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emlovesstates · 10 months

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NYC: I have two football teams you only have one team

Buffalo :But they're not in NY

NYC:well, we're working on getting the Jets back in Queens

Buffalo: but they're not here yet are they

NYC:at least my teams has won a Super Bowl

Buffalo :*holds breath*

NYC: what are you doing

Rochester : he's holding his breath until he hears what he wants

NYC: too bad, I'm not saying

Albany:Say it

NYC: No

Albany :* slaps New York City*

Buffalo:* holding breath, and turning blue*

Albany: just say it dammit

NYC: it would be lying

Rochester: are you trying to kill our brother?!!!

NYC: no, but I don't want to say it!!!!!

Albany : New York City you better say it or I will slap you again!!!

Syracuse * unholy screaming* buffalo is gonna die

Buffalo:* about to pass out*

NYC: OK I take it back!!!

Buffalo :* open his mouth, so he can breathe again* thank you

Albany: I'm gonna call Dad and tell him that you tried to kill Buffalo

NYC: I didn't try to kill him he was doing it to himself

Albany: yeah, but you caused him to do it

In a meeting

New York's phone starts ringing

Gov: I have déjà vu

New York:* put the phone on speaker* hello Albany what's going on?

Albany: NYC cause Buffalo to hold his breath because he said that the bills have never won a Super Bowl and he wouldn't take it back until Buffalo almost passed out

New York: oh my God, how many times do I have to tell him not to bring up the fact that the bills have never won a Super Bowl and how many times do I have to tell him not to slander the Buffalo Bills tell your brother he's grounded and make sure Buffalo's okay,take him to the hospital I'll be at home in a bit.

Albany: OK Dad, New York City you're grounded

NYC: well, fuck dad Albany slapped me!

New York: for good reason

New York: Albany sweetie. I love you. I'll be home in a bit.

Albany:okay love you too Dad

New York:*Hangs up*

Gov: your kids fighting again

New York: yep

Utah overhears the convo and says: is that really how you wanna discpline them?

New York: yeah, whats wrong with how I raise my kids

Utah: one stop swearing in front of the children Albany also needs to be grounded and New York you should get better parenting tactics

New York: wow for someone who hasn't been parenting as long as I have you sure gotten a lot to say here's an idea let me raise my kids the way I want to raise them to don't tell me not to swearing from my children three Albany doesn't need to be grounded, because I honestly think New York City deserved to be slapped and I don't blame her because slandering the bills like that how dare he?

NY : I've been doing this parenting thing since 1776. How long have you been parenting since what 2015?

Utah appalled: are you seriously doing this right now?

New York: I am seriously doing this. My parenting tactics have gotten them through a whole bunch of shit. They survive this long. I also raised in Vermont, and he turned out perfectly fine.

Utah *shakes head* :thats besides the point, this is out of line even for you

New York: no the point is that you don't tell me how to raise my kids

California:* Pulls, Utah to the Side* Just let it go you're not gonna win this

Utah:* nods *

New York: now if you excuse me I have to go take care of my kids*

Gov: and that's why you don't slender New York's parenting

Virginia :Utah I've known York for a long time and he's a relatively good parent

NH: * to Vermont, *you've been awfully quiet

Vermont:yeah because I don't like it when people who don't know anything talk like they know everything *glares at UT*

California: you try being the parent of the most famous city in the US

Texas: shut up California

California: what it's true New York City is the most famous city in America LA is second

New York teleports to the hospital in floor that Buffalo is on and here is chaotic, screaming

New York:How tf did you guys let him do this for so long

Albany: we tried to stop him

Buffalo:* who is a light purple* Hi Dad.

New York: B, what were you thinking?

Buffalo: I didn't wanna loose

New York: lose what?

Buffalo:The argument, NYC was being mean

New York: and you decided to hold your breath

B: I won didn't I

New York: buffalo, that's not the point you put yourself in harms just a Win a silly argument

Buffalo:He started it

New York: buddy, is there a better ways to win an argument without holding your breath and almost killing yourself you could've said well at least my team is in this state

New York: and I'm going to deal with your brother later

Buffalo: Dad, I know he's an ass, but I was just upset and didn't want him to win... It was just teasing that got out of hand, I promise.

