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floorpancakes · 1 year

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hcs on the brain

#thinking about my trans holic hcs again #some of them are just kinda random but im VERY firmly in trans woman yuuko trans guy shizuka and nb tanuki #the shizuka hc is cause it just kinda checks out with his lore kinda like scara/ryo to an extent but also he just radiates trans energy #also rou isnt real if i manifest hard enough #yuuko is just *points at her* you think someone that serves that hard is cis????#also this is neither here nor there but i simply do not see the modern holic art where yuuko is like 5foot #this isnt relevant rly i just remembered it and got pressed again shes the tallest woman of all time dont lie to me #anyway she gives off vibes #tanuki is just 'youre a fav i relate to a lot so you get to wear the non binary hat '#but also thats a lie cause he gives MAD repressed energy repression is his entire THING #his gender expression is really fucking interesting and also just fun and even without the trauma hed probably be at least gnc #and its a KNOWN FACT that he shoves all his feelings deep down and refuses to address them or addresses them way after the fact #we've seen how he shoves down his feelings whos to say hes not pulled a me as a teenager move and shoved down feelings of gender stuff #it makes sense to me that with all his character writing and development in canon he'd be the EXACT kind of perspn to be a late bloomer #idk i was so a lot of that comes from personal experience #but this repressed mf is packed to the brim w gender #his gender is ?? and nothing and idk and drunk girl crying in bathroom to sunmi music and gay and #his gender is basically the xxx placeholder in xxxholic like its just kinda ___insert word here___#im insane but my brain is huge

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faeriescorpio · 6 months

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i love taking those Percy Jackson "Which Greek God is your Parent" quizzes but I usually get Poseidon and I need to know if I'm a basic bitch so

obviously when the quiz is like "choose: do you like the SEA or the COLD EXPANSE OF DEATH" and its super obvious I pick other options or leave the quiz but when they are actually subtle with the choices, I get fucking Poseidon

also! i did not put Hera or Hestia or Artemis as an option on purpose. Other means im expecting to see like minor gods.

#clearly since the main character is le son of poseidon. im sure we have all at some point wanted him as the quiz result #so im expecting to learn that im a basic bitch #however i really do love swimming and the ocean and shit #and there was a huge earthquake when i was born #and my mom did that whole I Lived By The Sea When I Met Your Father And Then When You Were Born I Moved Away From The Sea shit.#just like sally 😭 and i had no memory of my bio father for YEARS #so reading percy jackson was like. insane to my brain. i did meet my bio dad this year tho. at the age of 20. and he is in fact a mortal #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #zeus #poseidon #hades #apollo #demeter #pjo hoo toa #poll #polls #tumblr polls

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skunkes · 5 months

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ANYWAY i am looking thru my vbros art book right now because i love the style and need to look for inspiration for drawing and what im fully realizing is theres a weird disconnect in my brain when drawing full bodies. Like.

Im looking at a full body character drawing in the book. Right. And i see its a Human. And it looks very Normal and Good and Nicely Drawn and Stylized. I want to be able to do this. I tell my brain "ok, now imagine YOU drew this" and immediately my brain is like. Body WAY too long. Legs too long. Head small. i would resize and overwork every single one of these details until it looked horrible if i drew this.

And its literally not True of the drawing, its just how bodies are. This will happen with any drawing of any full body by any artist i enjoy. So its an issue with Me for sure. Idk why my brain is like dis or how to overcome it LOL

#i know this doesnt make sense bc its literally insane like whys my brain like dis #i wonder if this is a remnant from when id try drawing on paper as a child and had to shrink bodies to fit the page #bc id always overshoot #BUT I HAVE A WHOLE HUGE CANVAS AND CAN RESISE BODIES....idk why my brain sees regular proportions as WOAH THIS IS HUGE #is it because its harder to see face details? maybe...? i like drawing face details and that skews my full bodies a lot #heads always look 100x bigger or smaller once i add the facial features and it messes everything up #i wish i cld start over with art learning i feel im on the inescapable bad path #the more i learn the stiffer my stuff gets bc i wanna be accurate and it looks bad anyway...haaaalp halp me #ok sorry gonna keep studying the book now #talkys

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robotsafari · 1 month

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i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #re:ddd #sora #quorra #tron #riku #was trying to redesign rinzler’s helmet bc god. its. kinda fucking boring. leaning into the beast more #also teh helmets eyes are supposed to look angry when its down and sad when its up. bwaaa #i heard rinzler acts like a cat. thats soemthing to look forward to when i watch the movie. grins.#the three dots are supposed to be the classic t. btw.#theres four you just cant see the last one.#made sora look more liek his space paranoids look because he needs to retain the 80s swag.#this reads like a change log.#and my good friend quorra. idk if i’ve even posted that redesign b4.#yes im making her quote the ur my pockets eddie post #i think she needs to chew on things. maybe she should maul clu with her fucking teeth.#shes so unorthadox girl to me. do you see my vision.#also dw about riku falling or paralelling tron or anything hes fiiine.#speaking of the falling art. its old. so its inaccurate to how i draw riku now #before my brain was huge basically.#its so funny how i drew this much art for legacy like. i love tron 1982. i havent watched legacy yet but i feel like im gonna hate it.#the kh world was okay but it had a lot of potential and. uh. made me a BIT insane at the last part in sora’s story (EXPLODES)#also this post is tagged re:ddd for. reasons. dw about it.#ANYWAY GN ITS 1 AM. RUNS AT MACH SPEED.

