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mooncurses · 7 months

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Ok I've never read the books so this is movie-related only, but I find it interesting how smeyer was SO CLOSE to creating the best story of vampiric found family galore but she instead went for the most weirdass characterization I've ever seen just to push Bella and Edward's love story.

Like we all see how depressed Bella is after moving to Forks. She feels abandoned by her mother, can't connect with her father and all of her classmates seem to be too carefree for her to relate to them. She looks like she is coming to terms with the idea that her life will be forever miserable in that small town. BUT THEN she finds out about the local incestuous family that looks like it's made up of real size porcelain dolls and she is genuinely interested in something other than books for the first time in weeks.

When she and Edward get paired up in biology class and he acts so weird and rude she is not only offended but curious to find out why, and the fact that she can't confront Edward about it because he suddenly disappears from school only makes him and his family even more suspicious to her. Also the fact that there is a good chance that his strange behavior was directly triggered by her, someone who usually tries to make herself anonymous, bugs her and puzzles her at the same time. The curiosity is so much that she doesn't even consider forgetting about it, planning to actually take an active role in this situation to go and talk to him to find out what his deal is.

HOWEVER when Edward comes back to school he is somehow even more awkward than before as he does a 180 in the way he treats her and for some obscure reason starts trying too much to get to know her. Now, for a teenager to have one of the cool kids take an interest in you is a very validating experience, but in this case it only adds to the weird aura that surrounds the Cullens in the first place, because the whole succession of events makes no sense at all. Sure, Edward looks neurodivergent (I've decided that he is, but that's not important here) and his siblings too only interact between themselves and individually seem to have peculiarities of their own, so it could be nothing important. But at this point Bella is also slowly starting to notice weird things about this family that point at much more disturbing conclusions than simple social awkwardness or eccentric character. She goes full cryptid amateur on Edward and quickly figures out that he is indeed a weird little guy, but that he is also a vampire and so is his family. After she confronts him about it, Edward tells her that he can't stay away anymore because she's just too attractive as a snack and also as a social experiment for him (yk, since she is the only person he is motivated to have an actual conversation with because he can't just read her mind as he does with everyone else). The depressed boy is now officially obsessed with this random cryptid loving girl. I believe that at this point Bella is too, but on a more intellectual level than him: she simply feels like she has found something that will finally give her dull small-town life a kick and she's not giving it up, no matter if she gets eaten in the process.

So now the two depressed kids hang out all the time and cherish their time together by providing each other with mutual entertainment. Edward therefore decides that he wants to introduce her to his family, both because he is putting all of them at risk by getting close to Bella and an explanation is probably due, and also because he wants to make it clear that this is the best time he's had since he was turned so they just better accept the fact or die mad about it.

Now the Cullens just generally let them be because they know that Edward is a sexually repressed and depressed oddball. Also Carlisle and Esme probably insisted for their kids to attend high school while in Forks because their understanding of humanity sucks after all those years of only frequenting each other so they wanted them to relearn how to interact with the human world in a safe and routinized environment. But up until now none of them actually made any fucking effort, so they decide that since Edward is the first to give socializing a shot in this sense he gets to keep his human. Also Bella seems to be ok with them being undead and it's not like anyone in Forks would believe the word of the new girl anyway.

So far so good. Nice basis for an interesting development and cool characters. HOWEVER, this is the point in the movie where things start to get OH so basic and lots of opportunities to explore cool themes just get swiped under the rug of cheap and unnecessary romance.

Like just imagine. We could have gotten something along the lines of Bella slowly getting to know Edward and the whole family better instead of swooning over him for no understandable reason (he looks crusty af I'm sorry, like I love the guy but he is not boyfriend material, his skin literally looks like mozzarella and he is stalkerish of Bella in a way that she could only have accepted out of sheer academic interest for his nature as a vampire, while on the other hand finding him SO intense as a person). Bella could have been free to develop her interest in cryptids while also finally feeling like she is part of something bigger and learning to feel confident. On a practical level she could also have provided for the entire family and Edward in particular the human equivalent of what Alice is for Jasper, a person that provides reassurance for the vampires to feel confident about their capacity to control their urges and loosen up a little. Her humanity could have also played a rehabilitating factor not only for the younger Cullens but for Esme and Carlisle as well, since all of them have lost touch with some parts of their mortality actually, and they confess to struggle to grow as people because of this.

Basically what I'm envisioning is a Bella Swan therapy dog human AU, you could say. After some time spent with the Cullens she could have also started to envy their immortality bc to have an ultrastable family dynamic is exactly what Bella thinks she needs to finally be okay. And if she pushed the matter, the Cullens would ofc refuse bc they know how big of a loss it is to no longer be human. However Bella being insecure as she is would probably register their refusal as them being patronizing and lowkey not really valuing her as a person, maybe only wanting her around bc the fact that she is human brings something to the table for them, so her turning into a vampire would mean that they could no longer make use of that. This if better explored could have provided a realistic introduction of the central conflict underlying the whole series in a much better way than just Bella wanting Edward to turn her bc she as a 17 yo was for some reason in such a hurry to become immortal because she didn't want to grow old while he stayed young ???? Like sorry but to have Bella actually age a little like the fine wine she is before even thinking of making her a vampire would have been SOOO much better. Just imagine if Bella got to grow older than all of the Cullens before being transformed and this was the reason why she is so good at controlling her urges.

OH and letting the story take this course could have easily created a better slow burn for Edward and Bella in the first place. Like at first Bella could have felt merely protective of Edward and not returned his feelings, possibly while pursuing a relationship with Jacob instead. But then as he learns to not see her as a captivating anomaly but as a person and starts acting normally around her instead of stalking her, she could have slowly started to allow him to get closer. In this way, Edward could have been the submissive toyboy that he is in peace, but also behave like an equilibrated person by giving Bella space to explore relationships with other people.

TL;DR: The saga could have been a vampiric coming of age drama with the struggle between the volatile but evolving nature of mortality vs. the stable but sterile nature of the undead as a central theme. Of course tho smeyer had to go for the cringest way possible to barely allude at this idea. Smh.

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easy-revenge · 8 months

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hey!! idk if tumblr ate my ask, the himeno brainrot has faded or if you just didn’t feel like it (which is so valid lmao no worries) but i would love to hear your headcanons for her!! xx

hiii so sorry !! i actually started answering ur ask when i was on vacation a couple weeks back and then i didnt have enough ideas and put it in my drafts....and to no one's surprise i forgot about it lmao so thank u for reminding me !!

also i can't NOT have himeno brainrot atp don't worry heheh

however im afraid I won't deliver too much on this bc instead of like individual headcanons ive mostly just filled in the blanks that canon left with my own things (often self-indulgent) and made up a life for himeno which i now basically treat as canon lmao (yes this is delusion central)

i will attempt this though but fair warning that a lot of the behaviors and things i associate with her aren't very wholesome or a jolly good time (i suffer daily with this brain)

(cw for mentions of addiction and a lil bit of drugs, i promise it gets more lighthearted after the first few ones lmao)

so, starting off strong, I don't think himeno spends a lot of her time sober. namely, i headcanon her almost always running on some kind of buzz. i think it's established that she handles her liquor well so i dont think it would be noticeable at work, but considering she trained under kishibe for a long time, i can see her having a flask of her own and sipping at it throughout the day.

