#im fucking tired rn help

[layraket]

little wip

#i doubt i will finish it today #it is 9:50 pm #i was busy the whole day #im fucking tired rn help #i feel like i would sleep for a year #anyways i need to finish this at least for tomorrow #linked universe #lu legend #art wip

[starry-bi-sky]

realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards

*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #like i dont even need to traumatize you worse the pure explorative options from this aLONE is enough to feed me for a week. #like. tucks hair behind ear let me shatter you into glass pieces then glue you back together babe. i can put you back together so good. #i'm missing a few shards because some parts of you broke into such small pieces i couldn't pick them back up again so you'll be missing a #few chunks of yourself that you'll never get back but that's okay. you'll still be a resemblance of your old self :] #don't let anakin (me) listen to late night sad songs he makes angst. #hhh imagine being stuck in a house for two weeks where you can hear your parents torturing ghosts in the basement and not only that but #you're the only person who can undERSTAND the ghosts. how many times did he see his parents drag in a ghost with whatever capturing device #they made recently? iirc the thermos was like. brand new in episode one right? but gOD the trauma this alone would cause #nobody touch me im cooking rn i need to think about how this would impact danny. like obvs it would fuel into a developing obsession to #keep his parents away from ghosts and to help the dead but what *else.* i need to refine my becoming phantom ficlet i wrote back in winter #raaa #and like even after two weeks they were *still capturing ghosts* danny just wasn't in the house 24/7 at the time. #*but those two fucking weeks man* #i need to sleep on this first before i make any major moves bc i know im tired but i am having thOUGHTs

[m340700]

found an old thing

#moondrop #its 11 months old according to my malmal activity #im back to drawing them again it seems TT #they're the kind of characters u can't help but go back to whenever you're tired #or in this case; when you don't have any ideas to draw lol #drawing a character so much that its become a habit even when ure interested in smth else rn #anyway yes im drawing sun and i hate that my improvement really shows whenever i draw them >:( #sorry for the ramble but also not sorry for the ramble (i am the ruler of these tags) #might try writing a fic abt them once i get a hang of writing characters #with my whole heart; i wish for them to fucking Cry #they deserve to be able to weep the tears they haven't wept

[epikhightechnology]

Desperate times ask for desperate measures aka I find myself unsure of how I am going to pay my rent & bills this winter so I am wondering if anyone would be interested in exchanging some money for my drawing services? I don't do prints cause I don't know how lol but I can mail you the actual drawing. Here's some of the stuff I've drawn this year:

I can draw your blorbo, your bias, your mom, anyone really, just need a good reference picture. Price would depend on the picture, the size, if it's b&w or coloured and shipping (i live in the EU). If anyone's interested lmk and we'll figure it out together? 🙏🙏

#i do have a job but its fucked rn #my boss owes me nearly 3k for previous months but he cant even pay the business bills so idk when i'll see that money...... #bro has like 30eur in his business account rn i am laughing but also crying #it will get better in spring but i need to get there somehow and the job market aint great i must say so i'm trying this first #im so tired #send help #im gonna take a nap now #epikdraws

[rapidhighway]

#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro……. #she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much. #instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

ok fine im a bit pissy

I did not spend HOURS of EVERY DAY this week, most often WELL AFTER MIDNIGHT

doing things for certain types of encampment that I CANT TALK ABT ON SOCIAL MEDIA ON RISK OF SELF-INCRIMINATION

to be palestine-guilted over MEMEING ABOUT MISHA COLLINS

I did not WORK MYSELF TO EXHAUSTION

face *REDACTED* and *REDACTED*

to be told that my HAPPY LITTLE FANDOM POSTING on a site with NO FINANICAL OR ALGORITHMIC SIGNIFICANCE TO CELEBRITIES somehow undoes alllll of that.

is this a good post? no. does it apply to a lot of ppl? prolly not. could I lose followers/moots for this? yeah.

but its what I'm feeling rn.

