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mumintroll · 8 months

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i am taking a break from tumblr but i need strangers 2 vote on a poll for a major life decision okay. will give reasonings underneath for all the options + u will have some context if youre an avid mumintroll post reader and remember all the times i have complained and worried abt my choice of subject at uni

sooo option 1. thought process is i have already struggled through one year and made it out with decent grades, i do want to learn french and dutch even if i struggle to do it in a formal capacity at school and find language classes extremely difficult and anxiety inducing. it is possible if i take the step of getting therapy + possibly medication i will find it easier but thats a hard step to take in and of itself and i have already tried it twice in my life and pussied out both times and atp it may be easier to just work with the assumption that i wont be getting therapy/meds any time soon and do something that eases my anxiety more.

option 2. i like each of those subjects and would be okay doing one or some combination of them. however they are not the subjects i would pick if i was applying to uni afresh its just that my uni doesnt have a wide range of humanities so the subjects i would definitely want to switch to arent available to me if i want to stay in this city which i DO. i would be able to continue dutch language classes if i did this too but there would be less pressure bc the grade wouldnt count to my degree and i would be able to just chill in class w my dutch friends (i dont have friends on the french side of my course so it wldnt really matter if i stopped seeing all those people)

option 3. so this one im unsure about bc i dont know if its allowed but i would want to do dutch language + culture alongside either english/history/philosophy. i dont think they would let me since dutch isnt a primary language but i could check. i would really like to do the dutch cultural modules but again having language count towards my grade stresses me out bc i struggle with it so much. and again i dont even know if this is allowed i dont think it is but if it is i would get to go on my year abroad still but not have to deal with french classes which i find 1000000x more stressful than dutch classes

okay now vote if you read my novel idk what 2 do

#just the thought of doing one more french class makes me want to throw up one million times i dont want to do it anymore #but i do love french as a language. idk

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atanx · 2 months

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any subnautica character headcanons? especially the side characters, they're my faves :]

Sorry anon im normally better at answering my asks :P but alas exams had two write two in a week :)) not fun but anyway! thank u sm for the ask <3

Hhh I have sooo many character hc i could write a novel anon alvnqjcoqofpqf (partly because i do have a wip all about the subnautica characters and the journey to 4546B + ensuing canon divergence but pssshhhh)

So I think I'm just gonna choose the characters I've thought the most about:

2ND OFFICER KEEN

I hc his name as Roman Keen - I saw it in the fic "Survivors" on Ao3 and honestly I think it's a really good fit :3

He's 28 and has been working for Alterra since he was 17, most of which has been with Captain Hollister, who has become somewhat of a parental figure for him. He joined because of a love for flying and space, which his family disapproved of, and so he doesn't get along great with them.

I hc him as genderfluid - on some days, he feels like a man, and on others, he feels like he had no gender at all. He hasn't got himself totally figured out and mostly uses he/him pronouns, being unsure about how he feels being adressed with other pronouns.

He's a gay disaster and crushes pretty easily and hiding that does not come easily to him, although he mostly manages. When he first sees Jochi Khasar, it's instant aesthetic attraction. He finds him fascinating, and Khasar seems to find him fascinating, too, since he starts flirting with him and they develop a relationship over the eighteen-ish month journey to 4546B.

He's ace, and although fine with talking about sex, isn't interested in having sex himself.

Even though he comes across as stiff, he's not actually all that stiff as a person. He is just very responsible and aware and is thus anxious to fulfil his responsibilities as 2nd Officer to the best of his abilities. For things unrelated to work, he is still responsible and mature but not a stick in the mud. He's a fan of adrenaline rushes and actually used to do illegal racing as a teen.

Keen works well under stress, but as soon as the stress abates enough, he will have a breakdown.

He has an annoying-sibling type relationship with CTO Yu >:33

CTO YU

I also liked the name "Emily Yu" from the same fic as before, and I hc that her Chinese name is "Yu Jian" with 'Jian' for strong, healthy.

She is 29, a year older than Keen, which she teases him with, and has been working on the Aurora for 4 years, since finishing her master in engineering with a focus on spacecraft engineering. She worked herself up the ladder by virtue of 1) having a master's degree 2) hard work and successful projects 3) spite (someone (rightfully) insulted one of her ideas once) and 4) a little bit of nepotism.

I hc her as a cis bi woman who uses she/her pronouns. She enjoys both more feminine and more masculine styles for herself, although her style is rather tame and doesn't become hyper-feminine or hyper-masculine. She doesn't like dresses.

She's into Berkely, with her first being sexually attracted to him and then also experiencing romantic attraction. She enjoys his sarcasm and teasing him.

Even though she likes to be silly she gets serious in serious situations. She has a tendency to think that her way is best and has worked over the years to curb that down and be more open to other people's thoughts. When she does truly firmly think that her way is better though, she will stick to that unless presented with a better option and will put everything into trying to make that work.

In very stressful situations she tends to... sort of zoom out, distancing herself from her emotions and achieving a strong focus to do what needs to be done. Afterwards, she struggles with feeling the impact of what was going on, sort of feeling like it happened to someone else. It's a mild sort of depersonalisation. She works well under stress in general but needs some time to recuperate and destress. If she doesn't, her body will respond to the stress via tense and pulled muscles, headaches, stress-rashes etc.

BERKELEY

I don't have a particular reason why but I hc his first name as 'Cedric'. Honestly not too sure on that, if I find one that clicks more for me I might pivot to using that but this is what I've got for now!

He's 27 and he is not a routine member of the Aurora staff. Instead, he is part of the extra engineers meant to oversee construction of the phasegate at 4546B and hadn't met anyone from the Aurora before. He has a Bachelor in engineering but found studying so unpleasant he decided he was not going to go for a master and instead started and apprenticeship into job on a spacestation relating to phasegate maintenance.

He is intersex, which wasn't noticeable until puberty when he started developing boobs. Because he identifies as a man (he uses he/xey pronouns), he decided to opt for puberty blockers and later hormone therapy. He would have been fine with his boobs but society made him feel really shitty about them and he got top surgery.

He works out very regularly because it makes him feel good and enjoys jewelry and make-up, although he hates bracelets that move because he hates the sensation of them moving and bumping along his forearms whenever he has to tinker with something. He is somewhat introverted, not caring all that much for social interaction, and indulges in sarcasm a lot. He doesn't like the feel of long hair so he always wears it in a buzzcut. He's also chubby and built like a (short) bear.

He actually doesn't cope with stress well at all and only made it through school and a Bachelor's degree by luck, a lot of caffeine and the knowledge that if he doesn't manage at least a Bachelor's, finding a decent-paying job he likes will be very hard in Alterra-space. He finds it preferable to listen to others although not uncritically.

At first Emily annoys him to no end but as he gets to know her better (and she also tones it down) the annoyance changes to fondness. They become good friends and he eventually falls in love with her. He is pan and demi-romantic.

#atanx.txt #subnautica headcanons #subnautica keen #subnautica yu #subnautica berkeley #i have like so many more thoughts but this post is pretty long ready and i thought i owe you to send an answer already XD #so i think i might compile my other thoughts on characters in a different post #if u want to know about a specific char u can also ask and i will try to not let the ask rot in my inbox for several days again akckwkckal #thank u again for sending me an ask :3 i very much enjoy the opportunity to ramble about subnautica #also: ur headcanons and characterisations are valid! the chars in subnautica are blank slates with a few very interesting sprinkles :3 #and i should say that i tried to add intersex representation because intersex people are very underrepresented #im not intersex myself but i did some research and hope this is fine? if its not please tell me and ill change things :333

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yugiohz · 1 year

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sorry if this question is inappropriate or just coming out of nowhere but thought i could ask because you talk alot about your schooling on here

im just wondering if youve ever had to deal with the feeling of being “left behind” in your education?

ive recently had to push my graduation from secondary school another year because of pretty severe mental illness which means that ill be 21 (20 now) before i could start any type of tertiary school (im probably going into nursing or something else in healthcare where you wont need a uni degree) and i just cant help but compare myself with other people my age that ive gone to school with where i feel that intellectually were on the same level but in regards to official schooling theyre literally years ahead of me.