New York: well, I still have to talk to him about not stopping you

NYC: am I still grounded?

New York: I guess, but Buffalo promise me you will never do something that stupid again

Buffalo: Okay Dad I won't ever do it again

NY: good New York, Junior

NYC: yes, Dad

NY: you're not grounded but why on earth did you bring up the Super Bowl? ya know that's a very sensitive topic in this household

NYC:I wanted to hurt him because I was losing

NY: that doesn't make it any better just don't do it again buffalo lots of people are going to slander the Buffalo Bills mostly patriots fans,

New York :so your uncle Mass and uncle Connie and any of the New England states, including your older brother

New York: the other people who will slander the Buffalo Bills are the Dolphins fans mostly Florida. And also Jets and Giants fans but they're both New York team technically but they're still a rival to the bills

Buffalo: OK Dad, I understand

Gov teleports to the hospital room

Gov: hey, I just wanted to make sure everyone was okay

Buffalo* who's skin is almost back to normal*: we're Okay

New York: and nobody is grounded

Gov: babe, Albany should be grounded. She slapped her brother.

New York: find Albany you're grounded for a week

Albany: that's fair

Gov: that's better

#ben brainard #welcome to the statehouse #welcome to the table #wttsh #wttt #incorrect quotes

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anti-ao3 · 2 years

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my experience with ao3

i joined it around 2015 mainly because of an otgw author i followed on tumblr, and since they were very active on ao3 i thought to myself, "why not?". otherwise it took me a whole year to actually post something there. since then i got quite a following for my undertale fics, and later other fandoms such as steven universe.

my fics are, in general, pretty well liked, sometimes even gaining hundreds of kudos. one even got 1k the other day. most nice comments i get are from ao3 users. even then, i never actually interact with them. i rarely reply to comments, nor do i comment myself; i mainly just bookmark the fics i like. i gradually got more wary of the users since the more i tried to consume fics there, the more messed up shit i would find. for instance, a lot of the ppl who read my ut fics were into fontcest and child/adult content, and it was the same thing for the other fandoms i wrote for.

maybe because of my general avoidance, i never had a traumatizing experience on ao3, like many have unfortunately gone through. i have gotten rude comments every now and then, but i was never caught up in grooming or something as such. even still, looking for fics used to be much worse because i wasn't aware of any filtering extensions, nor did ao3 have the "exclude" feature back then, so the great majority of fics i would find was basically pedo/incest/abuse/racist porn. when they did add the "exclude" feature a couple years ago, it became a little less disheartening - while it was still a pain having to exclude 10-20 tags just to get something normal -, but in general i never quite used ao3 to read many fics, only very niche concepts i'm personally fond of. i also always check if the author reads and/or writes any insidious content, so i'm very selective of what i read and who i follow.

the thing that made me create this account, though, was when i wrote a fma 03 fic last year and i included a tag that said "elricests and royeds have no rights and should rot". someone reported me to ao3 and they accused me of harassment, and hid my work until i got rid of the tag. i refused and posted a very heated rant against ao3, which finally got me suspended for months. in the meantime, ao3 began actively deleting works that included any tags that included "x shippers do not interact" or similar. basically, their excuse was "you have to let ppl ship whatever they want. yes, even if it's incest and pedophilia".

at first, when i was angry, i thought of deleting all my works, but after a while, i realized i didn't want to. the reason my account is still up is mainly sentimental. i've been on ao3 for 7 years now, and i did find some good fics and good ppl in there. my fics are very personal to me, so all the positive (and earned) feedback i got means very much to me. i have many fics there, some still ongoing, so i haven't had the courage to delete my account. i guess it's mainly because i never went through something traumatic there, so it's probably easy for me to have these feelings.

i've always been on a little corner on ao3, really. it means a lot to me when ppl find it and decide to stick in. but of course, ao3 has deeply disappointed me in a lot of ways. i'm only still using the site with a grain of salt. sometimes i wish i could let go, but it's really hard for me to do it. maybe one day i will, but for now, i just really wish i could have a safe space where people can enjoy platonic/familial content without any concern.

ao3 is a huge platform nowadays, and a lot of writers i follow and respect use it. i know taking it down is not easy, so i really wish there was a way for us to pressure ao3 to have better moderation - and actually ADD a blocking/muting feature.

i will always stand on the side of minorities, and i hope one day we get justice for all the harmful things ao3 and its users have done to us.

