#im glad. he deserves good things

[technicolorxsn]

I know he thinks I'm dumb and immature and too sensitive or whatever but I still miss him

#i really miss being friends with him #id try and text him again but im pretty sure people told him some really awful lies about me #which. if so it would kind of upset me that he trusted the people who ignored and excluded him for years over someone that was his best #friend but. whatever what can you do #i do still feel bad about that #he deserved better than that #it seems hes doing pretty good now though #im glad. he deserves good things #i feel bad abt everything that happened between us though that really sucked #he said it didnt even bother him but i still feel bad #i do miss what we had though #it was nice having a close friend like that #he was always there and we could talk about anything #i miss that #ok im gonna stop rambling abt the past now #its done and over and theres nothing i can do #i could reach out but im not sure if hed even want me to #especially if he was told the lie i think he was told

[c-cw-f-saeko]

happy birthday @trixibebe 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 i made you a zhao render !!! i hope you like it 🤩

#uhhhhhhhhhhh i know im late 😭 #please forgive me 😭😭😭😭 #i hope you didn't think i forgot about it (I WOULD NEVER). #it was the best time to be hit with 2000 different things at the same time LOL 😭 #but nevermind that #i hope your day was well and you enjoyed yourself !!!!!!!!!!!!! #sending lots of love and good vibes it`s well deserved 😭 #you`re so chill !!!! i`m so glad i met you !!! waaaaaaa ❤️❤️❤️ #zhao tianyou #my art #HE SHOULDNT BE COOKING WUTH HIS RINGS ON THOUGH LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHATTTTTTTT #but it looks cool so its ok #i think?

[strrwbrrryjam]

this is a dutch van der linde and micah bell hate club - dutch and micah defenders are not welcome here

#also dutch defenders does not equal dutch likers. you can still like hin as a character n stuff #i underrstand he's cool to think about and one of the most conplex characters in the game #but if you come to me and say “dutch is a good guy” or “molly deserved it” or stuff like that. immediate block fuck off #micah though. eh. like. choose better bestie #the writing for micah isnt bad per say but there are better written more complex characters than him #i mean. micah isnt complex at all. hes a bad guy who enjoys doing bad things n it all dates back into his childhood #theres nothing more to that really. bad and malicious people exist and hes one of them #sure there might be more to that but thats all the analysis i will ever do of him. he makes me so mad #also. like. i like vandermatthews. heckbi love vandermatthews because their relationship is so interesting to think about. #but i often feel that in the case of vandermatthews dutch's canon treatment of his partners including hosea gets ignored a lot #im glad they divorced. hosea deserves better. molly deserves better. susan deserves better. everyone deserves better. #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 dutch van der linde #dutch van der linde #rdr2 micah bell #micah bell #strawberry speaks

[brutal-nemesis]

Goretober III: Hematemesis (Written By Nemesis)

This one funny to me haha Castys so miserable he super loves the @coyotehusk goretober

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Ingredients: chocolate, emeto (blood!), poison, gore, noncon touching that is a little bit more intimate than normal but still unsexy

Today’s restraint of choice was a metal collar around his neck that was chained to the floor, and Castys wasn’t really a fan. Sure, it gave him more freedom of movement than the table or dangling on a hook, but it didn’t really matter when Kuro could pin all of his limbs down and still have her hands free, which was super unfair. And the chain attached to his collar was long enough to allow him to sit up, but he couldn’t stand at all, which he supposed was better than being forced to stand and not able to sit, but still. 

Right now, though, Kuro was sitting across from him, holding out what appeared to be a piece of chocolate. “Here, Castys. You deserve a little treat for being a good boy so far.”

“You know I’m, like, way older than you, right?”

“You’d be surprised,” she laughed. And hey, maybe she was pretty old, too, considering that he didn’t even know what exactly she even was.

He kind of wanted to refuse the chocolate on principle, but he was also not one to turn down a little treat, especially if it was candy. Warily, he took it, watching Kuro as he put it in his mouth, but she just watched him right back, unreadable as ever. The chocolate was good, and it’d been a long time since he’d had something sweet, or any food at all, really, so he tried to savor it, but the longer he kept it in his mouth, the more he started to taste something…odd.

