#mxrspider

[cosmicterrorthe8th]

This is how most kiddad ships work ig

Especially glark....

#mxrspider #glark #dndads #grant wilson #lark oak garcia #dungeons and daddies

[tolbyccia]

andhera microchibi commission for my beloved @mxrspider !!

#andhera #dimension 20 #d20 #commissions #mxrspider

[dieantik]

sam nightingale for @mxrspider’s children book zine, “HOW DO I DEAL WITH THIS?” 🌊🪩✨

you can find the zine here, as well as the rest of the zine jam projects!

#d20 zine jam #dimension 20 #d20 #the seven #t7 #sam nightingale #art

[mxrstar]

[ changed url from mxrspider to mxrstar! ]

#hi its still me #the idea of having a tma related url as tma 2 is happening was honestly giving me hives a little bit jkfdlg #not that i Know its gonna suck but (1) i have lost interest (2) i don't trust it seems fishy (3) mmmmmmmmm not sure i wanna support #sometimes i talk

[bazes]

(tagged by @mxrspider :))

—put your favorites playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs, then tag ten people!

1. some things cosmic—angel olsen

2. what will you leave behind—spiritfarer (max ll, maude plante-husaruk)

3. come out and play—billie eilish

4. ayonha—hamid al shaeri

5. fascination—tamino

6. walls—postcards

7. a.i—onewe

8. another medium—undertale (toby fox)

9. here comes a thought—steven universe (estelle, aj michalka)

10. the sand castle—wednesday campanella

tag: legitimately idk ten people so (loudspeaker voice) MUTUALS DO THIS

#okay they heard me #and yes i am an indie pop girl i wish i was more interesting but it is what it is #i’ll listen to all of urs pascal! sure u have great taste

[femmedionysus]

(for the ask game) melanie!!

got a little break from work heehoo ask time

how I feel about this character: queen. ms king I have feelings for you [bass boosted]. has done nothing wrong in her life & I would kill for her.

all the people I ship romantically with this character: I mean, obvious answer is Georgie & I love wtgfs as a ship! also into sashamelanie, sasha/melanie/georgie, melanie/annabelle could be fun, also not so much ~romantic~ but I do think helen & melanie fucked at least once

my non-romantic otp for this character: interestingly enough I love all her interactions with all three of the s1 guys? I think she & jon are SUPER interesting parallels & I love how they’re friends but their friendship is exclusively on sight (Georgie has a Type). I love her & martin, mean gays unionize. I think she & tim could’ve had a really interesting dynamic too!

my unpopular opinion about this character: if I see another melanie/elias fic I will become an avatar of the slaughter myself, stop being fucking gross, love & light

one thing I wish had happened with this character in canon: I’m actually pretty content with her canon storyline! I was gonna jokingly say I wish jonny had let her kiss Georgie on-audio too but she canonically fucks so like, honestly I’m happy with her storyline. give us a scene of her petting the admiral maybe?

#the magnus archives #ask meme #character opinions #mxrspider

[numinousnic]

(spotify) 37 and 42

37. “The Stable Song” by Gregory Alan Isakov

* Featured on a DnD OC ship playlist but good GOD this song is on SO many of my playlists

Ring like silver, ring like gold Ring out those ghosts on the Ohio Ring like clear-day wedding bells Were we the belly of the beast or the sword that fell? We’ll never tell

42) “Sweet Tooth” by Scott Helman

* Featured on Cass’ (WIP) OC playlist

I hold hands with cosmic entities I’ll take this tube out if I please I got this sweet tooth, baby Yeah, I got this sweet tooth, baby I exploit my opportunities Some broken hearts, numb cavities I got this sweet tooth, baby Yeah, I got this sweet tooth, baby, yeah

#in which i answer asks #spotify wrapped #mxrspider #thanks for the ask!!

