#it destroyed me emotionally and it was worth it

[actual-changeling]

hot take but the reason why beez and gabriel figured their shit out so quickly is because they both have a solid sense of who they are as a person and the relationships adds to that instead of threatening their sense of identity.

if, for some reason, they had landed on "yeah no we won't work" they would have been sad/disappointed/heartbroken, but ultimately beez is happy with who they are and so is gabriel. nina and maggie decided to NOT get into a relationship for the same reason, they respect themselves and each other enough to put personal growth and their mental health first instead of attempting to solve trauma responses and hypervigilance by making someone the turning point of their world.

aziraphale and crowley, on the other hand, aren't just dogshit at communicating, they have also build their sense of identity around each other and thus the thought of not being together automatically comes with a loss of personhood, trapping them in "i need them to live and will be destroyed if they're not with me". which is incredibly self-destructive and deeply unhealthy, and not a foundation for a functional relationship.

the solution to that is not to glue them together and call it a day, it's to allow both of them the space and grace to grow as individuals and develop a healthy sense of self so the relationship is build on mutual respect AND self respect.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #ineffable divorce #like besties listen to me okay i have bpd a severe dissociative disorder and a horrible case of cptsd #i KNOW what it's like to be emotionally obsessed with someone and make them the reason for your existence #and while yes it provides *some* amount of emotional satisfaction #it is NOT GOOD AND WILL FUCK YOU UP #it will make all your issues WORTH and DESTROY THAT RELATIONSHIP unless you work on it a lot and are incredibly self aware #put yourself first and learn how to form healthy attachments otherwise the relationship ain't gonna work #and instead just be toxic as all hell

[stuckinapril]

😐 no one told me id burst out crying in front of my best friend watching past lives

#you guys should’ve warned me like I was not expecting tnat #now I’m gonna need 8 business days to process this I HATE THIS #literally typing this w tears on my face #I’m literally never gonna get over this NO ONE WARNED ME I hate yall fr #‘WATCH PAST LIVES’ WHY SO I COULD BE EMOTIONALLY DESTROYED FOREVER #Whatever #I’m not built for this I want happy endings #and that one line #‘see you in the next life’ #NO WAY THEY JUST DID THAT #I actually can’t process this. one more thing to go to therapy about THANS GUYS . #Also worth mentioning Celine Song’s own commentary about the ending and Nora grieving her unlived life as she walked home #This hits on so many personal levels for me I’m actually never gonna be over this film ever #p #past lives

[vulpinesaint]

"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple

#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ] #is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out 🙄 #not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times. #i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions. #if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far #^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate #anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed #in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other 👍 #realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing #realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart. #need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me ‼️ #(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict) #realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve #which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning #it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after. #not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit #is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me #valentine notes #relationship posting

[daincrediblegg]

I mean like with all sincerity I don’t think I’ve faced the level of emotional destruction that Plague Tale Requiem served on a 4k platter 

#like listen I've played some videogames with some emotionally devastating shit. requiem fucking trumped them all #that was so much and it was so good and I'm SO PISSED but like literally it made me cry in front of people and that is extremely tough to do #I don't cry at much shit these days the last thing was midnight mass. this was was like tenfold worse I feel fucking destroyed #plague tale requiem #spoilers #and now I'm doubly pissed at myself for not buying the collectors edition when I had the chance #this game was insane and also I gotta admit this is the first game in a long time that it felt like it was worth the money you pay for it #like that bitch was long and satisfying even though it was fucking insanely devastating emotionally #like idk. felt like pre-DLC boom days and such

[yourcalamity]

im about to have such a potent opportunity to disappear into the woods forever it itches

