#keep growing them yourself

[pebblezone]

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #alucard hellsing #walter c dornez #a #those like 2 seconds of dialogue between Walter and seras hands down best scene like DUUUUUUDE #*seras interacts with literally any character* ‘omg they have the best dynamic in all of hellsing’ #I LOVE HER SO MUCH AHHHGHHGGH every dynamic is great because she at her core is such a loving and passionate person that it bleeds into all #other facets of her life like FUCK man even after the betrayal she thanks Walter like she’s been through hell and seen the worst in people #yet she still sees the good in them!!!!!! what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #unrelated but currently very emotional about my 3ds and Pokemon and the beauty of existing authentically #I found my first (caught) shinies!!!!! I found a rattata when I first got heartgold and my brother tried to coach me through but I killed it #so then I’d been playing b2 and was in the ranch and I got this patrat and azuril within 30 minutes of each other #and then seeing other Pokémon that I transferred up or that I got from my brother and the ones my friend traded me #and then like my 3ds is a Time Capsule to 2015 when I figured out I can use the internet on this thing #girlie was on ao3 and I’ll keep some of my dignity but it’s endearing in a sort of way. that was my life once! #people and the passage of time is so sexy. being able to grow and see yourself change as a person. Pokemon. #I got like this a few months ago going through the camera on my 3ds. I have like no photos of me from 8-12so it’s like. woah!! that’s me!!!

[kazamajun]

Underrated Kazuya detail is that he's actually a good boss. Like I don't think we've seen him ever mistreat his underlings (which is something very atypical for a villain) and he also does stuff like tell them to not bother fighting Akuma as they're no match for him, when most wouldn't show any level of care for their lives. And there's even Jack's t7 ending where Kazuya gives him a paycheck and carte blanche on expenses beyond even the approved ones - which, while this ending is played for laughs, it's still kind of incredible that in any scenario Kaz is willing to pay his robots.

#val rambles #a fitting subject to be my 10k post #this man is just so fascinating jskhdf #anyways kaz did you grow those ethics yourself out of a desire to not be like your dad #or did your wife teach you the failings of capitalism in viewing workers as disposable + what a living wage is #to the point where you sat down and figured $25+expenses would keep a robot above the poverty line #????? #and no i didnt forget about the gcorp executives he killed but they had it coming for trying to murder him first #tbh i'd work for kaz the majority of bosses i've had were way worse #note - this is not me saying he's a good guy. good guys being good bosses is to be expected. #the fact he's a baddie but still treats them with respect is what's interesting!!

[amatres]

layla growing to accept herself, finding people who accepted her, and choosing to spurn power given to her and getting to live on for however long her life will be happily

versus sigrud who sought vengeance, helped create a near apocalypse to punish the people who persecuted her and killed her friend, and then embracing power given to her so she can rewrite it all when she came to regret what she did, effectively killing herself in the process

#ama mumbles #layla (oc) #sigrid (oc) #the whole soul of areelus kid and the mythic transformation can lend itself so well to stories of accepting yourself #vs letting others shape you. in both directions! legend can just as easily be the kc giving up power bc iomadae told them to #and they regret it vs the kc keeping the power for themselves and it making it theirs #i just thought it was fun the dichotomy i made with layla and sigrid's story lines #and they both get revenge in their own ways but layla stops before she goes off the deep end #meanwhile sigrid goes too far and then fixes it by going in the extreme other direction #theres also the fact layla was an adult and had the time to refind herself even if she was living on the run #meanwhile sigrid was a child and could never truly grow up to see past the intensity of her emotions

[pigeonwit]

had a teeeeeny tiny cry in bed last night but man. ryan kopel really cared about the autistics with his davey huh.

#the nerves. the stimming. the constantly keeping your humour to yourself cause no one else would get it. #not getting jokes. always feeling on the fringes. wanting to scream because the world isnt fair but you can't make it so. #and then being able to see that grow into davey joking with the newsies. hugging them like family. being One Of something. #and understanding the joy that comes with that. #they LIKE him. hes weird and different and not quite like them but they LIKE him for it. #fuck im gonna cry again #man. autism. davey and autism. #ryan kopel the people's davey

