#if we ever get concerts again.....

[caffeinatedopossum]

I am once again missing people so much that my heart aches

#its been like 2-3 years since ive seen them and i still cant get over seeing pictures of them with their friends and im just #not there... #even pictures from the times we lived together. i just wasnt there #i wasnt there for them at all. i was living life like a ghost #i barely left my room #i could never go with them to concerts or restaurants or anything because they knew id get overwhelmed because of my autism and chronic pain #so i just... never got invited anywhere. that still happens now #makes my life feels so painfully empty sometimes #theres so much i want to do. so much i wanted to do #none of the people i miss are dead so why does it still hurt so much? i could talk to them again if i wanted #... but i really can't. i really can't #it wont be the same. we'll still never reconnect. it hurts so much my heart physically aches #i wonder if they ever think about me

[ladyimaginarium]

i swear to g-d im& not even the jealous type but jfc i HAAAAAAATE this feeling when im& just lowkey like. who's :)))))) this :))))) bitch 👀👀👀👀🔪🔪🔪🔪 :))))))

#arcana.vents #& its like. kinda irrational bc we're just friends & just vibing & we're not even together but like. i cant help it so fuck me ig lmao #like obvi he can have friends & shit & w/e so im not gonna like. tell him anything bc i dont wanna like push him away or push anything yk?? #& he said he missed me & everything but like. damn. why arent you talking to me like that. i wish you would talk to me like that. #i miss you too & i wish you would tell me you loved me more :< #im just like bitch chill he aint even your man. but he's sweet & good to me & he's deadass one of the funniest ppl ever. #& we have literally so much in common & he said i was a miracle & resilient since birth & that sb should make a documentary about me ehehe. #& we're both autistic poc4poc & have a lotta solidarity between our communities & he makes me blush & giggle & i love his curls & his smile #& the color of his skin's so pretty & he said that it'd be neat if we just. played videogames in a pillowfort #& he makes spongebob refs & he likes anime & horror & buffy & ethel cain nicole dollanganger & lana del rey & he got a nasty ass vocabulary #& he said it'd be cool if we explored abandoned places together & go to concerts together & he has the cutest name ive deadass ever heard #when nicole said ''when i see you i cant find the words to speak my cheeks go as red as two big cherries'' & ''you're so cool''... YEAH. #im gonna start fuckin chewing on the fuckin walls dude. im GNAWING at the bars of my cage. i need him to firmly grasp it. #i wanna feed him the world's sweetest strawberry!!!! #we have lost the entire fucking plot besties lmfaoooo #& i rarely if ever feel like this for cis dudes & my mind is blaring sirens like he gonna leave me im just. getting war flashbacks to. yeah #the red sirens be blaring like HE'S GONNA ABANDON ME!!!!! its so irritating #ill be goddamned if i EVER feel replaced to that degree ever again. id actually rather get hit by a car & throw myself into the sea lmao #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BPD SPLITTING I HATE YOU #this was from a few hours ago but i forgot to post it so lmao

[ski-ip]

more wheein sketchess

#wheein #mamamoo #mamamoo fanart #mamamoo f/w concert #will we ever get drummer wheein again? #old post #kpop fanart

[lesbianslovebts]

My brother fell down the stairs and sprained his ankle today. My mom had to take him to the ER on Christmas. I had a horrible migraine this morning and then after my nap, I got a sore throat. So I could have a cold, the flu, or covid, who knows. 🙃

#although our health crises happen all throughout the year they tend to happen at the times we least want them #especially holidays and birthdays #gramma has almost died a couple times on her birthday 😩 #i get sick whenever i have time scheduled off work for something fun like a concert #also finals week when i was in college #one of the worst colds ever. broke my ankle. had my gallbladder taken out. had my nose cauterized... #like. i always end up needing time to recover from the time that's supposed to be rejuvenating. #but i have to go back to work and run myself into the ground again and again and again #and my cat has skin cancer on her chin and we have to put her down soon even though she's perfectly healthy otherwise #llbtspost

[cruell-summers]

mexico city night 3 WON the surprise song race of the entire international leg. idc what happens next I can sleep peacefully every night knowing I was in the crowd when Cornelia Street/YOYOK happened. I'm never getting over this wtf

