#like hold up i don’t care too much-

[marshymallo]

only hot girls break down all the time when the slightest inconveniences come their way

#i have a D in my ap stats class #and my mom is NOT having it #so now she’s making me email my teacher to ask for personal one on one sessions to help me bc i’m so dumb #it does NOT help that an acquaintance said ‘omg i got a 73 so now i have a B my 4.0 gpa is gonna drop!!’ #my mom is also mad that i had an attitude and ‘threw a tantrum’ while on the phone with her #i texted her saying ‘just got home. had a bad day so i’m gonna take a nap for about an hour’ #so i’m SORRY if i had an ATTITUDE when my day was SHIT #i must seem really fucking sad bc my cat climbed onto my lap and is now kneading my legs #she even said ‘who else is going to care about this but you and me?’ #like hold up i don’t care too much- #yeah it’s bad but i literally don’t care enough to want to fix it #im having an existential every day and screaming at the top of my lungs into pillows to get frustrations out #i cried for more than four hours yesterday about how much i hate myself and my life and the world we live in #anyways this is way too long so now i’m gonna send a half-assed email to my stats teacher and watch stranger things while snacking #⇢ ˗ˏˋ mae says stuff ࿐ྂ #ೄྀ࿐ chaos’ corner ˊˎ-

[hijinxinprogress]

The JL keeps trying to stop Captain Marvel from talking to the media (and it’s not working)

The jl held a meeting about marvel’s conduct with cops bc he got a little too excited and suplexed a cop completely fucking forgetting he’s a 7ft buff ass man (the video goes viral for months) and the press is having a fucking field day with this bc ‘Captain Marvel Hates The Government!’ ‘Justice League Member, Captain Marvel, Shows His True Colors…?’ ‘Fawcett Superhero Attacks Civilian!’ ‘Captain Marvel Sends Police Officer to ICU!’ ‘Philadelphia Hero Puts Public Servant In Coma’ and shit like that is on the front page of every newspaper, magazine, and tabloid for the next eight months at least

so they’re like ‘hey you gotta say something! The people think you hate the us government esp the police!’ and he’s just sitting there confused before he says very slowly and clearly ‘But I do…I fucking despise them’

Barry and Hal are fucking losing it bc this is the guy that says ‘darn!’ in the heat of battle and has said on multiple occasions ‘Well, that’s not very nice, now is it?’ to opponents that destroy worlds for fun

like this guy still tries very hard not to make faces at the broccoli on his plate in front of the jl (and fails)

this guy hears a yj member or even the very adult titans cussing and going on the longest rant bc ‘I’ve not heard such foul language in all my years-!’ and what’s this ‘‘I’m an adult’ nonsense?? I’m older than Ravens grandfather 🤨 When you get to be my age-’

they’re all so pissed when they hear him cussing like a sailor playing video games on cyborgs phone the next day and he’s playing fucking temple run at that

#dc comics #justice league #ACAB!Billy Batson #dc captain marvel #Billy batson #billy batson says acab #Batman #dc cyborg #Victor stone #green lantern #Barry Allen #Hal Jordan #Whenever Billy gets the chance to cuss out cops he takes it like he’s cussing in ways that don’t even make sense in multiple languages #Like he doesn’t even care or notice that cap isn’t supposed to swear and it’s HIS rule #it doesn’t matter which speedster fucked up the timeline bc billy goes straight for Barry zero hesitation #‘I’d expect this from a cop’ ‘I was literally fucking dead are you serious??’ #hal holding a newspaper: cap what did he even do #Billy trying to look like he didn’t fling a cop at several other cops earlier today: who’s to say ☺️ #Barry: hey I’m not included in your cop thing right?? …cap?? Buddy?? #Billy: 🙂 acab means you and that dumbass mf chase too #Hal remembering Greta ranting about a children’s cartoon at 3am: 🤨 bro the dog??? #just imagine how much worse it gets if they figure out he’s in middle school #hal recalling everytime he’s invited cap to take shots and race around the watchtower: you’re fucking twelve?! #billy (who recently turned eleven) holding out Barry’s badge: no but he is #or even worse Billy showing up to his intervention props 😭 like he shows up with a miss piggy mask ‘I mean I can be’

[monkee-mobile]

Do you think Davybaby ever regressed before meeting/joining the Monkees? Either in England or after moving to America

And if so how do you think he dealt with it?

