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babyspacekwid · 6 months

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Astrology Observations and Advice ✨ (TW talks of ED)

From a non professional astrologer who has no idea wtf she’s posting half the time 💕

Chiron 4th house in Capricorn, Your dad may be very hard on you, like a perfectionist dad. Could have also been abusive. Could be the type to comment on your shortcomings. Remember that you are enough as it is, don’t be so hard on yourself, treat yourself as you would a friend. With compassion and kindness. Its okay to make mistakes in life. It’s common to have daddy issues with this placement, so try not to let that affect your love life, this is a personal placement of mine😜 rlly into toxic men, but they ain’t good for me, so let us be aware of that. Don’t take life too seriously, do the serious shit without being too serious about it. Idk if that makes sense but for example, let’s say u got a math test, do the math test seriously, like study and shit but don’t let the stress of it consume you because it rlly ain’t that serious.

Aries moon, especially men y’all’s temper is unregulated af. Ive seen y’all snap at stuff that energy shouldn’t be wasted on, y’all are one of the most emotionally reactive signs I have ever met. Like a ticking time bomb. This moon sign might have experienced a mother figure that was harsh and emotionally neglectful. Very hard on you, wasn’t that nurturing when raising you. The type of mom to tell you to get up and wipe the dust off when you fall and scrape your knee as a kid. y’all gotta delve into those emotions in a healthier manner. Therapy and journaling could be very beneficial. Go to one of those rage rooms where ppl break shit, I feel like y’all would go all out. There’s definitely some pent up anger. This goes for Scorpio moons too, y’all is more internal though, got some deep dark thoughts and intense internal feelings that could easily overwhelm which is why downtime is needed.

Speaking of some Scorpio moons I have met, don’t let your trust issues fuck things up. This a hard placement, y’all feel things so deeply, but just cause one person backstabbed you don’t mean everyone will. Open up to people, trial and error and you’ll find that person. Obviously set boundaries and don’t just trauma dump on everyone you meet, but don’t build an invisible wall as soon as you meet someone. Not everyone is out to get you.

(TW) Taurus risings I’ve met have dealt with some type of eating disorder. Could have had family members or people comment on their weight as a child or just got rlly influenced by the negative parts of social media. Every taurus rising I’ve met has dealt with body issues, y’all are actually so beautiful though, and I’m sorry you don’t hear it often,no matter the size. You guys are also so photogenic, like maybe I’m just the type of person that sees human beings as cute in general but istg y’all could be making the ugliest of faces and I’d still think it’s charming 😭 my best advice would be to stop comparing yourselves, and to learn unconditional love towards your body at every stage it’s at. We’re gonna be 60 and wrinkly anyways, might as well enjoy what it can do for you now!

I have this friend who’s a Capricorn sun and moon, and as a Gemini sun and moon myself I feel so similar to her in like every aspect. Idk if it’s because we’re both born on a new moon, but anyways, this girl needs to learn to open up😭 like hun I wanna be your shoulder to cry on, don’t get me wrong she will vent, and spill the tea, but when the waterworks come out she’d rather isolate. I’m just like naurrrrrr, come back. I might not be comfortable with tears and shit but il awkwardly pat your back and listen to you. Either way y’all don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, you aren’t a burden and you can’t deal with it yourself. Stop trynna convince yourself that you can. Humans are social creatures and our primal instinct is to receive and give love. M

ANYWHOOOO y’all I rlly ain’t that knowledgeable about this shit, I’m rlly going off my friend’s placements (and mine). I am studying astrology tho so maybe one day 🤠 but I got the memory of a goldfish so it might take a while, I appreciate everyone who’s been liking my posts though THANK YOU💕💕💕💕

#astrology #astro observations #taurus #capricorn #scorpio #aries #chiron

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henneseyhoe · 8 months

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Malcom And Me; A Short.

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“Do you really love me, or are you just scared to be alone?” He asks, his dark eyes boring into mine to search for some kind of sympathy that I refused to show and bruise my pride.