in the same spirit, i think she would also take any opportunity to properly get wasted. friday nights with aki at her apartment, outings with the people from work etc, especially if she doesn't have work in the morning. i think maybe she believes she's more fun to be around when drunk.

i don't think these behaviors are about entertainment, but rather a way she's found to be more "functional" and able to keep doing what she does and uphold the carefree persona she's established, hence incorporating them into her life to the point of very rarely being stone cold sober.

i think she also doesn't like the idea of her family knowing about how she copes. maybe she doesn't answer her father's phonecalls sometimes, scared of sounding too noticeably drunk at noon on a tuesday. or she's often stressed about her sister's occasional surprise visits in case she comes over and finds himeno's place in disarray and her in a similar state.

apart from alcohol, which is basically canon, i once had a thought about himeno occasionally abusing pills. pain meds prescribed for recovering from a work injury hitting just right paired with some beer on the side one evening and boom yk. i bet it wouldn't be too hard for her, considering her line of work, to get her hands on opioids regularly enough, especially since the story is set in the 90s and doctors used to prescribe them left and right before the amount of patients getting dependent skyrocketed.

to complete the holy trinity of vices, again based on things mentioned in canon, i think himeno is also the type of person to sleep around a lot with distraction being the objective. she has a reputation for getting flirty and handsy with ppl from public safety when drunk and i think that speaks for itself. this is not inherently a vice ofc, but in her case I don't think she engages in this behavior being sound of mind. it almost never happens when she's sober and i headcanon her often regretting it at least briefly the next day.

oof that was a lot lmao. um chill anyways, on a lighter note i have a couple thoughts about her relationship with aki !!

i think it's a habit for them to take care of each other's injuries after missions. im actually writing a fic about aki showing up at himeno's doorstep, bleeding and expecting to be taken care of in his own begrudging, stuck up way lmao. i think himeno is less likely to straight up go to his house for that, but i see them leaving public safety and going home together to shower and bandage their wounds in companionable silence.

additionally to that whole thing, i personally do believe that their relationship could've had a non-platonic side to it, albeit still casual in its nature. leaving that aside, i think they share quite a bit of affection and physical touch regardless, considering how casually we see them invading each other's personal space in canon. so i think they sleep in the same bed a lot, after tending to each other's wounds, or getting too drunk in himeno's living room. i think it took a while for aki to stop being tense and relax into it, but they settled into a comfortable zone and it was sth they both needed more than they would ever admit.

fujimoto once talked about himeno and said that she is the type to leave a lot of her stuff behind at aki's place and u better believe i ran with it. clothes, hair brushes, a spare toothbrush in the bathroom, you can't change my mind. i also think that to some extent it goes both ways. himeno has a shitload of aki's tupperware at her place, from all the food he brings her weekly, and she never washes them unless aki comes over to do it himself and by the time he decides to take some back, there's always more. black hair ties are often littered in her bathroom cabinets and on one of her night stands. a book on her windowsill that aki brought to read before bed once and then never took home.

not to get dark again, but talking about them is bound to make me sad sooner or later :) based on the way she thinks about aki's death in canon, i think she would often panic when thinking about aki's shrivelling lifespan, especially at the beginning when aki had a lot of years to spare and surely used the sword more freely. i imagine her being restless in her bed with aki sleeping next to her, feeling compelled to check on his breathing or his pulse. reach over and touch his hand to feel him alive and warm, hoping it would soothe her to sleep.

i also think she's there a lot of the times aki cries. i bet the first time she saw him was accidental, or at least not a conscious decision on aki's part. i also bet himeno didn't really know what to think of it initially, but soon looked at aki under a different light bc of it. i think aki finds comfort in himeno being in the same room as the tears spill from his eyes after a day of watching people die. and i think himeno loves giving him that, even though it tugs at her chest in uncomfortable ways she can't quite point out.

i feel compelled to but i won't go into the whole being in love with aki situation, because first of all its not even a headcanon but very much there and secondly i will ramble indefinitely about how i think her pining for him would manifest and this is already a huge post god bless

on a slightly different note before i bring this to a close, i like thinking about her bond with kishibe a lot as well. it's not shown enough in the anime or manga, but i imagine them being friends. i think they would go out for drinks but more to talk than get wasted. i think they'd have the capacity to talk about very real things but also nothing at all. kishibe might be the only person himeno talks to properly about aki, aside from her letters to her sister, because he shares the same life as her and inevitably has more space tl understand. maybe kishibe gets to talk a bit about quanxi too.

haha oh well :D that's all i have for now. if u read this far thank you and also im sorry lmao. hadn't sat down to microwave himeno like this in a hot minute i loved getting the opportunity to do it so thanks for the ask anon !! till next time ~

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onlyjaeyun · 3 months

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not that anyone asked BUT

i think why the hatred between CH!yn and CH!hoon is so dear to me is because knowing how hard their family lives are and how they’ve struggled both as individuals (well we don’t really Know much yet but you get what i mean i hope 😭) the fact that their “hatred” towards each other is the only thing that has truly been consistent in their lives is actually comforting (????) it’s like something they can always rely (????) on and something that’s never changed even if it is something negative.

maybe the reason why they don’t want to admit internally (and openly) that they don’t Really hate each other is that it means it’s another change in their lives, especially in their relationship. and even though they both can certainly tell their dynamic is changing, they don’t want to admit it aloud or to themselves because it really solidifies that something changed. as strong as they both are as individuals, given the snippets we have of their pasts, they’re scared of facing more change and what that really offers and means.

and idk if anyone else feels like this or if it’s intentional but the fact that each of them REALLY cares what the other thinks of them (even if they say they don’t gaf) shows how deep their dynamic really goes. like in the future idk i can soooo imagine CH!hoon painting his nails just because CH!yn has been practicing doing nails and he wants her to like him more because look!!!! he has the same hobby as her!!!! look yn i painted my nails too and you do nails and that means i’m cool too just like you!!!

IDK IF ANY OF THIS MAKES SENSE but idk their hate towards each other makes me sad in a way that’s not like “i’m crying sad” but yk sad and sorry for the way that life has treated them and that this hate they have for each other might not really be for each other but for everything else in the world that hurt them and that they are the only people that actually know each other the best ???? idk… but their bond is so heartfelt to me and i can’t wait to see them redevelop it 🩷🩷🩷

love u zadie!!!! thank u for creating such an incredible story filled with such fluid narratives and raw emotions

oh this is so so so wonderful and well thought through im actually gonna start crying :( thank you so much for giving it so much time, I literally teared up reading it :((<3

seeing just how much you guys love and care about both CH!hoon and Y/N deffo makes me feel so loved and appreciated and I wish I could comment on this but unfortunately I can't simply because I don't wanna spoil anything so I have to STFU :((((

BUT I am going to say that your theory and thoughts are very similar to what I have planned for them, the only difference being the realness of their hatred for each other if that makes sense! anyway, again thank you so much for this baby, youre absolutely amazing and im so grateful for readers like you, makes me want to give you the world :( I love you so much <33

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psychewritesbs · 1 year

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A huge factor into why I'm interested in megumi is quite literally seeing him grow with his ct, and seeing him accomplishing his domain, etc is very satisfying, but I think it's pretty much inevitable that sukuna will cast the completed chimera shadow domain (don't like that idea at all), and yeah, we don't know this for a fact and I'm very much jumping the gun, but the silver lining I see is sukuna once again acting as a unintentional or intentional mentor for megumi yk. I'm like 96.4% sure megumi is not dead (could be wrong idk anymore 😭).