#i wonder how long it would take anyone to figure it out lol #youre welcome future coldcase vloggers #but for the record if i do mysteriously vanish no its not because of my job #must be said because thats the easiest explanation people come up with yeah it would be convenient right #if i could just get a new job and suddenly everything in my life will be fixed and all of the other blatant issues clearly coming from other #sources will cease to exist #also therapy and meds will do the same thing. i might as well walk up to a stranger and ask them to snap their fingers and cure me #just as long as the hand i turn to for help points in another direction technically im being ‘helped’ right #life is just a fight and you have to keep fighting for yourself and others and hope one day someone is going to fight for you #and when people dont fight for you when you need them to it becomes clear that you dont even need to fight. it would be easier to lose #you already upset them by not fighting for yourself and instead of fighting for you now theyre fighting againt you. do you really want to #fight harder. do you really want to fight people you love. no one wants that #ive been so emotionally destroyed these past years and idk if i will ever recover or find worth in myself again #and if i got a new job tomorrow at the most comfortable high paying company in the world with a one day work week and unlimited pto #i would still feel worthless because of the experiences ive had and the way everyobe has brushed over them as if i cant feel emotion #i have been carrying so much hurt #now im going home to say goodbye to the remains of a stranger who wouldve disowned me had we ever spoken on even ground #but sure i will enjoy my trip

[sainz]

its monday and i already had enough

#this class is going to mentally destroy me #how HOW am i going to attend 22 kids when there’s so many needs between them #and my head and my heart hurts cause i cant give them all of them what they need #i cant physically and emotionally #the kids are starting to come to school worse and worse each year #i have a kid the poor soul is going to change school next year to be attended by the psychiatrist hospital #howHoWhOw when i need to have all my eyes on him so he doesn’t end up killing someone (or himself) in class #5 of them have curricular change bc of different needs #and the rest are just…trying to survive and same #sorry today has been really hard and rough to the point it makes me question how worth being a teacher is

[murobrown]

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#it's that time of the month when I just want to sell my uterus on black market with human organs #the week leading up to my period is far more worse than the actual period #it made me gain 2 kg and I can't stop freaking out about it...i know i lose them every month but my brain won't leave me alone #it's making me want to starve myself or just work out until i collapse #tmi sorry...how is your Friday evening? #I'm bored and I'm deciding between going to bed before 11 pm or let my brain torture me a little bit more #I don't even think I'm excited about the weekend anymore because it means I'll have to eat again #you just eat and work out and eat and work out and try not think about the calories because we're not doing thay anymore #but deep down my brain still knows the numbers and won't let me go over 900 calories #i perfected my body but destroyed my head even more #i shouldn't say thay but maybe it's worth it #feeling happy in my own skin is the best feeling in the world #and I know I'm shallow because of that but for the first time in my life i like my body #i actually like all parts of my body #and knowing that i did it with all that hard work feels even better #but on the other hand now I'm just too scared I'm going to lose it all if I eat a cookie after lunch #i think I'm too deep into this #is it bad that I like the feeling of bones under my skin? #am I becoming delusional? #that's what a menstrual cycle does to a emotionally unstable woman #it makes me feel angry that out of four weeks in a month i get like max two weeks when I feel good and normal #all of that for nothing #anyway maybe it's time to stop myself..

[bigassbowlingballhead]

When colin makes a the winning goal next week and runs to kiss michael in the stand

then what

then what

#i'm still hoping that happens #even though emotionally it'll destroy me #it'll be worth it #ted lasso

[rhys-ravenfeather]

FEBRUARY ISN'T EVEN OVER YET AND I'M ALREADY NERVOUS AND SCARED ABOUT MOTHER'S DAY.

#rhys-ravenfeather signing on #walmart already had easter stuff out on VALENTINE'S DAY #i just KNOW that once easter is done they're going to put out the mother's day stuff #and i'm going to see all these cards...all these gifts... #hammering in that i should honor the woman who for years mentally and emotionally abused me... #destroyed my sense of self-worth #and still continues to hurt me even to this day #and yet somehow STILL seems to think that she somehow did nothing wrong...