#lotus.txt #anti ao3 #long post

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egglands-worst · 2 years

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Well, now that I am already here I may aswell ask you about Papyrus, since you want to talk about UT characters

Like, what are your headcanons about his relationship with Sans and/or Gaster?? I remember you talking about some but I would LOVE to hear more, maybe his relationship with Undyne too, hell, even Alphys, Toriel... Papyrus is such and interesting character

OHOHOHOH BOY DO I HAVE HEADCANONS

putting this under a cut because BOY HOWDY IT'S GOTTEN LONG. you asked for this

okay so first of all. i am in love with Dadster and it is definitely a weak spot for me.

anyway. relationship with Sans. They're fantastic brothers! they care about each other a whole lot, and get along perfectly great. However, they're both allergic to communication and there's a LOT of stuff they keep from each other. It kinda strains their relationship a little bit at times (but it still doesn't change the fact that they are siblings and care about each other a whole lot). There might be times Papyrus grows so frustrated that he leaves to go tend to his puzzles in the snowy woods or train with undyne in waterfall for the whole day, or times where Sans just can't deal with things and hides away at grillbys or in his room or various other places around the underground. But they still end up coming home to each other, because they're family, family that's there in reach and they care about each other.

relationship with Gaster can get a little more,, vague. varied. etc. I have headcanons and i have other headcanons for if things were different in this way,, theres so much u can take into account or whatever. so much you can do here.

The Big One is obviously dadster. or even grampster!! I like to thing that Gaster was a loving guardian. Maybe not the Best, he was probably occupied with his job a whole lot and tended to lose track of time, and all that. But he was also very caring and loving, sweet. Papyrus loved him, and he was a sense of safety for him. He taught papyrus all about puzzles and mechanics, until papyrus was old enough to really get into things by himself, and then he taught papyrus how to get the most out of researching. Papyrus relied on him as a support a whole lot, so when Gaster was inevitably Gone, that support crumbled and he ended up having a really hard time for a hot minute. bonus hard time if you do the everyone-forgetting-gaster thing. (if you wanna, ehehn,hg, if you wanna see some stuff i've written for my askblog about papyrus right after gaster got shattered and everyone forgot about him. here.)

but if you DONT do dadster/grampster there's! theres still plenty of things you can think about! He's definitely got Gaster Blasters, so at the very least they have SOME kind of connection. But also, papyrus LOVES puzzles. he says all sorts of weirdly mysterious things sometimes, and never ever says anything about his past at all. He knew gaster somehow. Was Gaster a mentor to him, like how a lot of people headcanon with sans and alphys? Did Papyrus work at the CORE, that massive awesome shifting puzzle of an energy generator?

If he was a mentor to papyrus, I think (again, sweet old man though VERY eccentric) he just. found monsters and effectively adopted them as his interns. sans, alphys, papyrus, etc. the other gaster followers even, perhaps. Papyrus grew Very close to gaster, looked up to him a whole lot because like. gaster was THE guy. Everyone knows about the CORE and its puzzle bits and that's SUCH an incredible feat, entire ROOMS shifting and changing. And gaster was impressed by papyrus's enthusiasm, brought him under his wing. (heh. heheh). Found out about Sans and his own interests in quantum physics and took him in as an intern as well! Alphys and Papyrus ended up bonding over mechanical engineering. science buddies :> Since sans, papyrus, and Gaster were all skeletons, gaster decided to teach them how to use his gaster blaster attack. he didn't have any children of his own, so maybe it was a way to pass on his legacy in a different way than his inventions, who knows.

