#maybe i shld care more

[girlwithfish]

Having no external maladative coping mechanisms is so crazy like ofc i still do the rumination stuff emotional numbing avoidance but like more outward actions like getting high every day or self harming i dont do either its kind of weird esp at times when i am really emotional in a bad way and dont know what to do like . i need a pen rn or i need a nic addiction or to become an alcoholic or maybe i should just start [redacted] oops! but no im gonna. play guitar or something i guess

#i have a job interview tmrw should i be more anxious abt it #im anxious but im also not preparing at all really lol just gonna wing it #maybe i shld care more #its a barista job and they called me super quick so i feel they need staff as long as im normal n stuff i dont feel they're that picky #bc of how quick they reached out to me #im gonna b so tired working full time again but i need to get my ass off and it wont be as tiring as the daycare job probably #itll b tiring but in diff ways and at least im not in charge of sixteen little two yr olds so i can prob manage #but being on my feet all day is gna make me wanna die my back is already baddd #its good though i need to get on w my ljfe and move forward and i need money and to be doing something 👍 #employed girl soon hopefully #and then i tell myself im gna still look for career~ jobs while i work but i probably wont bc ill b tired from working full time👍so

[whomturgled]

i have so many feelings and i hate it

#and regrets of any time ive acted up or feel like in hindsight it wasnt cherishing the time i have w them as i shld be and #and things i want to do with them still and ways to love them and be loved and understand their way of loving and #i think we can be so good together and. i miss them. and i hope they miss me. #i really hope theyll miss me soon and want me again and . ik its maybe a little messed up but i want to believe and trust and #its hard and it hurts but. i really feel theres a great connection and if i need to chill out a bit and remember myself more thats fine #and on me for getting so like. moody recently. altho i kinda feel like part of that is med changes but u__u still i need to be able to like #be better and i think they make me better and so happy and. im so comfortable with them and i love them and i wld want to make it work #even if it had to be distance but i dont think i want to just be their friend like maybe but it would hurt a lot bc i love them so much #and i hope they wanna be with me too still and will allow me to romance them yknow flowers and adventures and love and take care and... yea #and maybe some of this was just them going thru a lot rn and im sorry for adding pressure to it and i want to be the comfortable respite an #auurgrgghfhdhdhhfhfdhh i miss them #i just keep thinking abt them like ill have periods of not but then i do again and. idk. #theres also a lot of complicated feelings and thoughts and its like i want to like. idk. know some of their friends n stuff n. :^( idk #i dont feel well from the stress and emotions and ow of it all #i really hope it isnt just a way for them to let me down i really hope they come back eventually like i wanna believe they will but #ourgsghthfhdhfhghghdhdhwkelftk4bfbhwiwjtjejAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i love them a lot. and need to listen more abt more alone time stuff bc it is good for both of us but not like this u_u #ok sorry for rambling i needed somewhere to write feelings so here we are #i guess part of me is hoping theyre thinking abt me at least a bit and maybe will check this and see it and be like wow i do miss them too #but ik thats silly and eitth3u2ieigjtb4jirifjwji24jgntn aahhhhhhhhhhh. i say a lot of things wrong esp when scared or overly emotional and. #urgevshehrhtjrjeitjtnjeeitjtjwjeiigvjiw9384847rhfbwjoe4j4n4j289djrnrnf #i just really really hope they come back soonish and like want me and are like yes i do want you sorry for that but not a huge sorry bc #like i understand where theyre coming from and. and. yeah. idk. soon doesnt have to be today or tomorrow but maybe a week or 2 idk #i just realy miss them and it hurts and i really dont want them with someone else or to just throw it all away andni want to prove i can #like. idk. love them and be better and more positive i guess we've both been dealing w a lot of stuff and i do need to learn to accept and #more patient w how we communicate differently and we do have to face that but its a difficult topic to confront ig and aurh4hwhshhrlffff #i think they love me i want to trust and i really hope they dont try to make any decisions for me or like based on what they think best 4 m #bc i get to decide that :^( #when i said let down i meant like. leave my life and never talk to me again and stuff.. ;^(. idk how to feel abt some things but. idk. idk. #theres so many feelings and that all is just a pretty vague tip of the iceberg ugh

[caruliaa]

screaming bc theres a song (no i wont tell u what one but its by an artisit i dont listen to rly to much except for the last two days but i do like what of her music iv heard) that like. i rly feel like fits a ship (I WILL DEFF NOT TELL U WHICH ONE !!!!! but its like. not one i rly ship tht much but i do think its cute and im slowly getting more into it) in like. a weird way bc like. im not like omg this song is so this ship its so cute i mean the first time i listened to the song which was a while back when it first came out i was like this feels like ppl r gonna talk abt it w tht ship or like the song feels very like. like a fanfiction to me like generally and to me i feel like its like a modern au fanfic for the ship nd i listened to the song again today nd iv been thinking abt tht but the thing is i looked to see if anyone in any context has put that ship with that song before expecting to find lots of stuff but i literally found NOTHING its ubsurddd !!!

