#i seriously haven't been moving on

[princelancey]

Lance is such a let bygones be bygones kind of a guy, we should embrace that energy more often in sports tbh, it's never that serious

#lance stroll #before gets on my back this is about sporting issues #just sporting issues #of course serious issues warrant grudges and distrust #idk man i think i'm just feeling like people are taking this all too seriously #the amount of death wishes made towards drivers in the time i've been watching f1 has ramped up so much #it's not normal to feel that way about a sports person #genuinely seek help #and over the most ridiculous mundane shit that happens every race or worse over people thinking rules have been broken that haven't actuall #anyways this was spured by watching lance's post sprint interview #he was asked about nico pushing him off and he was just like 'that happened? oh yeah i forgot about that nah it was chill' #like that's such a peaceful way to go about it #let what happens in a race stay in that race or in a match #this is easier when your memory sucks lmao #i'm just so tired of the massive fan wars the time and energy it takes isn't worth it #like not online anyways chat shit in dms but again if you're still chatting shit about a race from 4 years ago move on i beg

[makorragal-312]

Here's the thing:

I can empathize with Emma to some degree. At the end of the day, she's just a girl with an intense crush on Itsuomi and constantly makes her feelings known to him hoping that one day, he'll feel the same way. Just peek high school girl behavior.

HOWEVER...

It has been literal years and Itsuomi has made it clear more than once that he is not interested and he's now in a relationship with Yuki. And Emma refuses to get the hint and even went as far as to try and make up a lie about spending the night with Itsuomi to chase Yuki away. So when she's at her job crying about how Itsuomi "ghosted" her over text, it's hard for me to feel even remotely bad for her.

Again, I feel for her on the "unrequited love" front. But for everything else, she needs to move on.

#yubisaki to renren #a sign of affection #a sign of affection spoilers #a sign of affection episode 8 #emma nakazono #yuki itose #nagi itsuomi #something I forgot to post last week #the transition of Emma being told that itsuomi would text back if he liked her to yuki immediately getting a text from itsuomi was hilariou #but anyway #I haven't read the manga #yet #so I don't know how Emma's arc with her unrequited love is gonna go #but her constant pining for itsuomi is seriously not cute #especially if the guy's been rejecting her since they were in HIGH SCHOOL #and look getting turned down by your crush is no fun #but there comes a point where you have to accept it and move on #im just worried she's gonna see itsuomi and yuki being a couple and she's gonna have a meltdown #and I swear to god if she tries to antagonize yuki over it it's on sight #HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU #but that's just my two cents #also itsuomi and yuki were cute as hell #bow down to the OTP

[paranorahjones]

so the actual coolest thing in the world just happened.

back near Halloween i painted this little pumpkin, inspired by the moon in Van Gogh's Starry Night. i've had it sitting on my bookshelf since. as i was putting some clothes away, i noticed that a little beam of sunlight had somehow made it through my closed curtain . . . directly illuminating the moon.

#this pumpkin has been sitting here for forever and this hasn't happened #i haven't moved it at all #my mind is seriously blown

[chenziee]

I don't usually post these here but!!

Look who just arrived!!

Everything is so pink and cute and precious, I'm actually in tears 🥺😭🌸🌸

Look at the first and last page I cannot

Front, back, and inside cover just—

And my little contribution 🌸 with @sweatyhanded adorable spot art 🙏🤍🤍

Everyone did such a wonderful job and the quality of everything is amazing too! I'm so happy and honoured to have been able to take part in this wonderful, adorable, pretty pretty @opchopperzine !! I'm gonna be over the moon for days just looking at everything 🌸🌸🌸

#one piece #chopper #tony tony chopper #zines #chopper zine #opchopperzine #baby boy baby #i haven't been this moved looking through zine bundle since my first zine arrived dbsksmsk #i seriously teared up looking at everything #i love my baby very much and this zine just #so full of love and cuteness #my heart is so full #(i'm pretty proud of that fic too btw 🌸🤍 baby loves his captain so much 🥺)

[running-in-the-dark]

kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔

#like. there's no rush. not really. #I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol #but other than that it's fine #except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't. #they're so judgmental and shitty about it #yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave #meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff #so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't. #well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon #precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it #like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already #going as fast as I can. #like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough #and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different #it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure #anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?! #personal

[aceghosts]

Hey Everybody! Thanks for tagging me in stuff! I haven't been on here much, but I'm definitely going to catch up when have the chance. Feel free to keep tagging me in stuff! I want to see what you're creating.

