#or if you didnt' and just wanna know bc this IS a thing with other ships too

[pumpkinsy0]

tldr: @buddyaldridge is a 30 year old weirdo proshipper who talks shit about ppl behind their backs, block em and report if you can/want to

just wanna let everyone know theres a omegaverse mpreg dallyboy writer whos been an all around WEIRDOOOOO cause their brain is LITERALLY porn rotted and they cannot fathom ppl actually having fun at all, their @ is @buddyaldridge aka @pelopsides previously known as @madelynprior

in 2020-2022 the outsiders tumblr they used to be @madelynprior and theyre a hardcore dallyboy stan which is already fucking weird, but on top of that, they would make teen pregnancy omegaverse smut fics which??? and im not gonna give you the ss, nigga im givin yall the LINKKK to see it with your own eyes so you know im not crazy

how ik its them is bc on their acc RIGHT before they switched to their buddyaldridge acc, and before that acc was named “pelopides”, they used to go by “madeleinepryor”, how ik its the same person is bc on a good chunk of their post, theyd tag it as “#madeleinepryor dispatches” on top of that, they just straight up linked their ao3 acc😭😭

heres what the link goes to, they linked their ao3 acc, they just changed their username on ao3 as well from madeleinepryor to greasers

now me calling them a proshipper isnt me talking out of my ass, they say it themselves like ughhhhjjj

as for them talking about other ppl, i wont share ALL the screenshots bc idk if the ppl theyre talking bad about would rlly feel comfortable w those being posted, if they know, they can feel free to post it on their own accord, so like i said, wont share, but i HAVE seen some and i can conform that they have done it, its ABSOLUTELY NOT above them

for now ill post the ss i CAN post rn which just proves my point

now ignoring that theyre talking smack, theyre just so odd and obviously didnt rlly think this through bc 1967 is ALREADY IMPLIED in the 60s, youre just incapable of reading things that arent about teen boys getting it on w each other PLEASE get a grip on reality😭😭

theyve talked about 14 year olds and their post on their acc just to shit on them, once again, GROWN ASS PERSON TWEAKIN OVER THE IDEAS OF A 14 YEAR OLD🗣️🗣️

NOW maybe your asking “how do you know the discord user and the tumblr user are the same person” AND I WILL ADMIT, while i DO have strong feelings they are the same person, its not 100% proven, HOWEVER buddyaldridge DOES go by buddy and that discord users name is buddy, so while its not concrete, the link IS there, once again, feel free to come to whatever conclusion you wanna come to about that

but what ISNT disputable is the fact that theyre a proshitter

additionally just this??? reblog from them????

on its own, not MUCH, bit considering the fics they make this is SO weird like??????

and finally, ive heard that theyve specifically came for me about my haitian shepards and maybe even my heritage, saying that they hated race hcs??????like using me as an example, they ss my acc and talked shit, someone contacted me about it and they dont have ss of it specifically, but they can vouch for it, and im not just gonna dismiss that, bc while they dont have ss, they do have ss and proof of everything else, so i do believe them, and theyve said if they find it they would show them to me, do what you wanna with this info

ANYWAYS buddy, your brain is unironically pornrotted, ur being a lil baby who cant do anything but cry and moan online on discord of all places and ur doing all this as a 30+ year old, and its CRAZIER bc youre doing all this while having “minors dni” in your pinned post, while also writing about minors, in a fandom MOSTLY OF MIDDLE SCHOOLERS!!!! (aka minors!!! ik age is hard for you to grasp) on top of that, literally ANY and ALL race hcs is way more believable and enjoyable than any “ideas” you’ve been cooking up in that odd demented, shriveled up pea brain of urs

anyways yea, that all i have to say, and im speaking for myself here, but i mean this with every fiber of my being, i dont know how you function in life but i DO NOT want you to go any farther, and i think others would/DO feel the same, ive seen what makes you cheer and i am PROUUUDDD to make you BOOOOO, you shouldnt be near minors at all, fictional or non fictional, you should BARELY be near other adults

plus if you go onto their acc rn, notice how when anon called them out, buddy aint even say they were wrong?? JUST SAYIN🗣️🗣️

