#i'll keep u guys posted

[bluberimufim]

LOSING MY MIND

HAVING A BREAKDOWN

'HELL SCREEN' IS SO GOOD!!?!?!

#guys i think this might be my fav short story ever #i am so normal about it. so normal. #your beloved mutual/person you follow is obsessed with a short story from 1918 #actually your beloved mutual is getting into 20th century japanese classics by accident #a series of coincidences happened. i need to be kept away from bookshops. #no but i was reading the story and my brain was like “GRAPHIC NOVEL GRAPHIC NOVEL GRAPHIC NOVEL #DRAW IT RIGHT NOW ISTG" i am so normal you guys #i do wanna draw it actually #anyway! #i am enjoying the works of Ryuunosuke Akutagawa anormal amount. my mental state is great. #who knows if i get obsessed with more of his short stories #i'll keep u guys posted #not writing #ramblies #ok wait how do i tag this #mmmmm #hell screen #japanese literature #yeeeah that look like some proper tags #anyway bye gonna go scream into the void now besties <3

[neukdaez]

um also hello thank you for 100 followers???? 🥹🫶🏻

#admin stuff #trying to think of a 100 follower celebration #i'll keep u guys posted

[boysareouttonight]

macdennis - lover, you should've come over

#sorry for never posting anything in here #i keep saying that and yet post once a month #i just don't have anything relevant to say i fear #that's a lie i do but u guys intimidate me #i'm only familiar with sunnytwt's game #i'll try to be more active (another lie) #anyways if there's one thing i'm always gonna do is post my edits #had to use this song for macden <3 #they make me insane #that kind of chemistry can't be 'taught' that's just glob i'm sorry #macdennis #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #macdennis edit #iasip edit #it's always sunny in philadelphia edit #mine

[izloveshorses]

a grand duchess and her grand duke <3

(lynn buckham study)

#anastasia broadway #dimya #fan art #my art #iz draws #illustration #christy altomare #derek klena #i can't decide so u guys hash it out: #are they at nanna's for tea post canon? chatting in post-marital bliss about something silly? #or are they sitting in their hotel sometime during their first weekish in paris completely oblivious?? #i need to post this now or i'll keep finding other things to nitpick smh

[daydadahlias]

What’s your stance on the Ashton hate right now?

ok so i've gotten a few asks abt this now and i will concede and answer this one because i love the insinuation here that I can have a stance like I'm a politician or smthn <3 thank u for voting and for this platform <3

I'm also going to take the opportunity to say this is entirely my stance, not what i think everyone should believe or i think is the "right" perspective or blah blah yada yada disclaimer disclaimer. no one come at me saying I'm forcing my beliefs on you. you catch my drift. if you disagree with me, that's your prerogative and i frankly just don't care very much.

that being said <3 lock in for a jessay <3

if we're being entirely honest, I think people in the modern age - especially twitter users - actively seek out reasons to be upset. they crave drama like bees crave honey. especially when it comes to ashton tbh. the man can't breathe right without people claiming he's being problematic so I don't put a lot of stock in general in anyone's opinions of him but my own, especially bc I'm in fandom for my own enjoyment, not for anyone else's !! so it doesn't much matter to me what they think of him. i don't value their opinions!

if you'll notice, fandom is a lot about curating your own special little bubble and here on tumblr, literally no one is talking shit about ashton that i follow. it's literally just on twitter that I've seen any hate because twitter is a cesspool filled with chronically online social justice warrior bullshit :) and there's a reason I'm not on there often.

i think hate like this is just point-blank stupid because, as I've said before and I will say again, cancel culture is fucking fake ! it is literally not real and it is invented by people who have miserable sad little lives and want to self-impose their issues and hypocritical views onto others to pretend that they're doing good in the world when, in reality, they're making it that much worse!!

now, don't get me wrong, i really don't mind someone saying to their fave, "hey, this thing you said was hurtful for X reason, maybe you could consider that in the future :)" but I've already seen people saying ashton should kill himself sdfghjk so ! i don't care much for any opinion they have because they undermine their own arguments by telling people to spread kindness by spreading cruelty. it's frankly moronically hypocritical and embarrasses me every time i go online and see it.

as for the actual reason ashton's getting hate right now, i don't personally think it's as big a deal as people pretend it is. and this is getting into my own personal perspectives of things and please feel free to disagree with me on this because i know it's a Hot Take, but i can believe and support victims while simultaneously thinking that anonymous twitter allegations are mostly bullshit.

all allegations against All Time Low were entirely anonymous from a twitter user with no evidence/support/timeline (and, yeah, a random user said there were "97 allegations" but when people asked where she got that number from, she literally admitted she made it up and deactivated her account. but that didn't stop people from just fucking running with the number) and when ATL threatened to press charges for defamation, all of a sudden this anon user disappeared with no further comment. but twitter went wild - as it often does - and completely exaggerated all the actual information given.