[willowcrowned]

the thing about qui gon and rael is that like. rael thinks qui gon is the version of him who didn't fail, right? qui gon was the one who didn't have to kill his padawan in the end. qui gon was the one who didn't fuck up in a way that unmade him. and qui gon knows that. qui gon believes that. qui gon thinks that all that's standing between him and the utter destruction of what's left of rael is the bare fact that he wasn't the one to physically kill his padawan. rael for qui gon is a version of himself that he hates. and that's something he can't ever acknowledge

#something something golden child complex #at least the fuck up gets to admit there's something wrong with the system and they got screwed up because of it #you don't because the only thing keeping you together is the system #your entire identity is invested in it. and if you lose that then you're unmade #like. the daddy issues of it all #because the ways they construct the ways they relate to the world are purely through rules #rael in how he bucks them and qui gon in how he obeys them (not necessarily jedi rules. but HIS version of jedi rules) #and dooku being... dooku. #dooku being strict and unforgiving and doing it because he cares about his padawans! that's how he knows how to love! #he loves by pushing and pushing and pushing until the thing he loves is how he thinks it should be #you grow up with that and you start to have a voice in your head that's always telling you how you messed up again #and it starts out sounding like your master and then it just sounds like you #and suddenly you're middle aged and the man in front of you is everything the voice inside your head hates (and you know you ARE the man in #of you. you know the only thing separating you two is luck) so what can you do but despise him a little bit. almost as much as you envy him #what can you do but try to convince yourself it wasn't luck you escaped his fate. what can you do but try to convince yourself that you got #out because you're better #quirael #star wars #rael averross #qui gon jinn

[cultivatingyourfuture]

im losing my mind waiting for my last class to start and I've just been drawing ev over and over again so. here are the best three i had all shoved over to the side

#eveline #i may as well just. #strawberryscribbles #Yeah #the a sharp-and-a-half thing is a hyper obscure reference to a video essay i watched ((and no its not the mario 64 half a press one #although i wish id thought of that earlier #umm she doesnt like winter. winter is a very hard time for her especially because the post slows down in that time + nothing in her garden- #grows. so she ends up stuck inside. running through her records until she cant stand to listen to them. and watching the snow fall #shes got some other winter related traumas but ill spare yall those details #you can imagine why she keeps the heat cranked and the doors locked and refuses to even step foot in the snow for yourself #gardening day fit eveline save me gardening day fit eveline #take a shot every time i change either her or cherrys bodytype you will be hospitalized in three hours #theres a vague idea that evie gains weight once she gets happier and that cherry looks borderline malnourished because-- #of a mix of stress and a digestive system thats now used to power electronic componets which can be supplemented with. like. #standing out in the sun for a few hours . #but i have Got to make them look more consistent god damn #oh well. practice practice practice #edit i went on that whole spiel about Why Eveline Hates The Cold and then realized i didnt even include the drawing that referenced that #ok

[tsukasageorge]

Day 18: Character Design/Ref

remember my magical girl oc named kyrie? yeah i have another one

oh my god this gave me so much trouble for literally no reason. i liked this design when i initially sketched it out but drawing it again made me kind of hate it?????? i literally have no idea whats going on in this design and also their face looks wrong but its okay bc its done now

~2hr 15min???

#raey draws #xchallenge #raey oc #'it doesnt have to be good it just has to be done' is probably the best mindset you can have as an artist imo #cause if you're an artist you'll probably never be Good. and i dont mean that in a bad way #your art will always be beautiful and have value no matter what. what i mean is like #you will almost always have higher expectations for yourself than you can realistically achieve no matter what your skill level is #and on one hand that's good bc it pushes you to keep going and keep improving #but it's also really really discouraging because your expectations grow With your art skills and sometimes it feels like you'll never be #An 'Actually Good' Artist #basically what im trying to say is. you have to make bad art. its literally impossible for you to only make good art. #making bad art is whats gonna make you able to make good art #anyways since this gave me so much trouble im going to talk a little about kye as a treat #their real name is kyrie but since they're already besties with a different person named kyrie everyone calls them kye #(everyone actually calls them jorts) #kye does own pants that are not jorts. HOWEVER they are committed to an incredibly stupid bit #and will refuse to wear anything but jorts when in front of other people #kye saturn and kyrie are all best friends (plus mac but its gonna be 5 years before i design him) #kye and kyrie are gym bros and have some deep soulful bond that transcends time or whatever (they have the same name) #kye and saturn are the 'cant stand her fake ass!! 10 mins later: me and the bestie' meme #kye and mac are not really Best Friends outside of their friend group but they kind of understand each other on some deep subconscious leve #cause they had similar childhoods + cause of death #ok thats it bye