I looked at him with a grimace, the last emotion he looked for starting to seep through my cold aura. “…Why do you ask me shit like that? Like I just use you or something. I don’t care to be alone, nigga. you can go. I been doing this shit since before you came along”

“Why do you do this to me?” He asks, his eyes glossy. “you act like you want me…then you push me away as if I’m suffocating you…like I’m begging to be around you. The truth is, I don’t fucking need this relationship. You do! You need me to make you feel good, you love the validation that I give you, the sex that tells you you’re desirable, the affection that tells you you’re worth it, whatever ‘it’ may be. You’re the most narcissistic, selfish, seething pain in the ass I have ever had to deal with, and your sorry ass excuse for it all is because of some shit that happened almost twelve years ago. You pretend to have grown as a person, but it’s all a facade to hide the fact that you can’t get over yourself and that baggage of hurt you carry. Going about the world and dumping a tiny bit of emotional trauma on every good or half decent person you come across, then they become shit, and eventually manifest into someone like you”

If the wounds I had weren’t already opened, he had definitely completely ripped them apart then poured salt on each mauled bit. I couldn’t speak, not that I wanted to address what he said anyway. All I did was stare, letting his choppy, angry, heavy breathing fill the darkly lit room. Only thing that accompanied his breaths were the pouring down rain, droplets constantly tapping against the window. It was mournful, the energy in the room. Cold like we’d been dancing in snow for hours, which was kinda metaphorical to our entire relationship from beginning to end.

I stored in everything he said, piling it on top of everything else he had shouted at me this night. He wasn’t gonna make me cry or anything, he was preaching to the choir. I was self aware, and I was fine with that.

“….hm” I let out a short, quiet hum.

“…..you need serious therapy”

And he didn’t?

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Ps. just cause I like writing shorts lolzzz and I’m trynna get better at angst

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luwulandd · 5 months

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“im really not trying to trauma dump in chat, no one needs to hear me bitch and complain”

proceeds to then trauma dump and only leaves when no one pays attention to whatever they were saying

dawg… i always tell these people my dms are open im always there to listen, but no sure just dump your shite in chat its not like im trynna have fun either when im streaming or anything

#luwulasmoof

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plainemmanem · 2 years

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You are literally so sweet to me. Thank you for saying that it really means a lot. I’m going into my fresh-meat year and I do not write. I mean, I write songs and admittedly have attempted fanfiction, but it’s mostly just me being a mushy gushy shell of a woman 👍. I’m a much better reader than writer. I want to just DM you so we can actually talk but I’m nervous?? Haha it’s silly. I wonder if anyone reads these that aren’t us. I suppose a bunch of people are subjected to our conversations through the dash.

I CANT BELIEVE YOU ARE ALSO NOT ON SOCIAL MEDIA LIKE ME??? I HAVE THE SAME WORRY ABOUT COLLEGE ABOUT GETTING BACK ON IT??? WHAT

- Bunny

tehe🤭

im literally so curious if/why anyone gives a shit about anything i say, so if people read these asks i would be so shocked💀like heyyy hello lemme trauma dump real quick on your tumble dash sorry! admittedly, i always feel so self conscious posting anything on here bc i never know how people are gonna read things. like i have a fear my humor does not come across well through text so im always a little scared people will take things the wrong way😭people in real life tell me im mean, which maybe i am, but i really hope not:/// if i tease people, it’s cause i like them and trust them, and i never say anything brutally:( im just trynna be funny guys:( idk whatever people may like me, people may not. im slowly trying to come to terms with that🥴

the social media thing is probably one of the main stems for all my problems so i am definitely not feeling excited to go back to it. like?? i have to go on facebook to interact with people?? you talk to people through group chats??? dating online??? i really don’t wanna do it. i suppose i may get desperate enough and just cave but im gonna try to hold out as long as possible and meet people naturally :/ idk tho we’ll see

also, feel free to dm me babe:) tbh im also nervous to dm people bc i feel like im so… bad at texting. like truly the worst at it. so … don’t feel like you’re the only nervous one ;)

