#lol anyways i missed writing <3

[queercatboyrights]

started writing again for funsies (and also bc I have blorbo brain rot and need something to do on the train) and I'm already almost 1500 words in and wondering why the FUCK I haven't gotten back into writing more sooner, I forgot how FUN this shit is

#nebbles talks #hee hee hoo hoo i am having a grand old time #getting SO excited about putting the silly men ive been rotating in my brain on paper i am VIBRATING #i also missed writing dialog too #i did not miss writing descriptive text regarding the setting though #ALSO also the writers urge to share this shot even though im not done writing it is MASSIVE #like who wants to read this unfinished self indulgent au i got the goodle docs link 👉👈 #im not fixing the typos in the tags by the way im on mobile and dont want to retype that shit #lol anyways i missed writing <3

[milooo8096]

mysterion and other doodles from school

#IGNORE the very light writing in the back #thats school shit #i love going to school #(lie) #used a reference for a bit of practice???? #i usually trace when i practice lol but doing it by eye is fun too #i have prof. chaos but im too eepy to finish him rn #anyways i miss drawing them #south park #south park fanart #kenny mccormick #mysterion #leopold butters stotch #butters stotch #sp fanart #sp kenny #sp butters #sp mysterion #sp bunny #milo art:3

[robo-dino-puppy]

here's a return to sunfall (and blazon arch and the two carja gates near it)! the mod has been updated so there were no more endless loading screens when i recorded this :D makes exploring much more fun!

i'm not as excited about this thumbnail but it took a lot of super annoying work to set up so here's a(n unfortunately small) version without text:

#horizon forbidden west #hfw #out of bounds exploration #hfw out of bounds #video #also sorry to write a book in the tags but: #honestly i am very Done with this video. i had So. Many. Issues. #trying to get a recording as smooth as what i see in gameplay (fail). not falling off of things while recording (took 3 attempts lol) #getting the tallneck facing the right direction (several tries) #uploaded to yt and got a copyright warning(?) from sony because of music. wtf! it was just what plays in the game?!? #yt basically said “you're allowed to use it but the copyright owner can change their mind at any time” so #i tried to re-edit that section and ended up rendering the final video FOUR MORE TIMES bc a track was missing or off by a few miliseconds #and THEN i had to upload it to yt AGAIN which takes *literal hours* #so anyway fuck this video lmao #but i put a tallneck in it tho so that's nice #oh and i was able to get close to the leafcutter ants :) #hfw pc #(remove reload boundary mod)

[essektheylyss]

I have been grumpy with my Essek voice while writing this week so I'm watching the last supercut and honestly it's so funny that Essek somehow ended up with the highest number of eyes of the Nein except for Beau and Caleb despite not even having been present when the book was first foisted on them, because he got targeted that many times by the Somnovem eyes during the last fight.

#critical role #essek thelyss #like I think he went in with ONE #anyway very important when you're mad about your character voices to go back to the source #if you're writing original stuff this is the worst cuz it also involves rereading your unedited bullshit. #however with fic it means I get to watch my boi being both babey and badass :3 #I miss him 🥺 #also I somehow failed to realize until just now that I purchased basically essek's exact gardening gloves earlier this summer #which like. are the generic cutesy gardening gloves. but I somehow did not connect this until just now lol #it's REALLY been a while since I watched nein content for sustained time #christ alive. I really gotta get to that rewatch dammit

[warmsol]

i miss makoa and elia so much but my motivation to story tell is at zeroooooo

#what if i just. skipped to wedding and baby aha. HAHA. what if #what if i just… you know.. did that.. nvm #the temptation to drop the story and move to gen two is so high at the moment?? wow #i just get sad because i don’t have the time to make story posts as often anymore :( #which sucks because i write sooo much for them again but finding the time these days to translate to the sims is so hard lol #and so it takes me a year to move forward.. sigh #anyway. i'm missing 2019 isa when i posted twice a day sometimes #well. i guess the good thing is that at this rate my blog will die before i let them die heh #okay i’m gonna update my mods and such 😒maybe do something in game. or open bg3. we'll see. ily have a happy friday <3 bye