But, inevitably, gaster is shattered across time and space. relationships grow strained, there might be a bit of forgetting for all parties involved. it's a mess, and it messes up alphys, sans, and papyrus. None of them can really remember gaster or each other, it's confusing and upsetting and they end up not really talking to each other (sans and alphys keep in touch a little more, though)

OR you could go the papyrus is gaster route!! THATS fun. consider! Papyrus hates hotland (bad experiences?), the CORE is a Giant puzzle, papyrus is described as "forgettable" he always seems to want to be paid attention to, to be memorable, for people to acknowledge him,,, He NEver talks about his past. the association with gaster and hands, and papyrus never taking off his gloves. the gaster blasters. Besties with Flowey Somehow!! what does it mean, what does it MEAN-

ahem.

As for just Canon undertale unrelated to any of the dizzying gaster nonsense!

His relationship with undyne is honestly SO fantastic, despite the flaws. First time they meet each other papyrus is knocking on her door in the middle of the night. what an impression. BUT THEN in the morning when he Still hasn't gone away she isn't weirded out like i feel like most people would be, she's just as weird as him in a lot of ways and is impressed with his dedication! She agrees to train him.

They're!!! BESTIES. sobs. She really respects him, and his capabilities! she acknowledges that holy Crap he's really freaking strong, and they both regularly exchange banter on the phone calls and tease each other all the time. sometimes papyrus is so deadpan she doesn't realize he may or may not be joking, but it's no biggie.

but she also knows that papyrus would never, ever kill someone. He doesn't have it in him. and that's not a bad thing! far from it, really. BUT. The royal guard's purpose is to capture humans and their souls. Which would inevitably involve killing him. And she wouldn't ever want to force him to do something like that, no matter how strong of a fighter he is. Of course, She could have just told him that instead of hiding the fact that she wasn't going to let him in the guard, distracting him with different kinds of training and such, but. She can see how much he wants this, and she really really doesn't want to break his heart like that. she just can't hurt her friend that way, so she ends up procrastinating and distracting him.

and papyrus cares about her so much as well! i think it took a while for him to realize that he and undyne were actually friends, and initially when he Did realize it he was really tentative about it. But soon enough, they were complete Besties as nature intended. fish and skeleton. He definitely had a fair bit of hero worship for her at first, but that quickly went away once he saw her being completely hopeless over alphys. and various other silly things that made her so much more real as a person.

she's loud and sometimes has problems regulating her emotions and can be kinda awkward in social situations or not realize things that might be obvious and has intense obsessions and is very passionate about the things she loves! just like papyrus! she is also autistic just like him. they're buddies.

UHHHH

ALPHYS!!!! OH HOW I DESPERATELY WANT THEM TO BE BESTIES.

in the underground, he only really knows her through the various times they've both been hanging with undyne, but mostly online. They've definitely friended each other. Alphys gave him that tile puzzle, of course they know each other at least a Little bit! and papyrus commenting on her undernet posts, etc etc etc. She might think he's kinda weird, but who is she to judge. she watches anime all day and collects mew mew merch, or even makes her own. So maybe papyrus talks a little funny, is a little loud sometimes, and a bit too eager sometimes. So is Mettaton. She's just got weird friends and thats just fine.

Once they get onto the surface, they start interacting face to face a Lot more, and start bonding over puzzles and mechanical engineering and all that fun stuff. Eventually they have inventing sessions once a week where they meet up and just make random stuff. it's great. sometimes undyne comes around as emotional support and makes stuff too (explosions). whenever sans shows up all he does is be difficult but he leaves and there's like. stuff like his joke-quantumphysics-joke-quantumphysics book.

They also bond over being more than a bit socially awkward, and after a while alphys learns to be a bit more open around papyrus because it doesn't seem like it at first but he can really relate to a lot of stuff. The pressure of doing everything right, the social expectations the--

they are both autistic basically and they fire autism buddies beams at each other subconsciously until they achieve autism to autism communication.

Toriel! At first she only knows him through sans, but she can tell that sans cares about him very very much. He often talks about how smart papyrus is, about how determined he can be and just how cool he is. And once she and papyrus really start to get to know each other, he's delighted to learn about the puzzles in the ruins. he asks about their upkeep and how they work and she's happy to answer.

