#i want vegas to suffer

[mercilessobsessions]

After watching episode 11 for about the 200th time, I've come to the realization that I really wanna see Pete get shot.

Hear me out. Final battle. Pete is doing his job, protecting the main family. Vegas arrives, rabid with hurt and anger, thirsty for revenge.

They face each other, each holding a gun. But neither can shoot. They just stand there, staring into each other's eyes, feeling their feelings. They slowly lower their guns, lost in each other, lost in their memories.

But then Pete sees it out of the corner of his eye. Someone (is it Kinn? Porsche? Some random unidentified bodyguard?) pointing a gun at Vegas' back. He has no time to think, just reacts, throwing himself forward, shielding Vegas with his body. The bullet strikes and he collapses, bleeding, into Vegas' arms.

Pete looks up into Vegas' panicked face and asks him, between pained breaths, if he's hurt. And all Vegas can do is choke out his lover's name, and hold him, cling to him, beg him not to leave him all alone again. Because he suddenly gets it. His happiness is no longer attached to the wildly abusive fists of his father. But to the tender touch of the only person who has ever asked him if he is okay.

In this moment Vegas finally feels something real, and it fucking HURTS. He's blind to the world around him, blind to the shooting and carnage, his entire being focused on the pale, trembling body in his arms. He's breathless and desperate not to lose the man he loves all over again, helpless to do anything but watch as Pete's eyes slowly begin to close......

#kinnporsche #kinnporche the series #vegaspete #oops i made myself cry #i want vegas to suffer #because i love him #and i want pete to decide vegas is more important to him than the main family #let me be clear #i don't want pete to die #but i want vegas to think he does #i want him to realize what true pain feels like #and regret everything in his life that brought him to this moment #regret not treasuring pete when he had the chance

[wafflesrisa]

No one except Formula One fans will understand the empty hollowness of the Monday after a triple-header

How is it possible to be exhausted and glad to have a breather and yet at the same time desperately clawing at the walls for race content

#f1 #so apparently my body needs rest but my heart and soul want another week of adrenaline and disappointment? #who knows #as tifosi I suffered but I’ve not suffered enough? #I’m masochistic #daniel ricciardo #carlos sainz #charles leclerc #brazilian gp 2023 #las vegas gp 2023

[daswarschonkaputt]

[surfaces from the deep with art in tow]

'tis i, the purveyor of fem!kinnporsche lookbooks, this time bearing kimchay. if you missed the kinnporsche one it's here. if you didn't, you know the drill, thoughts and refs beneath the cut.

okay let's start with kim:

i'm gonna be real with you folks: i struggled hard with fem!kim. in my head, kim much like fem!kinn is someone who uses her clothes to send messages, but where kinn is trying to communicate power and authority, kim is instead using her clothes to adopt different personas or elements of her personality. and so, i can see fem!kim wearing nearly everything, basically.

kimlor swift aka wik aka internet popstar kim

so, return customers may notice something odd about kim: i gave her different poses for each of her personas. why? i think kim is someone who embodies a lot of different personas, and i think the change is more than skin deep.

this was very much the first set i drew. the brief for these outfits in my head was something like "k-pop kim possible". also a lot of these were drawn when i still had covid lmao so i barely remember most of it.

it was very important to me that kim had a wolf cut. that fact came to me the moment i started thinking about fem!kim. so. you know. you're welcome.

runing errands (first outfit) - this one was the first outfit i drew for kim, and it was mostly summoned up from my own head. i spent a lot of time scrolling through pinterest before i started drawing. in my head, this is sort of what she wears when she's out and about as wik but not like, performing or whatever. still a very crafted image, but a little more casual than her performance gear.

performance (second outfit) - this one does have a ref! i found this image on pinterest and was like yes. this one. i thought long and hard about what i wanted wik's fashion and persona to be, because i debated going along the family friendly singer-songstress route, but in the end i figured she had to be cool and a little edgy. hence [gestures at the clothes].

award show/red carpet (third outfit) - this one's kind of fun. longtime listeners will recall that i started drawing these lookbooks bc @mortimerlatrice told me they didn't think fem!kinn would wear dresses and i had to disprove them -- so i thought it'd be fun if for kim, she only wore dresses when on mafia business. kim in a dress is a blaring warning signal that you're gonna get your shit rocked. so, kim's award show look is a pantsuit. she doesn't wear dresses at all as wik. there was definitely a reference image for this one, but i drew the entirety of this first set when i had covid, so i don't think i saved it OTL

detective wikachu aka mafia kim

another fun detail you might notice about mafia!kim -- she's always got her hair up. that was also deliberate. also holy shit this set killed me so bad. we'll get there.