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dimiclaudeblaigan · 3 months

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this is not fire emblem i just have to say

HOW IS IT

THAT WE GOT

CHRIS PRATT

FOR MARIO IN THE MARIO MOVIE

RIGHT? RIGHT

AND JAPAN GOT FUCKING MAMORU MIYANO IM FUCKIN LOSIN IT

#DCB Comments #us: chris pratt for real #japan: THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND THE BELOVED MAMO-CHAN #i just found this out and my brain is trying to process this at all speed and failing miserably #everyone was like can we have ACTUAL voice actors for voice acting work #AND JAPAN IS OVER HERE /ON/ THAT WITH MAMO-CHAN???#im losing my mind right now yes im only just finding this out #i hadn't even thought abt watching that movie but im this close just listen to mamo's performance as mario #what is this sorcery what is this ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT INSANE DISCONNECT #west: what if we hired chris pratt that's a good name everyone knows #japan: what if we hired mamo-chan that's a perfect name everyone knows and will love #but it's also hilarious the man with the softest fucking voice i have ever heard in my life voices mario at all #it's going to take me all week to properly integrate that into my brain's recollection ability #i know im late to the party i just saw it in passing and after the huge backlash from chris pratt voicing mario #seeing japan on the TOTALLY opposite side of ''voice actors get va roles'' spectrum is just killin me #mario must be D A M N precious to them even for that movie bc they didn't pull their hiring punches #that's a level of care in the hire we will probably never see in the west im dead gjksjhfgjs

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chrystalmaniac · 8 months

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Original pic stolen from twitter but OMG LOOK AT THEM. Once again referencing that Shu is the light and Mika the shadow, the sun and the moon, but also note how the sun character is the more "femme" presenting one i.e. presenting us with the dress side of the costume or just wearing a dress altogether. Shu also mirrors this, thereby proving that he plays the "female part" in their performances. I really hope the climax discusses gender more because I find it really fun that Happyele chose for a dynamic where the lead is the femme part with a supporting male role. Their dynamic, not only in this performance but also in general, is like Orpheus and Eurydice but with the roles reversed (and hopefully without the tragic ending...)

#ok so cross ref insanity here #if anyone has played jack jeanne #basically that dynamic where the jeanne is the lead and the jack is the vessel describes the !stars era perfectly #and now theyve slowly grown into a relation ship were they are equals with shu still leading the dance as a femme role but not dominating #the performance #enstars #valkyrie #shu itsuki #tldr i predicted this months ago so my immaculate brain and thinking skills strike once again #FUCK #NO CUZ THE WAY IM RIGHT??? I LITERALLY KNEW SHU PLAYS THE FEMALE PART IN THEIR PERFORMANCES OMG OMG OMG #my brain is so huge you wouldnt even believe #anyway #valkyrie is for the queers and the queers only

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applesandbannas747 · 11 months

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listen. i love Fence. I love Fence TOO MUCH and that has always been my problem. the biggest mistake the comic made was leaving me alone for 18 months to play with my little blorbos between Issue 12 and Volume 4 (issue/chapter 13) because I got TOO attached to my original idea and understanding of the comic, the tropes, and the characters.

Will I get over it? No. Will I shut up about it? Also probably no. Am I done bitching about it for a minute? yeah probably

#jackshit #but like #my friend + my siblings who are casual readers and not infected by my ideas also don't recognize Nick at this point in canon #and are confused by the sudden friendship in Nick and Seiji #I seriously think the novels influenced the tone of the comic and characters #because I swear there's a huge shift #the OG 12 issues feel like Pacat and his other works #the more recent volumes feel like SRB lowkey more than Pacat #maybe im insane #and i wish i could be chill about it #but i CANT because my brain is BROKEN and cannot even let me peacefully enjoy my special interest #like do i love new content? yes. so much. do I also dread it because I know imma get hurt? yes very much.#this has been my tedtalk thanks for coming #i guess ill like??? start a tag you can block??#mmm maybe #fence vent #yeah block fence vent to escape my bullshit

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hexados-on-a-string · 7 months

