#my brain just poofs

[taiscerayne2426]

I'm so hyped for the next season of JJK but can I admit I'm a little scared of young Gojo? I honestly hope they don't recast him like some shows do with younger versions of their characters because I can't imagine anyone else voicing him

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #saturo gojo #gojo saturo #jjk season 2 #english dub #gods please dont hate me for watching the dub lmao #i cant process subbed anime #my brain just poofs

[barawrah]

been extra miserable about them this past week

#WHYYYYYY WHY CANT THEY BE HAPPY #mxtx can we talk....lets discuss mxtx listen to me #and its just . banging my head into a wall their whole thing is they never be happy in any life . ever again #because they Die . and thats it poof out of the reincarnation cycle #FUCK YOUUUUU BFLF RUINING MY LIFE #canon im beating you with a stick like a feral animal #ill be sitting minding my own business and my brain will go dream on like shut the fuck upppppppp #bawling my eyes out rn #this is so awful i hate u bflf i hope youre both miserable #no i dont sorry please be happy #ok . ok deep breaths #art tag #tgcf #shi qingxuan #he xuan #beefleaf

[lolgamer2309]

I'm so so so afraid of the brothers rn- one of them will die, i am predicting that it's Icarus. Maybe they have to finally die and not cause a reset to get it to a good pleasant ending. ALSO QUIXIS MY GUY, I CARE SO MUCH AND YOU'RE HURT AND I SOB. But we got Rae snapping , but at what cost-

#I wanna add to this i get so hard tma ending vibes rn- #Idk why but my silly brain decided to just poof this thought in existence #Istg if Rae has to kill icarus in some sort of way so it all ends #This is why i got the vibes yk #fable smp #icarus morningstar #rae morningstar #I am speed chat-

[sytoran]

if you ever feel like your procrastination, just remember that i started the milf!nat x mechanic!reader fic in FEBRUARY and i haven't completed it yet

#sytoran speaks #sytoran's kinktober 2023 #im trying so hard to write it i swear #but my brain just goes poof whenever i open the google docs

[famewolf]

speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling

#[static] #it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism #some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under #i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever #it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others #and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing #like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks #every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like #one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways #something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out #i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery #poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop #never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on #so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly #and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again #its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much #im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel

[silenthillmutual]

my buddy @doomednarrative tagged me in a fic writer's ask game so ^_^ let's do this!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

on my current account i have 154. being unemployed and hypomanic during lockdown will do that to you.

2. What is your AO3 wordcount?

895,907. i can't tell if that's a normal distribution for my fic count or not.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

at the moment: silent hill, bloodborne, and pathologic. most of what i have up there is for pathologic. i've got other fandoms up there though.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

eight, thirty-one - 1899 kudos (danganronpa)

to quote mika, age 35, of beirut, lebanon: "where have all the good (gay) guys gone?" - 1066 kudos (danganronpa)

(they long to be) close to you - 1021 kudos (mob psycho 100)

all jotaro wants for christmas is kakyoin (and he screws that up) - 810 kudos (jojo's bizarre adventure)

anticlimax - 796 kudos (danganronpa)

5. Do you respond to comments?

i've responded to most comments i've gotten, though it's always months late because i tend to read the e-mail first thing in the morning, head to work, and completely forget to respond. responding feels more personal. i know i'd be more likely to comment on someone's fics if i knew they appreciated it, so i try to make the effort, even if i struggle to know what to say.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

god this is old as hell but probably life in technicolor/the end of all things. they're life is strange style aus for one punch man and genos dies at the end of one of them, and at the end of the other the city is destroyed. the fics are connected, but i won't say how.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

so tired, so tired, my heart and i (pathologic) is probably the sappiest i've ever written a fic so i'm guessing that one!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

occasionally. i got transmisogynist hate for when you finally get inovlved, face to face for writing chihiro as a trans girl, and it made me stop writing for danganronpa altogether. i got a guest user on some burakhovsky nsfw i posted (idr which one) who said "jesus christ, tag your trans shit". and someone who went off on me years ago called vita in motu (pathologic) "borderline mpreg" and they very much meant it derogatorily. so if i seem a lil paranoid about interacting w people there's a reason why lol.

