money I'm being given by the state to finance my education. monstrous #i just wanna hoard it forever in case of emergency but nooo i have to use it for its intended purpose. fuck me #[muffled scream into hands] #i could never have a shopping addiction I'm getting palpitations at spending 130E on books I explicitly need #and tbf could i get them at the library and i DID whittle down the list and will just get some at the library #but i work unthinkably better when i can write on them #so add THAT to the guilt #vent post #economic anxiety cw #nick.txt #'nicholas are you literally complaining about having money' yes and i deserve to be killed for it. are you offering #'what practical use is for these books is it even worth the money? am i even gonna read them? we're not even getting tested on them. why #should i read these?' #girl youre literally enrolled in a philosophy major. why do you do anything. to learn. give yourself the chance to learn the way #you have access to. come on #i gotta be kinder to myself my god #anyway sorry for the tumblr tag dialectics im having such a time about this very simple purchase. it literally set me back on a month of #coursework bc ive gotten so disquieted every time i looked at my basket in the secondhand book website lmao #(through gritted teeth) ask not what men deserve #(can you believe my teacher looked me straight in the eye and listed 40 books i should read. for a single semester.)