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shootingstarrfish · 3 months

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Omg hiii I looove oversharing about my blorbos 😋

Anyway Simeon is my favorite guy ever and has been since the beginning I'm completely obsessed with him bc he's literally perfect tell my WHY on gods green earth he's always getting swept under the rug. Why does this man never get any attention and when he does why is he mischaracterized. He's got it all. He's tall and handsome in kind of an ethereal effeminate way, he's sweet and kind but not a pushover, he's one of the most tragic characters in the game, he's the perfect muse for a religious trauma arc, a corruption arc, a "the calm collected one who's always having a good time finally snaps and goes apeshit" arc, I mean come on. Come on. Every time I remember that his main sin is wrath despite him being SO chill and gentle on the outside I want to giggle a little bit. My beautiful princess with identity issues and slutty waist I'm so sorry everyone ignores you

Solomon though. I don't remember how I felt about him at first (other than lots of gender envy) but he wasn't a favorite until I came back to the fandom after being absent for ages. Like damn this man is everything. He's so complicated /pos that I cant even articulate why I love him so much but he's so well written (maybe one of the only ones who are written halfway decently) and SO tragic. The way he's so desperately in love with the mc and is forced to watch them go for literally anyone else but would still do anything for them and ask for nothing but a little bit of loyalty in return is scrumptious. Also the way immortality just kinda fucks you up after a while when you're only human. I've been very tempted to put him in a poly ship with my mc and Simeon bc he deserves it but for now he just has to watch from afar as the man he loves endlessly makes out with his best friend that he also kinda sorta has a little crush on bc making the gays suffer brings me copious amounts of joy. He's also the "always totally calm and collected no matter what but actually has really strong feelings that he works to keep in check" type like Simeon and I love that for him. One of the fics I'm reading has him once become so panicked over the MC's wellbeing that he completely loses his composure. Yelling, trembling, the whole nine yards and it was fucking glorious, I love seeing characters like him break.

Also I have to talk a little about Lucifer. He's not generally a favorite but I just think it's funny how I went from hating his guts bc I thought he was an asshole to to liking him a lot bc I have a weak spot for big brother characters. He loves his family so so so much and just has trouble showing it properly!! He's still an asshole and an uptight prick but I like that about him now. My mc had the same development with him as I did, he went from "I hate this motherfucker I wanna kill him also he kinda scares me" to "this is my big brother we are holding hands :)" in the span of like a year and a half and it's really funny. Lucifer thought he was finally getting a sensible housemate and friend but ended up getting another insufferable, headache indicung little brother figure instead. Also I kinda have a non canon ship between him and my MC's father bc the idea is SO funny but also a little cute bc they compliment each other real well. My mc would become homophobic so fast if he found out and thinking about it is incredibly entertaining

thank u for oversharing teehee <333

the side characters are sooo fun and interesting i wish so badly that theyd get to be ever so slightly less on the side :,D

the dynamic between your mc and simeon and solomon PAIN UGH i love it.. <333 my heart hurts for solo but the yearning.... MMM

and absolutely felt about lucifer, i wish i could hate him and leave it at that but he makes it so hard. i have such a complicated relationship with this man but i cant bring myself to genuinely hate him hahaha

#ask box #obey me simeon #obey me solomon #obey me

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grokebaby · 5 days

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HI !!!!! APPEARS IN YOUR INBOX <3 can we hear a little about Nan my beloved old lady Nan... what was her past like (especially before Mr V) ? How's she currently doing ? What's one random fact about her that you like ? And can we give her gifts because if we cnan I have. 🪻🌷⚘️🌹🌺🏵🌼🌻 flowa for her <333

HAIII!!! There is an appearance in my askbox hello!! :)

Belobed old ladyyyy wouuggh

I don't have all the details figured out but I'm thinking she worked a few odd jobs diligently around the village to get her own place and find her own life once she finally flew out of the nest (which took her a while - not that that's unusual, adults may very well carry on in their childhood homes, but she wanted to get out finally). Again, [waves hand for important details] but if her brother Fen had anything going on she likely worked for or with him, they probably helped each other out as much as they could since their father was pretty much a ghost in their lives at this point.