He was a fucking idiot this wasn’t just chocolate of course it was laced with something-But as soon as he tried to spit it out, Kuro pounced on him, pinning his wrists next to his head, her hand covering his mouth. “Swallow, Castys. You deserve it, remember?” Castys tried to squirm free and spit what was left of the chocolate in her face, but Kuro didn’t budge, so he was forced to chew the rest of the chocolate and swallow, since it would just melt in his mouth if he kept it there. “There you go,” Kuro said, stroking his face and causing him to flinch, which of course just made her laugh. It was always so funny to everyone how much Castys hated being touched!

Finally, she got off of him, allowing Castys to sit up and scoot as far away from her as his short chain would allow. “What the fuck was in that?”

“We’ll see, won’t we?” Castys sighed in annoyance and crossed his arms, waiting for whatever stupid drug or poison she’d fed him to take effect. He felt fine at the moment, maybe a little chest pain, but…okay, it was starting to get worse. As time went on, the pain only got sharper, and he started to get nauseous, which wasn’t really unexpected but still not fun. 

Soon enough he really, really had to puke, but Kuro was still sitting there, just staring at him, and he didn’t want to give her the satisfaction. However, his stomach didn’t give a shit about Kuro, forcing him to lurch forward on his hands and knees and vomit. It sounded more…solid than he was expecting, like there were little bits of something in it, but it was hard to tell by looking at the dark puddle between his hands.

Having a Suspicion, he wiped his mouth on the back of his hand, and…yep, that was blood. “What’d you do to me?” he groaned, feeling even worse now that he’d thrown up, like the worst heartburn ever combined with an awful stomachache.

“It’s a special poison that sort of…destroys your stomach lining,” Kuro said lightly. “So your stomach acid is digesting you from the inside right now. I want to see if it’ll get fixed when you die.”

“It won’t.” Castys gave up and laid down on the cold stone floor, already feeling nauseous again. Well, this sucked ass. The acid was gonna eat through him no matter how many times he died until it…ran out? Did acid run out? Probably. Didn’t matter right now, he was gonna puke again, and he was barely able to get upright before even more blood spewed out of his mouth, splattering all over his arms and hands. 

Kuro laughed and picked up a little red chunk of something. “Ooh, I think this is part of your stomach. Looks like little pieces of you are coming up now instead of just blood clots.” Castys didn’t have the energy to reply, just lying curled up on his side as he coughed blood out of his nose and mouth, waiting for the next delivery of corroded bits from inside himself as the world spun out of focus.

He could hardly tell when he’d died or come back to life, the pain never really went away despite him having a stomach lining again since the rogue acid was no longer in his stomach. At some point Kuro tackled him so she could wrench his shirt up and look at the fun shade of purple his stomach area had turned, poking at it with interest. He’d stopped puking now and was just stuck lying there and groaning as his insides turned into soup.

It would stop eventually.

Right?

Next→

Castys Cult: @as-a-matter-of-whump​ @blackrosesandwhump​ @fanmanga1357-blog​​ @thehopelessopus​ @just-a-whumping-racoon-with-wifi​ @hearse-song​ @muddy-swamp-bitch @whumpasaurus101 @yet-another-heathen​​ @galaxywhump​ @starnight-whump​ @his-unspoken-words​ @misspelledwitch​ @suspicious-whumping-egg​ @pumpkin-spice-whump​ @painsandconfusion​ @i-can-even-burn-salad​​ @befuddled-calico-whump​ @whumpinggrounds​ @whump-queen​ @whumpedydump​

#i wrote something #castys #kuro #goretober 2023 #immortal whumpee #gore #emeto #poisoning #noncon touching #bro takes a little treat an-NOT TODAY SUFFER BITCH #kuro is functionally a spider good for her #love that she can pin him down and still have her hands free it's so real #pinning down men is just great the other day my bf was like ''i feel like when we lay down you pin me down 30% of the time'' good. #castys is wearing a collar because when i see him im like PUT THAT BOY ON A LEASH #also i wanted him to be able to be ~on all fours~ as is the theme for this and that was the best restraint for a semi-free roaming Castys #and no im just not going to leave him unrestrained what are you an idiot. he does not deserve free movement #also it's very sexy when he's tied up that's just objectively true #but yeah i just wanted to do gory poison and what's more gory than uh guy digests his own self mmmm #see you next time for kuro's art corner #so SO glad i wrote this whole thing ahead of time i was at my friend's bachelor party for the past two days and im TIRED

