#or see how my parents react to it

[flareboi]

what if purple never calls him dad

#what if the word ‘dad’ is something purple doesn’t like. #what if it carries a bad connotation for them and a bitter reminder for mango. #family doesnt always have to look like one thing yknow? i dont think those two would have a traditional dynamic in that way #maybe purple does consider him their parent. they just dont call him ‘dad’ unless its in third person #and theyre fine with that and so is he #king is his father figure yes but he’s also a mom. a big brother. a sister. their dynamic just isnt captured in purple calling him ‘dad’ #maybe his name is the best way they can say it. the best way they can appreciate him #because for purple a father is someone who hurts you. someone who leaves you #i think ‘purple calls him dad on accident’ is a cute idea #but honestly it would make more sense if they called him mom on accident instead. or if it happened when they were afraid. not comfortable #(this is presuming orchid is his mother and navy his father based on the pronouns used in the react vids iirc) #because why would purple refer to someone he sees as a parent with the title of the one that presumably did not raise them? #and on mangos end #i think u can kinda tell who in this fandom has never lost a loved one in how they characterize him #guys. grief doesnt leave. it never leaves. #you just learn to live with it!!! #mango is not okay just because he has a new kid to take care of. i would know this my bio mom passed and i have a stepmother!!! #she does not fill that void and i do not expect her to because it cannot be filled. but she brings a lot new to ease the pain and is a #wonderful part of my life #the same thing here #mango will never ever just .. go back to how he was #he will never be the same since gold died. and thats okay #purple will not change that. they will merely add something new #their dynamic can be beautiful and nontraditional and a showing of how grief can change you #it doesnt have to be ‘replacement dad and replacement son’ #its so much more #oke. tag rant over #fett rambles #ava #uhh should i tag the chars

[sysig]

Second request: baby todd and Jake fluff perhaps? 💖

Day 12 - Little hands, my one weakness

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Edgar #Jake #Todd #Uncle Jake! :D #It's funny ♪ I actually asked how Jake might react to baby Todd while I was still making a bunch of those doodles #But I never actually drew anything from it! Even though it's so cute! #I did fully intend to - so I'm glad I can now! :D Thanks for the reminder haha #Jake so nervous with Just how baby this baby is haha - he's so much bigger than this little one! #It's all well and good to hold Edgar - he's an adult! As much as he wants to give him a good hug haha #But little ones are just so fragile! It's nerve-wracking ♥ It's sweet hehe 💕 #Babies are built tough - he'll be asking for uppies and spins and to be thrown around before you know it lol #I do love the idea of Edgar having not only a good support system as a single(?) parent - #Being able to ask Devi and Jake for help when he needs it and raises a family as a group! It takes a village #But also of him settling into the parent role and being confident in places that others aren't #He can be quite capable but he's also often prone to being kicked while he's down haha poor lad #Seeing him confident and happy to have someone to rely on and have Jake defer to him on I just jfdlsafjd ♥💕💖 #Directing his hands in return <3 They uplift each other!! It can be so sweet

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like??? #this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms. #but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

[basingstokemercury]

"being expected to get a job and help pull my own weight as an adult while knowing I lack the skills for anything interesting and slack off if not endanger myself and others when bored is making me actively suicidal" sounds so textbook manipulative how can I ever try explaining that to my parents

Well I am lazy and probably manipulative so it's not all that surprising I guess

#when I was fourteen I couldn't see myself ever being an adult #turns out fourteen-year-old me was right I can't be one #no idea how my parents would react if they knew how big an underestimate 'you're acting depressed' were but I can't put that on them #it'd just feel like guilting and probably get too much attention that can't actually help

[glitter50000]

Fic inspiration

Ulla ducks her head and gives a humorless chuckle. “It was never the mother, was it?” 

Her father regards her with a pained smile. “No, it wasn’t.” 

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He loved Ulla, truly, grey skin and all, she was still his child. Her laughs and giggles would fill the air with a joyous melody. He knew Ulla showed more promise as a baby than most sildroher ever have during that age. 