[todayisafridaynight]

lit cannot stress how much fuckability masato lost after becoming aoki like emo death is real and its so so tragic

#snap chats #sorry but this has been my truth for months its time i speak on it #its true tho i dont think this is a shocking revelation to anyone #s'just like saying grass grows and birds fly #i will not support his prep phase its not happening hes such a dweeb now #rgg knew this fact with him showing off his tit despite that being like. The Worst Place Ever to inject yourself #we already discussed how he wasnt physically able to fuck and that was a nerf it was to humble him and keep him controlled and thats awful #frame one got me lookin at the screen like 👁👁 and then he open his mouth and my eyes get bigger and i sit in dead silence #was crackin jokes and chattin with myself every other second and then 🧍‍♂️ Go On Beautiful Keep Talking Idc What You Sayin #im a man until he starts talking about 'his girl' and then suddenly im feeling some kinda way #tho that might just be cringe cause why does bro talk like how i used to in high school 😭😭😭😭 #thats the funniest part about masato/aoki to me like. there's so much bullshit bout them that reminds me of high school #but thats the thing that was High School like im grown an shit this bro never grew up apparently AND HE STARTS THE GAME AT 23 #wait back to the subject line of this post i be acting like aoki dont got me unwise a total of like. four time either #sorry everyone there was something in the water today and now im ill #its cause i cant draw this weekend so i have to be disgusting some other way #gonna make it everyone else's problem but worse #anyway i have to end this post because the more i t hink about the high school comparison the more i start to cringe

[soulofamy]

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#misc #'normalize not shipping ashrah and syzoth' OR you could just grow up #people can like or dislike what they want but like also im so sick and tired of searching their names to find art/content #only to find their search results to be flooded with people being negative and annoying #you dont have to like them i couldnt care less if you didnt but !! keep it to yourself !! #talk about the things you DO ship instead of flooding search results of what you DONT !! #this is mostly referring to the people on twitter #people on tumblr are so much better at minding their business

[stagefoureddiediaz]

To all the anons currently harshing my mellow by clogging up my inbox shouting angrily at me for theorising that Eddie and Lucy are going to go on at least one date and telling me you'll stop watching the show if they do.

I suggest you stop watching now and save yourself some time - perhaps use it to gain some critical thinking skills, or maybe use it learning how to not go around making your misery everyone else’s problem!

Don’t forget to close the door on your way out!!

#hate anon is never ok #I'm not answering any of you directly as I'm going to be blocking you all #but I'm not here for you to be rude to #grow up #I'm not here to provide you with your much needed reality checks #you don't like something - stop watching and don't make it other peoples problem #I want to enjoy my show - a show that we're so luck to have because they give us so much depth to explore #the world has enough hate in it without you adding to it #try kindness think before you type and remember that there are real people behind these blogs #real people who deserve to be treated with the same respect and kindness you'd expect to receive yourself #just take one moment to keep in mind that you might be saying something to someone who is struggling with their mental health #and what you say could be the thing that makes things worse for them #I'm not going to say more becasue it will only make me angrier but think - just think #911 discourse #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #911 speculation #911 spoilers #only including that tag becasue I refer to a spoiler!

[vercna]

have to be up in the Capital next week after months of hermitting by the seaside, it wasn't planned and I had every intention of celebrating a quiet halloween by myself which wouldn't have been HALF as lonely as texting the few friends i have in paris too make plans for unrelated drinks and all of them saying they can't on the 31st because of plans, yet not extending a "what are your plans?" or even a half assed invitation

#listen i know im the thread that keeps these people together i know they dont make efforts unless i make the first move #it's always been like this and it will remain that way until i inevitably grow sick of it and stop trying #but when you reach the point where organizing hangouts feels even lonelier than rotting away by yourself #you might start to wonder if it's even all worth it #diary entries #i am so so so lonesome #it's not even about halloween like i guess some of those plans are just couply stuff so i get it you're not gonna invite me for that lol #it would just feel so incredibly nice to be acknowledged and asked about instead of just penciled into a calendar after i beg them to hang #anyway everyday i fade more & more into a ghost my colours are graying until all that's left of me is residual mist

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

genuine writing tip: if you sit down to write and it seems chaotic, disjointed, disconnected, repetitive etc in a way that feels like something is wrong, it might be because you need to do some selfcare. you're not a hack; things like needing to eat, being dehydrated, needing a shower, having unbrushed teeth, sleep deprivation etc will fuck up your cognition to a degree you might be more surprised by in some cases than others. writer's block, and/or your writing feeling like a garbled mess, might be a check engine light to go take care of that stuff.

