#man i enjoyed doing this FAR too much

[sweetest-honeybee]

THE BABY IS BACK!!! WE'VE MISSED YOU GRAY!!

He ain’t necessarily back, I just missed drawing him 😂

#I ain’t touching shit for that au as far as continuing the story goes #but man I missed the lil guy #holding him gently #just needed to see his lil face #also I realized before that I never really like #showed more of how he’d talk or interact with people or anything as much as I wished I did #so that’s all I was really trying to do #ANYWHO #enjoy the smallest of greyscale Wally cont #content #but don’t get too excited

[walkingstackofbooks]

What do the DS9 crew call each other?

>View the raw data >Season 2 Observations post

Season One Observations

Sisko:

Is most likely to introduce himself as "Commander Benjamin Sisko" (7 times), or as "Benjamin Sisko" (5 times).

Is more likely to be called "Commander" than "Sir" by Kira (35:8), Odo (15:2) and Quark (9:0).

>> Kira does not call him Sir until e13; Odo only in e16 (when harassed by Lwxana)

Is more likely to be called "Sir" than "Commander" by Miles (66:20)

>> Even more likely E1-9 (35:5), only twice as likely e10-19 (31:15)

Is just as likely to be called "Sir" as Commander by Julian (22:20)

Dax exclusively calls and refers to him as Benjamin.

Otherwise is referred to as Sisko (esp. by Odo) or Commander Sisko.

Sisko talks to everyone the most.

Kira:

Is most likely to introduce herself as "Major Kira Nerys" (3 times).

Is most likely to be called Major by everyone. In the first half, O'Brien also calls her "Sir" in a few episodes; Bashir and Dax call her "sir" once.

Is most likely to be referred to be others as "Major Kira".

Is occasionally called or referred to as "Kira", but not often.

Odo:

Is most likely to introduce himself by mentioning he is "Chief of Security" (2 times).

Is called "Odo" more than "Constable" by Kira (9:6) and Quark (15:1)

Is called "Constable" more than "Odo" by Sisko (16:11)

Is usually referred to as Odo

Julian:

Is called "Doctor" most by Sisko (43:7 "Dr Bashir"), and exclusively so by Kira (5x), Odo (5x) and Quark (1x).

Is exclusively called and referred to as "Julian" by Dax.

Is most often referred to as "Dr Bashir". Sisko also refers to him as "our doctor" and "my doctor", and Sisko, Kira, Odo and O'Brien all refer to him as "Bashir" on occasion.

Miles calls him "Doctor" once, "Julian" four times (all in Episode 13, after Julian has asked for this), and "Sir" three times (again, all in E13).

Dax:

Most frequently refers to self as "Dax".

Sisko is most likely to call her "Dax", but also "Lieutenant" in very formal situations. He calls her "Old Man" 4 times, in e1, 7, 9 and 10.

Julian will call her "Jadzia" (4x) or "Dax" (4x), depending on how casual the situation is.

Miles calls her "Lieutenant" exclusively (3x), as does Kira (1x).

She is usually referred to as "Dax" (9x) or "Lieutenant Dax" (10x) by everyone, or by Julian as "Jadzia" (2x).

Miles:

Most likely to call himself "O'Brien".

Miles is most often called "Chief" by everyone, although it takes a while for that to start. (Kira and Sisko begin calling him "Chief" in E4.)

In first half, is almost just as likely to be called "Mister O'Brien" as "Chief" by Sisko (10:16) and Kira (7:7); from episode 10 that changes to 3:10 for Sisko and 0:1 for Kira.

Is most likely referred to as "O'Brien".

Wow, that took less time than I thought it would when I began this - I'm definitely looking forward to seeing if any trends continue or change going forwards!

