Headcanon request for Super Soap Sunday:
How does Soap react to first aid? Does he whine with the application of iodine or does he bite down on a tac strap while you stitch him up?
And how does he show his gratitude after?
Ho-ly Shit! As someone who works in the OR and sutures on the regular, I absolutely LOVE THIS!! Please excuse my excessive use of medical jargon...(I'm like a kid in a candy store here)
Full Disclaimer: I only have experience in the OR, not in the field. So if any of the terminology and/or supplies used are incorrect, I apologize. Just going with what I know.
Stitched Up
Johnny 'Soap' MacTavish x Fem Reader
18+ MDNI Mentions of blood and injury, detailed medical procedures, established relationship, fingering, light bondage. Headcanon plus a smutty little drabble/fic (I'm making my own rules, okay)
First and foremost, wound classification. Life threatening: hemostasis/stabilization trumps all. Closure can wait. Non-life threatening: put some pressure on it. Stitch it up later.
Of course we're going with non-life threatening here. Can't have this man going out on us so quickly
Once in the security of the safe house, you take over. Full-on medical prognosis begins before Soap even has a chance to sit down
And as per usual, he plays it off; "It ain't tha' bad, hen. Jus' a wee cut is all." The thick crimson running down his side told you otherwise. "Shut it, Soap. Gear, off. Now."
Soap does his best to keep his composure, but the wince in his face as he removes his gear is a telltale sign that the wound is deeper than he wants to admit
Laceration to the right upper quadrant. It's a clean cut, thankfully. But it grazes just above the muscle. Two part closure needed. You get busy grabbing the supplies needed while he readies himself for the pain he's about to endure
"Morphine's in short supply here, Soap. And I don't have any Lidocaine." Your eyes are soft as they continue to rummage through the medical bag. "S'alright. Stitch me up, bonnie. Ge'it done, yeah."
Tearing the packaged betadine in your hands, you make quick work prepping the wound and skin around it in a closwise outward motion. He shows only a slight jolt to the coolness of the liquid. No grimace, no sarcastic remark. Just silence.
Cutting needle driver in hand, you begin subcutaneous closure with your favorite; 3-0 Vicryl on an SH. Thick enough to hold strong tissue, and absorbable. No removal needed.
Your first drive was smooth. Quickly, you tied the knot at the end and buried it within his flesh. Clean cut of the trailing end, and you began your running closure. Soap's eyes watched as your hands worked effortlessly with the skill of a flesh working seamstress. He barely moved while you worked, but you knew it was because there were less nerve endings below the dermis. Skin closure was going to be a different story.
"Ya got some skilled hands there, bonnie. Gonnae make a quilt outta me, yeah." You humored his banter while it lasted, only momentarily locking eyes and giving him a sly smirk.
Satisfied with your work, you cut the remaining suture and gently pursed the top layer together, determining whether or not to add a few interrupted stitches to reinforce the wound. Seeing as you had a good amount remaining, you added three more stitches to the subdermal layer before discarding the needle altogether.
Grabbing the next suture, you held it in your hands before pausing and laying it on your lap. You locked eyes with him again, your facial expression serious with a softness around the edges. "You done this without local anesthetic, Soap?" You'd be damned if you didn't see him flinch at your inquiry. "Aye. G'on now, hen." The slightest shaky reluctance could be heard in his voice, but you pressed on per his request.
Barely making it through the first drive, Soap quietly screamed out in pain. "Fuckin hell!" His hands fisted into whatever he could grasp within reach, mainly the wood paneling around the edges of the walls. "Stay still for me Johnny. And I'll get this done quick, okay." Desperation in your tone matched the workings of your hands. Soap clenched his jaw in protest, his cerulean eyes hyper focused on the needle as it delved and emerged in a continuous motion with the help of your trained fingers.
The thin black filament flew through your hands as you worked tirelessly to finish the closure. Interrupted sutures were your bread and butter; you had his skin stitched up within less than 60 seconds.
With the hard part over, you gave him an approving smile. The painful grimace on his face faded and was replaced with the softness you had gradually grown more and more fond of. A quick application of 4x4s and tape, and he was all set. "Thanks, bonnie." It was barely a whisper, only meant for you. You answered in the same quiet tone. "Just doin my job."
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Soap will show his gratitude within the coming days. He'll be appreciative and give endless thank you's before then, but he wants more for you. Needs to show his full admiration for you
He'll wait til he finds you alone in the safe house, most likely perched by the window on the second story surveying the bustling world beyond its frame
"Hiya, bonnie." The quiet kindness in his voice during moments like this always takes your breath away. The vision of him leaning against the weathered door frame, soft expression and telltale exhaustion seeping through, is one you'll put away for safe keeping.
"Hey, Johnny." Your tone was equally soothing, and the welcoming curl of your smile lured him to you like a moth to a flame. He stepped towards you slowly, cautiously. Blissfully under the power of your illuminating stare. As he closed the distance, you rose to your feet and leaned your shoulder against the window panel. He followed suit adjacent to you, his baby blues traversing up and down your frame and lighting up with his as he met your gaze again.
"Anythin suspicious out there?"
Small talk. You knew he was up to something the second you heard his footsteps on the stairwell. You humored him for his own sake.
"Nope. Nothing but pons blissfully unaware of the madness that waits just around the bend."
"Hmm. Tha's deep."
"Shut up, Soap."
The chuckle from his chest sent a shiver down your spine. It was always his subtleties that seemed to have the most effect on you. And no matter how much you tried to hide it, he always seemed to see those little changes and nuances in your demeanor.
You fingered at the hem of his shirt to draw your attention on something else, anything. Lifting it, you eyed the scar along his side and mentally praised yourself on your work. The sutures had been removed days ago, all that remained was a silver line along the curve of his abdomen.
"Looks good, Soap. You heal up well."
"Aye. Compliments to the operator are due, bonnie. Dinnae think Ghost or Price coulda kept me lookin this pretty."
"Smooth, Johnny. Real smooth." The sarcasm in your voice didn't go unnoticed. Slowly, he began to close the gap between you, one hand resting on your hip and the other cupping the curve of your chin.
"Tryin to show a bit'a gratitude 'ere, hen. Or do ya wan' somethin a bit more, hands on?"
His eyes bore into you, cerulean daggers piercing into the veil of your soul. Now it was you who was under the power of his stare; immobile, frozen, deer in headlights. He tilted your chin up and grazed the flesh of your bottom lip with the tip of his thumb, followed quickly by the warmth of his mouth.
With your attention focused on his workings of your lips, Soap's free hand quickly went to unbuttoning your jeans and delving his fingers between the slick flesh of your thighs. You moaned into him as he traced along the wet folds of your opening. Your hands flew to the fabric on his shoulders, fisting its material between your digits as his index and middle fingers gently borrowed into the warmth of your cunt.
"Johnny." Your breathless mewl was silenced by the encapsulating flesh of his mouth, and pushed back into your throat by the forceful entrance of his tongue as it danced across the moist flesh of your own. Soap's hand at your chin descended and lightly wrapped around the curvature of your throat as he pressed your back up against the wall, forcing a knee between your legs to keep you open for him. He began with a slow pumping motion of his wrist, the curved tips of his fingers caressing the bundle of nerves buried deep within your hole.
A silent moan escaped from your lips at his forceful intrusion. And at the trailing of your inaudible quip, he pressed his thumb and index finger lightly into the flesh of your throat.
"Hmmm. Ya ain't the only one with skilled hands, bonnie." His muffled words seduced another breathless mewl from deep within your chest, all while his fingers worked tirelessly within the flesh of your cunt. The ball of his palm pressed against the pulsing flesh of your clit as he continued to pump his fingers into your wet flesh. The pleasured coil within your lower belly began to tighten, the warm wave of energy washing over you like a breaking tide on the shore.
"Don't stop, Johnny. Don't stop." It was barely above a whisper, a silent wail to the ears of your skillfully loving Scot. "Gonnae make ya cum, bonnie. Make ya feel so good for me." You lulled your head back against the wall at his sultry quip, mouth agape as a trail of silence emptied between your swollen lips. Soap's mouth latched onto the pulse point of your neck, his tongue trailed and savored the taste of your salted flesh.
You were teetering on overstimulation when he suddenly released the flesh of your neck and returned his mouth to your lips. Soap could read you like brail beneath the tips of his fingers; the throbbing of your walls around his buried digits, the pulse of your heart bellowing just under the thin layer of skin. You were close, so fucking close.
"Tha's it. I got'ya, hen. Cum for me." Soap's soft persuasion was the last push you needed. Your orgasm washed over you, expanding from the junction of his skillfully buried fingers through the waves of prickling flesh of your being. One final strained mewl escaped your lips as you came undone beneath him, his grip around your throat tightening as your walls convulsed around his expertly working fingers.