I sound very much as though I don't care for character arcs, and solely care for power feats, but I promise I do care for the character development!! I regularly read and watch all sorts of series from different demographics, but im just specific with jjk for this ask. I just enjoy the ways in which authors can create power systems within its own world and seeing how characters respond to those rules, etc.

I'm wondering if gege will revisit the concept of being a good/bad person through megumi/yuji and if hana will play a role in that. I like how hana and megumi share the same "putting someone on a pedestal" thing and wonder if we'll see their relationship develop too (of she survives ofc haha 😢). Hana doesn't know megumi whatsoever, but I think she has more of an obsession with him than just a crush, and I do think her very rough childhood played into that, but only gege knows where this is going, so I guess we'll see hehe. They were both in a sense tricked by that someone (tsumiki, etc). Also, I don't know if it's intentional on gege's part, but is there a reason megumi was not able to deduce that tsumiki wasn't the same or is their dynamic truly a bit stunted where they don't know each other as well. I thought megumi would apologize too like he said, but I can't tell if it's intentional and it will lead to something more, or gege just wants to move the plot and won't explore those things anymore. Tsumiki did really feel as just a plot device, but I still hoped she wouldn't as I wanted to know her feelings on the situation and about her brother and her mom, etc, but I don't know how she would have survived now... but hope is always there I guess! No problem with that. I guess I say this bc I'm interested in knowing how megumi will overcome this need to ignore his own goodness to uplift those worthy individuals (tsumiki and yuji) and I always thought that seeing tsumiki as an actual person capable of good and bad would have challenged him, so I'm curious if that's still what we'll be exploring with megumi or if it doesn't matter anymore and he just died like a fool.

This is definitely the fight obsessed part of me, but ever since we knew that no ten shadows user in history has tamed mahoraga, the thought of megumi being the first is always on my mind, but I may have to settle for mahoraga being tamed by sukuna even if just for a short while. I'm jumping the gun again, but on a happier note 😊 I've been having a ball seeing sukuna mess around again with the mcs 😭 he's so fun to watch, so I'm not completely negative just conflicted lol.

I love the "save me/you" concept that we've seen in yuji and megumi, so I think yuji will play a role in saving him so to speak or playing a big role in megumi saving himself. OR since gege is using the titles to parallel the first few chapters of the series, we may get megumi dying in front of yuji after taking some control back and waha its sad again !! (Don't know how to feel about this theory either) It's fun thinking of ways this could go and gege has clearly thought of these moments in the story as he's clearly expressed what sukuna would do to megumi. I wonder what that interviewer thought when he heard gege speak lmao and if what happened in 212 and beyond is what he told him a while ago 🤔

What do believe to be a fulfilling character arc for megumi? I don't mind him dying or living, but not in this very moment hehe 😃

Sorry for the big ask again, but thanks again for reading!!

HOLA!

Oh my! Thanks for reaching out and sharing your #thoughts with me! I love all the #thoughts. There was so much juiciness to brainrot about!

My own #thoughts in response to your #thoughts under the cut!

A huge factor into why I'm interested in megumi is quite literally seeing him grow with his ct, and seeing him accomplishing his domain, etc is very satisfying,

Ugh! I KNOW! Satisfying is exactly the right word for it.

Honestly, Megumi is beautifully written.

I think it's pretty much inevitable that sukuna will cast the completed chimera shadow domain (don't like that idea at all), and yeah, we don't know this for a fact and I'm very much jumping the gun, but the silver lining I see is sukuna once again acting as a unintentional or intentional mentor for megumi yk

Yeah I have to agree with you on this. Something interesting is happening because Sukuna is clearly better able to use or make the most out of Megumi's Cursed Technique.

What I am not sure is whether this is due to Megumi's mentality still limiting what he can do or whether this is Sukuna simply being more powerful.

Thoughts?

Like in my head, Megumi should be able to accomplish the same, he just doesn't know that he doesn't know that he can do it. That said, Sukuna has been a catalyst for realizations like that in the past, so as you say, Megumi might grow because of Sukuna.

Which is also kind of interesting because Sukuna is equally impressed by Megumi...

Also... about Megumi's domain... gosh... yeah I must admit I am not a fan of Megumi not being the one who maximizes his own potential.

I have mixed thoughts on what exactly Sukuna is and isn't because of the whole mind = body = soul relationship and how he's just body-hopping and overriding other people's mind's information to merge with the soul and body.

So in a sense this is still Megumi but it isn't Megumi? Because in the end, this is Megumi's body and soul.

Regardless... I'm sure Sukuna will do something big with Megumi's domain and I do hope that, as you say, Megumi will learn from Sukuna because of it.

"I'm like 96.4% sure megumi is not dead"

That deserved to be made a title because of how specific you are about it lol. Don't hesitate to send in your theories. I'm collecting "the mental gymnastics Megumi fans will do to convince themselves he's still alive".

I do hope you're right tho and will light some prayer candles just to make sure your theory manifests.

I've made peace with Megumi not coming back but I'll still be disappointed if he doesn't which means I have not made peace with it at all.

Also... I am super curious about the other 3.6%...?

I sound very much as though I don't care for character arcs, and solely care for power feats, but I promise I do care for the character development!!... I just enjoy the ways in which authors can create power systems within its own world and seeing how characters respond to those rules, etc.

I'd say you get it. In JJK power = character development and psychological wholeness. It's a nice twist on the trope and Gege has done a good job with it.

In retrospect, I really do think the Culling Game arc has been about showing that relationship between power and the power system in JJK, how it relates to the sorcerer's personality, how the characters respond to those rules, and how they grow and get stronger as a result.

Like... don't get me wrong, I've been consuming Shonen for yeeeeears and while I appreciate Goku powering up because he was like...

"AAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!"

I also really like how Gege pushes his characters to grow outside of long drawn out screaming.

I'm wondering if gege will revisit the concept of being a good/bad person through megumi/yuji and if hana will play a role in that.

Personally, I hope and think so.

How deeply he'll elaborate and/or how he executes is what is unsure. He might hide the struggle in the symbols.

Actually, as a symbol, Hana's Cursed Technique is a massive rabbit hole that gets at the core of good vs. evil. I'm working on writing this super nerdy meta about it. Stay tuned!

What I will say about Hana right now is that she sort of symbolizes light.

So it's an interesting symbol to bring in for a dynamic with a character like Megumi who represents the shadow.

If you think about it, dark is in need of light.

I'd say there's something there worth exploring.

I like how hana and megumi share the same "putting someone on a pedestal"... Hana doesn't know megumi whatsoever, but I think she has more of an obsession with him than just a crush, and I do think her very rough childhood played into that

Yes! Such a good point! I noticed the same thing about her. Going back to the idea of light, think of how light also make shadows all the more obvious and pronounced. So to me, from a psychological perspective, Hana's obsession is a sort of balance to her "light".