#like. searched tumblr w the ship + song name nd the ship + artist name? no results #went to google w either? just got results w either the ship or the song or tumblr blogs #that showed up bc they had prob posted seperate posts abt the musicain/song and the ship #and like. a fucking archive.org pdf of a totally unrelated article on the first page of google #searched the artist and song name on ao3 showing only options with that ship #in hopes id find a fic titled after a lyric from the song w that in the description? #no resulfs either!! #like i feel insane how has no one ever pointed out this ship w this song ever #i do NOT!! want to be the first one babes. esp since no i feel like im almost definatly wrong #abt it fitting the ship. but i mean im also not thats someone modern au fanfic of them as a song #i mean like. i dont rly ship the ship as said but iv seen what theyre fromm !!!! #okay. the friendship between one of the characters in the ship and another character is a part of like. #why it fits bc w like the framing device of the song it fits #so perhaps i am putting too much emphasis on that friendship idk how much ppl care esp in the context of tht ship alongside it #but they shld care more abt tht friendship like ik general tbh. bc i care more abt tht then the ship tbhh 😭😭 #also like. i feel a littol dumb for not realising this earlier but maybe its bc the song is like. #a bit of a timeline on the relationship nd loke. dowsnt mention any point of any dislike #at the beginning and i think that is a thing with is ship but also COME ONN #the song doesnt need to encapsulate every single moment or aspect of the ship for someone somewhere to say it fits #im also kind of like how in character is this but i mean like. its a big the most popular probably ship in a fandom theres lots of ppl who #dont care if its in character thats not a reason someone wldnt have mentioned it either #ik its like. not a big deal ig but im so baffled tht like. no one seems to have seen this popular ship and i think prettty popular when it #released (and that was last! year!) song together that iv become obsessed w finding someone who has #im going to look thru spotify playlists for the ship and ao3 more thoroughly later bit rn im making pancakes <3 #flappy rambles #EDIT: also for cotext in not telling the ship not bc i think its ‘cringe’ its bc ik many of u ship it #and again. dont want to b the weird oe w this song that made me think others wld associate it w thw ship #which apparently not a soul hasss !!!!! which is like i said freaking me out a lil bc im sure someone wld have

[usetheforce]

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#okay. maybe this sounds unhinged but. my new bf does not know how angry i can get. how fucking ugly i can be. yes weve been dating one year #but he has only known medicated me. and so like. him not liking me bc ive been 'angry lately' is pissing me off #bc like. this isnt even the half of it baby #this isnt even a drop. u should be grateful. u shld b grateful you get this much of me baby. ive worn my anger down so smooth and docile #im mild at the function. i smile and bite my tongue and seethe internal. i laugh and grind my molars down to nubs #and i twist it so hard. do u kno how hard it is to make anger funny and palatable when all u wanna do is fucking scream and spit vitriol an #hurt everyone who has ever cared about you. just to see their faces collapse and your stomach swoop with 'oh no what have i done' #and even tho i know it is coming i cannot stop it. that it will make me feel worse and more hateable. but still i just want to bare my teet #and snarl. bc it feels so good in that one instant. and then so bad in the next when i realize what ive done #dni #text it #words #anger

[noxtivagus]

hmmm this uh. vent in tags doesn't pertain to anyone here though okay, it's really just a Me problem bcs i rlly appreciate you all so much but i can't help but be like this :<< (working on it though)

#🌙.vents #just thinking a bit n thought i shld write it down bcs i've always really have wondered what's rlly real n not #i'm a bit of an idealist at heart but i'm v much also a realist. i may be swimming in the deepest depths of oceans but i always know where #the shore. perhaps i am a moon and perhaps there rlly are those who love me like that but #i can't help but oft feel that ppl only like sides of me. or perhaps their images of me. idealized to their preferences n needs #to some ppl i've felt from them that i have to be like This so they'd love me. or they only care abt what they can get from me n i'm left w #receiving nothing at all. when i do receive stuff it then feels foreign. n even for those who rlly do care #it hurts bcs ^^ all that is solely my fault. for thinking this way. #i cld break out of it but maybe i don't bcs i think i don't deserve it. to inflict this pain and choose and grasp on it unto myself to #idk smth w all my burdens n regrets n mistakes. no matter what good i do; the past will never be erased. i'll live to atone but i'll never #properly let myself live; is that it? i can't accept a future or reality for myself bcs of the scars of my past n the reality that shldve #been if i wasnt so incompetent? if i was better if i was good enough if i wasnt so afraid to reach out n if i hid when i should have. if i #did all that perfectly. but i'm human n we all are n we make mistakes. i can pardon others i can understand n help them but not for me #it hurts i wish i cld do more for those that r just as deserving but don't receive it. if i'm the moon n you don't know my dark side #then they're the sun that blinds you to see. i hate this world so much #i'm stuck. when it comes to my own self n when it comes to ppl that.. idk rlly have done stuff for me i #i can't help but wonder if it's just for who they think i am n not for who i really am. maybe that cynism is due to old friendships where i #was neglected. like one friend that i feel used from. or another that broke their promises. n i've made my own mistakes too but i have thes #scars that tell me i'm not worth staying for. i'm not worth pushing or digging deeper for others to love the whole me. reciprocation is onl #one-sides; from me to others. but that's dumb too i barely do as much as i shld as i wish i cld as i want to do for others #maybe all we need to do is accept that we're all human n communicate authentically n honestly n openly. trust #but then i think of myself undeserving of it. n i shld fix that. i've been better before i rlly did have that sometime earlier this year bu #i've been falling apart once more. i shld fix this n i know i can but my helplessness regarding other aspects of my life n others burden me #not that others shld be my responsibility before my own in this stage of my life. but i need to give. more than doing things for others for #the sake of myself but More because i really just care for those in my life n i think they deserve so much more. #i wish i was better so they cld have more. fuck if i sacrifice myself i rlly wish i cld do more for others #for my parents. my twin. my friends. for the ones who have stayed despite my shortcomings. who have reached out in any way #i love them all do much n i have to be better bcs i want to love them back properly. #dilemma though bcs sometimes i do get unsure if it's even real at all. but at my heart i know most of it is. but then. hfksjfsjfs #it's not simple at all. it's v complex in fact bcs we're human n this is the real world. there's sm more i can't write. i have stuff to do😭

