#it's a bit of a shock to the system

[odetolovers]

i wish i knew more queer women who were very into their careers

#i've always struggled with gender and while i've settled with being Just Me i can't deny that i was raised on the belief that i would be a #homemaker and upon figuring out that i dont want that and i actually want a #pretty high profile career i'm really struggling #i'm a very veryyy femme lesbian and the way that my relationship is set to work in the future means i won't be the one to carry a kid or #stay at home. and i love that because i know who i am in that regard and my strengths Do lie in career and working #but i struggle with it too because as a person who didnt figure out she was queer until she was 20 and thus thought she'd have the #heterosexual experience of marrying a dude & carrying a kid & not being a huge career person for years #it's a bit of a shock to the system #i really struggle with overcoming gender roles that i've grown up being indoctrinated into believing and still thinking of myself as a good #& kind & nurturing person despite not wanting to be the stay at home mother #i wish i wiiiiish i knew more queer women who went through this realisation and came out the other end of it because it's harddd for real #valentina talks #i never realised how deeply how i grew up and the society i faced drilled into me that being a career woman & gay & taking on a more #traditionally “male” gender role was Bad and made you Wrong TM

[theminecraftbee]

it's funny i feel like tango split the energy from the creature that was decked out in half this season. the factory has the mechanical majesty, the twisting wires, the sense of a multitude of parts coming together to make something greater than any of its pieces, and of course, the insane redstone programming. meanwhile, ALL of the haunted energy went to the mail system. that thing is so so haunted. it already ate joe hills once. could not possibly be more haunted. together, they make "yep, tango tek is sure still at it" in its strongest form and i couldn't be more happy,

#hermitcraft #tangotek #bonus points for the mail system having the spirit/hauntedness of decked out: pearl and etho are also the masters of it #bonus points for the factory having the physicality of decked out: i haven't caught a tango stream in a bit. but i would be SHOCKED - #- if he doesn't have to carry party poppers to fly around in there lol.

[captainhysunstuff]

A reactionary comic about rereading a fic that I recently recommended that was way darker than I remembered, lol. I still love it for how they pretty much drive each other crazy, but that word choice and the consent issues... *cringes* At least there are valid warnings beforehand, and the first fic was pretty PG. Sorry. *laughs sheepishly*

#drawn by me #my fancomic #sort of a review of a fanfic #Death Note #lawlight #self portrait #Light Yagami #L #aggressive making out #it's just that I'm usually seen as maybe a couple steps below wholesome and felt weird about my recommendations after rereading them #and it was on fanfiction.net so they don't have the in depth tagging system that Ao3 has so there is a bit of blindness #but still thank goodness the author did provide warnings and actually recommended people skip certain chapters #L and Light are NOT nice to each other in Concerto in D Minor to say the least #that and Violins Light are still very influencial for me and for inspiring my love of these two driving each other to the edge of madness #and *spoilers* they don't even have sex in it! the majority of the explicitness is just from violence and non-consensual... torture touch? #it also follows my weird trend of starting off kind of silly to more serious when it comes to tone #and of course driving Light into a horrible crisis~ #sorry for my lack of artistic activity. I'm still in the process of drawing the next installment of my fancomic #but I did wanna do this as a psuedo apology for my recommended fics. I was honestly shocked by how dark/brutal it gets lol #I do still recommend them if you can handle it. It’s honestly not the darkest thing I’ve read lol

[nigmos]

not going to lie i feel very nervous about the idea of starting this internship even though it's not set in stone yet.

i just want to do well if i manage to get it.

#things are just changing for me and it's a bit of a shock to my system but i think in a good way

[bluesidedown]

Hey guess what. In 16 days I'm gonna be getting on a plane and flying to [country redacted] and sitting on a beach with my pals for a couple days.

#tho i did look up the temperature there yesterday and it was 29 C with like 85% humidity #which will be a bit of a shock to the system after winter in northern europe #obviously im happy and excited about this #but also im trying to wrap my head around uprooting my entire life again and saying a bunch of goodbyes and losing all my hard won routines #and then going home in like 6 weeks and having to figure out like. the rest of my life. cuz im graduating from my (first) bachelor's degree #at least i know absolutely for sure as of today that i have a job for the summer? so that's something.

