#idk. I’m just not feeling great

[albedobeheading]

oughhhhhhh

#I’m gonna put this shit down here bc idk if it’ll be upsetting to other people #*says the person who just said they want to kms like four days ago* #anyway this is about weight and eating and shit #like I don’t have an eating disorder but I just don’t always have the best relationship with food #I will indulge in whatever I want most of the time #and I love hedonism I love pleasure I love doing stuff that feels good #however. when I’m having a tough time and feeling terrible I do kinda fixate on my body #I mean I already fixate on my body just like surface level all the time #but right now I’m feeling shitty abt my weight #I haven’t gone to the gym in a week ish and I’m 5 pounds heavier than I normally am #and I know a lot of it is water retention and bc I’m on my period #so idk I have to write something but I also want to go to the gym tomorrow and Friday #I also just am so sad with my planet fitness for not being 24 hours any more bc I would usually go after work #idk. I’m just not feeling great

[becca-e-barnes]

Since it seems everyone is as horny as I am about men cumming quickly, let’s keep talking about it 🤤

The very second your lips touch Bucky’s, you feel how eager he is already. His lips are warm and plump and slick and insistent, gliding against your own with a hunger you can only hope to match.

His hands trail over your body, touching you with an urgency you’re very much enjoying. His fingertips dig in a little, making you feel like he craves you and it’s entirely dizzying.

“This isn’t fair. You get me so worked up.” He’s practically panting through kisses to your neck, nipping and biting his way to your breasts, encased in the pretty lace he picked out for you.

The thick outline of his cock is more than distracting and even in the dim bedroom light, you notice the sheen of precum that has soaked through his thin underwear.

He kisses your breasts tenderly, not removing your bra just yet. He wants to enjoy it; he wants to be able to call on the memory whenever he needs it.

“Fucking perfect.” He moans, letting his hand trail between your thighs, finding you wetter than he could’ve dreamed.

“Not yet.” You tease, removing his hand and sinking to your knees in front of him, pulling his underwear down his toned legs. His hard length bobs in front of your face, the tip wet with his own arousal and your mouth waters at the thought.

“Prove you can handle my pussy. Show me you deserve it.” Your hand wraps around the base of his cock while your tongue flicks against the tip, savouring the taste of him.

You pump your hand in time with your mouth, pausing every now and again to take as much of him as you can.

Your soft moans are nothing compared to his.

Fuck, he’s lost in the feeling of your warm, wet, sinful mouth and the thought of you swallowing his load.

“Babe please, slow down.” You hear him moan and it makes slowing down the last thing on your mind.

“Don’t you dare.” You take just a second to breathe before you’re back to stroking and sucking his faster than before. He’s not going to last. He knows it. So do you. That’s exactly what you want.

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum.” He groans, desperately trying not to but that’s hard when he’s watching your pretty face and focusing on the way your lips look wrapped around his dick.

It’s a toss up. In your mouth or over your face? It hardly matters when you have him exactly where you want him.

#becca’s thots #becca writes spice #sub!bucky #needy!bucky #idk what I’m doing on this account anymore tbh #a break from it might help #But I know I’d probably never go back to it #maybe it’s just the Sunday sads idk #I had such a lovely night last night too #I made burgers and brownies and my own icecream #And then I made cinnamon rolls for my family #everything was great #and now I feel like 💩

[againstme]

hello my fellow autistics. i’m asking you a question and giving you two options only sorry but i’m curious if this is just a me experience or just not liking my ex lmao:

i personally thought i would be all about smooching and making out but like. lips are slimy. and i never know what i’m doing sowwwy. 🫣 also my ex used to bite my lips, very hard. what the fuck was up with that

#if you vote pls reblog i wanna seeeee #smooching you on the mouth? having another person’s tongue in my mouth? #hickeys though? great 1000000%. really love giving really love receiving. #this could also be due to just not being used to doing it. but who knows tbh. #iiiiiii don’t fucking know man. i feel like unless i REALLY like you idk if i’d like it #autism #neurodivergent #blah blah yeah u get it #is this embarrassing to post? maybe. #i swear i’m not a BAD kisser it just wasn’t what it was hyped up to be for me #idk.