[l1nghuarchive]

SHOOT IM SORRY TO THE ANON I LOST YOUR REQUEST :( AAA FRICK OMLL AAA IM SORRY BUT HERE IS THE REQUEST YOU WANTED!! I can't remember what the reader was.. I wrote this during lunch :') IM SO SORRY ANON

★ CHILDE, TIGHNARI, ALHAITHAM X FEM!READER WHO LIKES TO OVER DRESS & GLAMOROUS

CHILDE/AJAX

• The fatui are known to be rather rich, no one knows where they got their mora from after the death of morax of course no regular person would ask.

• Perhaps Childe might keep the fact that he is a harbinger from you, as he didn't want to frighten you off l. Harbingers are known to be fearsome, cruel and heartless yet you somehow fill that void inside his heart.. He doesn't know how to describe it but it felt like a tree just bloomed into his heart.

• When you went on one of your shopping sprees, you may have forgotten your wallet back at home but he came up and paid for all your stuff! You were really surprised because that stuff cost like 100k+ mora but you were really grateful to him!

• Turns out, he wanted to get a present for his siblings but didn't know what to get for his sister, Tonia and he thought you might be an expert since you walked around the liyue district like the back of your hand.

• Sure, even after Childe left Liyue, he always tries writing to you and keep thanking you for helping him pick out a gift.

• After he confesses, he loves you no matter what <3 he'll glare at the person who was judging you while you're looking away not really wanting you to see the harbinger side of him since he doesn't want to scare you off :(

TIGHNARI

• Perhaps Tighnari met you when you were in sumeru city while he was still studying in the akademiya, of course you stood out to him. Not many people in sumeru focus on their appearance as their main focus is always their studies.

• So he went up to interact with you, thinking you might be a foreigner from liyue or fontaine and was surprised to know that you aren't.

• After a few encounters and small talks, he soon realised that his heart kept pounding whenever he sees you perhaps after a few sassy comments he ACTUALLY confesses.

• Tighnari would get ready with you! Perhaps he'll even share tips on how to untame your hair easily since he does groom his tail and ears frequently, maybe he might allow you to put some of your accessories on him! <3

• Of course, if you are overspending your mora he will stop you and teach you spending habits you shld pick up :)

• he doesn't want his girlfriend perhaps future wife to go broke after all, he does love you dearly so please don't take his comments to heart he just really want you to look after yourself :]

ALHAITHAM

• Same as Tighnari's, i think that ppl in sumeru don't really care much about their appearance.

• alhaitham is someone who likes to lay low and not draw attention to himself when in crowds.

• so kaveh was surprised when he heard that alhaitham was dating you.. Or at least dating someone before him like his jaw literally dropped to the ground and Kaveh kept asking if you were brainwashed.

• Kaveh definitely loves you platonically, you and him are best friends who share tips about improving each others appearance of course all alhaitham can do is just sigh at you and his roommates behaviour before going back to his book.

• wanting to keep you safe, alhaitham only shares your relationships with the traveller and kaveh. He has made countless enemies throughout his years in the akademiya, it was only natural if someone were to target you just to get back at him and since you stood out more he doesn't want you to be in danger.