running errands (detective errands) (first outfit) - this is what kim wears when she's gotta blackmail randos for info. fairly casual, all things told, but very different in vibe to her wik stuf. also the pattern on that suit is incredibly simple but it took me 45 mins to create bc i still had covid brainfog at this point. the reference for this look was celine's spring/summer 2021 rtw collection look 24.

visiting dad (to snoop) (second outfit) - another source of debate for me. what, exactly, does kim send as a message to her father when she comes back home? i played with the idea of her wearing a sort of perfectly pretty mafia princess disguise, but i don't think that's what she'd use to get on her father's good side. so, she's wearing a dress (fuck your shit up vibes for her) but it's got a strong vibe to it. so, i had to go with alexander mcqueen, which is one of my favourite designers. this one is specifically alexander mcqueen pre-fall 2022 look 17.

at a gala (mafia-flavoured) also to snoop (third outfit) - oh my god you guys will not believe how many of these i went through. i even fully drew another option before discarding it completely. (originally, i was going to go with erdem pre-fall 2023 look 8 which i drafted here but i just didn't vibe with it the more i worked on it. i guess it felt a little too princessy? so i pivoted.) this one is from another of those designers i actually really like, zuhair murad. this one's from fall 2022 couture, specifically look 38. very much love at first sight. the moment i saw it, i knew i was gonna draw it. and oh boy did drawing it make me suffer. that bead pattern on the dress? killed me. actually killed me. fucking OW. worth it though.

family portrait (fourth outfit) - after all the suffering of kim's formal look this one was comparatively a breeze. found a pic on pinterest, and whoosh i went drawing. the reference is here.

chay!kim

this set is very much what it says on the tin, the clothes kim wears around chay. let's go.

guitar tutoring (first outfit) - okay so in my head the brief for this one was "what kim thinks chay thinks wik wears on her downtime", which very much sets the tone for the entire outfit. i just think it's fun if kim twists herself out of sorts with how clever she is and then chay just bulldozes straight through that. i don't actually have a reference for this one. just drew it.

rescue chay (second outfit) - this is what kim wears to go save chay from the tawan kidnapping. i dubbed this one "when you got library study session at 9, rescue bae at 12, and cyberpunk revolution at 3". the loose inspo for this one was this dress on pinterest which i tracked to the brand ganni and then found they no longer made.

say no to drugs, chay (third outfit) - okay so i wanted this outfit to be like. a wake up call to chay. the first time chay sees kim in a skirt, and the first time chay realises that maybe kim is a little dangerous. it's alexander mcqueen (ofc it is) and actually in the time between me drawing this and posting it, someone actually wore the skirt from this look on the red carpet. it's the spring 2023 rtw collection, look 24. salma hayek wore the skirt to the 2023 brits here.

the youtuber apology video fit (fourth outfit) - the brief here was "kim forcibly bolting on hinges". the idea was to kind of soften her mafia edges but leave the cornerstones of how she dresses for that very much there. so, dress, hair up, but much more relaxed. this outfit is from tommy hilfiger's spring 2023 rtw collection, specifically look 17.

onto chay:

chay was really hard to start with, i'm going to be real. i think the sum total for my notes when i started was just one word: dungarees? as i drew more of her i started to think of her as someone who thrifts and then alters a lot of her clothes. i wanted colour and patterns, and i suffered for them. by god did i suffer.

a few lil headcanons i have about her:

i think chay probably finds it easy to be considered cute and hard to move out of that box. i think there's a part of chay that wants to be sexy the way porsche is (ESPECIALLY if this is a fem!porsche universe) but doesn't know how to go about trying to achieve that. she had to ask yok how to teach her how to apply eyeliner bc porsche doesn't know how to and doesn't care to learn.

i think the role of like, female role model/influence in chay's life is later taken up by fem!kinn, who is full of the kind of advice porsche would be horrified to hear given to her precious baby sister.

chay has short hair because when she had long hair porsche was obsessed with getting her the right shampoos and conditioners and stuff to take care of it (probs based on some internalised stuff from when porsche was at school and girls would mock her for her split ends) so chay just puts a stop to that by cutting all her hair off and it turns out she kind of likes it? so she keeps it.

casual outfits

i drew all these patterns myself. from scratch. you're welcome.