As you slowly came down from your sexual high, your vision was engulfed by bright azulean orbs. Their hue swirling around dilated pupils like mini chaotic typhoons. This was his plan all along, how he showed his gratitude; by completely ruining you at the power of his hands alone. As he removed his hand from between your thighs, his grip around the flesh of your neck loosened while his thumb perched beneath the curve of your chin.
Your gazes fixated on each other, and you heard him wipe his fingers along the fabric of his thigh before it joined the other at the at the cusp of your curved cheek.
"Surprised you didn't lick your fingers, Soap. Thought you couldn't resist my sweetness." He couldn't refuse your playful quip, the sexual banter between you two always seemed to heighten the experience. "Aye. Y'know Imma purest, hen. Prefer ta get it straight from the source."
Just the thought caused your thighs to instinctually press together, quell the ache already brewing again as your mind continued to descend from its previous high. There was a crystalline glint in his eyes you couldn't ignore; you may have reached your erotic satisfaction, but Soap was nowhere near done with you.
"Ya wanna test out ya handiwork, bonnie?" The deep brogue of his voice, devilish curl to his lips, and that ever so present bulge beneath the hem of his pants had you crumbling at his request. Never one to deny his carnal conquests, you threw back the same provocative energy right back at him. "Why not, Soap. And don't go easy on it. Need to get a full test run, make sure it'll make the cut."
You praised the mentors of your skillful suturing. The accomplished workings of your fingers would hold against the vigorous showings of his gratitude, no doubt. Your body on the other hand, that was a different story.
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Chapter 3: Secrets Have a Way of Getting Out
Olivia contacts Harmony to talk about something important, but what she has to say leaves Harmony confused and unsure. When the young fledgling goes to find her friend out of worry, both of them will learn things about each other that they never would have imagined. The two women share a tender moment, before it all goes wrong.
Written by @jasina85 and myself!
The night air was pleasantly cool. Olivia was once again walking to the Night Owl; She was spending a surprising amount of time at Harmony’s store lately, reading her texts or just chatting with the young Tremere. She enjoyed her company and the feeling seemed mutual. She thought, at least. Which was going to make this next part all the more difficult. She tried to steel herself, but to little avail. But when she finally reached the store, it was closed. That was unexpected, Harmony had always been pretty punctual. Where is she? She’s never been late before.
A few minutes passed, and soon Harmony appeared at the end of the block, hurrying toward her. Her long, flowy trench coat fluttered on the wind. The brown garment complimented the cascade of her wavy brown hair, which seemed to shine with reflected moonlight. “Olivia! Sorry I’m late.” As she got closer, she leaned in and lowered her voice. “I was out hunting, and it went a little long.”
Out hunting. The statement felt charged. She hunted once too. Olivia stamped down on the current of memories that were getting ready to spill out. No, not tonight. Despite that, she couldn’t help but wonder - how did Harmony do it? She knew she could drink preserved blood, she saw her do it, but it seemed clear the brunette preferred her drinks fresh. Harmony was very attractive, so she probably didn’t have many problems finding people she could… Why does this thought sting? Why do I suddenly care so much how she gets her blood? Olivia couldn’t answer the question. “Oh, sorry, I didn’t know you went out.” She was worried Harmony would notice she was more withdrawn. She knew her own expression enough to know she must have already been sulking.
Harmony: [Charisma + Insight, 4 dice, 0 successes]
Perhaps it was the sanguine high of her last victim, but Harmony didn’t notice the solemnity in Olivia’s expression. “Yeah, I’m sorry about that. You know how it is, clouding memories and everything.” She glanced at the door. “Do you want to come in?”
Alright, do what you came here to do. Just rip the bandage off and be done with it. “I…” She took a deep breath, or tried to. When she spoke, her tone was very serious, but despite her best efforts she couldn’t hide the sadness in it. “Harmony. Look… You can’t trust me.” She turned her gaze away from Harmony. So often she seemed unable to look at her friend. “Even being here I’m putting you in danger. I… You can’t trust me.” It took a lot of effort to turn away there and then, and the pain it caused her was written across her face, but she had to leave. For Harmony’s own good, she had to.
“Olivia? What are you— what are you talking about?” Confusion radiated through her. She reached out toward her companion, maybe to grab her hand, she wasn’t sure, but Olivia snatched her hand back regardless.
“I’m sorry. It’s… I’m too dangerous.” It was like when they parted in Elysium - Harmony left floundering for words while Olivia retreated.
“Olivia, wait!” She took off, and Olivia only quickened her own pace to escape. Harmony was not a quick woman: as thin and in-shape as she was, it was a waifish body she had, without a hint of strength in it. She was never a sprinter, nor did she have much endurance, but the same was true of Olivia. They were an even match as they ducked and weaved through the thin crowds of the midnight streets. Harmony was beginning to flag quickly. “Olivia, stop!” she wheezed, as her body started to fail her.
Harmony: [Stamina + Athletics, 2 dice, 0 successes, Bestial Failure]
Compulsion Roll: 6 (Harm)
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Olivia: [Stamina + Athletics, 2 dice, 2 successes]
Olivia could hear the footsteps behind her. Harmony wouldn’t let her go. She half hoped she would. She should have known better. She dove into a nearby alley, behind the nearest object she could get between herself and the other woman and stood with her back to the wall. She concentrated on her surroundings, until she was just another shadow in the alley. It was a useful ability, even if she had to stand still for it to work.
Olivia: [Cloak of Shadows]
Harmony burst into the alley, but there was no one there. Just an empty cut between buildings, littered with the detritus of the city. She quickly peered up at the fire escapes, but there was no one there.
“Fuck!” she shrieked, and slammed her fist into the bricks beside her. She stifled a scream of frustration as she kicked at the scattered trash and stamped her feet. She was helpless, she couldn’t do anything, in the end, this power of hers couldn’t help anyone at all.
The whole point of her taking this path was withering away in front of her. She just punched the wall, again and again and again, until her hand went numb and she could feel the blood dripping from her knuckles. But regardless, she left no mark on the wall but a bloody stain.
[Harm Compulsion Ends]
Harmony: [+1 Superficial Damage]
Olivia stood there, watching in pained silence as Harmony smashed her hand against the brick wall. She could swear she heard the cracking of bone. She was so close. Olivia wanted to scream, to beg the other woman to stop, but she couldn’t. She had to walk away. It’s your fault. See? You’ve already hurt her. I told you it would end like this. The Beast, that ugly, horrendous thing piped up. But I would have never guessed it would happen so quickly! Well done! But do you really want to leave without Kissing your ‘friend’ goodnight? Just a quick peck on that pretty little neck. The sheer amount of venom in the word ‘friend’ made her want to retch. She’d never do it to Harmony, she couldn’t, she wouldn’t! She was doing this to protect her!
Unaware of her quarry just a couple meters away, Harmony wiped away her tears, staining the cuff of her shirt with a smear of blood. She cradled her broken hand. Sensation was starting to return, and it hurt. With a brief push of concentration, she forced blood into her muscles and bones, and with effort, the broken skin knit itself back together, and she turned to begin the long walk through the night, back to her haven, to lay her head down and ask herself what she’d done wrong.
Harmony: [Rouse Check, failure, +1 hunger, -1 superficial damage]
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She stared at the slip of paper on her desk, the flowy handwriting curved in the shape of an address. Maybe… Olivia might not take kindly to an uninvited visitor, but did Harmony really have a choice?
The address led Harmony to a small apartment located on the 2nd floor of an older building, the sort of dwelling that resembled a concrete ice cube tray with punchouts for windows. She could see light seeping out of the corners of one of the windows, partially obscured by what looked like a black garbage bag taped over the glass. The stairway and hall leading to the apartment were unremarkable and sparsely decorated with a potted plant of some kind and a welcome mat. There was nothing obviously out of place and it didn’t take long to find the door with Olivia’s name on it.
Harmony sent Olivia a quick text. Can I come in?
No reply.
Olivia’s phone buzzed somewhere in the apartment. She left it in her bedroom, tossed into one of the drawers to keep it out of sight - she couldn’t bear to see any more concerned texts from Harmony.
She knocked on the door. “Olivia? I came to see how you’re doing.”
Olivia heard the knocking, but she didn’t move from where she was. She had to focus on something else. My my, what is that? You invited a snack over and didn’t even tell me? That is so very rude of you. Shut up. I told you already, you’re not getting what you want.
Harmony: [Heightened Senses]
[Wits + Investigation + Auspex, 5 dice, 3 successes]
With senses empowered by the blood, Harmony quickly scanned the hallway. Maybe there was a spare key, or some other means of ingress? A single glaring misstitch in the tapestry of this hallway stuck out to her: the potted plant in the corner was tilted by a fraction of a degree. She quickly strode to it and peered underneath: a lone key was taped to the bottom of the pot.