I feel like he did but to a different level. he probably never really OFFICIALLY regressed and was really of seen as a little one during it until he came to the states, but when he was particularly stressed out while still in england he’d often go into a kind of weak state if his defenses were really down, he just didn’t process it through really regressing like he would later on. in england, he’d try his absolute hardest not to have that happen. he’d just feel really small and vulnerable and had no one there to protect him or help him through it except his sisters, but they didn’t jump right to babying him, they’d more just help him through the panic attack part of it all. usually he’d just lock himself in his room if he couldn’t brave through it and curl in on himself and sob until he fell asleep (poor thing). he’d often start sucking his thumb, but he just took that as a “weak” behavior that was just coming back from his childhood. He’d also often go pretty nonverbal for a while afterwards but he’d push through it all and move on (which definitely wasn’t the best for him, but it got him through that time. poor little guy didn’t face his own emotions at all). this kind of shutdown didn’t happen all that often cause davy worked hard to build a tough shell and braved it through all the way to when he moved to america and got out of the pressures of his family.

the move really did break him down because suddenly he was alone in a strange country so when the boys first met him he was definitely flighty and not the suave kind of guy he got to be once he became more comfortable, but they were all new to each other so davy didn’t really have a chance to feel super safe to just let himself feel things so he kept up the hard exterior he had built at first. but of course the monkees became very comfortable with each other and basically climb all over each other at all moments so davy started going “feral toddler mode” a lot where he would just go all silly and giggly and playful, so his comfort came through in a relatively childlike way, but he didn’t panic regress until a while after the guys were a group.

but eventually it happens and davy breaks down really hard at some point. it’s the boys who really start babying him when it happens. in the past he didn’t have anyone to really take care of him but things kind of clicked when he was held and talked to softly and he just sunk into the love that was given to him and it helped him process everything anew.

#the monkees #davy jones #davybaby #asks #i didn’t really go into specific incidents because i don’t really have official headcanon laid out for him #but this is how i see his regression at this point #the other monkees just saw poor davy with tears down his face and wide frightened eyes and his thumb in his mouth trying to hold it all in #and just wanted to hold him #mike definitely swooped right in and got all protective #and davy was surprised at first that being held and rocked and talked to in a soft voice would make him feel so much better #but it did #and he kind of got to reprocess how he experienced emotions as a whole #and start from the ground up in a lot of ways like a kid would learn #and he got to do that with the help of his friends who definitely ask him how he’s feeling in simple terms a lot when he’s little #but he’s safe and happy now and that’s what matters to mike #it definitely makes mike feel secure too because he has someone to take care of and know that he can make everything alright for davy #so it really breaks mike’s heart when davy is crying because he just wants to set everything alright #davy again is often ‘childlike’ when he’s happy too. it’s not necessarily the same as his panic regression or is brought upon in the same wa #way #but he’s kind of just a little guy all around so all emotions come out with him all little. it just lets him feel safe and like he’s not to #not to blame for everything #because he probably had a lot of pressure to be perfect on him (see his grandfather) #but now he doesn’t have to be PERFECT he just has to be davy #and he’s still worthy of love and respect #okay i didn’t expect to put so much in the tags lol #thank you for the ask!!!

[alangdorf]

Yayyyyy Mitori my beloved!! Also Takane’s theme has been the sleeper hit of Unconnected Marketeers for me. And also Nitori’s there. Due to there being Three of Them and just personal motivation weirdness this took like a whole week and I didn’t have the energy to do much personal interpretation of their outfits & hair like ppl often do when drawing Touhou characters; followed the reference too closely on that as usual. But fun fact about turtles! I had trouble finding much documentation on this, but [some?] turtles have a dark line across their eyes that helps them see better horizontally and their eyes turn so that the line is always parallel to the horizon