#ds9 #deep space nine #ds9 data collection #ds9 meta? #my trek musings #man i enjoyed doing this FAR too much #definitely don't have a job application i should be writing instead... #i wish i hadn't thought of this bc it's such an easy distraction #“just one episode - it'll only take ten minutes” #yes andi but then you want to see if there are any changes and you can only do that by doing lots of episodes #smh #WSB

[cannibaleather]

YOU MAKE ME PERFECT

#forcemasc #force masc #autoandrophilia #general red and white layout inspired by the faster pussycat kill kill poster bc i love it #and youuuuuuuuu know what the rest of this is pulling from haha. felt abt time i did one based on my music taste #also wanted to do something that felt gnarlier than some of my previous ones by making it suggest at surgery far more #bc i <3 surgery. frankenstien my dog ass baby #i tend to focus solely on the man on his journey to loving himself as a man in my edits #or a fight to be seen as a man in a transphobic world and the euphoria that fight can bring when u bloody yr knuckles #and i havent done much w an implied dom/sub forcemasc situation. but this one is much more that my intent is like #frankenstien/surgeon dom and sub begging to be physically changed. 'cut me up and make me a man.' #i really personally enjoy reclaiming 'volation' and 'desecration' of the body in a. hell yes im going to sort of way #if u wanna complain that this is too vague ect ect for forcemasc get a hobby that isnt caring too much abt how strangers online play w jpeg

[every-sanji]

#one piece #sanji #black leg sanji #everysanji #thriller bark #ch472 #oh yeah i started a3/act! addict! actors! recently like. the anime #i'm enjoying it... i'm only 4 eps in to the spring/summer season but its fun so far #idk if i have a favorite but as much of a. caricature of middle eastern culture as he is i do think citron has some #really compelling character writing so far i'm excited to see more of him... #and itaru too. man itaru's va is insane #i've sent the video to all my friends basically but he also voices leo ensemble stars and samatoki hypmic #as well as a character in uh. mr devil's day off or whatever its called its almost 11pm i cannot remember the title #but its smth like that and anyway. the fucking range that man has???? like just compare gamer's high to birthday of music #and any mad trigger crew song with a heavy samatoki feature and like. you will notice. #and its the same guy doing all of those voices. what the fuck man #anyway. hoping by the time this posts i'll actually be further in a3... #i'm really into idol anime rn idk if you could tell................ #or things that fall into very similar subgenres since a3 is kinda. adjacent #but i7. great. amazing. you should watch it #<- only finished s1....

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THE ORDER OF PALMS An order of holy folk that serve The Helm, working to create powerful Aasimar Paladins for the purpose of protecting any who hire their help. [BACKSTORY UNDER CUT]

One day, Gjör and her peers were lead by their mentor Opheria, to a mission far from their home. On the peak of that mountain village, they saw upon the horizon, the castle of their home go up in flames. Horrified and scared, the apprentices sought to follow their mentors guidance, and followed her lead into a small barn. It was there, that Opheria proceeded to slaughter each and everyone of the apprentices. It seemed she somehow had a hand in this sudden attack on the Order of Palms. Gjör D'annevual survived a sword through the 'heart', on account of a rare condition, that places her heart on the other side of her chest. When she finally managed to bring herself back home, the Order was insulted by her survival. She had so many better peers, why couldn't any of them have survived? This runt was seriously the only thing that survived Opherias wrath? It was better to just wash their hands clean of this. Thus the Order decided to banish Gjör from their ranks. She now travels the land in search of a purpose.

