#nessa and oliver

[nessaandoliver]

oliness doodle dump

#nessa and oliver #nessa belle trevelyan #oliver kenton #oliness #art #mine

[trashlie]

it's good to see you around again, I missed reading your long ILY posts, hope you're doing better too :) if you ever share your thoughts on the latest couple of episodes (including fp) here, I'd be super excited to read them! I'm really curious how you think the timeline is gonna go from here - especially relating to Shin-Ae and Nolan since it feels like they are the last pieces that need to fall into place so everything is ready for the post-timeskip story to go down. like you, I was so sure Nol and Shin-Ae were going to have some kind of reconciliation before he goes to jail but WELP rip 3 day extension. Poor guy though, Yui showing up in his hospital room must have been extremely triggering, it made sense that he did everything to get outta there ASAP. It's worrying me that this series of negative interactions (Kousuke, Alyssa, Yui) could've undone everything positive Shin-Ae Dieter Soushi Nana did, and now therapy during jail time could either have a positive or negative effect, so Nol is a Schroedinger's cat for now.... At least some things got cleared up and Shin-Ae is now starting to understand the root of the problem (= Yui) (and it actually really makes sense that she had to figure it out herself instead of Nol telling her - the boy obviously isn't ready to talk) so we made some progress.... But istg with this upcoming separation arc 2.0 it feels so much like we're gonna be back at ground zero after the first time skip. Fingers crossed they reconcile in whatever way before the big time skip though. we need a somewhat positive conclusion to this arc before season 1 ends, because if not then what was all this build up for, and why now? What about the realizations? the "convince me"? What about "if you won't let me have you"? If their reconciliation is only going to happen after multiple years of "conflict" between them that would be so cruel....

AND SHIN-AE STILL HASN'T GOTTEN HER BANDANA BACK and now he's stealing her lines too SDGDADSF;SDF

Waaaahhhhh thank you, friend!!! As you can probably tell, I'm still trying to get myself back here fully and figure out how to balance everything, which has always been a struggle ;~; I really may resort to telling my friends to ignore me and yell at me until I get certain posts written up so I'll stop procrastinating because there are SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT EPISODES I WANT TO RECAP AND TALK ABOUT!!!! BUT THE ORGANIZING MYSELF!!!! IS THE PART THAT'S SO DIFFICULT!!!!!!!!

One of the great things about the ILY discord server is that we have this very constant, active conversation going on at all times so it's SO easy to be very present and active, but I also find that it means it's more difficult for me to regulate myself, or I'll have that feeling that I JUST talked about something and so when I try to write about it over here, it feels like a hollow echo and I know that's just because I was just having the conversation so that's just something I need to work on dealing with lol

But I want to answer this before we move so far away from when you asked this!!!!! As expected, there are FP spoilers ahead for eps 246 through 249!!!!!

I!!!! DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!! LMAO Like. GOD. I feel like quimchee has thrown us curveball after curveball and when we sit down and think about how long this period of December 21 and the post December 21 arc has been, how much the story has weaved around?! There are so many things that have occurred that I NEVER expected and, like you, it's just everything I thought has clearly gone out the window. Part of it, I think, is the result of quimchee having to change the arrangement of her story, and god I would love to pick her brain about the things that changed, since Nol's injury was supposed to happen at the formal itself, we never would have had this extended period of hospital time, and it seems like everything about Nol and Shinae coming to realization with their feelings would have played out in a wholly different way than what we ended up getting, so on some level I think this is partly that quimchee, too, is sort of throwing herself cureveballs in that there are things she knows needs to happen and she isn't sure where or how to fit the other elements in? But that's just my guess.

On the one hand, I do feel very "WHAT WAS THE EXTENSION FOR IF NOT FOR RECONCILIATION?!" but beyond Stalkyoo, we have gotten a LOT of good stuff out of this period of time. We see Kousuke facing his cognitive dissonance for, perhaps, the first time, and the revelation that Yui has been drugging him (and likely for a long time, given the way Hansuke describe the dosage Kousuke had and that it merely knocked him out), and more than that, making those connections between Nol and Yui and tea, and wanting to face him. I'm STILL proud of him for wanting to go back and see Nol again, even after he couldn't face him, even after Hansuke found him on the floor of a public bathroom hugging a toilet from the remorse and guilt and perhaps shame of the realization of the ways he has hurt people - has hurt Nol! - who didn't deserve it. We have seen that Rand and Yujing are, in fact, working on something behind the scenes, that Rand is facing Yui as a real adversary now, not just someone who has been resigned to endure her for so many years now, but to actually fight against her. The entirety of Nol's birthday celebration could not have happened the way it did had he not been in the hospital, since he would have had to turn himself in, and while maybe the original plan was that they celebrated his birthday with Minhyuk's coming home party, I'm.... not sure if that would have been the case?

But at at any rate, I do acknowledge that despite the fact that it feels like Nol might be back at square one, that he and Shinae are back where they started in 151, such significant events HAVE taken place that I think will still affect the narrative future of ILY. I still feel strongly that part of Nol's trajectory is coming to terms with the fact that he does, indeed, belong here. That he isn't someone who wasn't meant to be, that he doesn't belong here. He belongs, and he deserves love. He is someone, not nothing. I still think one of his greater arcs will involve coming to embrace this, and while the negative events - Kousuke, Alyssa, Yui - feel like they could be setting him back, he is now equipped with knowledge and feelings he wasn't before. It can't hurt him the same. In fact, I think part of why his confrontation with Alyssa went the way it did was because he had had this experience with Shinae, Dieter, and Soushi, it illuminated everything that was so wrong with his relationship with Alyssa, how neither of them really know each other. It's that sense of foiling that allows him to put his foot down and say enough is enough. Even before it was revealed that Alyssa had come with Yui, it was clear that Nol was over the visit. Don't get me wrong - I understand why he couldn't see that Alyssa clearly was not well, that she was uncomfortable, that she had come to him with no one else to go to, much as he'd gone to Kousuke in the past when he lost his mom, and I also understand why he did the same thing Kousuke did and turned her away. But the point I'm getting at is, it feels like there was a shift. That birthday celebration illuminated something for Nol.

So it's kind of like, while it feels like this might have undone the progress Nol made, it can't undone the revelations he's had, and in that same way, it cannot cast shadow on his enlightenment. He is not the same Nol he was a week ago. Too much has changed, he's become aware of too much, and as such, he is going to respond differently to what comes his way, and while he may continue to try what he had originally intended, I think the difference is that he's now been made aware of things that impact the choices he makes.

But largely I don't really know what I expect just yet. I think it's very pointed that the lawyer reminded Shinae that she has his phone number; I don't think that would be called out if it wasn't going to be important in some way, but in terms of how are we going from here to there? Unsure lol. I think there HAS to be a resolution of some kind, whether it's a reconciliation or not, because Shinae is on this momentum swing that isn't going to stop until she crashes into something or she comes into a force of nature that stops her. Nothing, no one, has been able to reach her or get through to her, and I know it's just because of how much she's hurting, but she's lashing out at people and hurting THEM like a street cat swiping at people trying to help her. She's so terrified of losing Nol, especially now that he came back, especially now that she gave him the option to leave and he didn't and it rekindled that hope she gave him an opening to leave when it would have been easier and he didn't which just made it worse, because so much more was at stake. She can't stop fighting she can't stop trying because she cannot bear what it means to lose him for real this time, not when she finally had him back, not when that realization has come to her even if she won't admit it. She needs him, so what's going to make her give up?

Something has to transpire, whether it's a reconciliation or Nol pushing her away and really shattering her heart or something awful like that, to bring her to a halt, because I can't imagine how we would move into our mini time skip to spring/graduation with Shinae like this, right? So I think there must be some kind of resolution. My foolish, hopeless self wants so badly to hope for reconciliation but esp after 249 I am SO torn. I have two thoughts.

a. they reconcile. She can reach him, and convince him, and even though he is so afraid, he is also someone who folds in front of her, he struggles to resist her. He told her to convince him and boy she can convince him and even though he tells himself he isn't sure if these feelings are real because what if it's just because she's NICE to him I think hearing her confess her feelings would tell him how he feels and give him the answer.

b. But the alternative feels like a parallel to Nessa and Rand, because Nessa, too, was hurt over and over by someone who kept getting her hopes up and getting hurt by him. Shinae gave Nol the opportunity to leave and he didn't, he stayed and doing so sparked her hope, made her feel things, they shared these tender, intimate moments together and forced that realization to come to mind, but for him to push her away again, for her safety, to make choices on her behalf even though she's told him she hates that and she doesn't want him to. Imagine her pulling a Nessa and calling him scum lfkjajkfkjfjkfaj ;A;!!!!! Imagine her so angry and hurt and resentful and saying awful things she doesn't mean and GOD I feel like it can go only one of these ways because what ELSE is going to stop her in her tracks?!

And I really want a reconciliation because parting like this sets them up for SO. MUCH. STRIFE. Because we know one way or another Shinae is going to end up taking Yui's offer and if Nol leaves on these terms, he would end up thinking she's following in Alyssa's footsteps doing so, not understanding WHY she's doing, not understanding that this is Shinae's only way of protecting herself, learning to speak Yui's language and play her game.

and idk I know I'm a hopeful optimist reading a webtoon that proves to me over and over that I cannot be a hopeful optimist but LMAO GOD I WANT SHINAE TO CONVINCE THAT DUMBO

I've said it before that convincing him doesn't mean they have to get into a relationship. Just. Reconcile. She's so afraid of LOSING HIM, thinking that once he slips away he's out of her grasp, her sight, for good, that she will lose the best thing that happened to her and I WANT THAT RECONCILATION. I want her to convince him, for both their sakes. So that he knows he has someone he can go back to. So that she knows he's not just throwing her away. So that she doesn't have to fear losing something so precious and important.

Am I foolish and hopeful for hoping for that outcome? Maybe, but it won't stop me LMAO because as delicious and angsty as Shinae and Nol following in Ressa's footsteps with Nol hurting her again and leaving her so hurt and angry is, I want to see them on that same page. I want to see Shinae convince him - convince him why he is so important to her, and that his feelings are real. That's the thing, right, like.... you can tell yourself that your feelings aren't real, but if the person you like confesses to you, your heart will inevitably betray you and respond to the confession. Nol fears for Shinae's safety but important puzzle pieces are falling into place. She has figured what he fears the most - and if she thinks hard enough she'll realize how she can use that to her "advantage", in that Rand has told her Yui will never let her go, that it doesn't matter if Nol leaves or not. It goes back to my oft repeated sentiment of them needing to be on the same page, to be a team, because his absence will not protect her. And between what Rand told her, plus her anecdotes about Kousuke's birthday and how Yui treated her even before the formal, and what Yujing told Nol about Kousuke being drugged by Yui, maybe, just MAYBE that conclusion that wasn't only him all along will finally hit him. I know he can't change over night, that he has so many deeply ingrained fears that won't be easily assuaged, but I have to hope that a confession from Shinae can convince him that the alternative is worse. Convince him to fight along side her ;A;

I go back and forth on this thought but I think this is strongly what I feel right now. That reconciliation could still be around the corner, even if it's just an admission and a promise to not push her away. Shinae is tired of people acting on her behalf, tired of not getting a say, and especially in something that involves her heart, her feelings?