#taylor swift we forgive you for your sins (rwylm in santa clara) #IT'S JUST. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. #I HAD COMPLETELY GIVEN UP ON YOYOK #the first time she sang it i held hope bc she could repeat it #but when she sang it in LA i just knew it would be a while before she did it again #me and my uncle had an entire joke about how CORNELIA STREET was pretty much all we had left #all the time we were waiting to get in we were joking with other ppl about how we had to get cornelia street tonight #heck my grandma even prayed we would get it (i'm not even joking and the fact it worked is lowkey making me think there is a bigger force) #AND WE ACTUALLY GOT IT. AND YOYOK LIKE HOW TF DID WE GET YOYOK JUST. WHAT. #I GOT TO SCREAM 'I GAVE MY BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS FOR THIS' #IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OYT #I don't remember anything between yoyok and anti-hero bc I was crying so fucking much it was that bad #this was the best concert ever i don't think anything will top it #i'm gonna need like 9 years to process it #📀: lover #📀: midnights #🎤: taylor swift #cornelia street #you're on your own kid #yoyok #lover #midnights #taylor swift #the eras tour #the eras tour latam #swifties #cee speaks into the void #cee goes to the eras tour

[saviorkink]

x

#so its been 3 months exactly since me & my ex like... said farewell #very dramatically #i just found out he blocked me on tiktok. 2 months ago i would've been devastated but now i just feel kinda bummed out #like is this really how 4 years of best friendship & 1 year of dating fuckery ends? damn lol it wasn't even all that #but mostly i just think its extremely pathetic & childish and LOSERRRR BEHAVIORRRR . for a 100k tiktok acc #to block a 150 follower account that doesnt even follow him + doesnt interact #like ok you said you weren't in love with me?? yet you feel the need to block me 3 months after the fact #im minding my business unless he breaks first (which has been the case a few times) #its still hard to get over him but he's making it easier every day! #just yesterday i was on the train On my way! to a concert & i remembered the afternoon before my harry concert in june last night #the mutual interest if you will had been re-established like a week prior & i texted him if he wanted to hang out and he said yes (ofc) #and the tension.......... GOD I MISS THATHSFDJKFS #walking around decathlon flirting oh it was SO STUPIDDD. THE GIGGLES. personally i've never really experienced that on that level before bc #like it's the best friends to lovers thing its the fact that we both felt the energy shift very clearly and were leaning into it #but not actually doing anything about it yet #just making stupid jokes flirting giggling but acting like actually nothing is going on #when i damn well know that if any of my friends saw us that afternoon they would've side eyed us SOOOOO HAARDDDDD #not to wax poetic over the guy who fucked me over so many times but. the electric energy ..... #i'm probably not going to feel That ever again #whatever! whatever #txt

[ye-xiu]

happy sm second quarter profits release day their biggest increase in revenue came from domestic and overseas concerts whereas their profit from (digital) album sales dropped by over 10% since last year now who could have seen that coming

#tvxq specifically mentioned under the concert section too lol i know that’s where sm earned a majority of that money LOLOLLLLLL #also nct dream and reve’s europe tours are mentioned too which means we hopefully get more international tours #from other sm artists #and it is specifically mentioned that the earnings increase came from the possibility to tour again #album sales were better than last quarter bc people bought physical albums at pop up stores etc btw #which basically points towards that online (mass) buying isn’t as sustainable as giving people a general place to buy albums #truly another thing none of us could have ever seen comingggg #al.txt

[minakoainosupremacy]

I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

#this is if I’m also not dying next year… which is unlikely #don’t do what I do. don’t work full time and do school full time. especially when you’re doing a dual graduate degree program. I’m in hell #brain screams #it especially makes me sad cause when I started writing fics in the summer it made me SO happy to be writing again!!! #especially about sailor moon!!! one of my special intrests and fav shows of all time!! it makes my brain SO HAPPY!!! #as I keep telling myself - just cause I don’t make these things now doesn’t mean I can do them in the future. my ideas will still be there #I can write the fics I want and finish the YouRube videos I’ve started. I can make silly little doodles and comics and short animations #I can take my Venus plus on hikes and exploring and to wonderful places!! we can go to museums and cafes and concerts!! #we can go to the ocean and climb mountains and get lost in the forest and get muddy and wet and cold and sit by campfires and climb on logs #I can take my not fully fleshed out idea of using her and my other plushes to make a sort of live action stop motion skit video!! #I want to be creative and free and have fun and live my life and pursue my passions!! #but rn… all i do is work. work and homework and class and homework. until I’m so fatigued I can’t walk and I can’t sleep and I can’t think #to be real watching the anime and having the codename: sailor v and stars arc of the manga is like one of the few things getting me through #when I’m so tired I can’t think I have those as comforts so I’m not sitting on the couch wanting to die #I find so much comfort in existing in the space of this fictional universe and I draw strength from the characters #like sailor moon helping me get through some of the hardest fucking shit I’ve ever done in my life. and helping me remember to love myself #also lowkey helping me fight off my depression and ed and substance abuse issues #I just both get so much joy and comfort from this space but also I feel I owe it so much gratitude for kinda helping me from crumbling #I want to also contribute to this space cause it gives me joy to do so and cause i want to give back and contribute to others joy as well #like it’s a combo of I love this and want to and also as a form of gratitude i want to and also to help others experience joy I want to #but… I don’t have the time or energy now. and if my life keeps going on like this. will I ever? I’ve never let myself slow down. #idk if I ever will :( oh well