#luckys original content #dungeons and dragons #MY OCSSSS MY WONDERFUL OCSSS ITS BEEN SO LONGGGG!!this is a fairly old character that i made foreeeever ago #i was trying to go full on into DND LORE ONLY instead of makin up my own stuff. so when i was lookin around i learned abt THE HELM #the god of protection or watever it was. i also like playing paladin bc i love to hit things w my sword. i also like aasimars bc theyrprett #im sure i ahd other Min Maxy reasons for her but i dont have her sheet n ive forgotten everything. never got a chance to play her but yknow #maybe someday. I LIKE HER ALOT TOO. big and strong and well meaning but a lil dumb. justa lil dense n stupid. but she tries!! #I LIKE CHARACTERS THAT HAVE JUST SMALL THINGS DIFERENT ABT THEM. i knew some1 who had that condition. where everythings just flipped #aint that fucked up? that ur organs can just be flipped? and inever see it in fiction. its so neat. imagine finding out like THIS too #she had blacked out from the sword through the heart. the last thing she heard from her mentor was; #'you were a great student. that is why you above all else must die. i hope you understand' spoken through a gentle voice and a gentle smile #the very same that had guided Gjör so far through her journey.A BETRAYAL LIKE NO OTHER! she awoke utop a pile of comrades #each bloodied and dead and cold. she used her own magic to heal herself. to catch herself from the precipice of bleeding out #when she stepped out of the barn she had found that the village was burned to the ground #she was shellshocked!! it took her weeks to limp all the way back down that mountain. all the way back to the place she called home #only to be spit on and kicked back out. being a Paladin of the Palms was her entire life. what was she to do now? #OH SO THE ART. I RLY LIKE HER DESIGN.heavily based off of THE BABY SITTER from HALO LEGENDS. i fuckin love halo so much guys..... #i just love that trope of Big Strong Person in Armor that we all thought wasa fullgrown MAN takes off the helmet to revel shesa PRETTY GIRL #my favorite in the WORLD!! i also like the silly frilly pretty dress sorta motif in gjors armor. it hides all the stuff i dont wanna draw #thats all the ramble i got in me for now. PLEASE ENJOY. and ask me abt my ocs

[famewolf]

feeling a little burnt out tbh so I think I'm going to just try and relax as much as humanly possible to avoid crashing and burning like I usually do this time of year lmao

#[static] #work has been ..... Unpleasant #home life is wonderful and amazing as always but man i spend so much time at work fklghfdgf #it's around this time of year where i start to think 'what's the fucking point of working the job i do' and i have an existential crisis #even trying to play games rn is just Too much for my senses. I need to just enjoy silly non-serious things for a week or two I think #been hanging out with friends outside of work which has helped a lot! #i need some whimsy among the constant horrors which I feel bad for needing since it's 100% a privilege to be able to have that #it sucks that work drains my happiness away!! it's really just a couple of people there that make life miserable for everyone #there's nothing anyone can do about it ... alas ... we must continue moving forward because that's all we are able to do #i also feel bad because I started ME3 but I'm going to have to put playing it on hold until I'm in a much better headspace to enjoy it #it's been really amazing so far but it's incredibly intense and sad and i know it's going to eat my heart by the time it's done with me

[inkdemonapologist]

I have this theory and I made a post about it but I love your Sammy stuff and consider you like a premiere expert so I'm genuinely curious.

Canonical after re-reading the books (and are they canon anymore LoL but). Did canon!Joey *know* Sammy was tripping the light fantastic on ink?

Like the passage where he tells buddy 'why please a man when you can please a god' seems to imply wet cat prophet man is pissed about Joey and feels let down -

And then *later* Joey's like 'Sammy lured them all down here...but I couldn't use them' and I'm like ho-shit did bro become the guy's Walter white

Also hi your art is amazing and if you have original work I would read instantly.

LMAO GOSH, thank you for the kind words!!! also golly gee THIS LINE FROM JOEY DRIVES ME NUTS because JOEY COME ON MAN TELL ME MORE!!!!

There’s several little things in the background that implies SOMETHING between these two but we don’t get to see it! Thomas surely reported Sammy’s weird behaviour to Joey like he said he would (Sammy did not make a compelling case for himself in their argument), but the ink doesn’t disappear from Sammy’s closet until weeks later, so did Joey like… know about it and his only response was “huh interesting, let’s see where he goes with this!” or did he just blow off Thomas’ warnings as unimportant b/c Sammy is his special perfect genius who can do whatever he wants, or what!!! Also the thing where Joey is the one who’s furiously interrogating everyone about Sammy’s whereabouts when he goes missing, before anyone else had even noticed he was gone, and Buddy thinks Joey’s emotion seems stronger than the situation warrants – so how intense was Joey being, for his upset at being unable to find the guy who writes ALL THE MUSIC to seem like an overreaction?