[melverie]

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh today I've been constantly experiencing the urge to un-private today-in-the-devildom & start writing for it again

#i'm gonna ramble in the tags but #i've been talking with starr (if you're reading this--hi starr!! <3) about the blog today and sharing some of the entries #and it just made me miss it so much #+ the conversation actually made me realize some other reasons why i didn't enjoy the blog in general anymore #like i genuinely love the blog and i genuinely loved writing for it & that conversation reminded me of that #but also there were so many reasons that ultimately pushed me to more or less abandon the blog & then later private it too #so i'm kind of at a loss here #tbh i think i'm mostly just scared to pick the blog up again only for it to end exactly like last time i picked it back up #i've actually always wanted for the blog to be a source of inspiration y'know? #like the things mentioned in the entries are kinda just small ideas right #i was hoping that people would read these & feel inspired to write or draw something of their own based on my entries #that was actually what made me start the blog in the first place. the hope that i could inspire others that way #aaahhhhhh.... maybe it's on me since i could have more openly communicated that idea...... #i did get to meet one wonderful person who wrote a few fics based on my entries tho!! (hi ali <3) #but yeah..there's that #also the way engagement just dropped significantly after a while #like i know i was gone for a good while & that a lot of people left the fandom and all that #but still getting maybe one reblog if i'm lucky really feels like a punch to the gut #ESPECIALLY considering that i was close to 900 followers on there #do you guys know that feeling when you proudly show someone you care about something you did only to get a disinterested answer? #yeah... #that's essentially how it feels like to me #and well as you might know the feeling of “why should i keep writing if apparently no one cares” eventually won... haha..... #but aaaahhhhh i'm still clinging onto the hope & what ifs here #that conversation with starr really just made me forget about everything that frustrated me about the blog & left me with this #longing feeling to start again lol #hey if you've made it this far into the tags let me just ask--would you care if i picked the blog back up? #would you also *show* that you care? #i'm actually quite curious (you could almost call me george lol) #anyway maybe we'll see each other on today-in-the-devildom again in the future.. who knows

[monocaelia]

i always think my old fics are super cringe and not even good enough to read, but i go back and read the comments on some of them and i don't have the heart to delete them because of them.

like, a reader had gone back to read an old zhongli fic of mine and commented about how they had to come back and revisit it because it's cute even though i personally think it's lame and it makes me :((

#didi talks #hi everyone i'm not dead lol #i'm revisiting my old fics before i head to classes #and now i'm crying before going to my lesson because of people's comments LOLL #i promise i want to write again. i really do #but life is so busy these days :(( #i miss having the time and energy to write what i want #i hope everyone is doing well <3 #i'll be back and kicking after the semester is over or after my summer program is done :flex: #trust. i have so many life experiences to thrust fictional characters onto LOLLLL #found out yearning for someone and them not liking me back SUCKS #but that's okay :) i wasn't expecting it back anyways

[wildberryjams]

Hello ♡ It's been a while!

It's been over a year I think? I haven't kept track tbqh

I'm not really back, because I want to be noncommittal as possible (since I have a tendency to disappear when my motivation to write does)

But this is me saying that I'm finally working on under the rose again! ♡

I'd all but abandoned it months ago, but yesterday I had a burst of energy and managed to write a couple hundred words. Tonight, the total is 1300. It's not much, but it's a start!

I don't talk about my personal life for many reasons, but this year has been one of the most difficult I've ever experienced. The last thing on my mind has been Will and Azul, as much as I wish they'd kept occupying every inch of it like they used to.