On dark days a small, ugly part of him thinks of taking her back to shore, finding her birth mother, and thrusting the baby in her hands without a word as she did him, never visiting again. 

During the times when Ulla’s wails would bounce across the walls and make the flowers shrivel and rot. He didn’t have a problem with it, she had a strong voice after all, but when the others complained it was a different story. How they glared at the two of them or sneered at the baby for the tone of her cries. 

The times when his wife would look at Ulla with an odd look, something akin to fear, repulsion, or pity. When that specific look would be on him instead. He remembers squashing down the hurt at the time she recoiled at Ulla reaching her little hands out to her or having just stood there as the baby cried. 

He would never want to give Ulla away though, for he never regrets her in the first place. 

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“You can hold her if you want.” 

She’s broken out of some trance by his voice as he comes over to the crib. He chuckles a little at that, recalling the occasions when she would hold Ulla with a smile on her face, entertaining her with a song almost as if she forgets about the baby’s heritage. Though now it seems she remembers the other half. 

“She won’t bite,” he says amusedly. 

“I know that,” she mumbles, glancing at Ulla’s tail and his. He sighs and moves to pick Ulla up instead, scooping her up in his arms. 

“You must think I’m a whore.” He tells her bluntly. Sometimes he sees her looking at him with what could be a trace of disgust. Remembers how uncomfortable she seemed when they were courting each other and she first met Ulla and he confided in her about Ulla’s true parentage. Still, she wanted to marry him and look after her like she was her own, despite it all. 

“What,” she’s taken aback, “no, no I don’t think that's all, it’s just…” she trails off, gripping the edges of the crib tightly. It’s silent for a moment before his wife speaks again. 

“I wish she had been mine.” She whispers.

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He still thinks about her at times, the shadow summoner, either with anger or nostalgia. Looking back to when she made him sing symphonies during their lovemaking.

Sometimes he wonders if he ever would’ve met Ulla had she not been born with a tail. Or would she have taken her away wherever she went and he would still be waiting for the bell to ring? 

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Brave little Ulla. Coming home on the bad days when there’s too much teasing with tears in her eyes, yet still acting strong and holding her head high. 

#You know if someone gets inspired to make this an actual fic or something I wouldn’t mind #Cause I’ve had scenes like these stuck in my head and I would make the fic myself but for the love of god I cannot figure out a way #To stitch these together and also I’m stuck on how to end it like I know someone could write this better then me #Me looking at Ulla’s parents: oh they could be sooo dysfunctional #Rereading wwsf and seeing how the sildroher say it’s the mom who went up and slept with a human when it was actually her dad who did that #Is kinda humorous but also I’m like “how could I make this angsty” #Cause the sildrohers saw humans as beneath them so he’s probably over here like “they don’t know I literally slept with a human” #I was gonna have a line talking about how Ulla’s cries could be so desperate and loud the song filled people with grief and they hated it #And that when sildroher babies cried the songs were melancholy and made ppl’s heart ache and Ulla’s wasn’t always like that #but I was having trouble wording it to fit #Also I like the idea of the mother meeting him after he’s taking care of Ulla cause I think that could give for some fun potential #just thinking about how her mom treats Ulla makes me feral #This all started when I reread wwsf and saw how the her parents especially her dad reacted to Ulla wanting to go ashore #Got the cogs turning you know #grishaverse #the language of thorns #when water sang fire #ulla morozova #my wriitng

[redysetdare]

It's such a insignificant thing in the grand scheme of things but it absolutely sucks to see a similar experience to your own trauma in media only to watch as fandom completely ignores it and butchers it acting like it's "not that bad" or even acting like it's good. they erase all the parts that you related to because they don't want to view it in that way.

and I can't speak up or get upset because "Fanon doesn't affect canon". but how people react to and treat canon effects me. If they treat it like that in fiction how will they treat me? I can't speak up without revealing something so personal to me that I've seen people invalidate over and over again. I don't feel like I'm asking for much when I ask for people to pause and look at how they feel, react to, and treat certain experiences in fandom spaces.