ANYWAY,

I don’t understand breaking bad references, but my interpretation tends to be that by the end of DCTL Sammy had snapped enough that Joey had no real power over him, and this is part of why Joey was so angry at Sammy’s disappearance – for once, Joey didn’t have control over him and didn’t know how to take control. I think Sammy’s accusation of “living your sad little lives to please Joey Drew” is projection – that’s what SAMMY had been doing in his 15+ years at the studio, and he now condemns it as pathetic. I don’t think he was willingly or knowingly aiding Joey at this point.

Joey, meanwhile, doesn’t seem to have a master plan so much as an ability to just… roll with whatever happens and make it work for him. He tells Buddy, simultaneously, that this was “meant to be” and “the plan all along,” but that he didn’t actually know what he wanted to do with Buddy until the moment he saw him in the demon’s jaws. So, like, this was just a lucky break for Joey, a moment where the right person just happened to be dead in front of him at just the right time for him to turn that person into a cartoon, and it worked out great!! He didn’t orchestrate this – it was a series of accidents that he retroactively decided was a plan. Joey Drew is an opportunist! And I think the fact that he didn’t find Norman and the others until after “the ink had infected them for days” points to the idea that Joey didn’t plan that either, since he didn’t find them until much later. My reading is that once Sammy started murdering people, instead of getting that under control, Joey just kind of followed him to see if he could take those lemons and make lemonade, so to speak.

That said, I like the idea that Joey knew; it was the first canon-adjacent thing I drew in this fandom! I don’t think they were in cahoots in canon, but it’s still an idea I’m really fond of. There are a lot of little things that could be used to suggest that Joey knew what was going on with Sammy and enabled it for whatever reason (my favourite evidence for this is still the “who does a god worship” convo in The Illusion of Living – the idea that Joey really wanted to see if he could make something Sammy would worship gives him a solid motive here, and becomes interesting when Sammy is the ONLY person whose infection ends up with these religious overtones, see the end of this post), but it’s equally possible from what little we know that Joey was simply negligent, caught up in his own nonsense, and never thought to look into it until Sammy became an obstacle to his own goals.

#i know you have questions you always do #dctl #sammy lawrence #joey drew #the concept of Joey Enabling Sammy's Addiction was a big part of that Taste of Ink fic too ITS SUCH A GOOD CONCEPT #every so often I'm like 'MAN maybe someday ill finish that fic' and then I remember how much effort writing takes lmao #ALSO to answer your last question #if you don't mind reading a comic that will never be finished #if you look up 'runewriters' that was my original webcomic before injury/burnout and im still pretty proud of how far i got #i think people who like my depiction of Sammy would probably enjoy the necromancer character

[fearthefuzzybear]

absolutely DYING over @2hoothoots's future superstars au and staring at the performer archetype. it was a good excuse to practice animation again!

#IM SORRY FOR BLORBOFYING HIM BUT I WOULD KILL TO LEARN MORE ABOUT HIM AND HIS CONNECTION TO RAZ #AND ALSO LIKE.... WHAT HE _MEANS_ AND WHAT HE REPRESENTS #pixel art #fuzzysprites #also i have accidentally named. most of the archetypes. theyre just nicknames and this is not my place but i really really like them #i like the archetypes a normal amount i promise #god. im so sorry i feel like im breaching tumblr etiquette by enjoying these guys so much but man . thats all i got. #im only brave enough to @ the creator and not maintag it bc i Will cry #anyway. sorrry for the mess of tags. i made a minecraft skin of this archetype too. im gonna. go. #if u read this far and u dont know about the au i am talking about and u like psychonauts Please go look at it. im begging you #theres so much fun and lightness and depth to it and i love it so much #also also i like pointing at him and going heehee aroace colors. which is very silly of me but i like doing it

