#indifferent beauty

[listranz]

Why I like the anime series Hellsing more than OVA Ultimate:

• Style design

• No betrayal of Walter in the finale

• A lighter detective-crime plot without going into the Nazi militarium

• Great opening and music

• The “Master of Monster” series played in a new way and the additional series “Red Rose Vertigo”

|| I know that Ultimate is the closest incarnation of canon. I love the manga and I love the OVA, they are beautiful and unique. However, initially I fell in love with the anime series, and not the manga and OVA, I liked the fact that it seemed to play out in (almost?) alternative events of the canon, it had its own charm and peculiarity.

Of course, the anime series is very different from the manga canon. Of course, the anime series gives us some kind of new take on the original Hellsing and I understand that people who love the manga canon may not like it. However, this is a matter of taste. I personally love all of these things, but my favorite will always be the anime series because it was the one that first introduced me to Hellsing.

#hellsing #anime #shit post #dark #vampire #alucard hellsing #sir integra #integra hellsing #2000s #vintage #archives #*no really the opening is very good; there's nice music there #perhaps I missed a few pros on this list? #ova and manga are also beautiful) #but this is a post about my first love #you may not agree with me;; ok that's normal;; I'm not indifferent to the anime series because I started my Hellsing with it #goth #**I know that when the anime series was airing the manga had not yet been completed #hellsing 2001

[indifference-prime]

Wally, how'd you become primed?

got the orokin priming treatment

#as with everything the orokin touch it must be on par with their beauty standards #wally doesnt understand what is happening but he's enjoying the attention anyway #(failed at being indifferent once again) #fun fact this is my first time drawing him in his wall form and it's. surprisingly fun! #void answers #my doodles #warframe #man in the wall

[shiresome]

for the ship thing: frost x kira >:3c

I KNOW THE WHOLE POINT IS THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO THE BINGO WHATEVER BUT. on account of the fact that I don't want to, I doodled them for you super quick instead

#one of the very few pairings im not entirely 100% indifferent to #THEYRE CUTE I THINK #kira gets to come visit hanzo and kuai liang with frost. and they LOVE her. because I said so. #frost gets dragged to the bdfc and introduced to everyone in my heart #LOVE #the world is so beautiful .... #shire's got mail!

[deadqueernoldor]

Thinking thoughts about those from Cuivienen and how they later treated the Valar, especially after Cuivienen was destroyed.

I imagine a foundation of sorrow and a layer of betrayal and pettiness. They had promised safety. And how did it turn out? Kin of Tata and Tatie their first leaders, slain in Valinor by the Dark Hunter from which the Valar promised protection in Valinor.

And then, the War of Wrath comes and with it the destruction of Cuivienen.

If any of those were re-embodied in Aman, I wonder if they make it a point to always turn their back to Valar and Maiar. I wonder if they only speak in the tongue they had first devised all those millennia ago and spoke in Cuivienen before time and different kindreds changed the tongue, not Sindarin or Quenya from the Great Journey's time or later. I wonder if they sing songs in their ancient tongue, songs about the beauty and unsullied health of Cuivienen every time any of the Ainur are near.

I wonder if the Valar feel any shame when those who they once looked upon in wonder and love gaze back at them with indifference or disgust.

