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palms-upturned · 1 year

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I can’t stop thinking about the ZA/UM people who defended the company after it came out that Kurvitz and co were fired like “well disco elysium was a collaborative effort, don’t buy into auteur theory.” Like. First of all what an INCREDIBLE cop out. Second of all elysium was always a collaborative effort, it was a ttrpg setting that Kurvitz made with his friends and had been developing since they were fucking teenagers. And ZA/UM kicked out ALL of those original members who created it together so like. Lol.

But also it just makes me sad bc it’s true that I think the amount of time it took and the collaborative nature of the work influenced disco a lot. There’s such a stark difference between the tone of disco vs the tone of Kurvitz’s novel. Shivers saying “you can keep me on this earth. Stay vigilant. I love you.” The phasmid begging you to please not blink and let the world go. The way that the story had to shrink and shrink for the format until it was localized in Martinaise and the way that zooming in on this small portion of the world they created, all these small people with small lives, made it all the more life affirming bc it turns out to be the small things that make life worth living at all. Egg saying “lonely as I am, I’m not afraid.” The phasmid saying “you are the miracle.” The swallow in the church being kept at bay by a dance club. Like… over all those years of effort and collaborating with other people I think maybe it seems like the og ZA/UM members started feeling a different type of way about things, just a little. Only for all that work and all of those experiences to get stolen out from under them like some kind of cruel joke. It’s sad and infuriating.

Like. Yeah, it’s a collaboration. These guys invited other people into their childhood sandbox to play around with them, and then even invited the whole world in. And then they got kicked out of the sandbox and are no longer allowed to be part of this collaboration. It’s fucked up. Fuck ZA/UM

#disco elysium #meg talks #im just feeling really sad today.

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napping-sapphic · 7 months

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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

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yvesolade · 10 days

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#i had an awful time during my undergraduate degree #i was so depressed and so so unhappy #but went back for a five year reunion today #and I didn't really want to go but i went and i shouldn't have #someone was racist to my parents #and i spent the whole day surrounded by people who loved it there #and how do you be like . i don't feel safe here I never belonged here the psychological consequences of the years I spent here #will haunt me for the rest of my life?#and i can't even tell anyone any of this #because the friends i know from undergrad will be like :/ because they loved it and the fact i had a bad time makes them feel guilty #and the friend i have from outside is like #always anti ****** university #in a way that isn't helpful and doesn't make me feel good #so I'm just like. sad #i feel like im being punished for forgetting what it's like there

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moeblob · 1 month

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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dandelion-roots · 1 month

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had some (extensive) feelings about maya and mia so I made an animatic about it!

#mia fey #maya fey #aa #ace attorney #phoenix wright ace attorney #my beppies...#ace attorney animatic #had so much fun making it and by fun i mean i felt really sad the entire time #but in a good way #finally finished all the drawings earlier today and just finished the closed captions a couple minutes ago #so i can post it here!#looking forward to inking some of the comics i sketched ages ago now that im done w this and can be Normal again #or be Abnormal about something else #if i find another song that i feel suits the chars i might make a happier animatic #two for two are sad ones jjjkd #Youtube

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kaidabakugou · 3 months

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the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!?#so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :(#anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺#and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

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tsukana · 4 months

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i think im really sad that im feeling bitter abt this bc like. despite the fact that ppl are saying oh yeah its purgatory its never fair. i have a bad taste in my mouth that for once it feels like its not bc of player action its partially to do with weird ruling by the admins on the event (re: the essentially. disregarding of the event points on elimination which i still kinda dont get why they couldnt just retally the points since they had the numbers?)

#tsu talks #qsmp crit #qsmp discourse #i mean yeah i was rooting for sneeg but also. i hate that he's blaming himself that if he hadnt spoken up theyd have lost anyway. bc it #wasnt his fault?#and not trying to hate on the admins at all or anything. but despite saying the wrng names #recalculating the scores and just Saying what the score makeup was wouldve solved everything without making streamers need to stream beyond #what they expected on a day that shouldve been primarily abt the egg wars event?#anwyyas shutting up now. this isnt meant to be a super neg or something post this is mostly just me reflecting on the way i feel abt today #and the way today went and the way the event went today. i still had a good time so far #and like i said. i feel sad that i feel this way bc i dont WANT to feel this way. btu like. what can i do abt that yknow. thats just how im #feeling. i really wanna enjoy the event but honestly now that sneegs out he was rly the only purg2 pov i was watching lmao. id watch #etoiles but i cant read translations while im listening at work </3

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kohakhearts · 28 days

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theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :(#anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

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malaky-nightm4r3 · 1 month

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Gin/FSX - @xxtha-blog

Lust - AU Community

Sorry, I sneezed Been extremely depressed and these two got caught in the crossfire. Hard to explain what's going on here if you don't know a, FSX, OR b, how I write Lust so uh, go read FSX and maybe talk to me about Lust on the side

I made someone cry (?) with this (I'm also sad) Its if they never met because Lust never left UnderLust in a specific scenario/set of shippy events uncanon to Gin's story so Gin's stuck in FSX like he's supposed to be (this was made sometime around page 189's publishing so) and Lust is...

Gin got the most attention work-wise because I had to edit out Lust's hand painstakingly (in order to flip the image seamlessly I had to copy the WHOLE canvas so no more individual layers) so he got lots of attention and care put into him to make sure he doesn't look janky. I also for some reason completely changed the pose his hand was in and made more work for myself and it ended up looking janky anyways but....its upside down who's looking? (me)

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the-kipsabian · 4 months

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if i got a redo of the kip/oc feud this year im not kidding that would fix a huge part of me

the bad blood existing is still so obviously there, kip especially has never let go after the loss at battle of the belts. its been mostly off screen but its so obvious, from constantly taunting oc but also giving him his flowers and just playing the mind games on twitter by talking about his title matches and dont make me remind you about "love you long time, sweetest clementine" thing

he needs the closure. i need that feud. everyone wants to see oc in a worthy rivalry instead of random title defenses. we all fucking win, just

they could tell another such an amazing story if they were just given the chance to do so

#i have so many feelings and i dont know where to put them #again i dont want to fantasy book myself into a corner where im just sad when i dont get what i want but. yeah #this would fix me. so fucking badly. i know its ridiculous but fuck man its true #theres history there already. they dont have to continue where they left off but there are building blocks to elaborate from #im just. yeah. its hard to explain im really bad with words today but please. gimme this #box thoughts #sorry im emotional

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heyitsmemel · 3 months

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...... mehhhh personal complaining in the tags (tw illness)

#bro I'm on day 17 of a crazy severe mystery illness and I'm so fucking gagged #like my lungs have hurt for over two weeks I can barely walk more than five minutes before getting exerted #and can't have a conversation without wheezing #tumblr have you ever been so sick or incapacitated that it causes you to rethink everything #like i have been so severely sick that it's inspired me to drastically change my entire life #i feel like my body and a large part of me has died and i've metamorphosed jesus i'm a phoenix bitch rising from the ashes #yea is this normal? have other people experienced this?#like an illness so severe that it just makes you go ok ok #this isn't working #the old ways aren't working #the universe really knocks you so far on your ass sometimes to bring you where you need to go next #but god fucking damn #i just want to breathe and be able to walk down the god damn street #ok rant over #hang in there sick tumblr #maybe delete later im just sad girl today #i just want to go on my hot girl walk and do my hot girl dancing but my body won't let me :(

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orcelito · 3 months

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Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.