#i'm liking it less than i expected? idk

[chemicalarospec]

tag game: 9 people you'd like to get to know better

thank you!! @pomegranates-and-onyx and @lowoliet!!! <3 I'm missed doing these tbh. I reordered the items so the sequence makes more sense xoxo

Favorite color: I usually say purple but I don't really feel that strongly

Relationship status: lmaoo I'm aro (greyro-ish?). I actually have long thought I would like to fake-date/date for fun, but just the other day went "I still haven't kissed anybody and I know plenty of ppl have a 1st older than me but tbh I don't think I ever will". Other than that, I've got a few friends I really like, a few friends I kinda don't, and some people in between. Solid nuclear family tho 👍

Currently consuming (eating, by the looks of the trend): Waiting on a response from a friend to see if her cookies (mint & chocolate) are tree nut-free. I hope I can eat them; they look great.

Last song: "Capital M-E" by Taking Back Sunday (I cheated a little b/c last night I listened to a bunch of random songs lol)

Current watching: Dan and Phil? Hbomb's latest video? theoretically, Death Note, Cunk on Earth, and Akira and Akira.

Last movie: Die Hard haha

Three ships: lawlight, tntduo … hm, Arthur/Eames from Inception is a favorited Ao3 tag I do regularly go back to

First ship: Not *too* sure either but I think it HAS to be Snowbaz b/c of the Fangirl -> Tumblr blog stalker thing & that book introducing me to fandom (whoops, that 'thing's not universal knowledge... after Fangirl I scoured Rainbow Rowell's blog which led me to gingerhaze.tumblr.com (he did the cover art) and b/c I couldn't read Nimona online I read his blog instead. b4 that I only went to youtube.com and minecraft.net) WAIT NO. I've always considered genderswapped Johnlock (SheJane) to be my first ship hahaha. (yes, it had to be genderswapped. reality was different back then)

Currently working on: sooo *twirls hair* there's these Hamlet scene analyses (plural)... that were due today.... also some Calc I think... my portfolio for a writing contest... Blind Justice Light Yagami drawing, if the motivation holds. And my Death Note fics I listed here :D

tagging @detective-horse-girl @l3mon-boy @cmstyles19 @sophaeros @i-could-bee-an-angel & seconding @drfurter well @novaliae I know you pretty well but you too of course :) no pressure to anybody if you'd rather not do it tho! & feel free to join in the fun and let me know u would like to foster mutual affection :D

#i was gonna reblog one of u but i saw that everyboyd's making a new post #I said this #tag game #i love doing these but everytime it gets to the tagging part i carefully calcuate who to tag based off what mutuals were last in my notes + #how personal the posts they liked/reblogged were. #personal #ships #it took me like an hour to do this lol... hamlet here i come... #i'm liking it less than i expected? idk

[vynnyal]

A little something like this, right?

#From memory for the most part #I've drawn these characters more times than I expected 😂 #I cheated and fixed a few things when I went to pick colors (and then didn't even use them) #Idk I felt nostalgic and decided to crank out a few bugs #Lesse... What stories do I got. It's been a while so I have quite the selection #Oh jdbdjvskhff my dog died from cancer of all things. Like seriously what the heck #While we were recovering I jokingly mentioned something about getting another rescue dog #Within the WEEK we had a pomeranian in our house. A pomeranian. 16 pounds. Pomeranian. #See the reason I mentioned it at all was to give our other dog- Tiger the 11(?) yr old maltipoo- company in his twilight years. #You know. Maybe another old pooch like Lucky that was chill and kind #And now we have Rudy aka SPITFIRE #He's fun though! I like him. He's always smiling and it warms my heart. I swear I can walk out of the house for an hour #and he'll greet my like I've been gone for years every single time #What else. Oh lol so I'm taking care of my neighbor's house for two weeks #A wwwk in and the cat decides to RUN OFF. In the middle of a THUNDERSTORM. #36 hrs later and I'm like aight this isn't great #After posting notices online etc I was sitting around and thought to myself something kinda dumb #See he likes listening to me play on their grand piano. They never use it but I do and the cat always lays at my feet while I jam #So I thought... what if I pied piper the cat home. So I threw open all the doors #And played for oh idk 20 min? #CAT WALKS IN. SITS ON THE FLOOR BESIDES ME #Cats. I stg #Eh that's all for now I'm sleeby #hollow knight #art tag #See ya!

