#just a personal ick

[faintlamps]

makes me uncomfy to see anya shipped w anyone i’m ngl

#even damian omg #i hate the childhood friends who r ofc destined to be tgt trope #just a personal ick

[dreamed-for-not]

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#look this isn’t an attack or anything #just a personal ick #people who use W*ll Bl*m as their Beetlejuice #are such an immediate turn off to me #even after seeing him in person #he is just so not the vibe for me #and I can’t even put a reason on it #again no hate #just an opinion

[annabelle--cane]

say it with me everybody: personal health is completely immaterial to morality, including mental health. leading a mentally unhealthy lifestyle (or what you perceive as a mentally unhealthy lifestyle) does not a bad person make. no one has to socialize, exercise, have healthy coping mechanisms, or lead (what you perceive as) a fulfilling life with fulfilling hobbies in the same way that no one has to go to the doctor to get a broken bone reset. both of those types of management of personal health are likely to be beneficial to the individual, but they are in no way moral requirements or debts owed to society. they do not actually say anything about a person's principles, personality, or actions towards others. additionally, people know themselves and their own situations better than you do. maybe a person judges that the physical and financial toll of going to the doctor outweigh the benefit of getting their bone reset, maybe a person just does not have the capacity to develop healthy coping mechanisms at this point in their life, and yes, maybe a person feels like they are totally fulfilled by "media based" hobbies alone and would feel no difference in their life if they picked up a loom. just like. let people be sick without accusing them of being representative of the lazy, degenerated state of modern society.

#marina marvels at life #there's a way people on here have been talking about ai/tiktok/movies/anti intellectualism/media hobbies/self care that all jives together #that just. really icks me out. #sometimes it comes through pretty transparently with people claiming that you must have regular sex to be a healthy/good person #or conversely that people are more sex crazed now than they've ever been and it's destroying literacy or whatever #or that cheating at school is scandalously immoral and only 'soft brained' bad people would do it #or that collectivism means you have to dress the right way and feel the right way and talk the right way #because your actions affect Others and you might upset someone or give off bad messages if you wear a crop top or are too sad #but a lot of the time it's just this strange plausibly-deniable tone I keep encountering that crept up some time in like 2021 I think #like. am I going crazy here or has anyone else been feeling this?

[stuckinapril]

so unimpressed w men rn. it’s just so whatever

#guy who got my number at the boba place is the driest texter in history turns out! #i’m just kind of convinced that most guys r better in person but this is just boring #cianna from 6 months ago would be trying to carry the conversation rn but i just let it die bc im BORED #i am no longer doing the heavy lifting in the talking stage #i can do equal lifting. that i can do. but not the heavy lifting #if ur not there ur just not there #also a massive ick of mine is when guys fucking misspell and this one MISSPELLED #ur 21. get it together. #my best friend is also in a very ‘unimpressed w men’ phase rn #except im very capable of being single and doing my thing and she’s very. not. #she is back on hinge unfortunately. don’t think this will go well #meanwhile i’m in a very not looking for anything phase. if u say hi i’ll say hi back #but i’m not going out of my way to put in effort #fuck that #p

[greenvillainredemption]

One thing I love about mutant mayhem is that Leo has a crush on an April who’s not conventionally attractive. It almost feels like, because of the turtles’ isolated upbringing* he hasn’t been influenced by the popular western beauty ideals and just thinks this ordinary human is beautiful! And I think that’s really cool! Because she is!