#literally the only reason im not holding the line rn is bc im actively physically ill #gods forbid that when im miserable abt not being able to help. some fantastic tumblr bs occurs to cheer me up #misha collins #misha fucking collins #like i dont even support him! why do ppl think memes = “i support this person and all their beliefs” #also its fucked up that “palestine-guilted” is even a THING. either say shit that contributes to real information spreading/activism/etc #or gtfo the movement. like this is so unserious in the worst possible way #sorry im probably going to get so much hate on this post I'm just. tired. and angry. #i keep saying this but every time you want to make a post shaming ppl on tumblr for supporting a celeb/public figure over this issue.... #ask yourself why you aren't using that time and energy to make change in a way that matters. #yall clearly are angry for the right reasons and have really good hearts. but this aint it. ppl online arent gonna care and these actors+ #dont know you exist and likely never will.

[mondothebombo]

sorry all abt the delay in my bthb follower event. this chronic pain thing is kicking my ass and it’s hard to focus on anything more than school and work but i’ll get to it eventually i promise

#btw if anyone w chronic pain has tips on how they manage pls share if w me #i feel like i’ve exhausted my options and im running on fumes rn #also it doesn’t help that i’m on my feet 8hrs a day for work #plus class #sorry for the rambles i’m so fucking tired #mondo’s thoughts #personal

[fatcowboys]

frustrating how fucking. disabling. being disabled is rn. im tired

#migraine buddy helpfully showed me my midas score which puts me in severely disabled bc of my migraines based on their impact #which on one hand was helpful in a sense of like. hey dude. these things fuck you up and have a huge impact and jts a thing #most peiple dont have to deal with. but also was like. god yeah i sure am and also i sure am still working full time and having to just. #work thru them and cope bc i certainly cant afford to have less money #its so fuckin i furiating being disabled in the us. i cant stop working bc then ill loose my healthcare which still costs me so much money #scream. tired. #my PA for nurtec was denied bc my ins wants me to try a diff one first #which is stupid bc like one why do u get to override my dr for your budget. #why does my healthcare need to suffer because youre cheap. you arent living with this shit. #and also the alternatives they suggested are injection based which. is scary for me as someone who used to have a terrible needle phobia #jax is able to help me w them which is good bc i know i cant give myself them (maybe could do the auto injectors but idk) #but its still so. why are u like thia. also it took u so long to deny my PA and im on no preventatives rn waiting for Something #to be approved. ugh. scream.

[sevikasenby]

god it sucks so bad stupidly thinking i finally, for once in my fucking life, made a friend and my stupid brain has to ruin everything 🥲

#like i probably need to delete like half of my fucking posts #or just a lot of them at least #to keep my some of my sanity #but i just can’t bring myself to rn 😕 #it sucks so bad 😭 #like i’m so tired of trying to make friends #just for it to inevitably fail #every. fucking. time #i love being easy to forget about 🥰 #at least that’s what my brain thinks #i don’t normally vent like this on this acc but it’s kinda helping so please deal with it #i've vented enough on my other acc so im coming over here now 💀 #everything just fucking sucks rn

[instantpansies]

formal literary analysis is just fanfic for nerds

#i'm trying to write an analysis on the way the wizard of oz has been historically interpreted rn and it is going so bad #apparently i'm the only person who has ever put together just like. an actual paper (not a magazine article) comparing and contrasting #the various allegorical readings of oz?? and unfortunately i cannot analyze my own old writing #i need to pick a new topic but the paper is due tomorrow morning im so tired this is awful. im crying thinking about it #i have spent the past two days combing through oz analysis. i have not found a single source that doesn't directly just do its own analysis #i need analysis of the analysis does that make sense. and it has to be from the past five years. i am falling i am failing #i am drowning help me to breathe etc. this is torture and i cannot find a singular fucking source #JUST TELL ME ABOUT MORE THAN ONE INTERPRETATION!!! THAT IS ALL I FUCKING WANT FROM YOU JUST TELL ME THERES MULTIPLE WAYS #TO INTERPRET THIS 100 YEAR OLD BOOK. I KNOW YOU KNOW YOU MENTIONED IT IN UR INTRO #screaming crying throwing up. i gotta pick a new topic. im so tired. ignore this #anyways this post was an excuse for me to vent in tags sorry #free to rb the post if you want tho idc. i have a point u gotta admit #lit #toasty talks #wizard of oz

[ceadgearst]

im really hungry right now and im tired of places passing me off to be someone’s else’s problem when the problem is that I want some fucking food