• if you think alhaitham doesn't approve of you liking to standing out, please don't think that way! Alhaitham seems like someone to love his s/o no matter how they act since if he fell love he knows that they are the one after all no one made him feel this way other than you! :)

Im deeply sorry for the anon who requested this idk what i clicked.. 😰

#genshin imagines #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact #genshin x reader #al haitam x reader #al haitham #childe #ajax x you #childe x reader #ajax x y/n #tartagalia genshin impact #tartagalia x reader #tighnari #tighnari x y/n #tighnari x reader

[mugentakeda]

do u think that iroh shld have been closer in age to ozai? or stinky balding 50 yr man and his 25 yr old brother supremacy🤔

stinky balding 50 yr old man and his 25 yr old brother supremacy. but to be honest I highly doubt ozai is 25 like he isn't greying and he doesn't have many wrinkles. but the hairline is already receding and he doesn't LOOK like a young man (to ME.) i had to pull out my math calculations (<-being dead serious here) from where I decided how old lu ten would be in my aus right. because that was actually important for me (because I literally had to come up with all his lore and his ages during specific Events was important). and this is all headcanon stuff btw cus none of the adults in atla have set ages, and the ba sing se siege doesn't have a set year either. I just decided that it took place in 94 AG cus whatever dawg. I decided that ozai is 42 during canon. not too young, but not old either. it only says that iroh was between his 50s or 60s, so I went with 58. and I am not the blog that thinks there was a lost brotherly love between iroh and ozai at any point in time lol. I think iroh was already pretty invested in his training and studies and gearing up for military stuff by the time ozai was even born, which effectively squashed out any hope ozai would ever get at having any type of spotlight in the future. on top of that, I soaked up the headcanon that fire lady ilah died giving birth to ozai from a mutual, so between iroh being the golden boy and already very successful, and ozai """being what took ilah away""" (along with the stuff he probably has in common with zuko lol), the obviously sour relationship between ozai and azulon makes sense. i feel like iroh and ozai do know each other very well, but in the way two opponents are supposed to know each other very well lol. I don't think iroh ever felt personally challenged by ozai in a man to man sense because he always knew his place with his father lol. he didn't take comfort in the fact that ozai was no match for him but like.... he just didn't care. Like at all. I feel that as ozai got older and gradually gained more Audacity that iroh would occasionally feel irritated with his brother or maybe even disrespected, but like I said I don't think iroh ever felt honest to god saw ozai as anything but an annoyance until ozai made himself a threat. a background character if you will

#I kinda went into it during the iroh pov ficlet for my runaway firefam au. I'll need to find it #asks

[cleromancy]

i do think a lot of interpretations of preboot jason that are like "nah idc about canon he should straight up loathe tim" are usually coming from a place of like. ttg robin voice nobody cares about timmmmm drake rather than actually getting into either characters head (as well as--tbh justified--frustration with the fact that for a while tims writers just kept bashing you over the head with "hes the specialest boy in the world and half the people he meets are obsessed with him" crap). just in terms of tims personality/backstory like... i don't think there's anything you could point to for jason to dislike that isnt also true of bruce and bruce is jasons favorite person in the world, and not by a small margin

aside from like. well the replacing aspect. and its like ok how much of the canon version of titans tower are we throwing out? bc the canon version has Jason like. inexplicably having fucking read a lonely place of dying somehow, and he just showed up to like, call bullshit. which is extremely funny tbh. "no the FUCK you didnt stalk bruce undetected for weeks. i dont FUCKING believe you" and kicking his ass more or less just because he could and it wasnt even hard

dndkclfocjkf anyway like i did actually have a point and my point was just 1) at this point in time whether or not jason likes the guy is irrelevant to whether or not he triggers jasons kill instinct. can we just focus on the fact that jason wants to hunt him for sport. Can we just focus on letting him hunt tim for sport 2) i actually think the best reason for jason to dislike tim is that i think jason should think damian is hilarious despite or maybe because of damians general disdain for him & propensity for calling him "Mother's ill-advised science experiment" and such, and moreover i think jason shld automatically side with him on any disputes where he doesn't have any actual skin in the game himself. but even then i just don't think he takes tim seriously enough to actually dislike him lmao

i do rly wish titans tower had been good but i also think its funny that it was followed up by jasons appearance in ga bc ngl it feels like kind of a "well actually this is how jason would go about menacing a kid sidekick he thinks shouldn't be in the field"

#releasing timby into jasons enclosure. for enrichment #dc #jaytim #jaytim text

[pawtistics]

goddddddd i need to learn to drive i need to move i need to figure out how to take care of my Fucking finances and how im gonna afford our meds n hormones n other care / basic necessities i need to support everybody rn immediately . i need to be able to navigate the world for myself but im fucking stupid im nona levels of stupid <333

and i cant do any of this without disentangling myself from my current life in a major way. hafta quit my job, stop school (not complaining i hate both), save up and figure out how to get away in the least damaging way possible but shes never Not going to be mad at me about it i think . i don’t know what to do. i don’t know how many more years i have left in me going on like this

but. fuckinf. iunno, if i get my way we only need meals for 2 that ill gladly make. nd you need to drink your fuckinf wawer ok. i know it sucks but it is a requirement of being alive and ill give u anything u want after

like. i’ll work . id work several jobs ! i just hope i can find somewhere that isn’t Totally shit. somewhere close to home. maybe even somewhere with a lax / nonexistent dress code. i’m gonna figure it out for both of them idc about me but . i could do it. they deserve the world n more

i feel like i shld start picking up more shifts . or take commissions or smth. i have an adopts blog that is just barely in progress. if all i get out of life is getting them out of their households itd be worth it theyre so lovely i cherish them so fucking bad i just . want em to be safe n comfortable n mine to look out for

i’ll learn to diy shit. i’ll learn to sew. pick up punk ideals while being a princess dyke. can mend our stuff and make New things and when i’ve got the money i wanna stop at thrift stores and . god i got so attached to the idea of helping it dress exactly how it wants. I want to get you masc clothing youll feel good in. i want us to feel good and be safe . sometimes a family is a scary werebutch with a heart of gold and a Minuscule puppy femme who constantly threatens to start biting and their favorite sillay catboy on earth

