#i miss being outside so hard

[hoofpeet]

I'd probably have to read the printed version and web version back to back at some point to note all the differences but... ough

#sorry i'm going to be excited about this comic for the next month #nofna #okay having finished this now-- #and sorry if this doesn't make sense to anyone who's completely unfamiliar with this comic in advance- #the 'popcorn ending' (printed version) is nice to see but i think the web version hits harder. if that makes sense #so i'm kinda tied on which ending i 'prefer'- i think both are good though #also considering i've read the web version a good 4-5 times and the printed version only once- i probably can't make that judgement yet #easy answer- i do like Nutsedge :] so it's nice to see the ending where nothing bad happens to her #but also- NT suddenly becoming a greenie-esque villain out of nowhere felt a little jarring #as well as SV suddenly turning a corner and becoming a 'good guy' (arguable)- considering the first three books are about #/him being too stubborn to change or accept any outside worldviews . Him suddenly coming to his senses felt out of place #<- probably biased because i like characters being bitter to the end and ultimately destroyed by their own hubris #the web version is probably‚ objectively‚ a bit better #but - #(spoilers- if you're planning to drop ~70 bucks on getting these books) #the conceit of SV actually perfecting his style‚ using it once‚ and then immediately getting tooth-brained- was pretty cool #assuming it's meant to parallel him spending months tormented by trying to perfect it while something's still missing- #and then dying before he can narrate it to the audience‚ so that we never know what he figured out. #hard to articulate these thoughts but tl;dr- popcorn ending also had a lot to think about

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[phoenixcatch7]

We could make Sqq a transformer in his past life. Like optimus prime sorta transformer. Cybertronian.

He'd be the only surviving seeker (winged guy) on the autobots side (I don't know all the canons but I don't think they have, like, any). Pretty young when the war started - unfathomably ancient for humans, the kiddie of the group to them.

And he arrives on earth. Discovers the Internet. Immediately gets hooked on critiquing stupid Web novels in every language, which being a sentient machine he can do at great speed without forgetting anything. Decides to read the final chapter during a battle because he's so close to the end and airplane had better pull SOMETHING good. Is so infuriated (distracted) by the ending he messes up and immediately gets killed by some low level decepticon. After FIVE MILLION years of war he gets offed by some loser over a stupid human story that wasn't even very good. He dies SO furious.

And then he gets reborn a human.

He is, as the kids say, big mad.

How by Primus do they do anything??

#I can't decide if back on earth it's post reveal or not because the revelation that a cybernetic alien soldier was the one being catty in #the comment section of his harem story would break sqh. It'd be so funny if he didn't believe him tho #Sqq trying so hard to blend in when he knows basically nothing about even modern human norms outside of stories and memes #No one can decide if Sqq just has hallucinations or has been possessed by an eldritch monster #Sqq: *under his breath because his thoughts are so hard to hold on to now* I MISS being able to fly myself #Sqq: *drops important items like xiuya because he keeps forgetting he doesn't have hammer space anymore* *heavy sigh* #Sqq: *does a weird twist of his limbs because he can no longer turn into a vehicle* *mortified* #Mqf: shixiong... Is everything alright? #Sqq; who's been trying to air drop his medical information to his hard drive because he's too squeamish to say it out loud: yeah - Yes. #Sqq with great feeling: humans... Are so SOGGY. You're all so SQUISHY and full of all sorts of nasty FUILDS. I have to consume SO much #And all I get is SMELLY #No wonder your species started global warming #Sqh: bro can you not?? #He adores lbhs cooking tho. #svsss #shen qingqiu #transformers #scum villain's self saving system #the scum villain's self saving system #scum villain #He's an idiot but he's an incomprehensibly ancient battle hardened 7m tall metal warrior squished into mortal form idiot #He is not picking up the signs lbh is putting down #At least once he figures out human limitations he can be a good strategist again

[seventh-fantasy]