im tagging everything i can tag bc i DO NOTTTT want mfs interacting w their blog, and want as many ppl as possible to be aware, dont say anything to them, dont give them attention bc obviously they’ll think this is funny and post it on their shitty discord server or whatever and giggle like they arent a grown ass nigga w bills to pay, trying so hard to cling onto their high school days, making fics about a canon middle schooler getting banged and pregnant, pls block and report do whatever u wanna do, just plssss dont let this proshitter on this damn sight near kidssss😭😭

dont take this as me WANTING drama, i dont, i just dont want ppl coming in this fandom thinking posting this shit and doing this is ok, youre bullying ppl for doing harmless things meanwhile your just making straight porn about a weird ship left n right, thinking YOUUUUU of all ppl have the place to talk about anyone or anything like your opinion on anything is valid😭😭

you NEED stones thrown at you

if anyone has anymore ss send em to mmeeeeee, but in the mean time ill be doin my own thing wooooo‼️‼️🔥🔥

#curly shepard #ponyboy curtis #tim shepard #angela shepard #darry curtis #darrel curtis #dallas winston #sodapop curtis #johnny cade #steve randle #two bit mathews #the outsiders fandom #the outsiders 1983

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for running away from my (17) younger sibling (12 going on 13) in pony town?

the stakes are so low theyre subterranean but i feel like a bit of a dick for it. only pre-story context needed is that pony town is an online game based on my little pony that me and them both play, they know im not good at remembering the map layout bc i dont play nearly as often as them, and they just flat REFUSE to accept a boundary until its repeated and explained to them multiple times -- and even then they still dont fully accept/acknowledge it

so i opened up pony town earlier to make a pony and then maybe walk around and chat on my own since im usually just playing with my sibling, but they saw me get online and immediately messaged me to meet them somewhere to show me some ponies they made. i agreed and they showed me their ponies, but when i went to leave they started following me. like "trying to be right next to me at all times" following me. this is after we agreed to do our own thing, mind you

irritated, i immediately started zig-zagging through the crowds and switching ponies at random to try and make them lose me, which did work, but afterwards i realized i maybe could have Just Told Them i didnt wanna play with them. i was just too annoyed for that to occur to me if im being honest

i dont know if it actually bothered them at all but now i feel bad since my number one advice on aita posts like this is "just communicate" so i feel like a hypocrite now. im also realizing as i finish this ask that having this much of a moral hangup over such a tiny non-issue is probably not normal and considering the other aspects of my life i should probably go get screened for some kinda disorder. aita?

#aita #am i the asshole

[ghoulbats]

watched the livestream 👍🏼 cried 👍🏼 see you all at the next one 👍🏼

#i’m sure other people will do in-depth posts about the info given but what i will say is there’s 60 days #although ig the info was mainly that they don’t know right now but they’re working on it and will tell us when they do know stuff #they wanna do what they can in the time they have and they wanna see if there are ways to continue some things #but the majority only just found out about this too so if you honestly expected them to know everything know then that’s on you #it was just very sad and made me realise i’m gonna miss it all a lot more than i thought yesterday #rt #rooster teeth #roosterteeth #it’s funny i still have to use that for my personal organisation now bc i just didnt realise it was two words this whole time #but hey i’m going down with the ship ig #it’s taken up 12 years of my life already what’s another 60 days

[skitskatdacat63]

I started a "big" drawing of them, but didn't wanna get too into it, so here are some small Hussar Martian :)

#*both drawings this and the wip are hussar au #i just didnt wanna get into something too deeply late on a weeknight #so you know!! draw chibis so i can draw still but not be very tireless #definition of my art: burning the midnight oil fr #things i find funny: #both this and the wip are referenced from pics from various rbr car launches #so i guess those are pretty important pics to me 🤭🤭 #and then the other is that both of their hair styles are inspired by malaysia 2010(beloved) #anyways could you imagine seb on the battlefield??? seb on horseback?????? #that is why Mark is perpetually tired. he is so DONE with restraining seb from galloping in battle #i have to do more research on the and layout structure of power in this au so take this lightly but #i imagine theyre the two commanders of a battalion 🥰 #and mark was already there and then seb got promoted into being his co-leader #and seb effortlessly sways all their men into being wrapped around his finger and mark is so salty #seb: can we please go on another reconnaissance mission 🥺🥺 #mark: no. i do not want you getting shot at again. repairing your uniform is so bothersome! and you need to learn how to sew!!! #seb: but Kate's Dirty Sister(horse)(imagine that name in German instead) is so fast and quiet!! mark: no. #BUT GAAAAHAHHH YKNOW??? theyre brought together thru triumph and trauma just like in f1!!!!!! theyre teammates sob sob sob #hussar au will always be special to me. one may say fav child. just bcs its the first one i researched deeply #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #mark webber #sebmark #martian #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #hussar au