#꒰ entry ꒱

[darkicedragon]

azure https://mobile.twitter.com/_LASDO_/status/1597212848572489728?t=cAq5ST0n_m_qar4ASm2b0w&s=33 Muzaka >w< Franken saving him darkicedragon Or frankenstein having fun 😘 azure no making Muzaka cry ū-ū unless it's evil Franken u-u darkicedragon Huehuehue. Seeing what his limit is uwu azure evilFranken hurting him enough to make him be wary of Franken Muzaka's not afraid, bc that's how he is but he's wary, cautious, unconsciously keeping his distance "You alright?" "Yeah."

darkicedragon Yessss Mostly looks at frankenstein like >n> darkicedragon Frankenstein getting his hands on the werewolf lord and being excited bc he finally gets to get data from the strongest werewolf and can compare that to nonwarriors I guess muzaka doesnt feel as much pain, so hes more down bc he doesnt get to run around or go where he wants darkicedragon Just stuck in a cell like ono azure would that make Muzaka cry 🤔 I feel like he'd cry out of 2 reasons losing someone dear like Ashleen or being rejected by his pack (I feel like in canon, Muzaka has come to terms they hate him, but maybe at first, when the pain was fresh, he hurt a lot over that) ovo Muzaka having a bad night when he cries, and Franken soothing him and grounding him darkicedragon Maybe muzaka crying bc hed been handed over to frankenstein by the other werewolves, which is another reason why he doesnt try to escape, bc theres nowhere for him to escape TO azure YESSSS ÒwÓ he's been betrayed, abandoned he lost his home, lost all the ppl he cared for darkicedragon Also werewolves handing muzaka to frankenstein, bc frankenstein was picking off werewolves anyway azure Franken is a little 'hmmm' bc if he's a werewolf willingly given away by the others, something doesn't sit right with him azure bonus points if he knows what Franken is doing but instead of fighting him he's like 'use me instead of them' 'even after they betrayed you, you still want to protect them?' '... I've a duty to them... I was their lord' '... I don't harm innocent people. I only take those that attack me or other humans.' darkicedragon muzakas mind going brrrrrr as he tries to figure out if he shld attack frankenstein or not 'and that pause tells me youre  not someone i should be angry w' azure Muzaka just sighing, bc he's tired and he just cried his eyes out 'Just... just take only my blood. Should be easier than fightin' for it, right?'

#noblesse #skype conversations #madameazzure #muzaka #frankenstein

[girlwithfish]

i love too hard fr and just let ppl walk over me im a victim fr but no fr my friends think hes over stepping w using my car solely when we hang bc his car is a piece of shit and not reimbursing me for gas and shit lol ummm yeah maybe haha. i guess i justified it in my head bc i felt bad his car sucks and even tho he uses his car to go to work and errands when im not there ig we just use mine bc his sucks still and i feel bad hes in. a bad financial position and still in college and Idk with him driving my car when we go out i didntm ind but maybe i need to b more selective and shitttt. Like at first i thought it was kinda nice being driven and not having to drive bc i was so used to being the only one who drove in my last relationship bc my ex was a shit driver and i didnt trust him w my car. and i didn twanna be stingy abt gas and stuff and we dont go that far distances bc everything in his town is like 5-8 min away so nbd right. and he knows the area better. but then i felt kinda weird when he said he prefers driving bc he doesnt like any other persons driving and so its more a control thing and not him trying to do a nice thing for me yk idk. i just feel mean standing up for myself but i rly shld b more mean i thinkkkkk its not even mean. he fr just wants a car not a gf perhaps....... My ex used to say i was super possessive abt my car being mine nd stuff which is like wild bc i would get really pressed when he would take my car keys and be really controlling and stuff sometimes go out w my car during a fight like i let him use my car to get to class over the summer for a few weeks and he knocked over a stop sign and started a fight w me after i asked him pretty nicely to be more careful/pay attention. Men literally just take and take and take in my experience why do i attract those types of guys or accept them into my life 🫡🐒

[chanyoungies]

ooh ooh ✨, 👯‍♀️ (wei), 🎧 !