Go fight girl and maybe bite him if that's what it takes ;A;

STEALING HER BANDANA. HER LINES. HERT HEART. THIS MAN DESERVES TO BE LOCKED AWAY

ALFJLFJLFKJLAFKJLKFJALKFJ

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #ILY Ask #ILY Spoilers #ILY FP #Shinae Yoo #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #Stalkyoo #Aegi #oh you know just me wailing into the night about stalkyoo nbd alkfjjkafjkafjkajfkajfjaf lmao #I PLANNED TO ANSWER THIS AND BE CHILL BUT I DON'T HAVE CHILL and then when i was wailing about Shinae giving Nol the chance to leave and ho #part of why she is so desperate is she can't lose him again not when she almost did not when he came back not when she gave him the chance #to leave and he chose to stay and saw the parallel to Nessa and Rand and it was just ALL DOWNHILL FROM THERE LMAO #AGONY #ANGUISH #PLS PLS PLS LET ME GET WHAT I WANT #lmao #plssssssssssssssssssssss #can you imagine how awful it would be if they didn't reconcile until post time skip?! #jesus christ HOW do you even reconcile after that?! #HOWLS FOREVER

[babyyycowboyyy]

What if I posted incorrect quotes? I’m bored and I just wanna pass the time for now.

#sab quesada #nessa barrett #jaden hossler #cooper noriega #cynthia parker #oliver blank #sturniolo triplets #nick sturniolo #matt sturniolo #chris sturniolo #madi filipowicz #anna shumate #emma brooks #alahna estrella #nathan doe #malcolm lxst #tril #yung pleit

[oliversbedroommusic]

if you like these artists you should check my music out because i said so.

#ambient #ambient music #music #music artists #olivers bedroom music #yeule #ethel cain #björk #kate bush #taylor swift #boygenuis #phoebe bridgers #lucy dacus #julien baker #mazzy star #chappell roan #caroline polachek #weyes blood #nessa barrett #leith ross #nicole dollanganger #conan gray #just because they are my inspiration doesn’t mean i will sound exactly like them #Spotify

[avid-idiot]

Idk man...

If he looked at me like that with a veil of smoke between us, I might be inclined to inhale it

#literally stfu nessa #WHO TF ALLOWED PPL TO BE THIS FINE #i promise i have good standards T_T #dont mention oliver either he's an exception

[ofmymuses]

꒰♡꒱ —  NAMES BY AESTHETIC.

part two of ??  ;  under the cut, you’ll find a bunch of name ideas based on different aesthetics  (academia, cottagecore, etc). if you find this post useful, please consider giving it a like / reblog so that i know ♡♡

grandparentcore—

alice

arthur

arlene

blanche

benjiman

billy / billie

betty

bernadette

constance

clara

clifford

clyde

dennis

dolores

dorothy

esther

elaine

edwin

ernest

frances

frederick

florence

gladys

geraldine

glenn

gertrude

henry

howard

helen

hazel

irene

irving

ida

jolene

judith

jude

jack

kenneth

loretta

louise

marjorie

margaret

miriam

marlon

nanette

otto

oswald

otis

phyllis

patsy

peter

ruth

randy

ruby

randall

ralph

roy

sue

susan

samuel

theresa

theodore

ursala

violet

vincent

victor

winifred

wilma

willie

wilbur

cyberpunk—

alexia

avalon

azura

bellatrix

badger

blade

bee

cyno

cressida

clarity

delphine

dixie

denari

delmare

dot

electra

ellio

ember

finnick

fluke

futura

genesis

glory

helvetica

haven

juno

jinx / jinkx

kay

ky / kai

kilo

luna

link

laya

magdelene

merrick

molly

neve

niander

nyla

niko

nymph

octavia

orion

onyx

oriana

pixie

parris

priya

rue

rainn

stitch

zero

kidcore—

aaliyah

alex

ariel

brynn

bobby

blue

connor

cassie

chloe

dodie

daisy

darcy

emmeline / emmilina

ella

freddy

gaten

grace / gracie / gracen

gianna

gabriella / gabby

holly

india

iris

indie

jeanie

joanna

kylie

kaylee

lacey

lia

lucy

macey

max

mika

maddison / maddy / maddie

may

melody

nia

nessa

olivia

oliver / ollie

poppy

rose / rosie

sydney

sadie

sam

teddy

taissa

tyler

vanessa

wybie

#rpc #namelist #names masterlist ♡ #mine. #mine.*ml #names by aesthetic #WHEW. this is a long one

[drastic-end]

Às vezes, o coração escolhe sem pedir permissão. Não é sobre a aparência, não é sobre o que os olhos veem à primeira vista. É sobre algo mais profundo, algo que vai além das superficialidades. É sobre gostar de alguém simplesmente por ser quem ele é.

A magia está nas pequenas peculiaridades, nas imperfeições que tornam cada um de nós único. É sobre a risada sincera que ecoa, mesmo que seja um pouco estranha. É sobre as manias que podem parecer bobas para os outros, mas que fazem o coração bater mais forte para quem está disposto a enxergar.

Gostar de alguém pela essência, pelo brilho nos olhos quando fala sobre suas paixões, pela autenticidade que transborda em cada gesto. Não é sobre o que a sociedade espera ou sobre padrões já estabelecidos. É sobre despir-se das máscaras e permitir-se amar alguém pela verdade que reside no âmago.

Quando se gosta de alguém por ser quem é, não há necessidade de retoques, de mudanças forçadas. É um amor que celebra a individualidade, que abraça as características únicas e que encontra beleza nas singularidades. É um amor que constrói pontes sobre a aceitação mútua, que floresce na liberdade de ser autêntico.

O que importa, no final, é celebrar cada momento com a pessoa porque, no final das contas, é nessa autenticidade que reside a verdadeira conexão, um vínculo que vai além das aparências e se aprofunda no cerne do coração. No meio de tantos sorriso e olhares, que sorte a nossa em encontrar alguém digno de ser amado pelo simples fato de ser quem é. ♥

- Oliver Gutknecht

#frases #frasesvitabello #pensamentos #mardeescritos #doceesther #castroc #poecitas

[arand0mdutchgirl]

Rwrb text post / fic preview

Little "i'd die for you" preview: coming to ARandomDutchGirl on ao3 on oct first for firstprinceweek day 5!

I'd die for you

aRandomDutchGirl

Summary:

First prince week day 5: life or death DETECTIVES HUSBANDS AU The one where Alex and Henry go undercover together and Henry takes a bullet for Alex ANGST WITH A HAPPY ENDING I PROMISE

TW: for implied vomiting and fearing that you're going to die and mention of alcohol

Henry takes a sip of his beer and frowns at the man sitting next to him.

"So are you going to tell me what got you so pissed mate?" Henry asks, hoping he comes off as an interested friend instead of an interested undercover detective.

Chris sighs.

"Why am I so- I'll tell you why I'm f****** pissed. F***** snakes, I swear ****-"

It's as if Henry's whole world pauses for a second.

Of course, he knew going into this mission that he could get caught.

But the hypothetical is a lot less terrifying than the reality.

Henry presses his nails into his trembling hand forcing it to stop shaking, because he'll won't be able to deny the accusations and win back the trust of these bloody terrible people if he's shaking in fear.

He downs his beer which isn't a good choice because it makes him want to vomit from fear and adrenaline rather than drowning his anxiety.

He takes a deep breath.

At least Alex isn't with him right now.

Alex might be able to make it out of this mission alive. 

As long as he doesn't blow his cover when he finds out the people he's pretending to belong with murdered his husband.

Christ. Why did they ever agree to go on this mission?

They knew it was dangerous.

Much more so than the ones they've gone on in the past. (Not that they weren't terrifying in their own way).

But they figured they'd be fine as long as they faced the danger together.

Which was rather stupid, because Henry knows that if the situation were reversed and Alex was the one with the blown cover...

He knows there is no way in hell he'd be able to keep his cool and keep up his fake identity after finding out his husband had died.

But Alex is going to have to try because if he fails to keep his false identity his cover will be blown too.

And the only thing worse than knowing Henry is going to die right here surrounded by these bloody awful people he was so sure he was going to get to arrest, is knowing his death essentially caused his husband's death as well.

So he hopes with everything he's got that when  Alex finds out about Henry's death, he won't fall apart until after he's arrested these men.

Henry can only hope Alex won't let himself deal with his husband's death until he's at a safe place to do so.

A laugh catches Henry's attention and brings him back to reality. "Oliver? Are you good? You look like hell mate!"

First Henry thinks it's a trap but it doesn't take long to figure out the man has no clue Henry is one of those snakes he just cussed out.

Meaning someone else's cover got blown...

The realization comes crashing in on Henry and before he knows it he retches.

It's not his cover that got blown.

It's Alex's.

Cr: song die first by Nessa Barrett (so Henry coded i'm gonna cry😭)

Ss cr: most from @aplaceinme and i'm not sure about one of them but if it's your ss tell me and i'll cr you!

O(i did not spent 30 minutes searching pinterest for this just to find the ss i was looking for on tumblr within one second (yes i did ugh)

#alex x henry #prince henry of wales #alex and henry #rwrbedit #rwrb alex #henry fox mountchristen windsor #alex claremont diaz #red white and royal blue #rwrb trailer #red white and royal blue movie #firstprince week 2023 #rwrb film #rwrb fic #a03 fic #firstprince week #firstprince

[ukrfeminism]

2 minute read

TW: femicide.

A dangerous sexual predator who brutally beat to death aspiring lawyer Zara Aleena as she walked home alone from a night out with friends has admitted murder.

Jordan McSweeney, 29, trailed Ms Aleena through the streets at night before launching a ferocious attack, sexually assaulting her, and leaving her to die on the driveway of a home in Ilford, northeast London.

McSweeney, a heavily convicted criminal, carried out the attack in the early hours of June 26, just nine days after he had been set free from prison.