#text #trauma #this is about family trauma #no reblogs because it's so very personal to me and I try not to talk about it much #the amount of experiences I've seen that mirror my own in media #that the fandom turns into “tough love” or “look see their parents love them so it's not toxic/abusive at all!” #i know this is probably just a me problem #it still sucks tho #it sucks a lot to relate to something so heavily only to see it publicly torn apart #not to mention how fandom reacts can often effect how canon treats it in the future...so much media has access to fandom spaces #I watched my experience fade into the background and get forgotten because the creators interacted with fandom #idk it hurts a lot to see something so personal to you treated as so unimportant #to watch it be invalidated right in front of you #to feel like you cant speak up without revealing something so personal that so many have already invalidated #idk i dont have a point #i'm mostly just thinking about previous fandom experiences with this sort of thing #and how it's really effected how i interact in fandom and how i view fanon in general

[pepprs]

i will shut up abt this i promise but like. the concept of being in a stable safe mutually loving whatever relationship is INSANE . like how can you ever feel bad about yourself or wounded or whatever again. it’s like a superpower or somethi ng. <- doesn’t know what she’s taking abt bc she’s never experienced it or the absence of it after having it merely the negative space of it and is filling in the gaps w logic or something. but it’s INSANE to me. like of course i feel like shit about myself i am catcrumb unloved.jpg!

#purrs #imbeing insane about it i know it’s not that simple / reductive and i will still feel like shit abt myself once im in a relationshp (if i #get to be ♥️) and there are lots of other legitimate reasons to feel shit agtbyiurself. but it’s like no ficking wonder i feel inadequate i #am a 24 year old who lives at home and has never held a hand or whatever next to two 50sometjinf year old married men with pets and phds. of #course i am going to feel inadequate and stupid and lonely. like i canttttt 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 and th w worst part is you can’t just go out into #the world saying that and looking for that it has to find you so i will not join any dating apps or whatever but i don’t fucking go anywhere #so im not going to meet anyone and i knowi am so young and stupid and just having a horrible day that is reminding me of horrors. but the #way i am mentally shoving my whole fist in my mouth. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT I DONT HAVE A LIFE PARTNER!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE THAT #SAFETY AND STABILITY AND TRUST AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!!!!! AND I NEVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #delete later #like this is what makes me crazy abt parents and kids too and whyi don’t think ihave kids. bc i think (and i know this is wrong / unhealthy) #it is a primal human need to be mutually someone else’s number 1 person and when you have kids it’s like you’re gonna love your partner more #than the kids and then the kids (read: me) watch that and get fucked up over it. but also that could just be me reacting to the UNSPEAKABLE #psychological damage of being a twin. which again is ridiculous bc it’s n out like abuse i just had to share something with someone else si #since before i was born and ofc there was more like actually kind of abusive stuff on top of it LOL but that aside. idk what im saying i #just feel so crazy. the amount of composure it takes me every day to not start SCREAMING with frustration and envy when i see ppl being #RIGHTFULLY DESERVEDLY visibly confident and loved. like ok valentines grinch go sit in the drainage pond forever please. but it’s so crazy #like how are you supposed to go through the world unaware of how much love you’re missing out on because you’re young and then you realize I #it and then somehow you miss the train and you are scared you are going to d*e alone ♥️ im normal

[nitro502]

I did it. I just posted my coming out post on Facebook. This is scary but so exciting.