#the kate tag #seriously though love being tagged in your stuff 💙 #I just haven't been on here because I've been tired #and I'm going to be moving in November #so I'm starting to pack and stuff #I think I may reblog this a few times

[calesleftboob]

I've finished it I'm gonna cry

no more sex education ever

woaw

okay

sobbing

Eric you will become a great priest

a piece of me definitely healed a little when Jean spoke to Maeve and Eric's church supported him

like a tiny piece

it was good

and

I'm so proud of Aimee for what she did

and if I ever remember the outfit I was hurt in

I also hope to be able to burn it one day

#Sex education #Aimee's journey with sexuality and sex after assault is very important to me #I haven't been assaulted #however I haven't had good things happen to me #And I'm just so happy to see her get a bit better every season #And knowing that - as an artist myself - she found some solace in her art to move forward from her assault #Just- seriously. #And how supportive Isaac was is the best #And the episode where they all rioted for disability awareness is just- #I loved it #i take back my earlier posts #One day #I hope that I will also #Be able to burn my outfit #If I ever remember it

[yikes-ajax]

Was stimming so hard I genuinely worried I managed to break my own neck for a second

#my back hurts now >:'( #anyways ive been feeling a special kind of mentally ill the past few days #as if spending $200 on sims 4 expansion packs doesnt say enough #BUT GUYS I USED TO BE SUCH A HORSE GIRL WHEN I WAS LITTLE AND THEY HAVE HORSES NOW AND MY INNER CHILD GOES YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH #*deep breath* dont make this about sims *more deep breaths* no sims no horses #I OWN A FFUFUCKING RANCH YALL IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF WHEN I WAS LITTLE #the horses! they are SO pretty! #sim 3 is still my baby though 4 is just a side bitch ✋🙄 #tried to move everything to steam so i deleted origin and then... had to download it again #I FUCKING HATE ORIGIN RAAAAAAHHHHH #im feeling so very hmmnnhggnrggg #shitpost #shitposting #stimming #stimblr #forgive my tags i dont really explore much of Tumblr #i come to the restaurant and the menu is all tags for my hot elven boys i either crush on or get severe gender envy from #my dash is seriously just cats and elves and im not about to go change that okay #augh i have no idea what to tag this #like stimming is a thing for a lot of disorders and while i probably have some of them and just haven't been diagnosed i dont wanna give off #the impression that im part of that “community” #but hey im a real hit with autistic ppl apparently since pretty much all of my old friends were autistic and we all vibed good #probably just means im somewhere on the spectrum too considering one of them initially approached me BECAUSE they thought i was autistic #them: hey i know this might sound offensive but i mean this nicely. are you autistic too? #me with two chew necklaces in my mouth rubbing my feet on the carpet trying to focus and failing miserably: fuck if i know #look ive grown up with autistic ppl my whole life so ive never really thought to research. its just been... a normal thing to me? #so i dont know a lot but i do know either i fit the critera or ive just subconsciously snatched traits from my childhood bestie #the amount of times I've been asked if i am autistic though is... well its certainly made me notice my behaviors more #and WOW have the rants in tags seriously derailed today #i love writing in tags its like a little secret message for little secret tag readers

[merry-death]

Gonna celebrate the end of summer by making my favorite summer dish for dinner (gazpacho). It is so easy to make and also pretty cheap and very yummy, but I've been dealing with too much executive dysfunction this summer to make it as often as I usually do. Would anyone be interested in seeing the process/recipe as I make it? I don't want to spam y'all's dashes with food pics if no one cares about my favorite cold soup

#personal #food #i seriously love gazpacho so much #but i just haven't been cooking much this summer because i hate my kitchen and am also trying to get ready to move #so keeping cooking surfaces clean has not been a priority

[plantmusic]

you always say you're going to start writing again and you never do. honestly have no idea why you even bother posting anymore. you're just letting everyone down. log off and don't log back on again just like all the other russel tribgham roleplayers.

// Well fuck you too, buddy.

#'' there's an art to life's distractions '' [ ooc ] #'' i pulled him out by his hair like a weed '' [ answered ] #[ anon ] #// milestone unlocked: first anon hate #// seriously though i can't help that i haven't been writing #// i'm disabled and just moved across the country and before moving i had a pretty shit home life #// if you're gonna be like this then you can fuck right off

[lalalaugenbrot]

at this point i think there's going to be a psycho-like imprint of me on my bed

#i have been just... lying here for almost 60 hours now #and no end in sight #i haven't been this knocked out since covid or chemo therapy #and i feel like even the zelltief didn't last this long #anyway i'm on mobile so i can't make the setting but don't reblog obvsly #and don't cathch the flu kids #or whatever this is #seriously me being able to type this feels like a small medical miracle #it also lowkey reminds of that one time ten years ago #when i had just moved to hamburg #and we had a lady bug plague at the dorm #and i got really really sick #and i was just lying there as i am now #and i was like #if i die now i'll simply be eaten up by lady bugs #cause noones gonna miss or find me here

[unladielike]

( okay, queue has officially run out for vivi and i’m now too discouraged to bother queuing another meme for her because the last time i did, i got crickets... so unless i suddenly owe replies here, i’ll be over at my multi. )