The “savage and brutal attack” on Ms Aleena, 35, was caught on terrifying CCTV, while McSweeney had been seen following a series of other women earlier in the evening before selecting Ms Aleena as his victim.

At the Old Bailey on Friday, he pleaded guilty to murder and sexual assault, and now faces a life sentence. The guilty plea follows a series of aborted court hearings when McSweeney had avoided psychological assessments, refused to leave his prison cell, and was suspected of attempting to disrupt court proceedings.

Mrs Justice Cheema Grubb adjourned sentencing to December 14, when members of Ms Aleena’s family will outline the impact of the murder on them.

In the days following her murder, her family paid tribute to Ms Aleena as a “joy to all of us” who had set her sights on becoming a lawyer at the age of five.

“Zara was friendly, she was everybody’s friend. She was everybody’s daughter, everybody’s niece, everybody’s sister, everybody’s cousin. She was pure of heart.”

Referencing the murders of Sarah Everard and Sabina Nessa, the family said Ms Aleena “walked everywhere” and “believed that a woman should be able to walk home”. 

“Sadly, Zara is not the only one who has had her life taken at the hands of a stranger. We all know women should be safe on our streets. She was in the heart of her community, ten minutes from home”, they said. “In a savage, sickening, act she was murdered by a stranger.”

At an earlier hearing, prosecutor Oliver Glasgow KC said the attack happened at around 2.45am when Ms Aleena was minutes away from reaching her home following a night out with friends.

He said McSweeney caused the “violent death of Zara Aleena who was attacked in the early hours of the morning of June 26”, saying she was “a lone female late at night making her way home, a woman who stood no chance”. 

“Emergency services were called after her body was discovered in a driveway on Cranbrook Road.

“She was bleeding, struggling to breathe, and had clearly sustained serious head injuries. She was also partially naked.

“The injuries she had sustained at the hands of this defendant were so severe that nothing could be done to save her.”

Ms Aleena studied law at the University of Westminster and she had recently completed a Legal Practice Course to be able to practise as a solicitor. Introducing the evidence, Mr Glasgow said: “Eyewitnesses and CCTV directly links this defendant to the savage and brutal attack on Zara Aleena.

“In the early hours, he was following and observing a number of different women. He was obviously interested in them and their movements. Tragically, for Zara Aleena, it was her on whom he became fixated.

“He is seen on CCTV to set about her on the ground. He is seen kicking and stamping repeatedly on her body.

“When the body was discovered, she was clearly already fatally wounded as a result of the onslaught.”

The court heard McSweeney was tracked to a caravan when police officers discovered a bag of blood-stained clothing and shoes.

His fingerprint was also found in blood at the scene of the attack. 

The killer, from Dagenham, refused to speak in his police interview and repeatedly refused to leave his prison cell as court proceedings progressed.

When his barrister asked for a further delay to proceedings, the judge replied: “The defendant has now had three opportunities to meet with the psychologist and he hasn’t attended on any of them. He hasn’t attended today, and I am not prepared to put the case over until November.”

The court heard he made threats to police officers after his arrest and claims to suffer from ADHD and a split personality disorder.

McSweeney has 28 convictions for 69 offences, including for assaults on police officers and members of the public.

He was released from prison on June 17, 2022, after serving his latest sentence for burglary and theft of a motor vehicle.

[nessaandoliver]

tension

#nessa and oliver #art #mine #nessa belle trevelyan #oliver kenton #oliness

[trashlie]

Rand the Damned

Something that has become really apparent to me about ILY, especially the more I have these deep dives into the characterizations, is that ultimately, ILY explores characters who are trying to survive. Nearly every character in ILY is clearly someone trying to survive their circumstances, and while some are very obvious (Shinae, Nol, Kousuke) others you need to examine differently in order to see they, too, are trying to survive (Alyssa, Rand, Yui). Something I feel that ILY does especially well is the interpersonal relationships based on both context and circumstances, and why certain characters are able to better get along with each other and others continue to butt heads. For instance, Nol and Kousuke have always struggled because Nol was never able to see what Kousuke's real battle is - that his quest for Rand's acceptance has been but a small part of his psyche. Without understanding how Kousuke has been manipulated, gaslit, and literally drugged, how could Nol ever begin to understand why Kousuke treats him that way?

Abuse and trauma alters peoples' brains. It's not something that you just... one day wake up from and move on. We will spend our whole lives trying to unlearn our unhealthy behaviors, our coping mechanisms and that's for those of us who haven't experienced such brain-altering abuse and trauma. A very common theme of ILY remains repeating cycles - that people who never get to heal, or don't heal in a healthy way, will continue to perpetuate their cycles of abuse, of their trauma, of their unhealthy learned behaviors. Someone who grows up feeling like they are not allowed to express emotions, feeling like they must tiptoe around others' emotions is going to struggle to open up about their feelings, to feel like their emotions are valid, that they're allowed to feel and talk about what they feel, and thus, their relationships with others are impacted. What happens when they are close to someone who feels like they are being deliberately locked out and left in the dark? How do you resolve issues when you feel like you have to pack away your feelings and pretend you're fine, everything is okay?

This is something that permeates ILY at all corners, because it's fundamental to every interpersonal relationship - that we unwittingly pass on the hurt that has hurt us, that our experiences alter our perception, alter our behavior, alter the way we handle things. When I talk about Everyone x Therapy, this is what I mean. Nearly everyone in ILY carries some kind of hurt, some more deeply than others. This includes even the characters we as readers perceive as hurtful: Sangchul, Rand, Yui. Perhaps even Gun Kim, but frankly that is something I cannot bring myself to get into and I think we lack enough information to examine (but even in his case we can look at his father and glean how Gun would turn out the way he did).

Perhaps this will eventually become a series, where I sit and examine some of these characters more closely, as I have with Kousuke and Alyssa. But at this time I'm focusing on Rand, because I find him to be an incredibly polarizing character depending on the take you have. How dare you sympathize with someone who has been such a terrible father tends to be the main gut reaction, but as with all parents of ILY, there is no such thing as a good, perfect parent. At the end of the day, parents are people also trying to navigate their lives with the extra responsibility of someone else they're meant to take care of, to look after, to raise, with few resources and no guidebooks. The one thing ILY has taught me is to re-examine my own life, my relationship with my parents and the ways they hurt vs helped me, and their circumstances. Ultimately, we will always be victims of our circumstances, the results of our experiences.

So! Let's talk about Rand!

Firstmost and foremost, I want it to be clear that I'm not writing this in an effort to make people care about Rand or make him into someone's favorite character, but instead just to help people better understand him and his motivations. Too often I think we fall into the trap of believing that we can only like good characters and that liking those who hurt others or cause harm makes us bad people. But ILY is a fictional story. No one is being hurt. What I think ILY provides us, though, is a deeper understanding of real people and the ways that all people are complex, no matter how shallow they seem. This isn't about making Rand into a favorite character, but instead it's about examining Rand's circumstances.

When we examine characters through a lens of survival, it helps us to better understand their motivations and choices, as well as what is at risk and what they stand to lose which heavily factors into their motivations and why they make the choices they do. There's a lot we still don't know about the nature of Rand and Yui's relationship: were they ever lovers; did she ever fool him into thinking she was something else; was it always a business arrangement? This leads us to further questions, like did he meet Nessa before or after he married Yui? Because so much of ILY is about these cycles and parallels, we can look at Rand and assume that maybe, much like Nol has tried to do, Rand denied himself something he wanted in favor of something else, something he thought he needed more. As a businessman, it's easy to see how perhaps he and Yui were an arranged marriage, something not for love but instead for mutual benefit (and this feels even more plausible given how likely it is that Yui herself was not allowed to inherit the company but instead needed someone who would be adopted into the family via marriage and treated like a true Hirahara and needed him in order to have any role in the family business that she coveted). If Rand knew Nessa before, perhaps he told himself that what he felt about Nessa was a thing that would pass, something he could live without. Perhaps he convinced himself that the ends would justify the means, that his life would be better if he made this choice and denied himself something else he wanted. Love? Love can come and go. You can move on from anyone, anything.

But it's clear to us that Rand never moved on from Nessa. Long after he lost her, he carried her with him in that Bible. He may have told Shinae that it didn't hold luck for him anymore, that it hasn't for a long time, but that doesn't mean it stopped mattering to him. In a time when Nol needed it most, Rand gave up something that had brought him comfort in solace, in hopes that it can provide something of comfort for him, too.

What has been something of a safety raft for Rand to cling to as he treads the waters of survival has now been passed to his son, and I think this is as good a time to examine Rand through this lens of survival, and to better understand why he has made the choices he has and further, that I fear no choice Rand could have made would have been the right choice; it never existed, he was always damned if you do, damned if you don't.

A special interest of quimchee's appears to be female-enacted domestic violence. This has come up a couple times before, and is a theme she's talked about before on streams about wanting to explore, but I think we are seeing that quietly explored in ILY as well, though it's not the forefront of the story. Yui as a character very much is one who leads a reign of reign of terror, who so confidently believes that she is the hero of the story and everyone who stands against her opposes her, and thus are an obstacle to be taken out. Now, I still intend to write at great length about how I view Yui and what are her motivations and drivers, but the watered down summary is: I believe Yui was once the victim of abuse in addition to having always felt like she is lesser simply for being born a woman and bears a grudge against men and deeply resents them for what they are so easily afforded that she is not, that she was never given the opportunity or the space to heal and internalized this to believe that people deserve what happens to them, that those who are incapable of fighting back are deserving of what happens to them. This is integral in understanding Yui and how, yes, Rand's hands have always been tied by her.

I think when I say this, people think this immediately excuses Rand from the hurt he's caused, but it is so very important that we examine the ways that Rand's hands are tied, so that we can understand how nothing could really have been different, to understand why (in his eyes) he is doing the best he was able to. Again, an underlying theme is that people very much are often the victims of their circumstances. Yui herself even touches on this, noting that she is aware she is afforded opportunities, privilege, that most aren't. She herself also takes advantage of circumstances, in order to better orchestrate what she wants. For instance, consider the way Kousuke was left isolated - she took advantage of her husband's unhealthy work/life balance and further drove a wedge between him and his son so that Kousuke would forever feel like he is working towards an (unobtainable) goal, so that Rand would always be greatly out of reach, so that they could never become equals, be peers, so that Kousuke would always feel that feeling of inferiority and then she learned to utilize that inferiority as a weapon against Nol as well as to further isolate Kousuke, leave him dependent upon her.

Yui knows what she's doing, and Rand's circumstances are very much the base of this analysis.