“What are the chances?” she murmured, looking at the other four doors on this floor of the building. But sure enough, it fit the apartment she wanted. “Sorry for intruding…”
The light in the hallway of the apartment was off. There was absolutely nothing out of the ordinary there. A pair of shoes next to the door, a coat rack, everything you’d expect to find. Even from here, the whole apartment felt cheap. The walls were painted that slightly off-white color that always showed even the tiniest stains and scratch marks. Cheap paint, cheap furniture - the place felt… frugal, if one was feeling generous. It was a far cry from Harmony's own abode. It didn't really feel lived in. The light was on in the bedroom. The room was a mess.. What Harmony saw from the outside was true - the bedroom window was taped over with black plastic of some kind - makeshift sunproofing. Either Olivia hasn't lived here long, or she simply didn't bother settling in. The latter felt a little unlikely. A drawer had been pulled out of the dresser and propped up against the wardrobe, various pieces of clothing and underwear spilling out onto the bedroom floor. The wardrobe itself was open, revealing two still largely packed travel bags. It almost seemed like Olivia was ready to go at a moment's notice. Next to the bed, there was a nightstand. Olivia’s glasses were placed on it and stood out against a pretty sizable medical kit. The kit was open and it was obviously well-stocked. There were a few bits missing though - there was an empty space amongst the vials of some clear liquid, as well as one of the syringes. Both were also on the nightstand, a little off to the side. The syringe had the needle attached and the piston was pressed all the way in. The empty vial was labeled “Codeine”. There was a discarded tourniquet on the floor. One of the drawers of the nightstand was half open. Peering in, there seemed to be some kind of binder inside with something written on the cover. There was also a smartphone in there. The screen was dimly lit, displaying a notification about unread messages. Next to the nightstand was a small white bin with “Medical waste” written in a black marker. The bed was a mess - the blanket was laying on the floor across the room, presumably thrown there and the pillow was marked by stains of crimson that were impossible to mistake for anything other than dried blood. Another thing that stood out was the calendar hanging on the wall - Roughly every third or fourth day was marked with a red pen. The last marking was from 4 days ago.
“What the…” What were you up to, Olivia? She wondered. Quickly, with much greater urgency, she quickly ran through the other rooms, not bothering to turn lights on, scanning them with her blood-endowed sight.
The search finally ended once Harmony entered the kitchen to see Olivia sitting on the floor with her back against the wall hugging her knees, staring at the fridge across the room. She looked disheveled, her hair messy and unkempt in a stark contrast to how it usually was. She was dressed in a simple, slightly-oversized pajama top and plain panties. She clearly wasn’t intending to go out, or be seen by anyone. And yet you let yourself be seen… Oh, I see what you’re doing. The Beast snarled happily. She hated that voice. You want to play with your food! You clever girl! Maybe I should give you some more credit! She tensed up, nails digging deeper into her forearms. Deep enough for tiny spots of crimson to appear around them.
She looked terrible. That level of pallor was unnatural even for their kind. It wasn’t just illness or the whiteness of a corpse, her skin looked drained and bloodless. And yet, from the marks on her arm, Harmony could smell the vitae leaking from the wounds. “Olivia!” she exclaimed. Without turning on the light, she rushed to kneel beside her. “Are you alright?!”
Olivia didn’t even look at Harmony. She couldn’t, not feeling the Hunger as she was right now. There was tension in her voice, but she spoke quietly, as though she was weaker than normal. She didn’t want to risk tempting the Beast any further tonight. There was no point in pretending she was alive. “Why are you here? I told you to stay away.”
Harmony’s expression softened, as if she were about to cry. “I was worried about you…”
“I’m fine.” No I’m not. You could be blind and still see the lie for what it was. “But I’m still a threat to you. I’m still putting you in danger.” She wasn’t even avoiding eye contact, she was avoiding having any part of Harmony in her field of vision. My, such wonderful games you play. You tease.
“I don’t care.” She put a hand on Olivia’s shoulder. “Olivia, look at me.”
She couldn’t oblige the request. She did her best to focus on a single point and keep her sight there. “You don’t understand. I’m dangerous. I hurt people. I’m trying to protect you. I… please don’t make me look. The Beast will get angry again.” Awww, this is simply adorable. Such a fine performance! And all for me? You shouldn’t have.
“Olivia, please. Let me help you. Don’t push me away.” Harmony couldn’t stand this. Olivia was hurting! It was obvious! Why wouldn’t she let her help?
“You don’t understand. I… it always wants something. It always… always nudges me. It always tells me these… things. And when I look at you… sometimes it… it…” And sometimes it’s telling me how wonderful it would be to drink you dry. To feel you melt in my arms as my fangs close on your neck. To take every last drop and consume your very soul. It was too much. She couldn’t hold it back anymore and started sobbing. She didn’t care about the blood getting all over.
Harmony chewed her lip nervously and looked aside. “I know. I hear it too.”
It was almost as if Olivia didn’t hear that. She simply went on. “I… I try to keep it in check. I try. I thought maybe a strong painkiller would numb it for a while… but it didn’t.” Why did I think that would work? It was never going to.
Harmony gasped at that, her breathing becoming short and harsh as the memories of her mother’s death rushed back to her. Mom had wanted escape too. She’d wanted to soothe the pain. That desire for momentary bliss had killed her, and there wasn’t a damn thing Harmony could do to help her but sit there and hold her while she died. She felt a panic attack mounting. She hadn’t had one in a year. Could vampires even have panic attacks? She didn’t know, but suddenly everything around her seemed blurred and unreal. Reality was giving way to the coming agony.
Harmony: [Composure + Intelligence, 7 dice, 6 successes]
But Olivia needed her. She screwed her eyes shut and forced herself to calm. She stamped down the panic to focus on the needs of her friend before her.
It was horrible, but Olivia didn’t even register the distress Harmony was in. She couldn’t look. She couldn’t bear to see her. I don’t want to hurt you. “Stupid, stupid thing. It’s… I’m getting hungry too. I try to keep it in check but…”
Harmony shook herself and stared at Olivia with a mix of surprise and concern. “Olivia, when was the last time you fed?”
Olivia shut her eyes close. When she spoke, she was still sounding weak, but there was something else in her voice too. A small hint of pride. “The night I last saw you.” I made it this long. Maybe I could make it one more night. She couldn't help but smile. You wouldn’t like that. What’s the point in all of this? It changes nothing. It only gets me angry. And you won’t like it when I get really angry.
“What?! Olivia! You can’t starve the Beast like that, it’s too dangerous!” If it had been four nights… Olivia would be close to frenzy. The Beast would be close to the surface, pawing at the borders of the mind, itching to get out. Olivia would feed, on whatever she could get her hands on… and Harmony didn’t know if she could stop her.
“It’s fine. I’ve been doing this for a while now.” How long has it been since she had started doing this? Two months? Maybe three? That sounded about right. “I… I can handle it. I didn’t have any… incidents.” My stupid pride didn’t get anyone killed.
Harmony shook her head in disbelief. “Olivia, you can’t do this, it’s too dangerous!” She hesitated for a moment. If she didn’t stave off the Beast soon… Her mind made up, she rolled up her sleeve. “I know I might not be to Ventrue taste, but…” She offered her bare wrist to Olivia.
She risked opening her eyes. Harmony’s wrist was right there in her field of vision, all exposed. Oh, now this is a rare treat. Giving herself freely? I know you want it. I know you want her. Never forget, you are a dragon, my dear, a queen! Take what you want. Whatever that dead heart of yours desires, take it. Take her. Take her! Olivia’s eyes went wide, she was terrified. She could feel her fangs extend, despite her making no effort to do so. She could almost hear the gentle pulse of the radial artery, the weak, thready heartbeat that still played in Harmony’s chest. It was enticing. It was intoxicating. She buried her face, nails digging deeper into her skin. It hurt now. “No! No! Absolutely not!” It can’t get what it wants! I can’t do this to you! But… I could. It’s just a little taste - willingly offered. I bet it would be sweeter than anything I had before. Just one… little… NO NO NO!
“Please, Olivia. I don’t want you to hurt yourself, and at this rate, you’re going to.” The Beast screamed at her not to surrender her precious life force, but she ignored it. Olivia needed her. “Please. I’m Tremere, I can’t bond you. It’s safe.”
“NO!” She screamed. She didn’t mean to raise her voice at her. She didn’t… “Harmony, you don’t understand… I…” She was sobbing, and yet she was laughing. She was losing her mind of her own design. Harmony being here tonight really threw a spanner in the works. It took her a while to stop herself. When she did, she exhaled, defeat written across her face. You were going to find out eventually. “I won’t take your blood. I don’t need your blood.” She felt another smile creeping across her face, but not the warm and kind smile. It was the smile of someone who finally broke.
Harmony didn’t lower her arm, but confusion colored her features. “Olivia, what are you talking about? You need to feed.”