twitter spreads misinformation like a disease. that's just the truth. and im certainly not saying all allegations that originate on twitter are fake because they aren't but i am saying that people online need to support victims at the same time that they actually start thinking critically about things. twitter acts like it's "guilty until proven innocent" instead of the other way around.

that being said, i don't personally support ATL because i didn't listen to their music before so this doesn't affect me and - if there is the chance they're abusers, i don't really want to listen to them. But that doesn't mean i tell people to turn them off if they like them or something, or tell them to stop being fans. because it doesn't affect me and i, frankly, just don't care. people need to learn that supporting the artist and supporting the art are two totally different things. you can listen to a song you like without knowing every allegation the artist has ever faced. also, if we stopped listening to every song made by a problematic artist, I'm afraid there would be very little music left.

that's where this brings me to the fact that people are throwing around insane accusations like that ashton supports rapists which is a fucking insane thing to say about a) people who arent even confirmed/charged rapists and b) over the fact he literally just played a song by them? he was DJ-ing for an emo/pop punk night? people would have been shocked if he hadn't played All Time Low??

also, I'm sorry but are you going to boycott every single person and establishment that plays one of the biggest pop-punk bands ever?? if you walk into a store and hear it playing All Time Low, will you never shop there again?? where is the line drawn?

and finally, the whole thing pisses me off because people use it as an excuse to say that they stand with victims and that ashton is actively harming victims by playing All Time Low when, I'm sorry, but no the fuck he's not ?? and, in my opinion, this is actually does MORE harm to victims than it does good? it's all just performative crap to make yourself look "woke".

and, excuse me, but what have you actually done to genuinely fucking support victims other than tell some random rich man who you don't fucking know that he should kill himself for DJing at an emo night?? using all this time to "cancel" Ashton Irwin's privileged cishet male ass could have been spent actually raising awareness about rape or helping actual real life fucking people in your community? this level of vitriol doesn't help anyone. it's pathetic.

this is just my real problem with the internet in general is that people act like hate inspires kindness and education when it does the exact opposite.

so, that being said, i just think the hate against ashton is small-minded and embarrassing. it doesn't mean anything at all. and I'm going to keep enjoying tumblr where people aren't pathetically insane (they're funny insane) and we can just learn how to fucking enjoy things because the world is too ugly right now to not find beauty in SOMETHING, goddammit! i am in fandom to have fun. not listen to people bitch and moan about their uninformed, damaging views of what social justice is.

and i will also spend my time in my real life genuinely supporting victims of assault and abuse instead of just pretending i do on fucking fandom social media.

#mic drop #i said what i said #and i will say no more <3 #if i get any more asks abt this <3 i shall not engage #but this one's for u anon #now back to ur regularly scheduled program #also ok i'll just say once again #i love ashton #and that's not going to change #so im going to keep posting abt this guy dfghjk #dont expect a public denouncement of him any time soon #pigeon #anon #tw negative #tw hate #tw all time low #tw atl

[hella1975]

i find it so funny being part of the zukka fandom bc i dont even contribute anything i just see posts and i go 'yeah!!!' and that's it

#like sometimes im like 'i want to make a post about zukka' but i literally have no new thoughts to add about them #like im just here cheering u guys on whenever someone makes content #and i'll keep doing it!!!

[whumpshaped]

i realised i never rly said anything abt going on a Real Break lol sorry- but yea im not on tumblr for rn if i dont respond to anything thats why !

#couple things i caught a glimpse of.. #u guys r always welcome to add onto my stuff #and always welcome to take my prompts and write stuff w them #unless i named the characters its free game lol #bc if i name them then... then theyre my babies from then on sorry #but yeah #and uhhh i wanted to say smth else too but forgot #idk keep tagging me in stuff i'll catch up at some point #i just need to Not be here for a bit lol #my queue is still going! and it will continue for.... a few more days i think idk when itll run out #so this post will likely get a little buried #but yea #happy holidays if im not back by then #i'll def be back on new years babey i must celebrate my bday on tumblr w my parasocial friends /j #anyway bye love u guys #irlshaped

[cumulativechaos]

paranatural red string brigade i salute you. because goddamn i could never keep track of all the tiny details and background hints and subtle dialogue and shit in this webcomic that i've been reading since 2014. yes i've reread the whole thing several times. no i dont remember what happened. godbless

#pnat #paranatural #mp #i posted the no reflection = adhd??? screenshot and it keeps getting notes #bc DAMN it's fucking funny fhjksghfgkjk #but i took a dip into the tag and wow yeah. some of u guys know a lot more abt this webcomic than i do #im mostly here for the humor if im being honest and i'm waiting patiently as the mystery unravels #i'll just happily let zack blow my mind whenever theyre ready

[cosmic-nopedog]