[Nan has two siblings - brother Fen is the one that's still around. He's doing quite well for himself! He's fully integrated into the village and has a huge family with two ish partners.] [Siru babysits Fens grandchicks often!]

Nan has grown rather distant to her brother by this point - not out of bad reasons though, it's just what happens when you both grow up and start families and move around and all such. Their relationship definitely suffered during the.... Ehem. Mr V incident, but hey they've recovered alright! Fen has tried his best to help Nan since, but ykno. There's just this kind of silence between them. It's the feeling of sharing such deep and intimate history with alot of sore spots and knowing you could talk about it all together and become closer again but. Where's the time for that? Where would you start? And when? And why? You both know all those things already. You grew up together. When are you returning that tray I brought meat pie in, by the way? My partner in law's eldest wants it for a baking project. Ykno. As it goes.

Nan's other sibling, the absent one, has always been a.... We don't talk about Bruno situation let's say. But she's called Kulkuri ("Wanderer" 🇫🇮), not by her account, FYI.

But yeah let's just say Nan and Fen grew up fairly isolated and certainly not well off, so it's understandable they'd always sought stability in their lives and future partners (that's what attracted Nan to Mr Varpunen initially).

My favorite fact about her is most likely her pinecone cow hobby it's. Sooo silly I love her for that. It's such a unique way to artistically express yourself and it feels like an Old people hobby but it just fits her so perfectly. Mwa<3

And why, of course! An old bird rarely gets flowers..

[Oh my goodness] [Ouh] [Thank you] [So sweet]

As a bonus, a little working drawing of brother Fen, because I really wanted to include him too but. I'm struggling wit his design still

I haven't added all the black markings yet!!!!! But here :)

#Ask #Nan #My ocs #Help me I restarted this like five times. The vibes didn't feel right.#Trying to force myself to not overshare #BUT YES TANK YOU AHHH SO SWEET!!!

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ushidoux · 3 years

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Be My Last - Iwaizumi x Reader (Pt. 5)

Summary: You have trouble getting over a past relationship and it’s preventing you from moving forward. (~1.6 words)

Warnings: angst, mention of kid and implied marriage.

A/N: We’re at the end here! I hope you’re okay with the way this ended, and if not... *shrug* LOLLLL, we can talk about it. Thanks for reading up to now!! <333 See you in my next fic!!

Part 1|| Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 || Part 5

Iwaizumi returned late that evening to realize that you were nowhere to be found.

It shouldn’t have been this alarming for him to not see you hanging upside down off the edge of the couch watching tv, futzing around in the kitchen, maybe staring out off the small balcony or snuggled up under the covers.

But you were absent, and on top of everything, the sight of a dark home proved to be too much for him to handle. Moreover, the home hadn’t always really been his, had it? It was yours and Ushijima’s far before he’d even come into the picture.

He had just been filling a space, just as he’d promised you.

He checked his phone only to be further defeated by the lack of a text message to let him know you were going out. You always let him know.

Iwaizumi turned on his heels and went back to his car. The roads were clearer now and he needed to drive. He needed to go, somewhere. It didn’t matter where to.

Years pass.

“Hot cocoa, please!”

Your daughter collapsed in your arms as she made this request, having run in your direction from the opposite side of the sitting room. She grinned widely, her brownish-green eyes seeming to sparkle despite the low light of the room. She is truly the happiest child, you thought for a moment, smiling as you mussed her hair affectionately.

“Okay, baby, we can get some,” you agreed, pulling her close for a kiss on the forehead, because how could you say no to that pure joy on her face?

“Did you have fun with your new friends?” You asked, rising.

You’d been watching her for a while now, seated in an overstuffed armchair by a roaring fire, thankful to be insulated from the frigid winter weather (turned out the cold of Eastern Europe was an entirely different type of cold than you were used to). It was a pleasure to see her discharge energy, bouncing around the other little kids at the ski lodge resort you’d been residing at since this past weekend.

She nodded. “That’s why I’m gonna drink it really fast so we can play some more!”

You chuckled, and held her little hand tightly. At least someone was having fun.