[rose-ramblings]

you'll never guess what I've been playing lately

#goldic's drawings #vegito #dragon ball dokkan battle #good news everyone! I found a shading brush that I'm happy with! #i'll finish that other thing I keep mentioning eventually I swear I've only got 3 characters left to do on it #but uhhhhh y e a h I've been playing Dokkan for like a week and a half now (blame the content creators for making it look really fun) #I understand absolutely nothing other than 'it's a big number go brr type of game' #but it also gets me to use some strategy in my team building and fighting which I am very much enjoying so far #i didn't get Mr. Yosha himself or melty Zamasu (much to my personal sadness) but I did get a copy of Power-Awakening Piccolo #and enough of that PHY Zamasu with the tea set to rainbow him (and waaaay too many of a certain SR SSJ Goku that can awaken into SSG) #and a copy of that new Mai I guess (I'm not entirely sure how to use her properly in battle yet but I'll figure it out) #I've been calling that PHY Zamasu I mentioned 'Tea Time Zamasu' btw (mostly cuz of the tea set in his art) #oh yeah speaking of Tea Time Zamasu that man's been carrying my team in terms of eating hits like a champ so #definitely gonna be using him a lot; especially since *gestures to blog theme* he's one of my favorite villains in dragon ball #I haven't Dokkan Awakened the Piccolo at all yet (he's just a max level UR rn) but he's been pretty damn useful in taking hits himself #first unit I made an LR (besides the free one) was a Zamasu that turned into an LR Goku Black (F2P STR I think; he's my support unit rn) #I've also already collected all of Bardock's F2P crew and mostly maxed them out because I'm totally normal about it hehe #bardock's crew best crew I don't make the rules #goldic rambles #this is transparent because I couldn't figure out a decent background to give it

[ozlices]

im like sincerely so sorry bc my most shameful flaw is that envy is one of my favorite characters in the entirety of fma which is like. listen it's genuinely irredeemable but she knew exactly what she was doing when she made envy the pinnacle of gender envy bc my non-binary ass is NOT immune to feeling the gender envy to the highest degree for that little freak

#mine #i feel less ashamed for being hornee abt shin tsukimi do u understand. how humiliating that is. #literally dont even perceive me this is my greatest sin ok AT LEAST IM SELF AWARE #THEY LITERALLY DO ALL THE MOST HEINOUS SHIT IN THE ENTIRE SERIES NEXT TO KIMBLEE #AND THEY /BOTH/ GET OFF ON IT TOO WHICH MAKES IT WORSE #BUT THEYRE JUST SO PAINFULLY GENDER IM TOO WEAK TO RESIST #i want their voice. i want it so bad it's so painful i hate them so much. but i also adore them. and hate myself for that #she was targeting ME SPECIFICALLY when she made them frfrfrfr #fma #i hesitate to even put this in a tag but i feel like other trans ppl will get it. right. u get it right or am i just a lonesome fool #also. js. i hate kimblee. i fucking DESPISE kimblee actually. worst piece of shit ever in the whole series. #i actually got mad bc i forgot just how long he lasts in the series. FAR TOO LONG IF U ASK ME. #& also. i. feel like. i should get points too bc envy is rly the only absolute irredeemable piece of shit i actually enjoy #bc usually. i am a sheep. & i HATE them. but. i am also a sheep. to gender envy. sooooo. unsurprising exception. #but like otherwise unless u wanna count like my man dracula from castlevania which i feel like is not comparable bc he was VALID #envy is the only villain i actually truly like. any other 'villain' i like is more... morally grey. or. understandable. u know. u get it. #anyway. dont ever perceive me for this im ashamed #& also no the irony of having the mention of jealousy/envy as a my most strict boundary & yet having the literal embodiment of envy #as one of my fav characters in my favorite anime of all time is not lost on me. i am a walking contradiction we all know this #at least they're not THE favorite. u can take a very predictable guess on who that title goes to

