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chirpsythismorning · 11 months

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In film, mirrors are often used for moments of reflection, obviously, both the physical and emotional kind, but they are also used for moments of deceit, deception, dejection, juxtaposition, contrast and comparison, distortion, delusion, breaking down and breaking through.

The fact that they took the time to have Mike face his reflection in one scenario, like head on, but not in the other, despite both scenes including a mirror, feels extremely intentional.

El looking in the mirror is for the obvious reasons, as she is using it for its purpose, to look and see the physical changes and feel some way about it emotionally, based on her experiences leading her up to this point. Though for Mike, the meaning is not the same. And we see that in how they choose to film these scenes differently in regards to Mike and what is being implied in each scene.

Basically, there is a significance to them making a point to awkwardly put Mike dead center in the middle of the frame facing the mirror beside El when she looks most feminine, as it also creates this feeling of reflection for Mike, but I would argue it's also deceit/uncertainty, based on the fact that it is shot really eerily in this case.

For one thing, he's not following the rule of thirds, whereas El is. This meant the audience would feel inclined to focus on El because she is following a more common rule of framing than Mike is. And yet once you really look at it, Mike being in the middle just standing still, almost emotionless, feels like you're seeing something under the surface that is just barely within reach, hence why they filmed it the way they did.

Side note: Think of the snowball scene, where the camera has Dustin in the frame following rule of thirds, in focus, whereas Mike is smack dab in the middle not in focus. Most people were focused on Dustin, though putting Mike in the frame in the middle feels important despite that, because it's the damn middle.

A few episodes later, we get a parallel to the first pretty scene and with Mike present again, only they are alone this time. In this scenario, El looks less feminine, and in contrast to the first scene, Mike is not being forced to look in the mirror and reflect. This is because in this case there is no deception to confront since he is most attracted to El in this state and therefore he isn’t deceiving himself. This is also why he's forced to look down uncomfortably at himself, followed by overcompensating...

#byler #stranger things #no but the scene of Mike calling el pretty #flipping from something romantic #to this really out of place moment where Mike is forced to confront his reflection head on…#that’s not for no reason…#they could have filmed this wayyyy differently #they could have had a close up of Mike on the side looking at her fondly #instead they chose to put mike awkwardly in the middle of the frame #with this silence sort of taking over #it felt like we were being forced to face something just like mike #even if at the time we couldn’t put our finger on it #the next time El asks if she looks pretty with a mirror before her #mike reassures her that she still is pretty REALLY pretty #despite her clearly being insecure that she’s not as feminine as she would like to be #us getting mike looking self conscious upon giving up that information Willy nilly #this time with no awkward reflection #followed by Mike overcompensating and trying to kiss her #despite only meeting her a couple of days ago #in his basement bathroom #when she looks less feminine and no one is around…#after he felt pressure to like her now…#yeah…#that boy is gay..#the darks shadow also…#the shadow that sort of hovers around mike in the first scene #and the shadow taking over him as he goes to kiss her 😭#‘guys!!’#at the end is just the cherry on top 😭

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yeah-thats-probably-it · 3 months

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What if Jeeves isn’t even specifically a fan of Spinoza? Maybe he’s just interested in philosophy in general and requested the Spinoza because it happened to be the most anticipated philosophy book that had been published recently. But now Bertie thinks Jeeves is obsessed with Spinoza and buys him Spinoza books on every gift giving occasion, and he always has such a big smile on his face and is so thrilled to have found something Jeeves really likes that Jeeves doesn’t have the heart to tell him otherwise.

Besides, for some reason he really has taken an interest in Spinoza recently.

#well regardless i’ve just bought a short introduction to spinoza #i flipped through ethics at the bookstore and immediately decided i needed a beginners guide #so i’ll soon find out whether it’s the sort of philosophy it seems jeeves would be into #jeeves and wooster #jooster

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landfilloftrash · 7 months

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afternoon ponderings

#my art #Ace Attorney #Gregory Edgeworth #Manfred von Karma #blueberrypancakes #for my brain to be able to see any sort of romance I have to just. Draw them in situations. Put those lawyers in a situation.#Plantonic and/or silly situations but situations nonetheless ! Anyways—#ok small ramblings time w/ headcanons #von karma paces to help him think- despite his leg- and tends to talk himself through things that happened (based on evidence and testimony #edgeworth switches between bouncing his leg and flipping through books unseeing trying to connect dots without 100% thinking about it--#letting it sit in his head as he turns it about subconsciously. most times it works- sometimes he just Has to talk through it with someone #and that someone is the one pacing due to his own case at the moment; and so! they talk. case talk small talk. talk!#they aren’t on the same case 4 this art— they’ve have been pinging ideas off each other and complaining about various things for hours now #bc if they were on the Same case they would NOT be this close in proximity except on the crime scene.#absolutely FIENDISHLY protective of their respective evidence. it's a game it's a dance it's a fight and gregory won't stop until he wins #and even then he would never stop; however they aren't on the same case so! they hang out and chat like civilized people. and argue (aff)#rea rambles in the tags #rea’s trash