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letstalkaboutfandomsbaby · 2 years

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Yall, i—so someone was like trauma dumping on my post trynna argue with me and i couldn't stand it i had to block them. By all means make an argument but pls for the love of god do not start going into all the problems you experienced as a child

#☀️ shitposts #im not a therapist i cant help you #to be clear this doesn't apply to anons who bring up problems they're facing #this is about ppl who purposefully bring up an abundance of traumatizing events they went through—#without being prompted like just telling a stranger out of nowhere #i got things to do i cant worry about a stranger having a breakdown in my replies #pls take care of yourselves jesus christ

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chaosmacaron · 2 years

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Long ass rant/trauma dumping I cried like twice writing this I meant to just write about something that was on my mind recently but it turned to a recap of my entire life

I wish I knew how to find people I relate to irl because all my friends are cis straight and white and like I love them they’re rlly nice but I don’t relate to them at all I always feel like the only thing I can do in a conversation with them is smile and nod especially because like half of them are in their Harry Potter twilight teen dystopian book/movie era. I tried getting into Harry Potter so I had something to talk to them about but I just couldn’t, I already wore it out when I was 12 and especially with all the ick I know about jk rowling now I just don’t rlly enjoy it as much. And w twilight I just can’t because back in like 2014 I was on the side of tumblr who criticized/made fun of twilight like it’s in my dna now not to be able to enjoy it lmaoo.

I’m not trynna make fun of them or anything I just feel the things they enjoy now I enjoyed when I was like 11-12 probably because I was on the internet far too early. Also they’re all on straight tik tok. Im still traumatized from having to pretend to simp over rando guys thirst traps😭 like I do all that for them but they can’t even pretend to not think I’m weird for liking anime/bts. I don’t even dare to bring up video games

I guess this comes with living in a predominantly white area but sometimes they just be saying/doing some racially ignorant things and I don’t feel like saying anything because I’m usually the only poc in the room. (This is a goofier one but one time this girl was singing a song with the n-word in it originally and she made a point to tell me that she would never say it like girl i hope not do u want a sticker or sum lmaooo)

Anyway I legit don’t know any black people my age and it feels so isolating like even when I was in elementary school I remember always being aware that I was always the only black/brown girl in my class sometimes the only one period. I felt so different. When I was like 10-11 I was obsessed with staying out of the sun and looking up ways to lighten my skin. I would feel so ugly after a beach/pool day because of my tan I would exfoliate so vigorously to try and get rid of my melanin. One time I went to Disney world and I tried so hard to keep reapplying sunscreen and stay in the shade. I was happy when I didn’t get too tan it was just a mess of internalized colorism in my preteen years

I didn’t think this would be emotional to write but I’m lowkey tearing up

Anyways a separate but related thing that bothers me I can barely connect with most of my cultures with my parents. My mom is Afro-latina and I feel pretty in touch with my Mexican side because we see that part of my family the most and my abuela lives with us but we RARELY see my African American side of my family and my mom isn’t rlly in touch with her African American culture so by extension neither am I and that makes me kinda sad.

My dad is mixed jamaican and Chinese. I rarely see his side of the family period and my grandpa is 1st gen immigrant from china so I know non of his family which is a bit of a bummer because I’d love to know about the culture. The only Chinese culture my dad has is his ability to use chopsticks and he used to watch a lot of old kung fu movies but in dubs that had highkey racist accents. He’s more in touch w his Jamaican side as he’s a first gen immigrant from there but I can tell he’s become quite Americanized since I was younger especially since 2016 when he got into politics. Oh lord it’s been so downhill since then and the hill got steeper in 2020 when he discovered his conservative podcast. He literally listens to them everyday and I have to listen to homophobia/transphobia/non-poc giving their ignorant 2 cents on poc issues every damn day and my dad eats that shit up. He doesn’t even listen to his Jamaican music in the car no more it’s literally just those stupid ass podcast. And that’s all he talks about too he could go on and on forever about his bigotry and his guns. Oh lord don’t get him started on his guns he literally spent like 45 minutes talking to this random old guy about guns in bass pro shop. Even my uncle who posts his rifles on Facebook got tired of him lmaooo. I love him because he’s my dad but I would literally not associate with him if he wasn’t. Same goes for my mom and all of my parents friends. They think transphobia and shit is the funniest thing. They talk about it so casually like do y’all even have any other hobbies or music or media u could talk about why do u feel so fulfilled being hateful I thought u were Christian🤨