[synthshenanigans]

there’s one on here currently and they’re bringing back up old controversy (jashshipping)

Yeaa I saw that. They also seem to post a bunch of CJ related things, so I might make the daily photos one since there isn't one for just CJ screenshots/photos

#im gonna be a fait bit busy today so I cant make it rn #also wont be making it tomorrow as there's another strike happening then [ill make a post on that later too btw] #but i want there to be an account just of stuff from the vids or of the ones he posts on twitter #as for the shipping thing #i wish ppl wouldn't be so rude with things sometimes man #my stance is basically the same as CJs. interpret it however you'd like just don't show it to ppl who are uncomfortable with it #also don't harass or be a dick to people who do or don't ship it #im glad it died down since then at least & that there's not a bunch of hate going around #this fandom is simultaneously really nice to be in & also really draining sometimes #tho it definitely isn't the worse. ive been in a lot of ones that are a LOT worse than here. big & small #place is actually quite nice mostly. despite some things that deserve needing to be called out [like some of the ableism toward Heart] #I think things would be a lot better if people just let others do their own thing. as long as its not like. fuckin illegal or offense #or against CJs boundaries. just let others vibe out in there own corner #ain't that what we all said when TH purists complain about CJs covers? No ones forcing you to consume the content. is all good #just stay where you're comfortable! if anyone's forcing you to look at their stuff then they're the issue. and that goes both ways #again just listen to what the guy said. don't show it to people that don't like it. don't harass people who do it don't like it. an like #just be groovy #sorry for the rant this has just been on my mind for months now #im generally very neutral on things but i hate everyone just yellin at each other when there doesn't need to be yelling in the first place #again this place is hell of a lot better than other spaces ive been in #its a main reason this is the first fandom I've actively participated a shit ton in #im actually using discord & talking [a bit] to other ppl for once lol #idk man i like it here. Just don't make a reason for people not to like it here #again apologies for the rant op. this has just been on my mind for some time & i really don't want shit being blown up again #also apologize if anythins spelled wrong or sounds like nonsense #shitty keyboard + dyslexia + not being able to edit tags can make dumb results lol #moss rants #[atlas asks]

[desire-mona]

so as we all unfortunately know - josh charles is a proud zionist.

now i was never a particularly big fan of knox but that doesn't make it any less disappointing since dps is a huge comfort movie. but allow me to ease your (and my) grief by shoving an agenda in ur face:

matthew lillard as knox overstreet

hes the same age range as the rest of the boys (not gale) and he is FUCKING SILLY! can you envision it?

if you say anything about the watermark in the second img im mailing u a pipe bomb i cant find the og btw

#desire mona #media #matthew lillard for knox overstreet 1988 #he wouldve been so good im crying at this not being real #it would increase the knox fans exponentially though which i think is a bad thing actually #but whatever #so glad ppl hate knox zionists deserve no good publicity #dead poets society #knox overstreet #matthew lillard

[kkoct-ik]

im waiting for someone to repost shubbles message so i can ramble in the tags about it but i love her so much and im so thankful for everything shes done recently

#kostik speaks #really hard to get my head straight about it but shes been so wonderful and im so glad shes been able to heal #somehow it was easier for me to talk about it (in a now deleted post) before he responded (probably because of some personal traumas) #but im so glad she is safe and so grateful she is being so composed about it. she didnt have to be #i wish her 100 good things and lots of love. she deserves a wonderful life

[fckyaas]

Princess Tutu had a surprisingly great ending. It's almost cathartic for a story that's about stories and endings to stories to have a pretty good ending itself.

