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hillywooddestiel · 6 years

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A Warlock's Troubles

Characters: Magnus x warlock!Reader (kinda platonic since I'm a Malec shipper but if you want it to be romantic it could be)

Warnings: explicit self harm, talk of self harm, bit of language, bit of fluff though

Word count: 1.1k

Description: anonymous asked

heya! idk if you still write for shadowhunters but if you do, i'd love to read about magnus taking care of one of his former students, as she badly hurt herself willingly (warlocks cant always love themselves do they?), and like he cares for her, and tries to get her mind off selfharming for a bit, maybe like dancing together, like back in the old days? of course, if it triggers you, you can decline this request i'd understand! have a nice day! 💜

A/N: I've been meaning to post for so long but kept forgetting and I feel really bad because I got this ask so long ago but here it is! More Shadowhunters! Any more requests? Just send an ask. Enjoy xx

Story:

“Stupid… worthless… piece of shit!” Y/N added more crimson lines to her upper arm with a sharp shard of glass from the vase she knocked over. That's what tipped her over the edge. Over the past few days, she'd been feeling awful about herself and felt every little mistake she made hit her heart. As the blood collected in drops and rolled down her arms, she dropped to her knees on the floor and began to sob. The feelings would pass, they always did eventually. She'd be clean for several months, years even, and then things would build until she snapped, reaching for something sharp. It had been the save for years. Being centuries old wasn't always a good thing: people you loved grew old and died, you had to live through wars, people would come for help beyond your abilities leading them to suffer.

“Y/N darling? Are you home?” Magnus Bane. Oh no, “I would have knocked but you appear to have left your door unlocked. Y/N?” He came around to the study- the place he often found Y/N busy beavering away on spells and charms.

“Magnus wait-” she told him feebly as he came through the open doorway.

“There you are- oh no no no no no! Dear, no!” Magnus knelt down beside Y/N, snatching the glass away from her hand and tossing it away.

“Magnus please,”

“No, Y/N dear, I'm not leaving you like this. We've been here before.” He hugs her tightly with one arm while lifting her injuries to the light, casting a protection charm over them. A magic elastoplast.

Magnus made up a fast healing concoction with the ingredients Y/N had in her alchemy cupboard and slathered it all over her arm, whispering some incantations for good measure, before making her a cup of herbal tea and wrapping her in a knitted quilt. Y/N thanked him quietly and sipped from her teacup.

“How long this time?”

“Nearly three years.” She told him solemnly, fiddling with the corner of the blanket.

“Don't beat yourself up dear, keeping your thoughts bottled up doesn't help in this situation. Do you want to share with me what's on your mind?” he asked, reaching to hold her nervous hand. She remained quiet, seemingly ignoring him, “You know I'm not going to stop asking… you'll feel better.”

“A little girl got sick. Her mom came to me for a remedy and I didn't get it done in time... The girl died Magnus, she died! Because of me!” Y/N looked to her former teacher with tears in her eyes.

She'd been busy, really busy; her diary was full for a whole month. The woman burst into Y/N’s home office in floods of tears begging for a treatment that would mean her daughter, willing to pay any price. Everyone that came to Y/N for help desperately needed it. With regret, Y/N told the poor mother that there was a waiting list for her services and she would just have to wait. Just one week later, Y/N had the potion made and was knocking on the door of the woman who had come to see her. The same woman answered it with bloodshot eyes, a crumpled tissue in her shaking fingers: the little girl had passed away from her illness that morning.

Magnus didn't say anything. He'd been in Y/N’s position many times before. Nothing could be done about it. Warlocks may be powerful beings but they can't save everyone.

“What are you doing?” She asked as Magnus got up from the sofa and shuffled over to the corner table. The static sound of a needle hitting vinyl and 20s swing filled the room.

“You need a distraction. I hope you haven't forgotten how to do the Charleston my dear.” He extends his hand for her to take.

“I could never.” She grins, placing her hand in his and standing to begin their dance. They kicked their arms and legs to the side in unison while moving around in a circle before cross stepping forwards and backwards in line with one another. After that, Y/N held Magnus's shoulders to kick herself up into the air, twisting her body to land facing upwards to kick her legs one at a time moving backwards. Helping her back up smoothly, Magnus began performing fishtails with Y/N following his lead. The moves all came naturally to the pair as though it had been merely a day since they last practiced and not nearly a century.

It was how they met, dancing. There was a speakeasy run by a warlock and full of magical curiosities. It was a wondrous, and most importantly safe, place for warlocks and other brings with demon blood in their veins to go to and be themselves. Y/N came to the city having been disowned by her family for her powers and the teenager was terrified. After overhearing some passers-by, she found her way to the hidden establishment and instantly felt at ease. Everyone was different and unique. She felt that she would fit in. There was a little trouble with some werewolves built like brick walls but she defended herself with the help of a little magic, which is where Magnus stepped in.