[supercantaloupe]

christ they're running us ragged over here

#as i expected tbh. #then again it would be better if we Literally Ever stuck to the fucking schedule #but nah everything runs like an hour or two over #pushing meals late skipping snacks and shaving away what minimal free/rest time we're even given #and they pretty much expect everyone to use any and all unstructured time they get to practice #instead of. like. idk. RESTING #and i get up later/go to bed earlier than most too since i skip the morning/night prayer meetings #jesus christ they're gonna work these kids to death. i have no idea how they have the energy they do #i wanna talk about me #breakfast at 8. on our feet for like five straight hours. didn't get lunch til 3:30. #we're supposed to be changed and ready for rehearsal and concert at 4:30. #just let me rest already please...

[femme-malewife]

Hm hm~

#im lost in my own memories as well as recounting what my mother has told me #i will admit i do not fully recall things from before i was 5. but i do have some vague memories. i KNOW Part of Your World was the... #well...first song i ever memorized. i remember putting the movie in my vhs player and rewinding the song . waiting. then pushing play again #to listen to the song and sing along with it. i would sing With ariel. i spent hours doing this with plenty of songs :) #until i got the hang of it and could perfectly (or as perfectly as a prek age kid can) sing it. i did this with a LOT of songs from movies #i sang disney. i sang barbie. (most specifically “free” from princess and the pauper. tbh tho i mostly sang Barbies part and not Ericas???) #but i did sing all of the other girl parts in that movie... #anyway. i joined choir come middle school. was in varsity. joined the highest choir a little 1st year in HS can join when i got into HS #something i still hold pride in bc we had tryouts for it :) i had multiple solos for choir concerts. in my 2nd year of HS i was bumped up #to Chorale choir (aka THE highest choir...intermingling boys and girls) and i even tried out for Show Choir #which you can only try out if you are in Acapella (the highest a freshman can be in) or Chorale. and only 10 to 12 girls make it in #and i made it in :) #sure by then i felt overshadowed but i had a ton of fun :) i quit choir my last two years bc... #well. i was pursuing a possible medical career via classes #but i still sing to this day. its so Relaxing and releases SO much serotonin. and tbh whats the weirdest part..? #when i try to record myself singing i get all nervous. but the moment i hold a microphone? even if im recording? my confidence shoots up #and my anxiety goes away #i love the stage. i love singing. idc if its ''cringe'' or im a Horrible person for ''loving disney'' but without disney songs? #i might not have grown into the person i am with singing as my biggest passion #so YES im going to see TLM live action in theaters. I. Dont. Care. if people think the movie sucks before they even see it #that shit SHAPED my childhood

[faeparrish]

i always feel like i���m still mentally 16-18 but then i’ll see teenagers interacting with each other and it’s suddenly clear that I’ve grown a lot since then

#me and my gf went to see mitski last night (it was an insane performance) and it felt like we were the oldest people in the crowd lmao #there was a group of girls and most of them were 15-17 but one of them was 18 and she kept talking about how she’s an adult #but she and the rest of them were screaming crying and yelling like teenagers the whole concert #which is like yeah that’s what teenagers do lmao go scream and be a little bit annoying at your favourite artists show #it was just funny to witness because i’m not around teenagers anymore like all my siblings are in their 20s now #i forgot how far away i actually am from that now and i’m so glad of it #mitski is one of my favourite artists ever and we had to plan around everything to get to that concert #and when she was performing these girls were losing their minds and me and my gf were just 👩🏻‍❤️‍👩🏻 and :-) #not that we don’t like her any less i think if i was a teenager again i would also be outwardly losing my mind too #but at this point i’m like this is a really intelligent performer who is also just a regular person and i really enjoy her art #idk it’s just a funny observation literally no shade to teenagers losing their minds at concerts bc we’ve all been there #i just remembered that i’m not that age anymore! i’ve gone from idolising her as a teen to really just appreciating her art as an adult #anyway! it was a very good concert and i am still in shock that i finally managed to get to see her perform

[ayyponine]

anyway had the absolute delight of seeing vic ruggiero & lauren napier perform yesterday in a lil local venue built next to a 1600s basilica. fucking magical out of body whisked away tapping into smth underlying and real. even got the chance to thank them both personally after so yeah it was a pretty good tuesday night out fr me

#when afterwards they got off the lil stage and started chatting w people they knew like one table over and my friend just looked on like #👀 ''this is the closest ive ever been to a verified spotify artist'' #she shook the guys hand a lil later so walking out i was like..... ''girl congrats you just shook hands w a verified spotify artist'' #i had a few lil cherry beers and caught up w my friend and she was rlly happy i suggested we go to this lil like living room style concert #we sat soooo close by as well it was insane #and afterwards miss napier complimented my single dangly sword earring saying i looked like george michael. and i complimented #her gothy getup saying she kinda reminded me of neil gaiman death (her vibes WERE like. yeah otherworldly depth) which she found interesting #and again we thanked them fr the music and fr making our night special and they wished us to get home safe (us: you too...?? eventually??) #so yeah that was life affirming. to be alive & share experiences w my friend w other people and w myself in this little corner of the world #oh also ive been house hunting and saw a pretty sweet apartment in the morning before work. i hope i stand a chance of getting it. mwah

[arthur-r]

not trying to get my hopes up but um. cello bow dropped into the crowd?? hello????