i know that im very lucky that my parents are both willing and able to support me for a few more years because they know that its not for a lack trying that im behind my peers but its still hard not to feel stupid or inadequate unfortunately

sorry if this came of as rambling but just wondering if youve ever dealt with feelings like these or just some advice maybe?

have a nice evening💖💖💖

well first of all, no matter what type of education you want to pursue, 20-21 is still VERY young you have sooo much time Omg, there will always be a 50yo lady restarting her life I love that about uni 😭🤚💗

and if there’s one thing you’ll learn in your early 20s it’s that there is absolutely no point in comparing yourself to anyone, academic success depends on so many non-intellectual aspects, others having it easier than you can never be predicative about your intellect

refrain from social comparisons and focus on individual comparisons: have I improved my grades over the semester? Have I gotten better at dealing with stress? did I learn to be kinder to myself? Have I expanded my horizon?

this is so corny but it’s so so so important to be kind to yourself, there is no such thing as “falling behind” deliberately or falling behind at all, you are always doing their best, approach your starting point positively and just keep going life has to go on. taking it slow and prioritizing your wellbeing is the bravest thing you can do in a world that wants you to destroy yourself in the pursuit of an unfulfilling and explorative life but what do I know

#reading anti capitalist texts also #helps I refuse to destroy myself for any of this idk it will never be that deep for me 😭🤚#I’m trying my best and for a while that meant ignoring uni and drawing anime boys #asks

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galaxywarp · 2 years

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hey, i hope it's okay to ask a question- i'm pretty sure you went to collage(and if you didn't then feel free to just delete this haha), so as someone currently in high-school i was wondering: is it worth like. learning? i cheat a lot because school just isn't for me but i was thinking about giving college a shot since i feel like being able to choose things i'm interested in would help a lot, and wondered if i should be putting in an effort to really learn too. i'm not worried about grades and getting accepted into college. but i'm worried about being behind and being stuck because i don't understand things. i'm mostly worried about math? but again i can totally try and actually learn, i just don't know if it's worth it at this point. basically: is high-school knowledge actually important for college?

Oof……ok, so, DISCLAIMER: I’m not sure if this is the Good, Responsible answer I should be giving you, so please take what I say with a grain of salt. I’m just one guy and quite frankly an AWFUL student, because school really wasn’t an environment I thrived in cuz of my mental health struggles/disability, but I still managed to get my bachelors degree sooo…..I’ll just tell you what my experience was

Again, THIS IS JUST MY EXPERIENCE AND PLEASE READ THIS WITH THAT IN MIND AND UNDERSTAND THAT MY EXPERIENCE ISNT UNIVERSAL OR NECESSARILY APPLICABLE FOR YOUR SITUATION!! Okay? Okay! cool!

So….I cheated in school. Quite a bit. Whenever I could look up an answer with google, that’s what I did. I learned from a young age that “learning” and “passing the class” were two very different skills.

I actually did NOT learn much of anything from my time in school. Like I said, I hated the environment. It made me super depressed and stifled my desire to actually learn and use my mind. I would do shit like put off all of my assignments until the last week of the semester and then do them all at once, or I’d finish a final project in a single night (I do not recommend doing this tho jndhdbsbdvsb it caused me a lot of stress)

So, Pretty much, i prioritized passing classes over actually learning anything from them. It wasn’t until I graduated and got real-life experience outside of a school setting that I regained my passion for my field and began genuinely learning again

But that’s focusing a lot on my years in college. You’re asking about high school. I will say this: a lot of my entry level college classes were actually easier than the harder high school classes. Math is a bit of an exception (especially because I’m naturally weak at it) in that it does follow a more linear “path” as you advance from algebra to calculus and their various levels, and it’s harder to fake your way through something like calculus 2 (I wasn’t able to. I failed the shit out of it)

But depending on what you’re going into, you may not need many math credits? I only worried about math when I thought I wanted to go into engineering. When I switched to information technology/software development, I only needed a basic Algebra credit. And I cried in relief because I no longer needed to torture myself into learning calculus lmao

I feel like im rambling now. Is any of this helpful? I carried practically no knowledge from high school to college, and even once I was in college I still barely learned anything. But I did graduate!

Sorry, it’s late and I’m a bit tired. I hope me sharing my experience helps you a little!! Feel free to ask me any other questions you might have, okay?

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small-doodle-ist · 6 days

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Sometimes I think about the fact that I totally COULD do like ~ spicy fanart and have real fun with it or do other actual good art. Or at least decent stuff id be proud of. I totally could because there are a few things I managed to do over the years that show me I HAVE the ability. But I am simply so stressed and exhausted with existence ever since I started studying that I just don’t have the energy for that. Good thing is I have my masters degree now and im officially done and out of uni. But trying to find a job is super duper exhausting and scary for my socially anxious ass as well! Who would have thought! So now - when I actually would have time - compared when I hopefully do find a job and have no more free time much - I can’t do art because I spend all my days procrastinating applying to places (I did apply already but going on keeps being scary as hell).

I don’t know why I post this lol, it’s not like anyone reads this stuff here 😂 but I feel like I have to say it. Somewhere where people will maybe understand. Or have the same struggle. I know it’s actually not that uncommon to be so exhausted by these tasks. Really, social anxiety is such a bitch. Like I don’t even have problems with normal social interaction, it just comes up with carrier and academia and paralyzes me with fear out of the blue. Thanks dad. You gave me so many tools for life! To fail at all the basic tasks! While constantly feeling like crying and puking for months. So cool. Raised me really good yes yes I’m so well behaved (paralyzed by fear).

Sorry for the rant I’m just so sad and angry that I can’t seem to get a hold of my life. I just want to have a stable life consisting of a small flat, a job and some friends. Why is it so hard for me? Like I want to work at that one hospital lab but I’m soooo scared of the job interview? And I am scared that they will call instead of mail and I’ll be stupid on the phone because if someone calls me who is authority I suddenly forget how talking works.

And I tell myself, and I KNOW, it doenst really matter? I’m gonna fail the first few interviews anyway. And I don’t care, I’ll learn, and get better at it. This is what my brain thinks. Because in reality, after whatever event I f up, I usually don’t really care for longer than a day. I tell people, laugh at myself, done. And yet, beforehand, I need to panick for weeks and months. Whyyyyy. It’s just not fair I want this to be gone! I swear, I’m sooo competent and hard working and all that. I just f up small talk. God, why is this irrelevant shit always the most important thing for them. Like ohhh tHe FiRsT iMprEsSiOn! sELL yOuRSeLf! SaY tHe RiGhT ThiNgS! ??? Fu! I can’t even say the right things to the cashier when I buy groceries (although here I don’t have a care in the world) but how am I supposed to manage it in such an important situation!!!

Ah sorry again. Rant.

PS: if anyone reads this and related. Please let me know. You would make me feel like … 1000% better.

#rant #social anxiety #sorry for being a self pitying little meow meow

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erischaos · 4 years

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the scare

summary: you and Johnny go through a pregnancy scare.

words: +1,5k

tags: fluffy, sexual themes.

“Being a month late isn’t that big of a deal right?” you asked your friend out of the blue while playing with your cup. The coffee shop wasn’t very crowded so you felt free to talk with her about the matter. “It depends y/n” you looked at her expectantly. “It could be a lot of things like, you know, stress, changing food habits, an UTI” she made a pause and lowed her tone “…pregnancy”. It took you by surprise and you almost chocked. “Its impossible girl, forget it, its not that” you denied. All but that. You were on the pill. “I know you’re on birth control but it can fail, besides you told me you and Johnny are like a fifty percent of the time at it” you started to fidget with your hands while considering it. There isn't a big error range for the pill and you never forgot to take them but, at the same time, you thought about all those babies who were a product of that 1%. “I can’t have a child now, it can ruin Johnny’s career” you started to get nervous and your eyes started to water. You discussed the babies thing with Johnny and both agreed to wait a few more years, his idol career was just starting to take off and you got your degree only a year ago. Besides you two wanted to have the typical childless couple life; sex whenever, vacations, working without having to call a babysitter, a little bit of partying and just live life without worries. And having to hide the relationship was already stressful enough. “hey, y/n” you friend tried to caught your attention after seeing you space out, knowing you were probably thinking about all the pros and cons “its probably just a scare, don’t worry” You considered it, you had many scares but never one this long. “should I do a test?” your friend agreed with you and you both headed to the closest store to buy two or three, knowing that someone seeing you could be a risk she bought them for you and drove you home after. “I can’t stay y/n, I have work” you assured her it wasn’t a problem, said thanks, goodbye and went inside.