What was the nature of their relationship? Was it simply a business arrangement Rand thought stood to benefit him? Or, a possibility I explore a lot more lately, was it possible that Yui tricked him in some way, took advantage of a more sympathetic nature perhaps Rand once possessed? I don't think we necessarily need to know yet what the circumstances are, because what matters is where that left Rand.

The mukoyoshi theory becomes ever more important the more we learn about these characters, and as we view their situations through the lens of this theory, we start to better understand the dynamics it's created. Supposing this theory holds true - and I believe it must, since we have canonical proof now Rand has taken the Hirahara name as his own - it sets the following precedent: through marriage to Yui, Rand has been adopted into the family as though he himself is a true Hirahara born of their blood, and as it appears that men are afforded more rights/opportunities, in some way Rand holds more rights in Yui's family than Yui herself does. She could not inherit the family company herself and instead had to marry someone else in order to carry on the lineage, had to give birth to a son to carry it on from them. I'm not going to get too deeply into this, because I think this is for another post, but again, this precedence is important because we need to understand why Yui would resent Rand for reasons beyond his affair, why from the very moment he married her he was likely trapped in her web, and why his circumstances were always against him.

Truly the greatest "mistake" Rand likely made was marrying Yui, but we're well beyond that now.

Yui very much is a controlling, abusive partner and it's clear to us now how she's been manipulating and abusing far longer than Rand's infidelity existed. We can see in Kousuke's early memories that the agitation between Rand and Yui in their clashing parenting styles had already become a thing that was wearing him down, that she gloated from her throne where she maintained the upper hand. Yui possesses incredible finesse when it comes to how she orchestrates things, how she nudges the truth, how she hardly has to do any heavy lifting for things to fall right into place. There's a whole essay that could be written on Rand's role in both the company and as a father and the crux of it always comes back to: he was damned if he does, damned if he doesn't. As part of the mukoyoshi concept, Rand has a duty to the company he has inherited, to the family he has been adopted by, to oversee things to ensure things run as well as they can. But as a husband and father, he has an obligation to his family. We see it often in businessmen, in people of the corporate world whose entire livelihoods depend on their career that they must make a choice. At this time it appears as though Yui's father regards Rand favorably, but would he have if Rand had chosen to downsize his responsibilities? Had Rand chosen to be around more as Kousuke was being raised? Especially if it's as we think with the Hirahara family, where childrearing is seen as a woman's role, that this is what Yui should be focusing on and that Rand, the mukoyoshi, had a role to fulfill separate of that?

When Yui told Kousuke that they are different from others, she was not wrong. We cannot view Rand through the same lens we would a man of lesser stature than him. We have to view him through his circumstances.

And his circumstances lead us here: to a man whose wife has probably been playing mind games with him from the get go who is trying his best both as an obligation to the family and his company and also to himself. We get enough glimpses into Kousuke's past to know that it's not that Rand had no interest in his son's life. In fact, Rand on many occasions is seen trying to instill something in Kousuke, trying to help him be aware of both his opportunities and privilege as well as the limitlessness of all that he could grow to be. I can only speculate, but with what we know, I have no doubts there was a lot of clever orchestration on Yui's part as to Rand's availability. They're both chairpersons of the company, and yet one of them was far more tied up - the one of them who is seen as more valuable to the family and company.

I want it made clear: what exists between Rand and Yui (and Kousuke) predates the affair and Nol. Yui was never a scorned lover who took things out on her lover's mistress and son. Had Rand never had an affair, he would still have been in this predicament with Yui and Kousuke, would have always struggled to reach his son as Yui continued to drive that wedge, to orchestrate their differences, to run interference. It was always Yui's intention that Rand be someone so completely out of reach of Kousuke that he would always be stuck vying for his attention, always trying to reach and surpass him, always so hungry or that approval that never came through. It just happened to be that Rand’s affair yielded another child, a potential heir (because it’s through Rand’s blood that the company goes), that she married this commoner man and afforded him everything she’d coveted and he embarrassed her, threw it all in her face, and made her look bad, created a threat to Kousuke’s position. But she already resented him, I think. She already had every intention of using Kousuke to take back what she believes is hers.

At some point, Rand must have grown exhausted, and maybe he gave up. Was that right, was that fair, when he had a child? When giving up hurt that child? When it comes to Rand, I think a lot about the safety demonstrations on airplanes, when they tell you not to try to help others (like your children) until you have helped yourself, until you've got your flotation device, your oxygen mask. If Rand himself is drowning, with Yui running laps around him running him ragged, how can he possibly help Kousuke? How can he possibly keep walking out into a hurricane, getting buffeted and thrown backwards by the wind, using all your energy just trying to catch up, much less ever getting where you need to be?

And that's the thing. When I say Rand's hands are tied, I don't mean it to absolve him - I say it to explain him. That Rand was always losing, that Yui has always had the upper hand. Rand has spent all of his time simply trying to catch up, much less ever getting to make an attack, much less ever getting to be a father.

I think a lot about the fact that at one time, Rand and Yui were separated, but they clearly never divorced. Why? What did he stand to lose if they did? I don't even mean just in his livelihood - though he certainly stood to lose a lot, and what happens to a mukoyoshi if they divorce, what assets would he lose? But more importantly: Rand stood to lose Kousuke. Even married to Yui he cannot protect Kousuke, but to be outside her reach? How much worse could it have been? Kousuke is already so incredibly isolated but we also know that Rand has tried to be Kousuke's father, that he has tried to reach out to him in ways that never reached Kousuke because of the interference Yui ran, because of the mindset that she had instilled in him as a young child that became such an inherent belief to him, because his love was commodified so that nothing he did or said to Kousuke could ever get through to this brain-washed child.

Another aspect of Rand's circumstances that are worth exploring is: he grew up an orphan. He was never adopted, he aged out of the system. Rand never had anyone to rely on, anyone to convey that warmth and love to him as a family might. He aged out and then took his life into his hands and became a self-made man with only his own back to rely on. Think about what that does to a person. Think about the way that might warp their perception of people and kindness and love. Maybe this was why it was so easy for him to choose a marriage for convenience. Maybe this was why he could pass up on the opportunity for real love. Maybe from a young age Rand was disillusioned, thought the world had nothing to offer him - the parallels between him and Nol are honestly staggering. Wouldn't it be so easy to make the choices he did, only to come to regret them later? To get a taste for something you thought impossible, or maybe something you thought you could give up, and be haunted by it?

It's not hard to surmise that Nessa must have been his true love, the one he could not quite give up, the one he couldn't let go of no matter how many years it had been since he made his choices, since he lost her, since everything went so wrong. And I think that as a result, it means that no matter what, his relationship with Nol would always, always be complicated. Nol would always be a reminder of what he had and what he lost - both in love and also in himself.

The parallels are truly staggering, and they extend far beyond the Rand Yui Nessa/Nol Alyssa Shinae cycle repeating itself. The kind of man young Nol described Rand as very much sounds like Yeonggi, like the kind of person Nol presented himself as. Yeonggi wasn't a mask just for Nol's friends - this was who everyone saw him as, including his family. Yeonggi was a means of staying off peoples' radars - never being so bad that he is in trouble, never being so great that he's also in trouble (with Yui and Kousuke). He was pleasant, got along with people, never caused trouble if he could help it. Not once was he roped into the family company - for better or for worse. He joked and laughed a lot, he seemed to always be there for friends. He was so much of what Nessa once saw in Rand.

Was it just that Nessa was the only person who drew that out of Rand? Or was it more of a parallel to Nol, that no matter how hard his life, these were integral core parts of him? Was he, at some point, taken advantage of? Did he trust the wrong person, reach out to someone undeserving? Was his kindness and friendship misconstrued by someone with far more nefarious intentions than he expected?

Something I can't help but think about a lot is the way that Rand always says what he means, but in cryptic ways, in ways Nol - and even often readers - cannot see through, that we have to reread again later. He never explains himself, never says what he means, and what is Nol to do with it, when everything Rand says comes off like a criticism of him no matter what? Much like Rand, Nol is damned if he does, damned if he doesn't. Does he please Rand or does he protect himself? Ultimately, they both have Nol's survival in mind, but one looks far less like it.

Consider Rand's words to Nol at the Kim formal - I don't deny that Rand said truly awful things. Does he fully mean what he says? Probably, in more ways than he can explain. When he tells Nol that he should be at Alyssa's side before someone less pathetic than him catches her attention, it feels both like "Do not leave her alone in a place like this with people like this because she will naively trust the wrong person and end up in a dangerous situation" and also "Behaving like this will drive away people like her". Is this the advice Nol needs? From his perspective, no. From his perspective, Rand finds him pathetic, finds him frivolous, thinks he's childish for being so lonely that he seeks out friendship at any opportunity, thinks he acts out just to spite him.

But from Rand's perspective, perhaps he thinks he is preparing Nol for this life - the family, the company, their social circle - the only way he can. He cannot reach out to Nol. He cannot be a father to him, lest Nol get punished more simply for existing. Rand knows all too well. He knows all too well what Yui is capable of - what she has done - and knows that in order to protect Nol, he had to create a buffer, the distance. In a way, it's like he sacrificed his right to be his father in an effort to keep him safe. For better or worse, Nol belongs to this society, too. He, too, needs to be aware of those around him, know who he can trust. In Rand's perspective, maybe Nol DOES look like he's foolish, going around trying to befriend people who might really be someone looking to take advantage of his kindness, who might be in Yui's pocket, who might be someone who doesn't have Nol's well being in mind. In staying with Alyssa, he's also keeping Nol out of harm's way, because he's not getting involved with anything.

Even though what happened to Shinae at the formal was clearly about Kousuke, Gun, and possibly Rand, it did still ultimately involve Nol. It did still ultimately get him involved and hurt - he wound up arrested and blamed for a crime he didn't commit and later took the blame for in court. Rand isn't entirely wrong: when Nol gets involved, it leads to more trouble, because Yui will take any and every opportunity to make his life worse. Even though this wasn't her ultimate goal (and it could be seen that Nol pleading guilty is not what she expected because Nol needs to be around and near Kousuke in order to be effective against him) it still worked to her advantage that it further plays into Nol's image that the public holds against him, that ensures Yui will be believed over Nol.

Rand isn't wrong: Nol underestimates Yui greatly, because he believes everything is about him and doesn't see how much worse it is, how much more of a monster she is, that this isn't about the illegitimate bastard son being a blight against her marriage, that it was always about so much more. And unfortunately we have seen that Rand is correct about other things, too - about how Nol's emotions get the best of him and while the "shove your feelings down and repress them" route is also not correct and healthy, we can see and at least understand why Rand operates the way he does, why he worries the way he does about Nol.

