#livvy rambles

[cosettegf]

thanks for the tag @purrvaire !!!!

The rules: write down a list of songs that match the letters in your username.

c - cheek to cheek, ella fitzgerald

o - oh to be in love, kate bush

s - suffragette city, david bowie

e - everything that happens, david byrne

t - the house that dripped blood, the mountain goats

t - the black angel's death song, the velvet underground

e - easier, the crane wives

g - grace, jeff buckley

f - free, florence and the machine

tagging: @catofthebarricades @wikipediaboyfriend @rarepairnation @combeauferre @girlstressed @pumpkinspice-prouvaire @protectcosette @average-acorn @ofpd @caucasianofcolor NO PRESSURE !!!! <3 i nearly always forget to do these myself so !

#i could have done this whole thing with just florence songs #these are just the first ones i thought of with the letter #and i think through this i may be exposing myself as a stereotypical tumblr-user-music-listener #ANYWAY #livvy rambles

[widowbitessting]

LIVVY!!!!!

ducks or cats?

explain why.

go!

See I’ve always loved cats. They’re just so cute y’know?

Just look at thaaaaat🥺

But!!

I love ducks. They’re quacking brilliant - get it? (Cos I’m not allowed to swear)

They’re so cute and did you know they have tongues?

(Also this is me as a duck)

Also also! My favourite duck - after my Quackers obviously - is Donald!

Ain’t he cute

Plus how cute is he when he’s mad 🤭

#livvy rambles #ducks #Donald duck #cats #I love them both #but ducks just a liiiittle more

[dainty-bluebird]

we have a session tomorrow morning and I have ZERO motivation to prepare anything ---

mainly because it's so difficult to predict what will happen and therefore, I don't really know what to have prepared

#livvy rambles #luckily I've done some prep already right after the last session

[olibavee]

i made myself a very nice sandwich today and didn't think anything of it until i realized i made myself a very nice sandwich. and it wasn't even hard. almost happy-cried lol. ig if you've ever been depressed enough that'll make sense.

#liv rambles #huge W for livvys in this house #(i am undergoing depression treatment and i gueeeesss it's woooorrkiiiiiing???) <- CAUTIOUSLY HOPEFUL

[husbandhannie]

out of all the things that could've happened on this trip, did not expect a make-out session with a woman to be one of them

#fucking hell im bisexual #like i knew. but now i *know* via experience #how do people comprehend this my brain is exploding #livvie rambles #applogies for anymore rambling i do about this #my real life friends know this person so its difficult to bring it up

[walkingaftermidnight07]

Today's SOBH: let's chat yall

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I AM SOBBING ON THE FLOOR RIGHT NOW I AM NOT OK

DEAR GOD I CANT DO THIS WHYYYYY

ok im trying to compile my thoughts as best i can but that's not gonna work so well so prepare for a very long, unhinged rant

first of all, livvy. seeing this update from livvy's perspective ripped my heart out of my chest and crushed it. i am already having all the feels. Hearing livvy describe kit being all grown up, it being a reminder that she will always stay the same....

I quit. im done. this hurts too much aksjf;jks;jfljslkfjlsfj

second, ty's reaction. my poor baby, he was so shockeddd

"I heard Ty take a breath like he never has before. Like he was gasping for air, like he’d been sucker-punched and he was trying to breathe and trying to breathe and he couldn’t."

kit may have fallen first, but ty fell harder for sure. this boy....he cares so much about kit that seeing him after everything that has happened causes him almost physical pain. he wants him back so much, but he doesnt understand why. or why kit has iced him out.

(sidenote: ty telling him that he's cleaning the gun wrong made me sob and laugh at the same time, because of course he would do that and i love him for it)

third thing:

KIT MY BABY WHAT THE HELL I GET YOURE HURT AND EVERYTHING AND I FEEL FOR YOU BUT YOUVE JUST HURT TY SO MUCH AND HES SO CONFUSED AND THIS ISNT HELPING YOU AT ALL

COMMUNICATE. I DARE YOU. TY CANT READ MINDS YOU IDIOT. HE DOESNT KNOW YOURE HURTING TOO. FOR ALL HE KNOWS, YOU HATE HIM

I LOVE YOU KIT, BUT DRU IS RIGHT YOU SUCK AT COMMUNICATION

“How long do you think it will take you to forgive me?”

“I don’t know,” he said.

“But not now,” Ty said in the smallest voice.