You couldn’t bring yourself to do them. What if it was a positive? It could change you whole life, his, the relationship, everything. The apartment was small so you probably would have to move. Was the puppy ready to have a little brother? Were his group mates ready to be uncles? Were your parents ready to have a grandchild? All those people would love if you and him had a baby, and honestly, you too. You wanted two, a boy and a girl, you want them to have Johnny’s nose and lips, you wanted to see a little John playing with your puppy, and read books to a little y/n, and when they grew up have one more. You wanted to have a big and happy family. You would love to have his kids, more than anything else but were you two ready to be parents? Suddenly you heard keys and your dog started to bark and wag his tail, so you quickly hid the bag under the couch cushions. “Hey angel” Johnny came thru the door and plopped on the couch beside you and started to kiss you. You interrupted the kissing and while petting your dog asked him why he was home that early, you were supposed to know the answer of the test before he came home “we got the choreo pretty fast so they let us go home early, the boys wanted to have dinner together but I missed you” he continued to kiss you and started to get handsy. “we haven’t had some y/n and Johnny time lately” you broke up into a nervous laugh “lately? We have been fucking all weekend horny ass, what are you talking about?” you didn’t wait for an answer and searched for his lips, hovering over him, laying on the couch. Johnny hissed when he lay his head and you looked at him confused “what's under here?” he questioned you, the moment you realized panic invaded your body and he, nonchalantly, took from under the cushion a bag with a few pink boxes. He took one and read it, and then he looked at you, waiting for your answer. You couldn’t react, there was no air inside of your lungs no more, of course if there was a baby you were going to tell him but not like this, not now, no when you didn’t even do the test.

“y/n are you pregnant?” he never called you by your first name. You couldn’t open your mouth and with you on top of him he started to sit down, which made you be face to face. “are you pregnant?” he looked impatient and grabbed your face. You took a long, deep breath “I don’t know, I haven’t done it yet” He raised his eyebrows “why not?” “I don’t want to know the answer” you started to cry and looked down “I’m not sure you’ll like it” he moved his hands from your face to your waist and hugged you “how do you know if I’m going to like it or not baby?” you tried to talk in between your sobs “because you said you didn’t wanted a kid yet” your voice was muffled by his shoulder, getting his shirt wet with your tears. He asked you why you bought on the first place and you told him you were a month late. “I’m not a gynecologist babe but there can be a lot of reasons, right?” you didn’t knew how the fuck he was so calm about it while you were a nervous wreck. “you are on the pill, you have been very nervous about your new work, you haven’t been eating well” he said while stroking your back. “why don’t we do it now so you can be sure and stop crying?” You sniffled and looked at him again “but what if its positive John, what if it ruins your career and we have to move and turn the dog into a nanny?” he giggled and wept your tears away “if it’s positive I’m going to be the happiest men in the world because it will mean I’m having a child with you dumbass, its not going to ruin anything because we don’t need to tell the world yet, we can live here for a while until we find a beautiful house to turn into our home, that I don’t know how I’m going to afford it yet but you’re going to have it, and our puppy is very smart, so I’m sure he’s going to be an awesome nanny, ok?” the dog looked at you two, licked your hand and went to sit on his bed. “babe, please, stop overthinking and let’s do it” You stood up and went to the bathroom, followed by him. He took the boxes from inside of the bag and handed them to you. “I’ll be waiting outside” he kissed your temple and closed the door. He didn’t lie, he would be extremely happy but he was nervous as fuck, he wasn’t even thirty yet, and its fun saying you want kids and fantasize about it but now that the probabilities where high, he was shitting his pants. You two worked his ass off to buy this tiny apartment and moving was going to be a financial death, he was a very well paid idol but a house is expensive for everyone. And diapers, and the baby formula, and a crib, jesus christ. His thoughts were interrupted when you opened the door with the tests in your hand. One line negative, two lines positive. This were going to be the longest five minutes in his life.

You weren’t calm either, you were shaking. You knew that looking at them wasn’t going to make them work faster but you couldn’t stop. Sooner than expected, one by one, the three test showed a single line. You weren’t pregnant. But why were you sad? This was the best outcome possible. Johnny hugged you from behind and kissed your head while smiling, but he got surprise when he heard you sob again “why again?!” he asked in distress making you laugh “I don’t know, I guess I got my hopes up” you dried you tears and you two hugged. “me too babe, but we have many years to be parents” he started to kiss you all over your face “but for now” he looked at your eyes and his were a lot darker than before “the only one we are going to traumatize fucking in the middle of the living room at six pm is our dog” he didn’t even gave you time to laugh when he pushed you up by your ass an sat you on the table, without stopping kissing you.

hello there again! the last line is sooo raunchy IM SORRY but i thought it was funny. please if you liked this scenario leave a like and comment if you want! i would love to hear some feedbacks from you guys :) im sorry im only writing for johnny but he inspires me a lot.

love u all, take care ♥

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keycoro · 4 years

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hello angels!! i’m rocky and i’m sooo excited to plot/write with yas. this is joaquin but everyone calls him key so i’ll usually address him as that!

[ arón piper, male, twenty two ] it looks like JOAQUIN “KEY” CORONA is late to class once again . how do they expect to get their degree in ARCHITECTURE by skipping class ? it’s a wonder that they made it to their SENIOR year . then again , i heard that they were + SPONTANEOUS which may give them a pass with professors , but they are also - ENIGMATIC so maybe not . all i know is that they remind me of BLOODY KNUCKLES, SHOTS WITHOUT CHASERS, AND GOLD CHAINS so watch out . oh look , HE just walked in !

intangible, enigmatic, hellraiser, rebellious, the spontaneous insurgent, easier to be an asshole than to come to terms with any of his feelings, a playboy. secret soft. everyone thinks they know him but he only shows what he wants. it’s easier like that.

he’s bisexual but closeted

key comes from a really wealthy family

he has two older sisters but doesn’t get along with them because they’re really different from him

basically luna and emilia are more like their mother; they care more about being powerful and influential and put less emphasis on familial connections

he was really close with his father but his father died three years earlier so he’s kind of on this path of raising hell but anyone who knew him in his freshman year knew him as a different person

he’s always been a little mysterious, always been the charismatic type, kind of a player but was never closed off to making new relationships which is where he’s at right now

he has issues with his mom because his mother sees him as his father

his father, santino, was really all over the place tbh and he was a journalist so he was always traveling but he was very fun-loving, very charming, and didn’t ever stress the importance of one kind of path for life

but more about key........

he is the president of sigma psi pi, probably the type to throw you out of the party if you touch the person he likes

always has goodies for the party /if u know what i mean/

whispers hes a drug dealer

he is top 5 most likely to start a fight

he is usually in the mood for a fight but will also have his really quiet moments where you’re like .......is there still a soul in ur body bro

very very broody

i will continue to flesh him out more but main takeaways:

broody

just wants a hug

will ash his blunt on your opinion

“dont touch me”

*stares intensely*

“no im not crying why dONT YOU JUST LIKE MIND YOUR BUSINESS OR SOMETHING”

“i dont usually share my poptarts but i dont like when people cry while in the same vicinity so please take this and stop doing that”

partying without shirt because he can

i didnt steal ur bitch bc i dont want to keep ur bitch

pls hug me

also he doesnt think chris did it and will stand by this even though i dont think he has much to back up this idea

connections!!!

ride or die bihhhh

fwb

we’re homies and we tell each other things that most people have to beg for us to tell them also when you’re too drunk so i take you home also when we’re both really drunk we fuck but i bring u home after and it aint even that serious and if anyone wants to fight u send them my way

best friends fuhevaaaa

enemies!!! because key wants all the static

enemies or misunderstood one another turned homies

party friends that just get really messed up together

ex gf, he cheated

i will just keep making fun of you because i hate you

other exes

the boy he likes????

someone he had a pregnancy scare with??? they grew apart after and never dealt with it???? i need this

guy he hooked up with and is like omg u make me question everything and now i’m trying to avoid u but i keep staring

unrequited or they think its unrequited

his ex’s best friend that he hooked up with idk

somebody who knew his dad???

teammates/work out buddies bc soccer

enemies but only because assumptions they’ve made about one another but now a creepy guy is hitting on you so im going to pretend im your boyfriend

they’re not really friends but get put into a situation where they realize they have more in common than they thought or are kinda friends but neither really ever want to admit it???

secret friends or secret lovers

we’re stuck in this elevator i guess we should talk about our life stories

omg i had sex with your sibling and you saw me naked that one time accidentally this is awkward

our exes are on a date so lets go on a date??? and/or help me make this person jealous

his little

in the same frat but hate each other

we go on adventures together

childhood friends

we both hate that person

key will protect at all costs

you’re the opposite of me and yet here we are

someone who is genuinely good for him like so wholesome and makes him do sweet lil things unintentionally

LETS PLOT :’) honestly if you have any ideas or anything please feel free to message me or like this because fuck yeah

#key is my child #fuck him up #drugs tw #death tw #?#like this pleaseee i will msg u hehe #whittonintro #whispers hes a scorpio #about joaquin.

