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queenofthecats · 15 days

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HELP, I FINALLY FOUND THE FANFIC CRACKSHIP I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR! It was deleted from ao3, but somebody uploaded nearly every fanfic published for years now up to a public folder to download. It was the only one ever written, and I got it now. The only one with that tag, and relationship.

P.S. if anybody of any fandom is looking for an old ao3 fanfic, lmk! It takes a while due to the fic folders being huge, the one I’m downloading after downloading a 6.3 gb file is now 34.8 gb, though it is the biggest sooo. IT WILL take a while, but I will find fics for people if anybody needs. Took me so long to understand.

I’m so happy.

#fanfictions #ao3 #old fanfic #manga #anime #Yui komori #ema hinata #if you can’t guess by the tags #it is them being together #my fav characters #I’m so happyyyy #it’s taken me forever to get here #deleted fanfiction

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myrkulitescourge · 5 months

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the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me

just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.

like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.

in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.

how am i supposed to act normal about this.

#i need to lay down #just drop this in there right at the beginning why not!#that’s INTENSE. and completely sincere considering his demeanor at the party. god #he’s so… nice. in the romanced epilogue. i expected him to be a little smug and jokey #if tav told him the others weren’t doing so hot without the two of them around #but he takes it so genuinely and with visible disappointment?? literally shocked me #i thought he would say oh of course their lives have taken a turn without our impressive leadership lol!#and then redirect into something a little less flippant #but man. he just gets sad. astarion six months into a loving relationship is like a stray cat that instantly gets cuddly when you adopt it #dude went cotton candy marshmallow saccharine sweet in a HEARTBEAT #bless the others with your presence he says. i’ll always be here he says. we have forever after all he says.#head in my hands. how could they do this to me #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #astarion #bg3 epilogue spoilers #bg3 spoilers #baldur’s gate 3 spoilers #bg3

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rickallensbarefeet · 3 months

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More John posting because my Duran Duran concert film VHS tape arrived and I cannot be normal about him

#the tape was from japan so its taken forever to get here so you can imagine the anticipation building up from this #hes literally so unreal its stupid #i wanna simon post too cos im not normal abt him either but the image limit is stopping me #ghdjfhjsfjskdj im gonna have a heart attack #john taylor #duran duran

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yrdnzz · 7 months

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kainess for an art trade w the FAMOUSSSS @ghostvom :] we started the trade in april btw haha.... hashtag artist in stem

on twitter yayyyy

#yrdnzz art #blue lock fanart #blue lock #michael kaiser #alexis ness #kainess #kainess is so canon guys trust me....#this was really fun #took forever tho bc i didnt use any refs ohhhh my gewdness #in my head kaiser is the crazy kind of possessive where he feels the need to likeee #assert himself as someone superior or some shit #he sees ness as a possession and thats why hes always so grabby with him #thinking that he would get extra grabby whenever other ppl talk to ness a lot --> feels like he's gonna get taken or smth #ness likes it tho bc he likes being kaiser's #“i'm kaiser's shield” head ass #i hate gay men booooooo #i need to kill myself guys when will suicide sunday get here #toxic yaoi

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dodgebolts · 2 months

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#also for anyone who cares I did end up seeing George’s response and I’m much more neutral on everything now pending caiti’s new info #needless to say this blog will be up forever p much and you won’t see any dteam anti shit from me ever 👍#I just will probably still be an absentee because I’m getting so busy with life and the vct frogisms have taken over 😭#but ill be around from time to time! like I said before I have very few regrets of my time here and that still stands. ily all lots #cya for now it’s finals week soon I’m getting my ass handed to me by everything 😭😭😭

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risetherivermoon · 3 months

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some beach episode s1 dads art bc i was bored and wanted to draw shirtless men 😍

also just drawing my Ron and Darryl designs and touching up Henry and Glenn,

i imagine Ron having that wide uncanny blue eyed stare, so yk...hes staring

(diff versions under cut)