[cerealmonster15]

Ummmmmmmm ok listen hear me out wait wait shhhh listen. Ok. Remember how the other day I unearthed and exposed my twst fankids chart I made with my friend like 2+ years ago. Well too bad bc I was thinking about it for a while after and how I was missing the beloved riddle/azul combo -> I always loved how heartslabyul and octavinelle both have trios of besties that are composed of a housewarden, vice housewarden, and a guy who is neither of those but always by their side and basically an honorary co vice house warden anyway 😌 -> a second gen trio would be so cute -> I already like riddle/azul and trey/jade (there was already a trey/jade kid on the chart but my friend made her. And I wanted to make a fresh trio as a specific unit) -> furthering my agenda that cater and Floyd should hang out -> also….

I think the concept of cater/floyd could be potentially REALLY funny and shocking to their peers and tbh also themselves lol. And who am I if not a curator of Sillies 🧍

#I don’t even know how to begin tagging this 🧍 ummmm #azurido #treyjade #…. I don’t know what cater and Floyd are called. #flokei probably lol #twisted wonderland #twst #cereal tries to draw #twst oc #I’ve been marinating this concept since yesterday lol #I doodled out a bunch of ideas first #then lunch break today I drew this #VERY FAST BC I WAS RUNNING OUT OF TIME!!!!!! #and my neck started hurting so bad but I had to get it out of my system!!!! #anyway I think riddle and azul specifically #would be so shocked about cater/floyd they would nearly pass out lol #riddle: cater we neee to get you to a hospital you are unwell #azul: i am already calling an ambulance #please it would be so funny #maybe they’d do it for the bit at first and then actually fall in love like the fanfictions #idk don’t think too hard about it LOL ok ummm #I have not named their children yet or decided dorms but #I was thinking about that and their dynamics. teehee #but I’m busy I have to go back to work no more doodling rn bye !!!

[thepinkseashell]

<3

#before its not boston2's birthday anymore i have to make a sentimental little post about her. because i love her. so here goes. #that day actually kind of changed my life a little bit. #i had been very deeply unwell for years and i think that was the day that a little switch flipped in me and the ice began to melt #and i started to be okay. #i dont think i had ever experienced that type of sheer joy and elation and relief and catharsis and it just sortof sent a shock to my system #like. this is real! you are real! you are alive! #you are capable of feeling and existing and being so do it! go. exist. be. live. breathe. and god did i fucking try #and i cant say it was suddenly easy after that. of course not. it is still not quite easy now. but its gotten better. little by little #i started doing things more. i started seeing myself more as human. #and things sort of snowballed and now i feel like im on the cusp of something. i dont know what. #the cusp of living. the cusp of being alive. the cusp of being human. #its the same but different. i was so very dead and just barely teetering into not dead and now im not dead and teetering into alive. i think #i am not substantially different than i was a year ago. not on paper. but i have hope now. i have a little sliver of something. #i have clawed at the wall long enough to dig a hole and goddamn it im climbing through it if it kills me. #boston2 was a catalyst for me. a celebration. an invitation. an apology. a love letter. a hug. a kiss. it was my permission to be okay. #and maybe i am. maybe i will be. #i love you boston2. thank you for everything. i will exist. i will live. i will breathe. and my first breath will be for you.

[glitchbirds]

its the start of my weekend so im stumbling in to say that my internship has been going very well and i would do anything rn to keep working here once it ends and from the looks and sound of it i have a pretty good chance of that though i am trying to not get my hopes up too much

#txt #its been a bit of a shock to my system to get used to two hours of highway driving Every Day AND working again in general #let alone a job with so much physical labor involved. but i like the ppl im working with i like the animals im working with #i genuinely enjoy or at the very least dont Mind a lot of the tedious day to day cleaning and maintenance #i expected that i would flounder a lot more at the beginning and take some time to get back on my feet but my time at the wildlife clinic #has served me very well because theres enough similarities that most of the basics are easy for me to pick up and memorize #it also made me Very resistant to a lot of anthropmorphizing mindsets which has also been useful

[tearsoftime0086]

Thinking of wild AU concepts tonight and came back to the Amalgam AU idea I had for Resident Evil. It lifts a lot of System Shock 2's dynamic with SHODAN and the Many, but essentially Leon nearly dies in Gaiden after his solo encounter with the B.O.W. parasite. Turns out that parasite had just beaten up the newer, second parasite, so the new parasite clings and melds itself into Leon in order to stay alive. That's why the cut on his throat bleeds green in the ending. Leon just thinks he passed out and is unaware of most of this.