hiiiiiiiiiiiii camp counseleri <3

✨ tell you about a group i’m getting into more recently

hmmm i think i’m maybe getting more into drippin these days? perhaps? idk? as in like i learned all the members’ names way back but like that was p much it but i’ve been paying more attention to them these days !! i domt know what to tell u really but they’re cute...but also u know that i say that abt like anything and everything... but like. yunseong is like my cool crush from a shared class, minseo is my bestie but also my son but like mostly my bestie. but like sometimes he’s my son !! hav u seen this picture of him in a cart it’s very important to me u shld see it. then hyeop is (obviously ina’s bf we all know that but also) a bestie bestie vibes off the chart... changuk is like that one guy u know bc ur bestie brings him to hang out w ur friend group u know yeah that’s brina w changuk nd then dongyun could very well become my son eventually we will see. nd then alex n chajun are like u know when there’s a friend group there’s those friends that ure not rlly All that close to on ur own but u act like ure the bestest besties when u’re all together yeah it’s kinda like that. besties in law if u will? also i knew this way back alr but ... discography so good... boyager was my fave debut ep (if not just fave ep) alongside p1h’s siren ep back in. whatever year that was.... so good so insanely good.. nd i think about that one mcd young blood stage every 3 days. nd also fate is the best song ever everyone should listen to fate everyone should watch fate stages thanks for listening

👯‍♀️ rant about a favorite friendship in: wei

well now we’re in trouble bc i don’t think i have one like as we mentioned once i do think one of the things i enjoy most while getting into groups is seeing their dynamics but in wei it’s more like .... i adore all the members separately more ? nd then all of them as a group ? as opposed to specific non-full group friendships idk... nd it’s like it’s not that i don’t enjoy these it’s more that i just . haven’t paid as much attention to them i think? i think they work rlly well as a group and i enjoy how comfortable they are with each other, i think!! which like . sounds generic but like... they’re like really enjoyable to watch like i never rlly care all that much about full group vlives because i just. idk enjoy solo/unit vlives more but i enjoy wei full group vlives a lot!! i don’t go out of my way to avoid them when for most groups i do, even when i love the group like.... u know i love vity nd like everything about them but i def would lean towards Avoiding full vity lives,,

🎧 put one of my kpop playlists on shuffle and share the first song that plays

as u wished, from my ‘this is not junseoism’ playlist: bon bon chocolat by everglow

#sowwy to disappoint w the group ranting one... i HAVE been watching junseo/donghan vlives recently but like there isnt anything specific tha #that ive picked up on? like that wld like differ from like what i have to say about the group as a whole idk if that makes sense #donghan acts as he does w everyone....junseo acts as he does w everyone... etc #theyre cute though i love them idk if u knew that . ! #thamk u for asking thamk u for reading my mind also <3 im sending u peaches thats the best i can do rn #cherrin 🍒 #millie's rep

[caruliaa]

now one cares if ur mom loves you soooo muc and u love her soooo much and ur omg arent mothers soo great always bs. shut up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#(BEING VERY PETTY BC MINE SUCKS SO FUCKING MUCH) #but also if i have to see the post bieng like 'oohh imagine sweet nothing with how your mother always loves u unconditionly' everywere #(which good 4 u stop acting like thats the universal experience for everyone it fucking isnt) #then you all have to deal with me platonic-fing it and making it abt friendship. sucks to suck loser !!!! #like what if the soul deconstructers *are* my parents in my experience. what then bitch !! #sorry im rly just annoyed abt that one post bc i feel like theres an obsession among swifties to only every understand each song in a way #that like. does or cld fit within her life instead of relating it to ur own experince esp in regards to them all being abt romance #like ppl being like 'i cant believe ppl think x song cld count as a platonic love song when its obvs abt romancce' #or not understanding how the emotions expressed in a song abt a traumatic break up could also be related to other trauma #including trauma inflicted by a parent/friend/ any other relation someone cld have to someone #but the one time !! relating one of her songs to smth other than roamnce is acceptable to swifties its the stupid fucking #'ohh my mom is soo great shes the best' bs thats a sure fire sign the person saying it will never take anyone whos been mistreated #by the parents serious and just respond w 'but its ur momm u have to love her bc shes ur mommm :(((((' #sorry ik im being needlessly bitter which sucks bc i have a a good point here like can we just let ppl relate to songs in whatever way they #want to and not care abt their being a 'defnitive' meaning to the song bc the whole point of art esp music is how YOU relate to it #also like. that post isnt bad at all its acutally completely fine im just bieng dumb and projecting ig bc i feel like the emotions of ppl #whos parents were good to them r always taken more seriously like. if i made a post talking abt relating the 'give me back my girlhood' lin #to my experince w my shitty parents i feel like it wldnt be taken as seriously as this 'uwu i love my momm' bs yk. anyway maybe im wrong !! #who knows !!!!! maybe i shld try to talk abt how i relate her songs to my personal experinces more #also i am being rly dumb sm bc ik other ppl have spoken abt relating her songs (esp mtr and tolerate it) to shitty parnets but iv also seen #ppl treat that like its dumb which is stupid !!!!! who cares !!!! ur being a dick let ppl relate music to whatever experiences they want !! #anyway. i think i seem more pissed her than i actually am im just annoyed bc this is a pet peeve of mine lol #flappy rambles

[1eaf-me-alone]

Hello-I saw your match-up event and decided to make a request so here it is

Male,he/they,I would prefer 2 characters(preferably female but male if you find it fits my personality more since I’m bi)-I tend to be quite a quiet and reserved person with most people but show my more goofy and loud side on certain occasions and with loved ones,I tend to prefer being the little spoon,I love the idea of feeling protected by my partner-I enjoy coding,reading and writing,I also tend to just about try anything as long as it’s interesting in general also love language is quality time-spending time with partner usually fills me the most

That shld be all for now-sry I can’t think much since it’s pretty late-I hope I wasn’t too unclear and hope your writer block clears soon!!