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sarasfm · 4 years

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Sarauniya “ Sara ” Davies, 24, pansexual, cisfemale, ISFP Enneagram 9w1; Pisces sun, Sagittarius moon, Pisces rising 1st year Advanced Encryption Major; did not go to a spy prep hs

Imma keep it real with you, chief, I have absolutely no idea what’s going on. I mean, obviously, I know what espionage is ; I’ve read books and articles, and I’ve seen Spy Kids and all the Charlies Angels and James Bond movies, but I genuinely think I need a minute to wrap my head around everything. Make that two weeks, because what’s this I hear about two murders ? I literally just got sent here to be safe, I — I’m sorry, I’m freaking out. Give me five seconds, and we can start again, because I promise I can totally pretend this is all normal. @gallagherintro

full name: sarauniya “ sara ” davies

dormitory room: 105

birthday: 20 march 1995

soundtrack: “ go gina ” by sza

favorite dish: efo riro

aesthetic: when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of light reflecting from her earrings, eyeglasses perched on top of her head, and a caviar iphone always in her hands

Bio Points

her mom’s a nigerian baddie billionaire & her dad’s a soft academic brit

she grew up between london and abuja where their family’s business is based. it’s a trading enterprise, the largest industrial conglomerate in sub-saharan africa

she’s the eldest of three siblings, was raised to be prim & proper and groomed to run their family’s business. her family’s not pushy though and they’re really cool. very healthy dynamic so she doesn’t mind ; she loves her fam and would do it w a smile !

Coding is her Passion though. total dork. stayed up all the time just sleuthing and being an internet geek since she was a youngin’

loves education and is the type who would willingly stay in school to learn. has a degree in economics from harvard and was almost done with her mba when her littlest sister got abducted ! was it about business ? money ? who knows ! the sister’s fine now but her family sure is Scared especially since sara’s alone in the big bad united states

her mom made some calls and went “ gimbiya, look, u aint safe n we sorry. we’ll work something out to make sure u get ur mba degree somehow but shit is wild so we gotta get u somewhere near that’s safe asap. u like studying & ur a geek with computers right ? cool beans, go back to school & welcome to gallagher, babe ”

she enters gallagher in the middle of the spring semester very overwhelmed & inwardly ignoring how unhappy she is about having to be here bc she is not & does not want to be a spy. she just tryna distract herself by looking at this entire thing as a weird vacation where she can do stuff she wasn’t able to before because it’s literally detached from the world. she is mostly probably in way over her head, but let’s see !

Other Information

Nicknames: Sara (to everyone), gimbiya (to family, means princess in Hausa)

Languages: English (native), Hausa (native), Arabic (C1), French (B2)

Strengths: is money a strength ? also coding. and being the sweetest. and a general smartypants but that’s in a university setting & gallagher probably doesnt give a fuck

Relationship History: only has one (1) experience. ( well,,, 2 if a three-second drunken kiss w kass counts ) his name’s royce and they’ve known each other since their bougie secondary school back in britain. started dating at sixteen and went to harvard together. they’re long term as fuck. he’s like her best friend and their families adore the couple & each other. got engaged last september and sara broke it off before leaving for gallagher, oof. she deadass milked the opportunity but lbr she wasnt rlly Feeling It so she’s kinda glad for the ‘valid reason’ to appear bc it rlly wasn’t Love for sara so boy bye

Physical appearance: 1.76m, 55kg, long black hair, slim and toned build

Classes: GEN 105, GEN 206, AE 101, AT 101, PE 101

Personality

the sweetest. v charming & sensitive to others & curious about things. enthusiastic too ! loves adventures & is very passionate. queen of empathy.

she’s not stuck up even tho she loaded. she doesnt rlly talk abt her family having 12B or the fact that she’s an ivy league girl, bc she’s just generally very uwu

easily stressed and flustered and overwhelmed ! man, gallagher’s gonna shook this goddamn academic dork to her core for the love of god someone pls get the aed ready

rlly fun !!! can be a lil unpredictable bc it b lyk dat for rich girls. loves her independence which she hasn’t maximized bc of her ex fiancé & responsibilities but it’s chill so chill totally chill, no ounce of further longing exists in the crevices of this girl’s heart

she is so not good with confrontation and is so allergic to conflict ok. she will sweep discomfort under a rug and lie on it ‘til it’s flat which makes her a queen of repression & conforming

is she easily overwhelmed & stressed ? yes, but she’ll try not to show it so much. it’s all mostly an internal monologue so don’t underestimate her pls. she’s v smart and competent. can be so competitive ( albeit mostly inwardly ) and a boss ass business bitch like her business momma bc that’s what she’s been training for altho she is still generally a soft bab so ... yeah, if u would be so kind as to Estimate her, that’d be grand

she needs to always be on top of her game. maybe not the best in the class, but definitely pushes herself to be her best, so a lot of late nights studying & won’t settle for bad grades ever. gonna be rough in gallagher bc she is not spy material ok, she’s just a pretty rich geek behind a computer

just imagine her as the nice girl in ur ap classes who’s a lil awkward & just so happens to be super hot & stinking rich

Fun Facts

has a six-month old rescue pup named sooty ! who kinda looks like a sheparnese

has a tendency to ramble if she’s comfy w u enough or mayhaps if it’s too much man

is v diligent w keeping a journal & does it everyday

likes to dance ! not super good but she likes it. hits da clubs for dat shit

is a lil instagram famous bc she’s a gorgeous rich harvard girl & all that jazz. queen of selfies & of looking hot but doesn’t actually get to play around rip ffff

doesn’t drink much bc she is an extreme lightweight and 2 is her tap out limit

if she’s had more than 2 drinks, she is Very Honest but still very ramble-y

she is physically active but mostly just runs and does yoga. knows very basic self-defense. is not sporty, definitely not a fighter, may god have mercy on her soul

isnt a virgin but is not sexually experienced lmao lbr she kinda Itching to get out there

don’t ask me what her accent is because i have no clue it’s all over the place

Established Connections — just bc i think y’all would like to know

kassandra sutton — internet friends ! loves kass to bits. have known each other since sara was 14. when kass was 18, sara took her on a grad trip to montreal and became a lil lowkey into her. doesn’t help that kass drunk kissed her & doesn’t remember lmfao. poor sara told her then-bf & they had a lil fight but they made up bc sara didn’t talk to kass for months. eventually they became friends again & now sara’s in gallagher w no idea that kass is a mf sutton & honestly, my girl is just very shook w everything

Possible Connections

crushes — she does not know how to flirt. she is ,,,, p pathetic tbh but a real heckin cutie. will be super nice to ur bab ok

flirtationships — sara and i r gonna continue to keep it real w u chieves, her ex fiancé royce was vanilla and bland as fuck. can u believe she has not been single in a decade ? ? someone give her love & attention & fluster this soft innocent child. get her Experienced but also dont hurt her

enemies/angst !!! — or maybe do ! maybe hurt her. maybe obliterate her. maybe smash her poor heart to pieces, because tbh i would love that. so someone pls for the love all things holy and divine, someone hurt her !!!!