[dreamsb0u]

Doodle of this by @xpau-official (absolutely baller art btw)

Also I am absolutely balling rn ignore anything that looks funky my style is doing something

#i am deciding this xmas is gonna be absolutely fantastic #i decree it #man I’m feeling great at 9pm #xmas #ig #this au is sooooo silly I love it sm #i have no idea if I make sense but fuck it man I’m just a silly guy #epic sans #epictale sans #cross sans #xtale sans #xtale cross #i love how many cross tags there are unironically like yasssss boy you got so many names 😍😍😍😍😍 #uhhhhhhhh #xpaufanart #idk if that’s the right tag but it’s there now 😋 #wait no i forgot to colour cross’s x purple day ruined /j #ermmmmmm i Hope u like it bye

[clottedscream]

“it’s just a warmup sketch,” i say to myself. “i’m just gonna warm up on shading and coloring. i’m just warming up on anatomy.” my spine crackles from sitting in shrimp stance for 2 hours. “just to warm up.”

#dairydraws #epithet erased #molly blyndeff #prison of plastic #jelloapocalypse #epithet erased prison of plastic #eepop #digital painting #molly is really fun to practice drawing hair on but i do kinda feel like i’m fighting against the skin tone in her ref whenever i draw her #i don’t even necessarily feel like i favor warmer or more saturated tones in general but idk #something about the color in her ref doesn’t mesh right with my painting style #i should try painting her lit in cooler toned light that might help #i was drawing her crying and then changed my mind #but i forgot to erase the little snot bubble. so i guess molly has a runny nose #the reason i got so carried away is almost definitely because the cafe im in is playing such slow relaxing music #i usually listen to pretty upbeat stuff when i draw #and it motivates me to go fairly fast. but i was just kinda enjoying myself and going with the rhythm of the lowfi beatstrumentals #this is a great cafe. the masala chai here fucking shreds #it’s so cardamom heavy and baby do i love cardamom #you know a tea at a cafe is good if drinking the stuff leftover at the bottom gets a lil grit in ur mouth #molly deserves a warm cup of masala chai frankly

[spookednsaucy]

Something from @wynnyfryd series Trailer Park, specifically part 39

#this feels different than my regular style #and idk how to feel about it #also it takes place in my childhood home apparently in my head #didnt realize it until i drew out the background #anyway #this fic is great #you should read it #oh shit #I just saw a mistake…. #it’s too late #I’m not going back and rewriting this shit #if you see it #no you don’t #eddie munson #stranger things #steddie #eddie stranger things #stranger things art #steve harrington #eddie munson art #Spookednsaucy #steddie art

[turtleblogatlast]

Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.

Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.

Long-winded interpretation under the cut!

Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.

You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)

The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.

Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.

And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.

For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.

“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)

So, where does this leave us?

It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!

Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.

To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.

And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.

Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise don suave #rottmnt don suave #I lied I’m back to ramble because I’m just #so bad at keeping my mouth shut #or uh #not typing word vomit #anyway- yeah this is my personal interpretation #I believe Leo was legitimately mesmerized by Don Suave’s powers…in the beginning #but even the series’ creator says it was ‘at least PART of what was going on with Leo’ so #idk it’s something that’s been on my mind and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same?? #may delete this later who knowssss #pleaaaase feel free to disagree I just like to talk lol #but yeah sometimes I look around at how much media has LGBTQ+ rep in it now and it honestly makes me emotional?? #(we always always ALWAYS could use more but) #we did not have even a crumb of this as kids #but also like most of that rep is new properties #and I just was thinking about what that could mean #idk man idk #once again please don’t take this as facts it is VERY MUCH NOT #man I was looking around for good images to use and found jack all #anyway tho did you know Donnie often has bi colors around him and Leo is often dressed in the colors of the trans flag- #okay anyway back to the caves I go this comic won’t draw itself #I gotta spray myself with water any time I go to type long winded essays because they’re not great for the mental health fr

[pizzaqueen]

I've had this scene in my mind of Eddie encountering Steve’s dad at the hospital post S4 for a while but I didn't know what to do with it. I've written it up, anyway, and I'm posting it here instead of letting it languish. Maybe I'll do something else with it one day?