[bangcakes]

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#personal #i think that like... the dam's broken. for lack of a better term #or i guess the ice ???? idk man #either way. been messaging back n forth with him like crazy for the past few days #i just decided that like.... whatever. if i feel like saying something i should just say it to him !!! #and i think me being open has led to him being open.... #god its so hard when both ppl only really talk when they have something to say JFJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJJD #like... i cant even make up a reason to talk to him. i cant pretend to be dumb n not understand anything. he'll know its bullshit NDJDJDJDN #n e way...... defs met my match here lmao. but really its been so nice just being able to talk to him when i want. bc waiting until being i #person was getting so !!@@@ long !!! like god. i didnt know i could miss someone so bad...... its so !!@@@@@@ #gah !!!!!!!!!!!! #n e way. things are goin in the right direction #and hahaha !!!!!!@ i have a game plan to make sure we stay in touch too !!!!! me n one of my other friends promised to keep in touch with #each other and i was like oh should we invite everyone else. and she was like oh !! maybe ____ so i was like !!!!!!!! #so true !!!!!!!!!!@ #gosh im so excited i really like them both so much we're all similar temperaments so ya..... ive wanted to make sure i keep them JFJFJFJD #n e way. we still havent asked him but hopefully he says yes !!!! bc he always sits behind us n im just like !!!! ik you wanna sit with us #so just sit beside us istg !!!! but ah ... i think hes shy #god hes so cute #and shes like not competition btw. like..... she has a bf. she knows i like this guy now (i spilled. i couldnt hold it in 💀💀💀). and ya !! #hopefully exciting things coming!!!

[killjoy-prince]

Merch and Manga haul from yesterday

#prince's talk tag #ok so the kaeya keychain and white rabbit!len were gifts from my friend i was with yesterday #the len was a from a blind box so they got lucky with that one #but the rest of it i bought yesterday #i saw wxs!miku and my friend was like 'You're getting her. you have to get her!' and so i did #niigo!miku wasnt available only wxs and vbs and this was the last one there #kino currently has these 10th anniversary pins in two styles and you can see both with the kanji and naoto pins #i like the style of kanji's more but they didnt have that style for naoto so I had to get the other one #next time i go ill see if they have the other style #the other three charms in the pic i got at a secondhand bookshop that also has anime merch #i dont do a3 but i do know some things bc of my mutual (LC if you see this hi hi! o/ ) #but i thought the charm was cute and it was cheap so i bought it #the rin one was really nice im happy i found it #bc all these charms were mixed in the many rows of hooks they were hanging on. theres no order you just gotta dig for what you want #and lisa was one of my faves when i played bang dream so i got her too #ok now the manga!! im continuing my gekkan shoujo collection bc i will own this whole series its my favorite series ever im so serious #i had hirano and kagiura and twilight out of focus on my wishlist but they came out too close to xmas and my bday to get for it #and then i forgot they came out already until i saw them and decided to get them #i didn't know spy fam got a novel and since thats another series i wanna own everything of bc thats my second fav series ever #i bought it and im interested in seeing whats the story #bottom right im really enjoying that manga and theyre skinny so i can fit a bunch of them :D #bottom middle with the sticker on it my friend knew about it and recommended it and i wasnt gonna buy it #but kino were giving out stickers if you bought the first volume and i love bonus merch sooooo i got it #the two in the bottom left i got at the secondhand bookstore. theyre both yuri anthologies that ive read about in other yuri series #and i hadnt seen them at the other bookstores so i got them at the secondhand one #and bc i bought so much stuff i needed a bag and i saw that cute one of miku baking cookies with her friends faces on them so i got it #it was a fun day!! :D

[nomaishuttle]

i simsed my ideal apartment :]