Flash-forward to RE4 and Leon's asking Ashley if she's hearing the weird multiple voices speaking in her head too. Ashley's confused because she isn't, and there's differing symptoms of infection between her and Leon. They chalk it up to plaga behavior, but it really becomes noticeable when Leon successfully gets Ashley treated and passes out.

Ashley wakes up to Leon on the ground, looking more emaciated than normal... like he's lost a significant amount of flesh. Is that even possible?

Then a shadow flits across the wall.

She screams when there's another Leon - a younger, bloodied, Leon, asking her to help "our host".

The Amalgam tells her that they had reached a symbiotic relationship with their host, until this intruder began to ruin their union. "If you repay our favor, then our unity shall be restored. Our intruder shall live as one with us."

Ashley is trying SO hard to not panic because there's one version of Leon speaking like a hive mind with nosism, and the other one is passed out looking super plaga infected at this point. She asks what the Amalgam is, and they politely recite their backstory.

"And what will this... unity mean for Leon?" she asks.

The younger copy's dull eyes seem to look puzzled. "We have always been one. We will return to our harmony, together."

Okay, so this... thing was in Leon the whole time? How come it didn't present itself before? And what's cooperating with it going to do to Leon.

The copy smiles.

"But you fear us. We hear your thoughts - and they rage for the one you believe dead. But he is not. He sleeps in us."*

She eventually agrees, and the copy... merges back into the other body? And when she props Leon up and runs the machine, it malfunctions mid-way. But the inky veins vanish, and Leon opens his eyes.

Cloudy, dull eyes.

Ashley grabs a nearby scalpel before Leon dissuades her. It's the same professional, slightly awkward tone he'd had for the entirety of their time here, which lets her relax, a little. In fact, Leon's the one who's most startled when the Amalgam mentally projects their gratitude to Ashley, now with another voice in their choir.

Anyway, the rest of the AU would be the events of RE4 where Ashley and Leon have to deal with Leon's secret dual parasite hivemind that's now part cruise-ship parasite and plaga. With body double fun times too, because that's a thing Leon can do now.

#random musings #resident evil #resident evil 4 #re4 #will i ever stop making obscure and silly headcanons? #leon kennedy #ashley graham #this makes more sense in my head I swear lol #but it's 99% indulgent system shock body horror #the asterisked quote is a slightly edited quote from the Many in system shock 2 #everything else is from my silly brain #bits and baubles #tw body horror #amalgam hivemind would go OFF against saddler btw #“a lost individual wishing to ruin the harmony he has amassed” they complain #meanwhile leon is like “please I just wanna say dumb eye-based one liners” #anyway if I wrote a fic for this it'd revolve around ashley figuring out how she's gonna live her life after this #she got kidnapped to be a pawn #and her convos with amalgam/leon make it even more clear to her she wants to do her own thing #plus leon now has to deal with this wacky biohazard infection i've cooked up

[stardustedwanderer]

Stars! All the forbidden shades-

#stardust.txt #They're real? They're blinding REAL?!!!! #((colour... does not exist in his world. this is gonna be a bit of a shock to the system isnt it....)) #((edit: alright thats a better size.. lol)) #(( #spoilers #))

[r3tr0r0ck3r]

The System Shock remake is excellent, fantastic.

But....

The music?

It's just...bleh. Completely unmemorable.

How could they get the game like 99% correct and then just drop ALL the iconic music compositions from the original?

Yes, the original game had 1994 MIDI tracks that kind of made your ears bleed, BUT that was simply the technological limitation they had to cope with. Many, many people have re-recorded or remixed the MIDI tracks with new instruments and they sound great.