“I can feed if it gets too bad. It’s not too bad yet.” She averted her gaze again. Single point, eyes forward. She knew she was going to have to come clean. And yet, she was dancing around the subject like she could actually avoid it.
Olivia: [Manipulation + Subterfuge, 3 hunger dice, 1 success]
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Harmony: [Charisma + Insight, 4 dice, 2 successes]
Harmony shook her head. She didn’t believe that for a moment, she could see the hunger in Olivia’s eyes. She’d seen that in Katherine, once, and the frenchwoman had explained just how dangerous that situation was. “Olivia, please let me help you. Am I not to your taste? Can I help you get someone else?” For some reason, the idea of Olivia not liking the taste of her blood, and the idea of her drinking from someone else gave her a pang of annoyance that she couldn’t quantify.
“Harmony, I…” She closed her eyes, inhaled and opened them again. But she still wasn’t looking at the brunette. Single point. Eyes ahead. “There’s blood in the fridge.” And now you know. And now you will fear me and hate me and regret ever extending your hand to me. WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! SHE IS RIGHT THERE, OFFERING HERSELF TO US! DRINK. HER. NOW!
Harmony tilted her head, puzzled. “But… you’re Ventrue. You can’t drink that.”
“Look, Harmony, I… I lied.” She broke down into more tears. More pain, more disappointment. “I’m not Ventrue. I lied because…” Because you would have hated me if you'd known the truth. Because you would have never been my friend if you knew the monster I really am.
Because your sire would have killed me and you’d have thanked her for it.
Harmony slowly retracted her arm, but said nothing.
“I’m sorry. I… I… I had to lie.”
She shook her head. “Olivia… what are you talking about? What do you mean?”
Olivia’s voice was grim and full of pain. There was no turning back now. It was do or die but there was only one real outcome. “You don’t understand. This… this isn’t the first city I ran to. I made the mistake of admitting what I am there. The next night, I had the Sheriff on my doorstep, telling me I’m either gone by dawn or…” ‘Or you are ashes. Whether by my hand or by the rays of the sun, it matters not.’ “...and that was because the Prince showed mercy…”
“Olivia… you can trust me.” Right?
“But you can’t trust me, Harmony. If anyone knew… just associating with me casts suspicion on you. I… I don’t want you to get hurt because of me.”
“Tell me, Olivia. Tell me how to help,” Harmony begged. She couldn’t stand this any longer.
She was feeling the frustration build up. Why can’t you just take the hint?! Must I spell it out loud?! “What do you want me to tell you?! This… this isn’t something you can change! That’s why I lied!” It felt like what little strength she had left was draining fast. “I lied to protect myself. And to protect others from myself.”
“I don’t know!” Harmony shouted. “I just… I can’t just leave you to suffer. It’s not in my nature.”
“Even if I’m a monster?”
“We are all monsters, Olivia. The only way you fight that is by sticking together, by being there for each other. So please, tell me the truth. Let me help.” She knew that more than anyone. She kept it together because she had people she cared about, people that anchored her to the real world, but if Olivia was on the run, she’d have no one. If Harmony could be that anchor for her, she had to be.
For the first time tonight, Olivia mustered the courage to look the woman in the eye, the crushing sadness behind her blue eyes laid bare. “Harmony I… I’ve killed people.”
There was a sharp intake of breath, but Harmony didn’t interrupt.
“I… I’ve killed them. And the worst part? I enjoyed it. It felt like nothing I can describe. When I drink it fresh? People get hurt. Often beyond help. When I did, I couldn't pull away. It was so sweet, so intoxicating… That’s why I drink it cold now. I have to, it’s safer. For everyone. I…” She was having fits of laughter again. She couldn’t stop it. She had really gone mad.
“Olivia…” Slowly, unconsciously, so subtly she herself didn’t realize, she shrank back from her.
Harmony might not have realized what she did, but it was plain to see for Olivia, She looked away from the Tremere. “See? You’re afraid of me. I could tell you some bullshit about how I didn’t have a choice, how they would have died either way and how it was better if I did it. But it doesn’t matter if it’s true or not. It doesn’t matter whether I believe it to be true or not. It’s all the same in the end… I’m exactly the monster my sire wanted me to be…”
Harmony tried to control that stab of fear. She set her jaw. If Olivia wanted her blood cold, then cold she would have it. She stood and opened the fridge, pulled out a blood pack, and handed it to Oliva. This sort of thing would feed the Beast’s anger. Olivia needed to feed, or in her fury, the Beast would do it for her. She could already tell how close it was to the surface. “I… Olivia, I can’t pretend to know what you’re going through. But… I really want to help. I’ve never…” She paused. She’d never killed anyone. The very idea of it made her sick. But Olivia… it sounded like Olivia had no choice. “...but I know it’ll only be harder if you go it alone.”
Olivia didn’t take the bag. She couldn’t. It was as though she forced her muscles to lock in place. She didn’t deserve to feed. “I… I’ve told you all of this… and you still want to help me?!” Another fit of crying came over her. Why did Harmony insist?! Why did she have to try and help her?! She should leave her alone to rot in the darkness! It was where she belonged. “Are you really sure about this? Even knowing what I… what I am? There’s a reason everyone hates me…”
Harmony tried not to let frustration color her voice, but it was difficult. “I don’t know what you are, Olivia, you won’t tell me. But I know you, and you aren’t the Beast.”
Olivia sat there for what felt like eternity and did not speak. The tension hung in the air between the two vampires. And with a single word, one that could barely have been a weak, pathetic whisper, it was shattered. Spoken like she was afraid of even uttering the word aloud. She was terrified of uttering it. “T… Tzimisce.” Images filled her mind. Her sire - the one who made her. The one who murdered her. All the fear and hatred made flesh. The memory of when he… changed her for the first time, to illustrate the point, to show her just what he was capable of. What I was expected to be capable of. The pain was unlike anything she ever felt until then and ever since. She healed it, in time. ‘You would have been truly worthless if you couldn’t get your own flesh to obey.’ That’s what he told her when she finally recovered from his little demonstration. Her grip strengthened yet again. Any more and I’ll dig down to the bone.
Harmony gasped in horror. Her mind flooded with memories as well. She remembered what Katherine had told her of the Omen War, the slaughter of their clan at the hands of the fiends. She remembered what she’d said of the Tzimisce that had rampaged through the streets and undercity of Paris over two hundred years ago, of the Vykos brood that had slaughtered Katherine’s first coterie. She remembered the pain in Ceridwen’s eyes as she’d recounted the torturer that twisted her flesh until she’d begged for it to stop, who’d dragged her to the altar and bound her to the Vaulderie. The perverse joy in her eyes as she remembered the Gangrel elder tearing through him. There was nothing in Harmony’s heart but fear at that word, and it was visible in her eyes for a moment.
“Do you see why I lied now? Do you?! Everyone hates me! It doesn’t matter who I am. It only matters what I am. It doesn’t matter that I can't…” It doesn’t matter that I failed at being the monster he wanted me to. I’m still a monster, just an unwanted one. She hugged herself a little tighter. A lot tighter. “Go on. Drop the bag on the floor, run to your sire and tell her. I won’t go anywhere… It’s gone on for too long already…”
Harmony: Terror Frenzy [Willpower + ⅓ Humanity, 10 dice, 10 successes, Critical Success]
Determined, Harmony stamped down the fear inside her. Those monsters were different. Olivia wasn’t like them. “I’m not going anywhere, Olivia. I might be terrified of your clan, but not of you.”
“Don’t you get it?! They’re one and the same - no matter what I do, no matter how far I run, I will always be this… thing. I will always be a threat. To you. To everyone.”
Harmony paused. “I don’t believe that. She moved over to sit right beside Olivia, and scooted close to her. “I don’t believe clan determines what we are.” If it did, I wouldn’t be as useless.
“But it does! When people know, when they look at me? They’ll always see the fleshcrafter first. They’ll only ever see the fleshcrafter. She threw her head back a little too hard and hit the wall. It hurt, but she couldn't bring herself to care. "Even if I can’t fucking do it.” Olivia was tired. Tired of running from her sire. Tired of fighting off the Beast’s insidious whispers. She was tired of it all.
But Harmony just slumped and hugged her knees. “I understand better than you think.”
“You do?” There was a stab of anger at that. How could you?! How could you know how it feels?! But she was too tired to let it show. With what little strength she had, she looked at Harmony again.
Now, it was Harmony who couldn’t meet her gaze. “I have a secret too. Not a scandalous or dangerous one, it's just…” She lifted her head, eyes squeezed shut, but the tears came regardless. “The only person it hurts is me.” She took a deep breath. “Olivia, do you know what Clan Tremere is known for?”
Olivia’s mind was almost running on autopilot when she spoke. “Magic? That’s kind of your clan’s whole deal.”