#let’s see how many people still call me she after this #no idea how my parents are gonna react #or if my mom will put two and two together and realize I’m not gonna wear a dress to my aunt’s wedding in September #I’d hate having to bring it up myself #but it’s getting close and my attire needs to be addressed #me ranting

[snackugaki]

...

ah

realized I missed a chance to genuinely record my initial reactions to the 03/07/12/14/Rise turtles as a first gen fan like how I’ve seen the kids recording their reactions to the 87 cartoon, 90s movies, and the  brave and foolish rare ones who are intentionally watching Next Mutation

#which has been fucking HILARIOUS #the incredulity is delicious #them finding out where the easter eggs were? joyful #the cries of: this is where that came from????? melodious #i'm so entertained #seeing how the new gen fans feel about my childhood turtles #and i'm so curious if the kids ever wonder how the old fans would react #give or take the ones whose parents were/are fans #i still could but... #it just won't have that fresh-out-the-oven je ne c'est quoi

[hydesjackiespuddinpop]

And what if I say Nikki Velasco is a lesbian experiencing comphet in s1? What'll happen?

#that 90s show #nikki my beloved #nikki velasco #lesbian nikki velasco #lesbian #pride headcanons #I see her as bi but this concept >>>> #Nikki being top of her class and a powerhouse #her parents having expectations of her being a doctor #when she wants something else #and it makes her wonder how they'd react to their daughter being gay #so she uses Nate as a way to seem “straight” to her parents

[makkie-is-screaming]

I’m tired of this disorder but It’s the only bit of control that I have

#Which doesn’t make sense bc logically I know I’m not in control #I was reading articles on how to tell your parents you have an eating disorder and it made my heart race so much I could feel it in my eyes #I know I’m destroying my body I’m underweight and not menstruating but it’s my main coping mechanism #and it would be so embarrassing to tell my parents like yeah no one noticed and I don’t technically fit anorexic or bullmic criteria #but trust I have an eating disorder #Yeah you see me eat but I have a disorder where I restrict food #I’d just sound like I’m lying #and even if the did believe me the chances of them reacting in a helpful way is low #:( #screaming

[dmclemblems]

also something I really love about Dimitri telling Rodrigue that his death would destroy him is that’s finally proof that it was Rodrigue dying that made Dimitri almost go out into a suicide battle in AM.

people have been saying (and actually meaning it, not as a joke) that Byleth just “fixed” Dimitri and that they don’t like how Dimtiri was just “magically cured” because of Byleth.

that was never true. both him wanting to die completely and utterly in that moment when he spoke to Byleth was because he lost all sense of hope when he lost Rodrigue; however, it was also because of Rodrigue’s words to him that he could go on living. Byleth was a deterrent from him going out into a suicide battle because he was so overwhelmed, but he also points out, iirc a couple times post Gronder in AM, that Byleth said the same thing Rodrigue did to him.

when Byleth says anything that seems to “change” him, it’s because it’s something he could think back on as “oh, he said the same thing to me so it must have been the truth if someone else can say the same thing and it wasn’t just because he loved myself and Lambert that he said those things”. basically, Byleth could verify the truth of Rodrigue’s words.

Dimitri also says he ISN’T cured and just “okay”. he tells Byleth directly that what is effectively his mental illness is something that he knows he’ll have to live with for the rest of his life, but that he’s no longer going to let it hold him down. he outright admits his understanding of his issue with the voices of the dead. he knows they may always be there and he knows his aggression due to losing so many loved ones in his life will always haunt him.

the sad thing is I feel like people just pick and choose things they want to see for the sake of argument, and I say that because it’s not even nuance in this case that it’s very clear that Dimitri isn’t just “cured” of his illness. it wasn’t ever something that needed to be looked more deeply into. it was said outright multiple times that Dimitri wasn’t just “cured” or “fixed” or any of that, and it’s also very outright that Byleth wasn’t the one who helped him to see things straight again. it was Rodrigue who opened his eyes (no pun intended) and it was Byleth being there to confirm Rodrigue’s words.

mind you, Byleth spoke to Rodrigue in private one night and Rodrigue shared some personal feelings with Byleth, then said he entrusted the future of Faerghus and Dimitri to Byleth. anything from that point on that Byleth did that helped Dimitri see his way again was because Byleth was keeping true to Rodrigue’s words.