#art #digital #touhou #takane yamashiro #mitori kawashiro #nitori kawashiro #I also learned new facts about kappa but you’ll have to look those up yourself #not discussing shirikodama here lol #kinda funny drawing all three of them together cause of the key thing #also Takane wasn’t supposed to look that much like Magolor but I think it’s mostly the mouth shape which I gave to all of em bcuz beak #ALSO I decided to give them webbed fingers and then immediately afterwards realized that Takane’s sprite has her holding cards aaaaall the #way down between her fingers which like #obviously I don’t care too much abt being bound by their canon designs but just #the specificity and immediacy of the contradiction was SO funny #I might draw Mitori again and try to tweak her outfit a bit more; we’ll see #she is so cool to me #Sorry I don’t have more to say about Nitori!! she’s neat and all but you can probably tell I’m very influenced by their music

[milimeters-morales]

sometimes it’s sooo frustrating when you realize that you, the autistic person, are actually overreacting to something. because in the moment you feel completely justified, you’re in the right, everyone else is a dumbass who might just be purposely wasting your time, and no matter how much you explain your reasoning they won’t agree and it’s a personal attack on you. but then maybe a month or so passes, and you realize “oh damn it wasn’t that serious i was treating them the way the world has treated me, i was no better” and you can either take this one way or the other. if i start getting angry in an argument about something small like how to set dishes in the dishwasher so the most get cleaned without rerunning it, . nvm i’m just getting angry again. don’t be an autistic person who’s unhealthily fixated on how much every single thing costs guys it will ruin your life .

#not spiderstuff #like load the mason jars at the bottom so the water is the most powerful to get the dirt off the glass since the top row doesn’t get that+ #much power and the mason jars up there are never clean. or wash the jars yourself. #do NOT tell me ‘here’s a secret: i really don’t care’ because i’ll just start digging a hole to the core of the earth. #oh my god hold on. im making a post about that too

[starlooove]

He is in fact not cool with his friends killing people he just can’t do shit about it and the fact that he thinks he can do smth about (and does!) when it comes to his kids is like a major point

#like one of the main #Idk if theme is the right word #but issues surrounding Batman in general and Gotham specifically #is the high standards he holds not just those closest to him to but also the people he controls #NOW DONT GET CAUGHT UP IN UR GUT REACTION CONTROL IS A STRONG WORD BUT IM USING IT FOR A REASON #like i think the fandomification of the batfamily and seeing every character as reliable in the way they tell their own stories #is making people forget that yes bruce lowkey controls them #like not in a mean way or whatever but as much as dick and Jason rebel and say ‘fuck you old man I have my own people to take care of’ #at a snap of Bruce’s fingers where are they? #right back in Gotham #which ppl say is an issue with writing and I agree like they really just can’t take anyone away from Gotham #but THATS meta like the in universe conclusion is what creates in universe analysis #and these issues are being spoken about from an in universe pov #that was just me justifying my point anywayyyd #what im saying is that like #in conclusion Ppl are forgetting that Bruce is scary and still runs this shit lmao #like a few snappy quips about emotional distance and some ‘X deserves better’ fics is making yall forget shit like spyral #or at least how it went down and ended up today and what that says about the characters involved #it’s tragic and Ik we like to ignore that but like. when look at shit like the no killing rule #yes bruce thinks he’s being slighted or failing whenever his kids kill someone and they to an extent think that too which is why they don’t #do it #or at least partly #even for Jason that’s why the killing is not just what needs to be done it’s a form of rebellion for him #everyone who agrees jason should just leave Gotham but still present as pure rebellion and anger and spitting at Bruce don’t get why Jason #should leave is all I’m saying #that’s why Dick never got away #it’s still all about Bruce #even if we don’t want it to be #reading this back it’s disjointed as hell but I’m not fixing it if u get it ily heh just a peek into my dark mind #if u don’t it’s not ur fault not everyone can withstand the alphas prowess…

[toomuchdickfort]