Just over 800 words, warnings for being in the hospital, I guess and maybe being a little angsty

The first time Eddie meets Steve’s dad, it’s at the hospital, after everything. He’s seen Steve’s dad before, of course he has, everyone knows the Harringtons. But it's always been from a distance, and Mr. Harrington has always seemed arrogant and out of touch.

Eddie waits until Wayne is asleep in the chair beside his bed to get up. Between the shit he's hooked up to and the tightly bandaged wounds, it's not easy, but he needs to do this.

He pulls back the edge of the curtain dividing his bed from Steve’s, then pauses. Steve is lying there, dark circles under his eyes, unconscious and pale and looking less like one of the heroes from Eddie's stories and more like a boy who's seen too many awful things, given too much of himself to them.

Guilt wells up beneath the cotton wool feeling of the painkillers that have been pumped into him. It’s not because it’s Eddie’s fault, but Eddie’s here, on his feet, and Steve isn’t. He will be, though. He has to be.

There’s a vague memory playing in Eddie's mind of Steve carrying him out of that fucking place, Steve's breathing labored, his arms strong but trembling. He'd barely made it out of there before he'd collapsed to the ground with Eddie still in his arms. Everything goes kind of dark after that.

Eddie’s about to step forward, say something—thank you, would be a start—even if Steve can’t hear him, but then he notices that Steve isn’t alone. There’s a man sitting by his side, in the twin of the crappy plastic chair Eddie’s uncle is hunched over in on Eddie’s side of the curtain. He’s wearing a gray sweater and he’s got a sweep of dark hair that looks like he’s been running his hands through it and his nose is the same sharp line as Steve’s.

"Jesus Christ, Steve," he says, voice small and broken, "what the hell did you get yourself into?" His hand rests by Steve’s on the stark white hospital sheet, his pinkie finger hooked over Steve’s.

Steve’s breathing is deep and steady and Mr. Harrington chews on his lip, watching Steve so intently he doesn’t seem to have noticed Eddie standing at the corner of Steve’s bed.

After a few minutes, Mr. Harrington sucks in a deep, shuddering breath and says, "C'mon, slugger, you gotta wake up before your mom gets back from terrorizing the doctors, okay? You know how much she worries…” He trails off, looks away, puts his head in his hands.

And Eddie knows he shouldn't be watching this, but he's frozen. If he ever spared a thought for Mr. Harrington, it was just to think of him as some rich asshole Eddie didn't give a shit about. He has no idea if he's a good dad or even a good person but, right now, Eddie feels bad for him. It makes him miss his own dad and then he feels guilty about that, too. Wayne is right there, sleeping by Eddie's bed because he didn't want to leave him alone and he's a better dad than Eddie's father ever was.

Mr. Harrington makes a small frustrated noise and Eddie finally comes back to himself. He goes to turn away, but, as he does, his foot catches on something and the sound is small but it's loud in the hush of the hospital room.

Steve’s dad looks over, brow furrowing.

“Sorry,” Eddie says, “I wanted to… Sorry.” He shakes his head, which makes it spin. Or maybe it’s the whole room that’s spinning. “I’m Eddie,” he says, and he doesn’t know why. “Munson.”

“The boy wanted for murder?”

“No, I— I hope not.” Eddie breathes out and it feels harder than it should be. “That wasn’t… I didn’t…” His legs feel weak and he should just turn around and go back to bed but he keeps talking: “Steve, he— Saved me.” And it’s only part of what happened and it’s more complicated than that but it’s the truth.