fwb — probably just one (1) bc she’s still a romantic ? and she’s probably gonna want something exclusive even if it’s no strings attached and will surely want to ,.,. get to know them a little bit more first ,,, at least ideally , idk , maybe impulse & thirst gets the better of her one of these days who knows lets find out !

friends !!! — sara will love u ok. she may be a lil easily flustered but she’s doesn’t rlly give up on ppl quickly. as i’ve said, queen of empathy. probs feels v sorry for majority of the gallagher & georgetown kids bc, .,.,., this environment just screams highkey Trauma to her and she’s valid bc she’s right

mentors !!! — she hates feeling dumb ok she Always has to be on top of her game, so u can bet ur ass after her first meetings in her classes she goes to ppl going “ hey could u help me out w working out ? boxing ? firing a gun ? literally everything & anything ? ”

anything & everything — meaning just come @ me & let’s talk about it uwu

( did i just create georgina’s antithesis ? fuck yes, and i am sooo excited to have a child that’s not always plotting & scheming & being mean like y’all have no idea ;_; nywy, that was long bc shutting up and brevity are things i do not possess. whats up it’s ur og flower garden girl rose here aka bugleweed aka fiancée of many and lover of all, and i am open to anything and everything ! just drop an IM or hit dat like & ill slide in ur dmz w love, plots & sanitized hands x )

#gallagher:intro

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starkissr · 6 years

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idk why

ppl want to be fake friends like i’d rather have real friends or no friends but i don’t get why ??? ppl rly wanna try n be my fake friend like no listen i’m sorry but i can’t be ur friend on the day u feel lonely n a stranger when ur thriving and omg!!!! this one rly just told me my expectations are too high bc get this! i asked her to consider me like o ok lol so you’re rly telling me in ur twisted idea of a friend I’m not allowed to expect u to care abt me like isn’t that only the literal definition of a friend my mistake??? bc i totally get having no expectations of ppl and all that but at the end of the day when ur then best friend decides to ignore ur existence then come back into ur life whenever they feel like it? like my problem isn’t that ur trying to come back into my life i’m open to whatever ok but when u can’t have consistent intentions to be a good friend u auto = fake aka nobody ???? i GET that ppl mess up obv i’m not perfect either but it’s just admitting that and actually understanding where u went wrong n at least making an honest effort of not doing it again that is SO CRUCIAL

wow wow wojeofiae and like it’s just soooo funny when ur pride is the fucking reason we’re not friends??? like if ur ego is what’s holding u back i rly don’t need someone so easily swayed by that bs in my life? so no i’m not gonna try or give a fuck abt u if ur idea of a friend is not aligned w mine like and if it isn’t that’s fine we don’t have to be friends uk but like idk it sucks tbh bc i’ve been sooo transparent abt how ur lack of words/actions hurt me so bad so u literally know but don’t do anything w this knowledge??? n still wanna try and talk to me like we’re friends after?? fuck no

it’s sad that 2 of my absolute best friends did this to me in diff ways but like this is the underlying pattern n it just hurts so bad when the person ur the closest to in the world and has learned the most abt u and has been thru sooo many ups and downs just one day decides that ur not important to them anymore uk??? like and when they come back later bc of c that’s what they always fucking do! they expect it to be like the old days and make u feel like ur fucking crazy for being hurt when they literally just left u in the dark. it was so painful to grieve thru that period without u bc i had to feel what it was like when u turned ur back on me and yes it was v fucking cold bc when i was ur friend it was all sunny days n that was a stark contrast but

also these past few days rly just make me wanna ask u why tf are u so fucking bipolar and a passive aggressive cunt to me one second and talking to me in ur bubbly tone like im ur friend legitimately 2 seconds later bc oh u just remembered u can use me for this thing or that??? i’ve literally never met an angrier or immature person? like ok obv i’m just off one on this rant so i’m gonna explain just how this girl tried me today! so she’s my roommate n keep in mind like i have told her explicitly my problem w her is that she hurt me when she didn’t communicate w me n went mia like i said this multiple times so no guess work needed n anyway today i was playing music in our room and guess what this girl does!!! puts her music on louder than mine! at first i was like?????????????? literally what? LIKE DID U RLY!!!!!!!!! JUST DO THAT LOL it was rly too much for u to tell me u wanted to play ur music???? i was honestly amazed and was like ok like obv this just sounds like shit at this pt n tbh all i wanted to do was just ask u why u felt that u didn’t want to tell me u wanted to play ur music? but then i checked myself and remembered ur words that i am expecting too much of u when i ask why u don’t care to communicate certain things so i guess it’s too much to ask u this too so like what now? n i just turned my music off after this internal resolution that u literally told me i can’t expect anything from u aka i can’t ever expect u to show up for me so like who is someone to u that is there one day and not the next?? like a relationship needs a degree of stable commitment and if i can never count on u why would i want to waste my time waiting on u to fuck up / my breath for calling u my friend?

the ppl i’m lucky enough to call my friends are ppl that i’m inspired by and i’m not saying ur an ugly person like obv u have parts of u that are so beautiful and that’s who i saw in u before but like if u keep showing me how ugly u can be don’t blame me if u singlehandedly broke my trust in u ??? AND ANYWAY LOL if ur reading this still the CHERRY on top of it all and what actually got me fucking mad is this !!!! girl!!!! asked me for a bandaid a breath after i turned my music off. like. o. ... .m. . . m. g. i just honestly couldn’t believe it n w her cheery ass tone like this is what i’m talking abt how u only matter to them when they need u!!! i was debating asking her abt the music thing now that she decided i was worth speaking to but literally it just wasn’t worth it to hear another one of ur excuses??? i would’ve loved to see what u would’ve twisted out of that situation tbh but i was also like ok like i don’t wanna help u bc ur a cunt but then i was like uk what! she wins if i’m a bitter person bc of her by telling her no so i let her have my stupid bandaid but talk to me like we’re friends one more time and i swear to fucking god !!!!! i won’t be so silent

n my friends are like r u gonna be friends w her after n i’m like ? what friend treats a friend like this ????????? like real q? this is not a friend. why would i say yeah i’ll be friends w her just to make her happy? no bitch my one requirement to be my friend is to act like a fucking friend and if u tell me that’s expecting too much of u like ok but u have to understand! this is my definition of a friend i can’t be ur friend then ! stop half ass trying!!!!!! either leave me tf alone or the moment u choose to decide (and actually act like) u wanna be real to me is when i consider u my friend again uk!! i’m not gonna hold ur shit over ur head but idk i feel like it’s bc they think that i will that they don’t try or honestly i don’t know their reason why but all i do know is there’s a blatant discrepancy between their words and their actions. for both of them but like the one who did this to me first even apologized to me and like i honestly rly appreciated that like it was only! a year and a half late lol but still i was happy but then they went ahead and did them and i haven’t heard of them since! like ok COOL so u just wanted to say we’re friends then go away again like that’s what i’m saying i don’t get it why do ppl want to be fake friends? what’s the pt????????? wow ok these are just the questions that i’m asking myself rn it like tears me apart that the ppl who know me best can’t bother to act like my friend when they wanna still have the perks of calling me a friend ! literally if any of them were to hit me up and put an attempt that lasts o idk beyond a single day to be my friend then i’m down i’m there but don’t fucking tell me i have high expectations for thinking ur my friend yeah obv i’m rly frustrated at everyone for complicating everything like clearly i care so much abt these ppl and that’s why i’m hell bent on trying to make myself feel ok for not taking them back bc as much as i love them i have self respect and literally it would just become an emotionally abusive relationship if i try to engage in a friendship where the friend would just let me down every day like i already have my own shit i’m dealing w why tf would i want to put myself thru unnecessary pain?