Aight tumblr nation, we have to have a lil /srs talk abt lilguy

cus like with everything thats happened n stuff, should I keep on making it? or like, Not do that? cus I wanna keep on making it but like really up to you guys if you want for me to keep on posting it n stuff

#borks into the void #txt post #littleguyau #I just y'know feels kinda weird making an au of a dead guy y'know? #but i do like the story that i've got planned up n stuff #so really if u guys want to see it i'll keep on making it #but if u think its better to lay it off then i will #n just move on with other plans

[drumlincountry]

#Eefa sells her labour #Look I am PRO CRIMES AND PRO SCAMS #but the guy who has scammed himself into the social media manager job at my work is a fucking nightmare #If he would sit in a corner and quietly scam the company out of a salary for a position we DO NOT NEED #I would respect him #However he keeps making it harder for me to to my job #And physically taking things i'm working on away from me to butcher #Like I don't want to brag but i'm a trained and experienced facilitator. I was a university lecturer #Do you really think itms your job to add more animations into my slide shows??? Social media man??? #He is also clearly like. Using Google to search for images because he keeps adding incorrectly id'd species #I will find a nice creative commons pic of a plant i'm talking about and he will be like #:) I have my sources *changes it to something that lives in new zealand* :) #Like dude u don't need to be an expert but you have to understand that there are things you don't know. That I DO. #I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible but occasionally I'll be like. OK I am going to give him a chance #Maybe he's not that bad #And i'll let him look at an Instagram post or something #And then he RUINS EVERYTHING AGAIN #Me Fein

[crimeronan]

my awareness that i'm currently writing this for an audience of mainly normies in my irl critique group is making devin's gender exploration a lot more fun, actually. i'm not aiming to handhold or educate or anything bc i'd find that Exhausting. simultaneously queer audiences will clock what's up immediately like "yeah she's transfem and genderfluid, we got it."

but this audience of left-leaning middle-aged-to-senior mainstream fiction writers who are mostly married with kids...... oh my god. Exquisite. i've yet to critique an explicitly queer piece for this group (although i've only critted like eight pieces so far, so, grain of salt). there's narration at the moment that's just like devin could be a woman a man or anything in between as easily as any given situation called for it, which is a footnote part of a broader theme-based character intro, and i'm like. waiting with Unrestrained Delight to see what the group makes of this. or. if they even notice.

#original fiction #devin #see they might not even clock it as a queer/trans thing they might just be like #yeah devin is a freaky magical eldritch being puking up sludge. gender fuckery tracks. #alternatively i might get 'is devin.... a shapeshifter.....?' which like. no but also. sure #it would be intimidating to do queer lit if the group wasnt so friendly and also from portland. since they are though it's VERY FUN #anyway it'll be over a month before i get to see what their thoughts are. i'll probably keep u guys posted tho.

[frecklystars]

THE LOVES OF MY LIFE OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 it's been so long since I've rly felt love bursting in my chest for any F/Os and I am feeling so so so so much for my girlboss girlfriend and my horsegirl boyfriend 😭😭😭💖💞💓💓💗💖💕💕💕💟💝

Her smile!!! god!!!! HIS smile!!!! god!!! these two are fucking saving my life I can't believe how much these characters are helping me get through the worst time of my life. THESE TWO are helping me get back into self shipping and helping me feel safe again when I really thought I'd never ever recover. I'm collecting screenshots of these characters and sighing with hearts in my eyes every time... I haven't done that in over a year... I'm making gifsets and writing fics and doodling again... it's all because of them and I'm such a weepy mess over it

#love notes #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́- #every time i make a love notes post with them i get teary eyed and um this isnt an exception 😭😭 #theyre making me so happy and i havent felt this way in so long #im fucking happy you guys... god i havent felt. joy. with any F/Os in so so so so long!!!!! #self shipping is like. the core part of me. its all i've got and i went so long without it. that piece of me I NEED #fuck i finally found two F/Os who i know love me no matter what #and they're holding my hands telling me they'll never ever hurt me. wouldnt dream it. couldnt even fathom it #and slowly but surely i HOPE i will get back into self shipping just in general especially for transformers #but god. god!!!! god!!! i owe them my life!!!! #i couldnt fucking take it anymore i was falling so far and they!!!! are here!!!! in my heart!!!! #i was doing so fucking badly i was about to give up and they just. this movie comes out and im suddenly hopeful?? #pinkest movie of all time barbie rly said keri fuck your ptsd fuck your abuser youre getting better #and youll love pink again and youre gonna be okay and im like yes maam whatever u say maam #god 😭😭 sorry i know i talk abt them a lot but its been so long #and i know i keep repeating! that its been so long! i know i dont shut up about how im hurting! but! #i cant! describe how overwhelmed i feel! its like a part of me that was dead for a year is slowly coming back to life #and the fucking relief... i am just awash with tears

[homeless202]

EY's reaction to finding out HJ used to steal as well when he was younger is so interesting.