“He—” It looks like Steve’s dad doesn’t know what to do with that and then Eddie’s legs give way and the only thing stopping him from falling is Steve’s hospital bed. “Whoa, hey,” Steve’s dad says, pushing himself to his feet, “you should, um…”

“Dad?” Steve’s voice is croaky and confused. His unfocused gaze slowly moves from his dad to where Eddie’s slumped by his bed. “Eddie? You’re—” He coughs, then winces, and his dad forgets all about Eddie.

“Steve,” is all he says, leaning over his son, hand hovering.

And then there’s a hand at Eddie’s elbow, guiding him away. "C'mon, kiddo," Wayne says, "you shouldn't be up," and he gently helps Eddie up onto the bed.

On the other side of the curtain, there are voices—Steve’s dad, a woman that’s probably Steve’s mom, doctors—but it’s quiet on Eddie’s side. Wayne is there, awake now, watching as Eddie finally lets himself fall asleep again. At least he knows Steve’s awake now. And he’s not alone.

#steddie #Eddie munson #steve harrington’s parents #Steddie fic #I wrote this up in <an hour to get it out of my head finally #I feel like I should add a warning for Steve’s dad being not an asshole🤣 #not a great time to post but I’m going to talk myself out of it if I don’t hit post now lol #also idk if I should tag this Steddie but if I ever did anything with it it would be Steddie so… #pizzaqueenfic #seriously though this scene has been in my mind since almost just after S4

[tindove]

Man, Simon. That seasonal depression must suck for you. That’s rough buddy. No more Holly Jolly Secrets for you.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #I’m having a time #very ready for the next episode tomorrow #I love him he’s so great #also not that holly jolly secrets was a good time the first time #but now he has to be aware of the winter #and what that comes with #and that’s whole new perspective and I feel like seeing Simon in a holiday setting right? #I’d like it to be nice #but it would just have this undertone now wouldn’t it? #especially since #idk how much awareness he did have #that’s when Finn and Jake found out about him? and he became… known again? #other than by Marcy anyway. #but now winter is another reminder to everyone and himself #that he’s not that anymore #yeah. #thoughts.

[sciencelings-arts]

Naruhodo Ryu~ I forgot the rest, the one who is a defense attorney, no the one who became a lawyer for gay reasons, no not that one, the one with impossible hair and pronouns

AKA

I meant to have this done earlier to celebrate the year of the dragon whoopsies, here’s a Dragon!Naruhodo AU anyway

#I love me some dragon symbolism #and I needed an excuse to draw the Ryu’s together #it’s a family reunion (Susato’s adopted so she doesn’t get horns or anything) #Ryutaro still counts he follows the naming scheme #they’re also all trans btw #pheonix wright #ryunosuke naruhodo #naruhodo ryuichi #ryutaro naruhodo #susato mikotoba #tgaa #tgaac #the great ace attorney #ace attorney #ryuichi naruhodo #Dragon Ryu AU #idk what to call it or if I’ll draw it again I was just feeling silly #also I needed to practice side profiles and experiment with lighting yk #someday I’m going to draw Asogi he’s just too pretty #if you’ve read this far I have to admit that I haven’t even started tgaa yet lol #im just finding it so funny that phoenixs only known family is a Victorian twink who is just as silly and gay as he is #they should team up and just destroy the nearest legal system they would be unstoppable #I love the official art where they’re put right next to each other and you can see the family resemblance #and by that I mean they have the same face besides the eyebrows #I love when their sprites resemble each other #I love you awkwardly scratching their hair and clutching their head in their hands #I also want to make a full list of their similarities when it comes to their stories when I go through tgaa bc I know they mirror each other #oh you thought you bestie (partner (homosexual)) was dead for a year? that sucks I bet yelling at each other in court will fix it #you had to take a break from law and got really lonely #I bet you appear as being pretty openly emotional but hide your trauma so well too dumbass I love you