like everyone knows when ur being genuine or not. the recent one gave me a fake apology and it was so clear it was fake and last night she even admitted that it was n that she doesn’t think she needs to apologize and like i’m just like ......... so let’s just say i forgot that u can’t stick to ur word ok.... did u rly just have to remind me again?! this is what i’m talking abt it’s just painful and i can’t be ur friend if u can’t be real w me ok that’s all if anyone wants to be a human w me say hi like i rly don’t think anyone reads this so i was gonna delete my tumblr so long ago bc like whats the pt if no one sees u but then i realized how fucking cool that is and how liberating it is to just like put ur thoughts out into the interweb like journal writing is cool n all but on the off chance someone other than me does happen to see this then hi ur only looking at my deepest thoughts so i might as well know who u r lol but like if not (prob) then that’s ok i’ll just lol at myself when i reread this later! as stressful as this is like omg i’m graduating next week and i won’t have these kinda petty problems anymore and like that’s cool when that happens but idk i’m just not ready to grad f m u so ik as like annoying as this is and as stressed as i am abt my classes and assignments and finals and the future i’m eternally grateful for my education n like that’s why i don’t wanna leave! it’s the little things like tn i was at a coffee shop studying w friends n in the car ride back me n one of them were talking abt that one cute barista like he doesn’t matter but having someone to just say whatever the fuck u want w n confide in! it’s these little pleasures that i just love so much!!! n like i didn’t even notice but my friend brought to my attn like how he was acting kinda dumbstruck when he was talking to us n i was like lol fuck ur right that’s fucking hilarious n i had a new thing to laugh abt that i wouldn’t have if i had experienced it alone uk! like talking is literally what allows a relationship to flourish so w these 2 ppl where they just don’t communicate w me like that sounds like such a small flaw but the reason why it’s such a problem is that it literally stunts the friendships growth! how can we connect and etc if u can’t share what’s rly going on w me??????? or like why do u feel u don’t need to talk abt the truth?????? but ya as i was saying lol it’s ok i’ll just have to grind until i can get into my next school (hopefully, someone take me pls lol sos) but ya idk i suffer a lot during school but tbh it’s my fav ever so i’m so sad i’m graduating!!!!!! but like the only thing that’s making it ok is bc all of us are saying the same thing and it’s comforting that even tho we all dk what the fuck is going on i’m not the only one

so mostly sad bc i’m gonna miss my real friends here soooooooo much like w all my heart omg nothing will be the same again and i’m not ready! i’ll miss being seconds away and the fact that i can go over or call them like hoe get ready bc we’re going to the beach that’s down the street!!!! at my parents place the beach is half an hour away and i was in love but u had to drive like an extra 15-30 min to get to even nicer beaches n bruh let me tell u i rly did myself right by going to a school an actual 5 seconds away from the beach and granted besides us students it’s a rich white conservative person area but still it’s in a cute n clean area?? omg like this is just as good as it gets uk??? so ya blessed to be stressed

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reflectionsof99 · 5 years

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What do I want?

Im on this journey of awakening & now im at a point to reflect on what do I really want? specifically... so i decided to make a list .. - I want to be so deeply, madly in love with myself.. in a healthy way that allows me to thrive, appreciate more, tolerate less and truly improve my quality of life. I deserve it, after so long of looking to make a love out of someone I want to realize that my truest oldest friend & most legitimate soul mate it myself. & I dont have to feel lonely anymore if im simply focusing on the things I enjoy. being in a better space to give & recieve . - I want to stop resisting, & instead trust, life & my intuition. In these past few days im so greatful for all the information im finally understanding one thing being how alot of the stress in my life is from resistance & from trying to control things around me. Also resisting my intuituion id like to stop doing that. When I hear about the things im letting go it feels as a loss & I havent really been understanding what im gaining. But im so tired of carrying fear or waiting for changes to occur, there are some things that i really dont want to let go off, but i am go greatful for the paitence & perspective througout this entire process. - I want to slow down & truly be present for each moment & being aware of the energy i bring to a situation. Ive been treating life like a checklist & feeling as tho once I accomplish a,b,c then iĺl be able to fully engage or finally feel the bliss, freedom & happiness. But i choose to bring those things instead & then allow the rest to come. - I want to be creative! I have so many ideas & instead i want to align with the creating & manifesting. When ive been so shut down emotionally I realized how this has affected my sacral chakra, keeping me away from my creativety & sexuality as well. I wanna rebuild that as well as rebuilding my confidence. In high school my senior year I did alot of art classes because I liked the freedom of expression. Art teaches me alot about myself & about my level of paitence. I really would like to specialize in painting (photorealism), freelance photography & even some video recording & editing. These things make me feel alive !! & I´d like to give myself a genuine space to explore it. - I want to have fucking fun!! These past few years ive allowed my depression & adverse feelings to push me to far away from everything i loved including myself. my blog has been one of my closest means of self expression & a creative outlet. but now i miss having friends & fun!! I am being able to just take it easy, I enjoy feeling comfortable in my own skin & vibing out with new people. I miss being with people i feel relatable with , or having girl friends that hype me up & just having lots of normal girly fun with. I call it sisterhood because its so iportant to a young womens development to have a group of sisters to encourage her & also let her know when she needs to check her self. - I want my tribe to inspire me! When i look at my tribe i wanna feel as tho they accept me & vice versa. Like its alot to learn from them in some aspect & as tho we can all love eachother unconditionally. -I want to validate myself!! With my lack of self love its had been around looking for validation I didnt even realize. Being vulnerable in the wrong ways & putting myself in uncomfortable situations simply for the validation that I matter and for all the self love that was missing. Well now I want to validate myself & go after what I want. Because I cant expect people to want my dreams more than I do. I cante xpect people to do things with me. & when i want people to keep reassuring me things are okay that from a place of fear & im releasing that fear now. - I want to be confident! I mean.. I feel pretty confident. But it goes deeper than that. I wanna feel confident in my appearance & in every single choice I make. Confident in my different & confident in my ability to be alone or handle responsibilities. I am ready to embrace confidence fully. -I want discipline in the means of meditation & exercise. like responsibilities ive been avoiding i intend to truly see the benifits & prioritize them rather than resist or belittle. I feel these things will go a long way in my life & id like to see! - I want my car, my phone & my eyebrows & toes done!!! I group these together because when I think of them they make me feel like an independent adult women. sometimes the fact that I dont have these things makes me feel like im not where i want to be so i want this to motivate me. Like I feel like iv been so dependent on others & the car & phone is truly a means of freedom & indpendence. & when i get my eyebrows & feet done it makes me feel confident & feminine & I could use alot more of that. - Hitting the thousands doing what i love. this past year ive been thinking of & trying to do so much of something that I havnt compleated much of anything. I want to do what my soul really calls me to do & be able to provide myself the lifestyle where I have freedom to the highest degree. Id like to be able to afford the healthy foods or even land to start my own garden & the car & insurance to visit my family at my own accord & to go out when i want & to travel & even just take a personal day when needed. its truly my dream to be my own boss & i know its possible! Im just interesed in seeing how these thousands & millions will manifest for me. I ask for help from the universe in doing so as i release my limiting financial beliefs & embrance my abundance. - I want to eat more vegan food, I want to feel good more often, I want to have alot of fun new experiences & be around people who enjoy doing simmilar things as me, I want to create & be the next big thing rather than wait for it & I wanna be paitent without getting my feelings involved when nessecary, I wanna embrace the wonders of life & self love to make up for all the years that was no where to be found. & deep deep down I want to be so inlove... but now with myself. - I want to go to the beach, feel the sand i my toes, people watch, charge up in the beautiful water. admire the metaphor for existance that a beach is - i want to write poetry that flows, is genuine & vibes like i need it to & that others can relate to & enjoy that intruiges the deepest parts of people everywhere - i want to visit & potentially build an earthship & bus to home coversion - i want to travel america with a lover in my bus conversion - i want to experience the epitomy of freedom & compassion - i want to do psychedelics when im ready - i want my sex drive back. I litterally dont have one right now but im sure once I do it could make things a whole lot more interesting & fun. i feel shame & guilt clouding my sexuality & I wanna purify that out of me. & have truly spiritual next level sexual experiences when the time comes. - i wanna release guilt in general. about things I cant change or about my truth. - i wanna honor & understand my connection to nature & do everything I can to protect her. - i want to travel to all these awesome places to experience other cultures, learn different languages , eat ao many amazing food & ulitmatley respect this entire creation in its entirety & ultimatley meet alot of people & have alot of experiences that make this whole thing worthwhile! & really appreciate all the different fascests of nature. I wanna go to costa rica, & egypt & the vadican to witness some of the wonders theyve stolen & france & africa & south america & just all over really. I wanna have something to offer & something to learn as I go. - I wanna go home to my heaven inside. Its calling me. & I know when I return things will be made right. - more means of experssion like enaging in my cosplay instagram ! & hopefully getting lots of followers maybe even money & also starting my youtube channel I am not always sure the details & im trying to be as specific as possible to these things can manifest but imma just be paitent & I hope this helps me & the universe & all my spirit guides & higher self in the long run. / I am sooo greatful!!! I intend to have a relaxing day full for minfulness & self assurance & just doing whatever I want to do... / Love & light

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OMG thank you! I'm very interested in labor and delivery! How long have you been working in L&D? and what did you do after you graduated high school, like the steps you took? I looked at my local CC and local universities and you have to pass a test to be "allowed" to continue in the nursing field but I'm just nervous you know?? And what about classes you took? Im sure u have to take the basic nursing courses. Did you take any like ob/gyn related courses? sorry for all the questions!