“No,” Kit said. “Not now.”

i just wanna hug them so bad oh my fucking god

THAT WAS PHYSICALLY PAINFUL TO READ JESUS CHRIST AND IT STILL HURTS. TYYYYYY POOR BABY

fourth thing: livvy noticing how hurt kit is too, but ty not seeing that

something tells me that livvy isnt going to tell ty about that, so as not to get his hopes up, meaning twp is going to be a long ride for them to get to the point where they actually communicate 👀😭

"Julian, I don’t know what to do. Ty misses Kit more than he thought he could miss someone. He misses him as much now as he did the day he left. He loves him the same. I think he always will and it scares me.

Kit is used to not needing people, but Ty needs people. He is afraid to need people but that is only because he needs them so much. He is not going to stop needing Kit. I don’t know if Kit will always need Ty. But Ty will always need him."

DONT SAY THAT LIVVY. KIT NEEDS TY TOO HE IS JUST SO FUCKING STUBBORN A:KJSDFLJSLFJLSDJFLSJFLKJS

no but i have to applaud cassie for this, because holy shit, this update managed to wreck me within the first paragraph. The overall tone, livvy's perspective and voice throughout the whole thing, the descriptions of our two lil baby idiots-----

I AM FEELING ALL THE FEELS AND I AM SO EXCITED FOR THEM TO FINALLY TALK IT OVER FOR REAL NEXT TIME

let me know what y'all's thoughts are!!! Id love to have a discussion about yalls theories and overall thoughts :D

#sobh #secrets of blackthorn hall #the shadowhunter chronicles #the wicked powers #twp #tsc #ty blackthorn #livvy blackthorn #julian blackthorn #kit herondale #kit x ty #screaming crying throwing up #i am not ok #i will never be okay #i need a hug now #i know i sound insane in this ramble but you have to understand #i am so attached to these two fictional characters its not even funny #im going to go cool down now #i need a good cry and some ice cream

[when-wax-wings-melt]

thinking about what would happen if the collective all died and there were no second chances.

Thinking about the identities we know about:

Squall: Dex and the triplets lose their mother. Kesler loses his wife. Edaline loses a sister, their parents lose a daughter, Grady loses a sister-in-law, Sophie loses an aunt. Bex loses her mentor, her mother (the one she looks like, has the same ability as). Livvy loses her friend, the Black Swan loses an inspiration, everyone loses a kind figure in the cold.

Granite: Wylie loses another father. Prentice loses a best friend, a lover, a co-parent, a caretaker. Sophie and Fitz lose their mentor, their uncle figure. Linh and Tam lose another family as it falls apart again. The Black Swan loses connections; a voice of reason, one of the strongest telepaths in the world. The second most important figure in the Black Swan, with a connection to the Council and a family besides.

Wraith and Blur: We don’t know much about them, but chances are they have families. Friends, lives. If theories are correct, Jensi loses a brother. In any case, the Black Swan is shaken. Missing a piece.

Forkle: Sophie loses her father figure. The Black Swan loses its main leader. Foxfire loses another principal (and gains one that never really wanted to teach anyway: Lady Cadence). The world loses a mentor and a guiding point. The Black Swan doesn’t have a purpose anymore. Fitz loses a mentor, Keefe loses a guiding voice, Marella loses the first person to ever help her (and is left with only one mentor: an unstable criminal). They lose their voice. Their connections.

Special addition: Physic: Quinlin loses a wife he never wanted but still who he cares for. Della loses a friend, a girlfriend. Alden loses a friend. Amy loses the first real kindness she was shown in the elven world. Biana loses a role model, and Fitz loses a friend.

Sophie loses hope.

#summer rambles #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #the collective #juline dizznee #mr forkle #magnate leto #wraith #blur #livvy sonden #tiergan alenefar #tiergan endal #death tw #ask to tag

[aphelea]

the issue with writing and posting a fic all at once is that you wake up the next morning realizing every single major plot hole you missed

#august rambles #the main one being that i wrote juline's last name as ruewen #like it just never occured to me that. that isn't her last name #i also realized that in this au i have nobody left to be anit #and i'm pretty sure i accidentally implied that fallon vacker is the king of spain #wait and there's nobody left to be annis either. alina maybe?? #lmfao imagine #also i never came up with a new last name for livvy #because she obviously can't be sonden #the list keeps going on and on

[cosettegf]

les mis idiocy once again going down on twitter dot com

#fills me with such visceral frustration every time #do any of these official stage accounts even WATCH the musical. like. ever #BEGGING them to shut the fuck up #les mis should belong to the leftists and the tumblrinas ONLY #les mis #les misérables #livvy rambles

[livvie-love-nikki]

Is the “gatekeeping Nikki” some sort of joke I missed out on? Like, I know a new Nikki game is coming out, but I don’t see how that warrants some of the reactions I’ve seen

#like I’m interested in the new game but when I looked it up that doesn’t appear to be the conversation other people are having #I’m just a little confused #livvie rambles

[dainty-bluebird]

Livvy rambles about social anxiety

Rp’ing when you have social anxiety is just...  *deep breaths before a session while reminding yourself this is a hobby you do with friends to have fun* Then, after the session: “it’s vital to make a mental note of how fun the session was and all your anxiety beforehand amounted to nothing; players had fun, the dm had fun, no one’s angry with you, no one thought you did a bad job.”