#THE FURNITURE IS JUST PLACEHOLDERS LMAO my actual furniture would be much nicer... #also We r ignoring the fact that i didnt have room to put a desk 😭😭 in my irl dream apartment there would be a desk in a little nook #i will perhaps finish this some other day.. whos 2 say #its also annoying bc its. an apt obv but even tho ts4 'has' 'apartments'. you all know what i mean LOL #also the ts4 apts are all fucking huge likee. and i legit hate the fact you cant build yr own apt building 😭😭 it legit means that if you #want to have an apt it HAS to be in san myshuno and like. man apartments exist outside of cities and also it gets rly fucking tiring to pic #from the same 3 ugly ass stupid layout ass apartments everytime u wanna move a sim into an apartment. but whatever #but no like i said the sims 4 apartments r all fucking gigantic but also shaped in such a way that its like. impossible to make a good floo #plan.... it sucks :[[ #like i dont wanna live in a shoebox or anything but i dont need a like. 5000 square feet apt or whatever... #but ya this is missing some things id have as well just due to. limitations of the game. id also want to have a coat closet a linen closet #etc... i lovee little closets #and obviously id also have A closet closet bc as is nowhere for my sim 2 put clothes! #ill see abt drawing a floorplan for a more likee real life of what id want

[memorys-skyscraper]

the scene in yakuza 5 where shinada and milky dance on the roof talking about how they should run away and start over in a new town with new jobs and new lives, only for milky to abruptly stop and let shinada go when she gets called back downstairs to work, while shinada is sent stumbling by suddenly being let go until he too comes to a stop, burns a hole in my brain

#rambles #yakuza #yakuza liveblogging #like man. MAN. that shit hits home #milky saying 'i wanna be a teacher this time- that was my dream as a kid!' #and shinada replying 'you can! nothings stopping you! you can start over!' with a tone that borders on hysterical #he's so desperate to believe it's possible because in that moment he can see it- he sees his way out #for a moment he's blind to all the things that have kept him from doing exactly what he's proposing every other time he's considered it #hes trapped in a glass house- he can see freedom but knows he cant reach it. but for a moment he lets himself forget the glass is there #but milky doesnt. she thinks hes being cute and plays along but as soon as she lets him go the music cuts and the moment is gone. #reality comes crashing back down- they're not going anywhere. #and i mean. idk if this is a common/universal experience but ive had many a late night where ive done exactly the same thing #fantasized about quitting my job/going back to school/finding some means of self employment/moving somewhere totally new #and ive had those fleeting moments where i could see it- i could see how i could make it work #or i could see that there's nothing *physically* stopping me from doing any of those things #and if i could just sum up enough courage i could do anything i wanted with my life #but then i wake up the next day and that vision is gone. #i cant see outside the glass house anymore- i can only see the reflection of the inside. #tl;dr i should revisit y5- the writers were cooking and i didnt take enough time to savor it #(esp not the shinada section bc i hated his combat style lol)

[bumpscosity]

starting an origins server with some of my siblings friends and i just found out everyone's making characters up for it i feel like the combo i picked has so many possible outcomes

#i'm thinking of going a grimwalker route where they like a memoryless clone of someone they never knew #my spawn is in the nether and i def wanna make it my home base. i don't think anyone else is spawning in the nether so that'll be fun #interesting for me bc i'm usually the one leeching off others recourses to build stuff but ALSO story wise very isolating #you wake up in hell and it's gross and weird but something about it is familiar. #not in memories per se but muscle memory. not things you did but knowing what not to eat #what's friendly. what hurts. maybe they know their a reincarnation of someone else deep down. #but that person was a blip in time. discipated into the endless seas of molten lava a long time ago. #their soul and magic just now mustering up the strength to become whole again. to become SOMETHING. #it was many eons ago that that person existed. their belongings and home have long since decayed and become one with the hellish landscape #there is no time to think of who you once were. there is only survival. #but the moment you have a home and supplies and are truly safe. you feel a deep fear. #a fear of who you once were long ago. who they could've been. what you should be. momories you no longer possess. #a longing to understand and go back to being a self you never were. #a person who's existence has been lost to time. #you shake off these feelings as best you can #but every time you find yourself in the overworld looking out at the vast ocean #you can't help but wonder wether they hated the deep blue sea as much as you do. #sassy speaks #mc #WHY DID I WRITE SO MUCH HELP I DIDNT MEAN TO DO THAT-

[yo9urt]

mutuals i may be on the verge of becoming a gamer...