*though they’ve clearly been exposed to celebrities and other pop culture so ?? idk lol

#tmnt #mutant mayhem #I’m usually a very ‘I’m ugly and that’s okay’ type of person #but that’s really only about the definition of ugly that = not fitting into the popular western beauty ideals #but everyone has something about them that’s beautiful to someone yknow #idk I don’t want to be out here calling this April ugly because I don’t think she is #but I know a lot of male fans of older turtles have been saying she’s ugly #and yeah it’s very cool that this teenage boy character has a crush on an ‘ugly’ girl #and I know I have no stake in straight representation lol but it’s just good to see the girl crush have unconventional features #though I will say personally I don’t want them to be together just because any turtle x human relationship gives me the ick which is fully #just a me thing I think like I don’t think it’s morally reprehensible to ship any turtle with an april or karai (03 leo and karai had me #shipping them as a kid before I even knew what shipping was lol) #my words #ALSO whoever voiced dr stockman sounded SO similar to the 03 him. I was cryin #i feel like this movie wasn’t the best I mean I heavily enjoyed it but I hope it builds up to more. the mid credits scene had me screaming #so here’s hoping we get sequels aaaaa #give me karai or give me death #SMOOTH LIKE BUTTER LIKE A CRIMINAL UNDERCOVER

[aro-culture-is]

aro culture is seeing a meme, with only the aro flag, being about not wanting to kiss and just never understanding at all when people equate not wanting to kiss as a strictly/universal aromantic thing, cause you personally enjoy kissing a lot

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod phoenix #i know i'm personally prone to talking about it because #anytime i try to talk about not liking kissing around alloros #it leads to uh. honestly at best shocked confusion and interrogation #and on. a very scary amount of times straight up being sexually harassed or generally pressured to try kissing someone present #whilethe aro community is... a lot lot lot more likely to go 'oh same' or 'yeah the connotations are ick' or generally just... accept it

[fortheloveofexy]

man some of the people in the tags of that poll on critiquing fanfic pissed me off so much. I can tell you right now that if enough people like that turned up in my comments acting that self-important and entitled, I'd stop posting updates completely and take down all of my fics.

#im here to have fun #not endure unsolicited critique from strangers #fanfic is fun BECAUSE there is no inherent pressure to get better and be amazing at it #like #that is the whole point!! #sometimes you can just enjoy things for the sake of them and not for the sake of “getting better” #genuinely if i see someone doing this i immediately lose respect for them #even if its not my fic theyre doing it to #like i genuinely think less of you as a person if you pull this kind of shit #its a huge ick for me

[khruschevshoe]

OFMD Critique: Jim & Olu, Screentime Quality & Quantity Issues, and Fandom Engagement

It is kind of insane to me that post-Season-1 of OFMD, the tags for Jim Jimenez and Oluwande Boodhari were almost as strong as the ones for Stede and Ed. Like, scrolling back on tumblr, I'm hit by the sheer amount of content posted for them. The fanart. The gifs. The meta. The sheer anticipation of what might come next for them.

(Now, this might just be because I first started looking at the fandom a year in, but I did my best to look at time stamps and how far things were spread out over time for them.)

Now, only a month and a half out from the finale...that flood has dried up to a trickle, if that. There is very little Jim/Olu content, or (more interesting in my own opinion, at least), very little content of them individually. There was plenty when the season was airing, but now? Not so much.

This is not to say that there is no content at all- I am an absolute fan of the fanfic writers, artists, meta-makers, and gifmakers who still contribute to the tag. The QUALITY is still great! It's the QUANTITY that fascinates me.

Because I think it comes back to both the lack of payoff for the rich character writing for these two post-Season 1 AND the butchering of what they did get.

If you read my past metas for these two characters, you'll find my critique of the fact that late-season Jim doesn't feel like Jim at all, and that Olu throughout ALL OF SEASON TWO doesn't feel like Olu, but rather like the writers dumbed him down into the "himbo" role on the show just to have the badass woman x himbo dynamic with him and Zheng Yi Sao (and I am an admitted lover of said dynamic, but not when you strip one of the few emotionally intelligent, clever, logical characters on the show of his intellect and jam him into the role rather than, idk, choosing one of the actual himbos on the show and putting him into that role...wait a second. The writers already HAD the himbo x badass dynamic with Spanish Jackie and the Stede. Is that literally the only way they could figure out how to write a F/M dynamic this season?).