[pollyna]

Out of all the Dagger squadron Callie is the one who knows Admiral Kazansky the longer and, even before Top Gun, she was already eating at his table one every seven days. Just without Maverick around, even if she knew he was married. After every piece just fits where it should.

She was twenty-seven when an imposing dude, a Lieutenant Commander, asked her to be the attache during a conference with some Chinese delegation. Callie had accepted so fast she almost fell out of the chair for the enthusiasm and the Lieutenant had left her room laughing under his breath because oh this kid. In the end she had to do very little because Admiral Kazansky knew exactly what to say and how to say without her help, but he offered her a job because he knew her knowledge was going to be useful sooner than later. Callie had worked for two whole years with the man, in briefings, war rooms she theoretically wasn't supposed to be, over breakfast at the Admiral house with other ten people and over dinner in gala she hated but not how much the Admiral did. She worked for him and with him, learning as much as she could, translating during the Admiral's bad days when his fingers where as fast and hard as the things he would have liked to say but couldn't. When she got called in Top Gun, for the first time, she was barely thirty and the Admiral had hugged her and said you're for the skies not for boring politics. After it was a deployment after another, flying, flying and flying a little more, always to be the best alone and with her WSO.

The second time around Top Gun the Admiral wasn't around to say goodbye or to hug her but he sent a mail with enough big words in it to let Callie understand how important the mission was.

So, when at the end of it all, the squadron starts going around the Admiral, please Callie call me Tom or Iceman at which she answered just if you start calling me Halo Admiral, and the Captain's house she remembers where most things are and she starts making breakfast most of the mornings they stay over to sleep and Bradley himself looks a little lost the first time he has to find a cup in the immensity of the kitchen cupboard. Everybody looks at her like she grown a third head but Mav puts a photos of a younger Admiral and Halo in their whites, in front of the ONU's building. She was the second kid before every single on of you, Bradley excluded the Captain says a shirt two size to big over his pj's pants and Ice hugging his wrist. Fitz almost burns a stack of pancakes, Harvard's glass shatters on the ground and Phoenix murmurs to Bob holy shit I need that photo you see how cute Halo was.

That was a day Tom signs and Halo laughs because yes, yes that was a day she answers before going back to cutting the fruits and ignoring the one hundred questions they all have.

(The weirdest person to be around is Maverick, at the end of the day, because she knows the Admiral but his husband is the wild card. But, in the end, they bond over on too many breakfasts and all the crazy and wild things Tom did for Pete when he was searching for a present for his birthday.)

#callie halo shen #she is a dork™️ #tom iceman kazansky #how to adopt young adults 101 (icemav edition) #she was one of the kids™️ before everbody expect rooster #the dagger squad #icemav #hint! halo x phoenix #halo and all her carrier before top gun and everything #idk if i like this or i'm going to re-write it because it feels less good than the other sections :) #top gun:maverick

[aeide-thea]

the problem for me with both witcher s3 and wot s2—well, okay, one of a few problems, but the one i'm singling out at the moment—is that i've just reached a point with SFF where i've largely used up what little patience i ever possessed for the 'young trainee gets frustrated that they're not progressing faster and gets reckless' trope?

like it's not that it's not a plausible way for someone to behave, it totally is! but. i don't know. i need a, like, decade-long break where i just get stories starring middle-aged people who have, probably painfully, learned some damn patience and slow perseverance…