[brookheimer]

just love hearing kieran culkin talk about succession/roman because he always talks about, like, the process of it and it’s so interesting — the scenes that are kept, the scenes that are taken out, the choices writers made he didn’t agree with, the choices he made that the writers (originally) didn’t agree with…. always really hammers in not only how collaborative the show is in that input from the actors is taken very seriously but also just how much culkin cares about roman like as a character? which i mean ya know all actors do. but culkin always talks about being a fan of the show first and an actor in it second and i think that’s such a huge thing. like, the way he cares about roman isn’t just as the actor playing him, it’s as a fan of the show — he’s approaching it not just from, like, a This Is My Job angle but also from the perspective of a fan who is just genuinely invested in the character of roman and would feel frustrated if they saw him do something that didn’t feel in-line with his character! kc would hate tumblr just like he hates all social media but he would indeed kill it on here

#i specifically love it bc that’s the exact way i am as an actor. i’m not a bitch to directors bc ultimately it is their project but if my #character does something that just feels unlike them then i say something #which maybe feels obvious but idk in my experience i’m usually one of the only actors to kind of approach it from that kind of angle idk #and to each their own!!! i just get invested in my roles and it feels like a betrayal when i’m made to do something they wouldn’t do like i #just feels Wrong #and i’ve never really heard any professional tv etc actor openly talk ab doing the same thing #like it’s always just oh the directors/writers are great they give lots of lee way but i do what they say etc etc etc but kc’s answers r so #interesting and just really emphasize how like. invested he is in roman. in the same way so many of us losers are #idk not working this well i’m tired #succession #kieran culkin #and also like. how he openly admits when he was making the wrong choice and realized it eventually and it played better doing #it a different way! idk. i just feel like i never see actors talking this candidly about how episodes are actually MADE #like you never hear about the arguments offscreen about what a character should or should not do #but it's so fucking interesting like i could listen to him talk about it all day and night!!!! i wanna know more!!!

[seagull-scribbles]

ʟᴇᴛ'ꜱ ɢᴏ ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴏᴡɴ ᴏɴ ᴏᴜʀ ᴡᴀʏ ʜᴏᴍᴇ,

ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʟɪɢʜᴛꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴏɴᴇꜱ

#tmnt 2007 #casey jones #raphael hamato #rasey #thank you to everyone who voted the lyrics for the caption #I love doing little things like that it makes posting feel more like a community #also using this to try out an art signature for the first time…it’s took just over 3 years but #the turts day posts are doing very well and someone mentioned making a video so it seemed time to sign stuff #I watched 2007 last week and I bought the dvd from my friend #I really love this movie and it’s concepts and idk if it’s because they’re 20+ and I’m in my teweties #or because the Rasey content in this movie is the best canon rasey rep we have BUT I had to draw them #April definitely knows what’s up with these two but she’s not going to tell anyone #and I love what they have lmao #this was a play with lighting exorcise and I found some great music to listen to while I did it and i I #I just wish I had the energy and time to draw more of these guys fully rendered #this is meant to be when they first meet up for the night #you can decide who’s saying what and weather ralhs lifting the mask up or about to pull it down #oh oh also shout out to Helen who is a lovely catholic lady who saw me do this in public and was very supportive and understanding #also listen I know this is like the other 2007 one I did back in March but idc #there just isn’t enough of these guys I want them to f*ck on roof tops and fire escapes #and ride motorcycles obnoxiously out in public and beat people up in the most sadistic way possible #I want them to drink on Aprils couch together #I want them to offload their mental health issues to eachother in supportive healthy ways #I want them to do it in unhealthy ways where Casey shouts at ralh for making him think he was bedridden for 2 years #I want the #to talk about boring adult things and rediscover silly things they did as teens #idk i hate how aprils main role in the film is trying tk change whk casey is thats not a healthy relationship dont romanticise it

[sailforvalinor]