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carrionfourth · 26 days

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my problem is I always gather TOO MANY references and inspirations and on a device I cannot see all of those and it becomes annoying and overwhelming to go through a digital gallery. I used to drop them all into a sai canvas when I had a working laptop but honestly what I need is to like print every single one of them and tape them onto my walls so that I can experience them in person in a 3d space from my entire periphery, and just spend hours getting familiar with them. like a gallery. but that's a lot of paper and a lot of ink that I cannot afford, and a limited quality of detail

#c3personal #one of my teachers in college kept a binder of printed inspirations and references and I need that #art books are OK but there's too many other pieces to flip through and I'd rather be able to pull them out and place some beside each other #I just need. some sort of organisation method that isn't absolute chaos and overwhelming as fuck #my beloved college printers I miss you I take back everything bad that I said about you here is a dollar my sweet giant baby boy epson #you can eat my prints you can remove layers from my file it's ok I forgive you

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izzythehutt · 1 month

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would you mind telling us when you plan on posting the next chapter? i smile just thinking about the black family shenanigans that could ensure!

When I finish writing it.

#sorry but last time i made a sort of promise a person flipped out #when i didn't meet it #so i just don't make promises anymore #pretty soon tbh #I've been working pretty steadily on it and just have one small section to transcribe #and one to finish #and then the whole thing to edit #in the next two-three weeks lets say #the black sheep dog

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goosessideblog · 4 months

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Thinking about A Square being returned wrong. Mirrored. Irreversible

A Sphere fucks up, and puts him down in the wrong direction, wrong side up. It's not like he remembers, but A Square certainly does. When he wakes up- it's too late.

The third dimension never phased him, but what about something so intrinsic as your own body, flipped the wrong way? The world becoming upside-down, having to relearn to navigate the places you called home. And it's such obvious proof of the third dimension, but what if it's all in your head? No one can tell with your features being confined to a corner, you can only try to explain the distress you're going through, but if you try you'll certainly be deemed a madman.

We know his knowledge changed him, but what if it changed him physically? In a way he can never return from? He could've passed it off as the strangest dream, denied it's truth, lived the rest of his life at peace, but how do you disprove something so concrete? Would he think himself insane too, after a while?

Someone let me access a two-dimensional being i have a hypothesis that needs to be tested

#cipherspeaks #flatland #be cautious reading my next tag; its first offence is being an esoteric reference and its second is being homestuck #anyways. its kind of like in HSETAU when SS flips karkat's sprite turn-ways and he has an existential crisis about it. does that to A Squar #can you tell ive been thinking about mirrors lately. i used to be content believing the seventh and eighth directions are a sort of-#-inwards/outwards but then light chose to reflect off certain surfaces in a weird fucking way and i no longer get the easy way out #i still think fourth dimensional gravity (if it exists) would be a constant pressure from every side; both inwards and outwards- and by-#-extent think i should be allowed in the fourth dimension. please ill be so niceys i just want to experience the ultimate weighted blanket #my organs will be fine probably -but the fact is that direction is a separate and mentally damaging thing #uuuuuugh. fourth dimensional beings if youre reading this PLEAAAASE let me be your apostle id be so good at spreading the gospel and i-#-won't even bring up the fifth dimension please please please please plea

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atopvisenyashill · 13 days

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AND ANOTHER THING i do think it’s very clear who the dance 2.0 is going to involve when adwd opens with jon, dany, and tyrion. like lol, lmao, that’s not subtle. but that doesn’t mean tyrion is ALSO a secret targaryen. instead ✨my opinion✨is that this is implying that tyrion will be the real power behind One Of The Dragons Involved…and tyrion introduces us to this whole entire insane new plot line that seems to come from nowhere about a third dragon being alive.

and then we got f&b which is just like, a lot of different people jockeying to be the power behind whatever dragon is sitting that throne and how important that close advisor is to keeping any sort of control on power, which is again, not subtle aksjd. SO YEAH, i mean whether tyrion DOES everything he’ll get accused of is probably going to be of heavy debate, but that man isn’t name dropping viserys ii every other convo just to be a targaryen all along. he’s going to be corlys, he’s going to be otto, he’s going to be septon barth, he’s going to be his father writ small - the person actually pulling the strings behind a dragon, not a dragon himself. i think his part in the dance is going to be very similar to all of theirs, which is to say, the moment he rips his own power away from whatever dragon he picks, is the moment that dragon is slated for death. it’s the moment they are SCREWED.