#not really LOL not like a serious one at least but umm this could be huge #mine #ok i realize i havent made a personal post in a while so let me explain... #for a while now ive been wanting to get a proper pc so i can play games and also do other stuff (<- macbook air owner) #but i was like ill just wait til i move out cause money and moving etc etc and then i was like well maybe ill get one for black friday #and then i was like no i don't have space and i need to be frugal and it'll be easier to move out if i don't have a pc to worry about #but i still want to play games...COUGH bg3. i really wanna play bg3...and minecraft and stardew valley and the yakuza games also #possibly other games too but anyway i was beginning to lose hope and then i saw someone on some thread somewhere mention the steam deck #and i was like oh yeah waht is that thing (i had never considered it before bc i thought it was more of a serious gamer thing but i also #didnt really know what it was at all anyway back on topic) so i goog'd it and it's like exactly what i need? #it's in my budget + small and portable + can run all the games on my list #(it doesn't run bg3 WELL...you have to be a bit careful with the settings and the framerate is a little messy #but i'm willing to accept that honestly it doesn't bother me i just want to play the game i'll lower my standards) #and with winter break coming up i'm like umm. i need something to do.... #plus they just came out with the oled version and after doing research #even though i want to be frugal i honestly think the 512gb oled seems like the right choice #so. i might order it tomorrow LMAO

[starrycat123-blog]

oksies hi starting a new thread of get to know you

haii I'm moth and also thea you may call me any nickname as well <3

I love musicals so so much (niche and popular!! basic-shaming is lame)

I am superhero obsessed (augh pied piper)

doctor who is my autism (yay river sonf!!!!)

good omens heoughhhhhhhh

super excited to meet you <3333333

Hi moth!! You can call me tetra. Don't worry that's not my real name or anything tho. I took it from the concept of tetrachords in music.

If we're generous about what we call superheroes, then maybe most of the things I like are superhero based. I mean obviously there's marvel and dc, but then there's stuff like dpxdc, sonic the hedgehog (idk if I've ever heard him called a superhero but he kinda is), if we count magical girls then like. Sailor moon and madoka magica

I haven't seen any episodes of good omens, but I read a really good fanfic of Crowley going to therapy a while back, and a couple funny ones with like yelp reviews of Aziraphale's bookstore. Plus I love the good omens analysis posts on here. I feel like maybe I half know some of what's happened in the show but also probably haven't scratched the surface. I'm kinda bad at watching TV shows, so there's a lot of stuff that I know from fandom but haven't seen. For another example of that, I've only watched one or two episodes of Sonic Prime. I reblog posts for it and it sounds good but idk. Just bad at it.

I'm a much more casual fan of musicals, I think for the same thing as above where I just struggle to sit and watch something on purpose. But I listen to the music from them sometimes, I've read transcripts online of a couple, and i swoon whenever I see a post analyzing the meaning of a musical song, especially when they go beyond lyrics and start going into the music theory in the tune. I don't have the skills or knowledge to do that myself but I love it so much

(when the singer changes their technique to enhance the meaning,, when this or that chord is a step outside the key to symbolize change or isolation or anything,,, using instruments as symbols for this or that character,,, tbh it doesn't have to be a musical even shout out to that youtube video by Scruffy on how fnaf's audio and sound effects make it scarier)

Lately I've been bouncing back and forth between Sonic and DPxDC. With hints of Slay The Princess in there bc I saw part of a playthrough of that awhile ago and loved the concept. I reblog madoka magica stuff whenever I see it (except magia record bc I know next to nothing about it) because that stuff makes me lose my mind. The love the pain the hope the despair!! Homura is probably like my ultimate blorbo but I love all the five girls they're so cool. I actually read the manga instead of watching the show though so I'm not as familiar with all the music. Plus I think the show had some extra scenes. Although it's a little confusing bc I think some of the extra scenes I see are magia record so idk.

Also I'm a fan of arts and crafts and will reblog that kind of thing once in a while, along with cute cat stuff.

Super excited to meet you too!