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#oh yeah uhhhhh I forgot to mention it buuuuut found out that Alcott Boy has a girlfriend #(and it wasn’t like stupid of me not to know she doesn’t go to our school) #I do nevertheless FEEL stupid but that kinda comes with the territory I guess #like. idk I feel like I should’ve known that a guy that great would’ve been taken? #oh well it’s fine it’s not like I had a crush on him for four years or anything hahaha. (shockingly I’ve had longer ones 😂) #anywaaaay time to binge-watch k-dramas to numb the ever-increasing certainty that I’m going to die alone 👍🏻😂 #(I’m aware I’m being melodramatic and wallow-y it’s just. I don’t get it. is being in a situation where I like someone and they like me #back such a huge ask?) #hghdhsh I’m being pathetic 😂

[squeliy]

People actually having intellectual thoughts and opinions on the album and stuff going on with it and around it never fails to make me feel stupid for just really loving it because it sounds good to me

#in all fairness I am a younger swiftie #so obviously I’m not gonna be catching every detail #I just feel stupid sometimes #annie gushes lovingly #taylor swift #I’m so uncritical of some stuff it makes me look dumb #ttpd #obviously it’s not bad to have intellectual convos that’s great but idk #the tortured poets department

[pizzaqueen]

Another scene from the widower!Steve verse (which I’m calling That Same Old Feeling and I’ll be tagging anything for it tsofverse if anyone is interested in seeing more scenes/snippets); this takes place during the second time Eddie and Steve meet after not seeing each other for about 20 years, c. 2012

Just under 700 words, rated T, vaguely vaguely suggestive because it leads up to their first time together again but cuts off before the action (sorry lol but it’s me! Haha)

It’s surreal, sitting here in Eddie’s apartment, not ten minutes from his own house. Feeling Eddie’s gaze on him, so familiar even after all these years. Shit. It’s been so long.

Steve turns, catches Eddie’s grin, returns it. That’s surreal, too. The last time they met, there weren’t so many smiles. Well, the last time before last night. It all feels like a dream.

Eddie’s grin turns fond, head resting in his hand, elbow resting on the back of the black leather couch. He reaches out and pokes Steve’s knee.

“What?”

“Nothing.” Eddie’s nose screws up. “But it’s… funny.”

“What is?”

“Just… It feels like a lifetime—no, a thousand lifetimes—since I saw you but…” Eddie looks to the side, back to Steve. He lifts a shoulder and adds, “Like no time has passed, as well.”

“Yeah, I know.” So much has happened to Steve since the last time he saw Eddie, and, in some ways, he feels like a completely different person. When he thought of Eddie, over the years, the distance between them felt so fucking huge. But the moment he saw Eddie, last night, it was like he’d only seen him yesterday. “I feel the way I always did with you.”

“Me too.”

Steve bites his lip against a smile and looks Eddie over—his dark hair is still long but it’s threaded with silver, there are deeper crinkles at his eyes, and his arms are totally covered with tattoos now. He still takes Steve’s breath away, still makes his heart beat. Should he feel this way again so soon? He’s not sure he cares. “And you’re still beautiful.”

Eddie lets out a nervous laugh, dipping his head in an oddly shy gesture. He tilts his head further to the side until he’s looking at Steve sideways. “And you’re still one smooth bastard, aren’t you?”

Steve winks and catches Eddie’s chin between his forefinger and thumb. Eddie dips his head, making Steve’s thumb slip up to his lips so he can kiss it. It’s such a small gesture, but it makes Steve’s heart leap and sends sparks skittering up his skin. He shifts his hand, cupping Eddie’s face, and leans in to kiss him softly.

When they part, Eddie has this look on his face that makes Steve’s chest squeeze tight and he can’t… So he kisses Eddie again and again, until all he’s thinking about is being as close to Eddie as possible.

Eddie lets Steve crowd him into the corner of the couch and they make out like a couple of kids until Steve pulls back and says, “You didn’t give me a tour of your apartment yet.”

“Mm?” Eddie blinks, then slowly grins. “No, I didn’t.”

“Maybe you could give me one now.” Steve kisses Eddie’s jaw, down to his neck. “Starting with the bedroom?”

Eddie laughs and pushes Steve away, getting up from the couch. “Right this way, sir,” he says, with a sweep of his hand.