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thegreatyin · 12 days

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it's always so interesting to me that The Fae Country™ in ffxiv shadowbringers used to be the first's equivalent of ishgard. like first of all absolutely jarring information to know because i forget it wasn't always snowy all the time and second of all both funny and kinda heartbreaking

#shadowbringers depression as usual #like. just picturing the ishgard we know and love like that... completely devastated taken over by souls twisted into Fae Guys...#idk. something about it strikes me #yin-thoughts #ffxiv #shadowbringers is such a good depiction of a post apocalypse story because it's simultaneously taking place during the apocalypse #and also about how the apocalypse has ruined so many things forever #dont even get me started on the obvious *vaguely gestures at emet selch lore* for the apocalypse themeing here

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soldier-poet-king · 8 months

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Now that I have a New and Fancy job title (as of Monday), would it be a complete dick move to add my post grad degrees to my email signature???

Like. It's standard in the field. Everyone I email OUTSIDE of my organization includes them. I probably need help being taken seriously because I am Young Baby Child among mostly older professionals and am talked over in meetings by everyone except the IT guy (bc Ive proven to him I actually know what I'm doing and I'm the only non-IT computer literate person in the building) and one extremely elderly coworker who is my favourite person in the whole world and listens to me when I voice my opinions.

HOWEVER. My boss doesn't use hers in her email signature + I have more advanced degrees than she does. So like. It would look shitty. But I'm concerned abt being taken seriously by outside ppl (I already KNOW I'm not taken seriously by ppl inside the org, but y'know, non profit hell + I am the youngest person in the building by a SIGNIFICANT amount and have chronic baby face syndrome so I'm walking around looking like an animal crossing villager despite early greys and laugh lines)

#franposting #this isnt even a brag. my boss has been working in the field longer than ive been alive #i disagree with her methods at times but this isnt me trying to one up her #i am genuinely just trying to establish myself more widely in the profession and to be taken seriously #as someone with advanced degrees and technical skills as i build up my practical experience #i have pride and ambitions beyond my current job yknow?#which is probably selfish of me #but im GOOD at this work and i want to excel and move on to bigger things #even if my boss has it in her head that im going to be here forever/til she retires in 5 years #like im being groomed to be her successor #and i absolutely. absolutely not. i want to move onto bigger things.#UNFORTUNATELY I AM MAYBE. SECRETLY INCREDIBLY AMBITIOUS ABT RESEARCH AND INFORMATION WORK #also i just. worked hard for those degrees. i want to be proud of myself #since NO ONE ELSE IS PROUD OF ME #dont even get me started on my parents' just. non response. to my accomplishments:///#IT'S PETTY AND SELFISH I KNOW. BUT I CRAVE PRAISE AND AFFIRMATION. I NEED TO BE TOLD IM DOING A GOOD JOB. IM INSECURE AND A PPL PLEASER

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m0e-ru · 10 months

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HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to the day my brain was literally rewired and my gender was being changed by the second SO HERES A GAS STATION SPECIAL before this joint was even a gas station in the FIRST PLACE !!!!

