#one of the best ive experienced

[villowrose]

enjoying freedom post-pacifist route :)

#dunkle sans! dunkle sans! dunkle sans! #undertale #ut #utdr #sans undertale #frisk undertale #undertale fanart #sans #frisk #frisk dreemurr #my art #artists on tumblr #art #fanart #i am a huge fan of sans fanart in hyper-realistic settings you know which ones im taking about. #ive seen fics of the ut cast enjoying freedom by watching the sunrise/set together #and i liiiive for the post pacifist 'found family' trope #its so wholesome #im not very experienced in doing landscapes but i did my best

[rioblitzle]

i guess im not too involved in the zelda fandom cause seeing a post about rabid totk defenders is wild to me. from my perspective people were singing that game's praises for 2 months total before it fell to the "popular game bad actually" criticism wave and i don't think i've seen anyone say positive things about totk since then lmfao

#maybe it's just twitter's algorithm showing me discourse and criticism to try and spark engagement or whatever #ive experienced the same thing with mario odyssey which sucks cause i DID get into that game well after release but whatever #i think the game has plenty of flaws but is still like. one of the best games on the switch and that's not an insult to the switch #and most of my writing issues are 'well this sucks but also makes reasonable sense within the constraints of the game design' #like the lack of sheikah tech or the repetition with the backstory cutscenes with the sages #ive also never been super interested in trying to piece together the timeline or linked universe fan stuff but that might just be me #i feel like botw/totk is way better when you view it as a retelling of the zelda universe and give up on trying to reason with the timeline #for making a direct botw sequel on the same map w the same formula and still trying to make it fresh they knocked it out of the park imo #at least in regards to gameplay? #i acknowledge that there is a MASSIVE flaw in the non linear gameplay clashing w the linear story cutscenes this time #(... but that one didn't personally affect me since i saw the memories in mostly the right order and the story hit me weirdly hard) #but anyways yeah where are all the mean totk defenders i keep hearing about i thought that game fell out of the public consciousness #all i still see about it is NintendoMarioJimmy47536 on twitter calling it 'mid af' or whatever #and occasional gorgeous paintings of the light dragon on my dash

[azurechicken]

Astarion gets cute aggrassion and bites you bites you bites you and you die

#what is your walk of shame count to withers with this one included? #i just cant stop thinking about a clueless tav just doing a mundane thing but it looks like the cutest thing ever for astarion #who is experiencing these feelings for the first time and just goes overboard with it without intending to #and tav comes back from dead like. wow this is the best love poem ive ever gotten #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion

[delusionalblfan]

I'm living for the fact that Tinn in Our Skyy2xMSP is as whipped as Tinn in MSP

#im not crying you are #wtv universe MSP is amazing and one of the best things that ive experienced #thank you #i love you all so much #our skyy 2 #my school president #our skyy 2 x my school president #our skyy x my school president

[skeletalheartattack]

happy almost birthday :o)

:) thank you!!! there's gonna be a bounce castle at my birthday party and every body is invited

#ask #catboygirljoker #ough.... the passage of time marches on. #on that tuesday i will be 25. fucked up. #i dont really do much for my birthdays honestly. besides my mom taking me out to a restaraunt to eat. #on the day of i just get a good pizza and thats enough for me #a friend did recently offer to get me a desktop computer. and the tower has been here since thursday. #im currently waiting on the monitor. which should arrive in a few days. #im. really bad at accepting gifts. that said. even after having accepted this one im still experiencing grief #the computers an older model. but it runs on windows 10. #im. internally scared to think about what it can and cant run. i even dread thinking about even finding out. #like. ohhhh how id love to play animal crossing city folk again... or even minecraft... #but im doing. my best. to keep my expectations low. #i really hope it runs emulators (gamcube/wii/ps2 era ones) well. i need to play dbz budokai again i need to look at zarbons model again #the monitor is 1080p. which i dont think ive ever had a monitor that high res. #ik that TF2 probably wont run the best. but i hope sourcemods run fine. #ill have to do so much re-installing of things....... ogh..... #it doesnt have a wifi chip so i think temporarily ill have to use a usb to connect to the internet. #which i can live with. ik theyre not as powerful but its fine. maybe at some point ill get a wifi card. #though. i dread the thought <- had internal ptsd thinking about touching anything within a computer again #tldr. had a good laptop. screen went dark one day. was told it was probably the cmos battery. #tried to do repairs myself. ooggh..... the horrible memories.... #ik adding a wifi chip is incredibly easy. but that doesnt mean im not scared #anyway :) thank you for the soon birthday wishes

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just heard someone say that getting married is the hardest thing they've ever done.