You on the other hand had decided you hated skiing with a passion six hours into the vacation after spilling spectacularly more than enough times on one of the beginner slopes. Not wanting to ruin your husband’s fun, you’d convinced him to let you stay behind with your four-year-old so that she could socialize, you could have a break, and he could try one of the more exciting slopes.

Everyone won.

Well, sorta. He’d pouted as he set out on his own, and now you felt a little bad. Maybe you’d try again the next morning for him after you left your little one at a kids’ event.

“Is Daddy coming back soon?”

Your little princess’ legs swung excitedly as she sipped her hot cocoa with far too many marshmallows, just after you’d blown at it a little to make sure she didn’t burn herself.

“Daddy will join us soon,” you assured her, your own hands warm with a cup of tea.

---

“I’m sorry.”

Before you is a glass of water with too much lemon. You’re seated at a diner, the very diner where you’d first confessed your feelings for him, and he’s speaking to you but you barely hear him - all you hear is the rushing of blood in your temples.

Why now? What do you do with sorry after all this time?

Wakatoshi sees your expression and cracks a weary smile.

“I shouldn’t say that, should I? It’s too little, too late.”

He’s right but you don’t answer.

It’s weird to see him after all these years, seated just across from you as though you were on a date as usual. You can imagine a heaping stack of pancakes between you, covered in too much fruit and too much syrup and him chastising you before you force a berry into his mouth. You can imagine laughter. You can imagine gentle touches, kisses, hugs. You can imagine the words ‘I love you.’

Is that what he’s sorry for?

“To-... Wakatoshi, why did you message me?” You don’t mean to sound curt, but if you speak longer you feel as though your voice will give out.

He winces almost imperceptibly at the use of his full name. But he’s always been steadier than you, emotion-wise. At least you think so.

“I wish it had been different.”

“So do I,” you say, quickly before thinking. But you don’t really, do you?

There’s a man who loves you, possibly more than he loves himself, than he loves anything in the world. And if it weren’t for this, for Ushijima ‘releasing’ you, no matter how harshly, you wouldn’t have had the experience to be loved by him.

“I was wrong.”

He was. He was absolutely wrong. But what’s wrong and what’s right no longer matters. What matters is what is.

He pauses and sighs. You can see his hands now grip the end of the table as though to keep steady.

“Thank you for coming.”

There is another pause, one that is suddenly too great for you to handle, where you want to sigh but instead you draw in a double breath.

You’re embarrassed because you do not intend to cry. Not after all this. Not in front of him.

“You didn’t love me enough to compromise,” you end up sputtering out.

Your tears aren’t falling yet but your eyes swim and you blink them back furiously. “Why all this? Why now?”

He blinks once and you can see his fingers tighten around the edge of the booth, knuckles white.

“I was stupid then. I’m different now.”

The fact that his eyes are so sincere makes your heart wrench. You know that he doesn’t lie, he’s never felt a need to.

It’s a response that infuriates you but your anger is cool rather than hot and it’s diffuse, deafening and directionless. There’s no one to be mad at except the very fabric of time.

What do I do with this? What can I do?

Your heart settles, and you measure your next words carefully.

---

“Daddy!”

Your daughter’s eyes widened immediately as she saw him approach behind you, and in mere seconds, she jumped out of her chair to embrace her father, nearly knocking over her hot cocoa in the process. You managed to salvage it to your credit, and you turned in your chair to flash a teasing grin.

“How were the slopes?”

---

“There was once a time where I would have followed you anywhere if you asked me to. Maybe it was unhealthy, maybe it was naïve, but I truly loved you to that extent. I would have left everything behind if you asked.”

The solemn look he sports on his face, so stoic as a defense mechanism that it seems almost caricature-like, only confirms that he knew. He knew that every word you said was true, and yet...

“I thought it was the best decision at the time. I didn’t want to hurt you anymore.”

Maybe he was right. That sort of reckless love, especially when not reciprocated in earnest could only result in pain.

His intentions were good. They were good. That’s what matters.

He had a reason.

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Hajime frowned at you, which in turn made his little princess, now perched on his hip frown as well.

“Your mother’s not being very nice, now is she?” He murmured, as he approached, now settling her back in the chair across from you. “She didn’t even want to ski with me!”