[snfbabydrop]

i'm rereading my wip one last time :')

#ghosted #girl this fic is so LONG #it's almost been a year of me working on it #but it's come together so nicely and i'm real proud of it #like i'm doing a final reread of the whole thing to make sure it flows and oh MAN there are some moments that tug at my heart #this fic has some georgebu.r in it too as a treat to myself and i got so excited when i finally reached it #girl i love this fic sm #sigh #i'd be perfectly content keeping it just for my own enjoyment but who knows! someone else might enjoy it just as much as i do so why not #girl i can't believe we made it this far #anyway back at it

[arielluva]

does anyone have advice for getting into stardew valley because i have tried. multiple times. to get into this game and actually play it because i DO like it!!! i have gotten sucked in a few times, but i never make it too far :( i feel like i just get overwhelmed by everything that you could do and seeing other people be so far ahead in their own saves that i just. idk. feel discouraged? i know the answer to this is probably to just play the game and do whatever because if its my first save it doesn't really matter what happens but still

also i think another part of it is just not knowing everything i should do right off the bat like i would with any other game i enjoy playing like fantasy life but i guess thats a given since i haven't played much of it

most rational thought: "i don't know everything about this game and what to do how am i supposed to play this good... :( at least in fantasy life i know what to do :((" (i have had fantasy life for like 8 years so of course i know what to do)

#man its always the 'other people have done this before me' and whatever thoughts that paralyze me from trying new things #i know the only way to really like. solve my problem is to just go and play the game at my own pace and not worry but man is it hard to get #over that paralysis #like. there's just so much to do. people have done so much in this game but im new to it AUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i think i've tried playing this game like 3 separate times so far and never get too far #like first i got it on my ipod probably in like. 2018 (didn't get very far) #then i bought it on my switch about a year or two ago? (also didnt get very far) #now im trying it again and. man #i really want to like this game but my brain has to do the most normal (/s) thing ever and be like #'but i don't know everything about this game like i do with (insert game i've had for a long time) therefore i can't play it' #gonna need my brain to .. shut up!!!!!! #yeah idk i guess i'll just try playing again at my own pace and see what happens from there #because maybe the issue is that im just not a stardew valley enjoyer and leave it at that #though idk. i enjoy seeing other people playing the game its just when it comes to making my own save that i falter a bit

[lunarharp]

a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

#things really are different if you start drawing in your mid/late 20s or onwards. #you haven't developed your idea of yourself as an 'artist' at the time your brain was developing your identity. #but reading something that is basically saying- it's not too late and you have your own magic that only youan do... is so heartening. #also the manga is very gay. it's not THAT shockingly original and fascinating a story- but like... #i just don't know many ongoing fun series with interesting lovable characters where there are also major representations #for disability race queerness etc. #esp if tetia is trans. shirahama-sensei you can tell me... #MOSTLY IM LOSING MY MIND AT WHERE THE SERIES IS GOING LIKE I AM SCARED. my theories are dark and i fear for qifrey SOMEONE HELP HIMMM.. #ONCE AGAIN LET SOMEONE HLEP YOU YOU QUESTIONABLE AND TRAGIC GAY LITTLE SKIRT MAN #i hate that i had to just let my fic be so short. I CANT WRITE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW...i would have to make up so much plot stuff #bc orufrey CANNT happen they cant freaking KISS until so much is sorted out between them which requires the plot moving forward and.. #AUGHHH !!!! sensei please just tell me what happens please please please please please please please please please #the next chapter looks hella plot-ful but STILL..it's going to take YEARS..i just want to know if qifrey IS GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHIT !!!! #if the brimhats [redacted] then he'll [redacted] and THEN WHAT IF [redacted] has to [redacted] I FEEL LIKE SENSEI'LL DO THAT !!! SCARED #SURELLLY she'll have [redacted] have to [redacted] but i dont think shed go as far as [redacted] ?????? #i plan to go to japan next year if possible anyway but what if it's too early for an anime-fuelled merch section in animate. please #this is like the first new and non-zuka thing i've been hyperfixated on for years. i need official qifrey and oru items. I need the items #once again i feel weird putting my personal feelings and theories on the internet to an audience of nobody but once again we will die. #am i going to be on my deathbed thinking 'oh i shouldn't have happily gone off about witch hat on tumblr that time how embarrassing' no. #do you know how worthwhile it is to enjoy something. and to basically avoid other fanworks for the most part so you're just surrounded #by your own pure and enjoyable feelings. #i actually went to a local queer art place yesterday and like. man i was very different to them but #there are people somewhat like me out there huh. somewhere. i'm going to make zines and art and express my world. even if just a bit. #literally why would you priv reblog something like this i think there is something wrong with you? i feel better about myself now #i will find the ones like me not the ones like you <3