Vent abt smth that gets on my Nerves

#tried bringing up to mom like. hey how could I bring up coming out to family. and she was like visibly uncomfortable so I was like dw I’m no #gonna like try to ruin Christmas with it or some shit I’m just. nervous u see. and I’m sat there anxiety rambling abt it because oh my god. #and she pulls out the fucking. ‘can’t you just be a person?’ mom I am a person already. the problem is. the PROBLEM IS. EVERYONE THINKS I AM #AND THUS TREATS ME AS A GIRL. like oh my god. #vent #it’s not a huge vent like if it comes up I’m not gonna Lie moms discomfort abt the matter be damned. #but like. ‘can’t you just be a person’ is what she says every fucking time it comes up. like mom. mother. mi madre. do you realize how much #of an insult that feels like when you say it EVERY TIME I bring up trans anxieties. or dysphoria. or any of the ways my transness affects my #life. like being trans doesn’t make me less of a person oh my god. but also frankly I don’t have the patience to be nice about getting into #things and I don’t have the heart to hurt her about it and even if I did have one of those I don’t have the patience to hold her hand #through all this shit. like I gave up having mom on this journey ages ago do you know how painful it is to un-give up on something that #immense. it’s hard and it hurts and it burns and it’s like. giving up to begin with didn’t hurt too bad- it’s cutting off the festering #wound. but. but then. you find out that. you can in fact work with that. and suddenly you have to try and clean the wound. care for it and #wrap it and do it all over again. and god it hurts. and. I’m not entirely sure I want to un-give up all the way on this? it’s. a lot #like I get and I appreciate that she’s trying to do. something. in theory at least. she avoids the subject when I bring it up and all but #cringed when I brought up coming out to her side of the family. she calls me my deadname and her daughter more than she did before she said #she would try. and I don’t have the energy to uncover that wound enough to start cleaning it. I’m just letting it sit there because frankly #it’ll be such a huge thing because it’s Always a huge thing when I don’t let the subject drop mega fast and I’m. I know she’s not gonna cut #me off for just being trans but GOD I want to keep ONE of my parents in my fucking life when I’m able to stand on my own two feet holy shit #and. man. it appears this is. still more of a thing than I thought it was. thats. annoying and inconvenient

[multiversegideons]

Having body image issues can really hurt those around you, and I really try to keep it under control knowing that. Of course, I don’t always succeed in that. It’s one of my biggest flaws, and I hate the hurt its caused to others in my life.

#like if I could completely get rid of that issue that’d be great #it’s been a struggle for so long #and it runs in my family too tbh #I don’t have an eating disorder rn or anything #but I hold negativity about my body #even dysmorphia #and I just regret so much how it’s hurt others #I shouldn’t even care but it just comes up sometimes unexpectedly and not wanted

[beepmon]

i’m panicking about my health, my car, school, my future, my relationships with ppl, about my entire life rn p much

#bumbles (bee mumbles) #as much as i hated my dad i did feel a certain amount of security when i could rely on him for the few things i could #he was like a car necromancer #it would function but just kinda barely zombie like vers #and now that he’s passed almost all at once all the cars and things he’s fixed up are breaking #like he infused his soul into them and they no longer has his ecto goop to hold it together #i’ve been ignoring my health problems bc i really hate going to the dr #idk maybe it’s bc i’m fat but they always dismiss my problems and i really am not mentally strong enough to advocate for myself #i tell them i’m in pain and something is wrong and they do maybe two tests and say we can’t find anything bye #and so i just feel like an idiot for going #bc obviously i’m just making a big deal out of nothing #i don’t want to be doing school this semester after last semester i ended up in urgent care twice bc my stress got to my body so hard #i’m taking less classes/more classes i’m actually interested in #but i feel like i’m gonna fall apart horribly again and i just transferred and feel so aimless #but i also feel extremely obligated to go bc that was the last thing my dad wanted from me before he passed #i feel so fucking stupid his death has effected me so bad he was an abusive monster #i feel so disconnected from my sisters that i was super close with #i fee like i’m talking to a wall of past interactions and neither of us can see who we currently are #i feel like i can’t connect to the ppl around me #i’ve been disassociating too often i accidentally keep checking out which is pissing ppl off #i’m so tired and fatigued and depressed that ppl can’t really rely on my and i fee useless and like a drain #plus i just feel so scared all the time recently like all the worst case scenarios are plaguing me #like scared my car is going to explode or my cat is going to have a heart attack or ppl died while traveling or some freak accident

[stephantom]

what didn't you like about it, out of curiousity?