Harmony nodded. “Yeah. And no matter how hard I try, I… I can’t, I just can’t, and I can see it in everyone’s eyes.” Rivulets of blood flowed down her face. She’d held back for so long, tried to be strong for so long, and now the levy was broken and she couldn’t stop the tears. The Beast raised its head and howled along with her, and they spoke with a single voice. I’m a disappointment. I’m worthless. I’m not worth the blood used to make me. They tell me otherwise, but I know. I know there’s something wrong with me. The one thing I’m supposed to be able to do, the one thing I wanted more than anything else, and I can’t do it.
Olivia: [Rouse Check, Success]
Olivia smelled the blood from Harmony’s tears. So fresh, so enticing, so delicious. But she was still in control. She would not give into the Beast tonight. She heard the words too - they resonated in her mind. It’s what he told her when he realized she couldn’t mold the flesh like he did. Word for word she heard them spoken in his voice. She couldn’t let it stand. Harmony was different. She was better. She was not worthless! “You know… that’s what he’d tell me. Exact same words too. But you know what? It’s bullshit.” It’s bullshit that we’re expected to be exactly how our sires want us. It’s bullshit that we have to suffer for the sins of our sires. She suddenly felt the strength she didn’t know she had. “You said it yourself - your clan doesn’t define you. You’re neither of those things… You’re my friend, Harmony.” Harmony was her friend. Olivia was keenly aware that she did everything she could to ruin that friendship. What she was also becoming aware of, was how tightly the woman was squeezing the blood bag in her hands. “Hey. Careful, you’ll rip the bag open.”
With a cry of frustration, Harmony flung the bag away from her to the other side of the kitchen. It skittered to a stop in the corner. “You don’t understand! I’m… I’m a fucking mirror, Olivia. Everything that hurts you is switched for me, but it still hurts just as fucking much!” She leaned onto Olivia’s shoulder, openly sobbing now. “You didn’t want this, but I did, I wanted it so badly, I’d dreamed about magic since I was a kid, and then when it was finally in my grasp… I guess the problem was me the whole time. It’s me that’s broken.”
Olivia took a deep breath. “Look. I’m bad with people, and they didn’t exactly have sensitivity training in the Sabbat.” And now you know I was Sabbat too. Not that it changes much now. “But that’s bullshit. Hey, please look at me, Harmony.”
Harmony’s face was hidden by her hair. She was grateful for the cover, she couldn’t stand for anyone to see her. “Is it? My sire could. My grandsire could. My great-grandsire's magic is so powerful that she tore the entire clan in two. It’s not the blood. It’s me.”
Olivia smirked when Harmony broke out the lineage all of a sudden. “Ok, who’s supposed to be the Ventrue here?” She couldn’t bear talking to a mess of hair. Harmony deserved to look her in the eye, even if the opposite wasn’t true. Slowly, gently, she brushed the hair aside and looked at Harmony’s face. “Look. I don’t think you’re broken. Maybe I’m the broken one, I don’t know. It’s not some magic that makes you special. I don’t know if you believe me. Honestly, you have no reason to believe anything I say, I get that. But you know what? There was this woman that for some reason decided to chat me up at Elysium once. And it turned out I liked her. She was special, you know? Had a real spark in her. I… I wanted to walk away, to protect her. But I was stupid. Harmony Adams, I am not going anywhere. You’re not a disappointment. You’re not a failure. You’re not broken. And I don’t know what I can do to make you believe that. But I believe that. Do you think you could believe that too?”
Harmony hugged her. “You’re amazing, you know that?”
Olivia returned the hug, her bloodied hands cradling the one who came to comfort her tonight, instead needing to be comforted herself. But that was alright. We’re in this together. “No, I’m not. I’m a monster with delusions. But I want to do right by you. Even if I don’t know how. Even if you have every reason to hate me.”
“I don’t hate you.”
“Yet.” She smirked, not really sure how she felt. She was feeling a lot, all at once. But there was one thought gnawing at her. ”Harmony?”
“Yeah?” Harmony went back to resting her head on Olivia’s shoulder, avoiding the damp bloody spot she cried into.
“Think we can maybe not mention this to your sire for now?”
Harmony chuckles despite herself. “Oh, she’d blow a fuse.” She could just imagine the look on Katherine’s face if she knew her Childe had befriended a Tzimisce. The more she imagined it, the less funny it became. She’d be furious. Harmony had never seen her angry before, but… she could only guess what she’d do. The mirth drained from her voice. “She’ll find out eventually, you know that? If you stay close to me, she’ll figure it out.”
“She's going to kill me, isn't she?” It felt like the only logical thing to do. She couldn't really imagine it ending differently. And she used to think that maybe that was fine, preferable even, to her sire finding her again. And yet, she found herself really not wanting to die a second time. Things… didn't seem as bad with Harmony around, even despite her own best efforts to screw that up. She leaned back into Harmony. As she did, she noticed the clock on her wall, quietly ticking away. “Uh… it’s getting late. Are you going to make it back, or do you want to stay here for the day?”
Harmony pulled herself to her feet and went to the window. She parted the curtains. The horizon was starting to get that rosy glow to it. She could already feel pinpricks of pain as those rays crept into the sky. “I don’t think I can. I’ll owe you one.” Then something caught her eye, the last thing she wanted to see. A young man, with scruffy brown hair, dressed in a sweater vest, his camera hanging by a strap around his neck, stared right back at her from the sidewalk across the street. She knew he saw her. With the sharpened sight of the Blood, she could just make out his lips curling into a smirk. “Fuck,” she cursed under her breath.
Olivia: [Wits + Awareness (Hearing), 6 dice, 3 successes]
“Hey, everything alright?”
Harmony quickly pulled the curtains shut, but her back to the wall, and sunk to the floor. “I don’t know, Olivia. I don’t know.”
* * *
Olivia: [Rouse Check, Success]
Olivia woke up. Despite everything, she still couldn’t quite get used to the daysleep. The border between slumber and wakefulness felt like a binary state. She hated binary states - something either is or it isn't looks nice on paper, but in reality things often kind of were and kind of weren't with no clear distinction. She missed that state of drowsiness, of waking up and yet still being only half awake. She didn’t particularly feel like getting up, especially with the feeling of hunger still accompanying her. The events of last night slowly unfurled in her mind. It was a lot to process and she didn’t have much time for that before she fell asleep. But there was another sensation too. An odd, pleasant warmth, and it wasn’t just the blanket she was buried under. Oh. Harmony. I won’t lie, I was pretty angry with you last night. But for breakfast in bed? I forgive you. Don’t worry about the mess, these sheets were awful anyway. Shut up. She still felt tired. She had neither the want nor the energy to deal with that infuriating voice right now. She turned over slowly, so as to not disturb her friend. She was laying on her side, back facing Olivia now. Something stood out to her - Harmony had a tattoo on her shoulder, visible under her dark red camisole - an odd symbol, yet strangely familiar. She racked her brain to try and find answers.
Olivia: [Intelligence + Occult, 4 dice, 2 Successes]
It took a moment, but finally she recognized the symbol - it was from Revelations of the Dark Mother, a pictogram for “All Hail Lilith”. Harmony was generally fairly reserved about her religion. She didn’t hide it, but she wasn’t particularly vocal about it to the outside world. Olivia respected that. She was never a particularly pious woman, but there was something about the Lilin texts that seemed to strike a chord with her. Olivia had had more than her fair share of suffering, and she liked the idea that it made her stronger. She wouldn’t go so far as to say Harmony was trying to convert her, but it was fairly easy to notice she was happy that Olivia was at least somewhat interested. Her gaze wandered away from the tattoo. Harmony seemed to be having a bad case of bedhair, her chest slowly rising and falling to the steady rhythm of breathing. Olivia felt a small pang of envy, but she stamped it out. She could never deny that Harmony was attractive, but dressed so scantily in bed, she was an entirely different kind of desirable. Ok, maybe lay off that a little bit? You're making it weird again. She could swear she felt herself blushing. A phantom sensation, nothing more. She did her best to quietly slip out of bed and into the bathroom. If Harmony wanted to sleep, she'd let her.
One thing that hasn’t changed since her transformation was showers. They were still refreshing as ever, for which Olivia was infinitely grateful - she felt like she needed to wash up again, just to make sure she scrubbed clean any lingering unpleasantness that occurred last night. “What a mess,” she muttered. A mess I made. She gave herself over to the tender embrace of running water. That, at least, still worked.
She dried herself and headed back to the bedroom wrapped up in her bathrobe. Now that she thought about it, it was a little curious that she woke up before Harmony, she was under the impression that it would have been the other way around. She wanted to get fresh clothes, but muscle memory being what it was, her hand went for the lightswitch out of habit and she flicked it without realizing.
Harmony groaned as the sudden light assaulted her eyelids. “Morning, Mel…” she mumbled in a fugue.