Stumbling to his feet, Steve grabs Eddie’s wrist and tugs, saying, “You’re still a total dork,” and then, “Wait, which way?”

Eddie shakes his head and drags Steve to his bedroom. The pretense of a tour is lost the moment they make it through the door as they kiss and shed their clothes and giggle and Steve hasn’t felt like this in longer than he can remember.

When Eddie’s knees hit the back of the bed and he goes down, he pulls Steve with him; all the memories of this—Eddie under Steve, his thighs around him—flood Steve, almost overwhelming him. And now they get to make more memories.

With that thought, Steve kisses Eddie with everything he has, with a passion he sometimes worried he’d lost and, when they part, Eddie looks as dazed as Steve feels. “Damn.”

“Yeah.”

Eddie reaches up, pushing Steve’s hair out of his face, letting his hand linger along his cheek, his jaw.

“You good?”

Steve nods, nuzzles into Eddie’s palm. “Yeah.” He swallows. “You?”

“Yeah.” Eddie lets his hand drop to Steve’s neck. “Fuck, I missed you,” he says, voice tight with emotion.

“Yeah,” Steve says, “I missed you too,” and, when he kisses Eddie again, the years between them fall away.

#steddie #Steve x eddie #Steddie fic #Steddie fanfic #tsofverse #pizzaqueenfic #should I keep posting stuff for this??? #i have a few snippets that actually involve Steve’s kids!! who are teens btw not little kids (Sorry!) #also I’m still on a break but I just wanted to post this #i wanted to explain my absence but I feel weird doing that idk #and I’m still working on the Spotify prompts but I haven’t been in a great place and yeah #probably shouldn’t post this until I finish other stuff 🙈

[reflectismo]

November 12, 1963 – The Beatles postpone both of their performances in Portsmouth due to Paul being sick with with gastric flu.

Local doctor John Langmaid was called to the Guildhall theatre after The Beatles had finished a brief two-and-a-half-minute interview with Jeremy James for Day By Day. Shortly thereafter press officer Charles Gillet announced the shows had been cancelled.

Dr. John Langmaid’s account of that day:

“I was a family doctor in Southsea having joined my father’s previously single-handed practice in 1962. On the morning of 12 November I had been called to visit a young girl patient of mine who had had a bad attack of asthma - I think she was 12 years old, or thereabouts. She had a ticket for the Beatles concert that evening and there were floods of tears when I said that she wasn’t well enough to go. Later in the day I was told by my secretary that there had been a phone call from the Guildhall requesting me to go there as soon as possible to see one of the Beatles. When I arrived, I was taken in via a back entrance and thence upstairs to a room where Paul McCartney was lying down on what I think was a settee. The other members of the group were in the same room and I remember John Lennon pacing up and down looking rather anxious. I examined Paul and prescribed some medicine. It was quite clear to me that there was no way that the poor chap would be able to perform that evening, so the show was cancelled - much, as I imagine, to the relief of all of them! The following morning, I visited him again at the Royal Beach Hotel and found him looking and feeling much better. I remember saying that it would be OK for them to travel onward that day. I was thanked politely and then fought my way out through a barrage of press reporters in the hotel lobby. I then visited the girl I had seen the previous morning. I was greeted by a beaming child who thanked me for cancelling the Beatles’ concert and wanted to know whether the stethoscope I used to examine her was the one I had used for Paul!

— From The Beatles 1963 by Dafydd Rees (2022)

#The Beatles #Paul McCartney #John Lennon #1963 #Portsmouth #Dafydd Rees #John Langmaid #(Having Dr. Langmaid’s account of that day is just so great) #(When I tell you that I immediately went back to watch that Day by Day interview after I read this) #(John’s full concern for Paul out on display throughout the interview just hit me different) #(Now knowing how nervous and concerned he was for Paul after the interview when they were back in their rooms…) #(IDK I’m feeling something) #(Just wanted to share) #Lennon/McCartney