“You have power, child. I'm impressed.”

“I'm sorry, who are you?” Y/N was defensive at first- her mother wasn't the best but she did teach her that men weren't too be trusted, especially older men.

“Magnus Bane, fellow warlock.” He flashed his amber eyes at her as proof.

“What do you want, mister?”

“An apprentice. You have much potential and I believe I can help you.”

“Are you feeling better, Y/N?” Magnus asked as they fell onto the couch, breathless.

“Much.” She responded, though her hand ghosted her injured arm. He took notice of this and took hold of her hand in his.

“Listen to me darling, it wasn't your fault. Here,” he produced an emerald necklace with a large stone set in gold, “I want you to have this. Whenever you feel like hurting yourself again, hold this stone in your hand. I have a matching one connected to it and I will be here for you right away.”

“Thank you.” Y/N wrapped her arms around Magnus in a tight hug, tears escaping the corners of her eyes. Living for such a long time gets old and the feeling of helplessness never truly goes away but, with someone who is there for you, things can never be too bad.

#shadowhunters #magnus x reader #magnus bane #magnus x you #magnus bane x reader #magnus x friend!reader #shadowhunters x reader #shadowhunters tv #shadowhunters tv series #one shot #request #anonymous #anonymous request #malec #self harm

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yaoimania101 · 7 years

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KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! Afejsoalwvdkapagdaoalhsdgallavdidlsannwal!!!!!!!!!!!  OH MY FUCKING FUCK !!!! HOLLY YAOI GODS THANK YOU !!!! I SWEAR I COULD DIE !!!! 😱😱😱😱😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😫😫😫😫😫

* heavy breathing *

 OK ! Let me try my best to gather myself and point out some stuff :

 1- lord old Xian I am forever grateful for this chapter.

 2 - so cute the are heading home ( he tian’s I supposed ) together after work like a little couple ! ☺️

3 - WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TEXTING HE TIAN ! 😡 it’s been 2 chapters ! Who the hell is it ! ( ok wow …I need to chill the fuck out ! I am so defense and protective of their relationship it’s too much )

4 - AND THE HERO THE FANDOM NEEDED APPEARED LIKE AND ANGEL PUSHING HIS DELIVERY ! SHOUT OUT THE MAN OF THE HOUR ! YOU SIR DESERVE A MEDAL Of HONOR ! Thank YOU FOR Your SERVICE !

 5 - I love how defensive he tian expression gets when ever there is someone ( other than the guys ) talking to Baby Mo ! ( I CANT ! My poor heart 😫😭❤️)

 6- push that DAMN THING INTO MY BABY BOY Mr.DELIVERY MAN ! PUSH IT INTO HIM ! (….obviously so he can go closer to he tian , I MEAN DAH 😑)

 7 - baby mo you look hella cute like always ! We love you Good boy 😊 ( now slam you Lower half against He tian’s 🌝🌚)

 8 - SO CLOSE YET SO FAR ! STOP RESISTING THE ATTRACTION OF THE CROTCH BABY MO ! ( by the way, why didn’t you find a more suitable position before the elevator got stuffed and you end up stock in that situation ! ? Oh my i just love how innocent and careless he is )

 9 - he tian with the stoic face ( we all know he is dying inside just like all of us , and wishing those DAMN 5 Centimeters away ! )

10- THE HERO AGAINT WITH THE FINAL BLOW ! PUSH IT MR DELIVERY MAN ! PUSH IT!

 11- all attempts of resistance will face failure baby mo ! stop resisting !

 12 - he Tian again with The intense stare and the constant eye contact ! ( yes TIAN ! PUT PRESSURE ON BABY MO ! By the way I love how even though he know that mo is going to have his famous extra reaction, he tian still pushes him and try to see how is going to react and to what extended he can take the situation )  

13 - DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT !!!  

14 - AND IT’S A CROTCH TOUCH !!!! 🎉🎊😭❤️😫  

15- once again… SHOUT OUT TO MR . DELIVERY MAN ! You are the REAL MVP !! ( I feel like he also like kind of somehow represent all the tianshan shipper out there …I see you Old xian , I see you 👀)

Now if you will excuse me I will go back to my fangirling session , and re-read this chapter an infinite amount of time, and probably post a whole lot more soon!

 (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀). _(:3」z)_(´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)_(:3」z)_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

#19days #oldxian #tianshan #he tian #mo guan shan #otp

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rantceratops · 7 years

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Secrets

It’s been a while since I did one of my rewatch posts, and what better episode to hop back into the swing of things than Secrets? I remember the morning after this episode aired, I got my mom to sit down and watch it with me over breakfast because Artemis and Zee kicked so much ass and I figured she’d appreciate that (as well as the Marvin the Martian reference, hehe).