[castielmacleod]

I do hate 8x22 with my whole heart but god I LOVE Crowley’s speech near the end. Pop off king

#Like I know I’ve said I don’t like how far down the villain pipeline they pushed Crowley in this season. That’s still true #(Mostly due to his treatment of Kevin Linda and Channing which was especially inordinately cruel imo and racist writing but even in general) #And I mean poor Sarah because she absolutely did not deserve that #But oh man that was DELICIOUSLY evil. Like flat out I see it I enjoy it etc #This is one of the last smart things they let Crowley do. The whole scheme of his to get salmondean to back off #I unironically love it. It’s the perfect way to devastate them and the fact that they CAN’T stop him is sooo good #To paraphrase the immortal words of Billie thee reaper it’s always nice to see a Winchester not get what he wants #I just enjoy seeing Dean so fucking clueless and I mean the fact that they listened to Crowley go on and on through the phone #And the hex bag was IN THE PHONE lol. I won’t give Dabb much but fuck I’ll give him that one #It’s just too satisfying. Again sorry Sarah 😭😭 #And also what Crowley was saying IN said speech. He was literally right btw. He knew right where to hit them and it’s brutal #And then salmondean were only able to stop him by pretending to surrender #They had no fucking way to save Jody at ALL they had to rely on Crowley being good on his word. And Crowley is ALWAYS good on his word #On his head be it. #My posts

[7000f1]

I just remembered how I once went to twt and finally said that Jyushi would probably be a monster hunter enthusiast and then like, 2 weeks later or so ARB announced the monster hunter subjugation event

#I voice my thoughts and then hypmic delivers it's nuts #also that event 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 #okay I'm going to ramble here I am chatty today #OKAY SO Jyushi stating that he was waiting for so long for the new monsub game and getting his hands on it as soon as it's released #also that's ma boy!!!! buying a physical copy!!!! #and he then thinks he hopes Kuko doesn't show up like last time so he can play AND THEN KUKO APPEARS #so Jyushi runs away like NOOOOOOO NOTHING'S HAPPENING BYEEEEEEE #JYUSHI BEING A LANCE USER I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO USE LANCES #Jyushi being yeeted by a monster is such a mood #AND FAST FORWARD TO KUKO BREAKING INTO HIS ROOM #CAUSE HE WAS DEAD WORRIED SOMETHING HAPPENED LIKE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SUCH A SWEETHEART #and when Jyushi apologizes Kuko then says that the punishment is to play together #hold up give me a second I'm crying #that makes me so incredibly happy 😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕 them both playing monhun- ahem monsub together and probably laughing #MY POOR HEART I LOVE THEM SM #do you think they try to get Hitoya to play too sometime? I do #they all would have so much fun together even if Hitoya thinks he won't enjoy it at first cause why does he have to play #just like that let's play! arb card in which kuko is ar first dragging him to play and then he is enjoying the game a lot I #I love BAT way too much man I can't hold my own thoughts shdhhshs congrats if you reached this far into my love dump #every hour is BAT loving hours #ramblings #I'm so happy I made my mhr character Jyushi really