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

i do! i actually write more smut than i post because i am not showing everyone my oc/canon smut. like some friends will be able to see it but i'm not brave enough to show the whole world that. also a lot of au smut recently that has no context and i'm not posting it to ao3 without context.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

i did moreso in the past than currently. we're not gonna talk about the craziest one though<3 love and light

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nah. i've had people write fic very inspired by stuff i've written but not copy-and-paste stolen, to my knowledge

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

people have asked but as far as i know it never happened. always thought it would be cool!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes!! w my buddy dj :) also published rps in the past that i shaped up into fics.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

mulder/scully is The Ship Of All Time to me. the blueprint.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh there's a few!!

a rebel without a case rewrite that i started because i wanted to fix what i saw as timing issues in the film.

an akira/mob psycho 100... crossover? au? both? i had some real ideas for that one but it's not going anywhere

a silent hill au for mob psycho 100 that apprently someone was interested in enough to try and make their own while referencing mine. it was an audience participation fic and i'm honestly upset that i lost steam on this one because it was a lot of fun!

a magnus archives statement from artemy burakh. the idea behind that one was that he saw daniil die, and then be replaced by another actor... but artemy's the only one who noticed the different actor.

literally dozens of pathologic fics that i have started like you have no idea just how much i have started for that stupid game.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'm not sure! my partner says i do vagueness well, and the unease that comes with that. i think i do decent at introspection in general

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action for sure. i tend to do better with thought than with action, so i can write really long scenes where absolutely nothing hapens. kind of an issue!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i don't really do it because i only know like...extremely basic german and i feel it'd be a disservice to other languages to just google translate. i will occasionally describe characters using sign, but again... not knowing it, i don't feel comfortable just saying shit, you know?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i wrote something like fanfic as a like, eight year old? for a book series i can no longer remember. but for first published fanfic it was either bones or soul eater. those fics might still be out there, who knows!

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

i don't really have one! i'm still really proud of o tempora, o mores (pathologic), vita in motu (pathologic), and my mind has changed my body's frame (bloodborne) <- less sure of that one bc not much feedback but y'know!

who shall i tag.... @stvlti, @brodyliciousbooty, @loudmound, @go-go-devil, @shogoakuji and anyone else who writes, consider yourself tagged :P !

#icarus.txt #ominous fic talk #if you write and i missed you in my tag it is NOT on p urpose i promise #my brain just. poofed out of existence.

[normalcomu]

Goofy ahh hydra 💀💀💀 (i’m super late for new years)

#myart #my art #arknights #ling #nian #dusk #ling (arknights) #nian (arknights) #dusk (arknights) #tw: blue woman #<my ling tag #sui dragons make my brain go *poof* #it just shuts down

[puppycharmz]

spy is so sus. sus as fuck .

#art #my art #tf2 #team fortress 2 #spy #spy tf2 #sorry for like. tf2 spamming #my brain is so diead right now and its all i can think of. but now im not able to draw #its just. poof empty head

[ddarker-dreams]

howdy partners i’m back from my vacation in west virginia. i learned i cannot start a fire and that country music inflicts psychic damage on me. i also got a shiny yungoos in pokémon violet. it’s useless but the rush of finding a shiny is unlike any other.

in the meantime i see there is a new hxh chapter AND new scaramouche content… so much to scream about… i’ll get to responding to asks and such soon, i hope everyone has had a good past week!!!! 💖

#im also working on a new scara fic but i kinda forgot how to write #just a few days of not writing made the ability poof from my brain #lock.txt

[vulpinesaint]

i am going to become the spike btvs poster of all time. this is me almost seven years after watching buffy + angel with limited exposure since... imagine what i will be like when i actually start watching the show again

#GOD. I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED REWATCHING THE SHOW YET #my blog is terrible for anyone who doesn't care about spike btvs now but trust that my brain is also unusable right now #it's like. genuinely disruptive dkfjgshd #i keep thinking + posting about spike and then i look up and my hours are Gone. i have to go to Sleep and all my time goes poof #rip aro crowley fic i'll get back to you baby i just have to stop having Spike Moments that take all my time from me #anyway. anyone else up thinking about spike calling angel gay slurs on the reg #valentine notes #spike btvs

[dragonanon]

Me: *Trying to go about my day like a normal person *

My brain: “What if we made a TADC OC that’s basically a slime monster girl, but she’s based on the kind of toy slime that has a bunch of cutesy objects in it?? And when she was a human she was a highly skilled and respected Intensivist working at an ICU?? And as a doctor, she was known for being gentle and compassionate to all her patients, and she treasured the staff members working under he?? And she saw all her staff as members of her family, and was fiercely protective of them?? But also while she always appeared extremely confident and well put together, deep inside she struggled daily with a massive inferiority complex and imposter syndrome?? Because she never believed she deserved any of the praise she received despite her work, and constantly felt the need to prove herself by going above and beyond in her work?? And all the plays into why she’s a slime girl now, because even though she always appeared as strong and confident in the surface, inside she’s soft and anxious??