prior to that, nothing Byleth ever did could sway Dimitri. the only person, right from the beginning to the end of the battle at Gronder, who could sway Dimitri or make him waver in his feelings was Rodrigue. he would argue with anyone else in a steadfast way, but when Rodrigue finally had enough and told Dimitri he would listen to him, Dimitri did. considering Dimitri has always seen him as a second father, it makes sense that Dimitri would take that as a scolding from his own father. even in the mental state he was in, he didn’t brush it off as “just someone” telling him those things. he took it to heart and he also thanked Rodrigue, calling him a friend despite his behavior up to that point (which was Ailell).

in other words, Byleth never really had much influence at all on Dimitri’s recovery until he lost Rodrigue. it highlights quite well imo that Dimitri truly saw Rodrigue as his own father. if Lambert had been there to speak to him similarly, Dimitri would have reacted similarly. he might have argued, but at the end of the day he was still affected by what he was told.

essentially Byleth was like a proxy for Dimitri after he lost Rodrigue. it was like all of Rodrigue’s wishes were within Byleth now because Rodrigue felt he could trust Byleth, and that got through to Dimitri (and it also helped that Byleth and Rodrigue see things similarly, as highlighted by them saying very similar things to Dimitri but prior to Gronder, Dimitri only listened if Rodrigue was the one to say something). it was not directly Byleth, but because it was like Rodrigue’s feelings for Dimitri were now within Byleth.

I just really feel like people looked right over the head of their relationship in Houses and just how much it meant to Dimitri. their relationship could make or break him and it did both. Hopes helped to emphasize how powerful their bond is and gives you more context into how and why he lost his will to live when Rodrigue died at Gronder. obviously Byleth is important to him, but Rodrigue has been with Dimitri for Dimitri’s entire life and wasn’t someone his age - he was a respected adult and the man who protected Faerghus for five straight years from the Empire when Dimitri had to flee and couldn’t be the one to do that. he respects the other adults in Faerghus, but even in Hopes it’s very clear that he doesn’t view Matthias or Gilbert as a father figure. Gilbert has a bit more on Matthias there, but Rodrigue is extremely special to Dimitri and as much a father to him as Lambert was.

#Three Houses #Three Hopes #Dimitri #Rodrigue #Byleth #also like the way he reacts to Rodrigue related things is similar to how he is about Lambert and Patricia #he reacts equally as powerfully when it has to do with any of them #he has the same feelings for all of them and there's no way one single person he knew for six-ish years #would be able to sway him the way a father figure he knew his entire life could have #Byleth is important to him but there's no replacing the words or love Rodrigue gave to him #when Byleth is the one to say the same things Rodrigue did #to him it affirmed those words and it also opened up a new level of trust between himself and Byleth #but there was never any replacing of the thoughts and feelings he and Rodrigue shared #those two are like the fucking definition of found family and or adoptive child bc like #irl you see parents who get protective over their kids and kids who will become angry in their parents' stead #like irl when people say something incorrect about my family I WILL defend them and they're my blood family #but Dimi and Rodrigue have the exact same emotional attachment so their bond is equally as powerful as blood family #and I also love that bc it shows just how strong formed relationships can be that aren't formed by blood #Rodrigue is his father like... it's really that simple. he doesn't have to sign adoption papers to call him his son!

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

"It's a double-feature," Randall smiled as they walked together, hands in his pockets as he felt the early evening breeze brushing against his cheeks. "First, Dracula A.D. 1972, then its sequel, The Satanic Rites of Dracula!"

He'd seen them both, of course; he'd seen movies (be them double bills or not) multiple times down at the little second run theater, partly because it was a good way of staying cool on a hot New Orleans day, partly because he didn't mind seeing these movies more than once. He quite enjoyed the British horrors-he had to say, in the long run, Universal was probably his favorite home of horror, but Hammer was by no means bad in the least.

(Admittedly, he did wish the theater was running Horror of Dracula and Brides of Dracula back to back, just because the latter film was more romantic, but oh well...)

