#just ignore me im overthinking

[napping-sapphic]

Love is so freaky and messed up to the point that sometimes i do wish and hope SO badly that no one ever has to suffer being in love with me specifically because it honestly sounds absolutely unbearable

#my brain sure is braining lately #ignore me ive been having a Few Days for sure #and there aren’t enough words or enough time in the world to express the full context of this thought #like #the love story doesn’t happen in the epilogue #and the epilogue can’t fix an ending that failed to satisfy the reader #and an authentic and satisfactory sequel is impossible when the ending killed off too much of the plot #does any of this make sense #do i even know what i mean #just ignore me im overthinking #and of the like five different crazed rants i drafted tonight this one is like the shortest #and least weird i think #and i wanted to shout my nonsense into the void to shut my brain up for a minute #apologies for that #pls continue as you were and i hope your brain is quiet and your day is good <3 #wait also im all good im just thinking no need to worry! #this is just my nonsense that wanted to be set free from rattling in my brain just let her be and she’ll go away on her own eventually😪

[roses-and-elixir]

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#its so interesting to see what ppls reactions are when you open up and tell them your struggling #like ive had ppl ignore me #some ppl telling me im overthinking/over reacting and shud just suck it up and its always like this #like got told yday i was whining too much #like bruh this is giving me chest pain from the anxiety and i just wanted to talk about my struggles i haven’t felt this bad in ages #every morning im like here we go again or im like ok today i feel try not to be honest and complain bc no one wants to hear it

[the-kipsabian]

hey can you do me a favor, can you like this post if you see it on the dash?

#specifically on the dash #idk im trying to figure out if yall are just ignoring me or if tumblr is hiding my posts on dash... #cause idk. ive been feeling incredibly excluded lately. i know im not in a great head space or posting a lot but still #i might just be overthinking this. i just wanna prove to myself that im not insane #sorry. im going to bed im exhausted good night #night is an absolute mess on main

[chaosradiation]

the new tailstube's reference to team sonic and team dark's fight in sonic heroes is going to drive me insane. they were trying to use it as another example of sonic and shadow not liking each other or getting along... but it. does not work for that. this was the game where shadow had amnesia. how can this be an example of sonic and shadow's rivalry if he had no idea who the fuck sonic even was.

also, from sonic's perspective shadow was supposed to be DEAD. the last time he saw shadow was when he FELL TO HIS DEATH FROM SPACE. not that im really expecting them to acknowledge that when they barely even acknowledged it in heroes in the first place. but its just another layer of context completely stripped from this interaction.

#talking tag #tailstube #sth #yeah im overthinking the glorified advertisement but like. come on. #you cant just ignore the 1 big plot detail introduced in heroes. thats shadows ENTIRE ARC in heroes. #they could have made a joke about it. it would have been so easy. whateverrrr #all this on top of the oversimplification of sa2 really aint it for me. but what can you do

[b1mbodoll]

#gna rant real quick bc im so overwhelmed so ignore if u would like to 🩷 #but AGHHHHHHHHHEUGHEBWHA im screaming my little heart out right now #i feel so annoying 😭 like eughhhh #i always try so hard to be welcoming and loving and stuff but T_T it sucks when people clearly dont care for u #like i wish i wasnt so awkward bc im trying so hard to be friends but !!!!! it doesnt feel worth it when i feel this bad T_T i feel like an #idiot for waiting for a reply but i push thru bc i like making friends!!!!! i want to be friends!!!! but this isnt the first time ive been #ignored and it hurts T_T #this is why i keep to myself #idk what gappened i literally was working on drafts enjoying #my high and now im sad bc im overthinking #and its like… they probably dont even think abt me so why am i putting myself through this #i hate empty words #do not tell me one thing just to behave the complete opposite!!!!! givin me false hope for what :(

[touch-starved-lurker]

would anyone text me if i stopped texting first

#overthinking #loneliness #lonely #sad thoughts #ignore this #ignore me #im fineeee #just #we're on break and ive been diligently texting first #but then they'll just straight up ignore direct quuestions/conversation starters #no no no #its FINE #theyre just busy #or didnt see it #it is FINE

[dumbthiccbitch666]