#tvblogging #also honestly #bookblogging #anyway i grudgingly did a google bc it's good to take my own medicine wrt researching at least a little before you hit post #so i might try some of the things that came up #but like. idk. really at some level i just want‚ idk‚ someone to option a tarma and kethry show or sth #Competent Cheerfully Jaded Mercs Have SFF Adventures #…is this my cue to revisit ancient misty lackey in 2023. possibly. god. #but like. i just want more coherent writing and less petulant teens #wot is better than witcher and also has moiraine but like. we're spending too much time with the babs. i want my adult qpr back :( #also obviously all of this is Not Unrelated 2 my personal situation where i've like. aged out of really relating to Youth #but remain pretty deeply alienated by most (cishet‚ reproductive‚ *productive* for that matter) visions of adulthood #so it's like. where are the narratives abt ppl who are out of sync with the expected narratives #but also bc i'm having such a bitch of a time with life i'm very hard to please bc crankiness comes much more easily than pleasure #anyway. unfortunately i got the gnothi seauton bit down but in itself that gets you precisely nowhere #just like. deep in the omphaloskeptic hole. emphasis on skeptic

[maddy-ferguson]

in october i read my brilliant friend by elena ferrante and then the story of a new name by elena ferrante and then those who leave and those who stay by elena ferrante and then the story of the lost child by elena ferrante and i was like i hadn't loved a book like this since i was like 16 will i ever find anything i like this much ever again. and i still haven't i don't even really enjoy her other books

#the english titles are so awkward like i kind of get it because the og doesn't have the story in the title for the first book either and i #understand not doing the story of those who leave and those who stay very long. but in french there's no the story of for any of them and #it's much better! #and like i say: brf slt #by december 1st i had read all 4 books twice like i was so obsessed #i haven't watched the show yet i want to i just haven't but i want to i think i will like after i finish watching what i'm watching rn i #hope i like it #and i've read other books i really enjoyed i've read other books i loved. but none that i connected with like that💔 #but anyway. i've read basically all her other novels i read troubling love first since that was her first novel i was like hm. then i read #the lying life of adults and i actually really enjoyed it for maybe the first half or for like two thirds of the book like it had potential #and then? i don't know what happened. the last 50 pages especially made me so mad i was like literally what is this. why do we care about #this why are you ending the novel on this??/!?. #then i read the days of abandonment because i wanted to see if i liked it! i did not. i liked it more than troubling love but less than the #lying life of adults. i just started reading the lost daughter today because i'm a completionist and i'm actually liking it fine maybe #because i've seen the movie so i knew what to expect? idk. but it's so frustrating like the neapolitan novels were literary perfection to #me and her other novels are like very average i don't even enjoy them and they're all short like less than 200 pages (except for the lying #life of adults) that's why i finished them and kept reading them. i was also just curious like why am i not liking it!!!! #but i actually know why it's maybe two different things? the neapolitan novels are about two women it's about their relationship and theres #a lot of things about men in the books but still it's all about the two girls while the others are all about one main woman? #except the lying life of adults which is about a girl and her aunt and i think that's why i liked it more at the beginning. #there's that and there's maybe also the fact that we start in my brilliant friend when they're kids and then we see them grow up whereas #in her other books it's like adult women going through...something. again except for the lying life of adults. i didn't #like that one for different reasons it's different because it's from after the neapolitan novels the others are from before. but anyway #it's not like i'm incapable of reading books about adults but yeah i think the coming of age aspect is what made me me like my brilliant #friend and sequels so much like especially in relation to boys and men like just the way it goes is so good. like lila marrying redacted. #very bad but yk it's just all very good #and i also just don't like the style as much? like there's some things i liked or thought were okay+ in the neapolitan novels that are much #more prominent in her other works and when it's not in lila and elena's story it's just not good to me like it's actually bad #anyway. i'm halfway through the lost daughter because it's only 176 pages long and i'm actually having an okay time. but yeah #and it's been less than six months it's not like it's a lost cause or anything and i HAVE read other books i REALLY liked but...

[emma-d-klutz]

You know I really do not need Jeremiah Arkham to be Black Mask at any time ever. Someone’s gotta fill the niche of mental health professional who is 100% not a supervillain. A guy whose evildoing comes only as an example of what a psych ward can do to you if they just choose. 

The tension of knowing he started out extremely dedicated and genuinely wanting to help people, seeing him victimized and bullied by rogues in his care until even the last shreds of professionalism that held place of his already run down empathy wear out, and despite being sympathetic to this hopeless state being nonetheless nauseatingly horrified when he turns to abusing his patients because in his position he can just do that and hypothetically could have chosen to do that over anything,

is way better to have in there to work with Batman’s exploratory themes of power, justice, corruption and institution, mental illness, and ‘Society’ ect ect

than just saying “and then he snapped too much so now he’s in a legacy costume and a straight jacket too.” 