Harmony: [Rouse Check, Success]
Scheiße. So much for letting you sleep. “Uh… no? But good morning to you too Harmony.” Who’s Mel? she wondered. She immediately scolded herself for asking that, even just to herself. None of my business who she is. She regretted not bringing clothes with her before. Sure, she was covered so there shouldn’t be any awkwardness and she wasn’t particularly shy about her body. But she still felt awkward despite that. Why? ”Did you sleep alright?”
Harmony stretched and pawed at the nightstand for her glasses. “Yeah,” she said, shaking herself as her eyes came back to focus. “Good evening.” Suddenly, the events of the previous morning came crashing down on her, and she became acutely aware of the fact that she was half-dressed in another woman’s bed. Her body was very much in view. She blushed scarlet and gathered the blankets up around her with a squeal.
Oh dear god. As if she couldn't feel any more awkward, Harmony’s reaction risked sending her poor brain careening off course. She was… Heavens why am I acting like a teen on a hormonal funride? She almost wished she could blush. “Uh… do you… want a minute? I can step out if you…” Least I can do after last night is to give you some privacy.
The brunette clutched the blankets around herself. “No, no, it’s your apartment, I can just change in the other room.” She touched her frizzy beheaded hair. “Oh goddess, I don’t have a hairbrush with me, I’m going to look awful.”
“I mean, I'm already standing. I'll change in the bathroom.” The way she looked, like she was in that blissful state of half wakefulness… “I could maybe lend you one of mine if you want?” There's an unsaid question too. She was wondering if Harmony was going to ask or not. She was still as hungry as she was last night. It probably still showed.
“It’s okay, I assure you, you don’t want to deal with my hair turning to dust in your brush.” She quickly studied Olivia’s appearance. The wet strands of her hair clinging to her face, the sharp blue of her eyes, the way her bathrobe was wrapped tightly around her body, showing her curves even through the plush fabric— ok, that thought came out of left field, she thought. Focus, Harmony. She tried to focus on the medical rather than the aesthetic. Her friend was still pale and bloodless. “Olivia, have you fed since last night?”
“Not yet. I can probably manage tonight, if I don't exert myself.” She closed her eyes, trying to focus on how she felt. Appraising herself. She believed what she said. She thought she could make it until tomorrow. It might result in a bit of a messy evening to follow, but she felt she could. She was cautiously confident in her assessment, though she suspected that Harmony would have none of it. It was kinda cute before. It’s not anymore. Stop playing with your food and fucking drain her already. The Beast was annoyed. That alone felt worth it. She couldn’t help but smile a little.
When Harmony spoke there was steel in her voice. “Olivia, no. You can’t push yourself like that. I don’t know what kind of masochistic ritual this is—,” well, that was hypocritical. “—but it’s too dangerous, both to yourself and others.” She let the blankets drop and turned her arm wrist up, and extended it to her companion. “It’s either me or the bags, but you have to feed.”
Oh, you want her to pick you so badly, don’t you? You crave that feeling of fangs in your neck? The Beast cooed, its voice dripping with a poison as thick and sweet as syrup. Just remember, the more you give, the angrier I get. Soon I’ll get you to sink your fangs into her. Harmony shuddered. She couldn’t deny it: she missed the feeling of being Kissed. Her instincts as a former blood doll were strong, stronger than she liked to admit. But she was doing this for Olivia, because of her hunger. Nothing more.
Unsurprisingly, Harmony was, indeed, having none of that. Olivia sat down next to her and gently placed her hand on the exposed wrist. When she spoke, she caught Harmony's gaze. There was determination in Olivia’s eyes, and there was the Hunger too. It was impossible not to notice that. “Look, it's not masochism. I can assure you, I'm not doing this for kicks. It's just better that way…” I don’t hurt as many people that way. I don’t take so much blood that way. There are people who need that to live. But she didn’t have the strength to voice that part, it wasn’t a conversation she wanted to have first thing in the morning. “Do you want some too?”
A mix of relief and disappointment roamed through Harmony as she retracted her wrist. Relief that Olivia agreed to feed. Disappointment, veiled in denial, that it wasn’t on her. She sighed. “I’m not too thirsty at the moment. I hunted yesterday, so I’ll be good for a little bit.”
“Are you sure? It's not a problem.” She went to the kitchen and fetched a bag from the fridge. Fucking plastic muncher. Mhm. Whatever you say. Not like it matters to you.
Harmony padded into the kitchen after her, still mostly undressed. “Really, Olivia, I’m okay. I even took more than I usually do from the last guy— not enough to hurt him, obviously— so I’ll be alright for today.”
Olivia stood there with the bag in her hand. Suddenly she felt really awkward again. Partially because Harmony was standing there, half dressed, looking at her a bit pointedly to make sure she fed— and she didn’t like the idea of anyone watching her feed. Partially, because she still resented herself for having to do this. “Please tell me you're not going to actually watch me eat.”
“O-oh!” Harmony was startled. She hadn’t realized that would be awkward. Katherine had never had qualms with that, on the rare occasion that they’d shared a vessel. “Sorry, I’ll leave you be.” She headed back into the bedroom and started to get dressed.
As soon as Harmony had left the room, Olivia’s fangs came out and in a practiced motion sank into the bag. She’d done this enough times already to have a technique worked out. She could have poured it into a mug, but that felt like adding a needless step. Once the first bag was empty, she repeated it with the second one.
Olivia: [Hunger -2, current Hunger is 1]
For all the shit the Beast gave her, it didn't taste awful, just bland. But bland was better than hurting people. And the stupid thing didn’t care as much as it made it seem - at the end of the day, blood was blood. And this would do for now. She went back to the bedroom, dropped the bags into the medical waste bin (she really ought to move it back into the kitchen), fished a red pen from somewhere and marked the day in the calendar to signify she fed. It made keeping track of her progress easier. She went to dress up in a pair of khaki cargo pants, a white sweater and a simple black jacket. “Look, Harmony… I'm sorry. I was an idiot.”
Harmony had dressed herself in her clothes from the other night: a pair of brown pants and a dark olive green button down shirt. She tied her hair back in a messy bun to avoid the worst of her bedhead. Olivia entered just as she was busy putting on her riding boots— an odd vestige of her childhood. Her stepdad had signed her up for equine therapy in the hopes that something could help her. She was still no good with animals, but she liked the boots enough to stick with them into adulthood. “It’s okay, it’s just…” She looked away. “Maybe I’m a hypocrite. I’ve never… lost control. I’ve never had the Beast take over. But I’m scared, Olivia. I’m scared of what sleeps in me, and what sleeps in you too.” She stood up, stepped close to Olivia, and placed a hand over her friend’s dead heart. “So… just promise me you’ll be careful.”
Olivia was more than a little startled by the hand on her chest. The touch wasn't unwelcome, but she felt conflicted. Here was a woman who, after a few nights of total silence on her part, went to the lengths to go to find her apartment, check if she was ok and then stayed over to make sure she actually was. And here was a monster, without breath, without heartbeat, that put her through all this out of… yeah, out of what? My stupid pride? Some desire to protect her from me? She wished Harmony could feel her heartbeat. And she knew that, at that moment, she looked taken aback, Blush of Life or no. “Look. I'm careful. I… I know last night looked bad but…” But it wasn't usually this bad. And I don’t know why it got so bad this time. “I can manage it.” She knew she could, it wasn’t some empty boast, but a genuine belief. And yet she understood Harmony's fear. She'd lost control before. Never again, she promised herself. “Will you be alright?”
Harmony blushed as she removed her hand from Olivia’s chest. She quickly crossed the room and peeked through the curtains. That light blue Ford was still parked in the alley across the street. Ken was still here. “I hope so,” she said, not daring to believe that.
The doorbell rang.
“Who the hell…” Olivia hurried to the front door and looked through the peephole. Not anyone she knew. She whispered to Harmony “Trouble?”
Harmony paled. Fear ruled her. She hated that he had this effect on her. She hated that he could scare her like nothing else. “Is it him?” she whispered, her voice small. Some part of her mind registered that Olivia would have no idea what ‘him’ referred to, but she couldn’t get the words out.
That wasn’t very descriptive. “It's a guy.” Then she turned around and saw Harmony's reaction. This boded ill. “Want me to handle him?”
Harmony slumped against the wall. She looked so very small like this, shoulder hunched and rolled inward, head bowed, arms clutch around her, she looked like a spider curling up for death. “I don’t know. You can’t hurt him. You can’t breach the Masquerade.” She looked like she was about to cry.
“Ok, go to the bedroom. I'll let you know when it's clear.” Well tonight is off to a great start. Olivia focused inwards, concentrating. Remember - the heart. See it pulsing, will it, and it will obey. It was starting to get easier.
Olivia: [Blush of Life]
[Rouse Check, Success]
She could feel the warmth and color return to her. Hopefully this was going to help. She took a deep breath, and opened the door. “Who are you? Do you know what time it is?” She didn’t have to try to sound annoyed. The feeling was very much genuine.