green dungarees (first outfit) - the reference image is here. this was the first look i drew and also the moment i realised how stupid i was to choose a "fun" foot pose for chay. this caused no end of suffering going forward.

orange dungarees (second outfit) - ref here. here i started to regret the pattern aspect of my chay design. also those messy canvas ankle boots killed me to draw. they were so hard.

sweater vest (third outfit) = MORE FUCKING PATTERNS. i also had a reference for this one somwhere but i was drawing this whilst playing dnd so i think it just got lost.

special outfits

school uniform (first outfit) - i did a bit of looking into school uniforms in thailand and from what i can tell they basically all look very similar. idk if the lilac shirt + navy skirt combo is standardised for girls but it was pretty much all i found when i went looking. also she has a long skirt because when she and porsche bought it for her, they bought a really big one that she could wear all through school.

one (1) smart dress (second outfit) - the idea here is that this is the one smart item of clothing that chay has, and it's the one-size-fits-all-occasions dress. it's dark so it can be worn to funerals. it's somewhere between business and formal so it can be worn to both those kinds of occasions. it was based on this dress i found on pinterest.

going to a concert with friends (third outfit) - i... just wanted to put chay in a bucket hat? yeah that's all i have. no ref. just my mind.

porsche's first paycheque present (fourth outfit) - the idea here was that after getting some money from the whole mafia thing, porsche buys this as a present for chay. maybe it's a dress chay's always looked at when they walk past it in a shop window? this is a slight tweak on this dress by alaia. the original's like £2k which i cannot picture porsche and chay spending on a dress but shhh it's fine.

post-kim

these are the outfits from after the whole kim debacle goes down. i just really wanted to draw goth chay. and really, who wouldn't?

break-up era #1 (first outfit) - at this point i was just having way too much fun. the pattern took for-fucking-ever on the skirt though, because i thought i'd just cheekily re-use the dungaree flower pattern with colour changes but oh no that didn't work at all. i had to edit it so much. the reference is here. here her hair is freshly dyed blue, and she's given herself a little heartbreak undercut. you go girl.

say no to drugs chay (second outfit) - this is what chay is wearing when kim points at that rando in the club who offers chay drugs. you see all of the goth reference images i was finding were just too clean-cut and employable, you know? so torn fishnets it was. the refence i found for this is here but i changed it up bc i couldn't see chay wearing a little nightdress to go clubbing no matter how heartbroken she was.

visiting mum (third outfit) - in this one, in my head, chay has dyed her hair back to normal, but she's still got the undercut, so she straightens her hair and pins a little of it over the short bit to try and appear a little more normal chay to her mum. very simple outfit, no refs.

family portrait (fourth outfit) - there's a part of me which delights in this implied scenario because i just think it's funny if chay and kim are posing for a family portrait with kinnporsche and chay's ready to ignore the fuck out of kim and pretend like she doesn't care about her staring but then kim is in full-hide-any-weakenesses mode because korn's there so now chay's the one staring. relationship status: it's very awkward. anyway fashion wise i wanted two things from chay's outfit: for it to be simpler than any of the theerapanyakuls' and for it to be in a lighter shade of porsche's colour (blue). the reference was this cool dress i found on pinterest.

[exhales] is that everything? i think that's everything. obligatory tag for @yeetlegay bc i know they like to see the fem!kinnporsche content.

big shoutout to mort (tagged earlier), @antique-forvalaka, @luckydragon10, and @dr-lemurr for art troubleshooting and cheerleading duties.

everything was drawn in clip studio paint, which i cannot recommend enough. if you want more detailed info abt that side of things, send me an ask.

#kaputt suffers in art #kinnporsche #kinnporsche art #fem!kinnporsche art #i was originally planning on working on vegas and pete next but then the build stuff came out and kind of axed that plan #i just don't feel comfortable drawing the guy's face rn #i've been toying with recasting f!pete to get around that but i haven't found anyone i want to draw yet #anyway i just realised i didn't put my signature on a bunch of these one second just screaming #okay phew done

[plasma-packin-mama]

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE SOMEONE IS BREATHING, JSUT FOR YOU THEIR HEART KEEPS ON BEATING, TIME WILL TAKE YOU BACK TO BELIEVINGGG (YOU'LL LEARN TO LOVE AGAIN YOULL LEARN TO LOVE AGAIN )

habby valentines everyone :)