Also, if you pull out all of the Jim/Olu pre-reunion build up (I see you, deleted scene in the Republic of Pirates where Pete and Olu get to pine after Lucius & Jim and talk about how desperate they are to get back to them), have their reunion be rather anticlimatic, and then don't let them have any real kissing/hugging/even emotional intimacy for the rest of the season...I can see why the tag has gotten to the point it has.

A cursory glance at the Blackbonnet/Gentlebeard tags shows that at least half of the tag is just writing fix-it fics for the season, but they are at least ENGAGING with canon because they were given a lot of material (some might argue too much material, as their screentime was often VERY overbalanced as opposed to the rest, and contrary to what some believe, Season 1 WAS an ensemble show, not just the Stede/Ed show) to work with and sort through. Jim and Olu were not given that in Season 2, and thus the amount of material that those in the tag got to pick through and use was either miniscule or felt OOC in nature. So the investment in the characters and ship has rather gone down, which is sad, because post Season 1 these two had my FAVORITE dynamic on the show.

What is the point of this meta? Idk, it's just a thing I've noticed and that has fascinated me. Watching this fandom from both inside and outside has led to noticing some rather interesting patterns/responses to writing that I thought someone else might be interested in.

#jim jimenez #oluwande boodhari #jim x oluwande #tealoranges #meta #analysis #ofmd #ofmd critical #ofmd meta #i know it feels like i'm ragging on the zheng/olu ship #and i appreciate those who do ship it #but the way it handles both characters really just gives me the personal ick #fandom analysis #also just realized while writing this that the jackie x swede and olu x zheng ship dynamics are the same and that's just strange to me #because olu and the swede are specifically set up in season 1 as being almost opposite characters #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2

[introspectivememories]

unrequited zosan cause "sanji's not gay" unrequited zosan cause "sanji has issues with men" unrequited zosan cause -- ENOUGH! unrequited zosan cause zoro's in love with luffy

#oh now everybody quiet #the unrequited zosan always comes from zoro's side #where is my sanji angst!!! #sanji would be a fucking pro a pining for things that can never be his #zolu real while sanji quietly nurses his broken heart on the side? #now you're talking #cannot stop thinking about the truth coming out in the worst way possible #and zoro who has no tact on the best of days just fucking breaks sanji's heart further #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan #EDIT: i am personally not a fan of zolu so if you're on my page hoping to see more zolu you will find nothing #nothing wrong with it. just devotion/loyalty like that gives me the ick.

[chayannesegg]

only watched clips of fit pov so I'm not fully informed yet but the evolution of fit deciding the "homophobia" is real is interesting.

like, initially he saw it for what it was: tubbo lashing out because he felt left out. he called tubbo out on this, he told ramon this, he laughed about it. tubbo was also cartoonish in his distaste, it was obvious he was hurting underneath.

but slowly he's become more and more genuinely annoyed by it even though tubbo has toned it down massively

tubbo basically just does his performative ick when faced with fitpac moments like one might if their parents kissed in front of them. he certainly still feels left out but it's also a bit (one pac loves to poke at bc he knows it's tubbo being stubborn and resistant to love)

but to fit, who wants tubbo to show him that he still cares about morning crew, it bothers him that tubbo can't just leave it be. it hurts every time tubbo rejects fit & pac's relationship, even jokingly. he doesn't understand why tubbo feels left out. he wants morning crew back to what they used to be.

tubbo for the longest time was the only person there with them when fit and pac were developing their relationship. no ramon. no richas. no mike. he teased fit but he also supported him. he was the buffer they needed to start acknowledging their feelings. he was their friend.

but now tubbo is standoffish. he shies away where he used to budge in. he doesn't know his place around fit and pac anymore and he's not brave enough to ask. he's scared of the answer.

and fit doesn't get why tubbo can't just believe they love them the same as before. why he's not acting like before. he feels rejected. he feels ignored. the comments about fit and pac have started to feel personal instead of just tubbo being insecure.

so when he sees tubbo reaching out to foolish, it hurts him. it seems like tubbo has just given up on the morning crew. and he wants to lash back. he wants to warn foolish about how tubbo can hurt him. he wants tubbo back. so he frames it around the going joke, that tubbo's homophobic, but it doesn't quite land (fit's not as good as tubbo at making jokes out of his own pain). it just ends up feeling too real and that's exactly the problem.