(this is one reason writing can be such an extremely useful tool for my health, mental and physical, when i'm doing it regularly. i write a few sentences, even just to get a quota out of the way, and suddenly i get hit by a dozen status effects at once that i've been ignoring for hours or days. it also, for me, comes with the added motivator that i want to write damn it go get maintenance out of the way so you can do the words.)

this is by no means a blanket statement! it might not work for everyone, and in some people's case it might make things worse; if, for example, you're someone who sits down to write and then gets sucked into it for hours to the exclusion of all else. but it helps me a lot, so i thought i should share: if any of this resonates with you at all, it might be worth considering.

#whosebaby talks #writing talk #writing tips #general fandoms tag #mental health #honestly more and more of my writing advice these days; to actually grow and develop your voice instead of overwriting it #ultimately comes down to 'does it feel *to you* like something is wrong' #something you write can be seemingly perfect on a technical level; and still feel like something is Not Right #everything after that becomes collecting and developing tools and principles to help you resolve that feeling of wrongness #and expanding your horizons by exposing yourself to the broader world; art and ideas and aesthetics and genres and *people* #and your idea of wrong and right notes in your own art; and how you want to communicate yourself; will grow and change with it #(also hot take: if you are constantly finding conflicting wrong notes in your own work; it's often bc you have multiple art/writing styles) #(and either you aren't sure how to make them work together yet; or need them to be mostly mutually exclusive from work to work) #(i think there are many many many people who have more than one style; and trying to throw them all into one big You-Defining jumble) #(can keep you from developing and refining them separately; as well as synergizing them together) #(which is my onion for a different post but yeah)

[greygilberti]

Dealing with bs at work while also rewatching Steven Universe and on my way to work I keep listening to Here Come A Thought and Stronger Than You and when I get to work keep humming both songs and singing them when on my forklift and honestly it's helped.

#steven universe #i am 30 and steven universe is still helping me #it's such a good show that honestly helps a lot because adults still need to learn things that they're trying to instill in children at #a young age #if we all were able to grow up like Steven I feel like the world would be better #stronger than you #here comes a thought #su #steven universe music #anxiety attacks #anxiety attacks at work suck #especially when your supervisor will try and use anything to get you fired #because you're afab and stick up for yourself when you're not in the wrong #i hope everyone has something that helps them keep cool and focused at work

[sysig]

Bun (Patreon)

#Doodles #BunBonBop #ManlyBadassHero voice: bun #Lol #Just a bit leftover of the Bun-doodle session lol #Doing some detail-comparisons and also just doodling them because they're cute <3 #I had forgotten how cute Bop and Bun's hairstyles were! Oh and Bon's there too I guess lol #No I love his too he just got the short end of the stick being the warm up #But Bop's high-swooped hairstyle rather than completely overlapping her face is really cute! I like it! :D #I guess I could have both as their hair grows - they're all meant to have rather short hair to start #Oh and fun fact about time-shifters: the shifting assumes the individual would remain ''the same'' as they age #It's not literal time travel it's just based on the current trajectory #So say a time shifter has gained one pound of fat or muscle in the very recent past - the time shifting wouldn't exponentially keep adding #It would act as though the shifter had Maintained that weight and muscle definition into whatever age they're shifting into #You wouldn't just keep getting bulkier and more muscley the more you shifted lol - the same is true for hair and piercings and the like! #So keeping yourself in whatever shape you want to shift into is very important for time-shifters! Especially idols like the BBBs #But their bodies still grow naturally over time - hair included - so they have to keep that in mind before photo shoots #Also also since they're all pre-pubescent before shifting they keep a rather androgynous look even when shifting up in age #Once they hit puberty tho that will start having an impact on their shifting! #Anyway I've basically not talked about Bun-Bun's very cute shirt at all lol how rude of me #Her having long sleeves and a crop-cut was not intended to look like bunny ears but once I got the image in my head it Had to exist #Thank you previous me for your accidental galaxy brain lol #Bun-Bun's bunny series - very popular sold out in hours lol