Hmm I’m gonna have to think on it it some more and come back to you when I’ve managed to articulate something

#I will try to get back to you later anon #I didn’t hate it. there were scenes that made me laugh and smile #but I think the prevailing feeling it’s left me with is… confusion/frustration/dissatisfaction? about the message insofar as it had one? #hmm and I think also because it made me remember how much I disliked and felt alienated by barbies growing up #not bc of the body image issues which the film makes some effort to engage with #not beauty standards but FEMININITY standards #and the movie doesn’t acknowledge that aspect of barbie as a cultural influence/reflection at all #except for maybe Allen if you squint?? #the assumption is that you want to be barbie at least to some extent. you want to be pretty. #but you’re too stressed to accomplish it or you’re too angsty to embrace your desire to be pretty #the angsty teen goes from wearing all black (and pants) to a purple skirt by the end. the girly makeover subtly signifies healing. #(I know that could just be me reading into it… but is it?) #it’s the way it holds up a specific kind of person as Woman and universalizes her struggles and calls them All Women’s Struggles #while conflating them and largely ignoring actual economic/legal/political issues faced by women as a class #and the whole ken storyline… ehh idk I need it to be more internally consistent or something. to have a coherent message and not just #‘it was like I was in a trance where I thought I cared about the Zack Snyder cut of the Justice League’ as a joke about… what? #male-dominant interests being somehow inherently toxic? cool women not being into nerdy boy stuff? #it’s the old men are from mars women are from venus thing #sigh. girl power. lol I don’t know! #sorry this rambling is all I have for you right now #I thought the critique in youtube by verilybitchie touched on a lot of good points tho so maybe that’s somewhere to start #on* youtube #but it’s ok if you liked or loved it. I saw it with my sister who was super psyched for it (which is why I wanted to like it too) #and she’s great so

[tchaikovskaya]

Lol

#was talking to my sister about the d*pp trial and she’s kind of in the ‘he’s an abuser and is bad but amber seems like a toxic bitch too #and they’re famous so who cares’ camp #and then I reminded her of some of the genuinely cruel shit she has said to me or to our mom in the heat of the moment #bc one of her big sticking points was that whole ‘go and tell the world then and we’ll see who believes you’ soundbite #and asked how she would feel if those were recorded for posterity and brought up to nullify anything we might ever have done to harm her #and she… did not like that very much lmao but I hope she saw the light #(we used to get in awful nasty fights as teenagers but it’s fine now and I love her and don’t hold that against her)

[duskholland]

Enemies to lovers!!! You almost lived that!

i am living in a fic rn

#legitimately it’s so enemies to lovers w the guy i almost left with #like i’ve been complaining about him for MONTHS bc he’s annoying #but at work he flips between being annoying and being ??? so flirty and nice LIKE he’s a head fuck i don’t get it #i also had a dream about him a couple weeks back that was. ~intense iykwim #anyways #i’ve never experienced this kind of connection before it was Insane. #enemies to lovers …. it kinda hits irl …. i like it #like he’s so annoying but he’s so hot #we were holding hands for so long and his hands are nice too #FUCK #okay i’ll shut up now LOL i care too much about the whole thing it’s just so 😭😭😭😭 #anonymous

[pepprs]

god. ok. i think i need to see another counselor. i feel so fucking bad but this is not feeling good or right to me and i can’t make it until july not having the support i need. lol

#purrs #he just lost a very close family member in the middle of the semester and it’s fucked up all his classes and he’s behind on everything so #it’s rly hard for him to be present for me and i don’t want to hold that against him at all. but ive so rarely felt like he is seeing me and #truly responding thoughtfully and carefully to what i have to say. before and after this he spends like half the session very visibly doing #other stuff and it makes it so hard for me to feel safe and connected and he also just like is so stiff and regimented which could be good a #and fine if i felt like he cared abt what i have to say and wants me to have some say over what we talk about too. but i just got out of a #session w him and i literally feel worse bc he was asking questions that i could SEE he was bullshitting and it’s like. i know and i don’t w #want to hold it against you but also this fucking sucks and i need help and im here for you to help me and you can’t. lol #i feel so bad especially bc he’s supporting me as part of a class and he’s getting credit and training and this is so much abt him gaining t #the skills he needs to get his degree and go out in the world and be a good counselor. but i shouldn’t have to stick with a subpar #experience just so he can do well in his class. ive never had this kind of disconnect w any of the other intern counselors i worked with and #i feel so fucking horrible bc he’s clearly in a bad place and it’s impacting him and maybe working w me is helpful for him but like. i need #something better than this and i cannot make it until july without it. but i feel so so so bad