And while she doesn’t remember her life prior to entering the Digital World, during times of crisis or when someone’s injured or at high risk of abstracting, suddenly doctor mode activates?? She quite literally pulls herself together and becomes completely solid like plastic, and gives off a strong aura of confidence and authority?? Thoughts, terminology, and emotions that are foreign yet seem SO familiar surge through her, and without really thinking about it she talking and acting just like she did as an ICU doctor; leading her to quickly take control of the situation with firm confidence before gently tending to the injured/abstracting individual. She doesn’t understand how she knows any of what she’s saying as she gently tends to, and or talks the individual back down from the edge, but it feels so natural to her! It’s like she was MADE to do this, and had actually done it many times before despite having no recollection of doing anything like this previously?? And as she slowly helps the individual ground themselves in reality once more, she’s still maintaining a perfect composure during the whole ordeal, not once showing just how afraid she really was and instead just remaining laser focused on helping the “patient” in front of her??

And it’s only when her “patient” has finally stabilized somewhat that she finally notices everyone staring at her in awe, and then she starts barking orders to everyone to get the “patient” back to their room so they can be admitted into the hospital for surveillance, and that she wants a full blood panel and PHQ-9 assessment completed while she fills out an incident report for the hospital’s records. And everyone is so taken aback/still in shock that they just kinda go along with it because she sounds so sure of herself no one knows how to argue otherwise.

It’s only when someone breaks out of their stupor enough to ask her how she did all that/what the heck happened that she snaps out of it, and she softens into her goopy self again as she tries to clumsily explain she has no clue what happened but was just overwhelmed by these sudden thoughts and emotions, and despite not knowing where any of it was coming from it felt like she just instinctively knew what to do and how to do it.

Someone points out to her that she looked and sounded just like a doctor back there, and that maybe that’s who she was prior to entering the Digital Circus. She doesn’t believe it, insisting that there’s no way someone like her could be a doctor, but everyone insists that she absolutely could be and that what she did was incredible?? And now she’s kinda the unofficial doctor of the circus despite still not believing she was, or could ever be, a doctor??”

Me: *Sitting on the couch letting my brain hyperfixate* 👁️👄👁️

#this…this ended up being WAY longer than i intended #but my brain has literally been CONSUMED by this idea #that trope of ‘amnesiac somehow instinctively knows how to do the the thing because they did it previously’ is a fav of mine #she might not remember her old life but the caregiver instincts and knowledge is still very much ingrained into her #and it comes out full force when someone is in need of medical attention #she orders caine to go prepare a hospital bed and he’s like ‘yes ma’am!’ before taking off to do that #he makes it 2/3s down the hall before realizing what just happened and poofing back #in his defense she was so confident and authoritative his coding went ‘ah a doctor. you should always listen to medical professional.’ #shitpost #tadc #long post #the amazing digital circus #tadc oc #haven’t quite figured out a name for her yet #but i’m tryna name her in a way that would allow the nickname ‘squish’ to be acceptable #because squish as a nickname for a slime lady makes me laugh

[itsyourstarboy]

I wanna bite a chunk out of my own hand

#im angery >:( #cause i cant listen to the final bw episode >:( #and i cant listen to guys latest audio >:( #and its still light outside >:( #and i dont have a bed to sleep on >:( #im on the fckinh couch >:( #and im tired >:( #and i was trying to write >:( #and i was doing good >:( #but i got distracted >:( #and then my brain went poof >:( #and now i just want to NOM on something >:( #and ITS ABOUT TO BE MYSELF >:((((

[snailsweater]

The hedgehogs were a lesson from Kan for Vegas.

Look, Kan, the guy who literally beats his kids, would NEVER give Vegas, who he doesn't even really recognize as a son, anything just to do something good for him. Vegas didn't have a job with the hedgehogs. Unlike dogs, he can't train them to attack or anything like that. Hedgehogs serve no purpose for the mafia.

So why did Kan give Vegas the hedgehogs?

Sadly, it is easy to tell:

To make him realize in the most brutal way that Vegas will always be alone.

Imagine: Vegas, who has watched his animals die all these years. He was forced to remain cold every time. No emotion to show. No attachment.

By Kan giving him the hedgehogs, in his own sick way, he was pretending to Vegas that he was giving his son something to be with, to take care of (why Kinn and Vegas are both just the greatest caretakers I'll explain another time). He has thus given Vegas something that doesn't see him as a mafia, in front of whom he doesn't have to be strong or meet expectations. But Hedgehogs have an incredibly short lifespan. And Kan knew that every goddamn time.

He's given Vegas something to bind himself to, only to have it snatched from him again and again. Vegas is someone who, deep down, is just looking for someone to be with him. He is desperately reaching out for something to hold onto. He had no choice but to develop an attachment to the hedgehogs. But they die. Vegas watches them all die. Kan gives him new ones each time, to further inculcate in him the lesson that he should never have feelings or attachment for anything against. That everything he loves will end up dead.