[mokutone]

actually readmore very tangentially related to the art that came out of the queue tonight

this is very understandable and fine but i genuinely think that naruto is far more important to yamato than yamato is to naruto in canon like yamato IS ride or die for naruto he's like so protective and caring of naruto he was told "This kid is your responsibility and because of the power that lives in you and the power that lives in him you are temporarilly coming out of the shadows and into the light" and like he took that to HEART didnt he and like he clearly really loves team seven and loved being captain (co-captain) of team seven!! first time hes allowed to really be "himself" whoever the fuck that is, out in the sunlight, and like he is teaching kids and hes teaching Kakashi's kids and like he clearly liked that so much and being important to them and them being important to him and like there's rlly no doubt in my mind that he sees naruto as somebody very dear to him not unlike a son or a nephew or a little brother

i don't think naruto experiences their relationship the same way tho LIKE. when it comes to father figures he canonically views iruka as...as close to a dad as hes ever had—and there's kakashi too, who is emotionally distant often and just fucking weird even more often, but is obviously trying his best and Obviously cares, and then there is jiraiya, who is a huge fucking asshole and repeatedly denied naruto affection when naruto needed it but STILL eventually came around and clearly is somebody very meaningful and important to naruto, and tsunade!!!! tsunade who said she sees him almost like a son. who teases naruto and allows naruto to tease her back (allow, i say, as tho she could really stop him. this is who he is)

and then there is Yamato! He is in many ways very respectful of naruto as a shinobi, he is carefully distant (as he is with everyone) he is very honest and upfront with Naruto, but the closest he comes to any kind of direct affection is perhaps paying for food (as he does on their first mission, as kakashi goads him into later) or building a very fancy little resting house, or teasing naruto, or taking care of him when he is unwell. he's There and he Cares but hes...he's Captain Yamato. u know?

which is good! objectively its fantastic that by the point that yamato shows up, enough adults in naruto's life love and support him that he does not hunger for it anymore in the desperate way he did when he was younger!!! thats great! esp bc it was so so so so so fucking sad see the adults in his life deny him the affection he was so OBVIOUSLY needing

and also objectively this is the story telling modus operandi of naruto, he's the main character and he rolls into peoples lives like a category 5 hurricane uprooting them and leaving them blinking at bright sunlight in confusion and awe before he moves on to the next one. its very normal

i just also am like god damn. being in charge of team seven but specifically naruto completely flipped yamato's understanding of himself and his life and his place in the world and naruto probably has no fucking idea and you KNOW yamato isn't going to fucking tell naruto or any of the team because yamato does not seem to have conversations like that and certainly not with the kids.

#even when yamato is talking about kakashi who clearly means the world to yamato hes like... #''Kakashi-senpai is somebody I respect highly.'' like thanks yamato. very moving. please please please use ur words #it does not help that naruto apparently in boruto tries to keep calling yamato captain and yamato is like....no dont do that... #i should not be called captain by the hokage thats beyond silly naruto... #i hate boruto so fucking much #yamato grow up and admit you care about people and continue to tend to your friendships and relationships with them #stooopppp hidingggg behiiiiinnndddd your fuuuuuuuuucking careful DISTANCE augh. ugh. #like you know this man not just wants kids but like specifically enjoyed being responsible for team kakashi #at least take them out for lunch sometimes yamato...let them know how proud u are of them + ask them how theyre doing #offer advice if u have any #u do not have to be their dad or their captain to be involved in their lives but by god do not just take yourself out behind the snakeshed #w/e im always so mad about boruto yamato hes literally so worrying #if anyone is weird about this specifically if anyone takes this in a shippy direction. instablock. do not do that

[maretriarch]

grape>strawberry jelly any day of the week but homemade blackberry jelly exists on the 4th dimension like it exists far beyond our measly < > system

#god #i havent had blackberries in years #maybe if they were easier to steal from walmart but walmart blackberries r not even worth stealing theyre so ass #blackberrys need to be harvested from your nearest alley for maximum flavor #growing up just down the road there used to be a giant patch of blackberries and id fill up whole bucketfulls #in crocs. and id on purpose step on the biggest thorns so theyd break off in my shoes so i could remove them later like #for fun #i didnt have friends growing up CAN YOU TELL #it was like. pimple popping asmr from me tweezing the thorns from the foam #no wonder. i did not have friends #you find shit to do as a kid to keep yourself entertained literally anything i used to smack rocks between bricks to see what color dust i #could make