No hate to my other villains who have lost their licenses. Some of those guys are some of my favorite rogues, and I love them dearly, but we need one uncostumed one. 

(Yes, I am arguing that something from a giant superhero franchise should not have another costumed villain because themes, as if costumed villains is not the whole genre. I am also the sort of person who gave up on No Game, No Life after reading more volumes than I’d care to admit, because I got sick of wading through the gross parts waiting for them to tackle the subjects of debilitating phobias, isolation, codependency, and family that I thought were promised to me before realizing that was never gonna happen. So. Take me however you will. Please pretend reblogs are disabled bc tumblr isnt giving me the option rn)

#jeremiah arkham #i went searching for stuff involving the character after watching the batman 2022 on a headcanon whim #and his shifting characterization and his place in the storyworld actually ended up meaning a lot more to me than I expected #but that's probably because i've been in a psych ward #and wilderness therapy #so i've seen some good and bad things #and i think it's very in line with Batman media #to be like 'hey even if we may sympathize with why you chose to abuse your power it's a systemic failure that you're just able to do that' #if he's black mask i think it idk cheapens the effect? #is it just me? am i wrong? does it not and that just paints me as dismissive? #like am i the one being biased by being like 'yeah i take his bad actions less seriouslywhen he's just another crazy costumed villain'? #i hope i don't sound like that #like you all get what i'm saying right? #this post may be so poorly formed that i did not articulate my point well at all but that's never stopped me from pressing post before #if anyone posts a rebuttle that takes me down. you're free to but i'm not going to respond because i dont want to collaborate on this one

[emodennis]

why did i decide to take a job at an extremely active and sport-focused camp this summer.

#well on the bright side i got my legal name changed to phoenix on the staff portal #but training starts tomorrow #and im gonna be the bitch that's slower and less fit than everyone else #like i genuinely do not see a scenario where that doesn't happen #i'm either gonna have to push my body beyond what its capable of doing comfortably #or ask for breaks #i hate the society we live in #where i internalized that asking for breaks is weak and embarassing #but to answer my own question. it's because the pay is so much better than the other camp jobs i was applying to lmaooo #i mean i'm sure i'll get more fit as the summer goes on #but being behind everyone else in the beginning is gonna be so stressful #i tried so hard to exercise more this month. but i don't think i did it more than 3 times a week #which i don't think was enough #but hopefully it will be something #i also hate the sun and bugs. #WHY AM I DOING THIS KASJHDAKSHD #i don't even know if i like working with kids :''') #i hate new situations where i have no idea what to expect #i did as much research as i could but the autism can't handle the things i can't know or prepare for #idk what i need rn. everyone's who's told me that its gonna be fun or a good time or whatever has not helped #and anyone who's validated me and said that it sounds stressful hasn't helped either #so i will take your likes on this post as a little kiss on the cheek <3 #that's all i need #phoenix talks

[the-saucy-wave-equation]

coming to the conclusion that the kind of writing that my old PI wants is overly simplified because she's overworked and just not thinking straight a bunch of the time

#I'm actually a bit pissed at some of her feedback on this paper #it shows a complete lack of understanding of what I'm trying to say in this paper #like she doesn't understand the meaning of the term glassy potential energy surface like!! #that's FOUNDATIONAL in considerations of phase transitions and behavior of conensed materials #it's terminology the ideal audience of this paper will expect #i've read it in multiple papers very similar to this one!! #just because you don't understand it immediately doesn't mean *i* am wrong #it might just means you don't know what the fuck you're talking about #and also she gave me more feedback again about how sometimes my sentences are long and confusing #which like #fair #but they used to be worse #and i've worked really hard on getting better at it #and I am better!! #I notice that she's edited this paper a lot less than she used to #but STILL no acknowledgement that i've gotten better at this #and her only advice on how to improve is “idk just compare what I write to what you write” #i mean i also feel like some of the sentences she's picking on aren't that hard to understand #anyways i'm just pissed by the last line of her email that's basically just #oh you're on your own for writing papers from here on out so you'd better figure out how to write better #like hello?!?! #i actually write very well for the most part #but i have adhd and short sentences are hard #but i have been MAKING an effort #and am now actively pissed that she's still commenting on how some minority of my sentences are still complicated #when i've fixed most things #and anyways I always edit them down to be better!!! #i am actively a good writer!!! you've told me this!!! #ugh #anyways

[radical-dadical-rafael]

I so understand why ppl like making content where Jon and Daisy are friends but have you considered the fact that um. They wouldn't be.

