#its going to be relatively short

[sunnyyyteaaa]

First chilly day

🌻 part 1!

I'm making a comic!

this takes place some time after the movie and the boys are finally leaving the lair for some much needed fresh air :D

First | Next

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #i havent done a comic in so long.. #its going to be relatively short #but its pure fluff so its ok #i think #rise of the tmnt #save rottmnt #rottmnt comic #first chilly day comic #sun art

[stiffyck]

While you were hypersleeping...

Okay so I started listening to Red valley and its currently the only thing on my mind 

#red valley is now the only thing on my brain #oh my god you guys #if you havent listened to it yet #pls #go listen to it #its relatively short #it has great characters #great story #its just #AAAAAAAAAAAAA #gordon porlock #red valley #red valley fanart #digital art #art #gordon porlock fanart #also the reason i started listening is aly piccl #so thanks for that!!!

[avanii]

The Beast of Volcanic Fissures, another of my geology monsters. Its fountains of lava are a spectacle to behold! Inspired by the footage of Iceland's many fissure eruptions, oh my gosh they're SO beautiful I could watch lava forever. I painted this with acrylic inks, took 9 hours

#lava monster #volcano monster #fissure eruption #geology monster #fantasy creature #I kinda already had a fissure eruption beastie with the mafic lava guy but I wanted ANOTHER #There's more mustelid vibes to this one with its long body and short limbs #I didn't give it a mustelid face though I really wanted a toothy mouth that would split the face in two to stay with the fissure theme #As far as my lava monsters go this one would be relatively quick in its movements I think #avanii #avanii's art #traditional art #acrylic inks

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this? #so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.

[nabsthevulture]

Having a job is nice for money reasons but bad for my brain reasons

#every time i wake up for work i despise the idea of going in #but its fine #im just complaining agsin #my job is relatively easy and i have short hours #but still #i just want to go back to sleep

[gaystardykeco]

parents love to say "idk how u turned out so anxious and insecure" and then tell u everything u wear and every decision u make is Wrong and Bad

#literally cant even put on a new tshirt in this family without getting told i fucked it up #and then everyones shocked that i hate myself and feel ugly all the time #i just actually felt like i kind of looked okay and had a cute outfit on #which is huge for me bc tshirts are usually so hard for me to feel comfortable in at all #and then i get told i look stupid in front of all my relatives #this is fully why i cant trust myself to even dress myself like i apparently just dont understand what looks good #how the fuck am i ever supposed to feel okay if i cant trust myself to even put together shorts and a tshirt into a presentable outfit #i know im being too sensitive and i sound like an angsty teenager its just been such a shitty day already and this is just another thing #and being around my family 24/7 is continuing to take a major toll on my mental health which already sucked to begin with lmao #just three more days of this. and then ill be home and i can rest (for one day then i go back to work which is also hell!!)

[princesable]

CHARACTER BIOS ARE DONE. GOOD NIGHT.

#charlie moment #IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE #THEYRE RELATIVELY SHORT BUT I HAD TO TRY AND KEEP THEM AS SPOILER FREE AS POSSIBLE SO. ITS FINE #IM GONNA GO TO BED EARLY TOMORROW TO CELEBRATE NOT HAVING TO STAY UP UNTIL 4 AM WRITING

[agztsuma]

wip + happy holidays

#yes its c1yde. i think theyre neat #probably will never finish this though but i like how its going so #my art #i love drawing my silly guy #need to draw pirate c1yde one day i loved that episode #wip #i was gonna adjust c1ydes pose so they matched bc i didnt even touch him after the initial sketch but its 3am. as it usually is when i post #i imagine him as being a little short while pander pįp [need name for her] is relatively tall #pėte to me is like 5'8 so he's like 5'6? 5'6.5? #like henrįetta height #<- him referring to the pipmeister

[sheepsheeples]

Christmas gift 2 electric boogaloo is in progress. I am weaving at a frankly alarming pace given where i was at a month or 2 ago

#it helps that i intentionally picked all twist neutral all together patterns #because these needed to be done in a relatively short time frame #but still! it only takes me like an hour to warp this little thing now vs the 3-5 it took initially #and once its warped its just ehehe loom go brrr time #the critical role playing in the distance has also made it an even more enjoyable experience #im about halfway into episode 15. #i crunched the numbers and ifni continue at this pace for about 40 days i will catch up

[luvrbunni]

ik ive not been active at all anyways sort of explanation/me complaining in tags

#i have gotten progressively worse lately in terms of physical health and its just taken a lot out of me tbh #over the past few months ive developed chronic pain and fatigue drs still arent sure if its fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue but whatev #in any case ive been in tremendous pain everywhere it's not been fun at all #i also have this new thing where i get a tremor if i hold things too hard and while it is relatively painless it still is making life harde #esp since i am an art student so im kind of stuck not rly knowing what to do atp #ive just not been in the best mindset and while i recognise that disability is not ugly in any way i do just feel harder to love now #like i dont think my personality is fun enough to make up for all this idk if that makes any real sense #ive also been temporarily put on birth control its a long story but it's only until i get scheduled for a minor surgery most probably #but yanno birth control has unfun side effects and i feel like im going crazy most days #ik this all probably sounds pretty silly but idk. its been hard to feel genuinely attractive lately. #forgot to add this but there was some other stuff that happened thats definitely effecting just my self image and libido and stuff lately #long story short someone i trusted ended up crossing multiple physical boundaries and passed uncomfortable comments abt me and similar shit #its not been fun to deal with in any way yk?

