#i have not eaten much to day

[ghostdoodlen]

DELI-N-QUENT

I have been unconscious for in and out of the day. I am not in the right state of mind.

Goodnight

#Deli #n #quent #aren kuboyasu #what have i done #saiki k fandom #tdlosk #i want a sandwich #i have not eaten much to day #maybe that's why my brain is doing this to me #i am so sorry Aren #he got a bowtie :D #the disastrous life of saiki k. #disastrous life of saiki k

[crimeronan]

one big thing about polyshipping for me is, like. you know how some people will have their eyes opened to homoerotic relationships in media bc they'll realize, "wait, if these people were two different genders, i'd 100% assume they're into each other. i have a double standard that i never noticed"?

there's a polyamorous equivalent in certain media that's basically just. "if you didn't assume this character is monogamous, you would 100% believe they have crushes on & are dating all of their friends." OR, "if this character wasn't dating somebody else already, you would 100% interpret this new friendship of theirs as a crush/budding romance."

usually the creators of the media aren't thinking about polyamory when they make it! usually the creators of the media are thinking "i want this character's friends to be as important to them as their romantic partners, we don't get enough of that in media," which is great and true and also EXACTLY WHY IT WORKS AS A POLY NARRATIVE. people will be like you don't Have to polyship why can't you just let platonic relationships be important ugh 🙄 & i'm like i did my years in the "why can't two men just be friends why does everything have to be gay 🙄" trenches. you're not doing this to me. we're not doing it about polyshipping. we're skipping over that whole discourse cutscene because i am Too Tired For It. don't even start

sometimes characters are so full of love and affection and joy for so many people that i start gnawing off my hands about how polyamory isn't normalized. because i'll watch/read certain media and i'll be like. listen. this is a polycule. i know you don't know this because your creators don't know this and that is totally okay but you are a Wildly polyamorous person who's ambiguously trapped in the 2000s/2010s with Big Monogamy psyops eating your brain. please let me free you. please i can give you Everything .

PLEASE KISS YOUR FRIENDS

#what i'd give for more mainstream toh art of the lavender winter quartet that doesnt pair them off together ignoring the others in favor of #their canon romantic partner. what i'd give for explorations of relationships between close friends that arent just #'we have convos about how much we love our canon romantic partners who arent here 💕' #LIKE IT'S CUTE AND HARMLESS. BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL SO LONELYYY #most days i'm fine with no one in mainstream fandom loving the way i do or feeling the way i do. #then some days i wake up thinking about hunter and luz being each other's Types (TM) and feel like ive eaten drywall #aside from the trc ot6 theres like NO polycule that's more desperately 'YOU GUYS WOULD BE CANONICALLY ALL TOGETHER IN A DIFFERENT TIME #PERIOD' than lavwin. IT TORTURES ME. THEY ARE ALL IN LOVE #anyway. i gotta get some more sleep. #thanks for listening everyone. think about the big monogamy psyops in your life and add people to their relationships. it's hilarious

[3-aem]

i would be such a good monk or something or idk, just that my ability to ignore hunger in favor of whatever i am hyperfixating on is unparalleled at least within the sample size of my social circles

#i am eating now!!!! #but srsly i would love to eat more regularly #i just dont #also i wouldnt be a good monk bc theyd be like let go of ur worldly obsessions #and id be like man i wish #i love materialism owning stuff is so cool #i mean the alternstive these days is a month to month 11.99 subscription model #thats less than a coffee per day 🤪🤪 #delete later #like the fact u can pay for something indefinitely and Never own it is insane to me #truly evil concoction of capitalism so much so i applaud whoever came up with it #dude EMBODIES the spirit of capitalism i cant imagine a more cruel design #rent ig works like that too #its just a subscription model u probably have to subscribe to #clearly the food i have eaten has not nutritionally kicked in yet #bc i am still shaking and rambling

[lovedazai]

dazai would be so proud of how brave im being rn

#cw medical #just got out of a ct scan n it was so scary #but the guy who did it made me laugh n i got to be pushed in a wheelchair #needles are my arch enemy but i got blood taken n an iv!!!!!! #got some pain meds n was a little high hehe #the worst is im so hungry > < its been over 12 hrs since ive eaten anything n im not allowed to yet >:( #i think im going to have to be here a couple days tho :( #ps i read all ur asks n u guys are so so so so sweet. they made my v shitty evening so much brighter #waiting for results (n maybe food? 🤞🏻) so i’ll reply to a few now but mayb the rest later bc. today was such a long day

[princekirijo]

Imma be honest with you chief this week has not been fun. At all

#oh boy i had a terrible three days time to go tell my tumblr followers about it! #ah no but jokes aside y'all. #i started my job on monday and i actually like it so far! #i haven't done any actual work or anything quite yet cause its all onboarding at the moment #but so far so good! all my colleges are lovely #so you might ask why is this one of the worst weeks of my life? two words #FOOD. POISONING. #this shit is straight up EVIL #im doing better today thank god but yesterday??? omfg #“look im being uber dramatic here but when am i not to be fair” #But seriously #ill try not to go into too much detail but. 10 hrs. yeah. #my throat feels like someone has shoved a metal ball down it #i havent eaten anything today #and I'm missing two days of training over this 😭 #this is so embarrassing first week on the job and boom food poisoning knocks me out for two of them #im gonna be the food poisoning guy 😭 #i hope y'all are having a better time than i am

[tswwwit]

how would octobill react to dipper hanging out with a girl friend or dippers reaction to bill getting a new roommate(mate)?