#i am so normal about the elves of cuivienen feeling the betrayal worse than anyone in aman including feanor and co #they PROMISED safety from Morgoth and orcs. they PROMISED beautiful lands without sorrow. they PROMISED all that and down the line #decided Mogoth had played pretend well enough to warrant him probation during which he immediately killed again #returns to the east and sullies what beauty had been left. and then even from afar he manages to hurt those from cuivienen with the WoW #dont get me wrong i think the cuivienen elves knew there had to be war against Morgoth for him to be defeated. but the fact that the valar #decided not to only abandon those of beleriand for over 5 centuries before that AND once the war is won also abandon #those of cuivienen to watch their beloved lands drown without as much a warning must sting. #i want there to be a concious decision of 'you abandoned your promise to us twice why should we ever trust you again even in your own lands' #a 'you promised our people who folowed you safety. you didnt deliver. you promised us freedom from morgoth. you didnt deliver. in fact your #inadequacy and decision to let him loose made everything worse for us in the east. why should we ever listen to anything you say' #and thus a concious effort to shed association with Aman as the Valar govern it. they cant leave. the way is shut. but they can establish #a sticking to their own tongue and traditions without the interference of the Ainur. they've done enough. not enough and yet quite enough. #the avari are welcome should some be reborn. #i never know if i want those of cuivienen to be reborn in aman or fade into unexistence entirely both have merit and sexy hcs #but if any were reborn i think they would get along fairly alright with the exiles. kinslaying exiles? 50/50 depending on repentance #but anyone who does not believe the valar's words and respects their decision to not ever be associated with them is welcomed neutral-warmly #they teach them songs about cuivienen. the sweet waters. beautiful meadows. the birdsong that sounds extra cheerful. fish in abundance #and in turn they get taught songs about beleriand. bewitched forests. victorious battles. wild rivers. frothy shores. #it is seen as an honour to be taught a song about Cuivienen by the people who sat by its shores once. in their language/dialect/whatever #instead of in sindarin or quenya. some millenia into the 4th age tou have a surge of ppl speaking cuivienen dialect #it becomes a clear distinction of who still has fondness left for the valar and who would feel indifferent if they vanished suddenly. #this tag essay has gotten way too long again. sorry besties it will happen again. #tag essay longer than the fucking post???? help #tolkien headcanons

[peaches2217]

Oh my God y’all I need help

My new coworkers are so cute and I’m so nervous, what do I do??

#tw spider #the tarantual is Wolfgang and the turtle is Franklinda! #I got to meet them at my interview actually #apparently the fact that I immediately started doting on them — including the tarantula #went a long way in getting me this position #because I’ll be taking care of them as part of my duties #and most of the applicants were either indifferent or averse to Wolfgang #he’s my beautiful little baby already 🥹 #peaches screams into the void

[totheidiot]

i hate that the solar eclipse just now serves as a reminder that nobody loves me.

#🍂 arian's shit #IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING HAPPENED. but yeah #i will always think of the solar eclipse i witnessed and think about that #two people one of them my friend the other i thought i could consider my friend but HE PROBABLY DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT. #they both talked and did their things and laughed and they are so damn close to each other it almost made me cry and reminded me that #it was such a profound moment too when i realized what was going on #they were in another world that didn't have me and i get that. i do. they have known each other for a year and i abruptly showed up #two months ago and one of them we are getting close she likes me around #at least i think #the other one he is nice he is supposed to be like this he is nice to everyone that is who he is #so what is happening: he is completely indifferent to me. most he did was remember my name and face. but he is nice. #i like them both so so much it almosg does hurt when i stood there awkwardly almost like i was intruding #and i realized that i have never not been close to anyone #no acquaintances all the friendships i have had they sre the reason why i live and i know that they live for me too #we have known each other since kindergarten. they held my face and cried and told me that i was love when i was leaving for the last time #they love me. i am sure of it. #but now i don't have anyone near whom i do love. people don't love me. i used to be love. #it also hurts that i am Average Person In The World #i am not funny. i do not have unique quirks. i do not have a single talent. #all i am good for is saying the wrong things all time. #even in my old life i was someone. someone who isn't the same as the person who saw the solar eclipse today and felt all this #i was the idiot. I WAS THE IDIOT. i was the writer person. #i don't feel like any of these things now. they had a thing in common: their capacity to love and be loved. #i love very easily but i am not an easy person to love. #vent post #god this is such a small little thing i am the most pathetic thing in the world #feel free to scroll away don't even read this shit #arian contemplates his universe

[britneyshakespeare]

10 words every girl wants to hear

"jared, you have been evicted from the big brother house."

#blue kim don't interact #text post #bb25 #blue kim can't interact bc she's in the big brother house #jared is really puttin his own mama to shame in national television. ooohhhh girlllll #yeah i read the spoiler. im upset about him being... obviously safe this week 🙄 #kaily said after we finished watching the last episode: 'matt is cirie's son now' #shes so right #i didnt know i was gonna like matt so much 🥺 geez louise... #it's not enough for him to be easily the most beautiful person in the house... he also has to be a sweetie pie and a good player #i didnt know how i felt about him at first but i really really love him now. what he did for JAG!!! #i was feeling indifferent towards jag but he's grown on me as alliances have shifted #get jared and blue out before jury please. please. #cirie will have so much less to worry about if she doesn't have to worry about his dead weight #he's truly just leeching off of his mother's protection #and the edit is making him look so ok when he's out here being a jerk and a misogynist on the live feeds #HE AND BLUE ARE BOTH CHEATING ON PEOPLE OUT IN THE REAL WORLD??? NAHHHH CBS NAH YOU ARE NOT GONNA MAKE THIS A CUTE SHOWMANCE #in conclusion matt klotz is the first athlete i have ever cared about in my life