[mieczyhale]

you can dislike and hate literally any character in existence for whatever reason you could possibly conceive of and it's fine actually

AS LONG AS your reasoning isn't based on their race, gender, sexuality, religion, etc. go forth and feel whatever the fuck it is you feel about them for whatever reason or no reason there is

because this is fiction

it's fandom

it's fun

the rules are minimal and simple and nobody is allowed to police how you feel about things. nobody is allowed to police your opinions on some babygirl, no matter how much they love them. they can disagree with you, hate you, block you, think your wrong, vent on their own tumblr about it, etc. but they CAN'T tell you how to feel or how not to feel.

we don't do that here, sir. and anyone who GENUINELY tries to has not touched enough grass in the year of our saint milo fahey 2023

#obviously the topic of fandom is a bananas one with complexities and nuances and gray areas and i cannot possibly cover them all in #a short ramble post off the top of my head that i'm making bc i've seen this happening more. again (looking at the t*a fandom) #but its the general gist #or whatever #there are situations where you can aggressively tell people what to do but that's like.. if they're ignoring a canon sexuality or if they're #whitewashing in their art. something truly shitty and harmful #someone just hating some guy for some reason - and not posting in the tags about it or anything. not going out of their way to be a shit #just hating or disliking.. relatively quietly (i.e again not tagging or not going into asks) #might be annoying to you but its not actually hurting anyone #maison speaks

[carcarrot]

alright we're okay. it's all going to work out and happen. ive got my short film idea. i just have to make it absolutely perfect and then we're good to go

#my short film idea is a kinda sorta prequel kinda. to my Big Main Film Idea #essentially its just a little bit of silly backstory to a character that gets no backstory in the feature film #and this character is making a short film. and im playing the character. so im making a short film abt someone making a short film. #when i was first writing my Main Film Idea i was like ok yeah this character that im thinking of playing is obviously based on and like me #but as time went on i was like ah fuck. theres parts of me in every damn character #the good news is that this short film idea should be relatively cheap to make. im thinking of having only one filming location #and i could get a deal filming there bc i used to work there (my old cafe) so renting out the space might be cheaper #im not sure yet abt cameras. im thinking abt emailing my old film teacher and being like. hey. would you wanna help me make my film #i think he has some film cameras himself or if not he knows a lot of film people #but since this is essentially a one man (its me im the man) show i dont really need other actors. but im working on that #another problem of potentially many is that if and when this gets done. now what #ive got zero clue abt where to like. send my short film to be shown or whatever but maybe my film teacher could help w that! #before i do any of this i am going to finally finish that filmmaking course i bought. and then see where we go from there #but this still needs a lot of writing bc i havent done any screenplay work for this yet #and thus obviously havent storyboarded anything #i gotta get Organized <- least organized person on this earth #wish me luck that this will lead me on the path to my dream movie. we can all hope

[royaletiquette]

Thinking about Michiko being a rebilous teenager and Hibiko just, why is my daughter whom I give almost everything she could ask for, being a brat?

#ooc; #thats too far in the future lol i don't need another verse #but its a fun thought #i also love miki having her fathers height. you go tall bitch #tall is relative. im short.

[aro-ortega]

just one more essay and then i can draw some steps.....

#i dont wanna.... i hate essays so much. its due tomorrow i havent started it yet #at least its relatively short compared to the last two essays i wrote #tbh i prolly give myself the weekend to relax and go for walks and ill start trying art on monday #op

[chanyoungies]

rips all my hair out

#im going to lose my mind #seems like im spending more money than i did last year but i feel like im buying less stuff #which like ig wld make sense w inflation but . #also im still trying to figure out Why the turntable broke . #also i love november but like wdym its already november #worrying abt what ill do when i fail my semester #i still dont know what to do about the floor replacement #im just feeling not rlly great . in general #also my head hurts but thats a short term problem. relatively .

[myownprivatcidaho]

im am not the master kf putting two & 2 together

#ok this realization/lotic has been in my head for like 2 days now #which is a long time to go without talking ab it on here but p short otherwise 💀 #but like. idk #so it was only like april that i really just let myself realize 'he likes me'. nothing really extra or hidden or attached. #like just accepting it as a fact #as opposed to flipping between 'hes obsessed with me' and 'he thinks im trash' yk #anyways. so recently id been slipping back into that extreme thinking. specifically 'he thinks im trash' #and a huge reason for thinking that is id think 'if he liked me he wouldnt bullshit me' #which like. is FAIR. cause thatd mean he really sucks at caring ab people in his life #nd i was just sorta relatively singling myself out thinking like. if he cared ab mr at all hed own up if he liked me he wouldnt bullshit me #as opposed to the OTHER people in his life. who he is of course very transparent with #so i was going on thinking he didnt like me bc he bullshit me that one time #and then it hit. 'he likes her And hes bullshitting her.' #and jts like. OH #yk. like that was one of the biggest factors i had for denial that he has Feelings for me #and now its been nullified by like. basic logic #idk how much sense that makes anyways i have work to do #that one crush situation lol