I'm sorry but if getting married is the hardest thing you've ever had to do, I don't think I can talk to you. That's fine, that's totally okay if that's hard for you. I just need a long moment of silence for my misjudgment of the average amount of suffering that any given human experiences.

#and obviously theres shit like forced marriage and things #however #if you are choosing who to marry of your own volition. that shit should be easy #i cant even count with all of my fingers and toes the number of things that have been harder for me than getting married #for one. the reason im not yet legally married which is that im disabled and im in a very intenese match of Do I Deserve Rights #with the government #after that weve got recovering from an ed. not sure how im managing that. plus i couldve easily died #you know from malnutrition. not only from me starving myself but also due to severe malnutrition in my entire childhood #due to neglect and abuse. its tge reason i never grew properly. i have a hole in my jaw. its also why my jaw is underdeveloped #ive got severe insomnia and anxiety to the point that i wont sleep for days without strong meds #and cant really leave my house alone #i lived through untreated hypothermia and likely heat stroke as well and those were both MUCH harder than getting married #i experienced child labor and escaped what was probably a cult given that i had to run away to an undisclosed location #cut off contact with everyone i knew from it and remain anonymous #i ran away from home because of the abuse and when the cops were called on me i had to sit thete #with a straight face and listen to social workers and authorities tell me that what i was calling abuse was ok and that i had to go back #i had to fight for an education that i never really got. same for medical care including emergency medical care #anyway point being i will be very relieved to spend the rest of my life with my favorite person after all of that #there are no regrets or uncertainties about that. my life is the best its ever been and she only makes it better

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[nikomedes]

i

beat it

#niko plays bg3 #its my shrike playthru im like. experiencing 3000 emotions #im rly very happy with the way things turned out it feels like this is the best possible thing #that my beautiful wayward hick ex murderer druid couldve done #ive gotta lay down #254 HOURS TO BEAT DO NOT BE A NIKO PLAY AT LEAST ONE THRU BEFORE STARTING A BUNCH OF OTHERS #oh my god. the quiet tho. shrike in the quiet

[bromblecomble]

at least once a week i get mad that scavengers reign was done so dirty. it's just such an absolute waste

#it really is one of the most insanely good pieces of media ive experienced pretty much in my life #so much care and time and work went into it and it was so unique and it was just allowed to flop. no advertising done for it whatsoever #not the creators' fault obviously but god it really is just such a waste thats the best word i can think of

[casualavocados]

i literally never know how to explain bad buddy to anyone because on the surface it just looks like something cute and silly while it is about 8000000 things more than that. but it is also cute and silly.

#and life changing dont forget that one #they are best friends to me #idk IDK its just such a thing that has to be EXPERIENCED to even remotely grasp the feeling of #julian watches bb #bad buddy series #the fact that i am still on it so much time later *fascinates* me #because i mean #no i dont think about it every day anymore #no i dont have the urge to rewatch 24/7 #yes ive calmed down and its settled inside me #but like...the other day i was feeling just a little off #just a little! couldnt figure out the cause #and i wallowed in it for a lil bit trying to figure out how to feel better #and i rewatched a single scene of bb. just on my phone #and it was like #i ballooned back to life #made me realize that comfort media is actually something you can go to to feel better not just something to top off your list of faves #its just. GOOD. its a part of me it makes me feel more connected to myself #it makes me feel awake #like. hm. you know those stories you just want to disappear into and escape reality from?? #bad buddy has the opposite effect #it makes me want to go and LIVE and just BE and revel in it #not a lot of stories give me that effect! #and it absolutely comes down to in general that bb is a story about healing and choice #and is effortlessly (through so so so much dedicated effort) human in every way #like. it GETS to me #& i hope that feeling never goes away because watching this series fills me up with so much hope and carefree joy #and love for life! thats the gist of it! #today on: bb is still the best show ive ever seen and im still in shock from it. tune in next time for. the same thing

[bogfroggy]

really loving someone brings a certain zest for arts and crafts into your life. im giggling and kicking my feet thinking about making a card and putting stickers on it

#personal #being corny on main sorry #not even purely romantic either i think abt my best friends and want to paint them a painting #having a small yap in the tags don’t mind me #but also being in love fr is crazy #im gonna bake this mf a cake. im gonna make him a collage im gonna get back into film photography #i don’t think I’ve ever experienced genuine love like this before it’s hard to talk about sometimes. like oh i rlly did find my soul mate #and it makes me wanna cry. never thought to look for my soulmate in the boonies of northern ontario but he’s my best friend ever #we just out here in mutual disbelief like oh. you’re The One for me and it’s so clear #if u been following me long time i know ive said im so in love with anyone I’ve dated before. but oh it’s so different this time