#and for me like if he gets the chance to BE THE PERSON that topples their monarch that’s great.#like picking a side and using them to make sure tysha & lanna get casterly rock. lann the cleve ring and stealing it out.#and then things go south and he flips sides and the person he flipped from crashes and burns? that’s cool to me.#so much more satisfying than just like. ‘oh i was a cool targaryen unlike my dumb shit family’#he’s going to be what daemon WANTS to be lmao but he’s going to be more or less successful bc he’s going to keep his head.#what i’m hoping for here is that there’s still some sort of night’s watch (i’m not sure about rebuilding the wall im fuzzy here let me cook)#and that tyrion ultimately takes the black.#but his descendants still get casterly rock.#getting on my soap box #yes i’ve started back up adwd again it’s slow going but we’re moving

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thunderboltfire · 5 days

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I've seen "draw Your character as a villain" used on various sites as a fun character design excercise, but when I've deeply considered the turn of events needed for Igna to become a villain it turned out that a) I've avoided it narrowly b) I've ended up with an AU that's very interesting, but also it's so dark I'd feel miserable if I had to actually write it in heavy detail.

For it to happen, the only prerequisite would be that Argo would fail to get her out of inprisonment, which could easily happen for example if he'd keep his original promise to her and would keep his mouth shut about the fact she's a spellbreaker. As much as Igna is only a pawn and at times treated like a highly valued but ultimately expendable soldier, it would result in a catastrophic cascade of events.

No help gained in a trial to break her out -> no expedition intending to do it, and in a result the Covenant wouldn't form a spellbreaking unit either. Theria wouldn't get an ultimatum preventing her from being executed. The main problem with Igna remaining at Yrreth's mercy is that Yrreth's perfectly aware of the nature of her talents and a part of his original plan for her was to use her for his cause. Igna isn't very susceptible to blackmail, but considering Yrreth's dabbled in the manipulation of living beings' live magic, with unlimited time on his hands he would find a way to break her, either with torture or with specialised spells meddling with the target's perception and free will (possibly both used in concert). Maintaining a permanent mind control spell would cost him a lot, but he'd probably deem it worth the price anyway.

A few months pass, and the Covenant's troops become a subject of immensely precise, harrying attacks targeting especially magic defenses and battle mages' units. They are always accompanied by the reports of a warrior clad in a black, rune-inscribed armor that seems to be completely impervious to magical attacks.

As rumours spread, something piques Argo's suspicion. Perhaps it's the fact that Aquila (who's still alive, proving that her rider still lives) immediately perks up mere minutes before the attack, or the fact that the description of the abilites match perfectly, he manages to cross Igna's path on the battlefield. Surviving the encounter by the hair's breadth, he realises she acts against her will. Feeling guilty for being unable to help her while he should've and still having an unpaid life debt to her, he decides to try and pull her back from under Yrreth's influence. The process would be long, arduous and deadly while Igna would remain on Yrreth's leash, and if he'd manage to get any help in it, the Covenant would sooner see her dead than captured.

But even assuming he'd be successful, that each curse binding Igna to Yrreth would be broken, she'd still be considered a traitor - even if she acted under a magical influence, at this point she's killed dozens, and has done enough damage that even if she isn't executed on the spot, the Wanderers won't ever take her back in due to her reputation. Hunted by Yrreth from one side, rejected by the other, her honor stained and her future ruined, she has nothing to come back to and no aspirations left. Except maybe a burning, animalistic need for retribution for how much has been taken from her.

