#lowk a vent post

[xxxlacrossekingxxx]

So, my dad just kind of left me. Like, just now. He told me he didn't want a druggie son, so I'm kind of really fucking depressed. I also found out a bunch of shit (thank you @furret2122), so to add on to my possible 5 years in prison, and overdose, I also had an identity crisis.

Some good advice: Don't overdose on percocet. It fucks you up.

#class of 09 #co09 #kylar class of 09 #lacrosse #rp account #class of 09 the re up #football #lax #i found out im like #a faggot #so #you know #kind of conflicted because i hate faggots #lowk a vent post #venting

[insectsinsects]

yesterday,

i hopped into a car with no qualms. the rental and the parking situation went pretty smoothly. everyone was nice to me and did a lot of the heavy lifting while i organized the room back to its original state: i re-hung a piece of art that i'd found creepy from the beginning back onto the wall, put the furniture back where it belonged, and expelled any organic matter/proof that anyone had ever been there. it was a clean and efficient operation. i sat in the car for nine hours, having only slept two hours the night before, deadpan and staring at the road. i read a letter a dear friend gave me and couldn't muster tears, though it was a very sweet and a sentimental summation of life in the past year. i told her as much: "i read your letter! it was so sweet. i may have been too tired to cry, though." and we had just barely gotten out of jersey.

my sister was insistent upon getting back early. she had a friend to say farewell to, too. a friend of one year, a friend that i'd witnessed her meet the summer before. he's moving to california this weekend. it was his final show in DC. for him, she played a set with four originals and two covers, all about missing and loving and going away, and i couldn't help but feel every single thing i plugged up and shut away in the car. i had felt weird and awful and juvenile in the middle of this crowd. i was just a little sister in that moment. i wore clothes that were comfortable and i did everything right for my own well-being, and yet i felt like a foreign body rejected by an immune system. i hogged a bunch of beers and sat in the back, dealt with very punctuated conversations with my sister (in addition to failed ones with new people, her friends), and it all merely became a reminder that i do have to start over and that the road to elsewhere (anywhere but here) would be paved with hardship and loneliness of the likes i have never had to endure before.

i'm sitting around now wondering if this was right. i am situated between two people who love this city. my only friends are my relatives. but they've got lives of their own. i am only reminded how now empty things are. my life is in boxes all around me still. i feel like unpacking them is a sign of defeat. everything i know is broadcast to me through a screen and it feels hostile, unreachable, manicured for my destruction. it's also my only means of connection. so i've come around back here to elaborate. to tell a story that my older sister wanted to hear last night when she found me outside the venue, sobbing profusely, but couldn't exactly put into words at that moment.

#text #i just woke up #goddd everything is so embarrassing #i gotta get up #vent that is lowk great prose #<---new tag that will justify long posts where i bitch about stuff #and there will be a lot of bitching #:/ #le sighh #long!!

[madwickedawesome]

my irl after telling the 20th “at least my dad fed me when i was a kid” joke in a day

#vent tw #??? #idk it lowk bothers me #its kinda funny tho LMFAOOOOOO #does this post clear up any questions about me

[especdreamy]

tbh at this point every time I post art (specially one I put lots of effort in) I have to remind myself that chances are it won't do well! I have to constantly prepare myself for a worst case scenario bc I don't want to complain abt it or seem like im whining for numbers on a screen.

#dreamy vents #I have been feeling like major shittt lately so its been a bit of a sore spot #lowk started daily cranboo in hopes that more consistent posting will help me out(it hasnt much)

[rottedsonnets]

real.

#lyric #lyric posting #lyric post #real #relatable #lowk a cry for help #vent #help #lol #merchant ships #sleep patterns #sleep patterns by merchant ships

[agendabymooner]

line without a hook ! yuki t. x ofc (filo!indie singer!ofc)

“do you like it when i’m away?”

summary: pia ellis misses the boyfriend that everyone thought she made up in her head, and when she vented about it to her fans — who designated themselves as her therapists — and twitter, they begin to wonder who he really is. OR she spiralled a little bit when yuki tsunoda posted photos of his ‘boyfriend’ pierre gasly, but it’s safe to say that he misses her too.

content warning: use of explicit language, ofc and yuki calling each other ‘asshole’ but they love each other, a fairly short one (both of them and the smau fic), short gf 🤝 short bf, yuki and ofc have false user to stalk each other (secret relationship)

note: my first yuki fic but it’s beabadoobee because they lowkey would vibe

masterlist

liked by yukino22, girlinred, taiverdes

taiverdes i think the second one calls for grass touching pia 😭😭 liked by papayapia

papayapia (gr)ass touching*

girlinred have you been drawing him again p? liked by papayapia

papayapia he doesn’t look as good as he does irl 😮‍💨

user1 NOT THE SECOND PIC STAWP

user2 lowk don’t know if i should believe you about the whole bf thing

papayapia i live on my own small world anyways 😔

yukino22 such a dirty mind you have smh

tagged pierregasly

liked by pizzapia, pierregasly, zhouguanyu

user1 my fave couple ever 😮‍💨❤️

user2 i wanna be one of them idc

pierregasly you’re gonna get me in trouble with all of these posts and photos you make of me yuki 😭🤣 liked by yukitsunoda0511

user3 pierre??? what does that mean?

user4 yuki??? our baby??? has a partner???