#qsmp #oops somehow this didn't post even tho i queued it to #qsmp fit #qsmp tubbo #the polyam morning crew allegations stay strong that man is jealous of tubbo makinh new friends #does he even see the irony of thinking tubbo's leaving him behind by making something new when tubbo was scared of fitpac for the same thin #does he even realize is tubbo feels like he has more friends to count on outside of fitpac he might be able to be more normal towards them #also an aside i need to say: i don't like fit putting a focus on tubbo being 'homophobic' #like it just gives a bit of a weird vibe when he's playing a gay person in minecraft and tubbo is actually queer #and i see people online acting like tubbo's been meaningfully homophobic to fitpac #but i do like the seeing two emotionally repressed losers who love each other hurt each other :) #so i do overall like the arc that just gives me the ick a little is all #was kinda glad to see tubbo uturn that first convo even if fit brought it up again later

[ingravinoveritas]

Hello, my lovelies. I have returned from my trip but am feeling a bit under the weather (congested nose/phlegm-y throat, but no Covid, as I self-tested and it came back negative). I see all of your wonderful Asks waiting in my inbox and I promise that I will do my very best to start answering them soon/addressing some of the fandom incidents of the past week. Thank you all for being so patient and bearing with me as I settle back in! ❤️

#public service announcement #hoping the ick will be out of my system soon #thank you all you lovely people for being here #i am just glad people are enjoying my ridiculous posts #i am so grateful for everyone who enjoys my MS/DT content as well #<3 #personal post

[eff-plays]

Honestly a lot of the romance pipeline joaks just aren't relatable to me at all.

Zevran > Fenris > Solas > Astarion? What is the man of mid Solas doing among those kings? He's nice like they're not, powerful like they're not, and doesn't play into the trope of being mean/"evil" and sexy. He also has so much power over Lavellan, which the others do not have over their love interests. Get him out of there. Yes they're all sad elves but that's it. Surface level reading.

Also I don't think Cullenites who are now obsessed with Astarion like Astarion for the same reasons I do. That is all I will say on the matter because I am seeing a large gathering of people outside my window and they seem to be chanting wishes of my death and gripping pitchforks.

#also fun fact the reason i deleted my old DA blog was because i was an avid cullen despiser and people hated that #so ppl going from cullen to astarion is like oouf ... why #explains why all the astarion fics are like that though #if someone fell for cullen's bullshit they will miss a lot of astarion's depth probably I MEAN WHAT AHHAHA i would never say that #ALSO i actually quite like solas and would've loved to romance him with my trevelyan #he's a great character and i love his demeanor and voice and personality and he was great friends with my trev #so adding a romantic angle to that whole angst would've been delish #solavellan in particular just gives me the ick #esp the popular fandom perception of it #anyway haha *gets shot and killed by the DA fandom* #bg3 #dragon age

[baeshijima]

sometimes i find it so funny when ppl dont properly tag their works for the reason of “oh, but then others won’t be able to see my work!” or “but if i tag it then it will spoil the twist!” (usually a darker or more… questionable twist, for a lack of better words) and so on. but that… that is literally the whole purpose of tagging? so that the ppl who have the tag(s) filtered because they dont want to see it just. wont.