When I say Rand's hands are tied, I mean this: I mean that Rand has never had the opportunity to be a father to his children because Yui has deliberately run interference between him and one and if he shows any sign of affection, any sign of preferential treatment, any indication that he is trying to protect the other, it would make things worse for him.

He knows this.

Rand probably has an inkling about the night Nol was taken away - the first time he lost Nol. More than anyone else, Rand knows who Yui is, but has always been powerless against her. Without any proof of what she does, what can he do? How do you tell people that she is abusive when she doesn't lay a hand on you? When people make jokes of male domestic abuse survivors? How do you get people to see something that barely exists - because Yui doesn't have to get her hands dirty, because she never has to be direct. How do you make people see it?

When I say Rand's hands are tied, I mean whatever choice he makes would never be perfect, would never be right. What if he did it, left Yui and went to be with Nessa and raise Nol. What would change? Kousuke would be left even more alone. At least until now Kousuke felt that he wasn't good enough to receive Rand's care (even as Rand gave it) but what if he was convinced he was abandoned? And anyway, would Yui have stopped had Rand left her? I doubt it. It was never about the infidelity. If anything, it might have been worse. How dare this man, this commoner, come into her family and embarrass her - THEM - this way, to be given everything no one would give her just because he married her and then throw it away for what? Love? For a healthy relationship? To throw away everything she has coveted and worked so hard for? It would be such a slap to the face, an insult to her.

I don't think there was anything Rand could have done that would be "right". Yui would never let him know peace even if he left. If he fought harder, tried harder, maybe she'd have taken him down sooner. Perhaps not - she needed him to get this far so that Kousuke had someone to work towards, so that Kousuke can surpass him - but that doesn't mean she wouldn't have run him more ragged.

Do I agree with every choice he makes? Of course not. But I acknowledge that in his position, his choices are limited. I also acknowledge that in a man like him who has had to repress his emotions (lest Yui have something more to use against him), who has had to deny that he deeply cares (lest Yui continue to use that against him, to leverage it against him), who has been trying his damndest to survive and to help his sons survive when at every opportunity Yui is there to interfere has limited his choices. I understand where his agitation and fear and anger meet and how sometimes they are the same: how he wishes that Nol was never born because none of this would be so bad because if he'd never fathered another child then he wouldn't stand the possibility of being heir there would be no threat - that Nessa might still be alive, that Nol would never have existed to endure the abuse he did. I understand how he can mean and not mean the terrible things because he knows his role in all of this - that this was never about the infidel but it's still about the infidel, that Nol was always in danger no matter where he was. Reading 149 was the first time I really noticed, on a more immediate level - the way Rand speaks in double meanings, and how his fear and anger come out so often in what he says to Nol, because of how much he fears for him, because of how helpless he’s always been to protect him. “Why do you have to be my son?” Because maybe he both regrets that Nol is his son but more than that - what it means for him to be his son, the danger it put him in – that were he anyone else’s son, Yui wouldn’t have cared about him. He wouldn’t be in a position where he ever had to stand before the judge at all, let alone plead guilty for a crime he didn’t commit. “Why am I even trying, all of the effort will just go to waste”. And is he wrong? No matter the outcome, what good is all this effort? Not only that Nol himself can’t read Rand’s mind, but what if it went differently? Yui doesn’t stop - she has no intention and Rand knows it! If not this, it would be something else! “I should have just sent you away to boarding school from the very start.” Again, I don’t deny that a part of Rand probably means what he says, but I think the secondary meaning is still clear - at least if he’d sent Nol away maybe, just maybe, it could have protected him better. Maybe Rand thought keeping him close would be better, where he could see what was going on, maybe he worried he’d be in more danger if he couldn’t monitor him. Maybe a part of him couldn’t help but send away that one tie he had to Nessa - their child - had wanted to protect him for her.

I think that's the difficult thing about Rand. On some level, he acknowledges that thing are worse because Nol exists - but not in a "I hate my child" way but the guilt of a man who knows his child has suffered for his choices, the guilt of a man who knows that two peoples' (three when we include Kousuke, four when we include his own) lives have been ruined because of choices he made. It's not that Rand doesn't love his children - it's that he loves them so incredibly much and he is powerless to help them, that the effort he makes is never good enough that it makes it worse that it can't get through. That's the great tragedy: Rand was always damned if you do, damned if you don't, and it doesn't absolve him of the hurt he's caused Nol, but I also step back and acknowledge: what could he have done differently, that wouldn't have further endangered Nol? On some level, Rand has done what he thought was right. Only in hindsight can you look back and see how your choices were wrong, but even in hindsight you can only speculate, can only suppose. Would it have been better to send Nol away to boarding school, where he could have been away from everything? But that’s the thing with Yui, isn’t it? Her reach seems to extend as far as she wills it and she always gets her way. If she didn’t want Nol to go to a boarding school, she’d still find a way to stop it. And what if Rand had said screw it, stood up to her? Everything Rand did was ultimately to keep Nol and Kousuke alive, even if it was at the detriment of their relationship. He could have more openly defied Yui, but would she have let him get away with it? And who would protect Nol and Kousuke in his absence, if she did away with him sooner rather than later, if he went from being a fun game to an obstacle to be eliminated? 

Rand was always doomed to fail. That is the thing about Yui's trap - she was always set to have that advantage, Rand has always been trying to keep up. There was never a route where he succeeds here, because she always has the upperhand. What could Rand do for either of his sons that wouldn't have backfired? In a way, Rand's game has really been about the long haul. At some point, he must've known he'd never get to be their fathers. He tried! He continued to try. His methods aren't good but he tries to protect Nol, he tries to get through to Kousuke, he tries to give them the comfort he never had the opportunity to, but it's too late, it's all too late, but they are alive and that is what matters.

When Rand shows up after that night of absolute concern and worry, concerned about both of his sons, for the second time he runs the risk of losing Nol. He knows that it's too late, that nothing he can do at this point will help. He knows that at this point it's better to walk away, to leave Nol in the hands of those who can openly love him and openly take care of him, in the hands of those who don't endanger his life for caring. But we know that Rand loves him, no matter how much he has let his fear and anger mix up. We know what it has cost him, what he has lost.

The version of Rand that Nessa spoke of has never shown up. I don't think it's not that he never existed - it's that somewhere along the way he lost himself, the price he paid for perhaps the mistakes he made or the greatness he amassed. Maybe it was both. But he lost himself. He lost his sense of self, his identity. He lost both his sons, in more than one way. Rand, like so many others, is a character whose choices are rooted in his efforts at survival - but unlike others who are struggling to survive themselves, Rand's choices have been rooted so heavily in trying to help his children survive, too. He, more than anyone else, knows how dangerous Yui truly is, knows what she is capable of, knows that this is not only about Nol was never about Nol or the infidel, that it was always about more.

And yes, part of the tragedy is that when it comes to these cycles of abuse, sometimes the abused goes on to abuse, too. Rand closed himself off, repressed his feelings, tried to pretend he doesn't care, tried to hide how much he cared, and it still had ramifications. He did this to protect himself but look how it hurt others. And had done the opposite, it would have further hurt him and them. Something we as an audience come to realize is that Yui is so skilled at her manipulation, her execution of abuse, how she uses everything against everyone. Even her own son tries to hide his interests from her, tries to shut her out of his life because he, too, knows all too well what happens when Yui catches wind of any interest. So Rand closes himself off, he becomes an isolated fortress, an impenetrable island of a man that no one can reach and can reach no one. Maybe it's better, in his mind, that he was a cold, terrible father than one who couldn't protect him.

But the unfortunate truth is: there was so little Rand could ever do to protect them. He failed them, and not for lack of trying, but regardless, it was a failure still. And worse, because he was so blinded to what was happening, because so much of it was happening out of his line of sight, not only did he fail to protect Nol, but he drove him to another unforseen danger, one that he had hoped might be a life raft after all.

In the end, a man struggling cannot do much to save others when eh can barely save himself.

In the end, when Yui ties someone's hands, she does so expertly.

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #Randulph Hirahara #Yui Hiraha #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #Kousuke Hirahara #Nessa Lochlainn #there's a lot going on in this post and it's mostly me exploring my new favorite subject: that in some way everyone is trying to survive #that Rand is such a polarizing character but also in his position what could he have done differently and it been better? #that this doesn't absolve him of the hurt he has caused but that also as a readers i can understand his choices #and that it sucks #everything about ILY is a tragedy the more you look at it #even Yui is a tragedy I think #and it's just so devastating that these tragedies continue to hurt over and over and over #I understand why people hate Rand and that's fine but #i also hope people understand that Rand has very much had his hands tied all along #that i don't think there was ever anything he could have done differently to yield a better outcome #and that is so depressing

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Communities & the cast I shall be writing for~! Though I'm willing to make exceptions, just ask me about the character in my askbox first and I'll decide whenever or not I'll make a special case =}

These next dots shall indicate how I’ll write for particular characters. Despite it completely depending on the request itself and although ageing them up is also very much possible, some just cannot be written off as romantic and/or suggestive. I assure you understand that.

They’ll all remain •• unless if specified otherwise.