When you look at it like that, the Hana/Megumi parallels are interesting and I also wonder where Gege will go with them given Sukumi just betrayed Hana the way Yorozu betrayed Megumi.

is there a reason megumi was not able to deduce that tsumiki wasn't the same or is their dynamic truly a bit stunted where they don't know each other as well

Ah so, while I can see why people think this is the case, I personally don't interpret like this.

So for one, I do think that the relational dynamic is stunted and that it carries Pygmalion and the Princess and her Knight undertones. This involves how much Megumi idolizes Tsumiki as this epitome of goodness because it appears as though to Megumi, Tsumiki doesn't have a will of her own. Rather, she's an object upon whom he can project his emotional world and everything that is good about himself.

As an object that carries a projection of his emotional world, Tsumiki is also a Sleeping Beauty. Which can be taken as a metaphor for the status of Megumi's own emotional self--cursed to sleep for a hundred years.

Maybe I should expand upon this symbol in more detail. But for the sake of time what I'll say is that Sleeping Beauty is about awakening the feminine principle in order to achieve inner-balance between mind and heart/soul.

In JJK, Megumi's feminine principle has awakened, literalized by Tsumiki waking up, but the twist is that this carrier of Megumi's emotional world is now a cursed existence.

So it's almost like the Sleeping Beauty has turned against Megumi's immature perception of her. She has a will of her own and is not afraid to do as her sense of self is pleased.

I like that Gege has given us this twist to this dynamic because it gives us another look at Megumi's immature perception of the world and where he needs to grow.

JJK is a true tragedy in that its character's flaws are what ushers their ultimate downfall, and the way Gege is executing is very Jungian to boot.

Not sure if Megumi will grow from this experience because of that 3.6% possibility that he is dead, but the thing about the Princess and her Knight trope is that the Knight in question might eventually learn to see the real heart under the projections he casted upon her.

Twelve from Terror in Resonance is a favorite example of this trope's execution where, after dragging his Fair Lady into trouble, Twelve eventually sees her for who she is. In other words, the Sleeping Beauty comes to life in her own right and the Knight recognizes her true essence and achieves wholeness within himself.

So there's A LOT of possible character development in store for Megumi if he's 96.4% alive given all of the symbolism surrounding Jacob's Ladder and even Kon as the alchemical principle of antimony which unifies opposites.

All of this said, I've read quite a bit of discourse about how Megumi should have known this wasn't Tsumiki that I personally don't agree with.

First, I don't think that because Megumi idealized her that he didn't know her. I find that to be a massive leap of faith in logic because Yorozu was acting based on information she had about Megumi. In a sense, she always had the upper hand.

Again... Reggie cursed Megumi to die a fool.

What's more foolish than looking down on Remi for having failed to recognize Reggie was no longer who she thought he was, and then dying because of it?

So to me, its more of a question of Megumi failing to recognize this was not Tsumiki's soul / temperament.

There's a couple of characters that are favorites of mine who fool others because they walk a fine line between who they pretend to be and who they are at their core.

People can say and behave in one way, but temperament is an entirely different thing.

In Tokyo Babylon, Seishiro acts a certain way, and even though Subaru seems to be aware of it, he ignores his intuition about it because Subaru enjoyed Seishiro's temperament.

The way I see it, by the mere fact that they grew up together, Megumi is familiar with Tsumiki's idiosyncrasies and/or temperament. You know, the small things that make her Tsumiki.

Like what she might say in any given moment.

Or how she might behave in specific circumstances.

I personally see these panels as Megumi noticing that something was off but that he ignored his intuition because Yorozu is pretty much an optical illusion. Again, she is someone with access to Tsumiki's mind's information.

But that's how I see it at least.

If I'm honest, this all makes me wonder why Yorozu played coy. Why not just beat him to a pulp and enter the Culling Game? Was she enjoying humoring Megumi?

Or is this simply a plot hole for the sake of shock value?

ANYWAYS. I hope that I didn't go on an unrelated tangent as per usual. Moving on!

I thought megumi would apologize too like he said, but I can't tell if it's intentional and it will lead to something more, or gege just wants to move the plot and won't explore those things anymore.

Ah I feel the same way!

There's so many little details that feel like might be left unresolved. So far it looks like Gege is paying off on his promises so I wonder if he's going to deliver some angsty moment where Megumi apologizes because Sukuna killed her. Perhaps not that precisely but I wouldn't put it past the cursed cat.

I always thought that seeing tsumiki as an actual person capable of good and bad would have challenged him, so I'm curious if that's still what we'll be exploring with megumi or if it doesn't matter anymore and he just died like a fool.

Oh this is GOOD stuff. Not the part about Megumi dying like a fool but... y'know.

Again, "go back to sleep Tsumiki. I am busy protecting you."

Honestly, I am not sure what I like the most about how things unfolded... that Megumi's soul broke because Tsumiki might be dead, or that Megumi's soul broke because she has a will of her own when she never did before lol.

Again. I am eager to see how Gege executes on the trope.

on a happier note 😊 I've been having a ball seeing sukuna mess around again with the mcs 😭 he's so fun to watch

Yeessssss... sort of... not really... but still... yeeeeeeessss...

I love Sukuna and I love that every time Sukuna shows up he just has this overbearing and amazing sense of self that comes through the page in such a beautiful way.

I kind of just wish he want back to Yuji's body for that lol.

But ok, FINE! Go forth Sukumi! I'm looking forward to seeing what shenanigans he gets into this time.

Sort of... not really... ok maybe.

OMG YES!

Wait... jk, noooooooooooo!

This is interesting because Jacob's Ladder also gets at the core of the idea of the human heart. OMG what is Gege planning?!!!

CURSED CAT!

ok I personally think it's a bit too predictable for Megumi to do a reverse uno from chapter 9, but it is also very likely to happen. Sad indeed.

Gege did drop possible foreshadowing about Megumi's death, but it could also very well be a red herring.

The reference to Patrasche is very tragic. You can read about A Dog of Flanders in Wikipedia, which has a quick summary of the story and mentions a couple of anime adaptations of the story.

In a nutshell, A Dog of Flanders is about a boy (who happens to be an orphan like a certain someone) with a very tragic life and his very tragic death.

Anyways, thanks for sharing this theory. I loved the continuity that Gege brought in from chapter 9 but I never thought to explore the end of the arc.

What do believe to be a fulfilling character arc for megumi? I don't mind him dying or living, but not in this very moment hehe 😃

Shoot. I have no clue!!! I'm really focused on taking each chapter at a time and not getting my hopes up about Megumi coming back. This is my own personal way of not getting hurt heh. I just don't want to be disappointed because Gege is unpredictable af sometimes.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY I AM TOTALLY SPECULATING ON WHAT COULD HAPPEN.

So... I keep referring to Jacob's Ladder because as a symbol it represents the upward mobility of the soul. There's a clear theme of corruption and redemption of the self. So I feel like a fulfilling arc would be Megumi doing the whole union of opposites thing (remember the Sleeping Beauty references?) and re-awakening and overpowering Sukuna's sense of self.

After all, Gege already made it a point to make a distinction between how some people can be a vessels and others can be cages. I think it might be a theme of overcoming evil within oneself.

Thanks for reaching out again!!!

It's always good to brainrot and chat with others about JJK so thank you for sending in your thoughts. Keep them coming if you wish :)

Apologies on the delayed answer as well.