Nothing bad ever happens on Halloween, amiright?

I like how that museum curator guy just happens to decide that he REALLY needs to say the Beowulf sword incantation for that cop, you know, just in case some wacko in a cut up trench coat is crouching up in the rafters nearby and might need it or something. How considerate! (dude, you could have prevented this ENTIRE episode from happening if you had not said that. YOU HAD ONE JOB.)

“Mediocrity such as this is never far from Harm.” Is Harm insinuating that he attracts mediocrity? I know he means that as a compliment to himself but I just can’t help but see it as he’s a loser so he attracts other losers.

Harm reminds me of a guy that I went to high school with, that always had really long hair and wore all black and a trench coat like all the fucking time. I shit you not I think of that guy every time I watch this episode, the resemblance is uncanny.

In fact now I’m just imagining that Harm was some fucking edgelord that was like obsessed with old legends and creepy shit and then somehow got stuck on the Beowulf legend and the sword and started taking things too far.

LOL, Museum Curator is like okay see you guys, we’re fucked.

“The legends say the heart must be pure, they never said pure good.” You know, he really does have a point.

“Really, you’re not going to join in? What kind of wolf are you?” The kind that doesn’t respond to what arguably sounds like an actual dying dog, Wally.

Leave it to Conner to get Megan to wrap some toilet paper all over him and call himself a mummy. (I’m just kidding it’s probably not toilet paper but still)

Wally please stop with your face

Awww, poor Billy! He wants to hang out with the Team! He’s so precious <3

AW YEAH AND HERE ARE THE LADIES OF THE HOUR. (well actually of the half hour but)

Okay, I really do not fucking have a clue as to why, but for some reason whenever I see Artemis in that vampire get-up my brain likens her to one of those uh... ugh, that Scooby-Doo movie with the three sisters that sang in it? Were they humans or vampires? I don’t remember but for some odd ass reason I get vibes of one of those chicks (or all of them?) from Artemis the vampire. IT’S WEIRD.

Also why didn’t they give Artemis fangs. LOST. OPPORTUNITY.

On a shippers note I find it interesting that Wally is a werewolf and Artemis is a vampire. Obviously those two creatures of the night are often heavily entwined, be it as star-crossed lovers a la Underworld, or something more like Van Helsing. I wonder if the choice was intentional, or perhaps coincidental... considering there is 0 Wally and Artemis interaction in this episode. (kind of a shame, tbh, I feel there might have been some funny potential in at least having them comment on each other’s costumes or something at the beginning) Not to mention the fact that Artemis’s angry attitude in this episode has a whole lot to do with Wally, despite no interaction.

The Justice League didn’t have a Halloween Party!? WHAT A BUNCH OF LOSERS.

You know, I don’t believe that Wally or Artemis were really 100% oblivious to Conner and M’gann being a thing. I think for both of their parts it was something more along the lines of wishful thinking, or perhaps shrugging off certain blatant signs of affection as nothing more than friendship. Considering that Greg said neither Wally nor Artemis took the revelation as hard as they appear to (moreso in Artemis’s case, as Wally gets over it pretty much immediately compared to her) I think that deep down they were both kidding themselves. As has been said many times before, Conner and M’gann were merely distractions for both of them, somewhere to focus their affections when they were too scared to admit they liked the other, or when the other seemed unobtainable to them. Crutch crushes, if you will. For Artemis, Wally seemed out of reach, so she went back to hot, beefy Conner; for Wally, his intense and undeniable feelings for Artemis began to scare him, so he went back to safe, sweet Megan instead of confronting those feelings.

“You are so making this up to me later.” I think we all know what that means...

“Girl’s night out.”

Artemis is like AW YEAH MISPLACED AGGRESSION TIME.

“I know Artemis isn’t shooting straight. For starter’s she isn’t Green Arrow’s niece.” “What?” “Well, yeah, in fact she’s related to--” Awww, Dick was just so unconcerned about it and I love that. Like, he KNOWS and he doesn’t even consider for two seconds that Artemis is the Team mole. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: DICK AND ARTEMIS’S FRIENDSHIP IS SO IMPORTANT. (if you don’t think that Dick hacked into the Bat-computer and looked up info on Artemis pretty much the night she joined then you’re wrong)

Four for you, YJ Bats, sticking up for Artemis’s right to have a secret identity! See, this is the kind of times that I like Batman.

Why does Dick almost seem sad about there not being a traitor? I never could quite figure out what that expression of his is supposed to mean, unless it’s just a kind of like “I’m stumped” kind of sad/deflated thing. IDK

I was sooooo glad we got an episode of Zee and Artemis being badasses on motorcycles, considering those two were absent for the brief motorcycle fun times in Schooled.