My brain, a few days before the next session: *Anxiety alert! Anxiety alert!* “The next session is coming up, which means it’s vital to remind you how your fellow players think your character performance is dull and repetitive at best, and actually hurting other player’s feelings at worst.”

Me: “But I thought I made a mental note last time, that negated all these negative thoughts and, in fact, noted positive things?”

my anxiety riddled brain: “Well, yes, sweetie, but that was only in the immediate aftermath. Now, we’ve had time to think, to reconsider and have come to the conclusion that your group barely tolerates you & finds your preperation annoying, among other things.”

#gee thanks brain #this is 10x worse when being the gm actually #after last session I actually wrote down how the game went and how players enjoyed it and how my own #anxiety was unwarranted #... well #my brain now with the upcoming session next weekend *anxiety alert* #this is btw exactly what I was afraid of when signing up for being part-time gm for our group #livvy rambles

[olibavee]

Barrows's toddler nephew learned that i love mushrooms and has informed me that he is going to "make a Big Huge mushroom out of legos for me" and "it'll make me remember him a WHOOOOOOLE LOT (insert a shriek that could break glass)"

i am inclined to agree. i don't think i'd ever forget someone who gave me a big huge lego mushroom.

#liv rambles #he also calls me 'auntie lizzy' bc he can't say 'livvy' yet...he is so cute. i could cry

[husbandhannie]

now that i've had a day for this to sink in, here are some of my not-so-jumbled thoughts.

i didn't really know much about moonbin. i didn't follow astro closely, and i didn't follow moonbin's activities either. which probably explains why i had a muted reaction to the news. it's a horrible tragedy and a loss to the world, but it didn't affect me as much, y'know?

i woke up today feeling fine, read taemin's message, and cried.

i knew a bit about moonbin. i thought he was a really good dancer, and i've seen some of his covers because he was so satisfying to watch. i remember watching a variety show episode with astro on it, and how it cheered me up on a depressing day. i thought his voice was lovely, and i remember thinking that he'd crush a solo. it's a loss to think that he's not there anymore, and that all the joy he could've given to the world stopped at 25 years. it hurts to think of that loss.

i've been putting off catching up on astro's stuff for a couple of years now (they have a big history and it's a big project). i think i'll do it now. and catch up on moonbin's subunit, and anything else he's done. it seems like a good time.

he won't be creating anymore joy in the world, he's dead. but everything he created is still out there. i'd rather spend my time celebrating his life, than feeling the loss of everything he could've been.

#these are still pretty jumbled #but theyve been swirling around in my mind and i thought writing them into the world might help #anyway if you see me talking about astro's stuff here.....thats why #i still feel the loss. but i'll try to celebrate the joy he brought as well. #livvie rambles #moonbin #astro

[livmixes]

why are people following this blog, all i do is rb other people's writing and scream in the tags

#i mean i hope you enjoy my screams #but i am a horrible curator of stuff to read #i have very narrow interests #livvie rambles

[wikitpowers]

how i want the scene to go;

so kit and ty are knackered after the whole day of searching for livvy and ty is really starting to feel unwell as he hasn’t been with her for way too long.

they're exhausted and fall asleep together and ty has like the best sleep he’s ever had (they cuddle bc i know they do), and kit would too if he wasn’t so worried about ty. he spends all night tossing and turning and checking up on him, making sure his temperature is alright, that he’s not burning up or shivering. and although he promised ty that they would search for livvy the following morning, he begins to slowly and quietly get up. he decides that ty is too weak to continue searching and that it would be better for ty if he did this alone. he will bring livvy back and help ty. this time he will not screw up.

BUT as kit is leaving, ty wakes up. he realizes what’s happening and confronts kit. he tells him that this is what kit does when things get difficult, he just runs. and kit is so taken aback that he just stares but then ty starts rambling about how he’s “not going to let him leave again” and “i’m not leaving your side, kit” and "we're in this together" and suddenly they’re kissing and-

#ya'll i actually need help #i just sit on my laptop and write this shit like #I HAVE THINGS TO DO #A LIFE TO LIVE #oh wait kitty is my life nvm #false alarm #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the last king of faerie #the wicked powers #tlkof #twp #tsc