[hotvintagepoll]

Propaganda

Lauren Bacall (To Have and Have Not, The Big Sleep, Key Largo)—"Just put your lips together...and blow" excuse me ma'am i'm briefly going to turn into a kettle. She's the quintessential Femme Fatale who may betray me in the end but I'd let her it'd be worth it

Diahann Carroll (Paris Blues, Carmen Jones, Porgy and Bess)— Face of an angel. She had the range. She brought chemistry with every romance she portrayed. She also had a great fashion sense, and was so pretty Mattel made a doll based off of her.

We are in the quarterfinals of the Hot & Vintage Movie Women Tournament. All other polls in this bracket can be found here. Propaganda is not my own and is on a submission basis. Please reblog with further support of your beloved hot sexy vintage woman.

[additional propaganda submitted under the cut.]

Diahann Carroll:

Another groundbreaking black actress, although she might be better remembered for her television roles. She was also an activist and worked with charities to support women in need.

here she is hanging out with shadow prince anthony perkins :3

Lauren Bacall:

"She is soooo neat. And hot. And everything. That one scene in To Have and Have Not where she says "you know how to whistle don't you? You just put your lips together and blow" altered my brain chemistry during media archaeology class and here we are."

"The VOICE, the SLINK, the EYES. Woof."

"Lauren Bacall was a major lesbian awakening for me. Every picture of her makes it look like she’s about to destroy you physically and emotionally (why is that so hot, I may need help). She had incredible long running chemistry with her husband, Humphrey Bogart, but was an absolute star in her own right. I’ll never be over my crush on her."

"She's got that confident, no-nonsense air about her. She's a boss babe who knows what she wants and gets it DONE. Staunch liberal Democrat her whole life. Campaigned for RFK. From Wikipedia: "In a 2005 interview with Larry King, Bacall described herself as "anti-Republican... A liberal. The L-word". She added that "being a liberal is the best thing on Earth you can be. You are welcoming to everyone when you're a liberal. You do not have a small mind."" Beautiful hair. Beautiful eyes. Beautiful lips. She's just beauty. LISTEN TO HER VOICE. TELL ME THAT'S NOT THE STUFF THAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF."

#lauren bacall #diahann carroll #hotvintagepoll #fuck that old woman #ladies quarterfinals

[beambillybro]

Credits to @/_momorxn on twitter for the translation! I just wanted to have it in the comic because this literally destroyed me this morning. I ranted to my partner abt this for like a good 30 minutes.

The bully calls them losers, and ivan didnt know what it meant. So, he asks till, and he explains that it basically means "friendless idiot" after calling ivan an idiot, which then prompted ivan to say that the bully was right and they were both friendless idiots. This clearly made till upset and since he only knows how to defend himself with violence he punches ivan and runs away in frustration because in his eyes, ivan, the only friend he had and probably the only person that didnt make him feel like a "friendless idiot", was insulting him of being just that. However, ivan clearly didnt mean it as an offense, he was simply stating what was obvious to him.... that till and him only had each other, and so that made them both "friendless idiots".

Ivan learnt two things that day : first, when something is hurt, you gently touch them and tell them to stay strong. second, he was a loser. So now that hes hurt both physically from till's punch and emotionally for offending his one and only, he gently pats his own injury and tells himself to stay strong, despite the lingering pain that was tormenting him and making it hard for him to confidently believe in what he was saying. am i being dramatic? probably. But this is worth being dramatic for

#alien stage #im in love with ivan #alien stage ivan #ivantill #alien stage till #alien stage icons #ivantill icons #vivinos #cease this at once #NO MORE ANGST