#princess tutu #(spoilers) still would have wanted tutu to confess her love to fakir and turn into a speck of light #but thats kinda morbid of me. its defintiely better that she gets to stay alive as her true duck self lol #and the story is in good hands now (fakir's)...i guess???? #i really enjoyed the meta themes in this anime. so much relatable stuff for a story writer #so true drosselmayer! your characters do indeed just whatever they feel like sometimes and surprise YOU with where they take the story!!! #im pretty sure fakir has a crush on tutu and he can write stories now so i suppose he could make her a girl somehow xD #altho that would be contradicting what he told her about just existing as yourself.... #overall its the perfect ending while remaining internally consistent. fakir was never meant to pick up a sword and would have died in vain #just because the story infected his town. he was always supposed to be a writer and now he is. and ahiru was always supposed to be a duck #so #AND OMG RIGHT THE ED....SO ITS HIS REFLECTION ON THE WATER RIGHT #im glad rue got her happy ending because she deserves it after all the suffering. and i even forgave mytho for being so boring for 80% #of the story. he somehow made up for it in the end #i love fakir the most tho. that character is layered and changed so much throughout the story its insaaane. a sweetheart too 🥺 #but i basically liked everybody except mytho LOL i was so frustrated in the kraehe parts because i felt like rue was being done dirty #and i was rooting for rue 😭 plus ahiru of course is so cute and lovable #anyways. super wild. loved how everything had to be dancing and the ''stage-like'' scenes and the music omfg #and the damn cat teacher lmao #As a writer princess tutu spoke to me.... I'm touched by this story; as a writer. It really does things to you on multiple levels like that #fakir can only write if its about ahiru...🥲 is this what its like to have a muse??? is this what i need to finally move #forward as a writer??? 😭😭

[labrdorite]

jealousy is high this night ough….

#— 🏹🩵 #it’s literally the stupidest thing ever bc like #i dont OWN ratio #ik that & im so glad other people like him bc he deserves it #bc like #man…. #ack…. #edit bc i gotta ramble: #it also doesnt help that i feel like #everything i create for my ships is somehow worse #or dumber #than everyone else’s #ik its NOT true #but still #ugh… #so seeing someone w way better art than me #make something SO GOOD for their ships just has me like #‘man am i even worthy of this 😭’ #(no hate to them though i just dont know how to be happy abt anything) #(my jealoust issues are completely my fault)

[waloeders]

gm

thinkin of them <3

#jupiter.speaks #❤️.dion #❤️.joshua #> if i havent said before. giant polycule mcgee here #> not mid tho shes awesome n kinda reminds me of an irl friend lmao #> i think she was confirmed to be like 16 in the book abt ff16? so always sus when ppl bring her up in relation to joshua #> i get why- they had a cute hug scene! but he is like 28 here lets be fr #> love the way they both react to getting a hug its make so emotional. joshuas so glad to receive affection n dion is so surprised #> like yes boys u do infact deserve good things. crazy that #> also just to clarify when i say i get why i mean the game is dreadful for giving out canon ages. u gotta do like in relation to joshua #> im so fr thats how i do all my timeline maths 😭 oh how old was joshua here? 10? great. wonderful. do not tell me the year of the realm #> i dont understand the calendar year in xvi and im too scared to find out. why did they only start counting ~800yrs ago

[the-kipsabian]

as much as i actually ended up enjoying the whole ppv you know what my favorite part was lmao

im just glad he was there. i would love for kip to have like an actual match, even a tag match, on a ppv instead of these rather meaningless battle royals, but also hes clearly having fun in there and making the most of it. like man i cant even be mad i smiled through the entire thing and just enjoyed it. even tho i knew he was going to lose but like. seeing that character work no matter how minimal and just him enjoying his job was just

fuck man i just enjoy watching him so much 💜💜

#im feeling all sorts of things right now i should probably try to sleep its like past 8am lmao #just. i love him and his work and im so glad hes clearly enjoying himself too #even tho he deserves so so so many better and bigger opportunities at least hes happy working where he is right now #manifesting big good things for kip (and co) for 2024. its long overdue and sorely needed #okay im gonna sleep just. this is genuinely the happiest ive been in a while. lemme ride this high for a while okay #box thoughts

[siren--squid]