#Isaldi #villain AU #doodles #non-canon #It's very much a “time traveller moves a chair” type of situation #though here we're talking about strategic oathbreaking - if Argo was much more preoccupied with his trustworthiness #vs deciding he'll sort it out later we'd end up with this #an interesting exploration though Igna is enough of a punching bag as it is #and the idea of her crossing blades with Argo sort-of makes me sick to my stomach #as much of a good fencer he is he would be at a significant disadvantage - worse armor and much less leverage provided by a weapon #If she wouldn't come to her senses it'd put him through the hoops just not to get killed #essentially this AU would result in a flipped script where Igna does the same function on the other side of the barricade #bc of this doodle I've needed to think about Yrreth's house emblem #winged 8-figure ouroboros it is #in a detailed version it's a snake eating its own shedding skin -#mountain elves' coats of arms often come not from actual heraldry but from ancestors' professions #they've had way more dynamic politics than lowland elves #digital sketch #thunderboltfire's art

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splintergirl13 · 2 years

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"I don't have spare fire protection." Herobrine mumbled out in a sort of daze. Steve knew it was working.

"Then don't burn me, Brine~"

#herosteve #herobrine #minecraft steve #fluff pining and stupitidy #inktober2022 #day 5 flame #flame #this is from a scraped vault chapter #i had a lot of trouble with this pose #and kept flip flopping on what i wanted to draw #flame had so many options damn #i had so many ideas #just glad to get them drawn i missed drawing them #but yeah the vault chapter was a sort of desperation spicey time #an au to right after they said they loved each other for the first time #it never really turned out well so it was scrapped #but i still have its skeleton lol including the lines above #fun times

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thewingedwolf · 1 year

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no this was ROUGH okay because i was just staring at the tv in horror as Sam shows Ellie his leg, knowing what’s coming, and when they bust through the door and Henry points the gun at Joel, my brain first went to “Joel is going to accidentally kill Henry in order to save Ellie from being bit by Sam” but then Henry is aware enough to shoot Sam to save Ellie and the moment the gun fired I knew Henry was about to kill himself, and because this is how my mind works when I watch shows like this, I thought “if B was Sam in this situation and I was Henry, I don’t know that I would react any different” and I felt a gut wrenching, sick moment of compassion and warmth towards poor Henry as Joel is begging him to give up the gun because he is also just as aware as I am what is about to happen, but then the camera switches to Ellie’s face and I switched into horror once again as I realized “oh my god but Ellie is going to watch Henry pull the trigger after she told Sam it would be alright no WAIT” and then the gun goes off again and Ellie screams

#tlou spoilers #this was definitely the more emotionally impactful mean way of killing them off ya kno like the momentary fear that joel would kill henry #just made me tired but when it went the other route it was both more horrifying in the moment & more interesting as well #it’s still build up into ‘the things joel will do for love of ellie.’ we don’t have to see him kill this barely out of his teenage years guy #he just bonded with it’s about joel seeing the sad sort of flip side to what bill said #not two people who love each other growing old together bc bill protected frank #but two people who love each other dying brutally young because in the chaos of this world henry could not protect sam #and you do not get very much of a say over whether you get to be bill & frank or henry & sam nor can you stop yourself #from loving someone in the way the two pairs love each other.#(the ultimate question is not ‘will joel kill innocent people to protect ellie’ which is what is answered by joel killing henry.#the question is ‘will joel make what can be seen as the morally incorrect question to save ellie’ and the answer is in the way henry betrays #kathleen & the revolution itself to save his brother and leaves a fiery collapse of infected behind in an effort to save him and the way #that henry completely falls apart and simply cannot go on when faced with the loss of sam anyway.#the last of us

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reaperseal-archive · 6 months

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sooooooooo just took a shower and ~inspected~ my entire body while i was in there

there’s a small hard lump in my armpit. and it’s deep. and it doesn’t hurt. haha. hahahahahahahahshahahah

#live-blogging my fucking downfall #i need to stay calmmmmmmmm #usually i ignore weird shit happening to my body bc i have all sorts of problems but this. makes me concerned #i’m not gonna tell mike abt it until i see the dr bc he’s just gonna flip the fuck out #i can’t tell if it’s a lymph node or what i’m stupid i’m not a doctor #medical tw #txt

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 6 months

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megumi 🤝🏽 yuuji

dying even if it’s only for a good minute only to be brought back to life bc fate realizes if they died for real then they would need to find someone else to fuck over. those two are like fates favorite barbie dolls.

apologies if this post is going to seem all over the place, just bear with me. i don’t even know if you’re going to see this BUT it’s okay bc i need to get this out my system 😭.

starting off — god, imagine the chaos that will ensue when megumi tells nobara & yuuji about his very tragic history with the zenins. but like he wouldn’t even tell them straight up, he’ll just make a little deadpan joke (my sarcastic, sassy son) & the others would look at him like : ??? wtf do you mean by that sea urchin head???