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#mentioned goin on a trip sometime this year w my friend n she just won’t open my messages even tho we were actively chatting back n forth #ik im just overthinking #but i swear anytime i try to make any plans w her she just goes silent n ignores me #which ya know probs means she doesn’t wanna be do that kinda shit #but like why keep trying to be my friend ??? #am confused #n also don’t wanna just ask her what’s up bc i’ve asked before #n she’s just like omg i’m crying n i didn’t tell u i started dating this guy bc i didn’t want it to be real #n now this girl just doesn’t even tey to contact me unless i do it first #i just hate all my relationships are one sided #why do i care about ppl so much when they don’t do the same towards me

[elizabethlailfricked]

I don't think they like me anymore

#womp womp #😔 #🥲 #womp #to the #sucks to be me ig #or maybe im overthinking it #idk but i am pretty overwhelming so like i understand if they are ignoring me or if they just dont like me anymore #its not like im oblivious or stupid #or that stupid #i know how to read people even if i cant see their face when they get a message from me #i can always tell

[mbat]

i hate so deeply the fact that im so paranoid that any person i enjoy online is secretly a horrible person

like theres been so many youtubers that have been awful people that its left me scared that every single one of them is awful and so im sitting here overanalyzing against my will and reminding myself every 5 minutes not to get too attached

#i could list a few youtubers i used to watch but im still shaken by skydoesminecraft #its been almost 2 years i believe since everyone came forward #i cannot properly state how much i adored sky and he was a fixation TWICE when i was younger and i watched countless of his videos #and i was literally trying to get back into him again idk why and then. everything changed and i was so heartbroken #and i have not been the same since #i mean obviously its not like im trying to get obsessively attached or parasocial if i can help it but. idk #it feels like even outside of this. like in general. im always overthinking everything to see what could go wrong or if its dangerous #and its like ughhhh im so tired of being on guard when im literally just looking at a screen #my post #ignore me #im letting myself be into dan and phil again and im like. so happy about it but Sooo Scared and its dumb

[her-midas-touch]

I’m so okay I’m totally fine but also "They’ll hate you because you made them love you so much”

#im sorry if you see this and it makes no sense I’m on a huge wave of feeling things and I need to get it out of my system ignore me lol #Its just that one episode in emily dickinson s2 iykyk but also the delivery just makes me want to sit there and think about this #its about fame but also it makes so much sense in a normal context #because isn’t love of any kind also scary like that? Like how we’re sometimes so suspicious of people’s motives or overthink a relationship #suspect an ulterior motive #or being used or worried about not being on the same page about the relationship or getting too attached while the other person doesn’t #and its part of the reason we draw up all these walls around us to keep the hurt out or avoid the person #or convince ourselves its too good to be true #and then sometimes we’re on the receiving end of that and its so confusing and hurtful and sometimes #the line between hate and love is a thin one #but they’re both just strong emotions that can take quiet and loud forms but the fact is they both stem from an excess of something #just that hate comes easier because love is genuinely scary in the sense that being proved wrong about it is just way more crushing #than being misdirected or wrong in hate #ari yells at the void (no literally because wtf are my tags rn 😭)

[kuiinncedes]

:’)

#to start this w a good note lol #bro almost all the music i’ve heard since we got to this vacation spot was done on gIee LOLLLL #not even just at the hotel where they were playing xmas music so like ofc a lot of that but also other music #that was just . all done on gIee lmfao #but also on the shuttle ride here from the airport #the driver had like disco music playing and istg it went from like #staying alive to ​u should be dancing to uhhh disco inferno #to idk if it’s disco but after that was u can’t touch this lmao 😭 #on to the not so good part bro it’s day one why i gotta be so sad lmfao #im blaming it on the like 2-3 hrs of sleep 🤩 #it ok i actually feel not bad for only 2-3 hrs of sleep before flight LOL i’ve been banking up the sleep so that rly makes a difference lma #i feel fucking ridiculous tho bc i feel lonely af and unwanted on a family trip #bc my brother has a childhood family friend to hang out with who for the fucking record i was also friends with #and last time we were together for a significant amt of time idk why but my brother freaking ignored him basically #ik they exchanged snapchats tho recently and they’re both like buff gym guys now lmfao so idk they’re besties now so #i kinda feel like i can’t hang out w them #and then idk my parents like yeah and then my grandma so i’m just kinda hanging out w my grandma #they all went onto the beach i think and i’m here in a room w my grandma and i spent fucking like 30 minutes watching the beach bc i didn’t #know where they were and they didn’t tell me and like overthinking whether i should go #i got as far as tying my hair up and taking out a change of clothes #and then almost cried and gave up and took out my book and came out on the balcony lmao #like what am i even complaining about. but idk #it all goes back to that lovely middle school friendship that left me fucking devastated bro lmfao 🤩 #idk if that’s actually the reason but i’m blaming it all on that LMAO #anyway we’re here for a while so . i’ll just chill and read today bc i do want to read more and i kinda in the mood recently #also another thing was that my skin is still being a little fucking bitch #and i’m so hesitant abt doing anything w it so like going in ocean water #anyway. fuck my fucking brain i hate it here #it’ll be better tmrw when i’ve had some fucking sleep lmfao #jeanne talks