#ask the mental gymnastics anime girl #2/3 asks done!#thanks for your patience!#god I love jujutsu kaisen #jjk is jungian af

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1, 6, 13, and 16 for Alexi and Ursula and shoot anyone else you wanna answer for

💛 from @korvanjund

thank you sm for the ask darlin!! i decided to also include my little haglet ophelia since i've been adding more to her storyline today, and it's about time i start talking more about my other character lol.

who are they closest to? how did they meet and what do they like to do together?

i already answered this for alexi here!

ursula: she's obviously very close with her wife, bothela. like i said in her chara sheet, the two met when markarth was under reach control and they worked together as healers. they spend most of their day running the hag's cure together and training their apprentice. when they aren't doing that, they mostly focus on their own little projects and research; bothela seems to somehow never tire of alchemy even long after the shop closes, and ursula likes to tinker around with dwemer texts and tech to see what she can find out. then they get back together and discuss whatever interesting things they learned. she's also super close to her niece and nephew! isobel doesn't love having the kids spend time with her, but the few times they are together, they love hearing all her stories from when she was in the uprising and just stories of the reach in general.

ophelia: she'd literally lay down her life for every single person in her coven dklfjskdj, she's very dedicated to them!! but of course, she's closest to her mother, helle. helle was in the forsworn uprising, and she had ophelia not long after markarth was secured. after it all fell apart, she raised filly to continue fighting for the reach, but the rebellion was never the same after madanach was imprisoned. eventually, the two (along with some of ophelia's closest friends from the forsworn) disbanded and formed an independent coven. ophelia supported her mother through the ritual to become a hagraven matriarch, and she's gladly willing to take on the same burden should anything happen to helle. helle taught ophelia a LOT about everything she knows about magic, and she's working on honing her skills as a seer to better guide the coven. although helle is the matriarch, her daughter is her right hand man of sorts and is just as responsible for everything they do. she runs around the coven doing just about anything that needs doing to help the members, whether it's hunting with hypatia, babysitting honey while beatrice is busy, or assisting esmeralda in her expeditions to old ruins.

on an average day, what can they be found doing after dinner?

alexandria: the short answer is: way too much !! the long answer: girlie has the worst case of insomnia ever and she compensates for that by using Way Too Many stamina potions, so it's usually her companions that even have to remind her to stop for dinner at all. even after dinner, she knows she wouldn't be able to sleep unless she majorly tires herself out, so she likes to run around doing more and more stuff. if her companions are too worn out from the day to do that, she likes to restock their potion supply or practice her spells. if after that she still can't quite fall asleep, she'll usually go on a late night hunting trip. there have been a few times when the local blacksmith tries to open shop and just finds her tanning leather at their station lol

ursula: she's quite the scholar, especially when it comes to the history of the reach! this goes beyond just the reachfolk; she also studies the history of the dwarves in the reach, the dragon cult, etc. she's published a few books covering the subjects, and is considered a leading expert on the matter. if she's not having a chill evening with her wife, she likes to continue working on those books, whether she's writing for them or just doing some research. she makes occasional visits to isobel's family, as the kids absolutely adore her, but those are few and far between.

ophelia: she's a little like alexi in that she does way more than anyone has any business doing kdsjfhd. she doesn't have the same ailment of course, but she wants to take off the pressures of managing the coven from her mother's shoulds, at least as best as she can. by the time they finish dinner, she's already thinking about where to go hunting for the next day's meal. she prays at the shrines to the old gods, who often send her visions to guide her. she checks in on each of the members and their individual duties and their work. she'll sometimes read honey a story before bed or sing her to sleep when her mother is away. she takes care of helle when she's in pain (i hc that the hagraven transformation can be pretty painful and draining, not unlike the briarheart transformation). when she does have a moment to relax, she likes to spend it by the river, soaking her feet and watching the stars.

what special abilities or talents do they possess? did they develop through training or were they born with them?

alexandria: she's always had a knack for alchemy, like i said in the other post! it was why her tutor encouraged her to apprentice at the hag's cure, where she built on that natural talent with a lot of hard work. despite her young age (around 22-27 depending on her point in the story), she's practically a master alchemist already. she'll insist she's not a master—"well i don't think anyone could ever know everything there is to know about alchemy. it's an evolving discipline and—" she's the worst lol. but the point is, she's one of the best ones you'll find around!! she's not an expert in things like sword fighting or marksmanship, but she makes up for it with her potions and poisons, making her a formidable foe.

ursula: she's pretty well rounded i think, having been a fighter and a healer for much of her life. she's also fairly good at alchemy herself. a lot of those things weren't really inborn, but she had a lot of great guidance from the other people that were part of the uprising. since it was in the works for many years, and ursula joined in during the early stages of its planning, she had a lot of time to hone her skills. by the time of the main story with lex, she's pretty much a master at restoration magic in particular, as that's the one she's used most in the 30 years since the city was reconquered by the nords. when the temple of dibella is closed, she's looked to as the town's primary healer.

ophelia: like i said before, she's a seer. it was always an inborn gift she's had, but her training with her mother as well as her devout worship of the old gods give her visions a significant boost. she's most devout to vaermina, who shows her visions of omens and looming threats to both her and her people in her dreams. she's actually the one that told alexandria to go to helgen, because she got a vision of what was going to happen and knew alexi was central to it. her visions can sometimes come in the form of metaphors rather than exact tellings of what'll happen, so she thought that alexi being personified as a dragon in these visions was some odd metaphor, as was helgen being burnt to the ground. needless to say, she later realized those visions were more literal than initially thought lol

how do they like their baths/showers? hot/cold, long/short?

alexandria: like absolutely scorching lol. when she bathes, she often uses a flames spell to get the water damn near boiling before she hops in. when it's revealed that she's the dragonborn, she makes a lot of jokes that it's because of her dragon blood, but tbh she's just Like That.

ursula: warm, but not as much as lex. she's still spry and healthy, but she is Old (tm), so she finds a warm bath nice and soothing, yk? especially since most of her work is on her feet.

ophelia: cold or lukewarm at best. she loves bathing in the karth river, and she appreciates it regardless of the weather. the karth is practically sacred to the reachfolk, and she finds the embrace of the cold water bracing and energizing! lord knows she needs that considering how much is on her plate.

#tes #tesblr #skyrim oc #oc: alexandria silver blood #oc: ursula dain #oc: ophelia #cozy answers

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dooooo. skipper

OOF

OBLIGATORY edgy mess pls forgive me . i rlly like to talk abt this one & im gonna try & not get too excessive dfygujb.

Full Name: CAPT Segin Isidro Vadin [primarily goes by skipper & has since. a teen. its stone cold irony that she became a literal captain though gfdsdgfh]

Gender and Sexuality: gnc woman & bi

Pronouns: she/her [sometimes strangers use sir, other pronouns, & mistake her for Cis Dude etc. bc tall + crew cut but she just. rolls w it. cant be fucked to care rlly.]

Ethnicity: white

Birthplace and Birthdate: clearwater FL. & idk exact date but shes A capricorn.

Guilty Pleasures: shes big n bad but at her Core, deepdown, shes a diehard terrible mushy romantic who turns into an awkward submissive softie around someone she Rlly Likes. which Eats Her Alive

Phobias: oof shes got a lotta. complexes. but shes BIG time claustrophobic. hates anything that feels remotely trapping. sorta terrified of being alone, but theres very few she Wants to be around. loud noises + thunder are eh.