[maraeffect]

really long quasi -spiritual post below cut

i just got this sharp, weird, specific ache in my chest seeing a cute little art about good days... wtf....i always get these weird flashes of this place that feels very familiar and bittersweet, but idk where it's from. and i think i just unlocked a different flash after like 6-8 months. i think what i'm seeing flashes of are images of the life i idealized for myself; from an amalgamation of daydreams and things i saw elsewhere that were beautiful and sweet to me.

idk what the images mean. i still don't know where they're from. one is just me standing in a snowy street in the middle of the night. there's huge trees lining each side of the road. i think maybe it's from a memory in Asheville as a child? on our way back home.

tonight what the new one was a flash from inside a car, that was driving through a historic/brick town district in the snow. the wipers were going to get the snow off the windshield. idk why, but i instantly felt so....sad. in the image i felt like things were calm for me. like there was a life there that i'd always dreamed of, where everything came easily and things were always beautiful. and then i snapped back to real life and felt so, so sad.

i'm not ever going to have these memories or flashes in time back to myself. i can hardly remember them anyway. but it feels like at some point, my life took a very sharp turn away from the things i had dreamt about. and that some ghost of me, in some alternate universe, might still be living life on that pathway. and they get to experience the version of my life that wasn't so traumatic. idk. as much as the images are so beautiful, and interesting. they hurt just as bad or worse when i realize that they're never going to come back for me.

#i think the sharp turn was when i got cancer the first time #granted. things are very different but in ways that gave me some of the best things ill ever have #i would have never met my soulmate uf not for the first cancer battle. its what made my parents move to Florida #nd thats where i met her. its really soothing to know that maybe it all actually went to plan #nothing ''changed'' or '' #''diverged“���*** but. it just set the stage for the wonderful things i experienced despite everything else sucking #it's just weird now how it feels like ive been living a double life against the version of me that never got sick. #it makes sense though. i think that part of me died when i got sick. and ill never get it back. #my innocence or my childhood or the part of me that hoped that everything might actually turn out okay. #we all keep going and move on bc time stops for no one. but i still think about her sometimes. #the one that died back in 2013. #chatter #long post

[mrpsychokiller]

i need to consume a piece of media that will emotionally impact me forever. i need to watch a movie or play a game that will leave me crying and sobbing desperately. i need something that i will think about forever. i need something that i will be able to say "means a lot to me", something that will influence my life permanently, something that will make me think about things and make me better as a person. i need undertale 2

#best way i can explain my genuine desire to experience sometimes important #i think my life has been so stagnant i just feel the need for something that will change everything #something that will be important and impactful #because im bored and i need something new #and i miss the emotional catharsis of experiencing a really important piece of media for the first time #i havent really consumed anything new since i read homestuck two years ago and im starting to get bored again #not because homestuck doesnt mean anything to me anymore its still one of the most important things ive consumed media wise #but by now i just need something new. maybe im just thinking too much of media and i just truly want a change in my life #who knows

[xannerz]

im so lucky ;3; 💘

#i love my friends and birb so much ;o; #like the world's still spinning - work and misc life things are insanely stressful atm and i do feel like i'm near buckling on those fronts #but i feel sooo lucky to have such good people in my life #one of my best friends told me that this has been the happiest i've been in years #and i felt v held by her saying that unprompted tbh ;; #like a promotion at work helped but she could see how much happier ive been since i told birb how i felt and its just. Nice. #there are so many good people and things in my life rn i want to nurture and hold on to them #i love my gf!! so much!! i never experienced this type of love before - could never relate to it. until We Happened ykwim #and im so happy we can share it together ;; 💘 #xangoeswah

[tentacletournament]

This is very off topic but- i thought you would appreciate the fact that i'm going to write about the classic to geno to error timeline in my philosophy essay.

IM SCREAMING THEIR TIMELINE IS MY EVERYTHING I HAVE BEEN OBSESSED FOREVER AND EVER IF YOU DONT GET FULL MARKS ILL DIE

#if you ever feel like sending it you know where to find me #no bc im obsessed with the entire timeline of basically decay and tie in lore of the entire thing #the concept of not only the affects of trauma and isolation but also the changing of situation and environment having that big of an impac #is so fun to analyse #the impact of knowledge on this guy and how this relates to the entire concept of timelines is such a good psychological stufy #on top of the environment changes that sans goes through theres also the entire thing with all the relationships in his life #starting with gaster that is clearly a large affect on the sci to classic time until eventually the genocide route changes him again but #more drastic because of his new position stuck in save forever until eventually the void #and then you apply the little typology pseudoscience to his personality and way of thinking throughout this #and then apply the whole multiversal war lore to how he reacts and responds to the creation of aus #and then you consider all the fandom relationships between the sanses and how they react to one another specifically between the main #timeline and aus because of how different their lives weny #AND THEN ADD ON THAT SANS IS HOT??? #ive been obsessed for 8 years sorry for the tag essay #also sans is just funny #sci is my personal favourite because of everything listed above like he hasnt even experienced all of that #but in some interpretations you assume that he DOES know all that happens and he still goes on?? #also cpau is my yearly christmas ritual best personification of sci not in terms of anything important but like just how he acts and talks #bhc did blue best thats irrelevant but i need everyone to know about it #not a poll #mars talks #mars is talking a LOT