#raf's rambles #akdjqjd okay I'm not gonna be mean abt people's fanon (even though I often am whoops) #but. Yeah. #the way people portray Daisy in general is kinda weird #but like. What makes Daisy a good character is the fact that she's not good!!! #what she's done! Unjustifiable! And she knows it!! And instead of wallowing in that. She tries to be better. And she doesn't ask #for the people she hurt to forgive her #she's trying to be better for the sake of being better! Not to be 'redeemed' in the eyes of better. Not to 'make up' for what she's done #not to undo her badness. But to work towards something better bc she wants to be #The thing that makes Jon and Daisy interesting it's that. They are the only two characters in the show that understand what it means #to be part of an entity. That I feel like is why Jon; even if he didn't forgive her; was still civil and willing to help her #because he understands her. And she understands him. #but they aren't friends. He's uncomfortable around her; I think that much is clear #She /scares/ him. He said he never felt more hopeless than when she dragged him to the forest to kill him. She was proud to show off the #new scar she left on him. He wouldn't be friends with her!!!! #and she wouldn't ASK for his friendship either!! She wouldn't expect that from him!!! She wouldn't /want/ that from him #bc she understands that she's hurt him!! And she can't take that back!!! But she can convince him to get out of his office w her and Basira #and she can try to make herself less of a threatening presence. And she can be civil #and yeah idk this is getting away from me but yeah they wouldn't be friends #and honestly!! I don't think they'd be friends in any universe! #not /really/ #not unless you entirelyyyyy change Daisy as a character #which ofc ppl have no qualms w doing. Which is fine!!! Have fun #but. Yeah! #my thoughts on that

[iguessitsjustme]

Now I’m upset at em because when he had the time to fix the situation with name he just made it seem like name shouldn’t feel the way he is feeling also I hated how he got frustrated when mama didn’t answer him as fast as he normally would (now you see how name feels every time you said you would call but didn’t) that part made me so freaking mad! I was heated but to go to his mama like what plan does he have with his mother? Neither of them realize they are making him pull himself even more away from both of them

Hello my dear anon!

So I'm going to preface this by saying that I am also angry at Em. I don't think he's handling the situation very well and I am glad the rest of the friend group is keeping him in check. I also love Name so much. I would sell my soul for Name's happiness.

That being said, I don't think Em deserves all of the hate he is getting here on tumblr.com. I think it's important that despite his flaws, we recognize that he is still trying. He is now making a concentrated effort to let Name know when he is unavailable. He is trying.

I'm not sure who was on the other end of that phone call. I really hope it wasn't Name's mom because I would be livid. But I am going to hold off on my judgement and my anger until I am 100% sure. But even if it is Name's mother, Em has no way to know what she's been putting Name through. He's not there. He hasn't heard her guilt Name for not speaking. As far as he knows, Name is pulling away and isolating himself because he's left behind and lonely and it has nothing to do with his muteness.

And I love Name. Absolutely adore him and I will tear the world down if it meant he would start smiling again. But I think it's also important that we don't put Name on this pedestal of being some sort of perfect person incapable of mistakes. Not that he's made any mistakes. BUT as much as I love him and as much as it is not his fault, he is actively pushing the people closest to him away. He is choosing words that will hurt everyone, including himself. Again, it's in no way his fault, but I think it's important to note that the person on the receiving end of those messages is Em. Em is allowed to be hurt by them too. And when he noticed Name is being self destructive, his first instinct was to call...someone. Presumably someone he thought was in a position to help Name.