What They Would Be Famous For: fbi most wanted list prob

What They Would Get Arrested For: she was arrested several times as a teen for doing dumb shit high &/or drunk on dares. otherwise shes… slick

OC You Ship Them With: her & avi are messy powercouple of the century.

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: i mean everyone wants to wring her neck at Some Poing but the point is my ocs are….Friends…..asa Maybe though. they just rub each other the wrong way but theyre legally obligated to Suck It Up since theyre in-laws.

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: bold of you to assume she consumes media. [she likes…cartoons….some comics. rlly likes deadpool bc ‘haha same hat’]

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: doesnt, rlly have one?

Talents and/or Powers: like teflon; nothing sticks to her. larger-than-life, deceptive, cunning, observant. shouldve been an actor.

Why Someone Might Love Them: shes not very Loveable but people will like what she Does w/o knowing its her doing it? [which is taking out evil rich elites, basically.] blends in to the club scene very well. shes surprisingly good with kids, who’re less intimidated by her than adults [she can tell good stories & will say shes a cyborg or smth when they ask abt her legs, which makes her Cool™] she has a heart in there somewhere

Why Someone Might Hate Them: shes literally an ex-seal mercenary & like. later on, anarchist vigilante. her personality is coarse. she never truly grew outta being a scrappy teenager from boston.

How They Change: uhh she gets knocked down a Lot of pegs & develops like. a sense of morality? realizes shes objectively horrible & makes a conscious decision to do better things. starts offing people who Deserve It vs just following orders. yk, character development.

Why You Love Them: 1st oc babey. skip really started off overpowered & exaggerated which id tried to tone down to make her more ~realistic~ which like, did help me clarify what i wanted out of her character, but then i realized i dont. have to do that. the entire point is that this is A Character & I Make The Rules….it doesnt really matter anyways if its too coincidental that so Much has happened w one individual- some people cram a lot of living into a short amount of time. & if i wanna make an edgy self indulgent powerhouse whos hell bent on revenge & Punishing Evil People all while learning how to have meaningful relationships & Friends im gonna. do that.

#gubbly #oc tag #call me when the house is on fire #ty omg...srry it took a while #i feel like im talking Bad .

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maissaraghaly · 3 years

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عن المثلية الجنسية، مفهوم الحرية، عصر ما بعد الحداثة، والدين.

أسئلة سُئلتها وارتأيت تسجيلها وإجاباتها بهدف التوثيق، اختيار اللغة كان بناءً على لغة السؤال.

Q/ Are you really against LGBTQ rights?

A/ "Let’s keep that logically unflawed. There is a difference between being against an idea, and being against the rights to believe in that idea. So to dissect this, what are exactly the LGBTQ rights? The rights to fall in love, or the rights to get married by law, or the rights just to sleep with each other, or the rights to normalize the homosexual relationships?

Also what exactly is the idea behind the rights? Yk every right had an idea behind it, a value, like for example I have the right to publicly criticize the government because freedom of speech has a value in it that I am not forced to believe in ideas that aren’t mine, or the value of democracy that everyone is equal so everyone’s opinion counts, and so on, so what is the value behind LGBTQ rights?

If you answered me those previous questions I may be able to reply to your questions, and that we can both be on the same ground, other than that it would be of no benefit at all."

Q/ Okay let me be more precise. By “LGBTQ” I meant the following: 1- the right for trans people to be acknowledged as people of their preferred gender. 2- the right for gay couples to get married by law( that doesn’t mean they can adopt) 3- the right for homosexual relationships to be normalized and to make sure we have laws to protect these individuals.

What are the idea or the value behind these “rights”? 1- The idea that everyone is free unless they cause harm to others, so everyone is free to have consensual sex with whomever they please. 2- the idea that love (which is not equivalent to sexual attraction, ik) has no boundaries and should not be limited to hetero-romance

A/ "Oh boy that would be long. 1- Trans people cannot be in the same category as homosexual relationships, it’s totally a different matter, it’s purely genetics, or at least that’s the origin of it, so as long it’s a matter of genetics it’s out of conversation.

2- Regarding homosexuality, first of all if we agree to make a law regarding something, and as the law making process is only chosen by the majority of people, so all this conversation would be useless because we live in a society that is against homosexuality, that’s a lost argument, so we can discuss the value behind it to choose our side from opposing or rooting for the law, but in our society it ain’t happening. Let’s also not forget ofc that majority of people doesn’t mean objectively right or moral or anything, it just means that this specific people see it that way, so gonna shift the argument to the values.

How can you define “freedom” regarding the part of doing harm to others? Does this harm mean direct harm, like hitting someone, or it also includes indirect harm? I suppose you are not a capitalist or at least not rooting for it, does the capitalist system is a freedom of choice? Doesn’t it depend on offer and demand and what the people want? Doesn’t it cause harm to others? It certainly does harm to others, even sometimes directly, so the problem lies in the definition of harm, and I suppose you are thinking from a rational way of view and not gonna define harm by only direct harm. Also, we’ll need to dissect the definition of harm to physically, emotionally and mentally if we are gonna talk logically.

So if I am a random person who sees homosexuality as an emotionally harmful thing for me as it’s against the human nature, how can you refute that? By telling me not to look? Why we don’t walk nudes then and tell each other not to look? And please do not use the counter argument that it exists in animals, because animals walk nude, frighten each other, threaten each other, kill each other over a female, kill the infants of other animals of the same specie to raise the chances of the survival of their offspring, females kill their males and males kill their females. Here lies another important topic, are we mere animals? Do you compare us to other animals? Humans are not animals -not talking about the scientific definition- and if they truly are tell me why we shouldn’t abide by the same laws of the animal kingdom? And btw every value of kindness, help, freedom, aesthetic values, peace all of that would be logically utter nonsense, not just by me, but even by the Nietzshcian philosophy.

And if we are not animals, and I root for the opinion that homosexuality is against the human nature, If supposedly I define the ultimate right for me is benefiting the society and the human race and it’s indirect harm to the survival of the human race, how can anyone refute that? No clue, no evidence, no genes, nothing. And ofc don’t use the argument that homosexuality existed since the dawn of civilization, because first that doesn’t mean by necessity that this is a human nature, which would lead us to defining the meaning of human nature which is biologically and philosophically still debatable, and the second question would be, what is your reference that it existed? You either don’t have one, or you have the story in Quran and I needn’t tell you why you shouldn’t use that reference ofc.

I’ll tell you what’s wrong with the value behind homosexuality, it’s not based on freedom, or at least not to its end, freedom is not the original value, the original value is pleasure. One doesn’t need to have a homosexual relationship to give birth for people to benefit the society for example, the whole idea revolves around the self pleasing, so does the pleasure between two parties -regardless consensus- could be a value that we make laws upon? Human sacrifice is sometimes consensus, self pleasing seeing other people cut themselves is definitely consensus, teachers sleeping with 18 years old kids is consensus.Consensus and pleasure doesn’t necessarily in even that fucked up world mean right.