FUCKING FREAK

#kommento #// theres a whole love letter in here dont open these tags it's a readmore equivalent #p4 #⛽️🌫#moel gas station attendant #tohru adachi #boot.tingting #arttag #// sneak peak before the manager became a manager and only put the uniform on to see how well it would fit and hasnt taken it off since.#// im tearing up because i hate how it's been three years and also i cant find the other notebook so i went through gphotos instead #// also that i miss blorbo so much i miss my old self so much she was so sweet and genuine and the passion and love and everything #// STUPID SEQUENCE OF PHOTOS the way my brain was so fucking rearranged i had to get up and make memes and take screenshots and then #// draw then COME BACK AGAIN to watch the thing that changed my life forever. AGAIN #// sorry was having technical difficluties in yokohama im back istok im normal (affirmation )#// this is literally all me before i started thinking about myself and wondering about my gender then the dysphoria came rushing in like #// some freshwater spring about to make a waterfall and i had to let it settle and get used to the ecosystem with two more years #// took a month where p4gsteam was booted up and i made my own save at some point and finished it on july 8 #// clasped my hands and had a honeymoon period over. mimi <3 then the day after rolled around and i watched the .chair car adventure #// literally my first p4 doodles were mimi and adachi theres no fucking denying it theyre the og. theyve been with me from the start #// theyre so important to me theyre so personal they made me who i am thats why im so mad with the community i have to share them with #// because theyre all so different from me and i took that personally #// IT'S KOKAY !! look at how far ive gone. this is the biggest archival effort ive ever done my entire life ive grown branches #// farther than ive done before ive put such a variety of skills to use just to make myself food and manage this damn station #// and keep some sort of love alive which was all from me and is still from ME !!!#// crying while writing these tags now sorry okyakusan i'll clean it up soon #// these doodles really explaining my mindset from the start and how the grindset has never really changed at all #// it was all friendship for three years and still will be i love adachi i love gas station attendant so much THERE I'M SAYING IT #// cherry on top friend just dm'd me to get an actual job at a gas station IM SHITTING MYSELF #// happy anniversary to my genderest best friend and the most problematic uncle ive ever had #// we're all holding hands and theyre treating me to topsicles because it's all i could ever shamelessly want

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soldez · 6 months

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#i have to say this somewhere or im gonna go crazy #so at a preschool. you HAVE to have one adult sitting at every table when kids are eating. and you also need a person in the hall #for kids getting their lunchboxes and going to the bathroom and shit ok. are you with me here. this makes sense #so today. my 2 coworkers had already taken the chairs bc i got caught up in the hall but i was so fucking hungry that i just ate standing u #which was fine. like i could just put my lunch down if someone needed my help and i Did that ok it was fine. no one was left alone #but later at SNACKTIME. it took me forever to get these 2 kids in the room and seated ready to eat & by the time i got in some kids were #already finished and ready to go to the playroom. so i was like ok i guess I'm not eating for the latter half of the day because they cant #be left alone. and my 2 coworkers at this point were sitting with the snackers and they looked fine so i looked after the Players #intermittently glancing to the snack tables to make sure everyone was fine mind you #So what happened here was.#There was a 20 second interval between the time i glanced up to see 2 adults at the snack table. And the time i glanced up to see #a completely unsupervised snack table. one kid STANDING UP ON THE TABLE blowing raspberries and pointing at the other kids #could not have been more than 20 or 30 seconds that i wasn't looking and NO ONE TOLD ME they were leaving the room #if i had been WARNED that they were leaving i would have prioritized the snackers and sat with them so no one choked and no one fucking #stood on the table #but they both just left for whatever reason without saying anything #and when i brought it up after school they were just like. well marty you were eating too much during lunch #next time you should eat before coming in to work so you can give the kids your full attention #??????? i already skipped a meal today for that exact reason?? how is it my fault that i don't want to starve?#am i actually in the wrong here because it's driving me FUCKING nuts. that was NOT a safe situation and it obviously can NOT happen again #but the issue was a lapse in communication not me wanting to eat food so i don't actually die #and those were two different times of day so they're not even relevant #obviously there are bigger issues in the world than this but i feel like throwing up over it. this was not my fault #I'm sorry that you guys can survive off of like 1 spoonful of granola and a single acai berry for the entire day but im not built like that

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months

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if i start to wonder what would've happened if arakawa did take The Right Baby and ikumi got back masato then no im not dont look at me