• = Platonic and/or Pet-like

• = Romantic

• = Suggestive

• = NSFW

My organized list 🤌🏻 :

UTAU + Vocaloid [+AUs from any song. Example: The Court Jester!Fukase] :

Hatsune Miku ,, Kagamine Rin ,, Kagamine Len ,, Luka Megurine ,, Meiko ,, Kaito ,, Gumi ,, Fukase •••• ,, Utatane Piko •••• ,, Flower ,, Oliver

UTAUloids

Matsudappoiyo ,, Kugutsushi Utau ,, Kazehiki Utau ,, Kuzuda Rou ,, Kuzuda Yone

The Evillious Chronicles [Daughter/Servant of Evil] AU:

Riliane ‘Rin’ Lucifen d'Autriche ,, Alexiel Lucifen d'Autriche // Allen ‘Len’ Avadonia ••• ,, Kyle ‘Kaito’ Marlon ,, Michaela ‘Miku’ ,, Germaine ‘Meiko’ Avadonia

Baldi's Basics :

Baldi ,, Arts and Crafters ,, Playtime • ,, 1st Prize ,, It's a Bully ,, Principal of the Thing ,, Gotta Sweep ,, Cloudy Copter ,, Beans ,, Chalkles ,, Dr. Reflex ,, Mrs. Pomp ,, The Test ,, Null // filename2 ,, 0th Prize ,, PlaceFace ,, Bladder ,, Johnny

The Powerpuff Girls :

Blossom ,, Bubbles ,, Buttercup ,, Professor Utonium ,, Bunny ,, Dynamo ,, Bullet • ,, The Mayor • ,, Miss Sara Bellum ,, Miss Keane ,, Robin Snyder ,, Blisstina ‘Bliss’ ,, Bell ,, Breannin ,, Barasia

Villains:

Mojo Jojo ,, Brick ,, Boomer ,, Butch ,, Princess Morbucks ,, Fuzzy Lumpkins ,, The Amoeba Boys ,, The Gangreen Gang ,, Sedusa (+Ima GoodLady) ,, Rainbow the Clown//Mr. Mime ,, Abracadaver ,, The Sandman ,, The Gnome ,, Dick Hardly ,, Knock-off Powerpuff Girls ,, Him (+MIH) ,, Owlie Boop ,, Allegro ,, Chelsea ,, Sapna Nehru ,, Packrat ,, The Powerpunk Girls [Berserk, Brat and Brute] ,, The Rowdyright Boys [Blake, Bash and Breaker] ,, The RowdyRouge Girls [Bellicose, Bedlam and Bruiser]

Power of the Force Girls AU:

Babbles ,, Petal ,, Peanut ,, Profesor Yoddle ,, Major Grievance

Pokémon :

Ash Ketchum ,, Pikachu • ,, Misty ,, Brock ,, Ghost of Maiden's Peak [+Gastly] ,, Sabrina ,, Jessie ,, James ,, Meowth ,, Giovanni ,, Sakura ,, Satsuki ,, Sumomo ,, Koume ,, Tamao ,, evil Togepi • ,, Wally ,, Ingo & Emmet ,, Serena ,, Aria ,, Miette ,, Clemont ,, Bonnie • ,, Trevor ,, Shauna ,, Tierno ,, Penelope ,, Jessica ,, Elise ,, Korrina ,, Valerie ,, Lysandre ,, XY Malamar ,, Hau ,, Hala ,, Ilima ,, Olivia ,, Sophocles ,, Lana ,, Kiawe ,, Mallow ,, Acerola ,, Hapu ,, Lillie ,, Gladion ,, Lusamine ,, Team Skull Grunts ,, Plumeria ,, Guzma ,, Nebby • ,, Hop ,, Bede ,, Milo ,, Nessa ,, Kabu ,, Allister ,, Bea ,, Melony ,, Marnie ,, Piers ,, Opal • ,, Raihan ,, Leon ,, Sordward & Shielbert

Creepypasta :

Bloody Painter // Helen Otis ,, Hobo Heart ,, Candy Pop ,, Kagekao ,, Homicidal Liu // Liu Woods + Sully ,, Ticci Toby // Tobias Erin Rogers ,, Frankie ,, The Puppeteer // Jonathan Blake ,, Jason the Toymaker // Jason Meyer ,, Julius the Dressmaker // Julius Doherty ,, Suicide Sadie // Sadie Marie Benette ,, Pure Evil ••• ,, Lazari Natalie Swann • ,, Oliver Henderson •

Monster Hunter Stories :

Lute ,, Cheval ••• ,, Lilia ,, Mille ,, Hyoro ••• ,, Genie ••• ,, Itsy-Bits ••• ,, Dr. Manelger • ,, Debli ,, Avinia // Ayuria ,, Gale ,, Kayna ,, Ena ,, Alwin ,, Zellard ••• ,, Reverto ,, Kyle ,, Yoomlana

South Park + Hellpark :

Eric Cartman ,, Stan Marsh ,, Kyle Broflovski ,, Kenny McCormick ,, Leopold “Butters” Stotch + Professor Chaos + Marjorine ,, Craig Tucker [+Hellpark] ,, Clyde Donovan [+Hellpark •••] ,, Tweek Tweak [+Hellpark •••] ,, Thomas [+Hellpark •••] ,, Tolkien Black ,, James “Jimmy” Valmer ,, Timothy “Timmy” Burch ,, Scott Malkinson ,, Jacob Hallery ,, Brimmy ,, Nate ,, Dougie O'Connell • ,, Karen McCormick • ,, Scott Tenorman ,, Wendy Testaburger ,, Heidi Turner ,, Bebe Stevens ,, Red McArthur ,, Nichole Daniels ,, Leslie Meyers [+Hellpark] ,, Rebecca Cotswolds [+Hellpark] ,, Cosette

Goth Kids

Michael [Tall Goth] ,, Henrietta Biggle ,, Georgie “Firkle” Smith • ,, Pete

Foreign Kids

Gregory of Yardale [+Hellpark •••] ,, Philip “Pip” Pirrup [+Hellpark •••] ,, Herbert Pocket [+Hellpark •••] ,, Christophe The Mole ,, Damien Thorn [+Hellpark •••] ,, Estella Havisham [+Hellpark •••]

Corpse Party :

Satoshi Mochida ,, Yuka Mochida • ,, Seiko Shinohara ,, Naomi Nakashima ,, Ayumi Shinozaki ,, Yoshiki Kishinuma ,, Mayu Suzumoto ,, Sakutaro Morishige ••• ,, Yuuya Kizami ,, Naho Saenoki ,, Sachiko Shinozaki •

Toilet-Bound Hanako-Kun :

Hanako // Amane Yugi ,, Yashiro Nene ,, Kou Minamoto ,, Teru Minamoto ,, Mitsuba Sousuke ,, Aoi Akane ,, Akane Aoi ,, Sakura Nanamine ,, Natsuhiko Hyuga ,, Tsukasa Yugi ,, Tsuchigomori Ryūjirou

Super Mario Bros :

Mario ,, Princess Peach Toadstool ,, Luigi ,, Polterpup • ,, Poochy • ,, Dorrie • ,, Plessie • ,, Yoshi • ,, Toad ,, Captain Toad ,, Toadette ,, Princess Daisy ,, Rosalina ,, Luma • ,, Donkey Kong ,, Diddy Kong ,, Wario ,, Waluigi ,, Dreambert ,, Sprixie Princesses ,, King Bowser ••• + King Koopa ••• ,, Dry Bowser ,, Bowser Jr. • ,, Kamek ,, Boom Boom ,, Pom Pom ,, Motley Bossblob ,, Nabbit ,, Birdo ,, Petey Piranha ,, Piranha Plant [+fire Piranha's] • ,, Shy Guy ,, Blarrg • ,, Cheep chomp • ,, Chain Chomp • ,, Chargin' Chuck • ,, Dry Bone • ,, Buzzy Beetle • ,, Spiny • ,, Wiggler • ,, Hammer Bro ,, Lakitu ,, Wart ,, King Bob-Omb ,, King Boo ,, Draggadon • ,, Wingo • ,, Fawful ,, Dimentio ,, Best Fitness Friends [Dieter, Beef and Kaley]

The Koopalings + DiC cartoons

Larry Koopa ••• + Cheatsy Koopa •••

Ludwig Von Koopa •••• + Kooky Von Koopa •••

Morton Jr. Koopa ••• + Big Mouth Koopa •••

Wendy O Koopa ••• + Kootie Pie Koopa ••

Lemmy Koopa ••• + Hip Koopa •

Iggy Koopa •••• + Hop Koopa •

Roy Koopa •••• + Bully Koopa •••

The Broodals

Topper ,, Harriet ,, Rango ,, Spewart

Kirby :

Kirby ,, Bandana Waddle Dee ,, Meta Knight ,, Galacta Knight ,, King Dedede ,, Scarfy • ,, Marx + Marx Soul + Manga Marx ••• ,, Magolor ,, People of the Sky ,, Taranza ,, Sectonia [+Queen form] ,, Susie ,, President Haltmann ,, Star Dream • ,, Galactic Nova • ,, Prince Fluff ,, Shadow Kirby ,, Dark Meta Knight

Banami-luv gijinka AU:

Kirby ,, Meta Knight ,, Marx ,, Galactic Nova ,, Galacta Knight

Care Bears + Movies :

The Care Bears • ,, Care Bear Cousins • ,, Auntie Freeze • ,, Professor Coldheart • ,, Frostbite ,, No Heart ,, Beastly ,, Shriekeline “Shreeky” No Heart

The Care Bears: Adventure in Wonderland

Alice ,, White Rabbit ,, Caterpillar ,, Cheshire Cat ,, Mad Hatter ,, Stan the Jabberwocky ,, Princess of Wonderland ,, The Wizard of Wonderland ,, Dim & Dum

Care Bears Movie II: A New Generation

Dark Heart ,, Christy ,, Dawn ,, John

Happy Tree Friends :

Cuddles ,, Giggles ,, Toothy ,, Lumpy ,, Petunia ,, Handy ,, Nutty ,, Sniffles ,, Pop ,, Cub • ,, Flaky ,,The Mole ,, Disco Bear ,, Russell ,, Lifty & Shifty ,, Mime ,, Cro Marmot ,, Flippy + Fliqpy ,, Ka Boom ,, Splendid ,, Splendon’t ,, Lammy ,, Mr. Pickles,, Truffles ,, FatKat

Chikn Nuggit :

Chikn Nuggit ,, Cheezborger ,, Iscream ,, Slushi ,, Fwench Fwy ,, Sody Pop • ,, Sassparilla ,, Cofi ,, Hawt Saus ,, Bezel ,, Beta!Fwench Fwy ,, Beta!Slushi ,, Beta!Hawt Saus

Angry Birds :

Red ,, Chuck ,, Bomb ,, Matilda ,, The Blues ,, Jake, Jay, Jim • ,, Bubbles ,, Hal ,, Silver ,, Ice Bird ,, Terence ,, Corporal Pig ,, Foreman Pig ,, Chef Pig ,, King Pig ,, Prince Porky ••• ,, Stella ,, Poppy ,, Luca • ,, Willow ,, Dahlia ,, Gale ,, Handsome Pig ,, Artist Pig

Littlest Pet Shop :

Zoe Trent ,, Russell Ferguson [+Cyril McFlip] ,, Minka Mark ,, Penny Ling ,, Vinnie Terrio ,, Sunil Nevla ,, Pepper Clark ,, Buttercream Sundae ,, Sugar Sprinkles ,, Mitzi ,, Shahrukh ,, Madame Pom ,, Delilah Barnsley ,, Scout Kerry ,, Sweet Cheeks ,, Cashmere Biskit ,, Velvet Biskit ,, Blythe Baxter,, Brittany Biskit,, Whittany Biskit

My Little Pony :