#going to a happy fits concert in the very near future i’m beyond excited about it #and as a cellist i have special feelings about the happy fits and i would literally die if i got one of calvins bows #for the record he takes terrible care of them (hard rock riffs on cello is inevitably hard on it and also. i don’t think he uses rosin #considering all the fraying. that is constantly there. these are terribly maintained bows) #however. i would scream and cry if i could have one to keep in a very special place and never ever let it go #we’re going to be standing at the front cause i’m bringing my little sister who’s very small so we’re showing up early #and we’re going to be right up as close to the front as we can get and i just think if he did it again i could catch it #(he has historically done this for at least one other concert i’ve seen it on video before from not on this tour) #anyway it’s the happy fits and daisy the great and that’s like. my two favorite currently active musicians #(phoneboy will also be there but i hardly know them so that’s less exciting) #anyway i’m going to bring a piece of paper and a sharpie for getting autographs and just very strongly hope that the stars will align for me #it will also still be incredibly cool just getting to see them play. but i would cry if any of them touch my hand or drop a cello bow or any #of the many things that instagram videos have gotten my hopes up about (somebody posted to their instagram story mina touched their hand) #in conclusion i haven’t been doing the most incredibly good mentally but i’m kind of hoping this concert will be the best day of my life #that would kind of be a sad life. but like. the point is i hope it goes well and it’s happening soon. and yeah #spent all of tonight transferring seven of the new daisy the great songs into ultimate guitar #and i got super hyperfocus about it so now i’m doing a little bit unwell. but i’m also proud of myself for figuring it all out #and anyway i’m pretty much heading to bed but i got this instagram notification (i have instagram for bands and irls) and i just can’t #so yeah. in conclusion. calvin langman do this in minneapolis challenge #and i’ll likely not be around here til tomorrow or afterward cause it’s late. but yeah #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[thurnerstorms]

this band is the only thing keeping me sane rn

#so many assignments and shit to do #but just opening spotify and listening to this album again and again makes me feel so much better #crazy to think that like 3 months ago i was buying the ticket to kalorama just because #i guess i had to since they were apart of my life #the thing is they still are and my love for them ever since the tour started has become bigger and bigger #this album has surpassed all my expectations and i can't begin to describe how good it makes me feel #i'm genuinely in love with it #i wouldn't want it any other way #this is something that didn't quite happen with tbhc #i even gave up on the tour like halfway #i have no recollection of their 2019 concerts #that era was kinda weird and i think we can all agree #still i listen to tbhc now and appreciate it soooo much more #had it on loop for the past few weeks along with the singles #this era feels right #and i fully support their artistic choices and the direction they take #will never understand people saying they want wpsiatwin shit back like come one #get over it please #it's like they're stuck in time #not only are they 16 years older we are too!!!!!! people change our music taste expands #music fucking evolves #why would they be a one trick pony #the talent of mr alexander are you kidding me why would he limit himself to that #let him express how he wants let the band do what they want if you don't like it's totally fine but don't just bash it cause it's #not your thing anymore #bro humbug owns my soul but i wouldn't fucking beg for humbug 2.0 unironically that would be so boring #each album has its meaning its sound its purpose #what am i even saying anymore lol i'm just venting #i finished a meeting now for a college assignment and yes i'm super tired and want to sleep but i just instinctively went on spotify #and started playing the album

[achingly-shy]

GOT MY DAD SIGNED UP FOR THE CONAN PRESALE CODES TOO

#geo rambles #he's a real one omg #and i'm thinking #if i'm at college #closer to the venue ost likely #then my younger sister can come visit me for the weekend and we can go to the concert! #i know this is being highly optimistic since it'll be hard to get tickets period but if this works out i won't complain about anything #ever again actually

[arabella377]

save me live music save me

#got the worst grade ive ever gotten in my life -> went to a piano concert #0.75 what the heck is wrong with me <- she cant integrate under pressure #i felt so bad about it. its worst less that the 3% of the entire grade but if this is the easiest quiz we are ever going to get then what #im so sick of calculus. shes my toxic relationship. i love her. i dont want to see her again. i think shes incredible. she makes me feel ill