like dw, ur work will reach ur audience one way or another bc theyre either following u, see it rbed on their dash, or they dont have it filtered; tho that will also have ppl who dont want to see it exposed to it so, for the love of god and the sake of our sanities, pls just list the warnings beforehand like it really isnt such a difficult concept to grasp ???

and bold it, especially if it is in the small text. the whole purpose is for it to be easily visible for the very reason that it can be avoided by readers who dont want to read it. idc if it ruins the aesthetic bc the lack of proper tagging ruins my already declining sanity :]

#sophie’s idle chatter #this isnt for anything specific but just a general ick #esp more recently #i think this is why ive been searching through the x reader tags less and less #like yes i want to read a fic abt this chara thinking its gonna be some fluff bc they have it in tags #but then oh my !! dc/not so fluffy jumpscare like halfway through !! that wasnt tagged and/or warned in the preface !! #personally idc all that much abt dc or wtv as long as u PROPERLY TAG ur work #its not just tumblr bc ik ao3 is bad with it too but it still annoys me bc its really not that hard to just. put the warnings/tags #anywho sorry for the ramble i am sleepy and have a headache and saw smth that set me off abt the topic 🫡

[acearohippo]

I'm pretty sure Li Ling knows that Tang Yun has a very... Toxic... Thing on his brother. To me it reads heavily as inc*stuous but that's due to all the media I've consumed ruining so many sibling relationships that now I'm uber sensitive to that sort of thing.

Regardless, I think we all can agree that Tang Yun is not in a healthy mindset, especially with how he obsesses over Tang Xuan.

And I put forth this theory that Li Ling is aware of how Tang Yun feels and, as such, is protective of Tang Xuan, who does not- can not- see it.

First of all, it is clear that Tang Xuan and Li Ling talk to each other a lot. Not just in person but on the phone ("communicator") all the time. We have a few stories where, when one is mentioned the other is also brought up or where one is, the other is somewhere near.

For the purpose of this theory, we will focus on the communicator, as we see that Tang Xuan doesn't necessarily text often (probably too busy for it, lmfao) but does use the social app. Li Ling seems to be the first to notice that Tang Xuan is MIA, just by the fact that he doesn't answer his calls.

Look at the time stamps of Li Ling's messages.

There are huge gaps of time between his first three messages, before Tang Xuan replies to him when he gets his phone back. And, after Tang Xuan responds, Li Ling's message comes in 2 hours later, talking about some "weak ass miramon".

Fine. Sure.

But if you go over to the social media app, you see this post from Tang Yun:

Lemme preface by reminding y'all this is my personal theory on the order of events, as this app doesn't have any convenient time stamps (:/), but I think we can assume this message comes hours before Tang Xuan gets his phone back.

Two questions pop up:

1. How does he know Tang Xuan is "missing"?

2. Who is accusing him of abducting Tang Xuan?

Tang Xuan then responds to him- maybe after he makes his "I'm not dead!! :P" post, maybe before- and after that is when he gets this message from Tang Yun:

Again, take note of the time. This is well after Tang Xuan has replied to Li Ling, about 8 hours later. I believe that in between his reply to Li Ling and Tang Yun's text, he posts his "I'm still alive!! Cx" social media post,

which then alerts Tang Yun that his brother isn't missing which then prompts his text.

Ok, we all on the same timeline now? Good. THEORY TIME.

I propose that Li Ling (Who is accusing him of abducting Tang Xuan?), not receiving any response from Tang Xuan for near 24 hrs, sent him on a warpath to who he assumes is the most likely culprit of the impromptu dissapearance- Tang Yun.

Li Ling and Tang Xuan talk all. The. Time. Li Ling absolutely knows that, in his previous mission, Tang Xuan came face to face with his brother. And Li Ling probably knows about how Tang Yun admitted to how he would monopolise the one he loves' time and attention, keep them to himself. Tang Xuan probably spared no details going through the entire mission.