PLAYED ALL OF SOULSCAPE LAST NIGHT...... RAMBLING SPOILERS IN THE TAGS...... :D

#spoilers in tags #BRO THE FUCKING MEMORY SCENES TOOK ME OUT #Chase deserves SO MUCH BETTER than that woman. Im so glad they've separated. i feel so bad for the kids holy crap #i hope they get a happy ending with their father. #Jackie my sweet boy. the dysphoria battle made me cry. those bullies are shit and beating them was SO GOOD. hero boy deserves confidence #MARVIN THAT SASSY CATBOY OH MY GOD...... his memory was such a fun segment to play but ABSOLUTELY painful otherwise #I LOVE HIS FRIEND THO OMG?? #hate those three money obsessed guys tho. would fight them again #honestly i have no words for Henriks memory. that was absolutely heartbreaking. i cried the entire time #the baby crying. the visual of his grief. how shattered and vulnerable he behaves the entire time. #the distorted bloody hospital was such a good representation of that mental state. the graves were so sad #joline showing up was the most heartbreaking and somber thing ever. doc needs a big hug #that was distressingly amazing. #Also cried over Bings memories. that was beautifully done and terribly sad #i understand deleting that memory. and the dialogue at the cabin door absolutely broke me #i knew that forest grave was important. the connections were so obvious. #ROBBIE MEMORY WAS ADORABLE THO. love that empty room scene #true anti also made me cry a little. poor kid just wanted a life. he deserves that so much #the ending did feel a little rushed though. like.. not satisfying in a way? there wasn't enough done it feels like. #the endings always feel rushed tho i guess?? just more with this one. im excited to see if anything ever has a satisfying conclusion #LOVED playing as cat Marvin. vent maze was good #i liked getting a whole map of the place as well?? but sometimes it feels like easter eggs over power plot #they're so fun and so good but also bro im here for story and the amount of things is overwhelming lmao /j #amazing plot and game overall #absolutely stunning

[florenceisfalling]

like idk. i miss seeing content from s.igne (though i respect gab wholeheartedly). i miss fanart from my favorite artists. i miss older eras of j.se at times (and yes, there were older eras, the way people pretended he Never Changed is just weird). i miss old anti designs. i miss the old fic trends. i miss having a very active fandom (though i am so happy to see the new arrivals) and i miss seeing him interact with fans the way he did on tumblr back in the day. i miss the way i used to interact with some of the blogs here before i decided to fuckin,,, wage holy war and make enemies out of them (joking, but i have seen sides to some of these people that i wish i could tear out of my memory). i miss feeling confident that i could trust the good intentions of people here and even the big man himself (not god. that makes sean sound like god. you know what i mean). i miss when some of you weren't so fucking bitter which is funny because i'm the bitterest bitch alive. idk. i don't think it's bad to miss any of these things because i'm not going to be an ass and act like it's anybody's fault. i'm not going to be bothered by gab for being happy because i'm glad she is happy, and i'm not going to get bothered by sean taking a reasonable step back from this hellsite when people were cruel to him, and i'm not going to get mad at trends for changing because that is how time works. but i do miss things and i know its cringe and parasocial and perhaps even problematic but i hate having to pretend like i never have Any feelings about the past lest i break a hypothetical rule of what is the Normal level of attachment to an online community. okay. i think i'm done now.

#one of my favorite writers left because they couldn't deal anymore and one of my favorite writers turned out to have shit views and one of #my favorite writers left because of something that was partly my fault and one of my favorite writers stopped writing because of two of the #others and one of my favorite writers hurt someone i love over and over and over and one of my favorite writers left because they were the #someone i love. two of the big names hate queer folk that don't align with their ideals and half the artists left for twitter or for dead. #the man himself left because criticism always becomes cruelty and people lie to make themselves feel good. #the editors all turned their accounts private and my favorite told me on livestream that i was good and starting somewhere but then forgot #my name. and i thought maybe i was the bitter one but then i look at some of the other people who have been here so long and wonder why #they even bother anymore because they care more about complaining with everything j.ack does than anyone who actually enjoys his stuff. #and you know i poked fun at *** for a lot of things. some deserved some not. and one of them was the fact that she compared fandom #to warfare. and yes that's still silly i don't think it's a fair comparison but i do know that she wasn't fully wrong. #when you've been here for a long time and ive Been here for a long time you start to get really used to names and faces #and the change can be like waking up to a new wallpaper in your room. not a bad one just a new one. #i don't want to pretend that this fandom is just a silly little hobby for me when lets be honest i know some of yalls personal lives a #little too dearly for that. ive loved people here ive lost people here the first person who showed me this place fucking DIED and i still #lose it sometimes over the fact that he would have loved jameson so much and we couldve been closer friends had he stayed alive a few more #years. so yeah. sorry for being fucking cringy or whatever but there have been times where i've felt like im on a sinking ship watching #everybody else row away and i refuse to go. so like. cool. cool. im glad things are good again but i never really got to process the bad #things.