I think neither the girlfriend/boyfriend or the mate are long for this world! Bill would scare off anyone he thought was creeping on his leggy nerd, for one.

And another merperson who was tossed into the tank with Bill? Would surge right back out of the water within seconds.

#answers #As a territorial species just dumping one octoperson into the tank with another would be a recipe for disaster #Then add in that Bill is unfriendly and cruel even by their standards #Catch that octoperson grabbing everything with their tentacles out to avoid being put back in the tank #They would not like to be eaten thank you very much #(Yes I'm implying that merpeople in this canon will cannibalize) #Probably a rare thing when they're all in the ocean #A lot more space to *have* personal space. Socializing with appropriate places to dart off to when you're done #And Much Less So when you're shoving them into a confined area with a guy who's territorial even by their standards #Man I still need to get to that one point in the Octobill saga where Bill actually does the thing #What is the thing you ask #Well I've implied it heavily #Perhaps one day I will even get around to writing it #Tagging this #Octobill #For easier access assuming I remembered to tag the other bits with that one

[perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin]

Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

#long very boring and unnecessarily detailed tag monologue incoming‚ feel free to skip: #this is going to sound like a silly thing to be hitting rock bottom over #but i’m fairly certain i have a semi-rare skin condition known as sensitive skin syndrome #which is basically where skin gets progressively more sensitive #until it won’t tolerate the topical application of anything at all without getting irritated #usually it happens to people on the skin of their face and i have it there but i also specifically have it on my lips #(which apparently is extremely not normal; i found a dermatologist’s case study from like 2019 of one woman who had it on her lips #and according to this case study there were no other cases of people having it on their lips #in all the dermatological literature he had read) #i can’t follow the protocol which all the journal articles i’ve been able to find say is helpful for the rest of the face which is basicall #leave the area the heck alone for at least a year #because if i don’t apply anything to my lips for more than two or three days they will get so dry they crack and bleed #so it’s looking like one way or another i may be having to deal with dry burning irritated lips for the rest of my life #and i’m not dealing with the thought of that very well #i’ve already suffered so much anguish from extreme sensitivity on the rest of my face #and not being able to take proper care of the skin there #and this is just too much for me #i know God is allowing this for a reason but it’s filling me with so much frustration and panic and despair that i don’t know how to go on #but i must and i will #this isn’t a serious or a life-threatening condition but it’s looking like a pretty hopeless one and it’s hurting me badly #and i would appreciate prayers that it would just be healed or that i would know what to do #i think i will try going to my dermatologist but somehow i doubt she's even heard of sensitive skin syndrome #on a COMPLETELY unrelated note i'm just about to get my period and also for two days i've ''eaten'' nothing but vegetable smoothies #and those in pretty small amounts because they're disgusting #(do a detox my hormonal health doctor said) #(it'll be fun she said) #ok if you read this far you're so brave braver than any u.s. marine etc. #thanks for reading ily <3

[i-am-not-a-who-i-am-a-what]

can i just say for the record that i'm grateful the sfx of protocol is leaning heavily into the computer aspect and not the elements of the statements themselves bc if we were getting the in situ sfx treatment like we had in s5 of archives i would have flung my computer across the room listening to this episode

#tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol #tmagp 3 spoilers #only just got the chance to finish listening about half an hour ago as i had a busy away from my laptop day #and i shall be stocking my queue as per usual tomorrow #but y'know that post i made last week about forgetting how much statements could scare me??? i have been Reminded #for the record being eaten by bugs post death is one of my absolute greatest fears and is the key reason i want to be cremated when i die #it was bad enough hearing alex narrate it i do not need to hear it as well and i am thankful that i did not

[running-in-the-dark]

I ordered some specific screws I need for some of my shelves and the cabinets in the kitchen. they arrived today. except I ordered them to the nearest Packstation because that way shipping was free. which would be great and very convenient, except it's app-controlled and for some fucking reason those damn things don't work with my phone. or my previous phone. or my partner's phone.

they do work with my iPad though - great, I charged it yesterday so that should be fine. but oh no, it was at 1% battery (and then died while I was trying to connect to the wifi). apparently the charging cable is broken. and I can't find the only other lightning cable that I own because we are in the middle of moving so I have no idea where that thing would be. sooo either I find the cable or those screws will have to stay there until Monday when I can buy a new cable. this is so unnecessary and annoying.

#I'm also extremely hungry because I haven't eaten all day because I'm sick so I'm in a fucking awful mood #and this made it soooo much worse #my partner is gonna try it with his phone just to see if it works (it won't) #and if it doesn't I guess I will finally need to contact DHL customer service and find out why the fuck it doesn't work on android but work #fine on ios #it's the same fucking account #but the three different android phones we've tried have not worked #sooo clearly something is wrong and it's annoying as hell because there's no regular one anywhere near here and I hate having to open the #door 😭 #personal

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

oh no sorry you had a bad day. hope it gets better soon

have a cookie 🍪

(Thank you! I am doing much better today!