THIS SHIT IS UNLIVABLE AND IM TIRED OF ACTING LIKE ITS FORGIVABLE

DO YOU THINK THESE RESOURCE PAPERS

PACKETS

DO YOU THINK THEY FILL MY STOMACH

DO YOU ACT LIKE THINGS ARE OKAY

BECAUSE OF WHERE I AM ALLOWS YOU TO BE WHERE YOU ARE

DO YOU SIT IN YOUR MID PRICED CAR AND CRY

BEHIND EVERY PLEASURE, EVERY ENDEAVOR

IN AMERICA SOMEONE DIES

SOMEONE CRIES FROM HUNGER

SOMEONE CRIES FOR THE MOTHER

THE OTHER THING, THE OTHERING

THE SUFFERING

THE RUMBLING IN MY GULLET

I don’t know how to mull it

and when I do get to eat, taste is a privilege

have you ever had expired generic

pair it

a hair inch of taste in a macaroni paste

powder and pasta cause they donate, don’t waste!

they just forget the case

the pace of everyone around them

The recipe called for butter and milk

I had zilch

I mixed the powder with water and got it a little hotter

I sauntered the noodles faintly stained yellow

it’s hard to be mellow when you’re such a hungry fellow

well, oh

I don’t know

#poetry #original poem #poem #poverty #im tired of fucking money #and resource places acting like they’re helping when they don’t #im just hungry and mad #and that conflict is unresolved rn

[roomy-ghosted]

if you think rand is a classic prettyboy and skinny like his reference no he's fucking not.

#im shooting you with my MIND lasers right now if you think he's classic prettyboy #this is not directed at ANYONE- this is just me being gay and loving stinky boys. #im just having thoughts about men rn is all #like. no. He has chonk. Like a lot. he barely goes out. his face is full of ACNE. he has DAD BOD from all the beer he drinks. #he is scruffy as fuck; his scalpe and hair is GREASY and he is full of dandruff. #his teeth are probably off-white because of all the drugs and also because he forgets to brush them #he is DRENCHED in bodyspray constantly. #he's also COVERED in body hair all over. #like- #Maybe in a good ending au he starts washing his hair sometimes again #he has closure from what happened to Rachel. not perfect closure but. there's some. it helps a litte #his hair is really frizzy though and puffs up like a scared cat after that shower #maybe it takes ages but he starts brushing his teeth again #jrwi #bitb #timothy rand #im gay as fuck for this man; im a homosexual. #but GOD am I tired of people thinking he's a prettyboy #REJECT. canon. Look at Rand. Listen to his actions. This man is stinky and out of order and I love him for this #he probably has large piles of takeout boxes towered in his room <33 #am I saying Rand is a bear? no. a little. he's not an otter. do bears need to have beards to be a bear? #idk but he's covered in hair and chubby and is a bear gay to me

[mejomonster]

What's so wild to me is like. Wille technically hooking up with anyone in Hillerska would've been a scandal. Simply because like. While within the student body it would've likely been fine (the same way all the girls pretty much KNOW it was really wille in the video with Simon but publically it "wasn't wille"), if his cousin August wanted to fuck up his life he could still leak info and hurt Wille. Like... Wille could've immediately gotten with Felice, and any public leaks of a video would still have led to his mom going "We need you OUT of that school and making a press statement." Or if it had leaked to the public they had the party with drugs, which is why getting Alex not to rat them out was such a big deal.

Within Hillerska, in fact, even if he'd been with a boy... if it had been say one of the inner group that knows August, most likely everyone would've kept their mouth shut. Still it would be a risk, because being with a boy means scandal blackmail they can use over Wille if they want to hurt or threaten him to do something (cough August cough). But still, in the grand scheme, Wille could've probably been fine crushing on some person like Alex along with a non disclosure agreement.