[irradiatedsnakes]

i think you'd be the helpful sidekick and people would have fun writing about you saving the day in unexpected ways. maybe you'd be one of those characters that people call underappreciated but theres a lot of them saying it so you are secretly v appreciated

AWWWWW

#THATS MUCH BETTER THAN I EXPECTED #mxrspider

[t4tdykes]

(for the ask game) i think it's a somewhat flawed question because fandoms are bad at getting characters but i think there'd be a subsection of people with brains who'd find comfort in your kindness. and by virtue of being such a good writer i think you'd deserve good in-depth fics

sobs chiara.... love of my life.... it is a very cursed question yes kGDHSJ but if i had my own little gaybeehood somewhere i know they’d treat me right...

if i was a character how would the fandom treat me?

#ask game #JHBKnm #mxrspider #asks

[figayda-rights]

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat • I tried to find the sound • But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness •

• so darkness I became •

My Aelwyn character study for Pascal @aydafig @mxrspider!!! I think Aelwyn had a lot going on that stayed with her for a very long time. I think she tried really hard to be someone that her parents could love and it left her in a very bad place. And she kinda adopted that pain and anger into who she was and kept it close for a long time because it felt like love. So that's my character study! I hope you like it!

@d20exchange

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #d20 fanart #brennan lee mulligan #dimension 20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fanart #d20 fhsy #d20 secret Santa #Aelwyn #aelwyn abernant #aelwyn #d20exchange #d20exchange2021

[gerrydelano]

i would really love to hear more about bpd martin that you mentioned briefly in your c-ptsd martin post. i have bpd and i’ve never related emotionally to a character more than i do him. i’d also like to hear your take on his relationship with jon in light of his bpd? :)

yes hello hi! i actually went and passed this along to my server when you sent this because i have some Martin Enthusiasts™ in there who definitely had things to say, and i appreciate them for helping me find some scaffolding and a starting point. i completely get it, he’s really easy to relate to through this lens.

so, round of applause for @mxrspider, @ofdreamsanddoodles, @treeroutes, and @femmedionysus! and our chats that introduced cluster B jon, which definitely plays into my take on their relationship.

BUT because it became so long, you get a google doc! thank you for the request, and your patience 😊🧡 i hope this lives up!

#martin blackwood #martin #the magnus archives #tma #ronologues #r.writes #asks #anon #disability gang! #top

[fateology]

hi i just want u to know that ur laika poem "muttnik" made me fuckin cry real tears, holy shit. thank u for sharing it

HELLO also!..thank you for taking the time to read it! i’m still astounded at the reception because nothing i’ve written has ever gotten quite such attention..seems like a lot of people online feel a whole lot about laika?!?!? and for good reason!

OK perhaps this is a bit of a tangent, but here’s a couple of tags i liked in particular (especially that last one). plus something i said to pascal mxrspider that sums my misc thoughts up..

#Ask

[mxrstar]

blog make-over! changed url from red-reys -> mxrspider

#not wise on my part to change icon and url at once #but that one was too pretty #sometimes i talk

[femmedionysus]

jumping off of @themlet ‘s post to do this & tagging @gay-constellation @csevet @swanpaw @mxrspider @judasfrenchkiss @varminties & anyone else who wants to do it 💖

#if I tagged you you don’t HAVE to but these are fun #if I didn’t tag you but you want a reason to do it then yes I did tag you actually

[numinousnic]

NATIONAL POETRY MONTH 2021 April 24 | “Under One Small Star”

My apologies to chance for calling it necessity. My apologies to necessity if I’m mistaken, after all. Please, don’t be angry, happiness, that I take you as my due. May my dead be patient with the way my memories fade. My apologies to time for all the world I overlook each second. My apologies to past loves for thinking that the latest is the first. Forgive me, distant wars, for bringing flowers home. Forgive me, open wounds, for pricking my finger. I apologize for my record of minuets to those who cry from the depths. I apologize to those who wait in railway stations for being asleep today at five a.m. Pardon me, hounded hope, for laughing from time to time. Pardon me, deserts, that I don’t rush to you bearing a spoonful of water. And you, falcon, unchanging year after year, always in the same cage, your gaze always fixed on the same point in space, forgive me, even if it turns out you were stuffed. My apologies to the felled tree for the table’s four legs. My apologies to great questions for small answers. Truth, please don’t pay me much attention. Dignity, please be magnanimous. Bear with me, O mystery of existence, as I pluck the occasional thread from your train. Soul, don’t take offense that I’ve only got you now and then. My apologies to everything that I can’t be everywhere at once. My apologies to everyone that I can’t be each woman and each man. I know I won’t be justified as long as I live, since I myself stand in my own way. Don’t bear me ill will, speech, that I borrow weighty words, then labor heavily so that they may seem light.

