I can't find it (although chances are I never posted it :/), but to this day I think about the post where I share possibility of past akuma victims just, remembering everything. All of them remember.
All. Of. Them.
And, it just sets off this series of support systems.
Individual and group therapy is something that is set up for those who need it.
August's mom starts a forum after her son starts remembering his time as an akuma, and it leads to more parents speaking up about their children, very young children, having nightmares and needing to sleep with their parents or older siblings because their memories as an akuma is hitting them hard.
People who work call off in order to process what's going on.
School gets cancelled for a brief period (like maybe a week or two) of time, some students stay home for longer.
Friends support each other whenever the memories get too intense.
We see so much support and love between everyone who remembers and is remembering...
...but then we have Adrien.
Adrien who can't bring himself to look for support. Adrien who feels like he shouldn't get help.
Everyone who's been akumatized is remembering what they did, what happened, and people can back up what's happened with clear evidence (articles, blogs/vlogs, clips from past livestreams or news reports, etc.) but he doesn't have that.
Chat Blanc's timeline is gone and Ephemeral's was reversed. There is no existing evidence that he's been akumatized. No one remembers he was akumatized, except for Marinette.
Marinette, who's Ladybug.
Ladybug, who's kept things from him. His akumatization, the fact she must of planned on having him reveal his identity just to not tell him hers (and she must of planned on having Viperion in on it, too, which makes it worse).
The girl he no longer knows if he can trust.
He doesn't have anyone who can support him. He doesn't want to say anything in case people thing he's making it all up.
After all, can he prove Chat Noir got akumatized, killed everyone in Paris, maybe even France, split the moon in half and almost killed Ladybug again? Could he prove he was Ephemeral and helped his father win (and God, if that isn't just another peachy thing to find out)? That Ladybug lost her Miraculous because he couldn't break out of his father's control?
He's remembering killing the people he loves and finding his mother (fuck, his mom is under his house) and not being able to resist the akuma and the world ending and being alone surrounded by water and just the continuous thought of "I killed them...it's all my fault..."
He's alone, moreso than he normally is. He shows to school and photoshoots looking dead. He slowly stops talking to his friends, eventually stops showing up to school (Nathalie informing them that he's unwell, since that's what he told her) and eventually leaving Paris to find someone he can talk to because his memories won't leave him alone.
No one knows where he went. No one knows where Chat Noir went. Both of them just, vanished. No one knows why. They can't come up with a reason for him to run.
Nino thinks he's runaway after finally having had enough of how Gabriel treats him, and he took advantage of everyone remembering their akumatizations to leave.
Lila thinks he didn't run away and instead was shipped off to who knows where in case Hawkmoth/Shadowmoth/Monarch sends out an akuma and he he can target past victims who have this new found guilt, she'd just hate it if she got turned back into Volpina or Chameleon and target him :(
Some people think Chat Noir is running away from his responsibilities. Some think he ran away to get real training, maybe an extra weapon in case he needs it.
Meanwhile, Marinette is having a crisis, because if everyone is remembering what happened while they were akumatized....but the time line got erased. Chat Noir couldn't possibly... he'd find a way to leave his Miraculous with her, right? Maybe he wanted to prove he could still be a reliable hero? Maybe she's looking too deep into it (look deeper, honey, you hit the nail on the head, keep hitting it and be a better partner).
I honestly don't know where Adrien would go, part of me wants to say London, because if he could vent to anyone who might possibly believe him, it could be to Felix. Part of me wants him to literally still be in Paris/France, just with a new found ability to wield shadows and be able to hide in them without being noticed. And yet another part of me wants him to run to an entire different continent and leave everything behind.
Just, it's one of the worst ways he can find out what secrets are/were kept from him, and he's not able to say anything because:
He can't know anybody's secret ID, despite it being important he does in case he has to get help on the off chance Ladybug can't (she's captured, she's affected by the akuma's powers, etc.). Look what happened when he found out who Ladybug was. Death on the one hand and his father winning on the other.