#sorry about the late response. got nervous and then put it off for awhile #hopefully it's a good one though? #it's unedited bc if i think stop and think harder/worry more now i'll never escape the think stage and i will post nothing #and i don't wanna do that #if there's anything you wanna know just ask #actually maybe i should think of some questions for you #oh like who's pied piper? i haven't heard of a superhero with that name just the child-stealing legend #unless you consider that guy a hero which like. i guess you could interpret it like that? teaching the value of not exploiting your workers #and i've read at least one story based on the legend where he takes the children somewhere nice #i feel like stealing children is not the ideal solution to that issue but it is a bit iconic if you think about it right #maybe he couldve taken some crops instead tho like thats the village income. it'd be more similar to money than kids. #i mean i guess in those days kids were also workers. and somewhat exploited generally. #so i guess i could see it as the guy getting exploited and then grabbing all the other exploited workers in town #i'm not really a history buff am i off base with this theory completely #i know kids used to have to work to help their families and that there are child labor laws for a reason #but also. not like there was a ton of free entertainment in the olden times. #i mean the parents almost definitely didnt pay kids money but chores aren't exploitation #maybe i should leave this up to interpretation #or just say it depends on situation and some kids probably were exploited while others weren't #hmm. this whole thing is probably just bs. i don't know what i'm talking about #oh well i hope you didn't mind it

[dreamcast-official]

ugh.

#eli.txt #I KEEP FORGETTING MY EX HAS A PARTNER AND I GET SO MISERABLE ABT IT EVERYTIME I AM REMINDED. #idk. goes back to how disposable i probably am. in general. but to them especially #bc damn losing me meant absolutely nothing huh. nothing in your life changed other than not having to deal with me anymore. #nothing changed and yet me being gone made it all better huh. #idk what i expected but idk ive always been kinda disposable to most ppl i just. idk i hoped a relationship wouldve been different #like. damn! leaving me changed nothing! it just made your life better! i can fucking tell! #things always turn out this way is the thing lol everytime someone gets rid of me its like their life immediately gets better #AGFHGHGH this sucks i kinda wanna be mad at them but im NOT #IM MAD AT MYSELF FOR NOT BEING MAD AT THEM WHICH IS FUCKING STUPID BUT LIKE. GOD THEY NEVER DID ANYTHING TO HARM ME #AND THAT MAKES IT SO HARD FOR ME TO FEEL NEGATIVELY TOWARDS THEM #EVEN THOUGH IM REALLY HURT BC THEYRE NOT. DOING ANYTHING. TOWARDS ME. IM HURT BC IM A FUCKING BABY THAT CANT GET OVER ANYTHING EVER #this sucks so much i fucking hate it here do you know how upsetting this is. they didnt even fucking DO anything which makes it WORSE #bc WHY am i upset they didnt even DO anything #im just like a fucking infant is what i am

[sureuncertainty]

okay here are my thoughts on pj/hazel as a ship (from bottoms which i will probably be hyperfixating on for a bit sorry not sorry)

i guess I appreciate them as ship but i'm having a hard time getting quite on board with it just bc i'm really tired of the trope (idk if it's a trope but I see it frequently) of character A is a total asshole to character B consistently and then like... apologizes once (or not at all) and then B just forgives them immediately and it's fine. like idk i don't like ships where one character is mean to the other, it feels like there's an imbalance there. yeah pj apologized but i lowkey felt like hazel was too quick to forgive her and hazel deserves someone who doesn't make fun of her and is not mean to her 24/7 and who actually shows their appreciation of her and love for her and doesn't make her feel bad about herself, not just someone who enjoys kissing her yknow???

#like i ship them in theory i guess but only if pj like. gets way better about things #bc i love and relate to hazel way too much to ship her with anyone who does not SHOWER HER WITH THE LOVE AND APPRECIATION SHE DESERVES #as someone who has had many ex friends in the past who have been dicks to me and tried to laugh it off to the point where #i felt like i just deserved it... no honey you deserve better #anyway this is incoherent sorry we're also a little blurry but those are just my thoughts #anyway loved the movie tho my only real complaint about it was the total lack of trans people #win rambles #not putting this in the tag tho bc it's just my own thoughts for any of my followers who saw the movie and care to read #or if you didnt' and just wanna know bc this IS a thing with other ships too #jonmartin comes to mind #which i love those two bc they developed well but in season one i was horrified that they were the main ship #bc of what a shithead jon was to martin consistently #in that case tho he grew and changed which was good but it still didn't sit well with me for a bit tbh #i just don't like it it makes me think of people who have been shitty to me in the past and made me feel like thats what i deserve #and people shouldn't settle for people who don't make them feel loved and supported and appreciated yknow

[dangaer]

dude how is amnes.ia month almost over.