[resaresa]

idk, it feels weird to run a big group and also feel very isolated

#every time i try to make a conversation i just get ignored #at this point i just feel like folks are sick of me or just dont find me interesting #im lucky to get a single response to anything i say #and every day it just makes me sadder and sadder and I don't know how to bring it up #cuz if folks dont give a fuck about me why would anyone care if I talk about how lonely i feel #is this maybe depression brain making me overthink shit? PROBABLY #but this is also my lived experience and im gonna react to how im treated

[macravishedbymactavish]

Me: I never hold grudges, really working on forgiving and forgetting. Yknow?

Also me: -remains mad about a shitty thing the newest coworker said-

#the snarky “i know you have senority over me here” #like damn rights i do #2.5 years to be exact #and her comment almost deflated the one thing im insanely proud of #im overthinking my good thing due to her #ignore me im just ranting #will probably rant to my other coworkers monday without names to see if im genuinely in the wrong #ugh

[lunarheslwt]

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#dunno why Tumblr gets my most unhinged rants but ignore #I feel like no one knowsme here so #the entire winter has been bad but this month is trying to kill me #every single day in tears every spare moment feelinglike death #I can physically feel the exertion of my mind as it overthinks and panics and ruminates #I've the urge to delete myself out of every single persons life BC what am I doing if not adding to their lives #I'd rather leave than be a negative unwelcome presence #I feel like I'm trying to wedge into places where I shouldn't. thirdwheeling life. #but if I leave then what? achieves nothing but even worse shit for me #afraid to stay quiet afraid to ask for anything afraid of my existence being a disturbance #this is overdramatic and life will go on and I'm aware I'm just. #i just need my brain to let me catch a break #im so tired man I'm so tired

[certifiedtrashmouth]

trying to decipher what triggered this round of sadness because why the hell am i curled up in my bed sobbing 🧍🏻‍♀️ i told myself it’s just from nostalgia but it definitely isn’t i need a lobotomy

#i’m like oh i miss everyone #and then i was like oh maybe i’m overthinking my interactions with joe and grace #and then i thought maybe it’s just work #AND THEN i thought it was just because i had ate and saw photos of other people that made me sad #but now im just like 🧍🏻‍♀️ i dunno #theres just a heaviness in my chest and i think it’s always there #idk #maybe sometimes the weight is easier to carry #and maybe sometimes it gets a bit heavy. a bit redundant. #maybe there’s also some imposter syndrome there #idk man #i wish i didn’t feel this way though #and so suddenly as i get ready for bed #anyways #ignore me

[darkforestwarriors]

having conniptions at 3am as I realize that my only fully finished and realized fanfics are a one shot warrior cats vampire AU and a long ass one piece self insert shipfic that no one other than me will ever lay eyes on (probably?)

why am I like this help

#useless text post #I find myself writing almost exclusively self insert actually which I don't care if people find cringe but even so I find myself unable to #release them into the wilds #I have a couple non self insert-y ideas but its so hard to get. into the headspace to write them #or maybe I take them more seriously? #but then again I took my two longest self insert fics pretty seriously too so idk I guess i'm stuck unable to pass the embarrassment barrie #the embarrier as you will #secretly part of me does want to go ahead and post them now that I have an AO3 account but also the worries #what if peopel see them? #but even worse I think somehow is if I knew lots of people did see them and just ignored them I would fucking die #But like ...my tastes. are very formulaic and also specific #what if they bore people? On the other hand: What if they're exactly what someone has been looking for #im overthinking all this LMAO #I don't think im brave enough to do it tonight but maybe. maybe one day I'll be bold I'll be brave etc etc. #cringe on main blah blah #no one will read my inane word vomit tags anyways what am I worried for #(pleas validate me)