I match you with ….. Eula and Yoimiya

Eula:

She will definitely protect you with all she’s got, you’re her number one priority. You will always feel safe around Eula.

She spends a lot of time with you, getting to know you, learning about the Lawrence clan from her, going on walks with her.

when she sees you she’ll kiss you (she’s a little shy in public but soon enough you’ll be filled with sweet kisses.)

you will definitely feel protected by Eula, if anyone were to lay a finger on you Eula would probably kill them. No-one can hurt you and she will make sure of that.

she loves cuddling you - if you’re taller then her she will embrace you, if you’re not she’ll envelop you into a cuddle as you fall into her arms.

she will always make time for you - and as you both get to know each other more you reveal more of your goofy and loud side, and Eula lets her guard down. - with you she’s more relaxed, more happy. With you she can be herself.

when you first met her she would have come off as really stiff, always wanting to “seek revenge.” But as you get to know her more she turns out to be really caring, sweet and protective.

same going for you, when you first met Eula you were quite quiet and shy. You kept to yourself more, but the longer you got to know her the more free spirited you became. You could be more you around her- and she wouldn’t judge you.

Eula will try get to know your hobbies too, if she’s never coded she’ll try learn from you- and she’ll listen to you with great enthusiasm whilst you teach her.

Eula will dance with you. Maybe it’ll be late at night, but the two of you dance with eachother, having quality time. She’ll caress your face lightly and bring you closer, as you dance together in the light of the moon.

whenever she needs to leave to go somewhere she will kiss you goodbye in the cheek before leaving, and when she comes back she’ll bring you into a tight embrace and make sure the two of you spend more quality time together- catching up on missed time.

Eula held your hand as she leads you to the grass field underneath the moonlight. You take off your shoes as the feel of the grass beneath your feet tickles your toes. Eula holds your arm and pulls you in, as she dances with you. You embraced her tightly as she whisked you in and twirled you in the air.

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Yoimiya:

Yoimiya would absolutely love to spend time with you, she would show you all the stuff she loves in the hope you would like it to.

she loves sharing stuff she loves with people she is close to- it’s like a deep connection thing for her.

she’ll spend a lot of time with you doing sweet things like cooking, taking you to places you’ve never been to, showing you how to make fireworks

she would be very interested in your hobbies too. As you like reading she might find a special place with lots of books just for you

Yoimiya would take you to a bunch of festivals to try new foods and activities.

with her colourful personality she always has new activities to show you.

she likes trying out new things and especially loves doing so with you.

Yoimiya is big in hugs, kisses, physical touch. - she really likes them- especially with you

She would definitely look out if you get hurt. She wouldn’t want that- and she probably has some stuff to heal you if you do get hurt.

Yoimiya is the type of person to get along with anyone, she’s so easy going to talk to. Even when you two didn’t know each other as much she chatted to you as if you had been friends for years- and she didn’t mind that you were a little quiet as first, as she quite likes talking and sharing things with you.

Yoimiya would let you explore new things a lot, she would let you try new things with her. She loves spending quality time with you, and enjoys whatever she does as long as you’re doing it too!

Yoimiya held your hand as she dragged you to the colourful festival. Bright colours and smells filled your senses. Flaming reds, ocean blues, emerald greens. Everything seemed to be filled with colour. “Well what do you think?” Yoimiya stopped you at a stall to try something new, pointing and showing you everything there was. She seemed so happy to be there with you.

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i hope you enjoyed that anon :)

well that’s my second ask complete if you want to send an ask click here for more details on the event.

#Eula #eula lawrence #Eula x reader #genshin impact #genshin x reader #Eula fluff #Yoimiya #yoimiya x reader #yoimiya fluff #Genshin matchups