Li Ling probably picked up instantly that Tang Yun was referring to Tang Xuan as that "someone he loves" and, remember, this mission takes place not even a week after the Crow one, so it's still fresh in Li Ling's mind, the words Tang Yun said about keeping his loved one to himself. And now Tang Xuan is missing...?

Yeah, I think he went straight for Tang Yun, got pissed (and probably a bit relieved) when he realised Tang Yun did not kidnap Tang Xuan, and then went off to try find him himself, taking on hoards of miramon (enough that he would miss a respond from Tang Xuan by two hours) much to the worry of Lewis and their friends. Then Li Ling tried to play it off for a bit, acting like he was just doing normal union things except Lewis explicitly says that he was actively trying to calm "everyone" down.

Lewis?

Calming people down?

Dude gets fired up at the drop of a pin... Except when someone is in crisis mode, and from his like FIVE CAMEOS (freaking dislyte, give us more Lewis pleaaase) we only really see him act level headed when he's with Tang Xuan and Li Ling.

So, methinks Li Ling might've tried to rally the troops to find Tang Xuan, Leora- an obvious choice as she's a living bishoujo heroine- probably got caught up in the dramatics of it, David and Q too (simple minded David just always ready to be there or be square, Q sniffing a potential story) etc etc. So they're all just psyching each other up and/or out so now Lewis has his crisis that he can take charge in and de-escalate.

Meanwhile, Tang Yun now knows that his brother is missing (How does he know Tang Xuan is "missing"?) and I can only guess how pissed off he got, his mental stability taking a swan dive into the Marianas Trench of all the possibilities of where his brother could be and scenarios where he would keep him by his side, so that this could never occur again. Hence the very aggressive threat (promise?) that he would hogtie Tang Xuan for his own good if this were to occur again.

The fact that he uses the word hogtie is very disturbing and, for those that aren't sure what that looks like, here's an as SFW-as-tying-people-up-can-be demonstration I could find of it

We are going to ignore the NSFW implications, and just focus on the vulnerability this position puts a person into.

This is the kind of messages Tang Yun sends his brother.

This is the kind of imagery he wants to put his brother in.

And Li Ling knows. He freaking knows and is probably one of the few espers who caught on that something was off with Tang Yun.

And Tang Xuan is

So

Damn

Oblivious ヽ(`д´；)/

Like damn, boy, I understand, he's your brother- that's just NOT something a healthy sibling would ever imagine their sibling would do or think or act. But by golly, could you maybe just focus on what he's saying rather than picking out the most inconsequential, insignificant parts? 😭 Bro is ignoring every red flag and siren.

#the hippo speaks #dislyte #li ling dislyte #tang xuan dislyte #tang yun dislyte #tang yun gives me the creeps #the “ick” I've hear people say #i feel like li ling has picked up on that too #I've been mulling over making this post for a week #cause i know the tang yun tag is mostly filled with pro him content #like people really like him #and i dont want to be that person that starts filling the tag with anti him #but the messages were just calling to me #like a puzzle for me to connect the dots too #tried to keep it gen

[foxsartdump]

the moment i type tottmnt instead or rottmnt is gonna be my downfall (gay and too lazy to correct)

(mini-rant in tags if youre curious </3)

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #tmnt mutant mayhem #tottmnt #i hate this name so much #you guys dont understand ive been ranting about it to my irls for the past week sm #its just.... guys please its the 3rd time weve had a tmnt thing be called “tales of the tmnt” #also i just dont want it to match with rise???? #LIKE ITS CUTE AND ALL BUT LIKE... from a personal stand point i dont like it it rubs me the wrong way #i wish it was matching w/the movies title they dont even feel like theyre from the same gen of turtles #it feels like its a continuation of rise which again rubs me wrong n gives me the ick #anyways thats been my tags rant #probs gonna tag my mm fanart (if i get to it but rise brainrot go brr) as tottmnt but in discussions im just gonna call it mutant mayhem #fox rambles