She's probably the one that can tell the easiest when he needs a hug or when he needs some sort of distraction or just a kind smile, out of all of his friends. instincts she has honed from being a guardian to so many people and also shes just like that. They actually have a lot of discussions about all sorts of topics, even if one or the other doesn't really know much. they're conversation buddies.

papyrus admits that he only hates sans's jokes and thats just because they're siblings, and they start making all sorts of jokes at each other. but not when sans is near. she would never upset the sanctity of sibling animosity.

After a while of knowing each other, papyrus awkwardly asks if he can just,, touch her hand, for the sake of touching her hand. he explains that her fur looks so very soft, and he's wanted to feel it ever since they met, even if it might sound really weird. but she says she understands completely, with a knowing smile, and lets him feel the softness of her fur, making sure that she doesn't think it's weird at all. After all, exploring the world around you through texture is a wonderful thing! textures are very fascinating, and it's amazing how some can be so incredibly good, but similar textures can be terrible. Papyrus absolutely lights up at this, and she's glad she can make him smile so genuinely.

Ambassador papyrus stuff,,, because i am a Sucker for that,. she teaches him a lot about being an ambassador, and various leadership stuff, and she's proud of how quickly he picks things up. there's definitely stumbling, and she can tell he's got a fair bit of social anxiety that he's hiding, but he keeps on going. She's glad she can call him her friend, and when she tells him that one day he can't help but tear up and giver her a big hug. Wowie! she cares about HIM, personally, not just what he does and his jokes and his personality, but all of him.

in conclusion this has been an unsubtle pushing my "everyone in undertale is autistic" agenda and also papyrus has a lot more friends than he might believe he does.

#undertale #papyrus #gaster #w. d. gaster #undyne #alphys #headcanons #i've put it all into colored segments for ease of parsing this entire word dump #but if it's bothering you i can make a non-colored version #(it is just easier for Me to read through so thats what i go with)#answered #BIG CHONKER #IF YOU WANT TO ADD ONTO THESE HEADCANONS WITH YOUR OWN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO DO SO #ANYONE #I LOVE SEEING THINGS #TORIEL #CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO TAG TORIEL

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ladydeznutz · 3 years

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When He Loved Me (Peter Parker x Reader)

A/N: My first fic and it's angst that came into my head around 3am. I've always wanted to write fics, but I didn't like how I wrote and I was embarrassed. First time writing for others so I tried to keep away from using just she/her pronouns, but if that's what you'd like just lemme know

I can write for other fandoms, and imma make a list of the fandoms I like bc I have so many I forget. I'll also add some other things if it interests me. Not comfortable with nsfw just yet so apologies. Anyways, enjoy the fic ig and please give me criticism if you see something wrong

idk how tumblr works with spacing and all that so hopefully this comes decent looking

Prompt: Please, don't leave me.

TW: S**cide mention

Every day had started to feel the same to you for a while now.

It started when he began missing date nights with you. He was always so excited about them, and then they were happening less and less often. You still saw him on occasion, but it felt more like "business" than anything else.

You didn't get the same giddy feeling you used to get when you'd see him; it felt like going out with him was more of a chore. You couldn't even complain to him about it even if you wanted to. Anytime you did see him long enough, he was always gone within a second, always in a rush. You never knew what he even did with himself or if he was thinking about you at all.

It definitely didn't help that you'd always catch him hanging out with his friends. You confronted Ned about it, but he was always so dismissive. Hell, you had even talked to Michelle about the whole thing. At first, she sympathized, but then it was as if a switch was flipped. You used to go to her to vent about Peter and the relationship. Now, she was practically telling you that you were overreacting.

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You felt like you were going to have a mental breakdown.

Learning about a loved one's passing is always one of the hardest things for anyone to deal with, especially when it's someone you deeply care about.

You had just received the news that your best friend had killed himself a couple of hours ago.

You didn't know how to feel.

You couldn't wrap your head around it. There was no warning.

You and he had been friends since childhood, and you knew each other so well that neither one of you could even remember a time when the other wasn't around.

Your hands shook as you picked up the phone to call Peter. Your tears finally fell as you listened to the constant ringing of the phone, and you knew he wasn't going to answer. Rage grew within you as you heard his voicemail message causing you to throw your phone across the room. It crashed into the wall and broke, but you didn't pay any mind to it as you fell to the ground and let out a wailed sob.