The man on the other side of the door was handsome, in an unkempt academic sort of way. His scruffy brown-blonde hair tumbled down his face into a short ponytail. Baby blue eyes stared above a five o’clock shadow that had inched its way into six. He had that sort of disarming, professional smile that had nothing behind it, neither warmth nor malice. “Sorry to bother you, miss. I’m with the Daily Sun, I’d like to ask you a few questions if that’s ok?” He held up a press badge. The name on it was Kendall Nolan. It looked genuine.
A reporter? Here, at this time of night? If she had to guess from Harmony’s reaction, she knew him, enough to be scared of him. She did not like that one iota. Fool. The pretty little witch belongs to us. We have staked our claim. Who is he to challenge that?! That sentiment, she liked even less. Harmony was her friend and she wanted to protect her, yes. But she is not property. Not his, not mine, not anyone’s. “Look Mr … Nolan? Is there a reason why you're bothering me in the middle of the night?” She stood in the doorway in a way that he couldn’t really look into the apartment without having to push past her.
Harmony, for her part, had ducked into the kitchen, trying to calm her breathing.
“My apologies, miss, but I promise this won’t take long.” He unfolded a picture of Harmony and showed it to Olivia. She looked a few years younger, dressed in a sweater and slacks, with her hair pinned up in a bun, clutching a stack of books. She seemed happy. It looked like an old college photo, perhaps? The sort of picture only a friend would have a copy of. “Have you ever seen this woman?”
Oh, she did not like this. She did not like where this was going at all. This guy screamed ‘creep’ to her, and Olivia was not going to let that stand. “You're starting this out like a real creep, you know that? What's she to you?” Problem was, he was a reporter, and he didn’t seem the hobbyist kind. If he was really digging for dirt on Harmony… She didn’t like imposing her will on others, but she just might have to here.
Mr. Nolan scowled. “I’m working on a story, miss, I’m afraid I can’t really give details. Have you seen her? Recently, maybe?”
“Not really sure what kind of story it's supposed to be, but you're not really convincing me. You're gonna have to tell me more if you're hoping for help.” Oh, so now you’re being cagey? What gives?
He let loose a disarming smile. “Really, it’s nothing nefarious.” Kendall Nolan was a practiced manipulator. He knew how to spin an answer out of someone, and what he wanted was too important to him to let honesty get in the way. Besides, it’s for her. She’s got to be so unhappy without me.
Kendall: [Manipulation + Persuasion, 5 dice, 3 successes]
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Oliva: [Charisma + Insight, 1 dice, 0 success]
But what if he was just some misguided idiot? He seemed sincere when he said that. ‘Nothing nefarious’. Maybe telling him a little bit won't hurt. Maybe it will throw him off the scent too. “Yeah, ok. I've seen her. She runs that bookstore, right?”
Harmony stifled a gasp. What is she doing?! Surely Olivia wasn’t cooperating with him! She was her friend, she wouldn’t sell her out like that!
Ken smirked, pleased that he was getting his way. “Have you been there recently?”
“The store? No.” It wasn’t a lie. She could give half-truths and answers open to interpretation.
And now, the tricky part. “This is going to seem like a weird question. But do you have any gaps in your recent memory? Times when you can't remember a few minutes?” He’d noticed a trend of that. Harmony had a habit of meeting with people, usually in the form of hookups— something that made his blood boil— but when he questioned them, they always seemed to have a gap in their memory. Some of them didn’t remember her at all. He wasn’t sure what was going on, but it had happened too many times to be coincidence. Maybe she was drugging them? That didn’t really fit the sweet, innocent girl he knew. He’d find out when he confronted her, but for now, he needed more information.
“Also no? And you are right, that is a weird question.” Oh, you just asked a very wrong question. It was pointed, she could feel it, he was looking for her to hesitate, to latch onto some inconsistency and hammer it open. She couldn’t give him an inch.
Ok, so that’s a dead end. Pretty sure she’s suspicious now. He decided to press a little further. “Are you sure?” He paused for a second. “When did you first meet her?”
“At a party. But I'm going to need you to forget about this conversation.” Olivia looked him dead in the eye. She needed an edge, she needed to get a one-up on this guy to protect Harmony, she needed his slate wiped clean.
Olivia: [Blood Surge, +2 Charisma]
[Rouse check, Failure]
[Cloud Memory]
[Charisma + Dominate, 5 dice, 2 successes]
vs
Kendall: [Wits + Resolve, 6 dice, 4 successes]
Need me already? But the night's so young! And I am hungry already. Why don’t we have a little snack? He’s not as pretty, but he will do.
Not now. We have a job to do, so focus on that. She didn't need much, only the briefest eye contact should do. She spoke with authority, authority bestowed upon her by the Blood. He would obey her and forget.
Only he didn’t. Ken flinched at the force in her words, then shook his head. “No, I don’t think I will. And she’s not usually one for parties. You’re lying to me.” Harmony was always so quiet and reserved, she’d always felt out of place at those sorts of social events. Even at the one he’d met her at, she had been practically pressed into the corner trying to get away from the crowd. No, what this woman was saying didn’t make sense. He leaned forward, standing up to his full height and loomed over her, hoping to make himself as intimidating as possible.
His resistance to her powers took the wind out of her sails, but then he blew it right back in by trying to strongarm her. That’s too far. “I am not lying. But come any closer and I will do something that you will regret.” She stood her ground. This creep would not threaten her friend. This creep would not threaten her in her own house. Olivia was getting angry. And that anger bubbled to the surface as her brilliant blue eyes suddenly, seemingly on their own turned a deep, sinister red. Where once was weariness and sadness behind them, the only things there now were anger and rage. He dared?!
Olivia: [Eyes of the Beast]
[Manipulation + Intimidation + 2, 4 dice, 3 successes, -1 Willpower]
vs
Kendall: [Composure + Resolve, 3 dice, 3 Successes, -1 Willpower]
That got his attention. Before his very eyes, her stare went from icy, pointed, blue to furious, hateful red. “What the fuck?!” he exclaimed, taking a step back in shock.
Harmony did not like the sound of where this was going.
Olivia’s tone was raised. Harmony told her not to hurt him. But if this asshole kept pushing her, she was going to have to hurt him. And oddly enough? She struggled to bring herself to care. “You come into my house, in the middle of the fucking night, asking me these ridiculous questions, and now you have the gall to try and threaten me?! I will make this very clear for you, Sunny Boy. You have 10 seconds to beat it before I call the cops.”
This had gone wrong, so very wrong. Harmony dashed out of the kitchen and grabbed Olivia’s shoulder. “Olivia, stop!”
Kendall couldn’t help the surprise on his face. “Harmony?” He knew Harmony was still in the building— her van was still in the parking lot— but he didn’t think she’d be listening in. So she knew he was onto her; maybe this would be a good time to have the conversation he’d been hoping for? His surprise lasted only a moment before the smirk took over. “Could we speak in private?”
Olivia turned around as Harmony called her name. Her eyes were still burning red. “What? I didn’t even do anything. But I will not be harassed in my own house! Who is this creep anyway?!” I told you to wait. I told you I would handle it.
Harmony was shaking, whether in fear or anxiety, neither Kendall nor Olivia could tell. “Olivia, stop doing that. Ken, forget!”
Harmony: [Blood Surge: +2 Charisma]
[Rouse Check, Success]
[Cloud Memory]
[Charisma + Dominate, 6 dice, 6 Successes, Messy Critical]
Compulsion Roll: 4 (Dominance)
vs
Kendall: [Wits + Resolve, 6 dice, 2 Successes]
“Stop doing what?!” She was unaware what her eyes looked like. I’m only trying to protect you! But the tough facade faded once she saw Harmony. The brunette’s face was contorted in a mask of rage and condescension. Her eyes locked on the man outside her door, filled with something Olivia had never seen in her before: raw, unbridled hatred. “H… Harmony?”
The windows to Harmony’s soul were open, but the girl Olivia knew wasn’t home. She was sick of this. She was sick of all of this! She was sick of being treated like a possession, a trophy for him to claim. She was sick of being disrespected! She was sick of living in fear of him. She was a fucking Lhaka, a chosen Childe of the Dark Mother! She wouldn’t take this anymore. She deserved better. She deserved respect. She deserved fear. She deserved reverence.
She rushed forward, checked Olivia aside, and lunged for him. It was all she could do to keep her fangs out of his neck. But he was filthy, unclean, unworthy of the Kiss. She wouldn’t lower herself to feed on him. She grabbed him by his sweater vest and slammed him into the doorframe with unholy strength.