#this was supposed to be a verry laid back messy thing but i actually really adore how it came out #fruity little gay ass cowboy and their long suffering husband #im maintagging this bc i want to and i feel love in my heart today #arcade gannon #arcade israel gannon #fallout new vegas #fnv #delilah #art #digital #arcade #peepie art

[kissporsche]

I may physically be at work but spiritually I am playing every vegaspete scene on repeat in my head

#kp orig #kinnporsche #vegaspete #unless you want to share- ​looking for something?- so we’ll see each other in the next life- oh you got a tattoo?- I give up vegas- #when you suffer you’re so much more interesting- who’s a good boy- I’m not choosing I’m just not eating- hurt you so you remember- #you’re no fun- get up and laugh at me- you think it’s poison- why do you have to compete- they don’t beat us because we suck- nosy- #went out to buy it I guess- you’re in need of love- #everything I love leaves- if you’re sad it means it was important- but you like it- let it out- #do you know how sexy you are- you’re a fool- I’m a human I have feelings- let’s start all over again just you and me- #shoot me I don’t think you can and you know why- #could it be you who kills me what the hell does that mean I love you Pete #I can’t keep betraying my feelings like this- why did you follow me Pete- because I’m hungry #I’m your pet aren’t I- won’t you turn around to see me- #I don’t want to be your burden I just want to follow my heart

[artisdrama]

vegas? redeemable? i don’t want it, i want him to break down into pieces and cry miserably on the floor while he begs with his life for pete to not leave him, so codependant on him that if pete’s not around he’s ready to destroy it all and go heads in into hell. i want him to go mayhem with a machine gun inside the first family’s house and sparing no one except for the only person he ever truly loved. i want him on the edge of suicide from how much he can’t live without pete, numb and unable to breathe properly, without feeling his surroundings. 

#vegaspete #i want TOXICITY #i'm addicted to how intense their relationship is and how much space there is to explore those feelings #i'm sick in the head #it's fiction guys let's have it as intense as it can get for the fun #i want vegas to suffer sooooo bad

[carol-ing]

The way people are dying on the hill of Burning Man attendees deserve it because it's $500 to go and no normal person can afford that is like.

$50 a month is unattainable for most people? That's your logic? No one can spare $50 a month on entertainment unless they're ultra rich???

You can criticize the damn thing on a lot of points but the price point is like. I get it, you don't prioritize something like this as a thing to save money for and look forward to. Neither do I! But I'm not gonna be out here criticizing people based on what they use their limited spending money on. I'm not a fucking cop.

#just say you want to be able to laugh at people having a bad time guilt free and go #this is so stupid #it's like... how do I say this #the fact that it's Burning Man that's getting treated like this over any other festival #the high standing moralizing over having a festival in the desert #when Reno and Las Vegas exist as cities #the way it's a recent upsurge of rich assholes that are being used to rationalize the glee over people suffering #like you understand that's not why you're hearing about it now right? #you get that you're only hearing about it now because people didn't like it before #and no they didn't like it before because of native rights issues or climate issues or anything like that #they didn't like it because of the sex and drugs #it's not fucking Ibiza for crying out loud

[sinelanguage]

double overtimes are fun for games that start at 11. less so for games that end at eleven. im watching the hockey game with the utmost HAH NEVERMIND!!! IN THE PROCESS OF MAKING THIS POST DALLAS WON AND DID NOT GO INTO SECOND OVERTIME. GREAT!! goodnight.

#personal #IM GOING TO BED #DALLAS STARS. DALLAS STARS. #im sorry Vegas I want u to suffer in defeat

[glamgoblin]

Vegas was good at bandaging Pete because he probably had to bandage himself and Macau and in other news nothing is okay

#yes you could argue it’s part of his ✨bedroom activities✨ #and tbh I really hope it is #but like #is it #i can see him helping Macau with bandages too #kinnporsche #vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #i want my murder man to suffer awkward encounters not like this suffering

[weizhiyuan]

maybe controversial but I’m personally looking forward to seeing Pete suffer without/because of Vegas a bit more than the opposite. I loveee Vegas and I’m so excited to see him broken too (lol) but to me his brokenness feels different compared to Pete. Pete’s gonna go from tortured to in love w his torturer and bc of that he’s gonna go through so many conflicting feelings. We’ve already seen him crying in the why don’t you stay mv! Like I can’t WAIT to see Pete escape thinking he’s finally free only to realize he misses being with Vegas So Much. That something is Wrong when he’s without him but it also might feel wrong to feel that way. And I can’t wait until we see the Pete who thinks “he was supposed to be the person I had to be angry with. He was supposed to be the person I had to hate, and he was supposed to be the person I had to stay away from. But now no matter how hard he tried to escape, I would follow him wherever he went. No matter he ran to the edge of the world, dived deep into the bottom of the ocean, or even fell into state of unconscious, if I couldn't pull him back I was ready to go anywhere with him” about Vegas (if (hopefully) boc lets them get to that point). Although that’s from the special chapters in the novel my point is Pete’s gonna go from the state he’s in now to something so opposite and he’s going to suffer over it and that’s just so exciting to me. That through all this in his heart he still chooses Vegas….yeah. YEAH.