I don't think Em realizes the full extent of what Name is going through because he has no way to know. He's far away and he will only know what Name tells him. So from Em's perspective, he is super busy and exhausted all the time, and Name is lashing out about that. Because, again, Em has no way to know what Name's mother is doing to him. To Em, it's just a silly fight because he doesn't know any better. To Em, it's just Name angry that he's not available all of the time and it has nothing to do with his muteness. And Em is still trying to keep in contact. He's still trying to let Name know. He really listened to Gun's advice and he is trying. But he is not responsible for how Name responds. He can't control how upset Name is. And he can't help Name if he doesn't know what actually is wrong.

And as much as I love Name and as much as I want to rake his mother over the coals for her treatment of him, at some point, Name has to tell Em what's really bothering him. And trust me, I get it. I know how hard that is. I am also a person that tends to isolate myself and go silent when I'm going through it, but it's not the world's responsibility to fix my problems. My friends can't help if they don't know.

So while Em has most definitely fucked up, and owes Name the hugest of apologies, I think it's important to remember that he is still young and he is still human. He might be the catalyst for Name's breakdown but he's not the cause. Name's mother guilting him and pressuring him to "fix" himself when there's nothing wrong is the cause and she's the one placing all of the burden to help her son in the hands of Em, who seems like he's also struggling to keep it together.

#remember me #remember me the series #remember me bl #ooohhh sorry i kind of went off on my defense of em i didn't mean to #you are absolutely right to be angry at em #i've just seen so much em hate on my dash and it's driving me crazy #i know we all love name to bits and pieces but em doesn't deserve all of the vitriol i've seen just because he fucked up once #idk i'm also angry at him but the more em hate i see the less angry i get #he's still just a kid too and out of all of the boys he is the one expected to keep it together the most #is he not allowed to be tired and need a break just because name needs him? #it's a lot more nuanced than i think a lot of people realize and that's what's driving me insane #but like i said you are absolutely right to be angry with em #but i'm hoping i was able to provide maybe an alternate perspective for why em is doing the things he's doing

[aquilamage]

on one hand I don’t wanna be that boring bitch who keeps writing the nonhuman characters as humans but also what is the bug equivalent of “Mothiva will strip down (and/or have her hair/makeup not done) in front of Zasp without any thought, warning, or feeling to it?”

#this is completely rhetorical I'm sure if you're creative/thoughtful enough you can come up with equivalents to convey the idea #it's just way easier if they're humans #also this is whether or not they're doing the yikes 'friends with benefits' stuff. that doesn't change anything about it #will say that I have thought about for Mothiva in specific she's probably also done enough modeling etc that she's less self-conscious about #being in those states around others when it's for like. Job Stuff #but ALSO her career is such that I think that she'd have developed more of A Thing about the hair/makeup than even being dressed #(which would cause problems in her Gets Fired storyline due to lack of access to as much of that but that's diverging from the point) #point is that it's about her taking Zasp for granted in a very specific way. which probably also includes wordlessly expecting him to help #her like. get ready for shows and such #and like. there's a very specific context I guess you have to put all this in with other things that actually gets the meaning across beyond #casual comfort with each other. because it is that but it's also like. more #ugh now I feel like I'm just confusing the point #idk this was a thing I was thinking about in the context of a specific 'scene' I was imagining in my head #an aquila original

[scarletcomet]

there's such a stigma around mental illness, especially around psych wards. fuck that. i've been using and will continue to use "i was just released from the psych ward" as an excuse when something feels too overwhelming, even the most simple tasks.

#why do i have to keep my hospitalization a secret when someone with a physical illness can tell ppl without it being weird? #and someone with a physical illness wouldn't be expected to be at their best right after being discharged from the hospital #i still have a long road ahead of me before i can get to a spot where i'm ok enough to go on #i was released from the hospital exactly a week ago now and have done 5 days of php #but i honestly don't feel much different than i did before i went to the hospital #my suicidal thoughts are still pretty constant and detailed and overwhelming. but less actually coming up with plans #and feeling less like suicide is an option. but that's hard especially when it's all that i can think about #but i'm self-harming again. just for the sake of hurting myself. it's not impulsive or a way to cope. i just want to hurt myself #i can feel depression throughout my entire body. it feels so exhausted and heavy #i haven't been eating properly either because im just so fucking depressed #i often just feel nothing. numb. empty. #i don't feel hopeless though. i know that i can get better and i can get my degree next year #it's just that i need to want to feel better and get through this. and i'm idk if i do want to feel better #because that just means that i have to be alive. i dont want to be alive. i don't want to get through this. but i know that i have to.