Harmony: [Blood Surge: +2 Strength]
[Rouse Check, Success]
[Strength + Brawl, 3 dice, 3 Successes]
vs
Kendall: [Dexterity + Athletics, 3 dice, 3 Successes]
As the haze of clouded memory cleared from his eyes, the look on Kendall’s face could only be described as astonished. One moment, the door had opened, the next, Harmony was lunging at his throat. The pretty, shy, nerdy girlfriend he so treasured had become something else, something monstrous. Her hands were like claws, and she was strong, stronger than him, stronger than he remembered her being. There was no reason in her grey eyes, only fury.
He did his best to fight back, but the shock and dissonance of the moment robbed the strength from his hands. Still, he managed to keep her at bay, weathering the blows from her petite hands. His surprise was quickly fading, and she was losing ground
“That’s enough!” Olivia yelled as she tried to get between them and separate the two before either got hurt. Before Harmony got hurt. The asshole can get it for all I care.
Olivia: [Strength + Brawl, 5 dice, 4 successes, - 1 Willpower]
It was messier than she’d have liked it to be, but she managed to separate the two at least for now. She had never seen Harmony like this. She’d never seen her so much as get angry, let alone throw herself at someone with such reckless abandon. This was bad. She turned to Kendall. “You! Out! Now!”
“What the fuck?!” Ken shouted. This was beyond anything he’d ever seen of her, beyond anything he knew of her. Was she drugged? On some kind of drunken rage? That didn’t explain her sudden strength. He was utterly bewildered.
“Leave me alone!” Harmony screamed, kicking and thrashing as Olivia hauled her back into the room. “Let me go!”
Olivia wasn’t paying attention to Ken anymore. He didn’t matter. Only one person did. “Hey! Harmony! Look at me! Don’t look at him, look at me, please!” This wasn’t how she expected the evening to go. This wasn’t at all what she hoped for. But she had to step up now. If she got hurt protecting her friend, so be it. But she had to stop Harmony for her own good. “Please, Harmony, listen to me. Please.”
But when Olivia looked into her eyes, she didn’t see anything she recognized. “Let me go! I have to make him understand! I have to make him hurt!” He had to kneel. He had to be broken. He needed to pay. The rage that flowed through her felt good, it felt right. No part of her realized what she was doing. No part of her resisted.
Olivia was at a loss for words. This was unlike Harmony. This wasn’t like her at all. It felt like she was losing her. She had to do something and fast. She couldn’t lose her. Not after last night. She had a thought, but quickly discarded it. She couldn’t bring herself to mesmerize her. She couldn’t exert her will over her friend. She wouldn’t have been able to look at herself ever again if she tried. Instead she would try words, and failing that, she’d try to put the door between the two. “Harmony, please. This isn’t like you. Please listen to me.” The red glow of her eyes wasn’t anger anymore. It was pain, an all too familiar pain. She hated seeing her friend like this. But at the same time, she tried to move the woman deeper into the room as gently as she could.
Harmony: [Blood Surge: +2 Strength]
[Rouse Check, Success]
[Strength + Brawl, 3 dice, 1 Success]
vs
Olivia: [Strength + Brawl, 5 dice, 4 Successes]
It took less effort than she might have expected, but it is obvious that Harmony didn’t really know what she was doing. She was screaming and flailing and kicking and Olivia bore all of those hits that Harmony landed on her. But it was ok. As soon as they cleared the door, Olivia slammed it shut and locked it behind her. It was safer that way.
There was an astonished look on Ken’s face the whole time, until the door slammed right in his face.
Harmony could’t stop Oliva from moving her. Even with the strength endowed by the blood, she couldn’t oppose Olivia’s superior skill. She could feel herself being pushed away, pushed down, and she hated it, she was being kept in check and she needed to be free, she needed to be in control. First it was Ken, now Olivia! She was holding her back! Holding her down! The rage in her dead heart surged, and the Beast’s words made sense. She deserved it. She deserved control. She deserved what she was due! And if Olivia wanted to get in her way… She grappled her, with nothing but hate in her soul, and grabbed her head. With a single motion, she yanked it to the side, flicked out her fangs, and sunk them into Olivia’s neck.
Harmony: [Blood Surge: +2 Strength]
[Rouse Check, Failure, +1 Hunger]
[Strength + Brawl, 3 dice, 3 successes]
vs
Olivia: [Strength + Brawl, 5 dice, 3 successes]
[+1 Aggravated damage]
Olivia’s eyes went wide with fear as she realized what Harmony was trying to do. Her breathing became shallow as she tried her best to move her friend out of the way, but she just wasn’t fast enough. There was a sharp pain as she felt the fangs rip through the skin, tearing her neck open and the ensuing wet flow of the crimson liquid. Harmony didn't find enough purchase to latch on, but she'd left a serious gash. At that very moment, she was terrified. She didn’t know what to do. I don’t want to die. Please don’t let me die. She had only felt the Kiss once, accompanied by a knife in her back, and it wasn’t a pleasant experience. The red glow faded as her eyes returned to their natural icy blue. She was afraid. She didn’t want to die. She didn’t want Harmony to kill her. It hurt, but she had to push through it. Push through the fear. Harmony needed her. She wasn’t herself.
Her fangs wet with vitae, Harmony shoved Olivia away from her “Why are you holding me back?! Why?!” The growl became colored by tears, bloody red tears that rolled down her face, regardless of the Beast that raged through her. “Why does everyone just keep me on a fucking leash?!”
Olivia pressed one hand against her wound. She didn’t know if she could bleed out, but she didn’t want to leave it to chance. But even that felt secondary now. “I’m stopping you from making a mistake! The same way you were trying to stop me last night! Because you’d have done the same for me!” Logic was out the window now. Olivia let her emotions speak. Seeing Harmony like this hurt, maybe even more than the open wound in her neck. Luckily, she seemed to have just missed the artery. If she had to beg her to stop, she would beg. She slipped to the floor as Harmony loomed over her. “Please Harmony… please.” I can’t bear to lose you. Not like this.
The Beast reveled in this, and in her current state, so did Harmony. I deserve this, she thought. I deserve this power.
[Dominance compulsion ends]
Harmony’s vision cleared, and she tasted blood that wasn't her own. She blinked once before her eyes locked on the wound on Olivia’s neck and went wide in shock. Had… had she done that? She couldn’t have! She remembered… “No… no, no, no! What have I done?!” She crumpled to the floor, hands over her mouth, the shock and horror of her actions running free over her. She’d bitten her. She’d tried to feed on Olivia. She’d betrayed everything she stood for, she’d betrayed her friend and she betrayed herself.
“Harmony? Harmony! It’s ok. Please. I’m fine. You haven’t done it. You haven't done it!” She was frantically trying to reassure the brunette. She did not feed on her. She didn’t do anything irreversible. Olivia was still applying pressure to the wound. It was painful, but didn’t seem lethal. It probably would have been lethal if she was still alive. It didn’t matter. Harmony mattered, she did not. “Harmony please… I’m begging you…”
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!” she shrieked, tears streaming down her horrified face.
To hell with the wound. To hell with the asshole who caused all of this! They didn’t matter right now! She went down and hugged Harmony as tight as she could. “It’s ok Harmony. It’s ok, I promise. It’s ok. I’m fine. You didn’t hurt me.” The open wound on her neck pulsed in disagreement. That’s it! See what she’s done to us?! You should repay the favor right here, right now! She wouldn’t even fight back. MAKE. HER. PAY!
Shut! Your! Fucking! Mouth! Olivia had no patience left for the voice. She would never hurt Harmony. So she got a little injured, so what?!
Harmony was shutting down. Her vision swam. Panic overwhelmed her. She was going into shock.
Olivia didn’t really know what else to do. ”It’s going to be alright, Harmony. I promise it’s going to be alright." She was still drudging blood all over the apartment. She didn’t want to leave Harmony alone, but she had to do something about the wound. She could try to heal it, but she didn’t have many bags left and if Harmony ended up needing one too… not to mention the Beast being on a very short fuse today. No, she’d do it the old fashioned way for now. “I’m going to be right here Harmony, I just need to do something really quickly ok?” She was hoping to see some acknowledgement at least. Even the faintest nod would suffice, but Harmony was in shock. But she had to see to the wound. She stood up and just pulled the sweater off of her and dumped it on the ground, grabbed some bandages and set to work hastily wrapping it up. It wasn’t perfect, but it would do for now. She went back without even thinking of putting something else on. It wasn’t important and she was too deep in crisis mode to care. “I’m right here Harmony. It’s ok. I’m ok. Everything will be ok.” Damn it! DAMN IT ALL TO HELL! She didn’t know what else to do, she was a surgeon, not a psychologist. She didn’t know how to help people out of psychological shock. All she could do was sit there and hold her friend tight and hope that she will snap out of it eventually. It was going to be another long night. Before long, her own tears joined Harmony’s. I’m sorry.
Harmony just trembled as Olivia held her, her gaze fixed on a point in the distance.
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