Wisława Szymborska Recommended by @mxrspider

#poetry #under one small star #wislawa szymborska #national poetry month #30 days of poetry #my voice #thank you SO much for introducing me to this poem pascal; it's so beautiful

[gerrydelano]

i get the feeling from the bpd martin meta that you're not a big fan of web!martin (same, btw, that always felt a bit Off to me but you really put that into words) but are there any entities that you feel like he *does* skew towards (besides the lonely, obviously)? every time i relisten to s1 i'm surprised martin wasn't marked more heavily by the corruption, lmao. (also that was an EXELLENT bpd martin meta! cluster b martin my beloved)

you got it! i do not like web!martin not one bit! it could have been so interesting as a concept but then everybody got really weird about it and it leaves a really bad taste in my mouth now. i’m glad to have helped you articulate why it sat wrong with you, too! definitely not alone there. (also, thank you!<3)

i do have thoughts on this, yeah! under the cut once again because you know me by now. short answer: five candidates! eye, corruption, flesh, buried, and the one i’m exploring in PBR :-) you’ll be just as surprised by my favorites as i am.

Once Again i rattled this around in my server because i thrive on collaboration and we already make the hivemind jokes ourselves, but it came up with some fun answers!

01. the eye 

this one is just canon! it’s also criminally underutilized. i don’t actually have many direct thoughts on it right now, but elias was going to make him the next archivist if jon died in the unknowing and that’s why he was reading statements in S3, his domain DOES have that influence on it because of his time at the institute, and really, like. 

he was there longer than jon was by like, two whole years! he soaked in it a little longer, even if he was up in the library, and really? the library? he probably used to read some of those books to pass time, there’s a lot you could potentially explore in terms of his curiosity: it isn’t the same curiosity as the rest of the team.

he’s not curious because he wants to know things but because he wants to get somewhere. little similar to tim in that way, but still different: what really got to tim was the fact that he HAD no information and not having that was what fucked him over. with martin, it’s like.

there’s also his need to be in control and finally see what’s happening instead of having things just passively hit him all the time.

something pascal @mxrspider​ said: 

“he’s less one track mind more. okay. im gonna go through this all pile till something comes up. im gonna listen till i find an anchor to use. but he Does look, in the sense that he wants to have a say over the narrative, he wants to know what it means so he can adjust himself to it and survive it if it's worth the trouble”

and aster @ofdreamsanddoodles​ added: 

“i think part of the reason eye martin is hard to think of is bc i think his lack of supernatural experience kind of like. makes him not as curious as the rest of the archives? he doesnt have the drive to Know bc he grew up learning that his own education was kind of like. second to survival. if he learns something, its because it has a tangible affect on his life which he can put into practice. but him being able to like, figure everything out despite a lack of training shows he IS good at figuring things out, and he's generally pretty perceptive, but yeah, i think the control aspects is more his speed.”

pascal again: 

“he needs to open the door so he wants to know where the key is, even if the search doesnt fuel him the way it does with jon. jon accidentally stumbles and falls into the eye’s power and kinda gets lost into it. martin would use it as a tool i think. for jon it’s like drowning, for martin i think it would be like using a weapon and realising that suddenly it's part of his body”

and one more from aster: 