His arms crossed over his chest as he stood beside you now, a pretend-grumpy look on his face.

Your four year-old gasped. “What?! Mommy’s mean? Are you a bully?”

“Hey!” You nudged Iwa in the ribs. “Don’t make me out to be the bad guy! I’m coming with you tomorrow!”

To this, your husband’s eyes lit up, and he wrapped his arms around your shoulders, resting his chin on your head.

“You’d do that for me, my clumsy little penguin?” He whispered, just low enough that your little girl, who had now contented herself back to drinking her hot cocoa couldn’t hear.

Your eyebrows furrowed.

“If you keep making fun of me, you’ll be on your own again, and possibly so for the rest of this vacation,” you grumbled back, but he laughed in earnest to your threat, pressing a quick kiss on your cheek before dragging the nearest chair towards your table to complete your circle.

“So what do my favorite girls want for dinner?”

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When Ushijima’s hands finally relax, and he places them clasped together on the table, you find yourself reaching for them. It’s no longer a natural, intrinsic movement of the arm and hand, the way it was years ago when you always yearned for physical contact. It’s now measured and intentional.

You squeeze his hands and they feel different. They’re larger, colder, rougher than Iwa’s are. It’s not a bad thing; just not the same. You can imagine that intertwining your fingers with his would feel imperfect, maybe even wrong.

You’ve changed. And he’s changed.

“Wakatoshi…”

You pause, and your hands linger.

It’s hard to look in his eyes when you say this, but you do anyway. Their eyes are almost the same color, but Iwa’s are greener. An old idiom comes to mind and you banish it from your mind.

“You will always be my first love, but Hajime will be my last one.”

#iwaizumi x reader #iwaizumi hajime x reader #iwa x reader #ushijima x reader #ushijima wakatoshi x reader #tw angst #tw breakup #series: be my last #mae.writing

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staggeringsmite · 4 years

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im living for your takes so: lapin, amethar, ruby, jet, liam

ahhhhHHH, again disclaimer i love all these guys so much

5. jet, i really really loved jet, her story just got cut right as i was beginning to become truly invested in her transition from “please don’t give me the throne” to “actually i could use this power to dismantle wrong systems with my sister at my side” i genuinely believe that if she had lived she would be at the top of my list, but the tragic unresolved notion of finally wanting to be queen i cant Handle it. it makes the show Very good, but as i said i had just started to really get on with the transformation and growth of the character before she died.

4. amethar, dad i absolutely love you. he has lost so much and been so absent and just been trying his hardest, and lou absolutely guts me every single week with his acting. his absolute shift from being prepared to die at every turn to wanting to live for ruby and saccharina is exactly what i wanted for his character, but at the same time there is a cruel part of me who knows that he was not intended to live this far into the series and is so curious about what would have happened had brennan succeeded. it is built into the character for him to die and yet live on, so the idea of besting amethar the unfallen is,,weirdly appealing for this brutal setting. i am so glad to watch his journey thus far and definitely want him to live now because of what did happen but at the same time live in a realm of what-ifs according to brennan’s original expectations for killing the king.

3. liam, oh my god i love liam so so much, the reason he’s low is just that,,i don’t really see where his character goes from here. i absolutely want him to beat the shirt out of the carrot and take his absolute revenge, but i feel as though his growth as a character capped kind of early? it makes complete sense!! losing your only friend and turning into peppermint batman is super freaking cool!! playing mind games with church members before icing them is fucking terrifying! it just seems as though he is set up for a rather unsatisfying end if he doesn’t find another familiar or something to live for beyond revenge (promise i’m not gonna get on a “revenge is not the answer rant” i wanna see some absolute revenge in here). i guess i’m mostly just doubtful that we will see a super satisfying end for liam, and that makes me sad because he was my favorite character at the start! i love his arc now too, but yeah!