pizzapia don’t mind me, i’m just waiting for your call here or something 🙍‍♀️

pizzapia u two look cute together. just together tho bc he’d be ugly without you

pizzapia i ship ❤️

tagged papayapia

liked by pizzapia, pierregasly, landonorris

user1 NAW MANS HARD LAUNCHED HIS GF 😭😭 my baby boy is grown up

user2 she’s literally hot and you’d post pierre over her???? bad move tsunoda 🙄

user3 him: ❤️ her: 👍

oscarpiastri god i was ready to scream at you for keeping her a damn secret 🤬

user4 god love oscar piastri and his love for everyone’s gfs 😭😭

pierregasly i’m finally off the hook 😮‍💨😮‍💨

papayapia says who ? 😊🤔 you’re literally on top of my hitlist

papayapia eheh

papayapia i love u yukinooooo ❤️ liked by yukitsunoda0511

yukitsunoda0511 i love u too but answer my facetime calls pls

papayapia on it best friend 🤭🫡

user5 girl weren’t you just tweeting about him? papayapia

papayapia that ain’t me, that’s philomena 😨

#yuki tsunoda imagine #yuki tsunoda x reader #yuki tsunoda smau #yuki tsunoda instagram au #formula one imagine #formula one fic #formula one fanfiction #formula one x oc #formula one smau #f1 smau #f1 fic #f1 imagine #f1 fanfic #yuki tsunoda #yuki tsunoda fic #f1 social media au #f1 fluff #formula one au #formula one x reader #formula one fluff

[bjames-must-die]

Intro ig??

18, he/him or they/them, ftm

*transphobes, homophobes, detrans, terfs, etc. DNI or get blocked.*

(if ur triggered easily this is NOT FOR YOU. for your own safe, plz dni.)

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ana/ed blog. ill prob end up posting vents and updating on diagnosis. if anyone can help me out im kinda new too this (lowk embarrassed) plz reach out if u can.

I’ve also been sh for the past like four years so i might post abt that idk.

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ill b updating my stats frequently in my bio but ill post them here too:

SW: 122lbs

CW: 113.3lbs

GW: 100lbs

*i might end up updating these too*

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some stuff abt me:

idk what’s wrong w me tbh.

i love art. i play guitar and sing a bit so i might post abt that on a separate blog in the future. lmk if ur interested. im from the US, my favorite drink is green tea. some of my inspirations are:

the academy is…, the young veins, fall out boy my chemical romance, panic!at the disco, david bowie, the used, the beatles, car seat headrest, and more.

might add to this later idk.

but that’s it for now ig… so… bye!!

#ed ftm #boy ana #ana trigger #intro post #pinned post #tw ana diary #ana bllog #ed not sheeren #⭐️ving #tw disordered eating #tw restrictive ed #vent #self h@rm

[humblemediagenius]

Sorry I'm venting here so don't look if you don't want to but (this isn't about anyone who follows me / is mutuals btw).

why is it with this one friend group I always feel like I get posted over and literally everyone but me gets so much love on their posts but onlu like one person ever actually responds to me. But it's moreso like no one holds a conversation with me. I wanna talk!!! So why does no one engage with me as much?! Like it's been really bad lately.It's really making me angry and I don't have the heart to say hey you guys lowk make me feel like I'm being looked over

#sorry I'm just. uuuuurrrghgghhhhh #i know I know I'm a whiny attention seeking person but idk man it's been making me so mad and for what

[xxxlacrossekingxxx]

One of these days I'm just gonna fucking explode.

#class of 09 #co09 #kylar class of 09 #lowk a vent post #no #definitely a vent post #rp account #class of 09 the re up #co09 rp accounts

[glf-thoughts]

entry #3 10/31/19 5:57AM

HOLY CRAP I TOTALLY FORGOT AB THIS. but while i’m here , let’s talk about what’s new with me. It’s the morning of Halloween and i haven’t slept yet. all day i’ve been in bed reading bnha fics and rewatching the training camp arc of the show. i’m thinking of starting a new fanfic piggybacking off an episode. ugh the ideas. i haven’t written anything in a really long time. At least two years so this is pretty exciting to me. Lately i’ve really been getting into the bnha fandom and i started shipping erasermic (omg this is the most pure ship ever and i’ve never shipped ANYONE like i have erasermic , the FEELS , i literally love the dynamic of their relationship and it’s definitely canon goddamit). it’s been crazy. i’m pretty lonely too. earlier i came to the realization , after noticing myself hugging as many stuffed animals as i could fit in bed, that when i find someone , i’m probably going to be the big spoon lol. i love holding things in my arms when i fall asleep and i can rarely sleep without doing so. i also went through two years of a conversation with a boy that liked me. lowk i got jokes 🤣🤣 but sometimes i neglect to remember how seriously depressed i was when i was younger. i had vented to him about it and reading it brought back a lot of memories. i’m glad that i’m no longer in a place as dark as that. even though my life isn’t perfect where i am , it’s definitely a giant step up to where i came from.

anyyyyyyway , imma cut the post short bc it is early and i still haven’t slept yet. i’m pretty tired and i have work in 11 hours //: it’s halloween so i should dress up for the kids coming in but i literally do not have a costume ,, soooooo we’ll figure that out when it comes to it lollllll. i’ll post any updates (: good night !!!!

6:08AM