#i want a cigarette

[flickafire]

oh how I miss the barnaby that looked like he has wanted to kill himself since he was 12

#barnaby b beagle #impulsive thoughts of mine I plage you with today #I'm gonna draw this man at some point #he is so pretty #he does look like he wants to kill himself tho #me too man #he looks like he NEEDS a cigarette #just like me fr #i want a cigarette #ngl #I ramble here just a warning to everyone here who cares #rambles into the void #I love the tumblr tags #you can just go buck wild it's beautiful #beta barnaby b beagle #my beloved

[vol33onaux]

pink hair

and a broken heart

#pink hair #sadgirl #nothing new #vol33onaux #sick #wtf #i want a cigarette #again #im sick #im sorry #tired

[novalovesfashion]

Just had a psychotic meltdown because i had a red spot on my face and decided to skip first period 😍. Hows ur day going loves.

#im just a girl #this is what makes us girls #girl blogger #i want a cigarette #mentally unstable

[luciferthesonofgod]

now i know how adam felt in that stupid fuckinh bathroom

#i want a cigarette

[girlcatullus]

im in a bad mood lmao.

#i want a cigarette

[watch-my-cosmic-death]

Bro I’ve been waiting for an hour-

#r #i want a cigarette #this shit’s annoying

[melanesian-girl]

Every few months I come back to this app to either talk to myself or scream into the abyss!

#idk how to tag this #i want a cigarette

[mentalillnessnotebook]

the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one, the idea of a cigarette is better than actually smoking one-

#i want a cigarette #:(

[honeymoon-444]

i want thing that i know are not for me but i want them anyway

like why everybody gets to have this but i don’t? i also want this i know its out of my league bud i think i should be able to have this too

i want to participate in this type of happiness that everyone feels

#girlhood #lana del rey #girlblogging #i need it #i wish i was dead #i want a cigarette

[suchsaccharine]

I haven’t eaten in going 48+ hrs.

Finals are upon me.

Trying to finish my shitshow of an honors philosophy course

And then span 1, which has been humbling after my comp 1 prof forced me into honors last semester.

These late late night that I stay up by myself,

I wonder if I’ll miss them. I wonder if I’ll ever be in the position to miss them.

Nothing is elegant or glamorous or even tragically beautiful. I love art, and when I was younger I truly did not understand that life imitates art. Nor that art imitates dilapidated, dramatic, anticlimactic, monotonous “nothingness”

It looks so good as brush strokes on paper or on a typewriter, a book published with almost no punctuation. Using /s instead of ‘s because / is easier & the artist hadn’t time for such nonsense while birthing his story.

I’ve read those book and watched the screen adaptations more times than I ever care to view again. (Mostly)

Ten years later after starting my temperdefusion-blog on here and I am so different. And so much the same. I know what I didn’t. I understand how the world works. How different kinds of people work. What they expect of me. How to play different roles.

But what never seems to change is this core version of me stuck at 18. No baby yet. My first true beyond-bender that put me in a state of psychosis I’ve never been able to replicate. Follie a deux? Madness for two? My baby dad did that to me. His dad shared delusions with us too but we had more time focused on the two of us, and boy the thing your first dump of dopamine will make you believe. Because it FEELS true! What a trip! I didn’t know I was ND and he easily brainwashed me into thinking I was the devil literally but without being able to tell, but fully believing him.

Looking back I think he is much more low vibrational than I used to give him credit and it is actually me that is special. Anyway it’s 2:33am and if I’d didn’t sleep tonight we’re looking at day three.

I’m starting to lean more and more on stuffs to keep my appetite down. Do they still sell phenermïne or whatever? Idk.

Twitter kinda sucks for some reason and seriously, fuck u for that, Elon. I have a 12 yr old acc and whatever the fuck you’ve done has resulted in me resenting my time on my fave app! You fuck. So here I’m back again and again. Drugs, bpd, trying not to eat.

Twitter.com/lostomwhome

#eedee #eedee tumblr #eedeetwt #rice cake nation #tw drugs #stimulants #weight loss #diet mountain dew #tw gaslighting #manipulation #sociology #anthro #philosophy #i want a cigarette

[sylvieslug]

i feel like im on the cusp of another big breakthrough or catharsis or something. at least I hope I am.

#i want a cigarette

[araneapeixes]

Uh Oh....the ladies have entered their 4th pint stage

#GUYS HELPP ive been looking at this too long i cant tell anymore if its even good #as usual i kinda like the sketch better ripppppp but it was nice to finish something #anyways my previous point still stands: whoever wins does get to fuck shadowheart in the bathroom #some details i want ppl to notice: lae'zels dogtags and army pants #karlachs cigarette pack sleeve. bc shes a handsome guy:) #also astarions cunty earring anddd i replaced shaddys hair accessory with a punky spikey one #and ummm my Tav is wearing a rainbow bracelet:) bc theyre gay #bg3 #bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #wyll ravengard #bg3 wyll #lae'zel #karlach #karlach cliffgate #shadowheart #bg3 tav #ren #tadfools #the tadfools #i rly think i fucked up laezels face shape but by the time i realised it was too late #wow mayb ill use a ref next time?? whaaaat??

[candybymandymoore]

I’m drunk in LA watching scream 3 after a lady Gaga concert

#I’m taking one more shot and calling it #I want a cigarette #2022

[theclowncowboy]

almost just burst into tears because im not his bestfriend .

#and lover. but thats for a different day #we literally couldve smoked cigarettes together and ate joint pussy together #and we both hate bob dylan #like what more can a guy want from friendship #OLD MAN I MISS U SO MUHC IM WEEPING IN A PILE ON THE FLOOR #leonard cohen #from the cemetery

[maydays-big-day]

Based on:

#Jake English #Erisolsprite #Dirk Strider #Dirk has trailcams he watches his friends with and passively listens to them like they’re a sitcom he’s seen before or something #weird boy behaviour fr #DirkJake #if you want it to be #Erisolsprite and Jake’s dynamic is so funny imo #I tried to base Erisolsprite’s tail and ears off an electric eel but idk if it shows #but this was becoming not fun to draw anymore so I decided to post it #Jake has a stupid lil moustache <3 #idk who the two guys from the original meme are btw let me know if you know ig #Homestuck #cw cigarette #cw stalking

[rougebrainsludge]

All I want is a cigarette and someone to talk to :/

#i want a cigarette #chat with me #send anons