[upsidedowngrass]

OK this isnt one of my essay character analysises, BUT i offer: a 784 word character study fic abt the beginning of ep 5 :)

(also uploaded on ao3!!)

It's the happiest either of them have seen Scenty through the whole competition.

From where Liam and Bryce both sit, they can hear her cheering. After all the times Stone has stopped her team from being up for elimination, she finally has a way out.

But she's just so, so hopeful, because the viewers would certainly be on her side. They'd take her home, and she could leave this place behind. She could leave the unsettling geometry, ominous figures, and all-powerful voices who don't care about the lives of those they harm all in the past. This was certain to her. After all, she was the one who has asked to leave the most. Even her own teammates were vouching for her.

(Neither Bryce nor Liam would ever find issue with this. They want to go home too, yeah, but they're all being subjected to ONE; it'd be hard to accuse her of any selfishness or her teammates of any bias in a situation like this.)

It's the fact that she is so hopeful, though, that makes Liam look away and Bryce go quiet. Her excitement was loud and blatant, and though she was turned away from the both of them, it could be heard in the increasing thickness of her words that she's crying, at least a little.

All of this twists at something in Bryce's chest, as he just stares. It's far from panicked, but his breaths nonetheless feel shallow. Liam altogether tries to ignore her joy. It feels cruel to him. It feels unfair, and he doesn't want to see, and just the happiness in her voice makes him feel distant from the Plane.

They both just stay there, sitting in the pointed grass, because her hopes are so high. It really is the happiest either of them have ever seen her- though that doesn't mean much here. In her place, both of them would be just as excited. If they told her of Stone's message, that excitement would be completely crushed. Crushed with the ease of a wooden stake-

Then again, if she doesn't go home this elimination, would that be worse? Would telling her after only serve to make her spirits even worse, with her not only having to deal with the horrors of the Plane, but also the fact that her friends, the only people here from the same world as her, had kept something that important from her? Would she even care?

Scenty's cheering had died down by now. Her team had huddled together further, no doubt trying to make the most of their time with her. They all seemed to have grown close quickly through the competition. She'd moved to rest the back of her candle against Tray, allowing Bryce to read her expression better from where his team of three sits. Liam still stares only ahead of himself. With everything that's happened, a moral dilemma is far too complicated for him to even consider thinking about.

She's smiling, and she looks calm, though she occasionally wipes at her eyes. The relief is obvious in her posture. Her teammates talk casually and quietly amongst each other, Scenty piping in with a now worn, but still happy voice every now and then. 

All Bryce can think about is Stone's message, and that if the eliminations truly are random, then out of all of the contestants up for elimination, she doesn't have great odds of leaving. But she's still so happy, and if she does end up stuck here long, isn't it better for at least some of it to have been spent not afraid, and not desperate, but content?

Really, it doesn't feel like anything is the right decision here. No matter what, the situation is terrible, and no amount of sparing emotions or being honest will change that. Frankly, neither Bryce nor Liam could probably even bring themselves to tell her anyway, no matter what the “correct” decision is, the weight of Stone's message still weighing on their own minds, as well, keeping them both at a loss for much. Learning just how helpless everyone here was was never going to be something that would settle well. The text box’s clicking hadn’t gotten either of them to budge much, and they definitely wouldn’t now, Scenty’s words leaving its own mark that rivaled that of the message itself.

So instead, the two stay where they've sat since they left Stone's notes behind, still failing to know what to do about the knowledge given, even for themselves. As the members of Scenty's team individually fall asleep in their tranquility, both Liam and Bryce stay awake under the burning sun, and remain there still after the sleeping members awaken.

#hfjone #my fics #yeah thatll work #man. this is the first fic ive ever posted #and it was written on a whim #NERVOUS to be im more experienced w like essay like prose BUT #trying my best to do whatever i want forever ... #(also. writing in two characters pov is a little odd. but i didnt wanna only write one) #ANYWAY. thank u if u read i hope its ok :) im a little rusty writing the one cast but im doing my best! #and i RLY wanted to write smth that elaborated on their thoughts during this scene bc this scene fucks me up