Sensing her discomfort, however, Randall asked gently, "Is that alright?" He hoped she wasn't uncomfortable at the double-feature; she said she liked horror, and so he hoped she'd like these films too, they were an awful lot of fun...even if he did wish he had just one iota of Christopher Lee's charisma and presence...

#((exactly! so long as the paces have each other; they can make it through anything!)) #((y'know it's a bit like what stitch said: 'this is my family. it's little and broken but good. yeah; still good'!)) #((also: i just want to say that i'm really looking forward to this next installment of 'family reunion'!)) #((i'm really excited to stretch my muscles by exploring previously-unseen characters)) #((such as wilhelm's brothers and june's parents; i'm looking forward to getting a feel for their personalities)) #((and seeing how they interact with this newest generation of paces!)) #((i think there's gonna be a bit of tension between randall and his grandparents at first)) #((having never met them; unsure of how they'll react to having an irish son-in-law/part irish grandchildren)) #((but in the long run there won't be anything to worry about-they'll be surprised at first)) #((but they'll still gladly accept their grandson and his children!)) #((and of course wilhelm's brothers are going to be very rambunctious and fun!)) #((it's gonna be a good time!)) #outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Dark Shadows

[introvert-celeste]

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#vent #so apparently my dad has been getting into alpha male bigoted bullshit and has starting spouting it at my mom #and he's been making transphobic comments and getting mad when my mom doesn't agree with him #saying shit like 'im the head of the household and i won't let you say things I don't agree with' #and saying that she'll corrupt my brother with her 'agenda' #my brother is autistic and both of my parents kind of baby him but he's fucking 23 we can speak together as adults here ffs #and my mom is completely neutral these topics because they have nothing to do with her #i can't imagine how he'd react if i told him I'm a queer atheist who fully supports trans people #it's so deeply disappointing to see him falling down this ignorant rabbit hole #he was never super open minded but at least he recognized some people just live differently and it's not his place to judge #the fact that he's been verbally abusing my mom more and more lately is bad enough without the transphobia

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

indefinite hiatus from tumblr [where 'indefinite' does not mean 'forever', merely 'a week? two weeks? a month? who even knows at this point']

still be available for DMs for a bit at least, but I'll not be checking my notifications or dash. tag me if you want me to see something in ??? time :)

love y'all

#been thinking about this for a bit anyhow #hopefully by the time i return i will have my life together! ha. ha. #hopefuly by the time i return i will have a cat. i have no idea of the likelihood of this #edit oh look the tags are becoming a mess #tw sh #tw suicide #16% mortality rate they say #i want to die and i want to harm and i don't want to eat ever again pls and thankyou <3 but i will be fine. #for some definition of fine #and yeah not taking a hiatus from discord yet tho i probably will in a bit #i don't even know lol im just here and existing and not wanting to be #i found a knife in my room i didn't know i had when i was cleaning up stuff. i gave it to my mum tho so there's nothin in my room etc #i mean. not like i don't know ways to harm and/or die with what i do have. thanks brain. but a) messy and b) parents would notice #honestly tho i do not see myself surviving until my twenty-first birthday. i just don't. not without at the very least a stint in a psych #hospital. which i DO NOT WANT if i can help it #but how to get that across to parents i wonder. they know about almost everything (almost). #they vaguely know im somewhat suicidal. but not to the extent it is. nor about the actual attempt. and that i shall not tell them. based on #the way they reacted to hearing i harm. nope. not telling them that. #anyway! can you tell i need a break from things xP #personal #just. yknow. keep me in your prayers #also yeah if anyone wants my discord just DM me for it

[amatres]

do i like to think about balaerra and astar. actually managing to be lamer versions of the brairwoods for baldurs gate? yes. do i also like to imagine that they eventually get their shit wrecked? yes

#ama mumbles #more specifically i like to think about how the tiefling kids would eventually have to react to it #arabella saying she only trusts her parents and balaerra and then... having to kill her? ignore me #theyre horrible you see and i love to imagine them 'winning' and losing #i will not feel ashamed of this i will have fun with my evil mind barbies