[zilodak]

Selin is so so pretty. You draw her in a beautiful way. You can tell a lot about her just with your art and she's wonderful. Some people are just mad cause they can't stand a beautiful woman with a double chin ig

Thank you! I used to be super aware of my soft jawline and double chin but drawing her has helped me grow indifferent about it immensely. And I can only hope that when people see my characters they feel safe knowing that that it's okay to look like the way that you or they look, and that you're not taking up space.

#asks #anon #i don't like dabbling in beauty politics bc it feels reductive to me no matter what but feeling indifferent about my appearance has helped #me get through a lot as someone who has body dysmorphia #so it bleeds into my characters a lot

[aurosoul]

#picture journal #video #deer #a durr #she watched me blow bubbles for awhile and i talked to her #i also watched ants and a wolf spider on a fallen log #the wolf spider seemed indifferent to the ants which was interesting #the ants were carrying their babies across the log! #there were also beautiful brown dragonflies and an even more beautiful brown and like golden wasp #i love bugs so much

[softboiledwonderland]

Flynn Carsen is an actual cartoon character

#the librarians #I was kind of indifferent (affectionate) towards flynn up to now but this episode has endeared him to me so much #what a little darling #his little jig at the asylum and his friend the sword and the way his speech has this melody that fits perfectly with the music in the show #and the way he loves eve and holds everything in his beautiful brilliant mind #poetic cinema #flynn carsen #this episode was a masterpiece by the way

[mustlovesteve]

Between my fic and the show itself I think about rabies so often now

#latbg #RABIES ALWAYS ON THE BRAIN #also I love coyotes now #I used to be indifferent but they’re beautiful actually #and they make up half of Lucy :)

[thedeadthree]

IOVANNA DAYNE / CALLA STARK née TARGARYEN

VISENAERA TARGARYEN / VALAENYA TARGARYEN

UNA ULLER / ELAENAERA STARK née TARGARYEN

ILLYRIA ILMESTYS / CESSAIR TARGARYEN née CELTIGAR

the dears @50sjello, @chuckhansen and @queennymeria tagged me to make a few of the asoiaf loves using this cutest medieval inspired picrew! ty ty so much!

TAGGING: @feystepped, @griffin-wood, @kingsroad, @risingsh0t, @aartyom, @denerims, @fragilestorm, @anoras, @marivenah, @lavinet,, @shadowglens, @veisshaupt, @jendoe, @phillipsgraves, @bloodofvalyria, @noonfaerie, @pearlcscent, @shellibisshe, @florbelles, @morvaris, @yennas, @leviiackrman, @unholymilf, @heroofpenamstan, @pheedraws, @celticwoman, @leondaltons, @girlbosselrond, @echo3-1, @jackiesarch and you!