like imagine itafushikugi going shopping for like traditional japanese clothes for a little festival or some shit (megumi was dragged by his spikes to come along) & nobara is having the time of her life finding outfits for her & the boys. like it got to the point where she’s dressing them herself & she shows megumi an outfit that looked similar to the robe he was forced to wear bc of the zenin (it’s obviously not the same) & megumi just refuses to wear a robe with similar color patterns to the zenin robe.

megumi: that looks like the outfit the zenin forced me to wear. i wonder what happened to it, cause the last thing i know, i got blood all over it. so as the second member of the zenin hate club, im not wearing that….

megumi: wait that blue one looks decent. i’m going to try it on.

nobara:

yuuji:

nobara: …did he really leave without giving us the “ getting blood on a zenin’s robe” story?

imagine maki complaining about naoya in front of the first years, & maki just brings up naoya’s onesided beef with megumi & her stories of how naoya was so petty back in his childhood made him remember who tf naoya is (megs have selective memory, it’s okay)

megumi: ugh, he was so annoying. i remember when he came to my middle school back when gojo was busy dealing with the aftermath of his evil ex boyfriend evil plan & he basically kidnapped me. i was stuck in a car with that man for 40 minutes..you would hate him nobara.

maki: yeah you would hate him nobara.

yuuji: i’m sorry he kidnapped you??? why did you say that so casually?

nobara: fuck that. megumi is a disney princess, we know this already. BUT we’re just gonna gloss over gojo had an evil boyfriend?

& imagine when megumi finally tells his friends about the zenin clan was when yuuji just came back from the dead & they were asking how tf that’s possible. & somewhere in that conversation megumi just let it slip that his heart stopped beating once & itakugi looks at him in silence:

megumi: yeah the zenin clan basically forced me to exorcise some curses & complete a ritual to get a snake — that snake fucking bit me. it was my least favorite. but yeah i basically died. then yuuta brought me back. then i was blind for a good minute.

nobara, yuuji, & even sukuna:

megumi: it was a terrible time for me. gojo was even more clingier & protective. it got to a point where he started treating me like i was 6 again… reading me bedtime stories, singing me lullabies & describing the pictures in the stories since i was…yknow blind.

cue itakugi & even sukuna wanting to burn down the zenin but ofc they can’t do that…so they settle for pulling pranks on the members & traumatizing them ofc.

IM ALSO imagining how funny it would be for yuuji to be jealous of yuuta. like bro is basically living yuuji’s fantasy world. i’m giggling at the idea of yuuji fighting for his life to be either megumi favorite or nanami’s favorite.

you also opened my eye to the potential of maki & tsumiki… like i also like to imagine that in a happier world, they would understand each other on such a deep level. but they would also find parts of the other that they wished they had. but on a happier note i like to imagine that megumi would suffer whenever it was brought up that his aunt is basically dating his step sister. like maki would be a menace to megumi. every little thing he do? maki is texting tsumiki in a corner.

maki watching itafushi cook together in the kitchen: i can’t believe megumi has a boyfriend. it’s so cute that he thinks that he can hide this from me. lemme go snitch to tsumiki.

maki listening to megumi describe his fight with sukuna, a cursed spirit who apparently has a stripping problem: oh my god. megumi is truly yuuta’s boy. they both got cursed spirits obsessed with them…i need to tell tsumiki.

maki to megumi after witnessing his suicidal tendencies: don’t make me tell tsumiki.

i honestly love your story. the way you added so much more to megumi childhood is beautiful. it just make soooo much sense. but also your characterization of gojo is so precious to me. i’m waiting for gojo to go apeshit on the zenin. i’m also giggling in anticipation at gojo finding out about yuuta attachment to megumi. i like to imagine him to be kind of worried about it actually, bc that’s not fucking healthy. but i imagine him getting used to it since megumi will have a protector in the form of yuuta & his power of love.

i’m also curious to see mai’s role in this story since.

*sighs in disappointment at gege writing choices*

since she had a crush on megumi…yeah. but imma just interpret that as she wants to be his family. it keeps me sane

i also wanted to ask if there’s a chance that you would write a megumi POV of what happened in the zenin clan? ofc i would understand if you wouldn’t since it leaves a much more ominous feeling to the events. plus yuuta running commentary is a good mix of angst & humor so ofc i understand.

Yuuji: man fushiguro almost checks the boxes for a Disney princess. except he was never kidnapped or enslaved

Megumi, sold to the Zenin clan, who later kidnapped him: *sweating*

Nobara and Yuuji would be the co-vice presidents of the "fuck the Zenin clan" club if they knew what happened. They would be the presidents but yuuta and maki are already in a death match for the position and they're trying to avoid the bloodshed. they are not allowed to be treasurer because neither of them know how money works.

megumi is unaware that a formal club has been formed.