#snap chats #dont even look at me bro im not even playing #because OBVIOUSLY arakawa would then raise ichi yeah. thats a whole can of worms to open #but then what happens to masato ? ikumi and jo were already running back to get him #ok. more accurately IKUMI was running back to get him while jo was tagging along #so sure they open the locker and get him out but then what ?#assuming that the damage to masato's organs had already taken place what would they do then ?#would ikumi Also have rushed masato to the hospital? but then what ?#arakawa could have at least explained some form of the truth to the doctors and be like This Is My Baby Help Him #but what would ikumi and jo do ? would they admit That was their baby? because THEN what #or would they just give up the baby at the hospital then and there #assuming they even get to the hospital on time to save masato #like girl do not LOOK AT ME I WONDER SO BADLY WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF IKUMI WAS EVEN A MINUTE QUICKER #like whats the likely series of events to ensue... i almost wanna think they Wouldnt take masato to the hospital #they didn't even trust an adult to take masato instead of putting him in a locker #bringing him to the hospital would just invite a bunch of questions #and it wouldnt surprise me if the doc they saw wouldnt figure the real story #i HAVE to stop thinking i will be here FOREVER if i dont #anyway... to pivot.. i did some christmas shopping today //screams//#and while i was out this mate was like 'oh i really like your hair :)' and i was just. thanks :) i didnt shower yet <:)#every time someone tells me my hair's nice it is always on a day where i havent washed it and its like... should i just not #im not gonna even FINISH that thought NASTY but still. it is very funny lol #ok bye

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theygender · 1 year

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I've been trying to figure out and justify why I've been experiencing so much fatigue lately. At first I thought I may have developed anemia from my endometriosis making me bleed for 8 weeks straight but my blood tests came back fine. Maybe I'm just exhausted bc I had to work that entire time while actively sick? But I had quite a few days off to rest this month and I haven't been as sick recently, so what gives? Turns out I didn't need to look for an outside source. Apparently fatigue is one of THE most common symptoms of endo and it's just not mentioned often bc most doctors underestimate the impact fatigue can have on people's lives 🙃 The call is coming from inside the fucking house

#endometriosis #just decided to google if endo itself can cause fatigue and uh. turns out it fucking can!#one study im reading here had ~85% of participants with endo report pain. ~50% report heavy bleeding. and 100% report fatigue #that would make fatigue a more common symptom of endometriosis than the symptoms that DEFINE endometriosis #WHY have i never seen fatigue mentioned on any other resource before 😭 why did my DOCTOR not mention it #jk. one of the articles literally says that its under-discussed and under-researched bc most doctors dont think fatigue is a big deal #tell that to me sleeping through all of my fucking alarms missing class missing appointments and being late for work #rambling #at least i know now i guess #ive been having to explain myself to my professors and my boss and ive been correcting myself #to say 'fatigue from my chronic illness' instead of 'chronic fatigue' bc i didnt think this counted #but. looks like it fucking does. endo can cause chronic fatigue. fuck #can i just get this fucking hell machine taken out of me already #its not like im using it. and a month or two of recovering from surgery would be better than a forever of pain and gi issues and fatigue #menstruation tw

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partialveil · 1 month

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my problem is that i continue to avoid living my life while watching other people live theirs and living vicariously through them which leads me to feel even more unhappy, empty and unfulfilled, and then i complain to myself about it and get annoyed with my own complaining because it's been like this for 178267267383 years and i've always failed to do anything about it. this shit truly cannot continue.

#i mean i have taken little steps here and there to be more intentional and mindful and appreciate the little things in my daily life #and things have improved in many areas of my life #but overall i'm still not happy and still don't really feel alive nor do i feel like i'm living the way i should be #things still need to change significantly and i feel like i'm getting close to reaching that breaking point #(this is seemingly the only way things ever wind up changing for me unfortunately lol)#also don't mind me. all of my rambles and complaints are just me talking to myself really #because the wheels are forever turning in my brain and i like to get these thoughts out somewhere

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betasuppe · 2 years

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IT'S OFFICIALLY TIME TO WELCOME NORUMI INTO THE SPOTLIGHT!♡♡♡

Norumi was born & raised in the Alabaster Icelands as the middle child sandwiched between an overachieving sister & a charming workaholic brother. She is naturally very quiet & reserved thanks to having two very colorful & exciting siblings outshining her no matter what she tried. She became more distant from people as she grew older, having no interest in their nonsensical going-ons.