[pepsimaxolotl]

instead of letting negative thoughts consume me I went bird watching at the river and breathed in the cold winter air. I feel so much better and have some bird sightings to report:

Some ducks

Some seagulls (my beloathed thanks to highschool being their nest)

Some european magpies

Some canadian geese

A raven (def a raven not a crow it was fuckin massive)

A european robin

A cormorant

A heron

And a sparrow! (I think? Little brown fucker that moved fast.)

#rarest things here were either the cormorant or the heron #idk which is rarer #though all the big boys were cool to see even if they only flew by quickly (the raven was like a metre away so it was woah) #also liked the robin and the geese. They were vibing :) #didnt see any swans which I was expecting since the rivers from where I'm from have a lot of them in #But geese are like their cooler less agressive cousins #swans are pretty and all and I like their babies (if you havent seen a baby swan in person youre missing out) #but im not used to seeing large water foul in any colour other than white #its all swans and european geese so canadian geese were nice to see #... i regret not making a look at all those chickens joke... #eh ill try to do this again sometime and if theyre still here ill take a photo

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

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#okay rant time lol. spoilers for 6x18 #i think i will have to say that this may have been my least favourite of all 6b episodes #haha ik i should probably give myself time to process the episode but idk i'd rather just write everything out #i just. just yesterday i was complaining about some people treating 911 like it's the buck show and today... it was the buck show? #and like! an episode being extra focused on one character is absolutely fine!! great even!! i really enjoyed 6x11!! #but in the season finale you expect each character to get a more equitable amount of focus right? #and like. even 4x14 which had a significantly less focus on eddie than one might expect had the will scene #and maddie had a bit less focus in that episode too but even she quit her job and it was obvious she was Going Through Stuff #and these slightly restricted screentimes gave jumping off points for their respective very spectacular s5 arcs #but this episode? like it wasn't that it didn't focus on other characters but it was mostly buck #and... idk man it does make sense given that he had the longest running plotlines this season but also #i just wish we had focused more on other characters as well #and like? as for buck? the couch? #i'll be honest i'm disappointed they introduced romance this season for buck at all when the season began with him choosing to be single #i really thought he wouldn't date at all for this one season at least yk? #and yeah ik we live in an amatonormative world but cmooon a guy can have his happy ending without getting together with someone #also bucktalia feels a little odd to me rn especially given the number of false starts they had #if they'd done this exact same storyline but at the beginning of next season i'd probably love it... right now tho i'm very meh over it #as in there is potential but it's like... idk mannnn why do we need him to end up with someone at allllll... i'm too aro for this shit #starting something new this close to the end of the season instead of tying off the two arcs that were already ongoing for him #was certainly a choice #aah well. at least natalia seems good for him. she came back which is the most important thing buck would want in a partner right? #still tho. i really wish we'd gotten to know more about the new henren baby than we did #i wish we'd gotten to see madney discussing plans instead of just the exact moment where they decide they want to marry on the patio #i wish we'd gotten the entire conversation that lead up to chris hyping (or snarking at) eddie to call marisol #i wish we'd gotten bathena hurriedly packing for their trip and may making fun of them as she helps #i just wish we'd gotten more of others!! #oh well. at least we still got chimney time and captain hen and cheddie working together and hen and eddie leaning on each other #you win some you lose some i guess #anyways if you actually read all the way til down here thank you for your time hehe