I can debate till the end of time regarding those elastic values that have no real meaning and collect a bunch of unrelated, made up, irrelevant values such as freedom, there is nothing called freedom, especially from a modern and post modern pov, freedom means no objective reality, and in a free-objective reality we would debate and will never finish this argument, because each of us will label his values as the true values and no one can proof anything, why do we even have this conversation, what do we want? Do we just seek the absolute pleasure of man? That would be funny because even from a modernist pov I can refute that pleasure should be a goal, and I hope at this point we get that we don’t seek freedom, because there is nothing called freedom, or you’ll have to give me the definition of freedom, harm, what is the end value of life, what is right and wrong.

Ofc I needn’t say that I am not against two people fucking each other, let whoever wants to fuck fuck whom he wants -btw let people fuck animals tho, it could be consensus also I needn’t mention videos of animals fucking humans- but for God sake don’t say that this right, or moral, or root for it as the ultimate good or the ultimate said hollow fake value free undefinable term “freedom”.

3- Regarding saying that love is boundless, I needn’t say we will need to define love, because scientifically that would be impossible, and if you gonna define it with its symptoms as producing of certain chemicals there is no difference then between it and any other feeling including sexual attraction.It’s all around pleasure, and if you root for values such as love, freedom you’ll need to define what you are rooting for and all the terms beneath those terms"

س/ انا مقولتش انت رأيك الشخصي ايه في الممارسات المثلية انا سألتك اذا كنت شايف ان من حق الناس تمارس المثلي براحتها ولا تتعاقب لو عملت دهاظن انا وانت متفقين ان فيه فرق ما بين اننا نوافق على حاجة و ما بين اننا نؤمن بحق الانسان الاخر في انه يوافق على الحاجة دي -بصرف النظر احنا شخصيا مؤمنين بصحتها ولا لا- شريطة انها متئذيش حدو هنا لازم نحط ليميتس للكلمة "الاذى النفسي" لان لو اخدناها للاكستريم ممكن نمنع ان اتنين يحضنوا بعض في الشارع بحجة ان ده بيئذي الاخرين، نمنع البنات تمشي بشعرها، نمنع الرجالة تلبس حلقان، الخ، فمش عشان الفعل بيئذي الناس شعوريا بدرجة معينة بالضرورة يعني انه غلط، لازم نحط تعريف واضح للاذى النفسي اللي بيخلينا نحكم على فعل ما انه لا اخلاقي.

وعلى ذكر الpleasure، الكلام ده برضو ممكن يمشي على العلاقات المغايرة جنسيا اللي بتتعمل بس من اجل الشهوة، واللي هي بتمثل الغالبية العظمى من الممارساا المغايرة، اغلب الناس بتمارس الجنس وهي لابسة كاندم او واخدة حبوب، هل انت شايف ان فيه فرق بين ده وبين الجنس المثلي؟

ج/ "أنا قولت رأيي الشخصي، اللي عايز يعمل حاجة يعملها، إنما يعملها مدفاعًا ومنظرًا عن القيم الأخلاقية الصحيحة ووسمها بإن هي دي الحرية واللي مش موافق عليها يبقى ضد الحرية ده كلام فارغ من المعنى.

موضوع التقنين دي حاجة يحددها المجتمع، بس لو بنتكلم على رأيي فأنا ضد تقنينه وضد تطبيعه لكذا سبب: -مفيش أي معنى من وراه غير التمركز حول الذات بل التمركز حول مادية الذات مش ذايتها بس، وبالمبدأ ده احنا ممكن نمرر أي قانون في الدنيا. -مرجعيتي الحالية مرجعية إسلامية، فأكيد ضد الفعل وضد تطبيعه وضد "ممارسته في العلن"، لإن لو رجعنا للموضوع من وجهة نظر إسلامية، فهو حرم الموضوع، وحط عقوبات ليه من كونه فعل اجتماعي مش من كونه فعل شخصي، يعني لو اتنين كان بينهم علاقة ومبدأوش ينظروا لده قدام الناس ولا مارسوه في العلن محدش يملك إنه يطبق عليهم عقوبة -بالطبع بعيدًا عن الحساب الأخروي- بالظبط زي الزنا، فالعقوبات البشرية هنا كانت على آثاره المجتمعية، والآثار المجتمعية لا تُبنى إلا على فعل مرتبط بتنظير أو ممارسته في الأماكن العامة بدليل شرط وجوب ٤ شهداء، وحتى في وجوب ٤ شاهدين فلو الاتين معترفوش على علمي البسيط لا تطبق عليهم العقوبة، ده غير إن تطبيق الحدود سقط لحاجة اسمها حُكم الوقت: عدم التبين من صدق الشهود.

ده يقودنا لنقطة مهمة، إن حتى الإسلام حط تطبيق عقوبة بشرية مش ع الفعل في حد ذاته، بل ع الفعل في ظل إطاره المجتمعي، وده يقودنا للسؤال الحقيقي، هل الموضوع ده فعلًا مفهوش ضرر مجتمعي على المستوى الحقيقي؟بس ده بالتالي هيترتب عليه -تاني- تعريف الضرر، وده يستوجب بالضرورة تعريف الطبيعي اللي البشرية فيه، وتعريف هدف البشرية اللي المفروض تسعى له، وساعتها هنقدر نقيم إذا كان الفعل ده بيسبب ضرر ولا لا، وصدقيني في الموقف ده لو انتي مرجعيتك غير دينية مش هتعرفي تجاوبي ع السؤال وأي إجابة ممكن أثبتلك عدميتها، مش عشان أنا جامد، بس بسبب نفي وإعدام مبدأ الحقيقة المطلقة ومبدأ الموضوعية، ولإن من وجهة النظر اللادينية مفيش هدف حقيقي للإنسان يسعى له فبالتالي يوجد مفهوم حقيقي للضرر وهو عرقلة الجنس البشري من الوصول لهدفه، فبالتالي كل رأي وكل قيمة إنسانية خاضعة للنسبية. مثال قد يقرب الموضوع، خدي نفس الأسئلة اللي فاتت على حوار الثورة، هل الثورة ضارة أم لا؟ ممكن أطلعلك ١٠٠ سبب لكل وجهة نظر ومش هنوصل لحاجة.فالموضوغ مينفعش يُتناول بس من منظور الكلمة الواهية "الحرية" لإن كل اللي بينظروا للكلمة دي بينظروا لمفهوم هم مش فاهمينه ولا معرفينه، و أكيد أ ب منطق الاتفاق على المفاهيم.