2. lapin, oh lapin, my heart aches for the timeline where he lived to the sugar plum fairy fight. he was such an intriguing character who, unlike jet, captivated me from the start with wondering how his growth would play out. the intrigue, what he would have done with the sugar plum fairy/magic plot especially if the party still met saccharina i’m just, fully loved this character and his death for the first permanent character death of d20. as upsetting as it was, with the realizations about the bulb in his final moments. truly and incredible character, and i am so glad we got to meet cumulous, but similar to amethar just that i was more invested about where he was going to go and live in the what-if chamber for him

1. ruby, ruby!! ruby fucking rocks!! if i see one more person call ruby rocks a brat for the saccharina stuff i am actually going to scream but enough about that. ruby has been through so much and parallels her father so exceptionally well. she is the character i am most excited to see how her arc pans out, and i think part of why she is my favorite is because of the fact that there are so many different routes her character could take. she is bitter and lonely and grief-stricken and so so angry that the shadows bend around her. she is truly a wild card to me, so young and inexperienced, but so absolutely traumatized and just screwed over by the universe just when everything seemed to be going to plan for her. to think that a month ago in her life she dreamed of running away to the circus and is standing in the ruins of everything she ever loved is astounding and crushing, and i want so badly for her to destroy everything in her path. it’s what she deserves. <333

put five things in my inbox and i will rank them!

#ask #nonbinarywithaknife #i love ruby rocks with my whole entire heart and i am not afraid to admit it #thank you!!#<33333

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rivetgoth · 6 years

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Who do you think Pavi’s favorite sibling is? I like your content by the way!

Ty anon!!!!!!!!

That’s a good question, and I think it’s kinda difficult to give a straightforward answer because his relationship to Luigi and his relationship to Amber are way way way different. I don’t know if between Amber and Luigi Pavi has a “favorite” sibling, since his relationship to both are so unique…

BUT I think that if you asked Pavi… he would say Amber. Ogre has talked about this a lot, but Pavi apparently really envies Amber and wants to be her: Speaking as Pavi, he said, “If I’m looking at myself, I really want to be like my sister ultimately.” This is of course backed up super strongly in the film itself when Pavi wins the auction for Amber’s face and wears it lol. I think Pavi’s perception of identity is really fucked up, something pretty obviously seen by the way he hides his real face behind a woman’s skinned face and the way he hides his real voice behind a fake accent; Ogre has spoken about how he’s really deeply insecure and a huge coward under his multiple layers of masks (emotionally and physically). All three of the Largo children have a whole bunch of layers of issues that they deal with in separate individual ways, and I think Pavi has a real difficult time with coming to terms with who and what he is and gravitates really strongly to femininity as this state of perfect (and unattainable) beauty and thus envies his sister because she’s the most direct projection of that in his life. I think it comes from his desperate desire to be loved, although I don’t know why exactly he gravitates towards femininity the way he does, it could have to do with him misinterpreting the way women are sexualized as something desirable (ie. “men want to fuck women so I wish I was more like a woman so men wanted to fuck me!”), or something to do with his absent mother or… who the fuck knows really, we don’t know the Largo siblings well enough to say for sure, but whatever happened, it all comes out as Pavi really envious of Amber and just completely adoring her. So in that sense, Amber is his favorite sibling, since I don’t think he’d ever in a million years want to “be” Luigi or be blatantly obsessed with him like he is Amber(’s face).

That being said, I also think Amber seems to intentionally distance herself from her family, what with changing her name and appearance, spending so much time on the streets, and just disappearing from scenes like Mark It Up and Night Surgeon once things get intense. That coupled with the fact that she ends up actually getting GeneCo in the end (implying also that she managed to convince her brothers to give her that authority position) makes me think that she’s… really on a level above Pavi and Luigi and it’s hard to talk about their relationship to her since we don’t really know much about it. I think Pavi adores her in a weird projection-type way, but I don’t know how well they really interact, the only direct interaction we really get between Pavi and Amber is his “Sister, please!” which is really tame, and him admiring her face all creepily in the end which just ties back to what I was saying before about his admiration of her and nothing much deeper I think.