[astrxealis]

good morning to mikoto kayano (more like afternoon now but shh)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #listening to his songs on repeat. uhm. what else. uhm. RIGHT i've seen all the stuff for him now then (except listening to audio drama) #i saw someone say that yk ofc w did it's a bit of a negative stereotype for uh...... putting a guy like him in a thing like Milgram #which i really agree w ofc and so. i rmbr reading about did a long time ago but i did so again recently bcs ^^ !! #hmm. i saw someone say that it could be possible that his 'innocent' self (the one who's such a normal guy!) is actually the alter #formed from his guilt...............? or it could be the opposite still. tho ^^ would make it more interesting and less stereotypical #thinking about it more i don't think they'll go into that direction. but it WOULD be interesting. but i doubt that's what will go on #OHHHH I LOVE THE INSTRUMENTAL OF MIKOTO'S COVER SO MUCH. idk if there's even an instrumental out #i'm just paying attention to the instruments. i love doing that w all songs gjhebjgh my fav is amatsu kaze bcs of the bass <3 #ALL SONGS TBH. anyways OFF-TOPIC HELP UHM. yeah i love natsuki hanae's voice dude's really good at that stuff n all #hm.......... i think there's three rather than two yeah (red blue green). as in. two alters (btw i read a translation of the drama audio) #now the thing is it's not really confirmed which alter is yk! i'm guessing the 'blue' is the one 'registered' for milgram. ofc #it's hard to say which ones are the Alters though...... but if we're going off what it SEEMS to (most likely) be. green and red r d alters #hm. hm. hm. i can't believe i just woke recently and after talking w classmates/groupmates rq after being TRICKED #i'm already rambling...... wow what'd you expect from me tbh <//3 #anyways mikoto is so funny honestly. he's really this normal guy silly little guy and he gave them all nicknames #and thinks this is a reality tv show of sorts and he doesn't think they're all murderers. 'they're all normal!!' it's funny tbh #but him being wary of kotoko and kazui and shidou... i agree w. but also. i think that says. smth? #hm. anyways. it's interesting how the switch to the one who can harm es happened. hmm #i have my ideas and i think they align with what i've mostly read online! but also i don't really know. but yeah #it was really funny how he turned back ino 'i'm just a normal guy!' after that though #interesting how people voted him guilty. ig it was kinda obvious but as someone who - from all that i've heard - #did think he had did from the very start... i wonder if guilty is the best choice. if you uh get me #but even if i thought differently it's not as if a difference would have been there </3 i'm just one girl (nier reference) #hm. i think guilty works tbh. it shows more about him than innocent would have. it makes me feel quite bad for him tho #from listening to the character voice trailer for 2nd trial. he's kinda. yeah. tbh i feel bad for him in general #but also there's so much unknown about him and i am SO curious. and the most excited for his songs.... months from now <//3 #me going to listen to his preview alone on repeat so true. i am obsessed w him actually. he's so silly he's so funny and normal but also NO

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

He's right; there is an education gap between men and women in many fields. I agree with him on the trades part too. Encouraging many students to go into trades instead of traditional university education is probably the best route for many people. But I do not like the implication that women's success has somehow caused this trend for men.

He also conveniently ignored some history. The fields of education (mainly as teachers to children) and health (mainly nurses) were for a very long time some of the only jobs women could have. I feel like this is missing a lot of information that would round the picture out a bit more. Historically, mainly only Men were professors and doctors, the leaders in these professions. Only recently (the last 120 years or so) did women start being allowed into higher positions in these fields.

I'm not going to write an entire thesis in response to this video. I have some thoughts but I'm still mulling it over. I feel like this would probably be something to share with my grad class next semester for sure.

#school teacher and nurse were some of the only jobs available to women for a very long time #and are both considered 'feminine' even if they shouldn't be so men are less likely to want to work those jobs #I agree with his idea about the trades though! That is true a person can make a very good living in the trades (my brother is) #and yes there is an education gap which is concerning #but there's just a weird tone to this almost like it's blaming women's success on men's failures? which is not right #men have choices- the fathers part was troubling too #society has harsher standards for mothers than it does fathers so women are expected to take on the majority of childcare #IDK I'm looking into education debates because I'm interested but also my next class is a teaching course #so I've been saving videos for next session #and this is both interesting and has some good points #education #I'm in grad school to become an English professor to undergrads (that's the hope) #trade school should be touted as much as university because it is better for some students really truly #we have an education crisis in the school system in America currently and I think we're going to have to start making some changes soon #big think #richard reeves #youtube #mychatter #Youtube