Though everyone in the Pearl Clan was naturally weary & frightened of pkmn, Rumi found peace in being around them & began secretly studying & observing nearby pkmn in free time. She was especially fond of swinubs because they were just SO cute!!

One hatching season, she got too enraptured by the adorable wild pig babies, attempting to draw the cute scene of its parents nuzzling the newly hatched swinub, when the herd's alpha piloswine took notice of her popping out of her hidden spot, & it charged at the poor girl immediately.

She just barely got away, but the beast trampled her journal & writing tools, before it let out an enraged cry and evolved before her eyes, doing its very damndest to protect the herd's young.

She absolutely froze up, but was saved when a machoke came bursting through the trees and began wrestling with the monstrous mamoswine by its tusks.

Norumi was just staring in awe, when Warden Ingo grabbed her wrist & began hastily dragging her out of the way. They hid temporarily behind a large pile of snow as the battle raged on, eventually ending with the warden's pkmn willingly retreating back to it's ball at the warden's side.

The mamoswine continued in its blind rampage & circled the area multiple times, & Rumi nearly cried out in fear at one close call, which resulted in Ingo covering her mouth as the two huddled quietly together. Eventually, the beast calmed & returned to watching over the other pig pkmn, satisfied that the danger was gone.

The two breathed a sigh of relief & the warden extended a hand, offering to walk the girl back to the village. First though, she begged him to help her go back to retrieve her belongings, though hesitant to get too close to the pig pkmn herd, he agreed to assist right away.

After quietly sifting through the trampled snow, Ingo found a handful of her smashed tools and what was left of Rumi's journal, the one she'd been using since a young adventurous teen to study pkmn... it was in terrible shape & absolutely brutalized.

The girl who'd been teased for having a frozen unfeeling heart since she was young felt herself falling apart & she cried as she held onto the destroyed book that had been her most treasured belonging.

Ingo helped her put all of her damaged items in a fabric pouch & they carefully retreated back to the village, with Lady Sneasler waiting for them at the village's entrance.

Heartbroken & feeling like an idiot for what had happened, she was sure the warden was going to sell her out to Irida or even her own family, but instead, he informed her that he'd be staying in the Icelands for two weeks on the leader's orders. He promised her he'd try to help replace some of the items she'd lost & that if she wanted company on her next outing, he'd be happy to provide her some much needed support.

He left her with a tip of the hat and she could only just watch him go, suddenly realizing she might have just a little tiny crush growing on the warden OH NO

[Part 2 coming soon...]

#norumi #ingo #warden ingo #nogo #hehehehhhh finally getting to use their ship name!♡#sneasler #nok draws #& ok ok HERE WE GOOOOOOOO #more to cone soon #THANKS FIR BEARING WITH ME #i know its taken forever fir me to share more than one drawing of norumi lol #sorry & thanks for waiting gang!!!!♡#btw based her off of the gals in the pearl clan #but with actual personality & unique design rather than everyone havibg the same model lmaooo #i think her older sister is Rema #this is hiw Rumi's entire existence got started so THANK YOU REMA #train twins♡#nok ocs

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cuteniaarts · 19 days

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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

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applejongho · 8 months

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just to describe how far down in the circles of hell i am in this class, this was an interaction that happened yesterday

[before class started, like 10 min before]

doctor/prof: if u have any questions, please let me know now!

me, raising my hand: i have a question

doctor: please email me, we dont have time for questions

#it made me the fucking joker for the entire class like on god #i kept raising my hand during the lecture #i literally dont care if he gets sick of me #get fucked bitch #i am in your emails forever now #if it wasnt for me and one other person we would have no clue what the symbols in the formulas mean #like my bad i dont know what mu (μ) is in this context im here to learn actually #i do not know everything. in fact i know nothing #apple lady words #my friends that have taken the class before looked at the powerpoint lectures ('lectures') and they dont even know what hes trying to say #lmaooooo

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