How excited he was abt it:

From EY's pov, this straight A student he thought was perfect and never did a single wrong thing in his life, just confessed to having a criminal background. EY used to look down on HJ for his self-righteous and goody-two-shoes behavior. In his eyes, 'good' people like that don't last long bc they're 'sensitive' abt (in his eyes) insignificant stuff, and they often criticize and judge people like him too quickly. That's why he was so curious abt HJ and tried to figure him out, and why he pissed him off so easily. To him, it's a mystery how people like that still exist and manage survive.

One of EY's sources of frustration towards HJ was how EY thought, HJ thought, he (HJ) was better than him (EY) <- which was partially true, HJ did think "I'm miserable, but at least not as miserable as him". But HJ admitting he used to steal showed EY that HJ was not that much better than him. That he's not as stuck-up and 'holier-than-thou' than he previously thought. He had character.

After finding this out, EY gained a lot more respect for HJ. Especially after hearing his story abt how he managed to quit. HJ became a person EY could truly look up to that day.

#it's like. after hj admitted to stealing. him and ey finally were on equal footing. hj wasn't on a pedestal anymore as the good student #just a high school kid like ey. which made ey look up to him more bc: #'hey. this guy is just like me and look where he is. maybe i can get there too one day' #but ey doesn't believe he can actually get there seeing how he never planed on living past 20 #which is why he still keeps getting frustrated with him #and why HJ's words always hit hard when he fucks up -> the person you look up to tells u u can't change? ouch #THERE'S SO MUCH DEPTH HERE i think i'll pick this topic back up later in a new and more extensive post. i'll save the details for that #no home #no home manhwa #집이 없어 #webtoon #stealing arc #multipart #details #meta #eunyung baek #haejoon goh #ey hj parallels #what if i say my ability to read ey's character is bc i kin him? what then? will i become fish fodder? #i love-hate how similar our thinking patterns are

[coquelicoq]

Une petite houle, venue du large, imprimait au canot un léger roulis, et quelque crêtes de lames clapotaient à son avant. (Vingt mille lieues sous les mers, 2e partie, chapitre III)

today in sentences that would have made me weep quietly into my dictionary if i had read them a year ago before jules verne expanded my marine vocabulary by ~1700%.

#do u you know how long it took me to figure out 'lame' has a totally separate sea-related meaning #i was like a slat? a slat of what??????? #no it's just one of the three most common words for 'wave' #(the others being vague and flot(s)) #(not to mention houle of course. or remous) #(and onde but that's a different kind of wave) #now i see it and i'm like ouais ouais une lame nous tous l'avons vue #french #my posts #hey remember the first time i read a jules verne novel & was going crazy trying to figure out what 'allure' was in a nautical context #i was like i know allure means speed...but he is definitely not using it to mean speed #that's how they get you. all these normal words with normal meanings that have SPECIAL BONUS MEANINGS #as soon as you get on a boat 😩 but jules verne is like. you are going to learn these words if it kills me #and who am i to argue with a guy who really wants to teach me five different words for wave/swell? #i learned all the words for mud and manure because that was important to vicky hugo. it's the least i can do #now i'll tell you where i draw the line is learning all the names of the different species of fish. in french. #he's throwing like multiple paragraphs of run-on sentences per chapter at me that are just listing forms of marine life #i don't even know what these are in english so i'm just letting them wash over me #i've learned the ones that keep showing up over and over but most of them are so specialized they're not even in the dictionary #frenchified scientific latin ass names #very fun to pronounce but yeah i ain't committing these to long-term storage sorry

[earthtooz]

logging off lol

just for a lil - don't forget me miss me xx [read tags]

#for a week maybe? i have exams coming up #and it's also a health break i can't keep feeling like i'm chronically online #be well in the meantime guys :> #take care of urselves #c u vv soon guys #i'll still be writing tho if u see me pop back in it's just to post a fic that i want to be shared #earfsmercury

[pendraegon]

if ur wondering if im working on fobthuriana i am it's just. mcrthuriana took me like a month to a month and a half and i expect it to take as much time, maybe even a bit more (WILL be done before the summer ends tho)

#i will give some crumbs though<3 #grand theft autumn for gareth. west coast smoker for lancelot. #my main problem is that i think every song is good for gawain bc i think that gawain is a fobgirlie in the way that #lancelot is a mcrgirlie. remarkable nation though: the remarkable part of this playlist. is going to be insane. #jess and claudio if u see this post litro im making fobthuriana just for you two<3 #<- still not feeling very well at all but. i just got through some part of it so i wanted to keep u guys updated on this front... #i think maybe i'll do a fobthuriana analysis too like how i did one for mcrthuriana if anyone is interested in it<3 #fobthuriana