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spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying.#its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free.#i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#ok so like this is fine bc im not in a horrible mood rn. this is more i feel like complaining bc what im doing is kinda ridiculous #but my memory is so bad that ill probably forget if i dont write it out. but basically 4 days a week i have to come in starting at 7.30 to #water and prep for measurements. then from 9am to 6.15pm i have to nonstop take the measurements. and theyre timed so that means #i get abt 4 min to do anything before i have to take another measurement. which is abt enough time to start to focus and then have to stop #which is very fucking frustrating. and i have to manage data. coordinate for this fucking paper. and keep track of like 10 other things for #work stuff. which means that it takes me like and hour to send easy emails and they come out all fucked uo bc my brain is so shot #but on top of that i also have to fucking do the steps to get set up for my new school in the fall. and like ive officially accepted the #offer but havent talked to my new advisor since then so now theres this weird gap where im like. uh fuck do i ask for wtf im supposed to #do? bc ive been able to do things for like 2 or 3 weeks but then my life started collapsing in around me. and like there r probably #instructions somewhere but i cant fucking read lol. whatever. hes nice i just need to find the energy and words to email him and b like lol #srry everythings been insane. but bc ive waited so long i have to compulsively keep going back to check that ive been accepted like somehow #that would change while im not looking. ugh. and ive also fucked myself over housing wise bc theres a housing shortage in the city and huge #demand of housing on camus so theres a wait list for everything but i cant fucking apply bc i cant get my id to work. and fucking idk who #to call or email abt that. but idk i might have to have roomates for a semester. or my parents offered to give me some extra money for an #apartment until i can get one that doesnt put me in the red on a grad student budget. ugh. i dont wanna do either of those things #but christ do i not want roommates. ill figure something out. its just annoying and difficult from so far away #and it makes me kinda sad bc ppl r like: r u excited?! and im like. i cant really think abt that. partly bc im constanly putting out fires #in the present so theres not really space for it. partly bc i dont allow myself to b excited abt things so as not to get my hopes up.#but just after i accepted i was excited. and now it feels like im reaching my hand out toward a floating light just out of reach. like #its a nice idea but i wont believe until it happens. but that just bc ive become distorted about things #and i dont even get a weekend bc the 4 days of measurement r friday to Monday and i cant fucking relax on weekdays bc ppl r like hey can u #do this??? and there r things i can only do on weekdays so its like ok i guess ill just suffer forever thrn. and my boss texts me like: hey #did u do X? and am like: uuuuuh i fucking dont kno what day it is anymore. i dont understand y we have to meet. lets just not talk bc im #afraid ill say something worrying. so yea its pretty fucked up rn. but this stuff ends on the 24th #then ill probably not take a break and fucking finish the measurements for another project bc i just really need it to b done. i need it #all to b done so i can fucking wash my hands of this and fucking quit and move away at the start of july... or August if i decide i hate #myself that much. ugh. at least the lab has been pretty empty so no ones seen me crying lol #also thr fucking rutgers guy emailed me yesterday like: hey u want this position? and im like bitch u r like a month too late also im in #my cringe fail era. i would not survive at ur school. ugh everything is terrible. 2 or 3 more months then i csn leave this place forever #unrelated

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mementoasts · 1 year

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oouughgh i'm suffering so many ideas can't draw anything oouguugughhgh

#the void screaming #the number of times i've opened csp today; did a 5 minute sketch; closed csp; and reopened it to do another sketch dfjhfdsjkdjsdh #IM TRYING TOO HARD I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DRAW TO BE PRODUCTIVE but also i just rly wanna draw anyway grrrrrrrrr #the thing w/ being unable to perceive time is that it feels like it's been over a week since i last drew anything. which is just false LOL #so my brain is always like brrrrrrrrrr you need to do smthn you haven't done anything this month YES I HAVE BE QUIETTTTTT #brainrot these past few weeks has been insane i keep wanting to write/draw the emos (and mine)#i keep side eyeing my huge charms file sdfghjkjh yeah i could maybe draw a cheeb rn but. *looks up with eyes glowing red* i don't want to.#another funny thing about no time perception lately is that i can force myself outta art block in like. a few days #bc i'm perpetually like OKKKK YOU NEED TO DO ART IT'S ALL YOU'RE GOOD FOR CHOP CHOP YOU'VE HAD A LONG ENOUGH BREAK #i need to go outside or smthn afhjds but nowhere to go nothin to do can't drive no friends :( get me outta butt ass nowhere for a bit man!!#i wanna GO somewhere with PLACES and get my head outta the clouds for a day 😭😭😭 i hate it here sometimes #ANYWAY no im just gonna go gamin and try to not touch my tablet for the rest of the night #that's it that's my big rant in the tags thank u for reading my screams :)

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yamikawas · 1 year

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happy valentines day darlingggggggggg!!!!!!!! :3 a little late cuz i may have had to kill someone who had a gift for u but that just means i get to give it to u AND all the gifts i already got for u >:3 i love u soooooo much tobiiiii ur my only valentine and i will make sure im ur only one too no matter the cost heehee~ 💖⚡💖⚡love ya!!!

- yoomtah!!

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