#⸾ ❖︎ ⸾ ( OUT OF ) ⤹ •• 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟. #[ tbh i'm kinda at a loss when it comes to actually kickstaring more interactions on her?? ] #[ because i tried being more proactive in sending asks/liking starter calls and even reblogged memes/posted a starter call ] #[ but no matter what i did ] #[ my efforts seemingly fell flat?? ] #[ WHICH IS WHY MY MOTIVATION TO BE ON VIVIAN HAS BEEN REALLY LACKLUSTER ] #[ LATELY ] #[ and the fact i tend to receive jack shit in return despite me oftentimes being the one to make the first move plays a huge part ] #[ in the brain-juice i would normally have for her being seriously DEPLETED ] #[ so i'll probably be vanishing away again... and for that i'm sorry ;; ] #[ it's just that a lack of engagement makes me far less likely to wanna keep trying ] #[ but i'll still keep queuing my psa post on my rules update in case people haven't seen it yet ]

[chocolaytte]

밤 (night) - i

#p:korea #c:seoul #l:university #d:20210824 #i really do use tumblr as my personal personal journal #i moved to a bigger house because my parents told me they would help me pay rent in exchange for having a place to stay when they come visi #well now they are here and they are backtracking #they told me they will not help me pay my rent anymore but they are staying at my house #and worse yet they are already inviting themsleves for next year #they have been here for two weeks and everyday they have made a cooment about my weight #that i need to lose weight exercise more stop eating this or drinking that #my mental health has plummeted #i am at that point where i go to sleep praying not to wake up the next day #the visa allows them to come for 90 days and they are staying the fucking 90 days #i really don't want to wake up tomorrow #and i feel like i have no one to talk #my friends once told me that i just complained and after that i haven't opened up to them again about my problems #so i always talk to my brother but i feel like i just bother him #please i don't want to wake up #i seriously haven't felt happiness in years #didn't feel happiness when i graduated or when seeing my parents after a year or after moving back to seoul #no happiness just apathy #i am seriously just waiting for the embrace of death #i even have a list of reason as to why i shouldn't jump of a bridge and the reason are mostly one piece and not wanting my family to feelba

[mimsier]

someday maybe we'll see some pizzazz but today my big wip wednesday update is just this post to say uh oh the one-off vaguely sinister background character became a main love interest and the whole wip is being reshuffled to accommodate

#it's for the better #like seriously things just locked into place in a way they haven't yet on a wip that's already been going pretty well #feels like the right move #and it's not too tough (so far) because i think my heart has been leading me here for a while #and i've done more writing this week than i have any week since nano #writeblr #wip wednesday #the sandbox #wip: the madness and the blade

[k1ngdomfa11]

I'm sorry for gushing my heart out but what's been happening with my family since last June has truly, deeply shaken and crumbled my faith in almost everything, but with you, I'm certain and I miss you

#<3 #sorry for sounding so damn codependent but i haven't felt safe at all with these people... #no seriously I should have gone to a social worker but then tha would solidify me as a moving target #who knew that your own family could do this? #I mean I've never been more scared seriously #and I have to let this out become i refuse to go to the friggin hospital

[teethrotter]

03:33

#i have been down + out for the count but much has happened #i am making a bunch of decisions and it feels like they are all on a whim but i think i have known the answers for a while #the biggest one is that it's ( semi ) official now. in maybe 7 months i will be moving 10+ hours away from everything i have ever known #i have wanted it for longer + with greater yearning than i have ever wanted anything #but also i'll leave behind everything. nothing of my life in kansas will be left ( outside of possessions etc. ) #it's all so much with autism + trauma + etc. i was far too adamant about refusing myself #not because i don't want to do it but because i don't deserve it #from now until july / august i can promise that i will be looking for all opportunities to talk myself out of it #and i hate that so much. i hate myself so much i can never ever allow myself to be happy #ultimately what it comes down to is i'm sure that i will make every attempt to sabotage myself so that i can finally die #if i don't move by the time that the late summer rolls around then i think i would be dead regardless #at this point it's do it or die trying #and i want to die trying #i haven't even left the state yet and i'm already plotting half-seriously to ruin myself before i get to august #i want it so desperately but i have done nothing to deserve it etc. #i am terrified of leaving here #i'm scared of relatives + friends + myself most of all and when i leave here i'll be totally alone for over half a year #the push would be worth it and i have withstood far worse for far less benefit #but christ. apologies i made the final decision to move today and it has been slamming me over and over #none of my prattling means anything. i am vaguely inebriated + ill + so very tired #but i can't stop bouncing it around in my head #this has become the edgiest shit but i honestly am my own worst enemy #i will try to go out in misery + isolation because i don't deserve anything more #as punishment for doing something for myself for the first time without considering what other people would want #i hope that i don't get there before i end up moving #despite everything i am so very happy #all i have ever wanted is this. after nearly a decade of loneliness + agony #sorry again lol #i am fragile + need to fucking go to bed + stop thinking about it #i am so happy. i really am. once i push past the part of actually getting there