But then now the beautiful question arises: What if he finds out that Vegas has attached himself to something that can't be killed so quickly?

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #kan #vegas theerapanyakul #vegas hedgehog #hedgehog meta #my brain says poof #its all just my thoughts about it i can be wrong #still hating Kan tho

[dutybcrne]

Need smth to heal the soul

Now imagining Adelinde still squooshing Diluc’s face in her hands, bc no matter how old and rough’s tough that man may get, he is still her baby. Her dearest son boy. Her sweet little angel (forget that he has Murdered)

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Can you imagine that first time seeing each other in 4yrs? #//Her near frozen in shock as he steps to her; eyes downcast in shame and awkwardness #//Trying to find the words to say; things he practiced in his way there; all gone Poof the instant he heard her gasp & saw her face #//Still as he senses her suddenly approach; then just MELTS the instant her hands cup his face; the FIRST gentle touch he’s felt in YEARS #//prolly tears up and starts sobbing before she does; practically collapsing into her arms and holding her so tightly #//So tight; as if he’s scared if he lets her go; she’ll disappear #//Her holding him just as tightly; thanking him for coming home; thanking the Archons for bringing him home safely #//Abt how much she missed him; how HAPPY she is to see him; making him silently swear to NEVER break her heart like that again #//Idk little thinkings as I try to scoop up the putty my brain turned into & attempt to cobble together replies #//bfbfbbd #//That is her SON #//I sometimes forget I have Addie as a muse Jdbfbf #//I should prolly put her in the list; actually-

[icewindandboringhorror]

Various images of things

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1. PIBBINS.... cheering clapping hooting hollering glorious applause everytime I see a pigeon in public #2. Birthday card that I drew for someone. .. kittys... #3. 2023's annual haul of tiny white pumpkins.. i get at least one white pumpkin every year around fall when they have pumpkins in stores #because I just love the color and texture ... bright white and smooth and cold and round.. kind of like a volleyball or something #4. A brief adventure into watching big brother (only earlier seasons of course as I hate all reality shows post like 2013 or something when #they became overly focused on social media and overproduced memeable phrases more.. like even though ALL reality shows have always #been extremely fake and annoying and mindless it's like..... newer stuff seems A Different Kind Of Fake or something) since whenever #I'm sick sometimes I find weird mindless things like that to watch (that one time I had bronchitis I watched all of Flavor of Love in my #half awake illness stupor and now everytime I heat up canned minestrone soup (mostly all I ate that week) I think of flavor flav since #thats just a weird brain connection I have now lol) ANYWAY.. I was sick and watched like 2 seasons of this and then thought it was too #uninteresting and obnoxious to continue (more like 1 and a half since I skipped the rest of one once only boring people were left) BUT this #one guy had a very mischevious looking face and he also said a few things (like the above captioned speech) that sounded like dialogue #some fantasy character would say.. so I took a screencap of him and edited him into a mischevious wizard i guess.?? idk I was sick lol #~your little friend has a poisoned tongue~ is just a very unexpectedly serious sounding wording for some random normal #frat dude looking guy to say while casually chatting on a reality tv show in like 2008 or whenever that was filmed lol #5. FLUFFY CLOVERS!! I'd never seen them be furry and soft before?? inchresting.. #6. Noodle sitting in bed with the cat figurines looming above him... the council of kittys... #7. McDonald's full breakfast platter + asparagus + strawberries & cream (also of course this is old and I am now boycotting mcdonalds etc) #i try to group the images somewhat consistently like.. winter stuff with winter stuff or summer stuff with summer stuff #but I have so many random pictrues floating around on my computer that I never post that sometimes some are not organized or just #thrown into a set because there's nowhere else for them. Like the pigeon picture is from like 3 years ago for example lol #8 & 9 - I think I've posted these before but I just find them very interesting looking flowers. whenever they happen to be blooming #I'll pick up a few when I'm out on walks or etc. ... poof ball looking things #photo diary

[vxidlight]

@poeticphoenix liked for a starter from the ninth Doctor.

The Doctor grabbed his leather jacket from over a pillar and pulled it on as he left the TARDIS to find out where exactly he had landed. The TARDIS was defunct -- she wouldn't be moving any time soon. He'd find a way to get her working again - he was sure of it. Closing the TARDIS doors, the Doctor turned to examine the world around him.

It was not his home that was one thing he knew for certain. It looked wrong. It smelled wrong. It felt wrong. The Doctor could feel it on his skin. It was like the world vibrated differently. He knew he shouldn't be here.

He walked until he found a town. A little snooping to find out where he was wouldn't hurt.

#poeticphoenix #( nine ); #( poeticphoenix: genesis ); #( sorry this is a little short. My brain just when POOF! );