That spark is coming back, I think! ♡ (More in the tags since this is getting long)

#I have lots of plans for this story since what I have published is barely one third of the entire thing #It works in three acts if I'm remembering my outline correctly. I'm still re-familiarizing myself with it #But yes I do intend on trying to get part 2 of ch. 9 out in the coming weeks! #I also wanted to continue the Ruby x Bobby x Stef love triangle in a band au setting but I'm seeing that the app is gone? #I cannot even begin to describe how upset I am that S1-3 are all gone before I was able to replay properly #Not to do a sharp turn but it's been a very taxing year mentally and I want to start the new year off by trying to work on a resolution #Which is finishing a fic! I don't know if I'll finish it in 2024 but I'm determined to write as much as I'm able #Anyway I will still be a fandom recluse but I'm excited to catch up on all the writing I've missed ♡ #Posting this and going promptly to sleep ♡ (Insomnia is a huge part of UTR's conception LOL)

[dawntheduckrb]

I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying; #'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc' #and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao) #i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol) #((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did)) #i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :) #not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime) #i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

[micamicster]

Entertaining myself by fucking around putting all my fics into that Penguin Classics cover generator today! Link to my ao3 <3

#the last one is still a wip... which i should have been WORKING on instead of doing all this lol #should i have been writing instead? obviously. was this way more fun? obviously #as always going back and forth about any sort of public acknowledgment of my first ever fic for obvious reasons #but well i did write it and it was the first thing i ever wrote so i do add it to stuff like this. but mixed feelings about it overall #for obvious reasons #doing all this reminded me of how my old roommate got edge of seventeen printed and bound as a present for me (and for herself) #back when i first wrote it #and it really made me bawl it was such a sweet thing for her to do #i miss her :( #well here they are in a list i love to look at images and lists <3 #anyway i thought this might be more fun to pin than just a link to my ao3 or whatever #while you were sleeping au #eo17 #american pie #the load out

[villa-kulla]

Shoot Your Shot

Howard Hamlin and ‘living dangerously’ have never been comfortable bedfellows. But when a chance encounter finds him staring down a slippery slope, Howard discovers that sometimes all you need is a push in the right direction - or the wrong one. And Lalo Salamanca seems determined to be the one to give Howard that push.

Party people, click here -> (x)

@everyone else, I understand 🙏

#better call saul #lalo salamanca #howard hamlin #LALOWARD #guys can u believe lmao #*shows up to the brba extended fic universe after 7 years holding laloward between my teeth like a dead bird* miss me #guys i'm not even amazed i'm writing 'laloward' i'm amazed i'm writing laloward with genuine emotional investment #anyways to the 5 people ready for this: go nuts lmao #everyone else just don't look directly at it and it'll be okay <3 #REALLY HOPE YOU ENJOY THOUGH OKAY BYE #my writing #(wait don't reblog the last one i deleted it there was a mistake lol) #(this one's ok to rb)

[yo9urt]

local man completely obliterated by strength of narrative and character writing in 2023 game of the year

#mine #last night after putting it off for essentially as long as i possibly could because i knew it would decimate me #i finally attacked c4z4dor and (of course) kept ast4r10n as a spawn and basically finished up his quest #FUUUUCK ME DUDE....i knew what was coming in advance but that did not make it any less impactful #i mean holy shit the writing on this guy......the fucking graveyard scene (DO NOT GET ME STARTED)... #and of course neil's performance ohhh my god he deserves every award he can possibly have #god i love asta so much i'm literally never going to be the same this game is soooo insane #the only things i have left are the house of hope and then disabling the foundry and killing gort and doing the final fight stuff #i am ... nervous lol #ive heard the raphael fight is HAAAAAAAAARD #i'll find a way... #i think in the future i may reorder my act 3 quests i think it would be interesting to tackle some (ex companion quests or raphael) #sooner in the story #shadowhearts quest was like...3rd or 4th last thing i did cause i think i did that and then ansur and then astarion #i'm actually SO excited to replay the game i think im gonna have the time of my life doing roleplay and making diff choices #plus i know i missed a TON of stuff in this run so its gonna be fun to see what else is out there #after this im planning to do my first durge run which is REALLY exciting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i may do another regular tav run simultaneously but not totally sure.... #anyway yeah... awesome game everyone should buy it and play it its on sale right now go buy it and play it

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

HOLD ON WAIT UP HOLD THE PHONE

I KNOW I WAS GONE FOR A FEW MONTHS THERE BUT HAS BLUE LIKE DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME ALWAYS BEEN A PART OF A SERIES OR IS THAT A NEW DEVELOPMENT???