Also my mom says ching chong and pulls back her eyes and shit as jokes and my dad thinks it’s funny like ma’am ur husband is half Chinese and sir YOU are half Chinese have some dignity. That shi makes me mad. One time my mom called my eyes ch!nky and thankfully I had recently seen a video of an asian women calling out somebody for saying that so I was able to know that it was a whole ass slur because I had never heard that word before. And my mom was like “oh but I guess that’s a bad word now” like bish it was always a slur racism against Asians is just so normalized in whatever environment u were raised in. And one time at universal an asian looking dude was telling us the rules and shit and not even a second after that man left us my mom was like “ni-hao😜” I was so embarrassed and she thinks that shits hilarious and so does my dad. Weak ass links I say they’re literally casually racist to their own races. And they dismiss me when I try to say something. Hate it here. Also they think they can talk on Native American issues like how u gonna say a football team being named a slur or a tribe name being used for a car is good representation like stay out of their business shut up and listen to them. And they say their land wasn’t stolen and they shouldn’t be angry anymore I’m not even gonna get into that that just makes so fucking mad

I’m digressing but I feel so strongly about this they’ve even turned my sweet little brother into a whole homophobe. We were watching Eternals and when the husbands kissed my brother was like “really🙄” like boy what happened to u I don’t even like u no mo.

If I ever get into a relationship with a woman/nonbinary person or even a feminine guy it’ll over I’m gonna have to ghost everyone because I will be shamed and shunned to no end by my entire family. Maybe my sister will be accepting but she’s like a lowkey cringy type of ally so I might not even tell her💀💀 but yeah the thought of being disowned haunts me everyday. Imma have to be hella financially stable and live far far away if I ever want to come out to them. When I was 11 I discovered what being transgender was and related so much. I was obsessed with watch the same 3 trans documentaries everyday after school and it made me so happy to see all these people be accepted and loved by their family. I was so naive to think my family would be as accepting. I daydreamed about taking t one day and getting a binder. But nah my dad was straight up like ur going to hell lol. And for two years I was treated differently and sometimes bullied by my family until I eventually was bullied into being cis again (or so I thought😏 the pandemic made me realize some things about myself that I had repressed) but yeah I was too young and naive back then I was coming out to like everybody because I hadn’t experienced homophobia yet I didn’t now how dangerous it could’ve been. When I cut my hair by myself my dad told me that he would’ve punched me if I was a real boy. And one time I showed him a redraw I did of something I made when I was younger thinking he’d be impressed by how much my drawing has improved but he told me he liked the old one better because he liked who I was better back then (That was a deeply buried memory I’m am tearing up now I was fucking 11- 12 why would you say such things you fucking asshole that was so traumatic.) Thankfully my teacher at the time was a real one and so were my friends even tho they didn’t rlly understand.

Anyways yeah my family are the only people of my race that I know and they’re literally insufferable half the time. I wish I had some poc and lgbt+ friends irl but I don’t know how to find them I feel like I’m surrounded by white christians and I have no car or money or driver’s license to go to a con or smth idk to meet more diverse people. I see all these cool friend groups on tik tok and I just feel so envious. Like how does one find such cool friends. My mom is quitting her job soon through so I’ll have a ride to a job and I’ll be able to start saving my own money. If the economy is willing maybe one day soon I’ll be able to get my own car so that I can start living a life of my own and do what makes me happy and meet people like me.

#jojo’s bs

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