[senxitive]

MY EX FROM 8 YEARS AGO WHO CAUSED ME A LOT OF TRAUMA FINALLY APOLOGIZED!!!!!!!

#like i am SHOOK #i wrote him back a pretty long message to a) say some of the things that have bothered me and lingered on for years but b) to remind him #ive always cared for him #and its TRUE #he did some of the shittiest fucking things to me and like ruined me....BUT #i SAW the good in him #not in the oh i can fix you way #like as a personality trait as human being #he had goodness in him and i always believed in him #thats partly what made the break up so hard #he was good (albeit a bad partner...he was young adult w mismatched priorities) and then he fuckin flipped after the break up #but that doesnt erase the moments of his real true self when he told me I was an angel and i deserved better and kissed my head before we #went separate ways #or when he asked me if i was going to be okay and to text him when i made it home safely #he did bad things but he was good...deep down #anyways #i am so thankful #i never thought id get an apology or see the day #im happy for myself and for him #im glad to have this start my year off

[vulcanhello]

#is this really how people from the south talk. i want to learn more i want to incorporate them into my lexicon #anyways. the other aos book was fun i thought it suffered from the 60-90% being boring but honestly it was alright as far as the writing goe #goes #kirk was annoying im sorry that’s not Kirk thats Chris Pine Kirk if ykwim #spock and uhura were cute and deserved more scenes #i got excited when they picked up the voyager probe but it was just used for an ex machina thing #still good actually! like it was my own fault i immediately thought of tmp rather than letting the story stand on its own #so taking that into account its a solid story beat. but still ill admit i was kinda hopin for more #anyways! solid story solid writing. i just dont much care for aos. glad i read this tho seeing as tho only two aos books got published #thats insane! #captain’s log #trek books #aos #mccoy scenes were some of my favs tbf i love him in aos ill admit im a karl urban fan #mccoy had a lot of fun stuff here mostly he was so excited abt the new aliens and their medical achievements that he accidentally gave them #the info they needed to take over the enterprise lol #he got drugged and when spock came up to him he was like spock! good to see you!!! and spock was like shit. somebody drugged the doctor

[mrfoox]

Okay it's offical, Jonathan is changing work and I won't see him any more 😔

#miranda talking shit #Janathan is such a special guy like... Truly dog vibes. He can be a little ... Prone to messing up simple things but its impossible to be #Mad at him. And always happy and kind. Hes helped me so much... Like i love oliver and Magnus a hecking lot but Jonathan has been a stable #Help for me and i could rely on him (even if he messed things up haha). I really wish him the best #Im kinda anxious bc hes one of my 3 favorite people who i prefer to come by to help me... Now im down to 2 again and i assume it'll #Lead to having more strangers come by to fill his place /: ive met quite a few different people obviously but none of them ive clicked with #Like oliver/magnus/Jonathan... I mean wilma was my girl but she quit last year 😔 but outside of my worries im glad for him #He deserves good things. I think hes one of the ones that actually like this job a lot. Hes been in the homecare business 80% of his work #And hes said more than once he likes it. Working with people is one of the rewarding things. I hate that its so badly paid though and #So stressful and demanding. They deserve double the pay at least. Ive only worked as a student with my mom for 3 months but even by only #Seeing that i can tell how hard the worj is. And then i hear all the shit they have to deal with its insane. People working in homecare #Especially. Like you need the social skills to deal with all kinds of people. Some are dement some are aggressive or other things. Then you #Will have to be cleaning a lot and you'll have to know how to do it decently. Making food is also common. You'll be dealing with medication #Heavy lifting is also not uncommon. Some people will need help to get up from bed and get showers. Not uncommon for their homes not to be #Installed with lifts or such to help with the lifting. Like its in my opinion one of the most demanding jobs around . And the people doing #It gets paid shit... For all thats expected and frankly demanded by the workers the pay is not even close to being fair #I know all healthcare workers have that issue basically but man homecare/older care... Those are extra unfair imo #Anyone who doesnt have respect for those workers I'll personally beat with a bat :)