Why did this have to happen?

You could barely catch your breath between sobs.

Your body shook.

You didn't care about anything anymore.

You didn't care about Peter anymore.

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Weeks had passed, and Peter was exhausted.

Tracking down a gang, taking them down, and meeting another Spider-Man had just been a lot for him to take in. He was so tired, he didn't even want to think about it anymore. His back ached as he climbed through his window.

He was just so damned tired.

He stripped out of his suit, took off his web-shooters, and placed them back in his closet. Then, he took a quick shower.

His job was a bit easier to have Ned and MJ know he was Spider-Man. Now he just had to tell you.

Peter stood in the middle of the room and weighed out what would happen. He felt sorry for lying to you, and he knew that he was being distant. He just didn't have the courage to deal with any of it because he was worried about you. He couldn't lose you too.

As Peter lied down to finally get some rest, he wondered how you were doing. Karen had said you tried calling him, but he couldn't answer he had been in the middle of a stakeout.

He got up and rummaged through his book bag to get his phone, turning it on to scroll through his messages. He sat up as he realized how many he had gotten. Had something happened?

As he scrolled through, his heart broke. So many people had posted about the loss of Jay and were gossiping about why he did it. When he finally went through them all, he looked at your one missed call and gulped.

You had called him that day, and he didn't pick up.

He clicked the voice mail and listened to the message. All that he could hear were your pained sniffles, a shout, and then the line cut off.

He felt sick as he replayed the message.

Peter already felt awful about lying to you; he had to fix this. He quickly texted you, put his web-shooters back on, and was ut the window.

He knew the way to your house, so it took him no time to et there. As he was getting ready to knock on your window, he did a double-take and took a closer look.

Someone was sitting in your room; it looked like he had been waiting for you. Peter quirked an eyebrow as he looked at the guy. He was wearing a red and green jacket with shorts and sneakers. He also looked like he was wearing tights?

Suddenly, you walked into the room, so Peter backed away from the window to hide in the shadows. You seemed to be upset as you were wiping your eyes quite a bit.

"I'm sorry Miles. I didn't think I'd start crying like that," you said as you sat on your bed.

"Hey, it's okay," he replied as he stood up and moved closer to you. You sniffled as you tried to regain your composure. Peter didn't quite know how to react. Who was this? What was going on?

"I just...he..." you groan out in frustration as you grip your hair. Miles' eyes widen as he sees tears start flowing from your eyes again.

"You wanna talk about it?" he asks as he wraps an arm around your shoulders. You shrug as you shake your head.

"It's complicated, and besides, that's what our therapy's for" you chuckle dryly. Miles' eyes wander the room as he tries to think of something to do to cheer you up. "How 'bout we go out tonight?" he suggests.

"I don't like the tone of that voice" you sass as you turn to give him a look. Peter watches Miles turn around, and his eyes widen. Miles was wearing a suit, a Spider-Man suit. The same Spider-Man he saw the other week.

"Any place you wanna go to, we'll go" he adds with a cheeky smile. "Really? You're not busy?" You cross your arms as you stare him down.

"Nah, night's been quiet. Besides, I might be busy tomorrow, then you'd miss your favorite person in the world" he winks as you begin to smile. Peter's heart sank as he realized what was happening. He thwipped a web to the building across from yours and sat down on the edge of the roof. Pulling out his phone, he sent you a text.

Can we talk tomorrow?

Giggling could be heard from across the street. Peter looked up and bit his lip as you glanced at your phone and threw it on your bed. You got onto Miles' back, and you both swung away.

----

After you tried calling Peter that day, you stopped reaching out to him altogether. You decided that you'd wait to talk to him until he finally realized you weren't there. It had been about five weeks, and in those five weeks, you had gone to therapy and counseling.

You met Miles in counseling. He was sweet but seemed to get off topic a lot. When you were getting ready to leave one session, he had come up to you, put his hand on your shoulder, and let out a simple "Hey." One thing led to another, and you had both bonded over your losses. You went to Miles' uncle's funeral, and he went to Jay's funeral with you.

You were currently sitting on a swing at the playground as you waited for Peter. It was taking him forever to show, and at this point, you wanted to get this whole conversation over with.