I FEEL LIKE ITS CHRISTMAS ALL OVER AGAIN FUCK Y E A H

Okay so

I...

have been cooking

by which I mean illusions of grandeur and

schemes

And I have not been forthcoming lol Everyone kind of disappeared all at the same time so I kind of stopped talking about what I'm doing but I have been biding my time, quietly putting mechanisms into motion and plotting and occasionally cackling over my cauldron.

I finished the first draft of Blue like don't forget about me and didn't like it so I cut out all the sci-fi fantasy stuff (bye bye aliens farewell superpowers) and in November wrote a new first draft that's all contemporary romance babeee and I'm so in love with it I'm turning it into a little 3-part (possibly 4 if I can't control myself) series.

The original childhood years have been split off into a prequel novella called Red like my bleeding heart in your hand. Then Blue like don't forget about me will take place 20 years later. Nash works at Cherished Hope Nursing Home

��And what is it you do? At the nursing home, I mean.” I wipe shit off of old people. And Teddy’s a hockey player. What’s Luke, an underwear model? He shouldn’t have come.

Teddy comes back to town for a funeral and

Teddy looks at him for the first time in twenty years and every ounce of warmth leaves his expression. Message received. He should not have come.

OKAY SO AND THEN the next book will be Jo's POV and is called Violet like these delights. and MAYBE there will be a 4th from Luke's POV bc he gets to live this time by the grace of god (me) but it'll depend on how Violet goes (its current state is mostly vibes and a single overarching theme so, stand by).

Red needs a clean-up round of edits to snip out the few little threads that connected it to OG blue. And rewritten blue is basically done. I've done the major revisions and am about to start line edits and after those are done I'm sending it out to beta readers (lmk if you're interested).

There are concise actual summaries in my pinned post btw lol

WHICH REMINDS ME

The series title is Wildflowers of Deliverance. Which I'm extremely proud of. Did you notice did you notice how each title incorporates a wildflower did you did you? and the town they grew up in where Nash and Teddy first met is called Deliverance!!! It's okay I know I'm a genius.

And this brings us to the meal okay? because like I said I've been Cooking™ quietly but steadily for a few months now. ANd what have I been cooking? PLOTS and PLANS

I've decided on a pen name: Sarah B. Elisa

I've created a(nother) side blog for it that will be exclusively centered on my og writing and geared more toward readers rather than writers like this blog is: @sarahbe-writing

I'm going to create a website (as soon as I convince myself to spend money)

and a newsletter (as soon as I convince myself to spend money and do work)

I'm still waffling between trad publishing and DIY. I really like all my hats and it would be a shame to have to share them but oh my god I don't want to do all the marketing but trad pub seems hit or miss on how well they market you so I might get half of my hats taken away and still have to do the marketing bullshit UGH

anyway

OH YEAH and the OG draft I wrote for Blue? I'm going to spin it back to its OG OG roots [parkner, naturally--Return of The childhood friends to estranged almost lovers to super-powered rivals to reluctant allies to friends to lovers finally wip!!! AKA: We Were Gods (we were kids)] and that will fix all the things that went wrong and I didn't like 😌 so it's basically like double Christmas I think