#only if you want to! 🤍🕊 #ill likely return with this one for ceryse and urrea and the rest of house ilmestys and the other asoiaf clowns and maybe other fantasy ocs! #brain is a fried egg kajzhxhx ✨😵‍💫 #oc: iovanna dayne #oc: calla targaryen #oc: visenaera targaryen #oc: valaenya targaryen #oc: una nathaira uller #oc: elaenaera targaryen #oc: illyria ilmestys #oc: cessair celtigar #CATCHING UP ON MY THINGS WHILE I WAS ON THAT SEMI-ish HIATUS FROM BEING SICK 🤍🥺 ty ty for tagging me loves AHH this was the cutest? <3 #i may not have been able to give illy her single streak of white BUT I DID GET TO GIVE ILLYRIA HER MAGIC EYEE 🤍😵‍💫 sobbing! #aemys cool wife with a cool magic eye and mean with daggers with a cool dragon that eats souls aksjxjxj ✨😵‍💫🕯 lucky you! the a*emond clown! #targ is crossed out of cessair bc she was married to maegy (maegor) and he is….. no longer with her ✨😵‍💫🥀 #but her little flower crown she won from maegy and being crowned the queen of love and beauty ✨😵‍💫 the first of maany romantic gestures of h #unas leeches skzjxjjx congrats on the goth gf who thinks leeches are neat aeggy! THE GREENS for the cannibal and for aeggy <3 beloved! #una ‘im not a witch’ uller sksjhxhx 🖤🥴🥀🕯 #likely some nonsense at the last supper or at court skzjxh there’s a reason she was so indifferent to court! the nonsense! all the time! #a court darling who couldn’t stand court akzjxhhx love that for u sweetie! yoren will be back in ur life soon enough babe u can complain to #him then kajzhxh and SPEAKING OF COURT DARLINGS calla beloved <3 loved in kl ADORED in winterfell (bc of cr*egan hehe <3) #ella marries yoren and yoren is legitimized by his cousin cr*egan after the dance <3 so ella becomes a stark! song of ice and fire etc! #for calla and ella! congrats my loves on ur stark bfs 🖤😌! #still SOBBING that bel has honored my baby iovanna with the yen energy THE HIGHEST HONOR ✨😖 she really does what a lucky duck daemy is! 🔮😌 #VIZZY AND ENYA coolest girls in the seven kingdoms and essos 🥀😌 wielder of dark sister and dawn they both were! like descendant like scion! #leg.tagged #leg.ocs #t: picrews #the golden looks for her representing calla’s dragon nahviintaas the gilded queen 👑🌞🪞💛

[nananarc]

just realized that i have lived past the age that i thought would live

#hmmm #i mean not dying isnt a thing that i can celebrate #if only i can give my life force away to people who truly crave life #im not being suicidal at the moment #its just that i wanna talk openly and carefree without judgement about the fact that i do not wish to be here and not even in a sad way #i just am #kinda sick of the toxic positivity ngl #i am just indifferent about being alive as much as i enjoy the beauty of life and the world and nature #cryptic na posting #if another person tell me to “oh but life is beautiful and you should treasure it” and “be happy that you are alive” and and and #fuck off #i am taking advantage of life as much as a person life me can and im not throwing it away #but at the same time #let me be at peace with death and the end #allow me to think of an eternal rest

[hesitationss]

new toxic trait: i want to be a bride in a traditional chinese wedding and be adorned in gold and have a tea ceremony

#idc if it's gay or if they're not chinese. i want this. i will be the bride #i used to be indifferent to marriage but this literally changed me like the bride looks so beautiful #I'll draw it later

[felizusnavidad]

IN THE HEIGHTS countdown: 16 DAYS!

song for today:

i remember nights, anger in the streets, hunger at the windows women folding clothes, playing with my friends in the summer rain mamá needs a job, mamá says we’re poor one day you say: "vamos a nueva york" and nueva york was far, but nueva york had work and so we came

#song for today: paciencia y fe #meet abuela claudia guys #and yes i am crying already #OBC: played by one and only olga merediz #movie version: played by... olga merediz as well #because there is only one abuela claudia and no one could replace her tbh #so it's pretty amazing if you ask me #so this song always makes me cry which is probably no surprise to anynone #fun fact: they changed the order of the songs in movie version and i don't know what i think about it but i don't hate it #i think i'm actually indifferent? #both ideas are good tbh #and the song is beautiful and you should just listen to it rn #(there's also another small change in the lyrics but i'm not gonna talk about it today i'm gonna leave it for another song) #it won't be long now*

[thisbrilliantsky]

recently been wondering if part of my difficulty relating to/conversing with ppl is that i am just v deeply ambivalent to ppl's appearances? and that seems to be significant to ppl in a variety of ways that i just don't understand or only understand theoretically

#i just. dont notice. dont give any thought to. how other ppl look #if i spend any mental energy thinking about how pretty/beautiful/handsome someone is #it's bc i already care a great deal about them #their appearance itself is still a matter of complete indifference to me tho #not to be ace on main #im just genuinely baffled on a regular basis on how much and in what ways the appearances of others matter to ppl #i like to look nice but like. for myself. i like to be clean and comfy and generally aesthetically pleasing To Me #strangers: i am benevolently indifferent #ppl i love and cherish: beautiful. adorable. stunning. perfect in every way.