Frowning, you looked around, wondering why he was taking so long. He should've been here by now. Maybe he decided not to come after all.

When that thought crossed your mind, you scoffed and stood up. Before you could go anywhere, however, you felt someone gently grab your hand. Looking back, you saw Peter staring at you with a small smile on his face.

"You came."

"Of course I did"

Peter pulls you towards him and wraps his arms around you. You take a deep breath as you stare off towards the slide. He pulls away when he realizes you're not hugging him back. The both of you pull away awkwardly as you look at each other.

"Peter-" "(Y/N)-" both of you speak at the same time.

"I- I have o tell you something" he starts with a stutter. You wait patiently as you motion for him to continue. "I know th-that I've been....not here for you for a while-" he cuts himself off when he hears you scoff.

"I.....I had these things, and I should've told you as soon as we started dating, and I'm sorry. I know I've been an asshole, more than that actually" you roll your eyes and shake your head as he continues.

"I just.....I love you, and I want you to know that even though I don't show it a lot" he finishes as he rubs the back of his head nervously.

The good thing about coming to this park was that there was usually no one here, and you were glad no one was here right now because boy were you fuming. "Told me about what Parker?" Your hand goes to your hip as you glare at him.

"W-Well....uhm......that guy that you talk to.......I'm like him I guess. Spider-Man." Your eyes widen when you hear the first part. "How the hell do you know I've been talking to someone?"

Peter stumbles with his words as he realizes he's been caught red-handed, "Uh...I was gonna visit yesterday, and I kinda....saw you..talking to him....." You narrow your eyes as you pick up a stick and throw it at him. He ducked before he could get hit, but you were already in his face.

"You were spying on me?!"

"I-I wasn't trying to! I was just-"

"Christ Peter!" All this time of you not being here, and now all of a sudden you just wanna show up out of nowhere because of what?! Jay?! Is that why you're finally talking to me?!" Panic stirs in Peter's eyes as he tries to come up with an excuse.

"I tried so hard to get you to talk to me, and you only wanna talk now because of that shit?! Peter, I can't do this shit with you anymore. I don't care if you're Spider-Man; what was the point of not telling me in the first place?! We live in New York for God's sake!!"

Your face is red as you frustratingly wipe away your tears with your forearm. Peter stays silent as he watches you; he can't say anything right now because you've hit the nail on the head.

"Y-You know what, fuck this. I can't do this shit any-anymore, Peter. But please tel-tell me; w-what did I do wrong? I di-did my best to keep both of us h-h-happy. Please, just tell me what I did wr-wrong." Your words are barely recognizable as you hold yourself to keep you're shaking body still.

Peter steps forward, but instead of stopping him like he thought you would, he cups your face gently as he looks into your eyes.

"(Y/N).....I'm so sorry I made you think this was all your fault. You did make me happy; you still do. I just...I've been so busy being Spider-man that I've neglected you, and I'm sorry for that. But I do still love you, (Y/N). I swear I'll stop doing everything just for you. I-I'll give up being Spider-Man."

You watch him unravel as he keeps talking. You can't bring yourself to care, however, as he spills his heart out. Too much disappointment has built up over the months.

"Pete...."

"Please......(Y/N), just give me another chance. I'll do anything, just please, don't leave me." His voice is soft and insecure as he begs you, almost quivering as he says it. It doesn't invoke any sort of feeling in you though. His sad eyes watch as you pull away from him,

"I'm sorry Peter" you whisper softly as you turn around and walk away.

He doesn't run after you or even shout.

Peter simply watches you walk away until you're out of view. The only thing he can hear is your footsteps as they fade into the distance.

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A/N: Alright so...this whole thing was based on how I could see him being Spider-Man in the beginning ig? Imo I feel like between him and Miles, the latter would be the first to tell you he's Spider-Man

And I always felt like him being away like that with no real reason would make an s/o feel like it's their fault or sumn. Like, I've always seen fics where he and the reader always make up about it, but I wanted to try the bad ending where even though he had good intentions, he's just not ready to handle being a hero, student, and partner.