[noxtivagus]

hehehe

#nvm im ok again!!!! #i ramble sm on tumblr it's like a second diary atp 💀 #theres a lot more notes that i keep in private tho ehehe #but theres smth nice abt putting all these thoughts in an open space #maybe some stranger out there wld emphatize or laugh at me. whichever it may be i find the unknown possibilities interesting #i shld probably overshare a bit less online tho >< #in a way its also rather funny to me #do ppl see me on the dashboard n think i'm a sad emo teen #i cried a bit earlier for less than 5 minutes then laughed a bit later bcs apollo #hehe i love my family #apollo's so cute 🥺 #also annoying #feels like i'm taking care of a child sometimes. not bcs they're particularly immature or wtvr but #sometimes when im bored n she's busy i'd spoodfeed them lol #i think i take after my mom in that way #i just do small stuff like that from time to time #as long as i don't particularly stress out over the past present or future then i'm doing well #my mood swings this week are crazy. definitely pms #i find it funny how there's this cycle of #intense emotions. i'd describe it w the color red #then purple. overwhelmed maybe #then it turns to blue or grey bcs i feel sad n stuff like that #n then maybe after wld be a soft white or yellow kind of color like #whatever the color of kindness and patience n love would be #then maybe a more vibrant purple afterwards. full on inspo n my mind's racing n im motivated n focused/not focused at the same time #in a brain dead way #then it gets overwhelming n it turns maybe uhh idk but 3 am empty you're not really thinking but not in a sad or carefree way. #i'm going a bit insane rn my brain's so empty i can't think straight #maybe it's bcs i'm not straight <33333333333 /hj #i am actually so brain empty right now. please don't perceive me. forget how i am when i'm like this pls pls pls

[llycaons]

what if the swords were people? and other speculation: collab between me and jae @dragonji

Based on appearance only I think bichen (trans lesbian) is a very well-dressed little lady..she has short person energy. She likes fashion and is always dressed in heavy winter robes. She may be a little vain but she has a good heart and thinks it's fun to vanquish evil.

Suibian (masc lesbian) is tall and stoic and works out a lot. She has a little fang and she likes outdoorsy stuff like hiking. She's also very handy and likes to craft things out of wood. She is very deeply loyal.

Sandu is obsessed with reptiles/amphibians. Swamp lady! a bit creepy and wet but contrasts w Zidian in that shes really attached to her home and anyone who lives there and she might not say it outright but she's constantly doing little things for even random ppl she barely knows if they come from Yunmeng.

She can be offputting when she wants but mostly she just does outdoorsy stuff (gets along w Suibian before the whole brother breakdown wwx n jc go thru- or still gets along well just doesn't have much opportunity postcanon?)

ALSO she is a good cook. Spiciest and maybe strange ingredient choices but a good cook nonetheless. She shld be younger/middle aged at most as another point to constrast Zidian... Rly think shes secretly a huge softie tho she just has to trust you enough to show it.

She's a young person who has an old soul...she barely gets used in the show so it probably makes her sad. in her old age like jc I feel she's gotten more jaded and lonely as everyone left or died. She and suibian used to be close before suibian's fierce loyalty to wwx shut her away from the world.

Meanwhile Baxia is six and half feet tall and beefy as hell. Also a lesbian AND autistic. While she may seem intimidating, she has a huge soft spot for young children and is a great caretaker. Like Bichen she thinks vanquishing evil rules and like Suibian she loves to work out.

Suihua is an elderly and dignified butler. She was loyal to the father and she is loyal to the son as well. She has expensive tastes and likes sweets.

XY's sword jiangzai is an tumblr witch/egirl. Bit unhinged.

Hensheng is a contortionist who sometimes freaks out people by bending into shapes randomly. She'd be one of those people who makes herself very forgettable and doesn't stand out but Knows all the gossip bc ppl just forget to be on guard around her.

Another idea for Hensheng i think she Would be a like. Psychology + body language fanatic like constantly analyzing ppl and using that to determine how to interact but not always in a bad way at least at first i think its well meaning and comes from insecurity but gets to the point where she has all these preconcieved notions abt ppl and acts accordingly around them. She wouldnt share any of this with others either and she is really observant so it typically ends up being at least somewhat correct.

Fuxue (femme) and Shuanghu (butch) are old married social worker lesbians.

They have an opposite dynamic of xxc and sl's, where Shuanghua is a little blunt and can come off as p cold despite caring a lot (also autistic btw<3) and Fuxue is really easygoing and the socializer of the two.

Fuxue means "brushing away snow" and I just think she would be really motivated by making ppl's lives better and also very very sweet to her wife.

Shuanghua is a botanist who studies medicinal herbs but is also a gardener who just grows a ton of flowers for the hell of it.

And now...the others

Chenqing is a very pale and eerie-looking little girl who can't speak, only sing or scream. She often hides behind wwx's robes until she is called forward. Postres after reuniting with wwx she's more relaxed and friendly, able to find joy in the world rather than just controlling the dead. She loves to sing.

Wangji is a tall woman with a strong presence and a beautiful voice. I see her as very motherly and kind…she wears lovely golden and white robes. Also, bisexual.

Zidian is a seasoned older bodyguard. She is deeply loyal to the Jiangs but also rather ruthless and doesn't care about who she hurts. She has her job and she does it

Nhs's fan is a very well-educated and mischievous lady who likes to eavesdrop.

#feel free to add on...or ask for requests #these aren't meant to be accurate or anything #just for fun! #thanks again to jae for contributing so much!! all of sandu hensheng and most of fuxue and shuanghua #cql txp