令嫒就像那片山水。虽然我从未亲眼看见过，但是我知道她会有多美。... 我有多羡慕将来可以亲眼看见她的那个人。

#鹤唳华亭 #royal nirvana #cdrama #drama #my posts #hlht #rewatched the 屏风定情 scenes i think for the first time... #it just hits SO differently now #the first time was more about seeing two innocent kids falling in love while knowing it's gonna turn out so tragic #the second is inevitably about how lonely and sad xdq is. and lwx being completely altered eventually #xdq talking about missing someone even when they're right before you. lwx talking about reuniting with huating!!!!!!!! #them talking about freedom and liberation!!!!!!!! among the rivers and mountains!!! #'you don't have to become a deity to experience that'. you can experience it in this lifetime as a person #but to xdq (and to many other people) it's really just THAT hard #lwx has experienced it. experienced nirvana. but from here on it's gonna be her fall and demise #i'm just so fucking sad #she's the symbol of the world outside to him. unreachable. and something he can only hope and yearn for #even though it's just right before him #like she's literally an abstraction to him for the longest time bc he has never SEEN her before #it's insane all he wanted is to lay eyes on someone's face and looks AND HE COULDN'T #AND WHEN HE WAS GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY. HE LOOKED WAY PAST IT. #HELLO I'M GOING INSANE

[mymarifae]

i will always advocate for skipping classes btw. to all the high schoolers following me: don't sweat having a perfect attendance record it quite literally does not matter. if anyone tells you good attendance is important for being considered for scholarships they're lying to you. my attendance was fucking abysmal and i was offered several full-ride scholarships because my grades were still solid and that's all 90% of colleges care about.

and besides. taking care of yourself - whether you need a mental health break or you're tired or you just frankly don't want to go to that fucking class - should always take priority! now don't take a page from my book and skip a month and a half's worth of pe classes because you ditched One Time because the coach said he was going to make everyone run a mile that day and then he kept trying to get you to "make up" the mile that you missed so you kinda just stopped showing up until he gave up on you forever like please know that you should go to class regularly BUT.

i think taking time off and leaving early and such needs to be normalized. for school and work. i don't think it's fair to punish people for needing breaks. the human brain is literally not made to sit in the same stifling environments for 8 hours almost every day and just focus on "working" or "studying" and "learning." it's very cruel to deprive young, still developing minds especially of proper breaks and time to Play (not that it's not cruel to do the same to adults)

if the system won't give them to you freely though... well. break the rules a little. you know your limits better than anyone. don't try to work to an impossible standard. rest when you need to!! it's very, very easy to burn yourself out, but it's very, very, very, very difficult to recover from it

#i believe all teachers should have flexible due dates on their assignments and should accept late work without penalty #like. i can't fathom the purpose of strict due dates and no late work policies. the only Real deadline is when grades have to be submitted #maybe a week or a week and a half before that hard deadline can be the last call for turning in missing work #because obviously if 15 students turn in All of their missing assignments the day before their teacher has to finalize grades like #that's not going to end well for anybody. but outside of That #there's no fucking point in no late work policies. some hs teachers are idiots man like your kids have 6-8 other classes yknow. #and a life outside of school. jobs. sports. clubs. friends. time for themselves so they can unwind and recharge #do you want them to rush through your assignments and get everything wrong? or copy all the answers off of google? #or do you want them to learn what you're teaching them? if you want your kids to learn you have to be flexible and open #i believe there should always be an alternative to taking tests. they work for some students but not everybody #if you cater to only one style of learning and only 1/8th of your class learns and retains the material like. #that's not the kids' fault. it's not their failure. it's Your failure for not being an actual fucking teacher #ugh. can you tell i'm extremely passionate about this Lol #sometimes when i tell people i want to be a teacher they're like are you sure...? #and then at some point we might have a conversation about the education system and i'll go on a tirade and they're like i understand now. #starts punching walls and stuff

[theflyingfeeling]

it started snowing last night and it's gonna snow throughout the whole day tomorrow too so winter is officially here and I'm gonna have to apologize for the person I will be for the next 6 months

#weather-wise i hate all the seasons (except summer) but i hate winter the most #i hate the cold i hate the dark i hate the snow #yes yes it looks pretty and it doesn't look as dark outside when there's snow on the ground #but it's HARD TO WALK IN AND IT'S COLD AND WET AND EVERYWHERE AND I HATE IT #my bus was awfully late this morning so i was freezing my toes off and i didn't recover from that the whole day 😭 #''wear warmer shoes/socks then'' NO FUCK YOU THE PROBLEM IS NOT MY SHOES OR SOCKS OR FEET IT'S THE FUCKING SNOW #every single step i have to take in snow i'm holding back tears because i hate it so much and i miss summer 😭 #yes i'm being ridiculously dramatic over this but you just have no idea how much i hate winter #anyone wishing they'd have snow rn: i have plenty for you come and take it #in short i'm moving to malibu byeeee see you in may 👋

[foxgirlmoth]

You ever just get hit hard as hell that you've felt trapped in your place of residence for years and years and you're just so tired from working the most shit jobs for a decade you just wanna scream.