#peter parker oneshot #peter parker x reader #peter parker fic #peter parker fanfiction #miles morales #miles morales x reader #marvel mcu #marvel imagine #marvel one shot #peter parker imagine

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cloaked-saurosuchus · 3 years

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Interview with a fanfic author tag

I got 'tagged' by @blaiddsumu! and by that I mean i stole it. yoink

1. Your favorite fic that you’ve written (or just one you want to give a shout out to).

From finished ones: definitely Narrators. For what an impulsive oddity it was for me (2nd person what?) and when re-reading I'd change some small things but I?? still Really like it? It feels like I actually managed to get down the emotion I wanted in a short self-contained thing which is both pretty rare for me lol.

From WIPs y'all know Two Deaths lives in my brain rent free and is arguably my fav (even though I haven't even posted my favourite parts so far and they seem so far away and I'm Suffering(tm))

2. Your favorite fic title that you’ve come up with.

uhuh I'm horrid at coming up with titles. Probably In Search Of bcs it goes along with the chapter names (In Search Of A Reason, In Search Of An Engineer etc.)? It took me an actual year after posting the first part of it to actually come up with that title though lol. or Eye Can't See You bcs it's horrible pun fhkah

3. How do you get inspiration to write?

tangent brain. whatever I'm thinking about (or reading or really ANYTHING) and fixating on will inevitably leak into each other and produce story ideas. and I need to get these ideas Out somehow or they will stew in the back of my brain forever. the entirety of Two Deaths is a massive tangent about a trying a different spin on [wait no this is probably a spoiler].

also music? lots of music. i tend to listen heavily to a single album/interpret at a time, so my brain inevitably comes up with interpretations of songs that can be spun into stories, hehe.

4. Your favorite genre/subgenre of fic to write.

Uh?? Fluff I guess? and whatever the hell would two deaths get categorized as. longform hurt/comfort?? PROBABLY? uuh. i always feel weird putting a genre to my stuff so idk though really

5. Do you have other hobbies?

I Make stuff in general! Most notably it's drawing and programming, but I also play and compose for piano/pipe organ from time to time and recently I've gotten into cross-stitch and I've been looking into 3D-printing and just sewing in general. I tend to bounce around hobbies a lot though, so the ones staying are really just. Drawing and pipe organs.

6. A fun fact about you that a lot of people may not know.

Buuh. Um. If I finish my current uni course, I'll get a Mgr. (Magister) title and not Ing. (engineer) title even though I'm studying a very much tech-field that usually gets the engineer treatment and I think that's incredibly funny. At a certain point it looked like my sis might try for an Ing. from a social field and it was hilarious. we decided we'd make "trust me I'm an engineer" jokes to maximize confusing the hell out of people

that fell through and now neither of us will be able to make trust me I'm an engineer jokes u_u

8. Favorite genre of music.

genres are a scam that I don't understand and my favourite genre is not going to really map onto the music I listen to the most so uh

swing and electro swing.

9. Your favorite singer/band.

I don't really have absolute favourites, more like. Cycling through interprets depending on how I'm feeling. The Oh Hellos, Cosmo Sheldrake and Lord Huron are evergreens I keep coming back to. And Switchfoot.

Currently also listening to a Lot of IDKHBTFM, Mother Mother and The Hoosiers.

10. And finally, how has your experience in fandom been?

Pretty chill! Met a whole bunch of cool people! It probably helped that I only really actively entered the UT fandom last year (after the initial hype died down and also like. I Know what I want to avoid now and I do just that) and my previous fandom was Ranger's Apprentice, which was small and constructive, and based on a canon that is decidedly Not drowned in 3-4 layers of meta keeping things pretty sane when it comes to weird characterizations that would irk me. (moving into ut from that was Quite A Shock, dare I say.)

Tagging: uuh y'all know I don't tag people fhajksh if you see this and write, consider yourself Tagged (and feel free to tag me bcs I wanna See)

#tag games and co #god these music questions have me like [thinks about music] [thinks about music] [thinks about music] music is so cool man-#i could talk about music for hours (although probably incomprehensibly)......... music. music good. music so very good.#EDIT DAYS LATER: guess who forgot the 'pick a character to project onto' question but have y'all seen gaster? gaster.

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