#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc. #ME CRYING BC I DIDNT GET TO DO HALF OF WHAT I WANTED BC i am a.) a fool and b.) easily distracted #i was going to post hcs and maybe one drabble of a day if i got enough muse for it #i was originally gonna play a route for the whole of the month and match up to the days but even then ... my switch is dying #i think i might play amnesi.a later next month instead. i gotta give it a shot but also .... ive had it for a year omg #maybe ill do a non shin route but knowing me: my unfinished shin playthrough sitting on the og game on switch #anyway i will save up to my next amnesia holiday. shins birthday #november ... just you wait #TBD #sorry for being rlly neg on this blog recently!! ive got a coupl of things i wanna do on my other blog but then im going back on track<3

[n0ct0urn1quet]

god. i hate socializing and i hate talking to people . why cant i just look at someone i wanna be friends with and go hey ur cool let's be friends now

#i need . Friends. Desperately #but also i hate. HATE talkikign to people because i never have like. naything to talk about. ever #im in a gc with like ~7 other ppl who i was irl friends with at one point #and GOD. i wanna talk to all of them again #one of them reached out to me a while back n she and i talked but i just didnt. know. what to say #i am so used to talking to my gf and my best friend who ive known for several YEARS that when i try to talk to someone new #or someone i havent spoken to in a while im just like . okay. i have to act normal and not weird #i cant keysmash in response to everything they say i actually have to say WORDS. or else theyll be like . huh #and then it gets to a point where im just like ogh i dont know what eo even say anymore but i wanna keep this conversation Going #but then i just dont . say anything. and they dont say anything. and we go silent again for another couple months #recently lso i noticed one of my old old internet friends started being online on discord again #and i wa lsike oh my gOD its THEM!!!!!! i havent talked to them in like. 2 ish years? maybe longer? #but. idk. i didnt reach out to them. bc i was like. what if they dont remember me #thats another thing i feel like i come across old internet friends on here sometimes on tumblr and im just like oh i remember you but #ive switched accounts and changed usernames so many different times that im just like. oh. you probably dont remember me #and even if i told you who i was. that i was so-and-so from 4 years ago. you wouldn't remember me. so oh well!!!!! #so now im just . sitting here <33 i want friends but making them is hard and keeping them is even harder . dies

[nomaishuttle]

sometimes u put yr playlist on shuffle a song comes up and you have to put another song in the queue immediately as soon as it comes on bc it makes you think of that song

#this is abt aura by ghost and pals Sry everytime i hear it im like a fiddle This is just like devil went down to georgia and then i have to #put devil went down to georgia in the queue #i think its a fiddle innit.. it sounds like a fiddle but im also NOTORIOUSLY bad at telling instruments apart. <- guy who once couldnt tell #if something was a guitar or a piano i actually rly rly rly rly dont wanna get into it okay. #i guess you didnt know it but i am a fiddle player too 😏😏 #sry. the other thing this post is abt is kiss me and ladies in their sensibilities sweeney. obviously those r connected #but if ladies in their sensibilities comes on by itself i quite literally couldnt be assed so everytime i have to put kiss me on instead an #add lits to the queue. bc them together is like the best song i ever heard its just that the beginning of lits is just kind of boring It #does get stuck i my head sometimes but the supreme part is the end thats Basically just a reprise of kiss me #but also theyre kind of the same song anyways at least o wowww i was just typing in tempo with the fiddle that was awesome. at least on the #2012 soundtrack aka the best one talk to the hand or dont i dont wanna hear it. well i do want to hear it it being the 2012 london cast #recording of sweeney todd starring michael ball and imelda staunton. ANYWAYS!! in that one the songs lead in to eachother #ive listened to all the other soundtracks but idr if they do that.. well ill tell u the movie doesnt bc it doesnt have kiss me. which is #just so. the johanna anthony romance doesnt rly have much substance in the first place and yr taking away like. their duet together. ok.... #AND yr taking away the end part of lits? the best part of that song? whatever its fine its fine. #if anybody is curious my ranking of casts is 2012 > obc > movie > 2006 i fucking hate 2006 or 2005 or whatever i hate it sm it makes my #blood literally boil im sry. i fucking LOATHE it idk what it is well i do but this post is already 5000000 years long. idt the new one is #out fully yet... i was ok with the songs i have heard but idk where id rank it yet. i should prolly check if the full things out yet omg so #me and my lampstie (way of saying my siblings name if theres something deeply wrong with you) can listen :]