However, Pav and Luigi’s relationship is really… really interesting to me, because we see a lot more of it, but at the same time I feel like there’s a side to it we don’t see much of, which is like… To put it simply I don’t think they fight 24/7; I think they always had a strained relationship because of their many… issues and how poorly they… “cope” with those issues, and Rotti’s declining health and the awareness that GeneCo will soon be passed on to a new heir heightened that tension so by the time we see them in the movie they’re just bickering nonstop. But you see moments like the beginning of Night Surgeon, when they exchange their little knowing amused glance, which I feel establishes a connection deeper than “petty fighting 24/7 365 every single day of their entire life.” There’s also the fact that despite Luigi being entirely willing to stab almost anyone, Pavi remains unscathed regardless of how much of a nuisance he is. Luigi will lash out, but he never so much as breaks Pavi’s skin, and the majority of their bickering… just remains bickering. Luigi chokes Pavi once after Pavi throws underwear in his face, and they start fighting during the Genetic Opera but that’s at one of the most intense moments in the entire movie… they mostly they just yell at each other or do stupid shit like sprinkle fake snow on the other to annoy him. On top of that, I… I think Pavi kind of looks up to Luigi but won’t admit it, with my reasoning being simply that Luigi is the older sibling — Pavi is five years younger and not particularly very bright, plus there’s the whole “deep insecurity and lack of strong personal identity” thing I mentioned before. Luigi, for all his flaws, is a significantly more assertive and confident person (in Pavi’s eyes), and definitely smarter (as he very blatantly states in Mark It Up).

My biggest “example” of this that I have in canon is that I genuinely don’t think Pavi actually wanted GeneCo all that much. Pavi is lazy and thrives on getting away with doing as little as possible and getting immediate gratification for his wants via his father’s money. I really don’t believe Pavi does anything in Repo! to demonstrate actually wanting the responsibility of the largest company in the world. When he “fights” with Luigi about getting GeneCo, he never once really says that he… actually wants to run GeneCo. He sings almost solely about how “loved” he is. Luigi sings “I’m the smartest and the toughest … That’s why Pop will leave GeneCo to me!” while Pavi’s verse equates to “Everyone loves me and I steal everyone’s hearts.” Then in the siblings’ fight at the Renaissance Faire, his entire “argument” is “Dad loves me; they all love the Pavi!” which… again, is focusing in on him being loved and adored, not him being the fucking CEO of a mega-corporation. Pavi doesn’t want to be a leader on a professional level, I don’t think Pavi wants to work a day in his life, Pavi wants to feel loved (which is also why he obsesses with sex so much IMO; he craves intimacy and affection). This is a long-winded as hell headcanon for a really simple question and I realize I’m getting off-topic, but the point I’m trying to make is that I think Pavi doesn’t care about being the owner of GeneCo, I think he cares about getting affection and love and care from people and he’s decided that owning GeneCo will be a gateway to have that… largely because… Luigi… actually wants GeneCo for the actual purpose of running it. Rotti leaves Luigi in charge (or, Luigi wants Rotti to leave him in charge), not Pavi. Pavi doesn’t seem to give a shit if he’s in charge or not. Luigi seems to actually be doing some kind of paperwork, Pavi is fondling Genterns. Luigi wants GeneCo because he wants to be respected and for all his flaws he seems to actually try to show some kind of authority and put his money where his mouth is; Pavi wants GeneCo because… Luigi wants GeneCo (plus, and this is really off topic and I won’t even get into Pavi’s daddy issues in depth now but he also has it in his head I think that Rotti will give GeneCo to the kid who he loves the most, and Pavi is desperate to feel loved by his dad so there’s that).

I think, sadly, if Luigi and Pavi’s lives weren’t so messed up at this point and they weren’t so beyond the point of redemption and had maybe had something close to a healthy upbringing, they actually would be very close and Pavi would really admire Luigi and the two would be able to have a lot of fun together. They do seem to have fun together when they’re not screaming at each other, again as evidenced by their Night Surgeon glance, and I think they even have a vague sense of “we’re in this together” with shit sometimes as evidenced by the little ashamed glance they exchange after Rotti yells at them in the beginning of the movie. They look like little kids who were caught doing something bad and yelled at. It’s almost like Pavi and Luigi never got the chance to healthily grow up and work out how to interact as adults, so in a strange way their entire relationship is based on the mentality they had towards each other when they were squabbling children.

#repo! the genetic opera #im tagging this bc i spent so long typing it LMFAO #ask #anonymous #soft hooting #pavi asks

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