#i have been #a tad reluctant to use the tag list #since because I scrapped the whole plot and genre and started over #feels like a teensie bit of a betrayal? #so idk i think i need to make a post (way fucking shorter than this one) and tag everyone and see who still wants to be tagged in stuff? #or maybe im close enough to the finish line i shouldn't do tag list stuff anymore? I'm kind of wary of oversharing bc #i totally did before #and the word count is smaller now #and there aren't like Plot Twists #it's a romance we all know how this is gonna end #so idk that's mostly why i've been quiet like haha what should i say and to who? #But anyway this weekend I'm going to get my shit together and put up some posts and get the ball rolling again #share some excerpts #get people excited #put out a call for beta and sensitivity readers #you know. work lol #also i missed you and i'm glad you're back <3333 #my notes were sooooo quiet lol #and i don't just mean on my writing stuff i love seeing all of your tags in my activity like Yay that's my friend!! And they're yellin!!! #we love to see it <3 #anyway #:)

[disdaidal]

Sometimes I really kind of envy you native English speakers who make writing and posting fics seem so fucking easy. With near perfect grammar and hardly any typos. Or those of you who are capable of writing & updating your fics whenever the muse hits you just right... and not like, once in six months. Actually, try two years lol.

Whereas me, a non-native speaker, who occasionally struggles even with basic English grammar:

I'm fine. Totally.

#personal #okay so i've been writing this one piece of fiction for a while now #actually two but i've seemed to put the other one on hold for a while at least #(i may have mentioned this already like five times during the past two weeks but my point is i'm still working on it) #many thanks to @ihni who recently gave me some words of encouragement <3 and ofc @catzy88 who gave me even more insp *saatananauru* #and i'm actually really kind of enjoying it because there's no pressure to write it and post it #i write it in small sections. whenever i feel like it. giving myself enough time to plan it and think about it. even getting new ideas #and for once i'm trying not to keep editing and fixing it as i go. i just write whatever crap comes to my mind and just let it flow #i try not to think about how many mistakes and typos i make because that way i'm never gonna get it finished #but at the same time... when it's finally time to go through it #fix typos. missing words. possibly poor grammar. i know i'm just gonna hate it so fucking much lmao #but i'm really trying my best here okay. and i'm trying not to rush it. for once #because i used to write like this as a teenager. when there was nowhere really to post your original stories (thank god for that) #so i did it in my notebooks. and i quite enjoyed it doing that way #and i'm not sure why i'm even rambling this because most of you are never gonna read it anyway lol. so who gives right #but it matters to me and i'm feeling good about writing again so here i am rambling about it. no matter if you care not. so cheers mateys <

[heartslobbf]

what is it about anthy himemiya and having an unbearably fucked up relationship with the kiryuu siblings. what is it with the kiryuu siblings and hating anthy himemiya because attempting to understand her in any capacity would shatter their perceptions of themselves

#shirt that says DO NOT ASK ME ABOUT THE KIRYUU SIBLINGS #like i am so sorry to people who don’t find their dynamic to be essential and compelling but like 1 you’re objectively wrong #and 2 you’re missing out on the best time a girl can have. rewatching her tragedy and attempting to unpick All That #every time i watch her tragedy i go hm. interesting. and then imminently die #one day ill write down all my Very Long thoughts about her tragedy penultimate scene #and it will be incomprehensible and everyone will point at me and say ‘nanami kin’ and i will only be able to solemnly nod #ANYWAY lol im normal <3 #rgu #shut up daisy

[gregmarriage]

you know that whole thing where it’s like ‘ the same two people falling in love over and over again’, literally me with writing tomgreg getting together over and over again ✌🏻

#the amount of times these fuckers have confessed their love for each other #not even just fics i’ve posted #i literally have snippets for fic where the only thing i’ve written is the love confession imaooooo #it’s what i’m about x #my hopeless romantic ass being like ‘’i loveeee slow burn bc it’s hurts so good but also can they kiss five seconds in’ #i mean i’ve written slow burn before kinda #but is 16k words where only like half (?) of that is slow burn really slow burn? #i’m unsure what constitutes slow burn sometimes lol #also tomgreg have the drama and obstacles in their way which makes it fun to write #also i love writing for them just anyways bc they are batshit #can really exercise my language muscles with the way these two fuckers speak imaooooo #anyways i love and miss them always <3 #gwen rambles #gwenposting