shout out to myself 3 years ago waking up hungover and most likely still high af in the middle of a שטח אש buttfuck nowhere desert, extremely confused by the solar system, on a project my entire body still hurts from to this day
The more I worm my way into (office based) academia, the more I miss that one job I had that involved being covered in mud and high vis for most of the day
the archaeological community: obviously we won't make this precious site's exact location public because we don't want amateur grave robbers and pot hunters to destroy it
me, a gremlin with access to google earth and entirely too much time on my hands: uhuh
i am skeptical of a lot of therapy (CBT has done very little for me) but i did end up reaching out to the like. 2 dbt therapists in the country and i might be getting into the group therapy. i doubt it will solve all my problems especially with The Autism and anxiety and the lack of good adhd meds and the physical effects of stress even when doing the slightest thing and living in a place i don't feel comfortable or safe in and the existential dread etc etc. anyhow if i can at least like. gain some basic tools that will at least help me with at least a bit part of it. i'd love to. mostly bc the rest is gradually taking an actual physical toll and me and now i'm more and more exhausted and getting phantom pain mostly bc i tense up so hard and bc any shot of strong emotion leaves me exhausted, overstimulated, and barely able to move, never mind do any task which then worsens all the strong emotions etc etc etc. anyhow. it won't fix me i know that. maybe it can give me basic ways to break some of the worst cycles or at least cope with it. anyhow any usamerican ok with sending me adderall
why does media treat archaeologists so weirdly it’s so funny. why is “archaeologist parent neglects/abandons/~mysteriously disappears~ on their child” a trope. who hurt you comic book writers and movie writers and children’s tv show writers and
ur an archaeologist? that’s so cool! how do you like your work?
i am!! i love it very much, i’m fortunate to enjoy outdoor work enough that i can push through unfavourable weather (although it’s not as bad as you think!) but it’s truly such a dream job for me. digging something up and realising you’re the first person in hundreds of years to hold it is a feeling that never ever gets boring 💙
Daydreaming about finding a way to move back to Scotland, and thinking about all the British archaeology stuff I would have to brush up on to make that even a remote possibility. And also I would have to transplant my cats, which sounds stressful for them.