But Simon. Simon and his sister Sara in particular are the outliers of the school. Sure, it would be a scandal in PUBLIC either way if anything Wille does at school (that isn't picture perfect) gets out. But Simon is partly such a Risk, because INTERNALLY Hillerska does not approve. They don't want someone who isn't elite to talk to them, sit with them, converse with them. Sara gets off slightly easier because Felice does make an effort to see her as equal, use her own status to back up Sara (and since Felice is queen bee there's no bully pushing back on it the way August tries to push Simon back down if Wille tries to treat Simon as equal), and Sara tries hard to blend in and not stir the pot. Simon gives zero fucks about blending in, about playing nice or tolerating bullying, he is himself pure and simple. And Hillerskas elite little teens don't want to be seen mixed up with a regular teen, and in particular the guy's don't want to look chummy with a guy with zero power (is it fragile masculinity? That they all NEED TO OWN MASSIVE PROPERTY to be respected by each other? need to have tangible POWER which is why season 2 Wille has a pretty easy time pushing August down since August doesn't have any). So for the guy's and their fucked up values in particular? It hurts their ego, to see how HARD they have to try just to get a speck of respect. And then to see Wille, the PRINCE who's automatically got more than they ever will (and who they like pushing down in the hierarchy on technicalities to feel he at least has to conform to be powerful too), to see Wille talk to Simon as an equal? Absolutely unacceptable to them. Even without the crush, just being Simon's friend is so unacceptable to them. Seeing Wille value Simon more then them is like throwing all the hoops they jump through and maintain in their face (much like Wille starts breaking things for August season 2). It was always going to be a massive hurdle for Wille to want to be close to Simon. Not even to the country or the monarchy, but also at a much smaller level. In their world in their school, its not a possibility that their peers can allow to exist. At least not when Wille starts school. (Though ill say Felice and Wille have done a bit at starting to dismantle that)

#young royals #lb #rant #i am too tired and sick rn but. i think theres decinitely merit in comparing Hillerska to society at large #and the elite and the power structures they enforce and self imprison tjemselves in. in order to keep down ALL OTHER people. #and how hillerska is a micro version of that. #and why simon is Such a threat. sara? she is ultimately going the route of: attempt to conform and eventually #be accepted for following the rules and sysyem and become New Money #and we know how that goes politically... #whereas simon is like... fuck the system. im just as smart. i have the right to equality simply by existing. #i dont have to change to deserve that. i WILL punch August for using me. even tho it breaks the hierarchy. #i will let a Prince (symbolic of the TOP of the elite hierarchy) go to soccer and treat him #like an equal to me. not better. no hoops to jump through. no catering to him #politically simon represents a Lot.... #and wille highlights the points as like yhe Elite who is aware the whole system is fucked up and stupid and shouldnt exist #he benefits but he doesnt want to be like Felice and help people climb WITHIN the system. #he doesnt want the system and inequality FULL STOP. so of course he sees simon as #the best moral option. simon represents what wille considers ideal and correct.

[yuichiiusagii]

guys sorry but some rap songs are objectively good

#like... esp old school rap #but like she knows by ne-yo?? #fave song atm #im so tired why the fuck #ooc but im doing a project on marc anthony (bc my dad knew him when he lived in nyc) rn and lord jesus i dint wanna di this #help me send help #i wanna make hermitcraft ponies pLEASEEE #so done fr

[rapidhighway]

should be socially acceptable if someone doesnt get themselves a desk lamp to make them sit in the dark what the fuck man

#gotta sit here under the fucking big light #because NO ONE bought a desk lamp #so whenever any of roommates wants to sit at their desk and do something they TURN ON ALL THE LIGHTS????????/ #the erasmus living with me rn turns on literally all the lights for everything #she turns on the lights to sit and scroll tiktok for an hour #im so so tired please use a fucking desk lamp #USE WHATEVER #i literally dont want to disturb anyone so i use my phones flashlight religiously #whenever i cant use my lamp and need some light #unfortunately im the only one who gives a shit about not blasting one million lumens of light into everyone elses eyes #not helping that we sleep on bunk beds right under the fucking LAMP #i need to be carried to the ER

[the-tiniest-demigod]

oh my god it is actually so bad today

#my chest hurts help gelp me dear god #the tiktoks are NOT helping what #imma try to draw for a bit maybe it will help i dont know #if it doesnt ill try to go to sleep on this bed that im too scared to fully sit on bc of the previous post #if that doesnt work i guesss ill just die i dont fuckin know #god i just dont want to do this shit anymore #im tired of wanting to cry but being physically unable to #its almost time to take my meds though maybe that will help #it wont but hopes all i got rn #god i hope it helps my head hurts now #and i have FUCKING SCHOOL TOMMORROW #AND TYPING ON THIS SMALL ASS PHONE KEYBOARD IS PISSING ME OFF NGL #i wanna break something so bad ughhghhg #personal post im sorry it wont happen agian #i prolly sound so cringy rn #vent tw