[cherrysnax]

I once heard that dreaming about someone constantly means that they’re thinking about you. Maybe these people miss you too?

kneejerk reaction is that I hope they’re not thinking of me tbh

#is that the truth? I’m not too sure. I just think it’s be easier to be okay with the concept of everyone forgetting me forever than to sit #with the mortifying possibility of being known and remembered #I don’t remember my hs self fondly so I don’t see why anyone else would yknow #I was already kinda convinced everybody hated me before I vanished so I guess. if ppl are thinking about me it’s negative #it’s scarier if it isn’t lmaoo #I don’t know what’s wrong with me #but yeah I don’t think it works like that nonnie or at the very least I hope it doesn’t <3 #I think I’m just a weird guy whose brain is trying to hold on to idealized memories of the past because he’s afraid of growing up #n wishes they had the insight they do now back then. if I had known I was a nb lesbian dealing w massive comp het #if I had known abt the bpd I could’ve realized that I split on ppl and myself #i was so excited to have friends and be cared about man #I hate that little guy I was but I don’t blame them for being stupid and not understanding shit. I wish I could slap my younger self on the #back of the head and be like “’be normal dumbass ur friends like you’’ #I uhh often focus on hurting myself more than not hurting the people around me and it was rlly bad back then #asks #nonnie #this is all to say that I think that the constant feeling of instability and academic stress is causing me to subconsciously wish for the #the days I perceive as being easier. it’s a mishmash of real events and things that possibly could’ve been if I was normal #I believe I want a feeling of control or something? idk. idk that contradicts everything #dreams are just dreams. I’m probably just regretting how much of senior year I lost and that’s it

[daisybees]

not to stop being fun and cool and chill on main but i’ve been super dysphoric about my chest lately and it’s really starting to get to me

#i spent the last two hours looking up bra stuff ™ #i’ve never had one that fits and i’ve tried binders too but i don’t like the squish ™ plus they’re super uncomfortable for me #so now i’m looking at ‘minimizing’ bra’s #like i don’t mind my chest i’m ok with like it being there— but everything i wear accentuates then and i hate it so much #like #i have a big band/cup size but smaller rib cage and waist so like #anything i wear really draws attention to my chest and i do not vibe with that at ALL #all i wear are graphic tees too so like if the print is in a weird place it makes it even WORSE #like the last time i was fitted was 9th grade and i went from an A to a D Then a D to a DDD/G and now I’m looking at H and I #i hate it here #they’re so fucking heavy too like #the only acceptable reason to even have these at this point is if a pretty person offers to hold them for me #i was looking up reductions straight up recently #the way i feel about gender and my relationship with being nb makes me think about this a lot and idk who else can relate but #i want LESS of a chest but i don’t want it gone completely you feel? like not quite top surgery but like…. less #like i will even take like AVERAGE bra size like i don’t care im cool with a C #just not this duo planet ORBIT i have currently #like i said sorry to rant but it’s really bothering me today #plus like anything that even remotely fits or feels comfortable is so expensive. #luckily i found some cheaper brands that don’t make me feel horrible #i thank adoreme every day of my life fr

[andiaquarium-moved]

Figured out what my issue is *bashes my head in

#aaand post #vent #yea whatever #I’m too used to listening to people instead of talking #half the time in middle school when I’d try to talk nobody would listen or they’d tell me to shut up or that I was being annoying so I just #didn’t talk much #i still don’t talk much #that’s why I have trouble starting conversations I’m so used to never talking I just don’t know how to anymore #not in any proper way at least #i never know what to talk about or how to hold a conversation cuz I’m so used to just shutting up and letting others talk #I’m sick of it but I don’t know what to do #and it sucks cuz I can’t even like start conversations with people I’ve known for years cuz I still feel like they won’t care about what I h #ave to say #and I just. generally don’t know what to talk about because of all this #it’s really weighing on me