Ladybug likely had to go through so much in order to defeat Chat Blanc, why would she want to hear his POV about it? The damage was reversed. He should be happy everyone is still alive alive again after he killed them.
Ladybug is the Guardian, of course she had to know his secret identity. Right? Maybe if she didn't hand out the miraculous, Fu would have and he'd know everyone's secret ID. But she's the Guardian now, so it has to be important for her to know who holds what Miraculous.
He should have known his father was the villain this whole time. Wow, you lived with the villain and didn't suspect him at all? You could have saved time by taking them time to look further into things, but no.
He got akumatized twice and the second time he just handed his miraculous over. It doesn't matter that he wasn't in control, maybe this is a sign he doesn't deserve a miraculous, let alone one of the two most powerful.
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"Could I have your hand, sir?" Max didn't move, which Dexter was, sadly, getting used to.
"Sir?" Max jerked, then turned and stared at him, lost and blank. "Your hand, please."
Max's hand lifted shakily, and he laid it gently in Dexter's upturned palm. Dexter gave a quick and quiet "thank you," then turned it over in his own hand, observing him closely.
Too closely - his knuckles were rough and his fingernails were dull and cracked in places. His once-soft, not-a-day-in-his-life-subjected-to-hard-labour hands were now, already, toughened and split and scarred in places, especially the heel of his palm. He turned it over again, this time to stop looking so intensely. He had only wanted to give it a cursory glance to begin with.
"Do you know what I see, sir?" he asked as conversationally as he could manage, running his fingers along Max's abused flesh. He seemed to be at least half paying attention, his eye gazing down between them, and he'd occasionally twitch, encouragingly Dexter thought. He seemed to want to curl around him, then stopped and shook, his hand squeezing into a fist. Dexter coaxed him back out, encouraged him to hold himself lightly.
"What do you see?" He was almost startled by Max actually continuing their conversation, that happened so rarely now, shaking and quiet as it was. He took a deep breath, was he really going to do this?
"I see a hand, with five fingers." Max remained quiet, though his brow curled, and a guarded look came into his eye, though he still wasn't looking at Dexter. He felt a pang of guilt, but he had to try. "What do you see?"
Max's eye unfocused and began to water. He looked up, but not enough to reach Dexter's gaze in return, instead staring through his chest, and he felt just as hollow and empty as he must look to him.
"Do you take me for a fool, DAX?" Quiet and as close to angry as he'd heard since they'd been here.
No, not angry.
Betrayed.
He swallowed down the stinging lump at the back of his throat. He had to put on a brave face, had to keep his composure if he wanted Max to get better. That was the only thing he wanted, more than anything.
"Of course not, sir. Genuinely, what do you see?"
Max pulled his hand away and turned his body, his bandaged side facing Dexter. Shutting him out, pointedly. Dexter's empty hand curled into a fist, he was no better.
"Please, don't..." Max took a shallow, shuddering breath, and several beats before he spoke again, even quieter. "Don't ridicule me." Dexter could hear his breath catch, and he wanted nothing more than for this all to just stop.
"Sir, I didn't-"
"I've had enough of that." He shook his head stiffly, the action strange and wrong, like he had forgotten how. He stilled, his head turned even further away. "More than enough."
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Apropos of nothing, i've been playing a lot of Cultist Simulator lately. I also discovered this picrew maker that lets you design custom portraits in the game's style, and i've made my protagonists (from this particular chain of legacies) thus far.
This is Anna. She was an Aspirant who very interestingly had Mr. Allen retire quite quickly after she started working under him; i chose to interpret this as her being a very impressive office worker. Sadly, her pursuit of power was cut short by her own dark thoughts.