#ooc post #Bean's gonna rant in the tags for a sec please excuse me #a maintenance guy was supposed to come and fix the boiler yesterday but he never showed so I waited around all day and stressed myself out! #it's just extra frustrating bc the boiler's been broken for nearly a year and finally when we get someone to fix it they don't show!!! #not a phone call or anything!!! #so I have no idea when they're coming or even if anyone is coming!!! #and the werewolf ask was just the cherry on top of my annoyance #but I am doing much better I have eaten and drank and etc #and I can finally draw since I couldn't work much yesterday #I drew the Noisey beasts and that was about it #I gotta finish some unrelated things and then update time #but maybe a wittle ooc to warm up hehe

[lupismaris]

For what it's worth some times you just gotta feel gross and icky and be a big baby and do it any way

People who honestly like having you around are gonna love you even when you feel like shit and will like having you around even when you feel like shit. They'll make space for you at the table. You just gotta show up.

#am getting back on my meds and thus am evil rn and so it's been a rough few days . didn't plan to go for drinks after practice #a couple teammates insisted and i caved for the sale of not having eaten . ended up having a really lovely time . #ate . had a few fake beers . chatted with a visiting fury . caught up with decoy 💕 . even sang a few karaoke songs?? #like . they all very much wanted me there even though i was not at my best. it didn't matter why i wasn't well tbh. #and it wasn't about solving anything. but they wanted me there with them all the same. but i needed to show up. #i need to keep showing up. the mental illness in me often refuses to see that part

[jestroer]

peaceful moments

#not anything i was planning on drawing #but techno art always came to me naturally #i miss him like #every single fucking day #i cannot stop my brain from bringing him up every damn day #i fucking #i miss techno so much #i love drawing him #i loved bedrock bros arc while it lasted #put here my hc of first technos dog they found together becoming tommys service dog #i love drawing them #they are just hanging out #they have eaten hearty stew and they are taking a nap #do you get me #do you fricking get me #have a nice day if you are reading tags <3 #technoblade #tommyinnit #bedrock bros #dream smp #dsmp #doggo #phils wings are in the background #hes making some tea #court jester's art #technoblade never dies

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

[caterpillarinacave]

y’all I just got the MOTHERLOAD of all pastries

#I have not eaten this much in months #My aunt found a cool bakery like an hour away so we made it this whole thing #I stay over at her house we leave at 5:30 #We buy donut for her students (12 or 15) #then the following: #Two homemade pop tarts two tag-a-long Girl Scout cookie donuts 2 thin mint GS donuts a French cruller with vanilla frosting a caramel role #3 plain cake donut one cake donut with chocolate frosting one chantilly cream mousse cake four macarons in espresso chocolate rasberry and #Black berry (I wanted lemon but panicked and said rasberry) a ham and cheese croissantFollowed by two loafs of bread and an orange spice te #And McDonald’s Hashbrowns #To be clear this is all being shared and my aunt planned to spend a decent chunk of money #It was something like 112 bucks? #Not as bad as I thought tbh #We had four boxes of baked goods. Four. Boxes. #You know what I eat every other day of my life? A bowl of yogurt in the morning and a bowl of veggies with egg at night #I don’t usually consume the amount of calories I just ate in a week #Mutuals sending you pastries #So early morning roads showing up at peoples doors and handing them treats + tea? Pretty much perfect

[anotherdescentintomadness]

Happy Lee Know Day!

Happy 25th Birthday, Minho! Thank you for sharing yourself, and your art, so fearlessly. You inspire us! So glad to share the planet with your can’t wait to see what the next year brings. 💜

#happy lee know day! #happy birthday Lee know #lee minho #stray kids #stray kids fanart #my art #digital artwork #I posted this much earlier in his day #but it got eaten by tumblr 💀 #he’s so damn beautiful #I honestly slept on Lee know for like a YEAR #and it was a mistake #and okay #Lee minho and Wang YiBo have very similar energy #both are unapologetically rainbow #both are savage as fuck #both are lead dancers #both are funny as hell

[dizzybizz]

he's so real for this

#god i wish that were me #i wanna sleep as a kitty cat #mylittleguys #also hi i am sick and i feel half dead and i can barely eat or drink i am not entirely sure that i am awake right now #so thats what ive been up to the past few days :)))))) #ahahahaahahahahahahahaaaaaa wish me luck o7 #rly badly wanna draw but ive got a fever and im all shaky and my throat is all stuffy and i havent eaten much bc of it so i cant even rly c #concentrate at anything and i have been wasting away in my bed and i havent showered in too long and its shark week and :((( #im just being put through so many horrors rn 💪😐 #when everything bad hits all at once 💪😐 #this guys my new bff p sure -> 💪😐 #hi sorry bout all that its been piling up :))))c #💪😐 #<- for when ur on the verge of a shutdown and/or meltdown