HI! I don’t mind all the questions, keep them coming if you have more - I’m always around :). I’ll hit my 2 years in L&D this february. I kinda jumped around when I was getting my nursing degree. I started off at a state school and did two years there. I finished a lot of generals and a few nursing focused classes…but I hated the school and wasn’t taking any of too serious. I had good grades..a’s and b’s but it probably wasn’t going to be enough to get me into that school’s nursing programs since theirs was super competitive and had a lot of people applying for it. Sooo..I moved back home, took a year off, got my CNA license, worked a little bit, and then found a little school closer to home to apply to. The test you’re referring to isn’t bad at allllll. I was really nervous for it but it went just fine. Since it was kind of a broad topic test I didnt really study for it and it still was okay, so you’ll do just fine I’m sure!! Its just general questions too..nothing directly related to nursing stuff. I don’t think I’ve talked to anyone who had any issues with it :) If you do bad (you won’t) you can always retake it and the second time around you’ll be more prepared & know what to expect. As far as classes…the school will set you on a route with the exact classes you need to take to graduate. You’ll start with the broader ones like anatomy & physiology..microbiology..stuff like that and then get more into the nursing classes as you go. It’s rough because if you’re at a larger school…it’s competitive so you need really good grades..and/or if you’re at a smaller school like mine they’ll make you get certain percents on tests and in classes otherwise you get kicked out. If I remember correctly we had couldn’t get anything lower than a B or B- (i forget) in a class. It sounds very intimidating and it gets super stressful but you just have to take it all one exam at a time and you’ll do ok. People/advisors/tutors/teachers/other students are always there to help you as well so if you start struggling you can definitely reach for help! As far as like specializing in an area..you don’t really do that in nursing school..you just take all the required classes, take your boards, and then are a nurse. Then when you go off into your job that’s where you get the specialization requirements that you need. For example, every two years I have to get recertified (just a day or two worth of classroom stuff - not a full blown course) in CPR, neonatal recusation, and pediatric advanced life support…but I didn’t have to take extra nursing classes to get into my job….and my workplace set it all up for me to take those classes after I got hired, I didn’t have to obtain them beforehand (other places might be different though). During school everyone takes classes that focus on certain areas..I had a maternity class, mental health, pediatrics, etc. ..stuff like that…so you’ll graduate with a pretty basic knowledge of those areas. Most of my learning came from working. You go through a long orientation process when you get hired where you’re paired with an experienced nurse and just follow them around and work under them until you’re ready to be off on your own. The amount I learned in probably a months worth of orientation was wayy more than I learned in my OB class! Also I have my associates degree, not my bachelors..but when you graduate, both degrees end up with their RN. From what I’ve heard bachelor degrees add more classes focused on management to it (?) so you won’t be missing out on any core nursing classes if you go for your associates. My only warning with that is that a lot of hospitals are moving towards only hiring those with bachelors because it makes their facility look better (i.e. magnet status). So when you graduate with zero experience and an associates it may be a little harder getting a job…but it’s still a fine route to take…and there’s pretty much no difference in pay at all between an associates degree and bachelors either since an RN is an RN. So that’s something to think about if money/debt for schooling is a concern. Best advice would be to go into the schools you’re interested in and sit down with a counselor and they will tell you the exact steps you need to take and what to expect with their program!! They’ll be the most helpful because sometimes it’s hard figuring it all out on your own. Good luck my dearrrr!