#Yeag its so fun #Like. I feel like I've just pushed it back in my head going 'nono its not that bad it just feels that bad' #And then I realize everything from the way I dress and the way I relax is half faked because what else can I do but #Sit and be safe in the one room that feels even half like my space #I don't go out of this room! Its hell outside of it at my place. #Its filled with people who debate how I generally live and think my life isn't hard enough and so I deserve more suffering half the time #I'm making $20 an hour right now and it feels impossible to keep up three or so payments if I miss. day or two per check #I'm mostly venting rn but just holy shit #I think I'd actually put effort into putting clothes away or cleaning up my space or being just in any way shape or form nicer to myself #If I had any sense of belonging here #Its been almost 27 years of my life in this one room

[opiumvampire]

Ive been in this weird transitional state for like a year at this point and i keep putting off doing fun things and seeing my friends bc i feel like i should be “saving money” or “waiting until things settle down” but that just means i havent seen most of my friends in like. An embarrassingly long time. If you’re my friend and I havent seen you in a year I need you to come into my house and drag me out and take me to get boba

#i want boba #genuinely since like last march ive just been sitting on my haunches ready to run if anyone moves at me weird #ive been looking for a new job (i got one) and trying to move (in may) and people keeping like dying??? on me?? and its making it hard to #focus on things that arent like. survival. #maybe once ive moved and have gotten in the groove of my new job and have had time to relax a little bit i’ll come back from the dead #im good overall like ive very happy and chilling for the most part im just like. every time i go outside and see groups of girls out togethe #im like. i miss being in a group of girls. but my social circle hasnt been set up that way since like high school #girls if anyone wants to be my friend i will be making a google form so you can apply

[nomaishuttle]

the way i balance staying true to my tumblrina nature while also having a job and bills and rent is that at work while cleaning a room ill think of something id like to post and then repeat it over and over in my head and refine it until it sounds right and then i either post it as soon as i get a second to Or i forget it bc i think of anew post to make. and they always get 0 notes but its ok

#not a lot to post abt in a retirement home. its like yep this room is exactly the same as it was last week and the week before as well. #2day we mughtve had a missing resident idk. i also fink i saw her like 2 seconds b4 she went missing so im sure they found her #i was just sitting in the lunch room Seething and Coping ( iwas 40 minutes behind and had just found out i had an extra room on top of that #btw i didnt get out until 4:30. my shift ends at 330 but my ride leaves at 4 and due to The crisis my boss said i can stay clocked in until #4 so that i can do liberty and get overtime et cetera. whats hard is sometimes when i say et cetera i want you to read it as et cetera but #other times i want you to read it as E.T. cetera. but what can you do. #anyways where was i. right i was in the lunchroom oh also my ride didnt leave without me bc marians my bestie. anyways. i was in the break #room idk why i keep calling it the lunchroom im not a highschooler. its a breakroom we just sometimes eat lunch in there when im not outsid #or hiding in Closet <3333333333 #aaaanyways what was i talking abt. a good thing abt desktop tumblr is that i can read through all the tags so far #mobile its like a whole debacle basically. idr how but its like. whatever ider what i was talking about hold on #oh right. so i was in the break room and there was a nurse in there and on the walkie (they all have walkies. brenda also has one) i heard #someone go Sooo 245 wasnt in her room and she wasnt in the cafeteria :worried: im gonna look around 2nd but keep an eye out.. #and then like a minute later that nurse got up and quickly left idk if she got a different message bc i was listening to starstruck by sorr #and trying to figure out how expensive (indian restaurant) is. the answer is very ughhh i just wanted butter chicken and garlic naan and #rice and that wouldve been THIRTY DOLLARSSS :sobbed: it is very very good food though #i caint get it anyway my check hasnt come in. Tee be honest i might go ahead and order it anyway once my check does come in i rly rly want #butter chicken rn. if in being honest. #also the nurse was playing like a kids cooking channel youtube video rly loudly and the guy in it was obnoxious and i was having such a bad #day i was just sitting there hunched over in a corner forehead against the counter it was diree guys. #the way i made 'yeah i overheard on one of the nurses walkies that they couldnt find a resident for a couple minutes' into a 10 paragraph #debacle. this is what i mean when i say i have to be a tumblrina do you know how dire it would be if i had a social life and went outside #somebody would be like hey how has your day been! and id make it into a 15 hour long historical reenactment. lord

[james-stark-the-writer]

sigh. so i saw the video on Ocean Waves's "accidental" queer narrative. and it's such a frustrating watch bc it fundamentally, and WILLFULLY, misunderstands the text so much that it truly baffles me. it is like they didn't even understand the fucking point of the movie. it's actually weirdly basically a lot of the same criticism that (500) Days of Summer got actually, because people can't fucking understand the point of the coming-of-age narratives that both the movies are presenting, and that they are not unbiased narrations, they both have a very specific point of view and it's for a reason!!!