[disaster-bay-leaf]

friends to lovers? hilson

office romance? hilson

love at first sight? hilson

slow burn? hilson

unresolved tension? hilson

not actually unrequited love? hilson

sunshine x grumpy? hilson

yin x yang? hilson

old man yaoi? hilson

partners in crime? hilson

roommate au? hilson

situational bisexuality x we’re not gay???? hilson

fluff? hilson angst? hilson crack? hilson fake relationship? hilson soulmates? hilson hurt/comfort? hilson

loved you too early x loved you too late? hilson

unhinged x holding onto the hinges for dear life? hilson

deep down theres a spark of goodness in you x youre just enough of a bastard to be worth liking? hilson

unconsensual drugging treated like a daily occurence and mild annoyance done out of concern? hilson

show me who you are x the only thing i am is you? hilson

epitome of humanity x youre the only thing in this world keeping me human? hilson

i hurt you ill keep hurting you (i love you) dont leave me x youre hurting yourself (i need you) i love you i cant leave you? hilson

emotionally constipated x has emotional complexity only the shrimp can see? hilson

the wildest adaptation of sherlock’s and watson’s relationship based half on the only real love they know and half on toxic codependence? hilson

ill keep on throwing myself into relationships hoping for once we both stay x ill stay ill stay ill always stay? hilson

tell me my life was worthwile tell me you love me x ill destroy my life for a second more with you? hilson

i-

#they are everything they are nothing #they are endgame they never end up together #im mentally unwell #hilson #house md #malpractice md #gregory house #james wilson #bay house posting

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

This entire scene emotionally destroyed me but there's one part in particular that was like taking a knife to an already open wound.

So, Gon shuts down after the reveal that Kite was dead all along and his stunned and racing mind is disjointed and contradictory. Most of his statements fit into roughly three categories of desperate thoughts:

Vehement inability to process that Kite is dead. From the statement being repeated multiple times to the amount of "no"s everywhere on these pages.

Taking the blame for Kite's death, in a frankly horrifying show of self-hatred (especially given the context of what comes next).

Blaming Pitou and proclaiming that he "didn't do it" in an attempt to absolve the weight of his guilt.

Heartbreaking. But there's one thought here that's a bit different.

Throughout all of this, Gon has been adamant that Kite, and by extension the situation, can be "fixed" - after all, most every issue that's come up before on his adventures could be resolved nicely. But now, suddenly, it can't. Gon can't stand feeling powerless or helpless, and now he finds himself more helpless than he's ever been. And we get this.

"Somebody help me."

Gon is independent. Gon has a burning need to prove his worth through his own strength. Gon has a bad habit of equating "taking responsibility" with fixing things all by himself and rejecting help from others.

Gon has never pleaded for someone to save him before.

And it's just. Holy shit. Holy shit - he's a kid. He's just a kid. And in just a few pages, he's going to make a despair-fueled decision to throw away his life just to regain any semblance of power over a situation that was doomed to be unfixable from the start. He says, "Let it end. I don't care what happens to me now.", because this is the only way he can think of to make his pain and his guilt and Pitou all just stop, by losing himself to all of his power instead of his grief.

#hi. i'm sad and i decided to make it everyone else's problem. #i know i'm stating the obvious here but. ah well. i did say i was here to share the sadness #storyrambles #hxh #hunter x hunter #gon freecss #thank goodness a certain best friend of his actually did show up to help him huh...? #killua as always snapping him out of his own darkness... #hxh meta #<- does it count #omg should i use my analysis tag? i'm gonna. #call me ace detective the way i am ace. and also a detective #hxh spoilers

[baggebythesea]

It hit me... while there is no shortage of emotionally manipulative villains in She-Ra, they are really bad at picking their targets.

Shadow Weaver: "Ah, Micah. You will lead me to greatne... Adora, YOU will leave me to greatness. You are not a goody-two-shoe like my last ward are you... you are? How dissapointing... Glimmer, YOU won't chose what's right over personal gain in the last minu... OK, you would. You know, maybe kids simply aren't worth the effort. Castaspella?"

Catra, meanwhile: "I'd literarely tear the world apart for a pat on the head."

Shadow Weaver: "Shut up, cat. I'm busy. Hmmmm, let's try Adora again."

- -

Light Hope: "Who wants power?"

Glimmer: "ME!"

Light Hope: "Who wants to fulfill the legacy of the princesses of old?"

Glimmer: "Mememememe! Pick me!"

Scorpia: "Say, I wonder if me connecting to the legacy of my mothers would forward anyone's plans."