I also liked the headcanon that Zatanna was borrowing Robin’s motorcycle in this episode, huehue. (too bad it uh... blew up)

I fucking love that Artemis has this kind of... like, attitude of being pissed off and just wanting to pummel the shit out of something instead of actually talk about it, especially considering it’s a matter of the heart. I don’t think Artemis follows the closed off trope per se, but she’s just so convinced that Wally doesn’t want her and that the Team would shun her if they found out about her family that she’s closing herself off where she normally wouldn’t. Like, I love that Zatanna tries to be a good friend and let her talk it out, but Artemis is only interested and venting some of her pent up anger on some hapless bastards. Her feelings and her secrets are eating her up from the inside out at this point.

“What I need is something to beat up.”

God Artemis is such a badass, can we just appreciate the fact that she’s a badass enough archer to fucking nail very precise targets from a moving vehicle? And then like, punches some guy as she’s driving past and finishes him off?

Harm is a fucking creeper.

“You know, there were easier ways to take them.” “Pfft, they had it coming, no harm done.” THAT’S RIGHT ARTEMIS YOU KICK BITCHES IN THE FACE. (especially considering the implications of what they were going to do when circling that blonde girl... they definitely deserved the punishment Artemis dished out)

“We get it, your name is Harm!”

“Their ridiculous garb--” Excuse me? Coming from the guy with no shirt on and a ripped up trench coat thing? Come on brah, who’s really ridiculous here? My ladies have style!

Let’s just take a moment to appreciate Zatanna’s awesome flip thing while saving Artemis, shall we?

Oh my god I forever love that Zatanna changes her fucking boots mid chase sequence because they’re impractical. XD

I’m always just a little bit disappointed that the dagger that slices Artemis’s mask didn’t leave a bloody scratch. Like, they could have gotten away with a red line on her cheek to represent it being a scratch. Idk, I’ve seen fics where she does have one and Wally asks about it and stuff like that, I choose to headcanon it nicked her skin.

I also kind of like that Zatanna lasts about two seconds against Harm but Artemis holds her own for a good minute or so. My point being that there’s an obvious contrast in each of their training, that Zatanna probably doesn’t physically fight very much due to her spells, where as Artemis is quite proficiently trained in melee as well as her bow and arrows. It’s also an interesting contrast in that they’re both technically “ranged” heroes if you will, but one of them is still more melee inclined than the other. This is in no way saying Zatanna is weak, I’m sure she at least knows some basic fighting/defense, I’m sure Zatara would’ve taught her something, but Artemis is clearly the winner here, especially with her upbringing (god knows all the shit Lawrence taught her). And in general I greatly appreciate that Artemis could have very easily just been the stereotypical “girl’s are ranged” trope with no combat prowess at all, but instead she’s inclined to both ways of fighting and in fact spends the majority of season 2 fighting melee with a sword.

Appreciation time for the rooftop fight, as the choreography for it is particularly top-notch!

Also, Artemis is fierce!

“You wanna play without the toys?”

Artemis, please, stop, you can’t just unleash that much of your badassery at once, it’s bad for my health!

Shipper goggles: When Harm hits Artemis in the face I’m always just like wondering how Wally would have reacted to that. For no other reason than shipper reasons. I would’ve just loved to see him be all like AW HELL NAW and just rush Harm recklessly and probably get his ass whooped.

“The martians are coming, the martians are coming!” Oh my fucking GOD this part cracks me the fuck up every time.

“Watch out! They have disintegration rays!” Conner, honey, I can tell you that you’re not getting an Oscar for that line delivery anytime soon.

THE CORNY ASS MUSIC I CANT

Wally is so silent this whole episode, though, tbh. He has like two lines at the beginning and then yells about martians, but other than that he’s completely silent, it’s weird.

SUDDENLY IT’S SAW UP IN HERE.

ARTEMIS AND ZEE USING STOVE GAS TO BLOW HIM THE FUCK UP, A++.

Oh, man, Artemis getting so... just absolutely fucking livid when she finds out that Harm murdered his sister. “You did this! To your own sister! And you had the gall to write beloved!” Like, she can’t even imagine doing that to Jade, or Jade doing that to her. They are very obviously on the opposite sides of the law, but when it comes down to it Jade nor Artemis would ever do anything that would kill the other, they love each other, and the idea that someone could do that to their own sibling just fucking appalls her.

“It can’t fight us while it fights itself!” FUCK HIM UP, ART!

How does that boot taste, mother fucker?!

“I still can’t believe someone could do that to his own sister... I mean if my...”

:((( Artemis you hurt me.

#ranty rewatches young justice

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