الجزئية الثانية: أكيد زي ما قولتي لازم نحط تعريف واضح للأذى النفسي وده متوافق مع وجهة نظري بضرورة الوقوف على المفاهيم، وده اللي مستحيل ينجح فيه العلم، وتاني..مش عشان أنا جامد والعلم كوخة، ده مبني نفسه على نظريات العلم والفلسفة الغربية بمادية كل شيء، فالقيم الأخلاقية غير معرفة وغير معترف بها، لدرجة إنهم مش بس مبيعرفوش القيم الأخلاقية، ده لسه مش عارفين يحطوا تعريف دقيق للمرض النفسي لتعسر الفصل عندهم بين النفسي والعضوي. و مش بس كمان هنحتاج نعرف الأذى النفسي، هنحتاج نعرف الأذى النفسي والشعوري والفيزيقي والمجتمعي، وصدقيني Good luck with that

الجزئية الثالثة: ممارسة الجنس في العلافات المغايرة بهدف المتعة مفيش فرق بينه وبينه العلاقات في إطار الهوموسكشواليتي، إلا هدف واحد، إنه من وجهة نظر إسلامية بيحدث ضمن نطاق الطبيعة الإنسانية بين رجل وامرأة، وأنا بالنسبالي الجنس من أجل المتعة مفهوم خطأ وقُلِب رأسًا على عقب، وحتى الحيوانات مبتعملوش، مش هتلاقي حيوان بيمارس الجنس -مش يستمني- بغرض غير الحفاظ على الجنس. ده يقودنا لحتة عميقة سنة وأرجو التفهم:أنا أزعم إن هدف الجنس الحقيقي مش المفروض يبقى المتعة حتى، ده لا ينفي بالضرورة وجود المتعة فيه، بس مع جعل المتعة هي هدف العملية وقعت كل حاجة متعلقة بالموضوع، وحتى من منطلق إسلامي مفيش حاجة تنص إن ده بهدف المتعة، ولم ينكر المتعة فيه أيضًا ولكن لم يجعلها هدف. فأنا أزعم إننا حرّفنا الهدف الأساسي للعملية الجنسية، بردو لنفس السبب: التمركز حول الذات والنفس البشرية وجعلها إله من دون الله.

مش محتاج أقول أكيد إني عادي بني آدم بيستمتع بالحياة الجنسية مش بعملها بغرض الحفاظ على الجنس البشري، فأنا عادي تمامًا الموضوع متمحور حولين المتعة بالنسبالي، بس ده غلط، ولما يوصل لإطار مجتمعي لازم أكيد يتدرس بالمنطق اللازم لده."

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Extra #2: My thoughts on Rules for Men/ Religion ( WARNING: This is a compilation of like two unedited entries from my person “diary” so please ignore the emojis and typos)

Okay so revisited the notes about suicide and this philosopher named Durkheim from like whatever many years ago in Paris who studied patterns in suicide. So he discovered ☝🏼 rates in suicide. 👇🏼rates in suicide Single. Married Men. Women Wealthy. Poor Protestants. Catholics So if you analyze this you realize single rich men that don’t really have religious guidance or anything to set a moral compass for them are more likely to commit suicide. And obviously there are always exceptions but it makes a lot of sense. 1) So then our professor (literally love him! May Allah fill his heart with Iman ameen) had us think about American society and we as a class came to the conclusion (I didn’t really participate much so I cannot take credit for most of these ideas) that American men only rely on their wives and girlfriends for emotional support like they have beer buddies and hunting buddies and blah blah blah but their only emotional support system is their significant other. Whereas, women are more like to call up their girls and mom or close mother figure or even guy friends every now and then and spill all the teas. Okay so that one I didn’t relate much to religion but while they were discussing it I was thinking about the dynamic between friends and how desi people, well men in particular are ride or die for their “brothers” you know like yeah you have the groups that are guarded and don’t talk about feelings but as far as I know most of the desi men in my life have shared emotions with their friends as much as women, if not more. Also, they are not afraid to cry. I’ve seen all my uncles cry and even my dad. I have seen my grandpa cry. I have seen random babas on the street cry too. Based off of my experience men in Pakistan or even here (before they get influenced) show a lot of emotion and that is how it should be! 2) Then we talked about wealthy neighborhoods and how there’s usually one family in a large house and parents usually work a lot and only see their kids for short periods of time. Whereas, in poorer families, a lot more people live together which means you’re more likely to interact with more people throughout your day. Okay, then we talked about how neighborhood atmosphere right so in rich neighborhoods your walls and fences are taller and more gates and less interaction with people around you. However, in poorer neighborhoods, fences tend to be shorter fewer gates and neighbors converse with one another and on weekends especially like holidays and stuff people have bbq and block parties and share and connect with each other. Then I thought well what about golfing buddies and country club events and things. But then I realized the nature of those events is different (I used to volunteer to serve at events held for charity and got a chance to observe the difference in class systems). The way people carry themselves and the way they speak is very like like .. hm like not authentic it’s like robotic almost like even the jokes and laughs sound rehearsed. Then I thought about back home and what I had learned about my religion about how Islam promotes neighborly-ness. And how we are reminded to share and be inclusive. [side note: this got me thinking about race and how it doesn’t exist inshallah I’ll write about that another day and why I think it was created but as far my limited knowledge about my religion goes I’ve never heard color mentioned the lectures I’ve been to only talked about people of other religions and believers v. Nonbelievers but nothing about race]. 3) then we talked about religious guidance that catholicism forbids suicide and Protestants had various beliefs and each group was different and different branches and stuff so no one was on the same place. Then our professor said okay let's say you don't like people and you don't talk to neighbors or friends but you like working on you and you come to church because you’re obligated to do so then what? is that enough? People said no because yk you’re not getting the proper interaction you need to exist. And I started drifting and thinking about how even with prayer it’s better to do it as a group like unison amplifies prayer. But I disagree with the class a little I think both are necessary a balance between individualism and the responsibilities that come with that like working on being a better you, knowing yourself, your goals, strengths, weaknesses, etc. And at the same time working in a group and helping others grow and reach their goals and stuff. And it makes sense for me to think that way because when I was little I had one teacher tell me to not think of myself and to do for others before I do for myself and then another told me to do for myself before everyone else. [mini story time: So I came home confused (I was like 7 and opposing views were hard to understand) and I asked an Imam that used to live in our house if I was really really hungry and had only one small piece of Roti and I saw a baba with no food what should I do and he asked me what I thought so I remember saying that I would like to say that I would just give him the whole piece because he needed it more but I don’t really know what I would do and if I was a baba too and we were two babas that were both hungry with no other food for who knows how long then I think I wouldn’t want to give him the whole piece and then I think I would just break it in half and he didn’t say anything back to me he patted me on the head and then left for namaz lol ] so idk what to make of that but I think that moment in time signifies how important balance is to me. And inshallah I plan on educating myself more so I can know the answers to my questions but the more I explore my thoughts and the more I think about positive actions, I end up back at the same influence, my religion. I’ve always just done stuff because someone else wanted me to but I never prayed when I didn’t feel like it [which sucks I know but is the truth because I felt like it was worse lying about reading namaz(I felt like I wasn’t really reading if I was daydreaming in some parts and speeding through others) than not reading it at all] but the more I explore my thoughts and my goals for myself I make these little connections and they remind me of a very particular dua that I remember making as kind of a kid [mini story time: it was dark and raining and I was sitting in the veranda looking at the rain (I was like still 7 almost 8) and I remember thinking I should say Subhanallah right now because obviously Allah created this but I didn’t. then at the age of whatever age I was when I went to Pulliam after my grandpa died it rained again and I asked Allah to help me love everything as much as I love the rain] and I don’t remember the intentions of my words or what I meant by that but the more I take the time to think the more I remember and the more I try to grow I realize that dua has been answered. I love life, I grew to love people and school, and now I’m growing to love my religion. And I want to hold to this for as long as I possibly can I keep writing because I’m trying to bottle this love and appreciation because I’m scared it’ll go away or something. But yeah The point of all this is that humans need integration to be able to exist and I’m grateful to be created by a god that gave me a guideline to overcome challenges and every task that I’m asked to perform in the end only befits me and creates the happiness that we all seem to be chasing.

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