This is Benjamin, the handsome but shy and nerdy doctor who looked after Anna in her last days. He proceeded to do far better than she had, pulling off several expeditions, recruiting over a dozen followers, wooing one of them (i finally figured out how that worked), and achieving success as both a doctor and a painter while running an occult organization. Unfortunately, this success proved to be his undoing, as he gained more than enough notoriety to attract the Suppression Bureau. He got off on his first trial, despite the damning evidence, but had no such luck at the second.
This is Callum, a bright young thing much less successful than Benjamin. As his inheritance from his father started to dwindle, Callum made a bargain that, if he had thought about for more than two seconds, he would have realized he had no means of fulfilling. Without a cult, he didn't have any followers to betray, and so the only person to hand over was himself. Hope the shiny gold was worth it, Callum you idiot.
This is Clara, Callum's much smarter twin sister who decided to try things like low-level office work and painting before agreeing to bargains with occult forces she didn't understand. Her cult is quite small yet, but the fact that she has one means she's already outstripped her brother. Whether she will outshine Benjamin as well in her pursuit of new, dangerous sensations remains to be seen.
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NOW THAT WOULD BE VERY INTERESTING!!!
I belive you're refering to Jade in the halloween event, when he gets possessed and starts to act like Floyd (see here and here). it's truly a scary sight to see someone as composed as Jade start acting wildly like Floyd (it also reminds me of the groovy version of his event card, in which it's the only time, at least that I can remember of, that we get to see him a kind of unhinged. he's got so much potential to snap and show a little insanity. as a treat.)
there's one instance in which Floyd acts like Jade, in one of his ceremonial robes voice lines (see here). it's a very short glimpse that lasts less than 10 seconds, but it's enough to fuel our imagination!
their voice actors are very talanted in imitating each other (that is, if they didn't just swap lmao), which leads me to believe that they could easily speak like the other twin if they wanted to. Floyd even drops his voice when he's trying to appear intimidating or is on a bad mood, showing his vocal chords can reach lower pitches similar to Jade's voice.
they look enough alike to pull it off on people that don't know them very well and wouldn't know in which side is the long stripe for each twin, too.
the actual problem would be how they act, really. down to their body language, Jade and Floyd are very different, with how Jade is always with a straight posture and rolled back shoulders, looking ahead with a carefully polite expression, while Floyd is hunched over and with slumped shoulders, only paying attention to what he wants to and showing his emotions freely on his face. how Jade is more reserved and keeps to himself while Floyd can and will occupy everyone else's personal space without a care in the world.
these differences would make this whole act look even more entertaining, should they be able to pull it off. I think Jade might have done this at least once before, just to drive Azul crazy with two Floyds. though, as I said in my Jade brainrot, I think he'd stop after some hours since Floyd's way of dealing with things is not his preferred one, and he'd much rather have his usual fun with mind games. squeezing people left and right can only be fun to a certain extent.
now, for Floyd to willingly imitate Jade? I think he must be on a rather extraordinarily good mood or have no other choice but to do so. Floyd doesn't like to be mistaken as his brother and he doesn't want people to think they are the same, so there's no point in him pretending to be Jade. sure, he did imitate him in that voice line, but it was more to poke some fun at Jade and show off his vocal skills, not because he wanted people to assume he was his brother.
although just like you, I also would really like to see this happening, it would be so funny! the potential! I don't know which would be more chaotic: two Floyds or two Jades (granted, both options would drive Azul, and pretty much everyone else, insane either way). I don't think they'd drag it out, because if people expect them to act like the other then it's no fun anymore, but they would have the time of their lives while it lasted!
should d*sney and aniplex ever decide they are in the mood to goof around a bit (maybe as an April fools event?), I'd be delighted to see what they'd prepare for this particular case!
I'm glad you liked my other rambles! thank you for sharing such an entertaining thought with me!!
(also, I've answered like this because you probably accidentally forgot to put on anon mode when you sent this ask, and I'd like to preserve your privacy! don't worry, should you feel more comfortable this way, I'll turn a blind eye and pretend I didn't see a thing! it's your call, really)
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