#james talks #james watches stuff #ocean waves #studio ghibli #(500) days of summer #500 days of summer #life is strange #life is strange spoilers #i'd never say a queer reading of a text is inherently wrong but this comes pretty fucking close bc it misses the point of the text so hard #like the queer subtext is a FEATURE not a bug. #it HAS to be subtext for the narrative to work at all. the subtext is WHY it matters. #it's the yearning for more without ever being able to ask for it. #it's not wanting to risk further damage and enjoying the moments you can still make and have. #it's getting to enjoy their company and breathing in the melancholy of the moment that brings you a stunning amount of peace and joy. #some of you are fucking stupid #and it frustrates me bc you'd never see these same people arguing for the characters to get together at the end— #of a movie like In The Mood For Love. like them not getting together is THE POINT. IT IS NOT A MISTAKE. #YOU JUST HAVE AWFUL MEDIA LITERACY #honestly idek how you could listen to that score and not immediately get it #like i said in my letterboxd review: some of you have a deeply concerning lack of empathy & an inability to see outside your own perspectiv #also the LiS comment at the end is kinda a joke but the posts i keep getting recommended on this app have actually convinced me some of— #you LiS fans are actually delusional to the point of considering fanon as canon to justify your love of the story— #or just ignoring the actual canon to make up shit as Truth about the game. every post about Warren is a nightmare. #none of you (from the posts i've seen) have actually demonstrated any ability to critically analyze the text #even the YouTuber analyses of the game separate the game from the context of you as a player playing the game in their thoughts— #as if the game plays itself in a vacuum. 'there's no consequences for saving Alyssa'. yes there are. it's your time. #it's your emotional investment. it's you choosing to care about someone and going out of your way to improve their life. #it's video games as a medium of empathy. #ik ludocriticism and ludologic discourse isn't as mature as other mediums but my god some of you are so dense. #analyzing an interactive medium without the context of the player fundamentally showcases how unqualified you are to talk about games.

[sensazioneultra]

sometimes washing one plate, one pan and one knife feels more overwhelming and impossible than when i have to wash three times as much stuff. go figure

#probably partially something about how it'd be soooo easy to just leave 3 things to wash for later #idk #but I DID IT even if it was HARD #i am so beating the depression allegations today #i made my bed i opened all windows i went outside to do a Thing that i Needed To Do i ate #i even washed the caffettiera. would a depressed person do THAT ? #i did get some help from my mum who mi ha raccattato per strada when i missed the bus (not my fault btw) #so i had time to go home and eat lmao #but like. we're doing this. we're being human beings who more or less function. #nico.txt

[sincerity--extreme]

Shaping a whole new personality around new people is so exhaustive, I had forgotten about that, haven't needed to do that in years and it's insane how easily I got used to just.... Being myself

#already miss that #it's so hard to go back now #and it's messing with my mind #like I'm genuinely confused and almost having an identity crisis in a way #neurodivergent #autistic #adhd #and isn't it crazy that I felt safe just being myself here #the times I meet new people here I don't worry about creating a new personality in order to #talk to anyone #I just feel safe #I guess cause I'm myself on my blog so there's no point in hiding #if you came to talk to me you know I'm a crazy gay and anxious mess #but outside... #that's a whole different story

[filthywoolarc]

hello~

#i'm doing alright - thank you to folks that asked after me #i'm trying to very hard to sort of reshape my perception of myself & just trying to think more kindly of the things i do #(i impulse bought 'the kindness method' & spent a night sobbing while reading but its been very helpful) #for as much as i think of myself as a shit writer i sure do miss writing & being here LMAO #i am around but i need to try to force myself to be very slow about things #part of the reason i'm so unhappy with myself is because i feel that i'm not putting enough effort into lamb's character/voice #so i really need to think & think hard about her #& what makes me happy - not what will give me outside validation #HOOO but i hope that you'll write with me soon <3 #love yall #also i'm either about to attempt to make buffalo chicken wraps or some form of garlic chicken with veggies so pray for me LMAO