Light Hope: "And who wants to get access to the secrets of the first ones and all their tech?"

Entrapta: "Heheheheheheh!"

Light Hope: "Adoooooora!"

- -

Horde Prime: "Ah, princess Glimmer. You are interested in personal glory and power, right?"

Glimmer: "What? No! That shit nearly fucked me and all my friends over and I'm stewing in guilt over it."

Catra: "I wouldn't mind some power..."

Horde Prime, ignoring her: "But how about the chance to bask in the glory of Prime?"

Hordak: "I'd give everything to..."

Glimmer: "Ew. I'm busting your fucking orb right now."

Entrapta: "Hello! Anyone want to tempt me with some tech and science?"

Horde Prime: "Nah, I'm just going to order your boyfriend to shoot you in the face instead."

Hordak: "Wow! This is really illuminating for my priorities."

- -

Double Trouble: Wow, you are all amatures. *flawlessly manipulates the rebellion into shambles and then turns around and have Catra and Hordak destroy each other with a few words*

(To be fair to Glimmer, she also pulled off the manipulation of Scorpia without a hitch)

(And to be fair to Catra, she pulled off the manipulations of both Entrapta and Adora perfectly)

#spop #Shadow Weaver #Light Hope #Horde Prime #Double Trouble

[canigetawaho]

This is just my opinion but I don't think "just 2 boys kissing brought new fans" and it saddens me to hear this being repeated over and over again... This was a highly anticipated round because the characters had so much time to develop and people got to know them better than Sua and Mizi when the first round appeared or Luka in round 5.

2 characters that so many people loved and rooted for were going to fight against eachother and there was always the fear that one of them (or both) was going to die so, of course after so much time had passed between rounds and so much hype has been built up, round 6 finally droped and people went crazy over it (in the "this has destroyed me emotionally, well done 👏" type of way) and it is to be expected that such a reaction full of raw pain was going to attract attention and others would join because it's such a great story with amazing characters and a splendid soundtrack.

Personally, I just couldn't truly feel Mizi's pain until I got to know her better but with Ivan and Till I was already invested in by the time Cure droped so it hit 2 times harder

I'm not saying that there aren't toxic Ivantill fans or fans that came and are staying just for them afterall, it's inevitable but I would say that it's a small percentage and it's not worth the mischaracterization (I hope I wrote that right) of the new fans and of what the round 6 and it's impact actually was/meant

#alien stage #alnst #ivantill #round 6 #mizisua #but I am sad and annoyed #of course you can have your own opinion #I was just sick of seeing it everywhere #i just love them all sir #I think tomorrow I'll just post something more lighthearted to feel better lol

[allsadnshit]

It's so wild to me that people will get filler and Botox and do like 30 step skincare routines but refuse to stop drinking and vaping etc cause I had such a good FaceTime with my dad today and like not only is he showing up so different and attentive and strong and clear as a father now that he's sober but he looked so good and I kind of can't stop thinking about how he's in his 60's and has always had a bad complexion and after a year of not drinking and doing yoga and therapy he literally looks like a decade younger and I think it's such a scam people push plastic surgery and expensive skincare on us as a society and yet not a soul is suggesting that maybe the best thing for our health is not poisoning ourselves

Like so many of my loved ones are heavy drinkers (have at least one drink most days, heavier on weekends) and have problems with their immune system and get sick really easily which can def be affected by so many factors but like it's just crazy to see an alcoholic who's literally been in my life since the beginning get sober and be like wow it's not just a matter of addiction and substance it was like actually not letting his body function at it's true capacity

Like I wonder how many of us walk around drinking and smoking and then wondering why we have early hair thinning problems, dull skin, and constantly catching colds and flues while we actively destroy our immune system

Like we all know alcohol lowers our immune systems ability to fight and be strong and do its job but it's so amazing to actually see someone you love get healthier than you've ever seen them

Even though I've been sober for a few years now too it does really inspire me that it's worth the trouble not just emotionally and mentally but physically too in so many ways!!!!