Twilight Sparkle ,, Rarity ,, Pinkie Pie ,, Apple Jack ,, Fluttershy ,, Rainbow Dash ,, Spike ,, Sunset Shimmer ,, Starlight Glimmer ,, Trixie Lulamoon ,, Moondancer ,, Coco Pommel ,, Coloratura ‘Rara’ ,, Maud Pie ,, Limestone Pie ,, Marble Pie ,, Flutterbat ,, Chimera ,, The Diamond Dogs [Rover, Fido, and Spot] ,, Discord ••• ,, Lord Tirek ,, Flurry Heart • ,, Cozy Glow • ,, Snowdrop • ,, Nightmare Moon ,, Daybreaker ,, Queen Chrysalis ,, Unreformed Changelings ••• ,, Thorax ••• ,, Pharynx ••• ,, King Sombra ,, Tantabus ,, The Sphinx ,, Pony of Shadows // Stygian ,, Grogar

Grimdark AUs:

Fluttershy [Shed.MOV] ,, Pinkamena Diane Pie [Cupcakes] ,, Rainbow Dash [Rainbow Factory] ,, Lil Miss Rarity ,, Starlight Glimmer [The Friendship Test] ,, Fluttershy [My Little Amnesia] ,, Rainbow Dash [My Little Amnesia] ,, Pinkie Pie [My Little Amnesia]

G1 AU: >>>

Megan Williams ,, Spike • ,, Danny Williams ,, Molly Williams • ,, The Moochick ,, The Bushwoolies ,, The Furbobs ,, The Stonebacks ,, The Grundles ,, Sludge ,, G'nash ,, Dinah • ,, Squire Alonzo ,, The Crabnasties ,, Mayor Camembert ,, The Sheriff of Muensterville ,, Prince Edgar • ,, Sunny • ,, Puck ,, Pluma [+The Ghost of Paradise Estate] ,, Grandpa Ruff • ,, Woebegone ,, The Witch ,, Prince Phillip ,, Garth ,, Mayve • ,, His Elevated Eminence •

Applejack ,, Bow Tie ,, Bubbles ,, Cotton Candy ,, Ember • ,, Firefly ,, Glory ,, Medley ,, Moondancer ,, Twilight ,, Heart Throb ,, Lickety-Split ,, Posey ,, Powder ,, Sparkler ,, Skydancer ,, Starflower ,, Majesty ,, Sundance ,, Gusty ,, Buttons ,, Fizzy ,, Ribbon ,, Galaxy ,, Mimic ,, Gingerbread ,, Scoops ,, Magic Star ,, Shady ,, Cherries Jubilee ,, Cupcake ,, Truly ,, Sweet Stuff ,, Wind Whistler ,, North Star ,, Paradise ,, Surprise ,, Lofty ,, Locket ,, Whizzer ,, Twilight [Pegasus] ,, Masquerade ,, Princess Tiffany ,, Princess Primrose ,, Princess Royal Blue ,, Princess Serena ,, Princess Sparkle ,, Princess Starburst ,, Quarterback ,, Salty ,, Slugger ,, Tex ,, Steamer ,, Trucker ,, Baby Cotton Candy • ,, Baby Glory • ,, Baby Moondancer • ,, Baby Surprise • ,, Baby Lickety-Split • ,, Baby Gusty • ,, Baby Lofty • ,, Baby Ribbon • ,, Baby Shady • ,, Baby Sundance • ,, Baby Bouncy • ,, Baby Cuddles • ,, Baby Fifi • ,, Baby Half Note • ,, Baby Heart Throb • ,, Baby North Star • ,, Baby Quackers • ,, Baby Tic Tac Toe • ,, Baby Tiddley-Winks •

Seawinkle ,, Sealight ,, Wavedancerran ,, Baby Backstroke • ,, Sand Dollar ,, Sea Mist ,, Whitecap ,, Baby Sun Shower • ,, Baby Water Lily • ,, Ripple ,, Beachcomber ,, Sea Shimmer ,, Sun Shower ,, Surf Rider ,, Water Lily ,, Morning Glory ,, Rosedust ,, Forget-Me-Not ,, Honeysuckle ,, Lily ,, Peach Blossom

Scorpan ,, Tirac ,, Beezen ,, The Duchess ,, Knight Shade ,, Zeb ,, Erebus ,, King Charlatan ,, Niblick ,, Draggle ,, Reeka ,, Hydia • ,, Ahgg ,, The Smooze • ,, Squirk ,, Crank ,, Frazzits • ,, The Flores ,, Jewel Wizard ,, Lavan [+crystallized form] ,, Sting ,, Queen Bumble ,, Princess Porcina ,, The Raptorians ,, Crunch the Rockdog ,, The Sqree ,, Somnambula ,, Kyrie ,, Bray ,, Grogar

Popee The Performer + Chinchikurin :

Popee + Hanabishi Kuruwaya •••• ,, Kedamono + Keita Ookami ,, Marifa + Mariha Kuruwaya ,, Papi + Nichiteru Kuruwaya ,, Alien ,, Mirror Popee // Eepop •••• ,, Mirror Kedamono // Onomadek

Seito Kure ,, Boron Makuroshi ,, Toru Garakuta ,, Haruma Neko

The Amazing Digital Circus :

Pomni ••• ,, Caine ••• ,, Bubble • ,, Ragatha ••• ,, Jax ••• ,, Zooble ••• ,, Gangle ••• ,, Kinger ••• ,, Gloink Queen • ,, Dr. Football ,, Moon ,, Sun ,, Paine ,, The Bone Pastor

Abstracted characters [Digital+abstracted form] :

Kaufmo ••• ,, Queenie ,, Rett (yellow dog) ••• ,, Wriggle (worm on a string) ,, Doz (purple dinosaur) ,, Blonk (pink cyclops) ,, Moppsy (mouse sockpuppet) ,, Yucko (yellow rabbit-like creature) ,, Bizz (polka-dot covered clown)

Fan-made names by Sunnie_Daies on Reddit

Lego Monkie Kid :

MK ‘Monkie Kid’ •••• ,, Mei ,, Tang ,, Pigsy ,, Sandy ,, Mo • ,, Redson •••• ,, Demon Bull King ,, Princess Iron Fan ,, Bull clones • ,, Lady Bone Demon •••• (+disguise form) ,, Bai He • [Little girl] ,, Spider Queen •••• ,, Huntsman •••• ,, Goliath [Strong Spider] ,, Sun Wukong ‘Monkie king’ ,, Macaque ,, Syntax (+pre-corrupted/human form) •••• ,, Mayor (+chief of war) •••• ,, Yin & Jin •••• ,, Guardians of Knowledge ,, Lion Guardians • ,, Demon Accountant ,, Nezha/Third Lotus prince ,, Scorpion Queen ,, Azure Lion ,, Peng ,, Yellowtusk ,, Chang'e ,, Tan Sanzang ,, Zhu Bajie ,, Sha Wujing ,, Ao Lie •••• ,, Ao Guang/Dragon of the East ,, Master Subodhi ,, Attendant ,, Kui Mulang ,, MK [Party clone] •••• ,, MK [Artist clone] •••• ,, MK [Delivery clone] ••• (he won't be obese here...) ,, MK [Backup clone] •••• ,, Store Owner

Ferdinand :

Ferdinand [+young form] ,, Paco ,, Nina • ,, Juan ,, Valiente [+young form] ,, Guapo [+young form] ,, Bones [+young form] ,, Lupe ,, Angus ,, Maquina ,, Una ,, Dos ,, Cuatro ,, Hans ,, Greta ,, Klaus ,, El Primero

Disney :

Princesses:

Snow White ,, Cinderella ,, Tinkerbell ,, Alice • ,, Aurora ,, Ariel ,, Melody • ,, Belle ,, Jasmine ,, Pocahontas ,, Esmeralda ,, Mulan ,, Tiana ,, Jane ,, Anna ,, Elsa ,, Rapunzel ,, Merida ,, Megara ,, Moana ,, Elena ,, Raya ,, Sofia •

Heroines//Heroes//+More:

The Beast ,, Lumière ,, Cogsworth ,, Mrs. Potts ,, Chip • ,, Aladdin ,, Genie ,, Carpet • ,, The Prince [Snow White] ,, The Seven Dwarfs ,, Prince Charming ,, Fairy Godmother ,, Jaq & Gus ,, Grand Duke ,, The King [Cinderella] ,, Cheshire Cat ,, Mad Hatter ,, Caterpillar ,, White Rabbit ,, Prince Phillip ,, Flora, Fauna & Merryweather ,, King Triton ,, Prince Eric ,, Sebastian ,, Flounder • ,, Tarzan ,, Terk ,, Kala • ,, Flynn Rider ,, Hercules ,, Phil ,, Sisu ,, Tuk Tuk • ,, Princess Amber ,, Prince James ,, Baileywick ,, Princess Hildegard ,, Princess Clio ,, Oona ,, Charlotte ‘Lottie’ la Bouff ,, Prince Naveen [+frog form] ,, Li Shang ,, Mushu ,, Yao, Ling & Chien Po ,, Ting-Ting, Su & Mei ,, King Fergus ,, Queen Elinor ,, Hamish, Hubert & Harris ,, Lord Macintosh [+young] ,, Lord MacGuffin [+young] ,, Lord Dingwall [+wee] ,, Quasimodo ,, Clopin Trouillefou ,, Maoi ,, Chief Tui ,, Gramma Tala • ,, Te Fiti • ,, Hen Wen • ,, Gurgi ,, Miss Bianca ,, Bernard ,, Jake ,, Cody • ,, Wilbur ,, Marahute • ,, Kovu ,, Kiara ,, Vitani ,, Carl Fredericksen [+young] ,, Ellie Fredricksen [+young] ,, Russell • ,, Kevin • ,, Miguel Rivera ,, Abuelita Elena • ,, Mamá Coco • ,, Papá Julio • ,, Tía Victoria ,, Tía Rosita ,, Héctor •••• ,, Mamá Imelda ,, Óscar & Felipe ,, Chicharrón ,, Pepita • ,, Kristoff ,, Olaf • ,, Bruni • ,, Riley • ,, Joy ,, Sadness ,, Disgust ,, Fear ,, Anger ,, Bing Bong ,, Luca Paguro ,, Alberto Scorfano ,, Giulia Marcovaldo ,,

Villains:

Captain Hook ,, Cruella de Vil ,, Jasper & Horace ,, Jafar ,, Maleficent ,, Diablo • ,, Gaston ,, Queen of Hearts ,, Ursula ,, Hades •••• ,, Pain & Panic ,, Lady Tremaine ,, Anastasia ,, Drizella ,, Mother Gothel ,, Scar ,, Zira ,, Nuka ,, Shenzi, Banzai & Ed ,, Si & Am • ,, Mor'du ,, The Evil Queen ,, Doctor Facilier ,, Yzma • ,, Kronk ,, Randall Boggs ,, Chef Skinner ,, Amos Slade ,, Percival C. McLeach ,, Joanna the Goanna ,, Claude Frollo [FUCK HIM UP!!] •••• ,, Clayton ,, Big Bad Wolf ,, Buddy Pine//Syndrome ••• ,, Mirage ,, Jangles the Clown ,, Namaari ,, Prince Hans ,, Tamatoa ,, Te Kā • ,, Ernesto de la Cruz