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Well It all starts with something that you don't know (We all agree on this Ended-Blackhole-Portal – “Big Bang” , for instance ) – So ---Rather than Wondering what that is (I'm wearing Pink, boy-shorts, with a little bow on it , – & my balls are Nothing but in the way [Luckily I have a Rose-Stained bandana to go with it – ] – anyhoo , Rather than wondering what that Is --- Im going to accept that we Don't know what that is, and, accept that we dont know, what that is . .. – And that thats there – (Orbish ?? Too advanced ?? ) So here we go - Ill start with what you know already --- which is the Base Numbering systems that we covered last time --- All you need to know (Til further notice ) - is that : 0 – is a n 8, folded on itself 2.5 – Is USSR Code 5 – Is basically knights templar – So what the Equation is, for the area that we're solving for (Even though the Standard is “Solve For Friction” – the Universe that we're working in , provides that there is an “Unknown Answer (But that it is Definitely an Answer {Stupid people call it “Faith”} – ) – Soo – There's an Initial 'Reverse' , that you need to be aware of (Track Everythying From THIS Premise . ) – So – 2.5 + 5 MULTIPLIED “Folded-8” (We have no choise, and so on {“Poverty . …. Is . … “} ) ='s , Roughly, 3.14`59_ – Which is “Pi” --- The Magic, never ending number for how many times the MIDDLE of something can go AROUND something (– Ever play “Psychic-Sedx?” – ) SO , Rather than going INTO what that is (A nightmare without Steps ) – the, “How” , of things, the, Past, of things --- – We're not going to do that , now – theres a MOVE, to get from the Downward Curve UP to “Normal – Zero” we'll call it – which is Buddhism, without any buddhism, basically . – So – We'll “Assume” all of those things (As ive proved them.) - and, just take it from 0 – and leave the , PAST , of this essay, as an introduction, and, REDRAW, our starting point, from this Perspective --- even though we started somewhere different (– I.E. – We had to DRAW the X-axis, the Y-axis, before we could put a Point, much less a line ) – now, we actually CANNOT, start at (0,0) – because of a certain Schizm, related that we just skipped the Hard part, and arent using the Original Either --- the, REASON that we're doing this ---- is in Attune to a “Clockwork” associated the Evolution of Western Philosophy --- and it is Philosophy which builds “History” - --- – BECAUSE --- those things, are not all in, grid-logic fashion, ie, “MLA – Standard Outline” {Due the the Dimensions, mind you – the most Senstive aspect of Religion – ) – – And thats basically where all our problems come from, all our “Class-Struggle” comes from, all our “Politics” come from, and so on {Its like Pulling Toe-Nails .. ) Now – We'll start with something Simple, == Like, “Temperature” --- We have , 0-Degrees Farenheit , we have, “Absoloute-Zero” (– is that Only a Temperature – thing --- I totally forget --- NO – “Absoloute Value” of things nad so on – or, just 'Suppose' this for a minute.) : Absoloute Zero , is , Colder, than, 0-Degress Farenheit – So – Although they are both “Zero” – they are , different Zeros (0=0 is the, “Baseline” for the Assumption INTO Proof of “Infinity”) – so – the, Postulation of a 3rd zero (I've found 5 seperate “Pi” 's , for anyone interested – world record – ) , or, to be Lost between the 2 declared, is kinda like another infinity . .. So then fast-forward through that a little bit, and, then, WAYYYYYY on the other side of things, HOW, these , either True or just simply “Supposed/IMAGINED” Infinities, Correlate – but more imporatnt, how they're different – At THIS point – Im forced to introduece “Hinduism” as – its the ONLY thing , that will get EVERYTHING, in the Picture – as it is at the Second ,, you know – maybe not the Instant, but the Instant is in the Second, infinitely --- SO – Inbetween, this, Second proven Zero, and the , Supposed Top Zero – there is a Line – which, Used to be Floating (Until manifest Destiny Ran-out, and then the military machine had to stop, and the Backlog stopped Immigration, and that stopped Innovation, for, it was still running off the Freudian “Necessity iws the mother of invention” gimmick, which is all there was Pre-Dating the defeat of the Antichist k , which happened in 2016 . .. ) – Sdo --- SO – that , LINE, is “Zarthurianism” , and, for a million more reasons than one , its the best system that we have right now, for international / intentional (If G-D is random, and so on) – systems {IN Russia, they had, 2 guys, share 1 rifel, with 5 bullets in it .. ) – SO Basically, without getting into the Religion of it (The, “How to handle the 'Product') , of it – it means , that , Society (And . / or “Un-familiar / “New” Interaction) , it means, : “Same PROBLEM, or, Same Non-PROBLEM” – (Tuck it away .. ) SO – Take all that as “There” – on our little learning game-board here --- Now --- I , have traced-out “Zarthurianism” - and, where it runs Out (As the Largest land owner --- and its , Furthest Boundaries – ) is at something that I call “The Ice-Cream Problem” --- - Whchi , Which is like, TOTALLY its own thing, and I TOTALLY drew it (With magic) and so on --- its the, “Accomplishment”, of, “The Theory Of Everything “ (The, Evolution of which, which, or, the , Beta-Version of THIS essay, is Below ..) – {Beginning and End – not Before / After – ) – SO --- Its an Ice cream cone, imagine one, – Zarthurianism is from like, 6-9 o'clock – the, cone, has 2 little ledges off the sides, like a simplistic drawing of a top hat – the, ledge on the Left, is the beginning of a backwards “L” --- on, the other side Not the ice-cream-cone, there is, “Position A” – Which is , Exactle where I am (Blue X Baxter – Previously Satan's residence – ) – Far out Left of this triangle, on the same straight plane the ledge begins, AT THE END, is Position B – now, Looking Back now, toward the Ice cream Cone, FROM Position A, then UP --- There is a never ending , climbing, wall , of , energey and so on – now --- when it gets Soooo high, that wall, that , Position B, is at a 45 Degree Angle (“Looking up from Position B” --- ALLLLL the way up there, is where the “Chute” is that has/carries/is “Buddhist Enlightenment” {– Its its OWN Worship == } – Basically – that whole “Thing” becomes a door, and , you can pad around in whatever Sorceristic pleasure pleases you --- at that point . .. SO – SO – that “ Ledge” – on the OTHER side (Onto MY land, of 6-9), Position A is Renamed “0” - and, “Absoloutle – Zero” falls to , Exactly where Absoloute Zero is – Beyond my control – if you , Look at it , the , Ironing Board is Up and Out ---- So its like that --- Now, this makes an Diamond-Checker Board --- BUT – that is Reliant on, HOW MANY BASE NUMBERING SYSTEMS YOU KNOW AND USE COMMONLY/AUTOMATICALLY --- Now – they , “Draw” to themselves , ON THE BOTTOM, in this , Magical kind of way (Lesson about Sex is Next.) – BUT , in this, Diamond-Undergroud-Honeycomb (It is, Definitely undegeroug – just look at all the Skulls – ) --- there are, here and there, these, “Stress-Places” – that are just , No Good , – Now, 92.34 % , of, Eveything down there, is , Perfectly fine (Guy on Guy or Girl on Girl Sex Included, no Matter what condiion eiither – which is a seperate lesson, unfortunately ) – {JUST NOT IN THESE ZONES} – is where it gets Complicated and Crokety – and im Streamlining that [Hey – it all deals with Nuclear – Spills --- Weird . .. ] --- SO-- ROLLLLLLL it out – over Melinia of Wars, and, you have “Kaballah” (which, at This perspective, is basically just Celepahane --- a , Condom, if you will – ) – that Fragile, or That Worthless --- (It means “No” {Its Ironic - ' } --- [And so on .. ] – SO – ewe talked about “Door – Theory ? “” – Ok – that , pertains to a Vision, and , it was the Moniteriong , of that Vision, which, “Proved” “Psychicness” ---- So, NOW, to let all the PSYCHICS free --- we have to , Confront our Rapistst – nemesis --- “The Nuclear” - – so thats whats up – {END SLAVERY NOW !} --- Soooo – So ya – um theres a bunch of meticulous War-math – -and, that basically comes to “Boe-Tie-Theroum” (– Cross multiply the difference rather making more differences where Percision is Multiplied Accuracy [which is where – wtf was that place called where they chaied all the greek monserts under the ocean ?? – ANYHOO {Make-Make got – em } SOOO it is – “The Act of Submitting, May not, Contain, within it , as an exponent NOR Product, “Information” – \ Now, – how we, Achieve that , is via : “If the Submission contains words, it can be Percieved If it can be Percieved, it can be Labled If it can be Labled, it can be Containted - So, a , Potentially-By-DEFINITION ('The, Orgasm of Christ' ) – An, “Infinite/Limitless Act” – within, a , Contained Apparatus --- is , basically how you get the “Introspective-Microscope” – AND – its through THAT, that the , Catecombs of Rome, so to speak, come into play ---- and you start, Knowing things about yourself, then you Detach from them, and as Their arc changes away, yours changes Towards, and youre Climbing the Lightening ---- and so on – So , if the Sex is PERCIEVED (as opposed, say, “Tantically Experienced “ {Wn – And we HAVE ways, yo u know, to keep those Thoughts , -= inside, your Body --- } ) THEN, it can become PERVERTED --- Then, if the, PERVERSION, can be “Sampled/Replicated” and so on (And it usually is --- if you look at little Group-Gangs of Boys, or Girls ---- all that is Discussed, is “Gayness” and how much it is acted out, decides , “The Groups “ – which is why everything in America falls apart, because thats like, level 20 religion --- and, you have no fucking clue what you're doing --- which is why peoples Feelings get hurt, and how Bullies “eat” , and how Good people lose ,a and how Bade people win the draws, and so on --- how , Socieyty Crubles (level 25 makes it a bit better --- ) --- So thats what it is – And here the Beta version, now, of this essay --- It took 5 years --- its perfect – hope you're all satisfied .

EINSTINS THEORY OF EVERYTHING SUNGLASS: INVERT ON TABLE TOP Left End is Electricity. Right End is Magnetism (Mass.) Speed of light does not slow down, nor speed up, not is matched.. THE SPEED OF LIGHT IS ELECTRO MAGNETIC GRID OF EARTH. Matching. The rest of the ENTIRE UNIVERSE. Whether its currently traveling at Light speed or not. WHATS MISSING IS Narrative. ASSUMPTION : Humans came from earth. ()Darwin() E=mc squared ()Einstein() LSD-25 alters how one interacts with the SAME world previous dosage. Basically. If light is THE extending force into the universe (it has to be)., THEN ALL is within LITE GRID (Electro-Magnetivity.) FLIP IT. Magnetism is CORE of EARTH. You Yourself Are The Speed of light to match the expansion……(*Contradiction HERE.) Electricity goes between HUMAN & Magnetic Bloc. In a brain, the electricity is the founding boundary … The lobes exist between it, THUS, the Buddhist Override of Emotion is TOTALLY, COMPLETELY NATURAL. Memory, is only a passage way of a Path, MEANING. Its NOT constantly ACTIVE (as one does not Remember everything constantly…..) OVERRIDE IS THIS : WiFi. Internet In Air .. Think Einstein 1970s. WOW MESSAGE. Figured it out, BUT, NO CONNECTION BETWEEN “Psychic” = PROOF! (THAT . A brain can SENSE electromagnetivity is Assumed, however, to Jive or Control it…, seemingly a Feat of Evolution.) If through Basic United Meditation a brain can be trained to sense different frequencies of electricity… THEN, with PERSICE skill, SHOULD be able to HACK WiFi with MIND. For only about 20 seconds…. DID THIS 2 yesterdays ago. Pivot is: “You’re The Anti-Christ Or You Stop The Holocaust.”{LIES*) SAME DAY AS ILLUMANITI COVE REVEALED AS NOWMOUNTAIN. The Theory Of Everything. “Its only a 6 Hour Swing, NOT A 8” * -Blue X Baxter. 2015 13:16 Military Time . Hawaii. HILO. DONE.

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