“also i feel like ppl hear beholding and assume archivist powers?? like i dont think martin would get any pleasure from compelling a statement. & he has an easier time getting ppl to talk so its like. theres no reason for him to have that power unless ur specifically making him archivist—which i think hed do pretty well at! he’d probably try and use his powers like gertrude, but bc he’s not interested in manipulating ppl he’d end up compelling them like jon

i think w martin his powers would be more like... a looking glass ig? something that allows him to see where others are, and what theyre doing, which of course is also very lonely but i think its v eye to like. obsess over what you know abt other ppl. and let that knowledge consume you kind of.”

i think we tend to conceptualize the eye as academia, and we lose a little bit of the potential for exploring people like martin who are street smart. who grew up learning on his feet and accumulating practical knowledge to get through whatever situation he was currently in, so he could get to the next objective. it both contradicts and compliments the depression in his lonely tie, and it created one hell of a funky domain!

lol remember when i said i didn’t have many thoughts on this. Oops!

02. the corruption

you’re right, it makes sense! the same way that melanie would have totally gotten a mark from the stranger (sarah baldwin, leading to the fact she’s the only one who knew sasha had been replaced) i could see an exploration of the corruption mark he could have because of what happened with jane!

the thing is, like... jon and tim got marked by that, too! and it had an impact on them all and their relationships, too! i DO think it played a role in the way jon got in S2, and i think it’s really interesting to explore! it made everyone more toxic in their own ways, and that’s what gave notsasha the opportunity to barge in and make it worse.

there’s a reason that jane’s attack on the institute was the start of their downfall: it planted a seed of pushing each other away, strained attachment, lashing out, and neglecting the root of the issue.

so, why not explore martin’s side of that, too! i could see it being a canon justification for his attitude towards tim because his attachment to jon Skyrocketed in a way that led to him saying something toxic to someone else, i.e., corruptioncore behavior.

comparison time. so, we know that psychosis isn’t Because of the spiral nor is it Equatable to the spiral, but rather people who suffer psychosis are easier for the spiral to prey on because they already have that fear that they can’t trust their own minds.

in the same vein, if you take the borderline HC into account, it would track that someone who already HAD that would be more vulnerable TO the call of the corruption. you know? it would be easier to be tempted by it. especially if it snuck in so slowly that you didn’t notice when it stopped being just how you’ve always thought and became something else.

one of the things TMA does really well is address mental illness in conjunction with the fears without blaming one for the other, because it is a capitalism metaphor at the end of the day and it is only saying how easy it is to be taken advantage of by the system if you have something going on that they can exploit.

so this take on the corruption marks they’d all have from that situation goes painfully well with the fact that they already all read as cluster B’s (in different ways!) and so i’d honestly be down with seeing more talk about that for martin. fics where he has bees seems to be pretty common!

03. the flesh

this one i sort of really love? aster pointed it out, and i can see it.

i want to talk about the flesh and how it speaks to the blue collar working class especially.

“jonny mentioned the garbage ep was originally meant to be the flesh but done clumsily, and im going to be including it as an example in this — a lot of the narratives involve like. working class. jared pre the boneturner's tale not having the smarts or money to go to college. slaughterhouse workers. tiny cheap family restaurants. garbagemen working overtime. gym owners. people retired/living by on social security. and i think there's something to be said abt like.... poverty and the commodification of bodies? like i think ive talked before abt the concept of ‘selling your body’ being just as applicable to the way physical labor or blue collar jobs or long shifts can cause your back or muscles or w/e lasting damage

and i think thats a narrative thats very true to a lot of the flesh like. the body as currency. angela doesn take payment, because its filled via flesh/blood, one way or another. when hector fucks up, the way he pays for it is with his literal body. the ritual for the flesh kinda embodies that too — one way or another theyre using ur body. if you cant push it/do physical labor anymore you get thrown in2 the pit”

things we have seen flesh avatars do: run small businesses, make deals/trades, and will ultimately mind their own business until you piss them off. i don’t think that’s too far off!

it’s about utility, yeah. and there are a lot of aspects of the flesh that i understand why people would be hesitant to explore it! 