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #this post is so LONGGGG lol I’m having a lot of thoughts before I go to bed #as per usual I’m trying to sort them out but even now it feels like !18-$:!/! #can’t even tell if I’m coherent anymore lowkey #like i love Pete! i find relatability in him! and bc of this I want him to suffer #I see some ppl saying vegas won’t be able to break him but like… won’t he? #great that he’s a major masochist so that’ll add another layer but we saw him crying in that mv like is he not gonna get Fucked Up #and vegas will get fucked up too… so exciting <3 #i also want vegas to go all in w the torture and I’m realizing it’s like a very highly intense and emotional relationship #so if it’s gonna be intense I want it to be like as intense at it can get LOL #also this has book spoilers and I still dk if I should tag them? #i really love that quote though like omfg Pete… #b.txt

[ilkkawhat]

CSI: Vegas 2.01 She’s Gone | CSI 2.19 Stalker

#csiedit #csivegasedit #csi vegas #nick stokes #george eads #csi parallels #csi 2x19 #csi vegas 2x01 #mk.op #mk.edit #mk.gifs #sorry i like to see you suffer nick #thought about this IMMEDIATELY during the episode #(and just wanted an excuse to gif nick i guess though do i ever need an excuse for that?)

[seokjins-wings]

#kinnporsche the series #mine #* #alight my final thots on these two #i'm obsessed with what they could have been #((with more time to develop)) #like... why not make it the dark romance it's supposed to be #give me the unhealthy co dependency #give me the stockholm syndrome #ADDRESS IT!!!! #i can see where they wanted to go by rewriting their story but it still doesn't work #because vegas is still a piece of shit who almost raped porsche TWICE #who kidnapped pete sexually assaulted him and whipped him #who threatened and tortured him #who has no redeeming qualities that are worth mentioning 😭 #who has suffered no consequences whatsoever except for losing his father and even that was a good riddance! #this feels too much like a sunshine and rainbows ending to be believable lmao #🤷 #various drama gifs

[edgepunk]

I really dislike how they dumbed down the skills in fo4 like idk how but they make less sense than the skills + perks system. at least you knew where your skill points went into

#t #me playing fo4: I wish I was playing new vegas #I wanna suffer through this game bc I've never finished it and I WANT to finish it #like. idk. the art direction + music is so good??? but the writing? awful #this is the definition of wasted potential #you can tell the art team was trying the hardest #while todd's writing is dragging it down #thanks todd

[boxoftheskyking]

Look I'm not a Vegas fan and never will be, whatever, but what *would* be funny is him attempting to be nice to Pete and Pete wanting to know what's up at the main house, so Vegas has to (suffering immensely) ask his dad/bodyguards like "so kinn and Porsche are official? How did that go over?' so he can report back

#kinnporsche #basically i want Vegas to suffer #you know how he said 'please let it not be suffering'? #the opposite of that

[constellationcrowned]

((I'm sticking with the whole 'getting into the manor early' playthrough as my main route for two big reasons:

1 that juicy fucking lore

2 Kariom does NOT find out what happened to Vega and goes on assuming she's okay (or at the very least it doesn't come up) because his reaction if he does see her is fucking heartbreaking.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #I have other reasons for it being my main obv (the buildup for one; it's so fucking good) but oh my god... #he's suffering enough in that act he doesn't need that added to it???? he's so upset!!!!!!! #I want to write him spending time with her ;;;; does anyone want lil Kari with his precious Vega? #maybe I'll write some hcs for them ;;;;;;

[suzteel]

I just remembered that a year ago today I was hoping the finale would give me Pete shooting Vegas and also saving him in the finale. We were given so much 🥲

#kpts #a year later I feel slightly guilty for wanting Vegas to suffer more but 🤷🏼 #I changed my mind about that real quick #(if I remember I might post my immediate response to the finale tomorrow)