Megumi is suffering SO HARD in any world where maki and tsumiki are together. they won't stop ganging up on him when it comes to his love life and general wellbeing and holding hands where he has to see it. maki lectures him about his suicidal tendencies in the field, holds up one finger, calls tsumiki, and lets her pick up where she left off. maki tries to talk to him about relationships one (1) time and he tries to drown himself.

see i'm pretty open to writing a megumi POV but it, like most of my stories, falls in this nebulous category of "if i have the time." like, i've thought about writing megumi's pov before, there's a lot of stuff that happened that exists as like, background knowledge for me that will never make it through yuuta's pov because it doesn't make sense for yuuta to find out about it. It would be very tonally different, but if i did write it, it would be a different work entirely and i'd be making sea glass gardens into a series.

i'm eternally tempted by the siren call of making my works into a series. If i did it with sea glass gardens, i would want to add a one shot of Megumi's pov during the time leading up to sea glass gardens and a short multi-chapter of the gojo, nanami, shoko teen parenting trio. If I have the time, it will exist; if i don't, it won't.

#ironically the one thing that WOULD endear yuuta to yuuji is finding out about all of this #yuuji would instantly love him for all he did for Their Boy. it's the only way i see megumi actually fessing up to what happened #i think megumi's just someone who's really private and uncomfortable with people knowing a lot about him and he would try to hide this from #itakugi for as long as he could. it probably eats at him that the second years all saw him like this. i think he just hates feeling vulnera #megumi gives him the /extremely/ abridged version of events to get yuuji and nobara to chill about yuuta and how he acts (yuuji is convince #that there's no one who could be that perfect nobara keeps looking for homosexual explanations) and they instantly veer hard into finding #out everything there is to know about the zenin and how to hurt them and also yuuta's like. beloved in their eyes. megumi is their boy.#they love their boy. yuuta saved their boy. ergo they love yuuta now. it's simple math.#tonal shift is a huge sort of struggle with me as a writer just because i change my styles with every narrator #which is why it's kind of hard to flip between works if the tone is too different. i was trying to juggle sea glass gardens and toy rosarie #and i was just internally screaming b/c yuuta and jack could NOT be more different with narration styles and i was like 'fuckkkkkkkkk'#with yuuta i structure sentences with a lot of 'space' in them. i don't have a better word for it i'm not actually trained in writing so #it's all just whatever shit i made up along the way i have no officially terms. anyway. Yuuta's sentences are structured to have this sort #of detached distance between the actual message and the start of the sentence. So we end up with a lot of sentences that start w/ structure #like “yuuta thinks” and Yuuta feels“ b/c I think of yuuta as a very detached person because of how he lived. it's a survival mechanism.#a lot of the meat of what he feels has to come in almost absentmindedly. So you end up with Yuuta's suicide scene and losing the knife and #him having a line like “He swears he never meant any of the bad things he did” and the fact that he thinks his own survival is a bad thing #/he's/ to blame for is almost backdoor'd in as a given premise. it's assumed. it's not even the point of the sentence. he's been living wit #jack murdock meanwhile is an intensively retrospective character that's meant to make you almost feel claustrophobic from how “close” his #narration style is. a lot of the actual message is conveyed through imagined scenarios and emotional recollection. he's a character steeped #in regret who has been torturing himself with it for years. yuuta's survival mechanism is isolation but jacks been yearning to get back wha #he lost for so long and dreaming of it that he's steeped in really vivid internal imaginings.#with jack you have multipage lamentations remembering his son buying cereal with him but yuuta drops the fact that his parents stopped #loving him at some point and it's not even the most important thing in the sentence. it's included as a qualifier because yuuta has accepte #so much of the bad things that happened to him when he shouldn't have whereas jack hasn't accepted ANYTHING that happened.#Yuuta uses a lot of very clean cut grammatically correct narration and jacks is riddled with a bunch of “ain't's” and grammatical errors.#he has an accent for lack of a better term. so you end up w/ two characters who convey information in different ways prioritize different #info in their sentences use different sentence structures etc. so megumi would have a /very different/ style and tone from yuutas that woul #sort of shape any fic that came through him because all of my fics are primarily shaped through the narrator's voice. it's also why I set #kind of hard lines about whether a fic can have any narrator or just specific narrators b/c it determines the whole tone.

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