but i also know that if the kneejerk reaction to flesh martin would be assuming it’s some weird body thing or to do almost solely with his being fat, that’s like. super shallow and missing a lot of the more existential points that could be made about living for your task, dedicating your entire life to being useful to someone or something, never being enough no matter how much of yourself you give.

and also — why would it be bad to explore how he feels about his body, too? especially given how a lot of the time, it comes down to actually being happy with yourself after a long time OF being told that something might be wrong with you. as a fat person myself i actually do think it’s interesting and it’s possible to explore internalized fatphobia and such without encouraging it, and maybe even deconstruct it.

after checking over this response, aster actually had this to add about flesh!martin that i SUPER agree with, so it’s coming into this, too:

“i think theres really like. a lot that could be said abt how much youre being offered something that may geniunely improve ur life. even in the oregan trail ep, the woman was being tempted bc she needed to eat to SURVIVE, and the man brought them across bc they needed to live somewhere thatd improve their lives. the... i think she was a comedian? ended up somewhere bc she wanted a community of like minded ppl who loved her. there was a lot of like. preaching oneness and understanding i think? which def is something martin, a child abuse survivor, would be interested in”

there is a lot to be said about being tempted by a balm to your hurts. the corruption and the flesh put beside each other are, like, top options to me because of that, but if i had to pick between those, i might go with the flesh! we all sleep on the flesh! and on some of martin’s complexities that would be brought out by approaching him from this angle.

it goes back to the major themes in his arc the most, i think? the blue collar working class bit, usefulness and utility, sacrificing something to improve your situation and how you feel about yourself, all of these things that impact his life on a grander scale than just his emotional state. the corruption definitely tracks in all the ways i said before, but the parts of him that would align there are a smaller part OF the corruption, where i think the flesh encapsulates a lot more of him. if that makes sense? 

also weirdly enough i think he’d be less grossed out by it. but that’s pretty minor.

i can’t believe this one is actually my favorite right now. hello. this actually gave me some ideas for PBR. i’m so glad you send this message, anon.

04. the buried

this one was suggested by pascal! they said: 

“i see buried akin to the lonely in the sense that it means, absence of choice in a sense (if you find release in it). like— a lonely quiet controlled space that you can get good at surviving in. kinda like. if i can breathe through the water, than i dont have to worry about drowning. it's paradoxically, safe. and doesn't let you spiral into painful loud self-awareness or gets you to. stop when it gets too much. again if you choose it willingly”

martin did say he was claustrophobic and that’s why he didn’t look into lost johns’ cave, so tim had to do it, and so that could be a point against him ever aligning with it as opposed to being a fear meal for it, for sure, BUT!

another fun thing to play with re: avatarship is that you do still have to fear the power a little in order to serve it. you have to still fear something. it’d be interesting to see it brought up through that lens, too!

because once again, his poverty comes into play. the buried is also all about debt and responsibility, the buried is the storm that floods your house and leaves you scrambling to repair it, it’s the choice between eating today and putting that money towards something that you can’t even really choose not to address. it’s ignoring your problems until they all pile up on top of you and crush you under their weight.

it’s a lot of the things that martin would have gone through pre-institute! and would make him a really easy fear meal, yeah, definitely.

but i also write gerry as being very afflicted by the buried, to the point where he starts to operate under its logic. to the point of knowing that but not being able to stop. and he and martin have a lot in common when it comes to the responsibilities placed on them by their very demanding, hateful mothers: the difference is that martin convinced himself it was not only necessary, but acceptable.

would love to see exploration of that. 

05. [REDACTED]

haha, you thought i’d tell you what it was? think again<3

you guys know by now that i’m a huge fan of taking fanon and ripping it to shreds while i choose to pick parts of the characters from canon that are underutilized. i love making things make sense. i could write a whole meta on just this decision.

but not yet! martin’s not quite established into his intended role in the story yet (soon) and his arc is a bit away. stay tuned if you want to see it unfold, but feel free to guess where i’m placing him based on how you’ve seen me characterize him in these posts lately!

#martin blackwood #martin #the magnus archives #tma #ronologues #ron is become martin blogger? surprise twist #anon #asks