But the remake just... didn't even bother. Weird.

Here's a playlist of a YouTuber that made his own versions of the SS1 soundtrack with the MIDI, and they sound great: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zxSd_g8vrnU&list=PLsUzRsxvwpYq_5nIrNt9sVgnvCUKaQwDg&index=1

And that's just one example of MANY.

#System Shock #surely they could have tried a bit harder with the music if they were willing to try really hard on literally everything else #the remake is great in every other area #not perfect

[rfaromance]

do I write the artem wing x saeyoung choi one-shot or...?

#me when I realize my 2 favorite male presenting love interests are genuinely compatible #shocked pikachu face #mod mumbles #they both like fishing and cars and have strong senses of justice! #except artem believes in the legal system and saeyoung believes in hammurabi's code #But they're both committed to the bit #also autistic coded... so very autistic coded.....

[despite-everything]

it can be so fucking hard to be close to people who have very different understandings of time and respect than you.

#im just going to bitch in the notes so i can get it out of my system #it fucking hurts my feelings when my friends are significantly later than they said they would be #they are driving up and visiting me which i do appreciate #but its like. 95% of the time im the one meeting them wherever and whenever works for them #and theyd made it sound like theyd be coming hours ago and they werent #and finally got on the fucking road and their eta was 13 minutes ago and they still arent here #and its like. i get that they have their own lives and traffi and shit #but ive told them many times that it genuinely upsets me when this happens #to the point that if they werent already on the road id just tell them to fucking stay home #its the biggest stressor in our relationship and it seems like theyll get better for a bit after we talk about it #then it gets bad again #and it sucks because i was excited! and now im feeling bitter and upset and i either have to swallow it #or bring the mood down #and im sure they have more shit to do at home so its not like they'll be sticking around for a long time tomorrow #if they do i'll be shocked #but like. id thought of fun stuff we can do and im cool with not doing them but a better fucking heads up would be appreciated #i shouldnt have to ask 3 times to find out when youre coming #especially when i give a very long time between asking to not be a bother #and it just feels like they dont respect me or my time. i couldve done so much more this afternoon #but ive been here fucking waiting for them. #and i told them i was worried this shit would happen once i no longer lived right near them #and they said it wouldnt be a fucking problem. well guess what. #and i have had to defend them to my dad who i live with as well #and then this shit happens. it sucks #anyway. i thought they'd be here 2 hours ago. #whatever. nothing i can do about it now. #tree talks

[mettywiththenotes]

It's kind of a whiplash to go from the tv, which has been saying nothing but positive and good things about the queen (basically painting her in a positive light), to tumblr which not only points out everything inhumane that she has done but the royal family in general

I go from seeing stuff saying "absolute goodness and so approachable, the country's grandmother" to "absolute hatred, violence, would have personally assassinated her if I had the chance" posts

#like there was a documentary thing on last night (which i only watched a little bit of cuz i was passing by) #and they honestly make her sound like she was diana's equivalent #'the people's princess' yknow? #they didn't actually say she was by the way #nor did they call her anything akin to 'diana's equal' #but the way they talked about her and how 'she had a good sense of humor' #they honestly make her sound like she was just like diana - and like everyone from royalty is like that #they did the same with king charles #its just a shock to the system to go straight from tv to tumblr #i don't mean that in a bad way btw #its just interesting and enlightening #its like two universes #well i guess it will be like that cuz of the differences from where you've been brought up #uk #queen #mettys posts

[mutelunacy]

the great twitter backlog 3/?

technically does not belong here as its a sketch wip but i will take any opportunity to post her. my beloved.

#system shock #shodan #art #wip #system shock 2 #i only cleaned up one bit of this sketch. try and find it.

[nametakensff]

Flying back to England in 2 days.........i'm so sad lol

#like i miss the alone time and structure but holy shit after 5 weeks of travel in hot countries going back to fucking london #is going to be such a shock to the system #expect more writing since i'm out of work for a little bit but yeah #i'm........ #so sad rn it's really hitting me #nttalks