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[hmeow]

#mypursuitofhappiness (at Tulsa, Oklahoma)

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[ogvibez]

Writers Block-ish

I haven’t posted in a while because I am in the midst of a storm. You know those short stages in life when things are about to happen but for now you’re just trying to figure out how to handle it all when it comes crashing down? That’s where I’m at in life with school starting tomorrow and STILL job hunting and... the boy. I won’t go into descriptive details but we just entered a whole new phase of our relationship called ‘blocked’. New experience for sure, a lot of time to sit back and gain clarity over our situation.

So far the conclusion I have definitely drawn has been simply, that people change. Many people try describing this boy, who we will nickname L, to me as an asshole, a mean guy, self-centered, suffering with the god complex. And these things may very well be true today and the day before but this was not L a few months ago. It took a lot of change--in environment and drug influenced-- to shift the being inside him. The clarity I gained from this ‘block’ was to stop myself and others from denoting what we had and how L treated me then vs how he treats me (among others, but most importantly me) (read:joking) now. It only frightens me a bit to have viewed such a quick, drastic and uncaring change in someone I love. But ANYWAYS, if anyone else is dealing with heart break and confusion, just remember this: the relationship was real. But people change. And sometimes that just means your vibes don’t attract anymore. 

After all, I don’t believe that L and I had an unsuccessful relationship. It was full of love and happiness and we were best friends with trust deeper than the ocean. It was an extremely successful love, it was just a short one. 

#me #mypursuitofhappiness #love will tear us apart

[avatarjun]

I want to be remembered when I'm gone. And if I am still here, I would like to know that I exist in your life.

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[ogvibez]

Productive day. Ran a bunch of errands from morning until about 4 PM when I took a break to smoke some weed and bury a cardinal. I believe all life deserves a proper burial. Took my acrylics off for the first time in months and...loving it. I’ve lost about 8 pounds and I notice changes in my body. I hated it at first, now I’m just getting used to it. I ended my night at my friend’s tattoo shop where she is an apprentice. She quenched my craving of a cigarette and good company. 

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[heavensenthale]

i just realized I’m shipping Kira and Malia very hard this wasn’t supposed to happen

hELP

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[ogvibez]

Happiness Astray

This weekend began just like any other--me rushing back to my parents hometown to spend time with friends and family. I usually spend the majority of the weekend at my boyfriends place, but this weekend was special because I spent it with a girl friend and at home a lot. I was really stressed about a situation that only seemed to get darker and all-consuming the more I obsessed over it. After noticing a couple things, I became really broken hearted and realized that words just aren't enough sometimes. Shit, love isn't even enough. What type of love is it if I proffer my adoration only to spend an afternoon without kisses or touching; just the mere sight of the one i love, loving everything before me. 

[I admit that I may have overreacted in the past, I admit that I did fuck up slightly in the past. The important difference is the shift in actions, the generosity in the words and most importantly, the honesty.]

This led me to end things with him, and to begin things with myself. Instead of spending this time being broken hearted and taking all the remarks from my now ex-lover (good or bad, remarks hurt in different ways) to heart, I am spending it utilizing and strengthening friendships, focusing on classes (ok fine.....finals ended today but i’ll start next semester!!!) and creating. There are countless people throughout history who took their pain from heartache and made something beautiful and amazing and life changing with it. So this is my challenge to myself: continue to love myself more. 

It’s hard to focus on ourselves in such a fast-paced society. It seems we work and party without much else, much self expression. I challenge anyone who is still reading this (excuse my steady self doubt) to take the pain in their chest and create something. It can be a collection of words, clothing, jewelry, art, anything really. You could even start up you own tutoring business. Just GO do something, take the pain and turn it into power. Do some squats while you’re at it boo. This is your world to rule. Everyone else is just living in it. 

#mypursuitofhappiness #broken heart

[ogvibez]

Today was the first official day of my pursuit of happiness. I woke up barely on time to get to my biology final, parked in a spot i could have gotten ticketed in--didn’t-- and went to the commons to eat and start a project with enough time to not call it procrastination. I had a special hour long appt with my Dr. today to discuss my mental health, where we discovered I’m (probably) not bipolar. I’m pretty refreshed that I don’t have this disorder, however we still know that I am sick so it’s all about figuring out exactly what the problem is before changing medications. 

I’ve been going through a lot in my relationship as well, and I’ve had a lot of time to be mad and start fights, as well as get in the shower to breathe and think. We as humans are very selfish, and we as women are very stubborn, so when one thing goes wrong that our partner “caused”, we tend to want to throw them down a ditch rather than realize that we too, are annoying as fuck. 

So today has been full of a lot of revelations, starting with my own self and extending to relationships. I even went to the library today for like, the fourth time all semester, and got a good bit of things done! I’ll probably update again after the weekend. 

oh and ps. it’s mental health week. thanks for the recognition, but no thanks. a week? bye

#mypursuitofhappiness #mhw #bipolar #finals

[ogvibez]

Today I had another one of my really strong willed decision to change my life. Start small, so I can achieve big. I’m going to be tracking this change in my life via a series on my blog. I know I don’t have many people who keep up with it but maybe as I progress through this next stage in my life, I can inspire others to dust out the bad thoughts and finally live. I’m going to be spending a lot less time stressing over everything, especially the things I can't control, and start focusing a lot more on making the world inside me pleased. My pursuit of Happiness

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