Misc. :

- Reisuke Houjou • [Mirai Nikki // Future Diary]

- Rococo [Omori]

- Lucian Abbot ••• [R.I.P aka Really Introverted Producer]

- Tobey McCallister [WordGirl]

- Dr. Sylvester Ashling [Epithet Erased]

- Postman // Victor Grantz (+ _____ skin) [Identity V]

- Ahmanet (+alive Ahmanet) ••• [The Mummy]

- The Lamb // Lambert [Cult of the Lamb]

- ENA (+ _____ form) [Joel G]

- The Collector [The Owl House]

- Blommy // Bloomy [Fluffffpillow's oc]

- Sun [Two Face ,, GH'S Animation]

- Scooby-Doo [Velma Meets the Original Velma]

- Patchy the Pirate // Flying Dutchman [SpongeBob SquarePants | The Time Travelling Ghost Pirate Theory] •••

- Senpai (+Spirit) [Friday Night Funkin]

° Rio Ranger (+Laizer)/Toto Noel •••• ,, Sei Satou ••• ,, Kai Satou •••• [Your Turn To Die]

° Monaca Towa ,, Nagisa Shingetsu ,, Jataro Kemuri ,, Masaru Daimon ,, Kotoko Utsugi [Danganronpa // Warriors of Hope]

° Isaac “Zack” Foster ,, Rachel Gardner ,, Edward “Eddie” Mason ,, Daniel “Danny” Dickens ,, Catherine “Cathy” Ward ,, Abraham Grey [Angels of Death // Satsuriku no Tenshi]

° Satou Matsuzaka ,, Shio Kōbe • ,, Asahi Kōbe ,, Taiyō Mitsuboshi ,, Sumire Miyazaki ,, Mitori Tajima ,, Shōko Hida ,, Satou’s aunt • [Happy Sugar Life]

° Eun Sian ,, Chae Yul •••• ,, Chae Yuri ,, Hyun Yujin ,, Min Hyunee [Secret Alliance]

° Aoi Mukou ,, Miyuki Sone ,, Haru [You and Me and He // Totono]

° The Angel •••• - The Demon •••• - The small Demon • [Avogado6]

° Say Carnes ,, Arc Carnes [The Chattering Lack Of Common Sense/The Chattering Of Teeth and Lack Of Common Sanity]

° Kennith Simmons ,, Stephanie Glass ,, Greg Hoffman [The Colorbars Broadcast of 1987] •••

° Andrew Graves •••• ,, Ashley Graves •••• ,, Julia [The Coffin of Andy & LeyLey]

° Justine Florbelle ,, Aloïs Racine (+pre-torture, +mid-torture) ,, Basile Giroux (+pre-torture, +mid-torture) ,, Malo de Vigny (+pre-torture +mid-torture) [Amnesia: Justine] ••••

° Radiant_Day ,, Unstable_Day ,, Scary_Day ,, Great_Day ,, Dreadful_Day ,, Benevolent_Day ,, Emotionless_Day [Days Union]

° Rush ,, Hide ,, Seek ,, Eyes ,, Halt ,, Ambush ,, Screech • ,, Figure ,, Jack ,, Glitch [Roblox Doors]

° Amethyst van der Troll ,, Ruby Trollman ,, Sapphire Trollzawa ,, Onyx von Trollenberg ,, Topaz Trollhopper ,, Simon (+Garnet Trollovski) ,, Snarf • [Trollz]

° Sharko ,, Marina ,, Zig ,, Bernie ,, The Ghastly Ghost ,, Manic Mermaid ,, King Neptune [Zig & Sharko]

° Oh ,, Gratuity ‘Tip’ Tucci ,, Pig • ,, Gorg ,, Kyle ,, Captain Smek ,, Boov [Home]

° Pound (+Monstar form) ,, Bang (+Monstar form) ,, Nawt (+Monstar form) ,, Bupkus (+Monstar form) ,, Blanko (+Monstar form) [Space Jam // The Nerdlucks]

° Charmander ,, Squirtle ,, Bulbasaur ,, Leader Caterpie ,, Whiskers ,, Gastly • ,, Haunter ,, Flareon [Starter Squad by Shippiddge]

° Freddy Fazbear ,, Foxy the Pirate ,, Chica ,, Bonnie ,, Mangle ,, Springtrap ,, Fredbear ,, Toy Freddy ,, Toy Chica ,, Toy Bonnie [FNaF Tony Crynight]

° Kitsunami the Fennec ••• ,, Dr. Starline ,, Infinite the Jackal ,, Rookie the Wolf [Sonic the Hedgehog]

- [Any Tails variant will do tbh] •••• ➴

OG Miles ‘‘Tails” Prower • movie Tails • boom Tails • Anti-Miles • SH/TSAA Tails • (There's something about Knuckles) Tails • Blacksmith • (Tails’ Dark Diary) Tails • WWMH Miles • Nine • Mangey • Sails • Tails.EXE • starved Tails • Inner Tails • Ali Baba • Tailsop • Tails-Zilla • Tails Doll • Metal Tails • Luther • (Tails Gets Trolled) Tails • AOSTH Tails • Zails the Zone Cop • pinball/brainwashed Tails • Requital (The Sonic Oddities) • (Sonic Prime) Tails • (The Ankh) Hologram Tails/Hollow • (Operation Crimson) Tails • (Operation Crimson) Flor • Tails emo AU (Kayla Green)

May add more in the future ...

[dddesiree]

PRESENTE DE NATAL PARA A PRINCESA TONY.

//OOC: ela pediu pra eu postar separado a edit 💘

para @princesasapatona, desirée deu uma pulseira para se lembrar da selecionada de la rochelle sempre que usasse. mas também planejou outro presente com bastante antecedência. aproveitando que oliver, um de seus irmãos mais velhos, estava estudando game design, desirée pediu para ele criar algo especial dela para a princesa (como pagamento, desi teria que lavar a louça dele por um ano quando voltasse pra casa, com uma coroa na cabeça ou não).

desi pediu por um jogo de videogame com a história de uma princesa (tony) que tem seu castelo invadido por zumbis durante a seleção e tem que escolher rápido uma delas para acompanhá-la em uma grande jornada (nessa versão demo do jogo a princesa só pode escolher desirée ou, se escolher outra, vai ser mordida por um zumbi em cinco minutos).

o jogo é curto e tem só 3 horas de duração e conta com outros personagens da seleção aparecendo no caminho. oliver disse que, se ela gostar, pode fazer muito mais com a ideia.

// os créditos para as bonequinhas da tony e da desi vai para esse picrew. (se alguém tiver lendo, faça bonequinho do seu char também!!!)

#w/ tony #edit

[avid-idiot]

As soon as a I add 'my' to your nickname, it's game over

#my dumbass (atsumu) #my hobo (oliver) #game over for me btw #im the best thing to ever happen to them #—nessa rambles💬

[numberonebidoofenjoyer]

YELLO AND ELLO PALDEA!!! I HAVE RETURNED FROM MY CASCARRAFA TRIP! IT WAS AWESOME!!

You don’t gotta type in caps, y’know, bzzt…

Sorry Roto! But it was so COOL! I did get my prescription glasses thanks to my friend Nemona! The nonsense they told me about why couldn’t take Flying Taxis to places we haven’t been was someone along the lines of ‘We don’t have our own navigation system, and if some kid doesn’t know how to get to their city; we don’t want to be held responsible’. When questioned on why they can’t just use the kid’s Rotom Phone, they got mysteriously silent.

(Gotta love the government, bzzt.)

Anyways!! Finally saw one of those Cyclizar things out in the wild and!!!

They unironically look sooo cool! I wonder what the seats people use to ride on them look? Not to mention how straight up convenient this is. No wonder you barely see cars here!

Cyclizar typically need a 2-hours rest after traveling long distances, though that information could be inaccurate! If it is, please let us know!

Also went to the Kofu Lounge! Nemo wanted me to meet the Gym Leader who runs the restaurant as his main hustle, but he was busy at the auction house? I think? Kinda reminds me of Gym Leader Nessa and her modeling career!

(Not shown is your insistence on wanting it to be a suprise to see him…)

(I’m taking on the Gym Challenge! What if I get an edge by knowing the guy?!)

What else…! Oh! We had just enough time to squeeze a visit to the Bagins in Levenica before Nemona had to head back! I didn’t find the bags everyone else did unfortunately, but I did pick up this olive bag I think is pretty neat!

While this was a fun excursion, we do plan on eventually doing a full analysis behind Cascarrafa in the future! It’s not on the top of our list but it is there!

#//btw #//happy’s Mother’s Day to those who’re celebrating! #//due to blog’s timeline #//that day isn’t here yet #lochland here! #roto sayz #post #pkmn irl #pokeblogging #rotumblr #pokemon

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🌹 incest relationships.

What I will write

🪷 certain fandoms and characters [See below]

🪷 Ocs ( yours and mine)

🪷Oc x canon

🪷oc x oc

🪷canon x canon

🪷Smut.

🪷 teenagers in romantic situations with other teenagers.

🪷 children/teenagers with familial/parental or platonic relationships with adults,

🪷Monsters/ Pokemon hybrids

🪷 children being friends :)

🪷Au's ( only ones that I have written about)

🌸Fandoms I write for +characters I feel most comfortable with 🌸

I will do characters from this, please note this list is not perfect if you see any characters that I have done before and are not in this list please let me know before requesting your commission)

Ro's Ocs

Cole

Forest

Holt

Salem

Silas

Oliver Sterling

Zero

Noah

Pokemon

Adaman

Ingo/warden Ingo

Emmet

Volo

Rika

Geeta

Larry

Arven

Morty

Falkner

Volkner

Roark

Cynthia

Looker

Nanu

Kabu

Nessa

Guzma

Red

Blue

Siebold

Leon

Riley

Steven Stone

Jacq

N

Brassius

Hassel

Clavell

Lance

Grismley

Stardew Valley

Shane

Harvey

Sebastian

Genshin impact

Diluc

Kaeya

Jean

Raiden Shogun/ Ei

Tartaglia

Tighnari

Thoma

Obey Me

Lucifer

Mammon

Leviathan

Satan

Asmodeus

Beelzebub

Belphegor

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